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pacing my cage thinking about Lucanis' questline tbh
whoops spoilers in the tags
#kit plays da:v#like my big problem is that#zara wasn't really a big deal?#in like a she wasn't really as big of a threat#and like had a much smaller part to play way#yeah lucanis wants to kill her and rightfully so for everything at the ossuary#but then she loses her prize...science experiment I guess and does nothing?#at then end of tevinter nights I felt like she hated this man#for killing venetori and was going to go after his family as pay back#so all I keep thinking about is what if she had#what if she did kill catarina as punishment for lucanis escaping#wait that reminds me do people who didn't read that story#understand why she was bathing in blood in the game#I've only played through the game once so far#and even then I haven't finished yet because of irl obligations#but did she mention it? was there a codex entry maybe?#idr and important things getting shoved into a single codex entry bothers me SO#zara kills catarina which already makes her more of a threat#maybe we get a fun little show of zara using catarina's blood to keep herself young#then maybe you fight her and then illario joins in and it feels like he's helping#but oh no oops whoops illario accidentally lets her get away#such a shame too bad guess all we can do is plan catarina's real funeral this time for sure#then maybe that leads to lucanis opening up a little more about his life with catarina and his feelings about her#then it can be all about tracking zara down with illario being shady#maybe fledglings are going missing the closer you get to that quest#because she was bathing in blood but like where did all that come from#did she have imported or#anyway here she's killing crows to mock lucanis and possibly rook#then you fight her again and it goes like in game#maybe with extra little jabs about possibly doing the same to rook as she did to catarina depending on relationship status
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this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.
good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.
sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.
so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.
one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.
#warm up#writeblr#actually this is because again i don't go here#i don't read/write fanfic but i have nothing but respect for my troops#but i also have never played minecraft. im sorry. please ask me any question about pokemon tho i love that shit#anyway#out of some banal and thoughtless curiosity i watched the minecraft movie trailer#and again i know nothing about minecraft. i am aware im in an endangered population#but im watching this going: this is so fucking.... BAD#there is NO LOVE in it!#like if someone who has NO history in minecraft watches that and is like - ohhh this is soulless#WHO IS THE AUDIENCE????#ppl who love minecraft are gonna hate it!!!#at some point it's the ''mean girls musical movie'' problem --#some people will always hate the premise of what you're doing and some people will love it#make it for the ppl who love it#and usually that somewhat convinces the haters to like. chill enough to TRY it . bc it IS good#but when you try to make it for the haters..... nobody likes it. it doesn't have passion. energy. footwork#which is a small way of saying a big thing: if you love something. fucking make it and assume someone will love it too.#i love u . be brave . be bold. be in boston and come to my reading#where i wrote a really weird fucked up little book.#love u love u love u etc
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"I've been waiting for ages for somebody to unmask them."
This moment tends to elicit negative reactions in a first read through, and I've got some opinions about why where Kabru is coming from here actually makes a lot of logical sense. So I thought I'd elaborate on that.
I think people hear this and go, "He thinks they must be hiding something because they gave money to someone? What a cynic." Or "he dislikes them because they did charity?? What's wrong with this guy!". And obviously, a lot, a lot is wrong with him. But I think this makes more sense than it seems at first glance! What people evaluating this judgement miss is why Kabru is paying attention to Laios and co to begin with.
Kabru knows of the Touden siblings because (he's a little bit of a stalker-) he is keeping an eye on all the relevant parties in events developing on the island, in order to be able to guide them to his preferred outcome. This includes adventurers because they are the ones actually exploring the dungeon! He's well aware that something as minor as internal tensions between party members could be key to the historical events that are developing. (He would love the assassination of Archduke Franz Ferdinand.)
His desired outcome is that whatever the rewards are of breaking the dungeon's curse, whether that's kingship or the ancient elven secrets of dungeons, are claimed by:
A) a short lived person
B) Someone who will be a good, effective leader and/or use those secrets and the power they carry wisely, with foresight, and to establish a political bloc for short lived people.
The person he can best trust to do this is, of course, himself. But due to his PTSD regarding dungeons and monsters, he's not able to develop the necessary skills to conquer the dungeon. Once he realises this, he starts looking for someone else who he can support to that end.
But most of the adventurers don't have any intentions of conquering the dungeon, don't have the skills, or are unsuitable in other ways. In fact, it seems like some potentially suitable people are the Toudens. There are a lot of good rumours about them going around - they actually seem to have a very positive reputation! That's what Kabru means when he says "unmask".
So when Kabru is observing something like them giving money to an old comrade from their gold-peeling days, he doesn't consider it a problem because "they're giving money to this person who doesn't actually need it" or because they must have some dark secret if they act superficially nice. I think he actually understands this situation and what it implies about Laios (in particular) perfectly well.
Laios and Falin gave money to an old comrade who got injured and couldn't work. That person then healed up but kept taking their money. Then he used the money to start smuggling illicit goods to the island.
The key is that for Kabru, the problem here is the same as with the corpse retrievers - people using the dungeon's resources to fuel dangerous, selfish, or violent pursuits cause problems for the island, attract more criminals and people with motives other than breaking the curse, and increase the chances of the whole situation ending in tragedy.
Kabru is willing to work with the Shadow Lord of the island if it gets him to his goal - he isn't scrupulous - but the criminal element of the island increasing is something he sees as a major issue.
Also, when you're evaluating someone as a candidate for power, riches, secrets, potentially kingship - then being curious about how the money you give to people is going to be used is kind of a relevant trait!
Interpersonally, Kabru's actually very easygoing - I mean, Mickbell isn't exactly an upstanding guy, is he! But Kabru likes him and they get along well. These traits wouldn't be a problem at all in a friend, or a comrade, or someone Kabru was confident he could use. But he can't get a handle on Laios, and Laios is someone who has the potential to be a major player!
On Laios' end, this is the same as with the marriage seeker who joined their party. She kept asking for things and he gave them to her, because he tries to be nice to others. He even gives her money! It's the exact same thing.
That's fine, but it became a problem because he basically wasn't interested in her motives, didn't notice she was trying to manipulate him, and it also didn't occur to him that the other party members would notice or be affected. We can assume the situation with the gold peeler is the same. When Kabru says that "It's not that they're bad people, they just aren't interested in humans," he isn't wrong.
The extent to which this is true of Laios is linked to his autism imo, (because it isn't just disinterest - he genuinely isn't able to notice nonverbal cues that people are lying to him or have ulterior motives) but to a greater or lesser extent I think it's a very common trait. Most people aren't actually that interested in other people who aren't close to them. Kabru is the weird one here. It isn't an issue except as a leader - which is why we see an immediate comparison to the Island's Lord, because that's how Kabru is evaluating them.
And disinterest in/lack of ability with people to the extent Laios exhibits it, it does, actually, make him a worse leader... it's just that as we see in the story, people can help him out. The rest of the party tell him the marriage seeker is taking advantage of him so he tells her he can't give her special treatment anymore. They're pissed and it's a crisis point - he couldn't have recovered their trust without Marcille and Falin - but that's exactly the point. With Marcille and Falin, he was able to recover their trust.
And he has other good traits that make up for it, such as his intelligence, strategic knowledge, open-mindedness and sense of fairplay.
Kabru doesn't disqualify Laios as a candidate based on what he sees about him from afar, though - he still tries very hard to get close to him, obviously hoping that if he manages he can steer Laios to defeat the dungeon and make up for his lack of people-skills in the aftermath. (Which... he does eventually achieve that goal!) He completely fails until the events of the story, so... definitely I think "They just aren't interested in humans" could also partially be a stung reaction to Laios' complete disinterest in him.
Anyway, that's my read on what exactly Kabru's "issue" with Laios is. Obviously, once he does find out what Laios' true nature is like - about his love for monsters - he develops an entirely new set of fears about Laios' priorities. But since Laios kept that a secret until the start of the story, he has no idea of that yet.
Given all that, I think it's interesting that he says that he doesn't think that the Toudens are suitable to defeat the dungeon, and that he's hoping they'll turn out to be the thieves. As some of his few potential candidates, people who he thinks may play a big role in the island's future, you'd think he'd hope they would be good people!
I suppose it's better, in his eyes, because it means that he's involved in something "interesting". They haven't just had their stuff stolen by regular criminals (boring, puts them further away from his goal) - they've been caught up in the beginning stages of "a historic event". The desperate and dwindling group forgetting morals in their quest to retrieve their lost comrade probably appeals to his sense of melodrama. Because he also just... loves drama.
Despite it being "uglier than anything he was expecting", he still pursues Laios as the person he wants to conquer the dungeon pretty much as soon as it becomes clear that he won't be able to do it himself and they are out of time. That's because... well, to be fair, there aren't any other options. And he fits standard A: he's short-lived!
and Kabru still hopes he can fit standard B, too, and be persuaded to use the power he wins for good. No matter how many nightmares he has about Laios, or whether he thinks about killing him. He doubts him, but ultimately he puts his faith in him and seems happy after the manga's ending that he made the right decision.
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#dungeon meshi meta#kabru of utaya#laios touden#labru#laios x kabru#dunmeshi#og post#kabru is such a big picture thinker. and he evaluates people more than he judges them imo#the hater jokes are funny but the people he judges most harshly arent laios and co. they're people like the island's lord.#but you don't see that as clearly because he isn't interested in the island's lord. he understands him. finds him contemptible but useful.#whereas laios lives in his brain rent free because he WANTS to understand him but doesnt quite.#even though he sees the elves as a major threat to his ultimate goals and dislikes the way they treat short lived races#he still understands and evaluates mithrun as an individual based on his own merits#he's one of the characters who is least judgemental in that sense because while he's always making judgements and evaluations#he's also constantly revising them whenever he gets more information#my beautiful machiavellian prince <3#it's genuinely a really laudable way of understanding others imo.#the only problem is that because he's driven towards his goals by his PTSD and survivors guilt#he pushes himself into situations (the dungeon and also interpersonally) that trigger him or even just upset him#without regard for what he authentically wants or his own wellbeing.
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I’ve already said it, I’ll say it again, Mal du Pays is such a visceral and clever word to describe Siffrin’s Sadness. When I first saw it in game it genuinely made me pause like. Yes, it translates to homesickness. But it has the literal word for country in it. “Country sickness”. For a guy whose core problem is that his childhood, his culture, his country is missing. One could argue it’s a twisted pun. I’m obsessed with it.
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#isat siffrin#isat mal du pays#isat fanart#my art#in stars and time spoilers#isat headcanon#not done yapping: like you meet mdp at a point where the Big Problem is the loops and siffrin's fear of being abandonned by the party#and then Mal du Pays shows up and it hits you#thats the core of every fucking issue Siffrin has#his country and how it fucked everything for him#his bad memory making him forget too much and making him feel like a horrible friend and making him think that surely#hell also be forgotten#because hes a bad friend and a mess and is missing half of his fucking life#he holds onto the party with everything he has but also feels an infinite amount of shame about it because Hes A Bad Friend#hea so scared to forget whats important to him just like he forgot his past#just#ough
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repeat after me:
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
tumblr is the reblog website
this is not instagram or whatever other like-based social medium, likes don't matter that much, your experience is not shaped by an all-knowing algorithm, but by you and reblogging is the lifeblood of this godforsaken corner of the internet
if you love tumblr and if you want to show your appreciation for the creators of the content here, you reblog
#tumblr#tumblr woes#reblogging#is this post prompted by the gifset i posted a couple of hours ago#which is at 21 likes and reblogs?#yes indeed#my obsession is keeping me going for now#but i can't guarantee how long it will last#somehow older fandoms don't have this big of a problem with not reblogging#i wonder why 🤷🏻♀️
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69. BIG SHOT — Jhariah
I need to know if someone out there's listening How come they don't ever call back to me? Will I ever know you're close or die waiting for your attention? Big shot, think you're a big shot I think you're raveled up in a tangle of did-nots You're always just a bit shy, following behind I think you've spent enough time singing the same lines
UGHHH I'm gonna start biting and tearing fhfjsbfjendfh Every single Jhariah song on Android 24's playlist (on any of the dbhc playlists, honestly) just devastates me /pos. Jhariah's music is so raw and powerful and desperate; there's truly nothing else like it, and it's so so perfect for 24. I'm so excited to draw to more Jhariah in the future >:3 but for now, take my absolute insanity about 24 and how he views himself and Xisuma :-) <in pain
#The real problem is that I put these songs on these playlists and I'm like wow this is great for them! Then I go to draw to them and#I really look into the lyrics and start physically falling apart. God I'm so ill about this song and 24#Dbhc#Dbhc art#Dbhc music#Dbhc ask#Ask#Dbhc android 24#Dbhc xisuma#Android 24#Xisumavoid#Xisuma#Hermitcraft#Hermitcraft au#Dbhc keralis#Keralis#Beesuma#Anon#Frootyloopy#llithiumstars#Art escapades#Bigshot#No not that one :)#The “Ohhhh Ohhhhhh OHHHH” At the end makes me wanna rip my hair out <3#spotify wrapped 2024#spotify wrapped drawing challenge#big shot
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like ok heres the thing. inho infiltrated the games to earn gihuns trust and then break him and get him on his side right. ok. but he didnt have to do everything he did.
like, he didnt have to defend him so threateningly against player 100 (arguably... possessively... like bro he aint going NOWHERE calm your ass DOWN!!!) or like, he didnt have to call him 'gihun', he couldve, SHOULD HAVE, called him 'hyung', but he calls him fucking??? gi-hun-shi?????? INSANE BEHAVIOUR.
he didn't HAVE to smile at him then, so bright-eyed. he didn't have to share his tragic backstory. he didn't even have to fucking help him with the revolution, he didn't have to shoot his guards he could've pretended to be a terrible shot. he could've betrayed him anytime and yet chose to maintain his mystery until he got away from gi-hun and FAKED HIS DEATH. like what possibly could he gain from this?? gi-hun must find out who he is sooner or later, who cares if it's sooner??
HE CARES. HE. CARES. whether you view them romantically or not, in-ho CARES. there's a piece of him that plays into this entire inner conflict that makes him CARE. FOR GI-HUN. HE CARES FOR GI-HUN even to SOME degree. and that is INSANE to me.
#THEY MAKE ME INSANE#HE DIDN'T HAVE TO DO ALL THAT. BUT HE DID.#gihun is trusting anyways. BUT INHO STILL WENT OUT OF HIS WAY. TO DO. ALL THAT.#like gihun trusts fucking daeho or junhee no problem. right. whats another guy to trust.#but inho *goes out of his way* to make him trust him in ways that are like. not *that* big?? like#they dont play a bigger part. they just ARE. he couldve just done the bare minimum to earn trust. but he didnt.#thats that part of him that CARES.#and it makes me SICK. TO MY CORE.#squid game#squid game season 2#hwang inho#hwang in ho#seong gihun#seong gi hun#in ho x gi hun#inho x gihun#gi hun x in ho#gihun x inho#001 x 456#456 x 001#457#ginho#inhun
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im just fucking with him your honour (read: trying to figure out how to draw him)
#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl narinder#narinder#my art#i saw a serval and i was like thats how most of the fandom draws him actually#i wanted to try to find my fave way to draw him since im pretty inconsistent#i do like the maine coon tho and i like the fluff on the ear tips#one thing remains tho i like to give him Big Ears#also aym and baal for your troubles#cotl aym#cotl baal#I WANTED TO PUT HIM WITH A PAGE ON THE LAMB BUT. MYGOD. IT IS DIFFICULT TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO DRAW THE LAMB#problem is i have TOO many design bits that i like for the lamb#and they dont look good if i combine them#and i change drawing style with the wind so it has to be something that works in multiple styles AND ITS DIFFICULT
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his magic is so PINK and FLUFFY and PRETTY! I love it!
I'm ready to process the Diasomnias now, buckle up
#art#unique magic posters#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#twisted wonderland episode 7 spoilers#twisted wonderland book 7 spoilers#meanwhile at the super awesome kalim dream base#anyway I KNEW IT! I KNEW HE WAS A DREAMWALKER!#VALIDATION#love me a unique magic that is only really useful in one extremely specific and exceedingly unlikely situation#sure was lucky that silver was on the island huh!#okay everybody i am about to be even more embarrassing than usual over anime characters. hold on.#but i am ALL OVER silver right now. just really really enjoying him!#i love that his reaction to all of this is anger. i love that his reaction to malleus is basically 'how DARE you'#my boy is full of righteous fury and he is going to make it everyone else's problem#his deeply-ingrained respect for mal and lilia is such a big part of his character that it's just.#always such a nice character moment when that breaks!#like when he yelled at lilia during endless halloween night! granted it was lower stakes then but. still.#it'sgoodstorytelling.jpg#meanwhile sebek is over in a corner sobbing and going 'what is HAPPENING' which is its own brand of deliciousness#god. this game really does just slam its fists down onto all of my personal 'I LIKE THIS' buttons.#and now they give me silver's beautiful pink fluffy cloud dream palace. find me a chef to kiss because MWAH#i can't believe they cut it off RIGHT before we were about to learn his backstory. i mean i absolutely can. but you know what i mean.#i have to know the meaning of the shitty acorn bracelet. twst. twst please.
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Andrew minyards closet is FULL. he’s the complete opposite of Neil, loves shopping, loves buying clothes (and buying neil clothes).
And what does neil do? Instead of wearing the clothes Andrew buys him, he just wears Andrew’s clothes
#why does my phone not capitalize neil#anyway he goes directly to the source#they’re a bit big on him and they smell like andrew and he LOVES it#andrew pretends to hate it but is OBSESSED#is this because I’m crazy about buying clothes and have a spending problem?? maybe.#but anyway#Andrew’s always like ‘I literally got you like four hoodies and you’re wearing one of mine?’#Neil’s just like ‘duh#they’re in love your honor#trans neil josten#trans andrew minyard#t4t andreil#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#the raven king#the king’s men#andrew minyard#neil josten#andreil#andreil headcanon#the foxes#aftg trilogy
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where's the bride?
#hs#homestuck#j egbert#art#hamsterfather#dave strider#karkat vantas#johndavekat#cherrypepsicola#dude what is my problem#theres like lore to this but i literally cannot do a big project rn so here are crumbs i made while at work
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Thinking about the fact that in s1ep6 when Barry burns Rafe's arm, poor baby probably had to bandage himself up all by himself. It just makes me so sad for no reason because Rafe's always alone and he literally has zero support system. And, his hands were shaking when he attempted to steal from his dad's office and when Ward catches him, he doesn't even look concerned or notice the burnt arm of his son??? Something about that just makes me so mad and sad like wtf. Rafe needs a big hug, man. I soo wanna be his stress reliever, his balm that calms him and more. I am literally not normal about this man. Like imagine someone burning ur arm on a fucking motorbike and having no one to turn to but yourself :(
#rafe cameron#rafe obx#drew starkey#rafe cameron x reader#obx#and yall dont come for or @ me for babying this man#i am not normal about my fav white man ok???#rafe just needs a big ass hug and pussy and so much more#god i will die for him#i cant be normal#not when he looks and acts like that and has a shit life/parents#anti ward cameron#anti barry#Rafe also could've also just went to the hospital or whatever but i doubt he'd do that since thats so ooc as hed have to explain#where he got the injury from and more#plus he literally likes handling his problems on his own so I cant see him going to someone else for help#especially when hes vulnerable and injured
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TW for serious discussion and talk of yucky people!!!
oh and on the topic of my new banner, i decided to change the wording a bit bc ive seen too many people who claim to be sfw age regressors turn around and practice 4geplay or related things on the side, or spaces that claim to be sfw still letting in and/or supporting those kinds of people (this problem is rampant on vrchat agere groups.) and because of this i wanted to make it clear that
this blog and my other blogs have a ZERO tolerance policy for 4geplay, 4bdl, dd1g, and the like.
i do not want interaction from ANY blogs, even sfw blogs, that are owned by 4geplayers. i do not want interaction from people who condone that sort of behavior either. no 4geplay means NO 4GEPLAY. plain and simple, but it seems people have been twisting the meaning of it to get themselves into sfw spaces when really they fall right smack dab in the middle of the dni list.
so fellow kiddos, please be mindful of the people you're following in agere spaces - especially those who are bodily minors bc if there are on-the-down-low 4geplayers who interact with underage regressors too thats even more disgusting...
(and no this post is not up for debate i dont care abt ur reasons why u think for some reason that its ok to pretend to be a kid or have ur partner do so for n5fw reasons!)
#agere#age regression#age regressor#sfw agere#sfw age regression#sfw interaction only#sfw only#agere community#agere blog#petre#sfw petre#pet regression#pet regressor#pokemon regression#pokemon regressor#petre blog#bunnyre#sfw bunnyre#bunny regression#bunny regressor#bunnyre blog#agedre#sfw agedre#age dreamer#age dreaming#inner child healing#also want to be clear that im not saying i dont think regressors cant have 5exual interests when big - it is specifically 4geplay and relat#d things i have a problem with. idc if ur a regressor and do n5fw things when big as long as 1. ur not putting sfw agere content on an n5fw#and 2. u dont condone 4geplay and the like. or anything ince5t related either actually i forgot to say anything abt that until now :|#GREAT am i gonna have to update my banner again already i just made it -_-
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A little summer rain excursion to the corner store with the Noceda kiddos.
#my art#toh#the owl house#toh hunter#toh luz#toh vee#luz noceda#vee noceda#hunter noceda#part of my human au where Camilla adopts vee and hunter as little kids#theyre teens now#they went to go get snacks for movie night#but got caught in a little summer rain#no problem tho big brother hunter is always prepared#not like his sisters will actually listen to him and stay under the damn umbrella#a little water never hurt anyone sure#but if they come home soaking wet and get sick#mami is gonna be PISSED#and they will have no one to blame but themselves because hunter WARNED them but oh well#anyway yeah just a small doodle to get back into the swing of things#and drawing again#quality is so crunchy im so sorry im trying to fix it
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should've done this since day 1
very significant fuck
#i wanted to make a smol / medium / big version of v1 and gabriel being more and more unnormal about it#but that sounds like a lot of work so screw it#i just wanna draw big machines okay i don't wanna make a whole premise for it today lol#btw this is for that what to draw next vote#that vote was just a means to solve my indecisiveness i already had a plot for each and every option#although technically i still have 2 other plots i can pick for ultrakill so didn't exactly solve that problem#ultrakill#ultrakill v1#v1 ultrakill#ultrakill gabriel#gabriel ultrakill#gabv1el#my art
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Curly not immediately punishing Jimmy for assaulting Anya is something I don’t think a lot of people are viewing in the complex context for Curly as the superior to both of them and closest confidante they had.
Like I am in no way saying he didn’t under react or fail Anya by not being harsh or direct with Jimmy but it really is the case that he really couldn’t. Imagine being stuck in such a confined space with very little areas to genuinely hold someone if they commit a crime. It’s not like this was an event that occurred before they departed or that they have easy communication with The Pony Express to ask for how to proceed when something like this arises. Not to mention, Jimmy’s relative power in relation to Anya as the co-pilot and second in command, he has the knowledge and access to do something to her had Curly directly punished him in this setting.
They were also Curly’s friends. It’s not just the case of him mediating something between his subordinates but people he is personally invested in don’t want to see spiral further in Anya’s case while also not wanting believe his friend go that bad in Jimmy’s actions. They were both suicidal and Curly putting Jimmy’s stability first is both out of bias but also the fact he’s aware at some level Jimmy is a danger to himself and others if not constantly placated. Combined with the fact he was in denial or just not piecing together what Anya said it’s hard to say what he buying time for and what he had treat as urgent. This isn’t even saying he doesn’t care about Anya but he’s not going jump to the worst conclusions about his friends even if part of him acknowledges the evidence saying so. It’s a complicated thing but he’s still human and needed to process it on top of trying to keep a ship that already took on a lot of water from further sinking, metaphorically.
I just personally think that while Curly failed Anya, it was a scenario where there wasn’t much he could do to the best thing by her safely and like Jimmy, we are underestimating what a good leader would do in a very fragile and tense situation like he was in. By the time he may have been ready and had a plan, things were much too late.
#like in my one Anya still respected Curly after he didn’t punish Jimmy so I assume he still respected her or reassured her he’d do something#it just was never enough because sadly Jimmy just needed to be removed from the ship and that’s not possible#cause no matter what Jimmy was going to do something stupid to fix it and Curly had to be thinking of a way to avoid that but also trying to#play the subjective role of friend and objective role of captain with two of the people he is currently closest with#not to mention how he’s a big picture guy and it’s not an excuse but those little detail and subtle behaviors are probably lost if the big#picture looks fine still and he admits he’d drive himself crazy trying to look for it#like weirdly Curlys character is only seen through the people he tried to protect and we judge him on his failures but we don’t get too much#on his insights directly as Jimmy is unreliable and he tries hard to be gentle with Anya#personal note is I don’t think Curly underplaying Anya’s trauma is a guy code protecting my bud thing but more a flaw in his personal#character in where he just wants everything and everyone to be ok in the end and taking responsibility that isn’t his to bare like he can’t#make up for what Jimmy did but he tried and that’s the problem really cause he’s just used to actually fixing it for him and it’s the case#this is the one thing he really couldn’t like I think he’s a good guy but he’s trapped in his and a bunch of other peoples worse moments#anya mouthwashing#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing curly#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#jimmy mouthwashing#captain curly#nurse Anya#mouthwashing spoilers#rape tw#suicide tw#also last thought is how he like also was being emotionally drained by Jimmy constantly like Anya and his relationship with Jimmy parallel#each other in such a way that both him and Anya warily follow the words of the others abuser because they fear the physical or emotional#repercussions if they don’t like her not being able to really tell curly what happened and then curly not being able to do the same and how#jimmy assaults and dehumanizes both when they are no longer a service to him like god they are more adjacent than Jimmy and Curly like Curly#messed up in a already messy pile Jimmy mad it into a dumpster fire in a landfill they are not the same
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