#people mocking me irl

[shadowoftheuncrowned]

I woke up and I am angry.

Whenever I say I like Gortash, people are always like :"eww how could you"

Without wanting to read or know about his story? I am sorry Larian cut most of his content from Act3. He had great potential. Even the story we know and have to search ourselves in letters, diaries, etc is deep and touching enough.

He turned out pretty ok for what he has been through.

-His mother hates him to this day and wished she k-lled him in the womb

-She says he was a needy kid(every kid is needy and requires love and attention)

-His parents sold him to Raphael to pay off a petty debt. Is this what your son's life is worth?

-He was forced to live and work in the House of Hope since he was a kid, witness Raphael shitting in the middle of the hallway, clean their yucky boudoir and see whatever Harleep was up to

-That gnome in the House of Hope was beating him up everyday for fun since a human kid is smaller than a petty deep gnome (drow hatred towards gnomes intensifies)

-His mother says he was always tinkering something ever since he was little, so he just wanted to craft

-All of the other gods ignored his prayers in Avernus, except for Bane. Gortash was not a debtor and was not supposed to be there in the first place.

-Despite all of that, he found ambition and will to live, wanting to rule, experiment, deciphered the Mind flayer language by himself, and created the whole plot. Enslaving people, being an arms dealer, etc is not ok ofcourse. I am just stating that the fact he had motivations, ambitions and creative genius still, no matter if they were evil.

-He kind of wanted to create a peaceful life for himself, even through tyranny. And for Durge probably too because they talk about their mutual "dream"

-Just when his dream plan seemed certain, Durge, who I believe is his soulmate, no matter if people believe they were in a relationship or not, disappears. I am sure Durge was the only person who could kind of understand him.

Go on, talk about how Astarion was a bigger victim. Not saying his story is not good or anything. But at least he had a normal life before Cazador and was a grown up man when he had his hardships.

Yeh. That's it.

[eclaire-went-bam]

bcs i'm aware of how i automatically percieve people, i earnestly try to give the benefit of the doubt a lot. i tend to believe people are Actually Just That Dumb™ when they're joking about something, so i try to get ahead of that & tell myself people are joking when they say something stupid, so that i don't look stupid

all i've learnt in doing that, is most of the time, people aren't joking. they actually did mean what they say, & i made the situation 10× worse by laughing at what they said.

not only does it reinforce the idea in my head that people are Dumb so i need to take the reins on literally Everything, but it also leads people to believe i'm making fun of them for saying something silly & talking to me less, when, if i knew it were a genuine thing they thought, i would have gladly explained it without judgement

but i don't really know how to stop treating them as jokes, because what if they ARE joking so they laugh at me for how Stupid i am for taking the bait? i can't handle being made a fool of, i think i'd rather die

[machiavellli]

had a very weird dream.

[yippie-madness]

recurrent thoughts of cutting my vocal cords out but unfortunately i would die before i could. sigh.

[kirstythejetblackgoldfish]

RT said he’s gonna start a podcast🤯?!!

Sadly, it's not the real RT account, it's a parody account

It sounds realistic because of the NYT Saif podcast, but it's not real

If he comes back, it'll be in a way that is undeniable

OK, let's have some fun:

If he did a podcast, who would he be interviewing, or would he just be talking by himself?

[ghwosty]

sometimes i miss how i engaged with my interests before i started being more online, there was a purity and authenticity to it

[lesbiansanemi]

Things to make me lie down and contemplate everything. 400 ppl liking my writing enough that they want a notification when there’s something new

[nthflower]

Tumblr is always like social norms are evil and stupid and hurt people that doesn't fit in (which is extremely true and I say this all the time too)

But the moment someone do something here stupid everybody is like turn into hive mind and bully them.(not racism or bigoted stuff like terfs idk I am talking about just weird things)

Like people preach be yourself, current social norms are fucked up then mock you for not following Tumblr culture or whatever.

[lilac-melody]

hnm.

[atlasisntdead]

Eww had a dream that I gave some girl IRL my tumblr and she was standing there inspecting it like "uhh trans guy...really???" then I was like "keep it down cmon not here, but yeah" and she apparently saw something about me being against ableism and went "what lol you care about that just cuz you were temporarily physically disabled" and I said "no like, for mental disabilities, tho yeah physical too". Then she messaged me and apparently we texted before where she sent me some pics of us bcz we've known each other since childhood??? And when she texted in the present she still misgendered me lol. This wins 'Most mortifying, uncomfortable and awkward dream ever' reward

[cat-madhouse]

I think

I think that me thinking I'm a compulsive manipulator for most of my "aware life" has something to do with the tism

[half-blessed]

honestly the number one thing you will never see on my blogs is stuff like. 'lol they talk like a redditor' or 'ohhh you're so dumb you should know that meme/trend/whatever the fuck is uncool and stupid by now'. which is prevalent in all social media and real life and also on tumblr by extension.

I see the Pattern on Tumblr. ____ is so cool -> eewwww you still like ____? I'm not going to act like it's some moral fault that someone couldn't keep up with the trend. or if they know its passed and still like it. I never knew dog metaphors were. like a popular genre of post or something? then (some long amount of time ago, I don't remember) I see a wave of posts on how you're sooo dumb if you like dog metaphors because it's soooo last week. huh? idgaf sorry 😐

and with saying someone talks like a redditor, it always kind of irks me since like. it's so hard to talk. it's so hard. and it's hard to switch between the different 'correct' ways to talk online, the correct punctuations and phrases and memes and such. all the required online social conventions are ARBITRARY! if someone says something kind/normal/unharmful using memes and phrases that are popular on reddit, is there any real reason to give them unjust backlash? it just feels mean to me. -_- I usually try to speak online very plainly because I feel like I will be 'caught' and mocked if I say something that is correct in substance but in an unfashionable/untrendy way.

the point of this post is that I feel like a lot of Tumblr is very like. 'cringe culture is dead!' 'look, we go against social norms!' while at the same time enforcing social norms, just like... Tumblr specific social media-style social norms. and that putting someone on blast in a popular Tumblr post for... Not picking up on the social cues that a joke is over? or even.. not being cued into your specific blogging circle's in-jokes or out-jokes? is in my opinion pretty immature.

[lucaniisdellamorte]

pacing my cage thinking about Lucanis' questline tbh

whoops spoilers in the tags

[spiderbitesandvampirevenom]

iunno y'all. as a trans woman of color who has dealt with racism, sexual violence, and (internalized) transmisogyny directed at me from white trans women both online and IRL, i do think dismissing criticism of white trans women unilaterally as baseless transmisogyny is actually a problem.

like you get how mocking people pointing out racial privilege and disregarding their concerns does make you and the community you belong to look racist to the people of color around you, right? especially when y'all loooove to bust out the racism as long as you can prove they're one of the bad ones. cut the smokescreening and just say it with your chest cracker.

[nightmarish-fallen-angel]

There's something especially biting about people telling transmascs specifically to unpack their misogyny.

After so long of being yelled at or berated by my mother. Looked at with disgust for not shaving my legs and yelled at when I cut my hair, guilt tripped into wearing makeup, and being told any masculine dress was "not socially acceptable." All things that actively hurt gnc women as well as trans people. All things that are misogynistic to imply women have to do.

Every time I try to come out as trans: "I wish you weren't ashamed of your femininity, I'm so heartbroken that you hate women. You're only trying to become a man because you think women are inferior." Following it up with a "why can't you express yourself as you are and just be a gnc woman..." As if she didn't just mock me for those exact traits.

My mother, and by extension TERFs (as my mother is one), constantly imply that the only reason transmasculine people exist is because they are poor little girls who struggle with internalized misogyny. They need to embrace being the gnc women they truly are~ And the gnc women need to fix their internalized misogyny by being more feminine~

So imagine my frustration when the communities I assume to be safe for trans people (both irl and online) hit me with the "transmascs need to unpack their misogyny :/" "a surprising number of transmascs are misogynistic actually :/"

Everyone needs to unpack their misogyny dipshit. The fact that transmascs are singled out specifically leads me to conclude one (or both) of two things:

You have encountered a shitty transmasc person and have taken it upon yourself to decide that the entire transmasc community is like that. I'm not saying misogynistic transmascs don't exist, but if you see someone with a bigoted worldview and go "well this is indicative of the entire community" you are the problem.

You think transmascs are misogynistic for getting gender dysphoria around things that are feminine or conversely, they are misogynistic for getting euphoria around masculinity. This is just straight up punishing trans people for being true to themselves.

Both of these are transphobic arguments and are common TERF tactics to discredit trans people. I do not trust you if you hold the opinion that misogyny is more prevalent in transmasculine spaces than in society at large.

[skypalacearchitect]

I disagree with the Olaf part, but the rest of it is SO on-point.

It’s fine to sing “There’ll be actual real-life people” about a ball happening, because obviously the servants already present aren’t actual real-life people

What Frozen taught us:

Wiping a kid’s memory of a life-altering accident is totally a right thing to do! Why would you want a child to learn from their experience anyway?

Locking away your other traumatized child and hoping she gets better by herself is totally not parental abuse.

An orphan kid can hang around people with dangerous job unsupervised.

When said kid wanders off and goes missing, no-one has to look for them. 

If you have no friends and no interests beyond harassing your sister, you’re gonna grow up fine, just a little bit awkward and adorably quirky.

A kingdom with underage successors to the throne governs itself, unless the plot says otherwise.

Regency is not a thing.

The last heir left in line to the throne is totally free to leave the kingdom and personally look for their runaway older sibling instead of staying home and securing the royal line.

Said last successor to the crown can somehow leave the kingdom in hands of a random foreigner guy.

Regency is still not a thing.

Running away from your royal responsibilities makes you cool and inspiring, as long as you sing a song about it.

Ice-control powers can create life from scratch.

If your son brings a woman home for the first time, you force her on him as a potential wife.

Forcing them on each other is prior even to saving said woman from dying right in front of you.

It doesn’t matter what either or them thinks about it and if she has a different partner already.

You can be a day-old magical snowman who doesn’t know what heat is, but you have better understanding of love than grown-up humans.

When a random foreigner guy says the last successor to the throne has died and left the kingdom to him, it is not necessary to check the corpse and require any evidence from him.

Regency is STILL not a thing.

Vaguely-defined “love” instantly cures life-long depression and anxiety.

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