#or isolated concepts of intimacy

[hasgudagudadoneanythingwrong]

hello, it's been a long time. i hope the crew is alright. this is not specifically a sprite comment ask, i would just like to know your thoughts on this. What do you think Izou would be like in the role of a malewife? very interested to know (for research purposes) thank u ^^

Hm. This is a difficult question that I do not know, but primarily because I don't even really think about or know what qualifies as a 'malewife' that much. No, really, what even is a malewife?? Does it just mean they do stereotypical housewife things like laundry/cooking/cleaning while the other partner does Job™ things??? I do not know, but I am going to assume it is somewhere in that direction probably ?? I am hoping I am doing this right.

Anyway, I think Izou would probably either downplay what he does housekeeping-wise (saying he was annoyed by or "couldn't stand" something not being done so he did it very begrudgingly, definitely totally not because he cared about picking things up around the house for you, or just doing things "on a whim"), or take his responsibilities very seriously (aka hyper-vigilant about making sure you both have everything you need, arriving places not just on-time but early, etc). Maybe both, depending on how openly expected or not it is of him.

I don't know if he'd be good per se at like. General housekeeping stuff like cooking/cleaning, since I don't think he ever had to do that kind of thing much in life and I don't think it's important enough for him to learn now as long as it gets done somewhat passably well, so I think food getting burnt might be a somewhat common occurrence, as well as perhaps occasionally disregarded instructions when "following" recipes (saying it's "good enough" otherwise) lol

I think he'd also get kind of frustrated with paying bills and such, since I don't think he has the greatest sense of money/budgeting/due date management/understanding of how things like credit cards or loans even work.

Depending on the kind of relationship you have with him, I could maybe also see him being kind of wary/suspicious of anyone new you introduce to him?? Not necessarily that you'd run off with them or anything, but rather, not automatically trusting that they don't have some sort of ulterior motive or intent to harm you. As such, I think he'd be fine with whatever you get up to, but would probably want to stick around in one way or another when you head out on your own someplace to make sure you stay safe and don't like. get beat up in an alley somewhere or anything.

I think if he's not allowed to follow you to wherever though (as a +1 or in spirit form or questionably hanging out in the parking lot for several hours) he'd probably be very productive with the housework, getting a lot of things done by means of anxiety to keep from chewing on the curtains while you're gone. Perhaps routinely checking in with you (via text or telepathy or however) just to keep the anxiety down, too.

So basically, I uh, don't really know if he'd make for a great housewife, but since that may have different qualities than a malewife does, perhaps the dream is still alive??

Listen, I don't go here because I think he makes for a great wife, I'm just here because I think his pathetic and/or spiky nature is sexy. I might trust him with my life as he points his sword at me but I would absolutely not trust him with my bills as he says he'll take care of things.

[sh1-n0bu]

what punishment do you think suits for blade bcus he won't come home to me?

♡︎ 𝙥𝙪𝙣𝙞𝙨𝙝𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙨 ♡︎

characters: sub!blade x gn!dom!reader

warnings: slapping, edging, squirting, mentions of handjob, bondage, degrading, dacryphilia, begging, mentions of cock slapping, masochist bladie, forced self praise and praise, slight fluff and angst if you squint, reader’s a bit mean but it’s deserved😤 also ig this is a bit of a self aware AU as well???? yeah, ig u guys could read it as a self aware AU if ur into it

notes: sorry for replying too fast anon. my period is making me horknee😔 this is more like a headcannon of what i think would be a perfect punishment for blade

DEGRADING

listen listen listen, i know this may sound a bit weird but blade hates being degraded when with you. there’s a reason why he gives off wet, pathetic, soggy cat that’s abandoned at the side of the street vibes and because of that, blade loves to be praised instead. especially since you're his lover, his darling, his sweetheart, his one and only and the only one he would do absolutely anything and everything for without even thinking. because of that, blade wants to be praised. he wants to be a good boy for you, he wants to be your sweet baby, not your dirty slut. he thinks you’re being so mean to him :((

SLAPPING

now this can be taken in many concepts. he could be begging on his knees in front of you, hands clinging to the fabrics of your clothes as hazy, teary red eyes stare at you. chewed on lips spurring out apologies after apologies like a broken record. you could slap him across the face to make him shut up, its fine since blade can handle it. besides he’s a bit of a masochist as well so he would definitely let out a whimper and rub his thighs together to get some relief on his poor hardened cock

but if it's in other places such as slapping his ass as a form of punishment, slapping his thighs until the skin is all red and sensitive or even his hard cock leaking pre all over his stomach — either way, blade would be turned into a brainless sweetheart in no time. tears falling from his eyes as he begs for you to just touch him!! touch him properly please? he’s a good boy. he’ll be a good boy, he even promises!

EDGING

blade loves being overstimulated. its one of his favorite kinks. whether it be cumming over and over and over by your hand stroking his angry cock, fingering his ass and creating filthy squelching sounds or into your mouth or hell, even riding your thighs! he loves to be close to you, after years of loneliness and isolation, blade craves intimacy. he craves that close contact, to feel the warmth of your bare skin touching his own. even better when he’s crying and sobbing from cumming into your hand for the nth time that night, blabbering drunken shit as he squirts again. but when its taken away???? when he’s so close to reaching his high and stumbling over the edge, when his hard cock is ready to paint your hands with his sticky liquid and you take it away from him????? getting your hand off of his cock and leaving him aching and whining, desperately chasing after your hand with sobbing pleas? blade thinks you’re being real mean to him :((( please just let him cum, let him cum even on the sheets if you want! he won’t soil your hand, he just wants to cum so bad and his poor cock hurts so much :((

BONDAGE

this one is almost all of the time paired with the edging one. as i've said before, blade craves intimacy, he loves being close to you physically. he loves you so fucking much, way too much to the point it hurts to even be away from you even for a little bit. there's a reason why blade chose to be close to you, a reason why he decided to open up his heart to someone else again to give another shot at life and because of that he loves you and trust you so much. you're literally the reason he realized perhaps living wouldn't be so bad after all because he has you by his side, he can go another day, another month, another year, another life-time if it means he would get to spend every waking and even sleeping moment beside you. blade loves to be physically close to you so when you take it away from him, when you tie his hands behind his back or even tie his wrists up to the bedframe, he's doing everything to break those stupid cuffs or ropes. he wants to feel you!! it doesn't even have to be in the sexual way, it can just be in a literal way. holding hands, his palm flat against your back, feeling your skin, being reminded of your warmth. but if you take it away, he's a mess. but don't worry everything is consensual of courses, and you always make sure to take care of him and the bruises afterwards. one of the most effective ways to punish him, me thinks

honorary mention: FORCED SELF PRAISE

it might come of as a bit off or out of place since i did mention that one of the suited punishments for blade would be degrading and praise is the absolute opposite for that but hEAR ME OUT!!!! blade is self conscious of his body. and i meant his scars specifically. he finds them hideous, like how can someone like you could ever find him pretty or gorgeous or all those words you praise him with? he finds it ridiculous. his body is nothing but just a meaningless weapon by now, covered with scars and phantom pains that don't go away and yet you find it so beautiful. you even make sure to make him understand that he is indeed beautiful as you place kisses on each and every last one of the scars that he bears

now this!!!! is where the forced self praise comes in. it doesn't even have to be sexual or as a form of punishment. you could just be doing your everyday ritual of praising the ever loving shit out of him with blade sitting all pretty with a cute red dusting his cheeks. he would always weakly try to refuse your praises, saying that he wasn't the most handsome man in the galaxy and that was why he was wanted and instead always offering logical answers. just accept the damn praise blade >:(((( this is where it comes in. you can softly coax him to say self assuring things. it can start out small like "i did a good job on the mission the other day", "i make a delicious pancake this morning", "i always how to make hot chocolate to cheer up my beloved" and it can range to the things that he insistently denies. make him say that he's pretty, that he's gorgeous, that his hair is long and elegant, that he's an amazing lover, how he was wanted across all galaxies because he was just so charming and dashing and amazi - okay, now his brain is way too fried with the compliments and in his desperation, he's shutting you up with a kiss. he's so adorable :333

[fatehbaz]

When you tag things “#abolition”, what are you referring to? Abolishing what?

Prisons, generally. Though not just physical walls of formal prisons, but also captivity, carcerality, and carceral thinking. Including migrant detention; national border fences; indentured servitude; inability to move due to, and labor coerced through, debt; de facto imprisonment or isolation of the disabled or medically pathologized; privatization and enclosure of land; categories of “criminality"; etc.

In favor of other, better lives and futures.

Specifically, I am grateful to have learned from the work of these people:

Ruth Wilson Gilmore on “abolition geography”.

Katherine McKittrick on "imaginative geographies"; emotional engagement with place/landscape; legacy of imperialism/slavery in conceptions of physical space and in devaluation of other-than-human lifeforms; escaping enclosure; plantation “afterlives” and how plantation logics continue to thrive in contemporary structures/institutions like cities, prisons, etc.; a “range of rebellions” through collaborative acts, refusal of the dominant order, and subversion through joy and autonomy.

Macarena Gomez-Barris on landscapes as “sacrifice zones”; people condemned to live in resource extraction colonies deemed as acceptable losses; place-making and ecological consciousness; and how “the enclosure, the plantation, the ship, and the prison” are analogous spaces of captivity.

Liat Ben-Moshe on disability; informal institutionalization and incarceration of disabled people through physical limitation, social ostracization, denial of aid, and institutional disavowal; and "letting go of hegemonic knowledge of crime”.

Achille Mbembe on co-existence and care; respect for other-than-human lifeforms; "necropolitics" and bare life/death; African cosmologies; historical evolution of chattel slavery into contemporary institutions through control over food, space, and definitions of life/land; the “explicit kinship between plantation slavery, colonial predation, and contemporary resource extraction” and modern institutions.

Robin Maynard on "generative refusal"; solidarity; shared experiences among homeless, incarcerated, disabled, Indigenous, Black communities; to "build community with" those who you are told to disregard in order "to re-imagine" worlds; envisioning, imagining, and then manifesting those alternative futures which are "already" here and alive.

Leniqueca Welcome on Caribbean world-making; "the apocalyptic temporality" of environmental disasters and the colonial denial of possible "revolutionary futures"; limits of reformism; "infrastructures of liberation at the end of the world."; "abolition is a practice oriented toward the full realization of decolonization, postnationalism, decarceration, and environmental sustainability."

Stefano Harney and Fred Moten on “the undercommons”; fugitivity; dis-order in academia and institutions; and sharing of knowledge.

AM Kanngieser on "deep listening"; “refusal as pedagogy”; and “attunement and attentiveness” in the face of “incomprehensible” and immense “loss of people and ecologies to capitalist brutalities”.

Lisa Lowe on "the intimacies of four continents" and how British politicians and planters feared that official legal abolition of chattel slavery would endanger Caribbean plantation profits, so they devised ways to import South Asian and East Asian laborers.

Ariella Aisha Azoulay on “rehearsals with others’.

Phil Neel on p0lice departments purposely targeting the poor as a way to raise municipal funds; the "suburbanization of poverty" especially in the Great Lakes region; the rise of lucrative "logistics empires" (warehousing, online order delivery, tech industries) at the edges of major urban agglomerations in "progressive" cities like Seattle dependent on "archipelagos" of poverty; and the relationship between job loss, homelessness, gentrification, and these logistics cities.

Alison Mountz on migrant detention; "carceral archipelagoes"; and the “death of asylum”.

Pedro Neves Marques on “one planet with many worlds inside it”; “parallel futures” of Indigenous, Black, disenfranchised communities/cosmologies; and how imperial/nationalist institutions try to foreclose or prevent other possible futures by purposely obscuring or destroying histories, cosmologies, etc.

Peter Redfield on the early twentieth-century French penal colony in tropical Guiana/Guyana; the prison's invocation of racist civilization/savagery mythologies; and its effects on locals.

Iain Chambers on racism of borders; obscured and/or forgotten lives of migrants; and disrupting modernity.

Paulo Tavares on colonial architecture; nationalist myth-making; and erasure of histories of Indigenous dispossession.

Elizabeth Povinelli on "geontopower"; imperial control over "life and death"; how imperial/nationalist formalization of private landownership and commodities relies on rigid definitions of dynamic ecosystems.

Kodwo Eshun on African cosmologies and futures; “the colonial present”; and imperialist/nationalist use of “preemptive” and “predictive” power to control the official storytelling/narrative of history and to destroy alternatives.

Tim Edensor on urban "ghosts" and “industrial ruins”; searching for the “gaps” and “silences” in the official narratives of nations/institutions, to pay attention to the histories, voices, lives obscured in formal accounts.

Megan Ybarra on place-making; "site fights"; solidarity and defiance of migrant detention; and geography of abolition/incarceration.

Sophie Sapp Moore on resistance, marronage, and "forms of counterplantation life"; "plantation worlds" which continue to live in contemporary industrial resource extraction and dispossession.

Deborah Cowen on “infrastructures of empire and resistance”; imperial/nationalist control of place/space; spaces of criminality and "making a life at the edge" of the law; “fugitive infrastructures”.

Elizabeth DeLoughrey on indentured labor; the role of plants, food, and botany in enslaved and fugitive communities; the nineteenth-century British Empire's labor in the South Pacific and Caribbean; the twentieth-century United States mistreatment of the South Pacific; and the role of tropical islands as "laboratories" and isolated open-air prisons for Britain and the US.

Dixa Ramirez D’Oleo on “remaining open to the gifts of the nonhuman” ecosystems; hinterlands and peripheries of empires; attentiveness to hidden landscapes/histories; defying surveillance; and building a world of mutually-flourishing companions.

Leanne Betasamosake Simpson on reciprocity; Indigenous pedagogy; abolitionism in Canada; camaraderie; solidarity; and “life-affirming” environmental relationships.

Anand Yang on "forgotten histories of Indian convicts in colonial Southeast Asia" and how the British Empire deported South Asian political prisoners to the region to simultaneously separate activists from their communities while forcing them into labor.

Sylvia Wynter on the “plot”; resisting the plantation; "plantation archipelagos"; and the “revolutionary demand for happiness”.

Pelin Tan on “exiled foods”; food sovereignty; building affirmative care networks in the face of detention, forced migration, and exile; connections between military rule, surveillance, industrial monocrop agriculture, and resource extraction; the “entanglement of solidarity” and ethics of feeding each other.

Avery Gordon on haunting; spectrality; the “death sentence” of being deemed “social waste” and being considered someone “without future”; "refusing" to participate; "escaping hell" and “living apart” by striking, squatting, resisting; cultivating "the many-headed hydra of the revolutionary Black Atlantic"; alternative, utopian, subjugated worldviews; despite attempts to destroy these futures, manifesting these better worlds, imagining them as "already here, alive, present."

Jasbir Puar on disability; debilitation; how the control of fences, borders, movement, and time management constitute conditions of de facto imprisonment; institutional control of illness/health as a weapon to "debilitate" people; how debt and chronic illness doom us to a “slow death”.

Kanwal Hameed and Katie Natanel on "liberation pedagogy"; sharing of knowledge, education, subversion of colonial legacy in universities; "anticolonial feminisms"; and “spaces of solidarity, revolt, retreat, and release”.

[yanderes-galore]

This is sort of a collab between me and @okchijt as we were discussing this on Discord while I was writing this. I'm in a watch party with them to watch Helluva Boss so... Here's some self indulgence about Blitzø :) Pacing is a bit everywhere due to our conversation process. Here's the pure brainrot!

Please Read Trigger Warnings For Mature Themes, The moment you click Read More you have consented to seeing this content.

Yandere! Blitzø Concept

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Stalking, Clingy behavior, Manipulation, Gaslighting/Blackmail, Trauma, Overprotective/Possessive behavior, Fear of attachment/vulnerability, Enabling behavior, Jealousy, Delusional behavior, Mentions of Death, Paranoia, Poor mental health, Swearing, Mature content, Secret picture taking, Violence/Murder, Forced date, Blood, Threats, Guilt-tripping, Mentions of intimacy/Sexual content but nothing too graphic, Intoxication, Forced/Dubious relationship.

Word Count: 1446 words.

Blitz is an obsessive stalker yandere who is fiercely protective/controlling of his obsession.

The moment you leave his sight, Blitz has a tendency to panic.

He needs to know where you are and only trusts a select few people with you.

Said people are Loona, Millie, and Moxxie.

This is most likely an AU after Stolas and Blitz "break up".

In that case, Blitz may not trust Stolas around you.

Speaking of Stolas, said Owl Prince may be jealous and condescending towards you due to Blitz trying to be with you.

I'm going to be honest, Blitz would be a mess as a yandere.

His whole life he's wanted that domestic sort of life with his obsession.

He craves connection, even if he originally tries to push you away.

But if you manage to stay despite what he says... then you have a clingy Imp on your hands.

He's known you for awhile, be that as one of his employees or a close friend who sticks around despite what he says.

The obsession probably starts in this concept with you comforting him about Stolas.

He's scared to let you in at first, not wanting to look vulnerable.

However, push hard enough and be there for him?

Well now he can't let you go.

Like... LITERALLY.

Blitz is surprisingly affectionate towards you once he's attached, both verbally and physically.

Blitz would want his obsession to get along with Loona, his adopted daughter.

Speaking of which, Loona may be a subtle manipulator or step in if you decide to neglect to turn on Blitz.

Especially if it benefits her.

Moxxie would be concerned for the relationship between you two.

He may try to speak up about it, but the others would shut him down.

Which would cause him to just... stay quiet despite your feelings.

Although, Millie would enable everything, thinking the bond you have is cute.

When Blitz turns obsessive, Moxxie may be your only ally.

Moxxie tries to ease your worries, he genuinely wants to find a way to help both you and Blitz.

However... Blitz would be so UPSET if he saw you so close to Moxxie.

He has a fear of losing you, while he knows Moxxie won't steal you from him... he hates you being close with others.

As a result, Blitz may isolate you socially... or insert himself into everything you do with others.

For example, if you were clubbing... he's coming to.

Anywhere you go, he'll be there... be it out of sight or right by your side.

He's so obsessive with the idea of a "healthy" relationship, he completely forgets the fact he is actively messing up the only somewhat normal relationship he has again... since you've been with him through nearly everything already, he's blind to his actions.

What doesn't help is no one but Moxxie points out the issues.

Definitely bans any sort of mention of Stolas in I.M.P.

He doesn't want you or anyone bringing up his past relationships as he wants to move on with his new beloved.

He genuinely thinks you're his perfect match and refuses to hear anyone else out on it.

Blitz is normally really clingy and hard to get rid of, so he usually doesn't need to resort to kidnapping.

However, if he did, he'd lock you in his apartment with max security.

Going back to Loona, she'd pity you a bit but not actually help you.

In fact, she's literally the guard dog for Blitz.

You won't be able to leave as Loona can hear every movement you make.

If you're caught, she'll tell Blitz, or convince you to go back to bed beside Blitz on the couch.

It would be hard to even leave the couch as Blitz practically digs his claws into you and clings to you as he sleeps.

If you worked with him, you'd slowly be unable to go on missions since the job is so dangerous.

In fact, Blitz may keep you with Loona, it's unknown who's babysitting who though.

He may not care much about his own safety, but he cares a lot about you.

He'd probably break if you died on him.

Speaking of which, Blitz has already lost a ton of people in his life anyways.

If you, the only person who genuinely gave a shit, died on him?

You can bet he just... never recovers.

Not even the others can fix him.

Which is why he is so insistent on hiding you away.

Blitz would hate it if you neglected him affection, clinging to you like you're his only lifeline.

If you eventually caved and gave him affection, even out of pity, he'd break down in your arms.

That way he thinks you love him back... and he just wants to be loved.

Blitz would stalk you constantly, taking pictures and recordings along with following you wherever you go.

Human, Hellborn, Sinner, whatever... he'd follow you everywhere no matter where you went.

Be that another layer of Hell, or the human world, he just needs to be near you.

Your status and species of demon/human would change the dynamic between you and Blitz in some ways too.

He may even baby you, he isn't trying to be condescending, but he just...finds babying you cute.

Blitz is extremely manipulative, he may even be the type of yandere to gaslight or blackmail you into staying with him.

He'd guilt you into staying with him by saying "you're the only one that bothered to help him".

If he was drunk, he'd start rambling about how you helped him... essentially starting to trauma dump on you.

If you tried to point out the issues in your relationship with him, he'd act like there's nothing wrong.

If you tried to leave him and guilting doesn't work, he's find dirt on you and blackmail you into staying beside him.

Blitz would force you onto little dates (Like horse riding).

He's thinking you two are having fun, in reality you probably aren't.

Honestly, would it even be a Blitz concept if I didn't mention violence or murder in some way?

If you got hurt on a mission, Blitz would lose it.

No one would need to help him, he'd single handedly slaughter everyone around him.

By the time the bloodbath is over, he's covered in the stuff and immediately pulling you close.

He'd coo over you, telling you there's no need to worry... he took care of it.

That would most likely be when he'd pull you off missions, too.

If he ever lost you somewhere, he's threatening everyone for answers on your whereabouts.

You're so isolated with him there's barely any issue when it comes to "rivals".

Although, if he somehow sees you secretly speaking with someone other than him... he'd threaten them and if that doesn't work, he may attack them like some sort of feral cat.

Blitz would not blame his darling for anything, he's that delusional.

He thinks you could do no wrong and just blames those around you.

Obviously others are the problem, not him.

That includes Moxxie, as I can see him thinking Moxxie is trying to turn you against Blitz.

Ever seen scenes with Blitz being affectionate with Loona or the others?

Yeah, he's like that with you, but more intense.

He's practically all over you when it comes to affection.

Blitz sees everyone as a threat to his relationship with you.

Maybe not Millie or Loona, but that may include Moxxie.

It definitely includes Stolas due to his paranoia, he fears the prince will take you from him.

Striker would also count due to his motives.

I don't usually mention this in my concepts, but Blitz is sexually active.

He wouldn't force you into anything, but he's certainly needy when it comes to that.

Blitz wouldn't blame you too much if you called him Blitzo.

He'd calmly correct you, but treat it as a mistake and warn you not to do it again.

Blitz wants to know everything about his darling, both inside and out.

He may not say much about himself, but he'd nearly interrogate you about everything you like and dislike.

He wants to give the best gifts and foods for you since he adores you.

If someone ever hurt you in your past, or even the present, he'd just get revenge for you.

He'll make their fate slow.

Anything from a childhood bully or abuser, yeah they're gone.

Overall, Blitz comes off as a rather feral, intense, and clingy yandere.

You're stuck with him, like it or not, all so he can chase the companionship he never truly had in a long time.

[ctheathy]

hi omg would you be able to do a smut nine x reader hcs??? i love how u tend to make the reader dominant, i'd love if in these hcs nine is suchhh a sub but tries to deny it and act dominant when really he so isn't... by smut it can range from heavy making out/suggestive to full on smut idm, whatever u can think of :3 (if ur gonna do full on nsfw can nine eat out the reader pls pls (afab reader)) tysmmm !!!!

Nine NSFW Headcanons

Nine x Reader

Suggestive+NSFW Headcanons

Short Concept

Author's note: pfft- Nine would be making sounds that haven’t even been discovered by science yet

Nine/Reader [Romantic]

[Gender-neutral Darling|Female Darling|Male Darling]

Potential ⚠️TWs⚠️ :

Both reader+character are of legal age or aged-up for obvious reasons in this post!

These are smut headcanons, read at own risk. dom!Reader+sub!Nine • Partly !Female!Reader • 1/2 eating his darling out [Fem!reader] • Breast foreplay • Marking • Biting/nipping • Drooling/Salivating • 2/2 making out session [Gender-neutral!reader] • Gagging • You basically shove your tongue down his throat

- ½ Nine eating you out

I honestly just enjoy the idea that Nine is already quick to get hormonal and in the mood. But he gets in heat especially quick when you get a little too whiny and pouty. I just imagine you whimpering for one single time and his whole body would tense up, pressing his legs together and biting away at him bottom lip to the point it almost splits. Trying to keep himself from getting ...hard from something as simple as a subtle mewl. He is so weak towards you, your emotions and the way that you feel to the point any sense of self control can go out of the window. When you're showing signs of being turned on and when he can quite literally smell your arousal, he's gonna have to fight tooth and nail to not get aroused himself.

This is certainly not something that would have too much of an improbability of happening. As you see, the thing about Nine is that he can already be quite lustful in general due to his bottled up frustrations. Now add on several years of isolation from other creatures and you have a boy who hasn't satisfied his primal urges and inner desires for literal ages. But you can make all his anger, frustration and self-hatred turn into a desperate need and craving for you. You could enjoy taking away any sort of dignity and prideful nature that he has left when the intimacy gets to that point, before giving some of it back through your praise after the ordeal. You'd absolutely know him and his vulnerable spots good enough for you to really set him off, because at the end of the day, you'd always have him begging for more.

You could start off a bit simpler before allowing him to eat you out like that, but still feed into his uncontrollable horniness for you. You can begin with giving Nine the opportunity to touch your chest with his mouth, something despite with his shy embarrassment and hesitance, it being something he just couldn't say no to. You could just sit there and lean back all smugly, while Nine's on his paws and knees infront of you, shivering and head hanging down as he shakily reaches out to one of your breasts, fighting his dripping arousal from staring at your bare and exposed chest alone.

But that's a point of no return ...and to take it to the next level. After that heck of a fest Nine had with drooling all over your boobies, he'd definitely be more open and quick to agree to foreplay that includes him pleasing you in some manner, because ultimately, it really pleases him as well. Not only because your body shape and appearance triggers something inside of him, but because you trust him with your body. And that's how you two got to oral fixation, something Nine would want to think about it for a little while. I mean. HIS mouth?? DOWN there??? Though he would be lying if he wasn't intrigued by the idea. The way you excitedly spoke about it in detail got him excited too... And so, he would cave within under a week at max. Even with his denial, he would absolutely be the most eager in the ENTIRE world for that little taste of your bottom half and he would absolutely make sure that he wouldn’t let you down and leave you unsatisfied under any circumstance

And as soon as he gets one of the tips in his mouth, he could start to feel himself melt. It's just the softest and most squishy flesh he's ever felt in his life. His mouth would start watering the longer your breast is inside of him, and his saliva would slowly begin to seep all over your skin. He'd have his self-control at first, but it wouldn't take long before he'd needily start licking his drool over every inch of your chest as if trying to mark it. He'd be all over you and goes completely feral as soon as he feels your nipple hardening against his moist tongue, as he'd let out a soft moan while feeling that change in texture. Nine's tongue would just swirling around your chest, with his body shivering and trembling with every lick and swirl. He’d glance up at you with those pleading puppy-dog eyes for approval while you just look down at him with such a cheeky grin.

Nine would absolutely be reaching for your fluids like it’s a bottle of fresh water in the middle of the Sahara, he’s never wanted to try anything more in his whole life than he wants to have your sweet nectar right now. He would become so desperate and overstimulated that every second he’s away from it would seem like an eternity... and he'd just want the volcano to erupt in his mouth. If you could easily control yourself and just not let your climax happen. No matter if it's for the sake of teasing him or just having the self-control, this would only drive Nine further into going berserk. His entire existence would become centered around having that release in him one day, tasting you like you're the last meal on Mobius.

Nine would desperately try to keep his calm and pretend that he wouldn’t absolutely go crazy if he actually had a taste. He’d absolutely be in a huge need for more of you and it’d be such a spectacle. His face all red with him basically panting over you. And as soon as he'd even start, Nine wouldn’t be able to focus on any single thing at all. His senses would be completely overwhelmed from everything that’s going on because he’s not used to this kind of stuff at all. Even as he's the one eating you out, his own junk cannot help but keep pulsing as he continues doing it. He'd get a bit impatient and would really want more attention to be brought to his privates, so he might just start touching himself in the duration of the moment... which would definitely make him more vocal, even with his tongue in your folds. You could look down with amusement as he plays with himself, all while his needy moans begin echoing through the entrance of your body.

But Nine always seems to remain on high alert on what's happening to you physically. If you just so happened to let out any grunts or moaning noises, those sounds would go straight to in-between his legs. Any noise that indicates that you're enjoying yourself would definitely keep him going... Even if you're just breathing funnily, he'd get an adrenaline boost that motivates him to become more sensual with the movements of his tongue, getting more desperate to make sure to never fail you in this matter.

Though if you were the type to start squirming all over the place with his mouth still on you. Or if you were to rock your hips back and forth into his tongue, that's when he would just crumble and lose it. You'd just be using his tongue to make yourself feel good, something that turns him on so much more than he'd ever believe it would. His body would be going haywire and he would start gently biting and nipping on your most sensitive nerves to try and get even more of your juices, his tongue would be doing absolutely everything that it possibly could because he’s never been this aroused in his entire life. It would be a scenario that he will absolutely never get over and which he'd be utterly desperate to experience once again.

- Making out sessions

The thing about all of this that's the most exciting is just how absolutely convinced Nine is in his disliking towards being so vulnerable and in a submissive position, and yet he would be so incredibly needy for more. Even if there are moments where he doesn't enjoy being under your command, he would be begging you to continue, begging you to kiss him deeper, to go further than he's ever been, all for you. He must feel intimidated by how submissive he is around you, he must feel intimidated by how vulnerable you makes him feel, but he just can't stop, just can't stop wanting more of you and your sweet tongue.

The kisses that you give Nine is certainly something that manages to keep his on his toes. Though your pecks are as innocent and sloppy as it can be, every very time your mouth is on his, you manage to take control and shatter his mind little by little through the heat of the moment. You're always so teasing... pulling out and taking it back as soon as Nine is shown enjoying himself, keeping him so needy and so utterly horny for more while you feed him these little crumbs. As soon as you're slowly pressing your tongue to the back of his throat, you should purposely roll up your tongue as it's sliding down the back of his mouth. You'd have Nine gag at times with ease while his eyes keep rolling back with just how overstimulated he's getting. And with how teasing and playful you're being through the kiss, there's no way he'd be capable of keeping in his loud, pleading moans. He'd love the sensations so much but would feel so shameful for enjoying it as much as he does.

But at that point he would 100% be loudly begging for you. Crying out for more and more, for you to keep using your tongue on him because his brain is too overwhelmed with the intense pleasure he’s receiving to even really think about anything else other than how amazing it feels. I can picture him crying and sobbing, maybe even begging with you to take him to your room. He would become obsessed with that tongue of yours if you just kept it going for long enough.

He would have no choice in the matter, you would absolutely force him to look you right in the eyes as his vision blurred and his whole body trembled in a way he never thought possible. It would be so intense he'd think he was having a seizure. He would still find a way to keep trying to lock his eyes on yours to contain some sense of dominance, but his head would just be going back and forth, his tongue desperately reaching for yours whenever you pull back, needy to taste you again with his eyes rolling back and trying his absolute hardest to not explode. He couldn’t last much longer at that point, his body eager to betray him and his mouth and tongue would be yours further upon that point.

ﾟ+*:ꔫ:*﹤ﾟ+*:ꔫ:*﹤ﾟ+*:ꔫ:*﹤ﾟ+*:ꔫ:*﹤ﾟ+*:ꔫ:*﹤

The poor bastard would look like he’s being electrocuted, the moment he’d try to maintain eye contact he’d just go cross eyed. He’d be completely and utterly broken at this point. As soon as you release him and let go, he’d be a puddle on the ground with his mouth wide open and eyes rolled, just mumbling absolute nonsense while you gaze down at him. A lovestruck, heart-filled look in his eyes as soon as he manages to get back to Earth Mobius. I’d be genuinely surprised if he could even recognize his own name at that point because he’s just been reduced to a drooling puppy who wants to satisfy you.

Something you'll have to make sure he keeps doing with his bratty bottom energy

[astrology-by-sita]

ON SCORPIO RISINGS ♏️

This is a part of a series on the rising signs not necessarily in Zodiacal order.

Scorpio risings are here to cultivate intimacy and transform themselves and everyone around them. They seek depth. They are rather introverted - libra 12h - and don't reveal much about themselves. Like all water signs they have air signs (sociability) in dark houses (12h and 8h) and 4h which isn't dark per se cause it's visible from the ascendant, but it's private.

Aquarius in the chart is what you wish for. They wish for 4h stuff (intimacy, familiarity, emotional security, a home which doesn't restrict them). But before 4h there's capricorn in 3h. They struggle with 3h stuff - communication, school, siblings, peers, classmate, neighborhood...they do not harbor a good relation with these topics.

Now there's a concept that houses support each other. 8h from 8h is what supports it and gives it life - 8h from 8h is 3h! (you can apply this to all houses btw). Scorpios are spontaneous in 8h stuff - intimacy, sharing resources, inheritance, sudden changes etc cause they have gemini there. But they're restricted in 3h stuff which is the supporter of 8h! How can you achieve intimacy if you don't communicate your needs (3h)?

Communication is essential for sharing finances as well. How can they do that when they are afraid to reveal what's in their mind?

3h also precedes 4h.Again they have difficulty with 3h stuff but their ruler Mars exalts there,in Capricorn. So they do not like expressing themselves verbally.They come off as "mysterious" partly bc of this reason. It's hard to get to know them/figure them out.They dont like to express themselves but once they do,they exalt,bc their ruler Mars literally exalts in 3h.

It's because they don't speak or express much... That when they do express, it's valuable. It's deep and meaningful. They don't talk and blubber or gossip just for it's sake. My favorite scorpio rising who was successful in expressing himself is Edgar Allan Poe! He wrote beautiful poetry and it was very much full of Scorpio themes.

Scorpio risings get success from writing down their ideas and thoughts. They have so much depth to express but what you see of them is only the tip of the iceberg. But once they express this depth and get comfortable with slowly releasing their traumas and revealing their feelings, they can find the deep relationship they want, and also become unstoppable.

Their craving for intimacy, emotional connections, etc makes them seek relationships that end up feeling isolating. Venus rules 7h and 12h! Study the condition of Venus to discover how this impacts relationships. Venus exalts in their 5h in pisces. 5h rules self expression so if scorpios express themselves, it will help improve their relationships.

They can excel at sports and physical activities as well cause Mars (physicality) rules 1h as well as 6h of health/routines. The football legend Diego Armando Maradona is scorpio rising. They can easily reach stardom and be the stars of the show, cause sun rules their 10h, if the sun and Mars both are well placed.

Conventional religion isn't for them. As it can get shallow with empty rituals and recitals without meaning or depth. They look into taboo subjects which conventional religion doesn't approve of. Their ruler Mars debilitates in cancer 9h. They have their own beliefs and unconventional approach to spirituality.

[divinatorydoll]

eighth house synastry and change: 📝

i made this tweet earlier after a series of posts on the eighth house, so here i wanted to write a thread on 8H synastry and how it can change us !!

THE PLANETS THROUGHOUT THE EIGHTH HOUSE:

their sun in your 8H: they can change your view on attention and praise, respect, authority, comedy and what you find funny, recreation, your personality, your self-image, your relationship with achievement and your own accomplishments

their moon in your 8H: they can change your view on your domestic space, your emotions and how you share them with other people, your idea of intimacy, pregnancy and childcare, the relationship you have with your immediate family

their mercury in your 8H: they can change your view on your daily routines, language, the ways you communicate with people, the concept you have of your own intelligence and skills, the information you exchange with others

their venus in your 8H: they can change your view on music, sex and sexuality, art and your artistic expression, the natural world, your own natural talents, your voice, your relationship with beauty and self-esteem, what makes you comfortable

their mars in your 8H: they can change your view on what it means to be enthusiastic and passionate, conflict, how you handle your anger and the anger of others, your opinion on different sports or athletic events and teams

their jupiter in your 8H: they can change your view on faith and religious beliefs, your political ideologies, your perspective on marriage and commitments, foreign affairs, integrity and the honest you expect from others

their saturn in your 8H: they can change your view on the world, the government, reality itself, responsibility and what you’re responsible for, your connection to your elders, the concept of selflessness, your sense of duty and purpose

their uranus in your 8H: they can change your view on coincidence, friendship and how you socialize with others, social media, the internet and technology as a whole, your outlook on the future as well as your future

their neptune in your 8H: they can change your view on sadness, isolation, shame, the importance of novelty, fame and those who are famous, grief and how you grieve, vulnerability, your bathing habits or the products you use while you bathe

their pluto in your 8H: they can change your view on power, jealousy and what makes you jealous, whatever disturbs or frightens you, privacy, the secrets you keep and what you feel is “too ugly” to be seen by others

let me know if y’all have any questions in the replies :)

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[vaxieth]

because something really did ask, have a much too long post about my thoughts on laudna’s individual dynamics with the rest of bells hells.

under the cut because it’s almost 3000 words.

laudna/imogen

i struggle to find something to say about imogen and laudna that hasn’t already been said a million times before. the core concept—the thesis—of their arcs, together and separately, is choice. so much of their backstories are defined by helplessness. laudna was chosen and killed because she happened to look like someone else, she was resurrected because she happened to be there. imogen’s mother left, she was burdened with powers she didn’t understand and meant constant pain and isolation. so, they make sure to constantly emphasize that the other person has a choice in everything. imogen tells laudna she only has to come back if she wants to, even though it would have devastated her to lose laudna forever. laudna tells imogen that the gods can’t control her, that no matter what her “destiny” is, if she wants, they can leave and live in a little cottage and raise horses together. the way they love each other unconditionally is all the more incredible given how cruel the world was to them for so long. laudna’s “you make me better” is true for both of them. they give each other a place to be vulnerable and feel all their messiest, worst feelings because they know the other one won’t judge them. they’ll support each other no matter the choices they make.

something i’ve mentioned quite a few times but never gone in depth about is that imogen and laudna do have a fairly significant age difference, and i do think that affects their dynamic. on the one hand, they both have a bit of arrested development—imogen due to her isolation from the rest of gelvaan from 18-26, laudna because she died at 20. on the other, laudna has so much more life experience than imogen. she spent almost 30 years traveling and interacting with the world even if was mostly people trying to kill her, maybe even because of that. the “laudna is imogen’s aunt/mother/older sister” takes were obviously ridiculous, but laudna does canonically look at imogen and see someone young who she wants to protect in a way she never was. she said as much to fcg after the gnarlrock fight. laudna acts as imogen’s rock, her tether if you will, a lot of the time, and part of the reason she can counterbalance imogen’s anxiety is because of the experience that comes with age. for example, during their conversation in episode 49, laudna is able to stay more “rational” and level-headed even when imogen is scared and overwhelmed. 

one of my other favorite things about them, specifically from laudna’s point of view, is that with a few exceptions (the gnarlrock fight, her jealousy of frida), she doesn’t seem insecure about their relationship. again, during episode 49, laudna mentions that she knows they haven’t talked in a while, but she didn’t worry because they “transcend words.” she didn’t need outside assurance from imogen because she felt confident in their love for each other. something i love about that episode 39-49 period is that they didn’t interact a lot, but when they did, they slipped right about in the same kind of intimacy they’d always had—imogen holding launda’s hand when they went into her dream together, laudna’s protectiveness of imogen after she interacted with ludinus. but anyway—that confidence is why i believe the transition from friends to lovers was so easy for laudna. laudna’s unsure of herself, of delilah and what she might do, but she’s absolutely not unsure of the love between her and imogen. that’s why as soon as imogen tells her she’s not a bad person, that she wants to be with laudna in that way, she lets herself embrace it entirely.

in conclusion: they invented romance, they’re the best canon pairing critical role has ever had and one of the best dynamics in general, etc., etc.

laudna/orym

oh my god, WHERE to begin? i feel like my take on their dynamic is slightly controversial. at the very least, i get more push back from people when i post about it than anything else, so let me start with this: orym cares deeply about laudna, i will never dispute that. however, orym is uncomfortable with laudna and has been since the very beginning of the campaign. she’s his friend and he recognizes her beautiful heart and resilient spirit, but he’s uncomfortable with her appearance and her messages in his head, with her macabre humor and her deadness. he can’t reconcile that laudna his friend and laudna the dead woman can’t be separated. laudna’s deadness is a part of her, one laudna embraces. orym, for better or worse, is “normal.” he grew up with a loving family and he had a husband and a career. will and derrig’s deaths were an unbelievable tragedy but one that never challenged his place within the status quo. (sidenote: i’ve always wondered if part of orym’s discomfort with laudna come from the fact that her proximity to death is a reminder of the resurrections will and derrig never got.) he sees himself as a follower, someone that doesn’t stand out, then there’s laudna, who does nothing but stand out. 

something i find fascinating is that orym is the first person to find out laudna’s backstory, and it affects him so much he can’t sleep that night and takes a point of exhaustion. he even explicitly recognizes the dehumanization she’s gone through and how laudna’s relationship with puppets like pate and sashimi mirror that. yet, he still never apologizes for trying to disguise her appearance, something without even asking. yes, i get it’s tactical and for “safety” (though that argument falls a bit flat for me when there’s also a glowing rock person and a fully conscious automaton in the group, but whatever), but it still hurts laudna. even beyond that, orym always qualifies his friendship with laudna to other person, making some mention of how she’s dead-looking and isn’t that crazy, wow, almost as if he wants some validation that it—laudna—is weird (one he, interestingly, rarely ever gets, given how enraptured most of the other pcs, including guests, and even some npcs, are with her). he does this even in situations he absolutely doesn’t need to like, for example, when maeve says laudna “looks cooler than i thought.” all this just sucks. it’s not that the love isn’t there, it is. it just isn’t unconditional, and laudna deserves better than that.

finally: the delilah in the room. no, it isn’t orym’s “fault” delilah is back. yes, he was also having an extremely bad time during the bor’dor fight and it wasn’t his “responsibility” to save laudna from herself, but laudna is orym’s friend. he listened to laudna tell him the trauma delilah put her through, he fought through hell to save laudna from her, and still nodded because part of him thought maybe delilah could help him and that was selfish. the fight against ludinus is important to of the bells, but for orym, it’s personal. it’s been his mission for six years. meanwhile, laudna is the one with the least enthusiasm about this. she has no connection to the gods. in fact, she actively thinks they dislike her, but he’s willing to sacrifice not just his safety, but the safety of her and all his friends for a cause they never set out to fight for.

in conclusion: i want to put them in a salad mixer together and watch them go around and around and around and around and around, then let them out to scream at each other a little.

laudna/ashton

if i had to explain laudna and ashton’s dynamic in one word, it would be “projection.” i adore their relationship, it’s one of my top 5 c3 dynamics, but oh my god, so much projection, and it’s so interesting because of that. ashton thinks he understands laudna, but in reality, he doesn’t at all. i’m an absolute sucker for characters that look very different on the surface but in reality are much more similar than they know, and ashton and laudna are that to a tee. they are very much narrative parallels especially regarding their feelings of “brokenness” and how their traumas are physical, visual parts of themselves, but the ways they diverge are almost more interesting.

certain people have said that her conversations with ashton are the only time laudna is “honest” or that, at the very least, she’s more honest with him than she is with anyone else, and i couldn’t disagree more. laudna can be a joyful, optimistic person and deeply traumatized with a core anger she hasn’t truly processed. laudna is a high-charisma character, and in my opinion, part of how that manifests is her ability to adapt her demeanor to the person she’s talking to. she speaks gently to imogen the same way she matches chetney’s hyperactive energy when they go sky-sailing. of course when she’s with ashton, who makes no effort to hide his anger and bitterness and doesn’t want her to be soft, she isn’t. none of these laudnas are more “real” than the others, they’re all laudna. what those people, and ironically, ashton themself, don’t get, or won’t let himself get, is that all those things can be true at once.

with ashton specifically, i don’t think they want to believe that because then they’d have to admit that growth and healing is a real possibility because anger is so much easier to deal with. people talk most about orym’s choices during the bor’dor fight most, but i’m fascinated by ashton’s as well. i wouldn’t be surprised if there was a part, no matter how small, that wanted laudna to break, to prove to himself that he was right and laudna was just as broken and fucked-up as them. so, laudna killing bor’dor was almost vindication, evidenced by their “what have i done?” “nothing i haven’t done.” exchange afterwards.

i don’t want this to sound like ashton doesn’t care about launda, they do. ashton cares about her so much, and besides imogen and fearne, is the most unabashedly into laudna’s aesthetic. i love how much they love all the weird shit she does. i love how protective ashton is of laudna, especially during battles and their willingness to go above and beyond for her—he carried laudna when she was dead despite his chronic pain without complaining once and were willing to make a deal with hexum after going through an entire museum heist to repay their debt. i love the moments when ashton sees how much laudna is struggling and tells her, as gently as he can, to take a moment and do what she can to ground herself. i love that when laudna way too dramatically assumes they kidnapped imogen, their response is “that’s very fair.” it’s all wonderful, and i love them.

in conclusion: I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND I WANT TO LOCK THEM IN A ROOM AND FORCE THEM TO TALK ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS FOR HOURS.

laudna/fcg

laudna and fcg have been getting more attention in the past few days for obvious reasons and that has me rubbing my hands together maniacally because even though they have very little actual interaction, the subtext is delicious. 

besides ashton, fcg might be the character laudna parallels the most, especially their struggle with their humanity (if they’re even human at all), which isn’t helped by the constant dehumanization they face from outsiders, including the almost continuous comments they get when they meet someone new. people look at launda and see a horror while they look at fcg and see a novelty (he’s a robot with personality??), and those both suck. i think, for fcg, laudna is an uncomfortable reflection of himself because everything they’re afraid is true about themself is true about laudna. finding out they had a soul was such an important moment for his character (also remember his early campaign habit of calling other people “soul-touched folks”). as a hollow one, who knows if laudna even has a soul. if i’m honest, fcg seems to think less of laudna than the rest of the party (see: him calling her a “former person,” his speech before casting turn undead including, “no offense to laudna but can you please shine your light and wipe these evil, dead souls off the face of this flat planet?”) and that’s probably why. they have such strict ideas about “good,” which has become “godly,” and “wrong,” (“ungodly”), and within that framework, everything seemed to point to laudna as “ungodly,” which is why their empathy towards her is lacking. 

the biggest conflict between fcg and laudna right now is obviously their feelings on the gods. the changebringer brought fcg purpose and tangibly helps them on a daily basis. of course they want to share this incredible thing with everyone they meet, especially his friends. yet, time-and-time again, the world has shown laudna the gods don’t seem to care about her. before someone says anything, pike resurrecting laudna doesn’t automatically mean she has to trust the gods. clerics and paladins spent 30 years running her out of towns for existing and trying to kill her in the name of their gods. if the circumstances were different, there’s a good chance fcg could have been one of those people. for fcg, the world is black-and-white. for laudna, it’s all gray. laudna was able to have a conversation with imogen about the ruby vanguard’s message and the purpose of the gods because she understands the need to question things and thinks that’s a good thing even if she doesn’t agree with the conclusions. fcg’s not there yet, and until he is, their friendship with laudna will never be able to progress past where it is now.

in conclusion: please have a conversation, maybe even two or three. it’d be so good for fcg to learn the world’s incredible nuances and for laudna to see how faith in the gods can be an empowering force for good, not just something beyond her grasp.

laudna/fearne

out of all launda’s dynamics, this is the one i desperately want more of. we’ve gotten so little! almost all their moments are interactions between the three witches that tend to center imogen (making the red-string friendship bracelets and comforting imogen after she talked with relvin come to mind) OR center imogen and fearne’s mutual appreciation for laudna’s… everything. one of my favorite about fearne is that, like imogen, she doesn’t think laudna is gross and creepy, she thinks laudna is gorgeous and charming without any caveats. even ashton, who also loves laudna’s laudnaness, tends more towards “yeah, you’re disgusting and THAT’S why it’s great.”

the other main part of their dynamic i want to sink my teeth into is the coin-toss, more specifically fearne’s guilt over the coin toss. regardless of whether you think fearne lied (i personally find that headcanon FASCINATING but to each their own), she clearly feels so many emotions about having to pick whether to save laudna and orym that she hasn’t even begun to unpack. one of the few sole moments we’ve gotten of them was in episode 42 when laudna asked fearne to help teach her to cast fireball, and in it, fearne, unprompted, blurts out, “how’s it feel being alive again?” almost immediately. she also apologizes to laudna, says they’ll fight any piece of delilah that’s still in there, and tells her, “i missed you terribly for that moment in time.” even when laudna gives her the chance to make the conversation light-hearted, fearne stays so genuine, which is all the more-noteworthy because she’s usually so flippant and almost always keeps her real feelings close to her chest. 

some other examples of fearne’s guilt include: the 4sd where ashley said part of why she was so protective over imogen during their separation arc was that she couldn’t bear having to tell laudna anything happened to her and just this past episode when fearne’s protectiveness after laudna made her only cast first-level cure wounds on fcg after they cast turn undead.

in conclusion: PLEASE LET THEM INTERACT MORE. THERE’S SO MUCH JUICY POTENTIAL AND I WANT TO SEE IT EXPLORED.

laudna/chetney

i don’t have that much to say about them except that their dynamic is absolutely delightful. i love that we’ve gotten to see more of it in recent episodes, and i hope that continues. 

chetney exists at an interesting place between orym’s genuine discomfort and fearne and imogen’s complete enchantment with laudna’s undeadness. he is sometimes grossed out, but he also seems to accept it as a thing about laudna without too much judgment, or at least, that “judgment” is light-hearted in a way orym’s or even fcg’s isn’t.

i love that they’re the characters with the most life experience (even if laudna is technically the fourth oldest, fcg only has two years of memory and fearne is a 100+ but spent 99% of that time in one place) but also embrace being “childish” and silly together, like the entire sky-sail sequence! 

in conclusion: *gently holds* i just think they’re neat!

that’s all! if you read this whole thing, you get my eternal love and gratitude. thank you.

[morsesnotes]

Something really neat about Morse is that although he is out of step with the other young people around him, it's largely in a superficial way.

He might not dress like them, take drugs, or listen to the same music they do, but he sympathizes with what they're fighting for and shares their frustrations with the establishment. He's uncomfortable with overt sexuality/nudity, but he's not a total prude. He's a sexual person.

And he's open to hearing different perspectives. He doesn't just dismiss it as nonsense. He's affected and curious.

It's another example of how Morse is not only the most human detective, but easily one of the most human fictional characters I've ever seen. I'm so used to seeing writers milk the concept of a fish-out-of-water who refuses to engage with anything around them and acts like they know it all. Like Morse they're lonely, but they don't believe there's anything to be gained from listening to others. They embrace total anti-social behavior.

Morse has arrogance, sure, and yes he does isolate himself, but inside he's still a sensitive soul who doesn't really want to be an authoritative figure, desires intimacy, has doubts about what he believes, and cares about understanding the world around him.

[freakenomenon]

Hi friend :] I want to understand Ellen as a character better and you seem to have a good grasp on her, so could I ask about your ideas for her? No pressure though either !

YOURE ASKING ME ABOUT MY IDEAS FOR ELLEN?? IVE WAITED YEARS FOR SOMEONE TO ASK ME ABOUT MY IDEAS FOR ELLEN!!! /REF .. AGAIN

OKAY to start off. the biggest thing i noticed about her in particular that is pointed out better in the manual than it is displayed in the game is the fact she would rather run away or ignore a problem than actually deal with it and heal. and if you combine this with the fact she usually reacts to ( and CONFUSES ) her own fear with anger. or hostility.

stating herself that she hates crying because she knows she doesnt feel "sad" ,, she just wants to kicks someones ass. which is probably a trauma response. considering she grew up in a rather unsafe neighborhood, which resulted in the death of her brother and cousin. IM JUST RESTATING CANON HERE BUT MY POINT IS.

i feel like if in the game they reeled in the part of her character that is very clearly avoidant, distant and even frequently disassociative. they'd have. a character.

alongside the fact that it's implied she very clearly cannot grasp the concept of not being able to handle something. she's overcome almost everything in her life, but the moment she can't understand another humans feelings. or why another human would treat her the way. most of the people in her life have.

she's more familiar with algorithms than people after all. not to mention that nimdok ( ugh. ) says that ellen is honest to the point of being offensive. first of all fucking. Jesus autistic much. secondly this could also be due to her isolating herself and feeling more at home with her work and electronics than she is with people. a computer is easily fixable if she ends up fucking something up.

its not like you can remove a rom chip on a person and reprogram it to not feel insulted if you tell them they look like they have a dirty microwave. that is probably an oversimplification of my thoughts on that part, but you get the point.

now. to. just. get this part of her character out of the way. just. warning for mentions of rape , miscarriages and other nasty things ahead.

i am not saying that in the situation where someone were to rewrite the game. you have to completely remove the aspect of her being a victim of rape. i simply just think it could've been approached in a better way. as I've stated many times. personally i don't even know where to start with rewriting this aspect of her character??? the most i have is replacing the maintenance man with someone she might have known. just to add more to what I have. maybe a boss or coworker she was close with who exploited their position above her both in the workplace and within the more obvious racial bias of society at the time. using it against her as an excuse to break her boundaries, break down her defenses, and eventually take advantage of her. something like that. just so it has more of an impact on her as a whole, and make her relationship with intimacy and relationships with humans , platonic or not. more strained. having to scratch and fight with the core of her being that wants. and deserves proper intimacy and general care. to keep herself safe. to prevent herself from being violated like that again. her vulnerability is what caused her to end up in that spot. she cant let that happen again. she cant be a hopeless victim again. not again.

yknow because thats how trauma works. it actually effects the victims life in ways other than just ending up with fucked up trigger and a fucked up phobia. wow.

now to the other part of this. I'm. going to be so honest. I would just scrap the miscarriage stuff and the existence of eddie as a whole.

it's so meaningless and minuscule in her character that i bet my pinky toe that half the fandom would look at you like you just said something TED levels of crazy if you brought it up without further grueling context.

.. that's. actually all I've got for now if you trim off me just asking to further establish aspects of her character that i think are interesting. if you've got any questions ill be more than happy to answer! <3

[sky-fire-forever]

I started thinking about what each character from Our Flag Means Death would be the god of if they were gods, so...

Stede Bonnet: God of "the little things". He's the god to thank for the tiny details that add up to make life worth living. The god of stopping to smell the roses. The god of finding comfort in the things that make you happy. A god of joy and of hope. A non-violent god. A nurturer at his core. He is the breeze through your hair and the satisfaction of a job well done. He is the warmth of a partner beside you when you wake up in the morning and the taste of your tea at just the right temperature

Edward Teach: A god of change. Represented by the sea: always in motion, always unpredictable, always pushing and pulling in intense ways. The god of extremes: both good and bad. A god of intense emotions and stormy seas. A god of passion and desperation and the desire to reach up and meet the sun. God of the horizon: where the sea meets the sky. God of smooth sailing and of journeys. He's the god of the person you've become once the journey is done. He is the god of progress and of healing, protector of those who look in the mirror and no longer recognize the stranger who stares back at them.

Izzy Hands: The god of misplaced loyalty. God of unhealthy devotion. He is the god of blind love and all that implies. God of those blind to the suffering they cause others in the name of love and of those blind to their own suffering at the hands of those they love. He is the protector of children whose cries go unheard by parents who don't want them and the voice of lovers who get trapped in the same toxic cycles. He is the desperate reaching of hands begging to be held that are denied touch

Buttons: God of transformation. He is the god of an open-mind. He is the waves that crash upon the beaches and the seagulls who make their nests by the sea. He is yearning. He is the feeling of homesickness for a place you've never known. He is friends made in unlikely places and community found in isolation. He is the patron of long distance relationships, of the intense yearning to be with someone you can't touch. He is the belief that you will be held in the embrace of what you love

Frenchie: God of belief. He is the god of harmless superstition and ritual. The god of luck, both good and bad. He is the god of believing in what you can not prove to be true. The god of faith: faith in people and faith in himself. He is the believer. He is trust. He is the betrayal of that trust. He is manipulation and schemes and lies, but he is the love of the game. A trickster god who doubles as protector. He is unseen truths

Roach: God of meals. He is the god of sharing. The god of breaking bread with friends or strangers. The god of offering a helping hand. He is the god of laughter and of warmth. The god of house parties and of the intimacy of a home-cooked offering on a date. God of bake sales and of bringing people together. He is the god of community

Jim Jimenez: They are the god of the rejection of fate. The god of choosing your own destiny and creating your own path. God of rejection of the life others planned for you, the breaker of cycles. They are every child who rejected their parents' dreams and they are every person who turned their back on revenge. They are the protector of all who reject the concept of fate and inevitably

Oluwande Boodhari: The god of compassion. He is a hand extended to someone you don't understand. He is conversation rather than violence. He is the choice to try to know someone rather than write them off. He is the protector of the unheard and the unseen. He is unrequited love and he is everyone who searches for a friend. He is home in other people and the feeling of safety from a hug from a friend

Wee John Feeney: Goddess of fire and passion. He is the goddess of creativity and desire, the god of being more than what's expected of you. He is the god of inspiration, of when you create and can't stop making up new ideas. He is a mind overflowing with thoughts and the burning warmth of success. He is every project that people have started in excitement. Every work in progress is inspired by him

Lucius Spriggs: The god of artistic expression. He is all pieces of trauma art, of venting through the page what you can't speak aloud. He is a portrait of a lover painted only the way someone who loves them could. He is the creation of something to bring out the feelings inside that can not be expressed in any other way. He is all love songs and all stories from someone who used metaphor to unravel their feelings

Black Pete: God of stories and exaggeration. He is the god of the feeling of inadequacy when looking up to someone you admire. The desire to be respected and the desperation to be loved. He is the tiny white lies everyone tells now and again. He is compliments to make others feel good no matter their sincerity. He is friendship and joy in knowing parts of someone they want to be known. He is campfire tales and stories around the dinner table. He is legend and myth that ties people together

[angeldeviloshi]

I was typing out a post about some random thoughts wrt Denji's humanity and what his suffering is supposed to tell us about what fjmt is trying to illustrate in the narrative and world of csm beyond the superficial traits and concepts people tend to get hung up on but it got too convoluted so I'm trying again lol.

Something something, it's easy to blame individuals, singular entities (the yakuza, church, public safety) and even fjmt for what Denji is subjected to. But while the story neccesitates Denji's pain, the point (to me at least) is more about how Denji suffers the way he does because the world of csm isn't one that's inherently kind or forgiving, it's not a setting ruled by virtues or values but constructs built on control and exploit (which Makima incidentally represents as its avatar and how she blocks out the story to us through Denji's perception of her.)

This is to say that the causes of Denji's, suffering don't exist in a vacuum and the individuals that perpetuate Denji's pain are themselves vehicles enacting the violence and exploit of the authoritative structures of csm's setting onto Denji. Of which Denji is vulnerable and open to due to his naivete and ignorance in how to navigate the world growing up the way he does and the way he contextualises himself in the narrow scope of his life. It's his struggle as a country mouse subjected to the dangers of the city mouse reflected in his desires and the choices he has to make living as Chainsaw Man.

The dichotomy of Denji's humanity and devilhood as a hybrid tears him apart (often quite literally too) and this is presented early on in the story with Bat devil and Eternity devil arc where Denji's empathy for Power and his sexual curiosity as an isolated adolescent is filtered through a lens of toxic masculinity in his identity as Chainsaw Man into apathy and sexual objectification. Kishibe's framing of the dichotomy of humanity and the nature of devils in his exchange with Himeno and Denji at the cemetery, Himeno's advances on Denji as a "reward" wrt Denji's accomplishment against the Eternity Devil and his reaction to her death. Denji wondering if he stopped being a human after Pochita became his heart because he couldn't mourn for Himeno, his apathy to the Yakuza zombies he killed, his transformation into Chainsaw Man framed as an asset to the "good guys" of Public Safety because of the immunity it grants him and the threat he posseses allowing him to be a "hero". That Makima co-opts in her incentivising him to take down the Gun Devil for sex, which eventually kicked off Denji's official status as a hero to the public in him fighting and killing the Gun fiend and his decision to continue being Chainsaw Man for sex in the aftermath rippling into where we are in part 2.

But his early acts of heroism as Chainsaw Man were also due to Denji's personal sincere attempts at caring for other people even if the text frames it to us as what Denji is incentivised to do in order to achieve the sexual rewards dangled before him. Denji dreams of gratification and connection through intimacy and his ignorance eludes him to broader consequences to chase fleeting indulgences, baited by fancier cheese on the mouse trap (what International Assassins arc's overall theme was hinting towards) but he's still sentimental and compassionate at heart, he's capable of understanding the weight of the loss of innocent lives on his conscience, of feeling grief still and being nurturing. Though this is overlooked due to the emphasis on his pursuits and targetting as Chainsaw Man. Denji's kindness and his capacity to feel and love as a human are seen as a means to control him as a tool via his hybridhood as a devil or as effective resources to summon the Hero of Hell through his despair.

Denji suffers because he's a human forced to bear the weight of a being perceived as inhuman, terrifying and powerful. He's human in how he has desires to live in the moment, in the way he can't predict what can go wrong in his life, in the limitations of his understanding of the world and personal shortcomings and the way he's subjected to situations beyond his control even if being Chainsaw Man supposedly puts the world at his feet and he shares his body with a being that can change the fabric of reality. His suffering highlights his weaknesses as Denji against the overwhelming presence of the Chainsaw Man.

The Chainsaw Man as a celebrated hero is an illusion, like a set dressing. He's not the shonen hero who's remembered and rewarded for his virtues and triumphs because the world of csm is not moved by virtues as represented by Aki's fate and what it resulted in. It's not a world influenced by the hero's ideals but one where the hero is born iconized at the mercy of the ideals perpetuated and ruled by the systems of its world.

And I think it's this raw foundational integrity that fjmt wishes to preserve in csm where things are rarely as simple as they seem and there aren't easy solutions, things can just happen and its unfair, horrible and painful but life goes on and it comes down to what you make of it for better or worse.

I stayed up all night and it's now 11.33 am by the time I'm done typing this lol. Hopefully I'm making sense. Somewhat.

[yanderes-galore]

Romantic stolas headcanons?

Now that I've SEEN Apology Tour, I have IDEAS. Some of said ideas were discussed with @okchijt after we watched the episode together. Plus it was their idea to add the Octavia section :)

❗️Spoilers for Helluva Boss: Apology Tour❗️

Yandere! Stolas Concept

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Angst, Paranoia, Mature themes (Multiple mentions of intimacy and intercourse), Rebounding, Fear of abandonment, Stalking, Clingy behavior, Drinking, Dark themes, Toxic relationships, Imprisonment, Manipulation, Jealousy, Possessive behavior, Violence, Consensual turned forced relationship.

I'd imagine any of this would occur after his breakup with Blitzø.

Stolas is a lonely prince, one who doesn't have many friends and only ever loved Blitz for most of his life.

So imagine if he met you at Verosika's party during Apology Tour?

For the sake of this concept, maybe you were also hurt by Blitzø at some point.

You pity the prince, watching as he drowns himself in alcohol.

Soon you manage to make your way to him... seeing him an absolute mess on the couch.

Stolas is nervous to talk at first due to how isolated he is.

However, as you sit next to him on the couch, you allow him a shoulder to cry on.

Stolas takes some comfort in speaking with you.

You've been hurt by Blitz in the past... but you seem over it.

Honestly, Stolas just wants someone to talk and vent to since he has no one else.

Stolas just expected you to leave after your chat.

Instead... you put your hand on his shoulder... even if you were shorter than him.

"Wanna dance? Might take your mind off it. It's probably the best for both of us."

Stolas feels his cheeks flush when you make the offer.

He's flattered... taking your hand and following you to the dance floor.

Stolas wasn't expecting it... but spending time with you really was helping.

Dancing with you is exciting... It really did help him forget Blitz for a bit.

Then you kiss him... and his mind goes blank.

Afterwards, Stolas gives in to your advances.

By the end of the night you two are in bed and Stolas barely remembers Blitz due to all the alcohol and pleasure.

Stolas was so used to Blitz being rough in bed.

Yet with you? He... He didn't feel that.

You were soft, caring, you let him guide you both.

The intimacy between you two felt... healing.

It was enough to soothe his conflicted heart, even if you two were drunk fools.

But by the end of it all... Stolas couldn't help but feel loved when he saw you curled up.

Yes... Yes, this was what he needed.

Stolas hates it when you two eventually part.

He knows afterwards he has to come home to a messy divorce... and he'll just be reminded of Blitz...

Yet, when he goes home, he's comforted by how he felt with you.

That night you cared for him... you showed him love...!

Now... he can't help but crave it.

He originally tries to ignore his urges.

It was just one night... there's no way you'd want to do it again...

Yet Stolas can't help but look for you...

Once he finds you, he can't help but ask you for another round of your soothing touch.

He doesn't expect you to say yes...

But you do! Leading to you and him having an arrangement.

Essentially, you become his coping mechanism.

Stolas is ironically similar to Blitzø as a yandere.

He hates being alone and would first see his obsession as something similar to a rebound.

Your "relationship" with one another is very similar to what he's used to.

Intimacy. He views intimacy with you as a way to soothe his heart.

He knows intimacy with you isn't the same as it is with Blitzø.

Stolas doesn't even force it, you willingly offer to soothe his heart.

Your bond and his obsession starts as a way to cope.

But over time... Stolas realizes he really does love you.

Your relationship would actually start mostly healthy.

At first it's just intimacy to help Stolas cope.

Although... either you or Stolas would bring up the idea of actually... dating.

Stolas craves romance, just like the romantic films he watches.

He's overjoyed when you admit you want to give things a try.

Stolas is a yandere that's subtle, you wouldn't notice his red flags until later.

Stolas, like Blitz, struggles with relationships.

He's seen them in romantic films, yet is nervous.

Stolas fears he's reading you wrong, not wanting to repeat any of the mistakes he did with Blitz.

He's picking up on the right signs... right?

You really do love him, don't you?

I imagine Stolas would be insecure, even if your actions do show genuine love.

Stolas would fantasize about your relationship being similar to the shows he watches

He asks you to take him on little dates, to take long walks with him, to cuddle him....

Stolas comes off as corny because of the stuff he watches.

Between you and him... it isn't just about the intercourse.

You two start with a genuine connection, even if Stolas is rebounding.

Things only sour due to his growing obsession

Stolas is addicted to you...

He can't get enough of your kisses, your touch, and your words.

He feels so submissive and loved with you...

He never wants to let that go.

Stolas is scared of being left alone and losing what he has with you.

Ironically, that paranoia is what makes you distance yourself.

Stolas gets uneasy at the thought of you being with someone else.

The prince doesn't ever want to leave you, even after nights together he curls around you tighter.

Seeing you leave pains him... even if he knows you'll be back.

Stolas is sometimes insistent he at least follows you to a group hang out.

You try to decline, feeling Stolas would draw in too much attention as a prince.

Yet he always gives you such pleading eyes.

You end up often allowing him to tag along, the prince looking ecstatic that you're letting him come along.

Even if you said no, he pretends to go along with it...

Only for him to follow you around from a distance.

Stolas is definitely clingy.

He drags you to watch shows with him, he follows wherever you go...

He's so worried for you.

Stolas gets jealous, but he isn't as bad as most.

He tries hard to hide it.

He's stoic, watching with a silent glare as you mingle with your friends.

Once you're alone though he's clingy, often nipping (pecking?) at your skin in an attempt to gain your attention.

His lack of boundaries is what makes you begin to reconsider your relationship.

You love him, you really do...

But he is so scared to leave your side.

His possessive behavior is no doubt due to this fear.

Yet at the same time he tries to correct himself, wanting you to not seem overwhelmed.

The prince can only take so much, however....

He knows you love him, yet he still feels selfish.

He wants you to be just with him.

He wants you to rely on him.

Seeing you with others or being independent makes him fear you won't need him.

Stolas is a protective and clingy boyfriend.

For the most part he's submissive with you.

Although, Stolas has moments where he's stern.

I'm talking about times where he's overprotective and jealous.

Stolas doesn't want you hurt, in fact he's strong enough to protect you if you just let him.

However, these protective instincts he has and his jealousy...?

It drives you away from him.

Once you notice what you've gotten yourself into, you try to ask for space.

Something Stolas dreads.

When you ask for space, he immediately panics.

Wait! He can be better!

Please don't leave him... he's addicted to you.

You aren't supposed to leave him...!

Imagine if Stolas was so scared of losing you that he ends up trapping you.

He calls you to his home for one last night of intimacy, just between you before you have a break...

Then he traps you as though you're some royal pet.

Stolas doesn't want to be hurt again.

You helped him move on from Blitz... you showed him romance...!

What about all of your dates? Your little hangouts? Your intimacy?

Does it mean nothing?

No... No, that's not true.

You do love him...!

He'll show you he loves you... that you love him...!

It will all be okay... even with you trapped in his home he can still be romantic with you...!

He'll protect you, he'll prepare little inside dates, you can stay in his room...

Everything will be perfect...!

You can clearly tell that you wanting to leave him breaks the prince.

He loves you too much to let you go....

You're meant to be perfect...!

You're meant to be romantic together...!

Nothing will ruin this little fairytale fantasy you both have together...

Not even you.

🦉-Bonus -> Darling, Stolas, and Octavia-🦉

In terms of how Octavia would act towards you dating her dad, at first she feels disdain.

She thinks you'll also leave and doesn't try to be attached.

However... you most likely don't force any interactions with her.

She's going through enough with the divorce between her dad and mom.

So you merely offer help when she needs it and give her space.

As your relationship progresses, Stolas may try to encourage Octavia and you to have a parental bond.

Octavia no doubt ignores the idea at first....

If she wants a bond with you, she'll make a bond with you.

Due to you being considerate of her wishes and not forcing yourself into her life, Octavia may actually warm up to you.

It starts small... you and Octavia doing small things together.

Things like shopping, small chat, cooking...

Or even something simple like sending memes to each other.

It's all small and allows you two to form a genuine bond.

She isn't even yandere, she probably doesn't even know her dad is.

In fact, speaking of Stolas, he loves you two getting along.

He really does want a normal family, so seeing you all get along makes him want to keep you by his side more.

Keeping you is no longer just about Stolas... it's also for Octavia.

Stolas loves how happy you make his daughter.

She's always so happy around you, often asking Stolas when she'll see you again.

She even spends more time with Stolas now... it makes him so happy.

You three are so happy as a family...

Surely you will tolerate his behavior for her, no?

He won't let you leave him... not if Octavia is this happy now...!

[cynic-spirit]

A time before meeting and finding out about his soulmate y/n

Before Y/N entered Aemond Targaryen's life, the world around him was one defined by darkness and power. He was a mobster—a figure feared and respected within the shadows of the city. Aemond commanded loyalty and instilled fear in those who crossed him, his reputation forged through ruthless actions and calculated decisions. But even within the chaos of his existence, he often found himself grappling with an unsettling sense of emptiness.

As he sat alone in his lavish office, surrounded by expensive suits and the echoes of distant laughter from the party he had just hosted, Aemond gazed out at the city skyline. The glimmering lights offered a beautiful contrast to the cold reality of his life. He ran a hand through his silver hair, reflecting on the conversations he’d had earlier in the evening—well-dressed women eager for his attention, men seeking his favor. Yet none of it stirred anything within him. In the depths of his soul, a quiet voice whispered a longing for something more.

Aemond had always been told about soulmates, a concept that seemed both alluring and absurd. Stories of fated pairs, of threads connecting two souls, echoed in his mind. He had heard tales from friends and associates—how their soulmates brought joy and fulfillment, grounding them in a chaotic world. Yet, deep down, Aemond had convinced himself that such a connection was not meant for him. The idea of love felt like a distant dream, a fairytale reserved for those unburdened by the weight of their choices and actions.

He leaned back in his chair, sighing heavily. Could he ever have a soulmate? Would someone like him, with his past and present, ever be deserving of such a bond? The thought nagged at him, and a part of him scoffed at the notion. He was a man built on shadows and blood, a life immersed in crime where vulnerability was a luxury he could not afford. He had always brushed off the idea of love, dismissing it as a distraction. “I don’t need anyone,” he would tell himself, a mantra he repeated so often that he almost believed it.

Yet, despite his assertions, the loneliness crept in during quiet moments. There were times when he’d watch couples, the way they interacted with such ease and affection, and a pang of yearning would strike him. Aemond would feel a flicker of envy mixed with longing—a desire to experience the kind of love that seemed to light up the darkest corners of life. But he was trapped in a cycle of power, violence, and a façade he had built around himself, keeping everyone at a distance.

As he picked up a glass of scotch, he swirled the amber liquid, lost in thought. Was he truly destined to navigate his life alone? The idea gnawed at him, leaving a bitter taste in his mouth. He thought of his family, of Aegon and Helaena, and how they seemed to have found their places in the world, bonded by love and connection. Aemond felt like an outsider looking in, isolated in his power, yearning for the kind of intimacy he had never allowed himself to seek.

He took a sip of his drink, trying to drown out the noise of his introspection. Yet, the longing for companionship lingered, a ghost haunting the edges of his consciousness. Could he ever lower his guard enough to let someone in? Could there be a woman out there who would see him not as the ruthless mobster he was but as a man searching for a sense of belonging?

The thought of a soulmate seemed both tantalizing and terrifying. Aemond wanted to believe in it, yet he feared what it would mean for him. Vulnerability was a risk, and in his world, risks often led to disastrous consequences. So he buried the idea, reinforcing the walls he had built around his heart, convinced that he was better off alone.

But even as he pushed the thought away, a flicker of hope persisted in the back of his mind. Perhaps one day, he would meet someone who could break through his defenses—a woman who could see past the ruthless exterior and touch the wounded parts of his soul. Until then, Aemond would continue his life as a mobster, entrenched in power and fear, all the while wondering if fate had something greater in store for him.

[blakeswritingimagines]

Dating Yandere Jeepers Creepers Would Include:

As a yandere, he's obsessive and fiercely protective, with a strong desire to be the center of your attention and love. Jealousy fuels his actions, as he'll go to extremes to keep you all to himself. Obsessive monitoring, stalking, and possessiveness are part of the package, though with an underlying sweetness and a fierce loyalty to you.

He maintains a sense of ownership over you, often viewing you as "his" and becoming aggressive if he perceives any threat to your relationship. He may also exhibit controlling behaviors, dictating your interactions with others and attempting to isolate you from friends and family who he sees as competition.

He might be controlling, attempting to isolate you from others to maintain his exclusive bond. He'll also likely demand constant reassurance and affirmation of your love for him, seeking validation for his intense feelings. While he can be loving and affectionate, his need for control can sometimes blur the lines between passion and possessiveness.

He'll express his love through extravagant gestures and unwavering devotion, even to the point of obsession. Your safety and well-being are paramount to him, and he'll fiercely guard you against any perceived threats, real or imagined. Despite his possessiveness, he can be incredibly protective and caring, although his obsession can lead to possessive and controlling behavior.

His intense love and attachment can lead to possessive behavior, like tracking your phone, checking your messages, or even isolating you from friends and family. While he'll shower you with affection and gifts, it's all in the name of keeping you close and dependent on him.

His love is all-consuming, and he'll go to extremes to ensure you're never apart. Expect intense, unwavering devotion, often expressed through romantic gestures, gifts, and declarations of love. He may also display a willingness to resort to manipulation, control, or even violence to keep you with him.

He might exhibit a possessive nature not just over you but also the environment around you. He may feel territorial about shared spaces, asserting dominance and demanding that you pay attention to him. Additionally, his sense of self-worth is often deeply tied to your affection, leading to a constant need for reassurance and validation.

There's an element of hyper-focus with this yandere, where he becomes intensely dedicated to learning everything about you - your likes, dislikes, fears, and dreams. He collects personal items, like pictures or mementos, as tokens of his obsession. Privacy becomes an alien concept to him as he believes knowing everything about you is a form of intimacy.

The line between love and obsession blurs with his heightened sense of jealousy. If he perceives your interactions with others as too friendly or thinks someone else is interested in you, he might react with extreme jealousy, potentially leading to possessive or even violent outbursts. He also monitors your social media or phone to ensure no one else is encroaching on his claim over you.

Rewards in this twisted dynamic are often contingent on obedience. If you cater to his obsessive desires and show complete devotion to him, he may reward you with praise, tokens of affection, or small freedoms. However, any sign of rebellion or independence is met with punishment - ranging from emotional manipulation to outright threats. The rewards are a means to reinforce the power dynamic and control he seeks over you.

Punishments for not meeting his expectations are varied and can be harsh. He withdraws affection, ignores you completely, or subjects you to prolonged bouts of silence as a form of psychological torment. He also threatens to harm himself or others in response to your perceived disobedience, using emotional blackmail to ensure your compliance.

Arguments with this psycho are intense. He might become jealous or suspicious, perceiving your disagreement as a threat to the bond he's trying to maintain. Instead of constructive communication, he's likely to use underhanded tactics like guilt trips or manipulative tears. He's quick to forgive if you submit to his will, but any sign of resilience or insistence on your viewpoint could escalate into controlling or even dangerous behavior as he struggles to maintain the power dynamic.

The affection from him is a double-edged sword. He showers you with declarations of love, gifts, and words of endearment, but it's all laced with an undercurrent of possessiveness and manipulation. The line between love and obsession blurs as his affection becomes a means to control and dominate you, rather than a genuine expression of love. He sees you not just as a partner but as a prized possession to be kept under his tight grip.

Dates with him are more than just romantic outings - they're another tool for his possessive behavior. He'll plan every detail, likely choosing activities that align with his desires, showing a need to steer the direction of the date. He might test your loyalty by introducing scenarios where strangers or past connections might flirt with you, gauging your reaction to ensure that your attention remains solely on him.

He perceives potential threats to your relationship as a reason to eliminate them, believing that getting rid of those who could pose emotional or physical harm to you is the only way to secure your complete devotion. However, this act of violence often stems from an unhealthy desperation rather than a genuine desire for your protection.

There have been instances where individuals close to his beloved have tried to intervene, believing they're rescuing you from his "clutches." Typically, these attempts are futile as he's already established a strong hold on his darling, making it difficult for others to break the psychological bond you share. His obsession leads him to take proactive steps to prevent such interference, ensuring that you remain safely under his control.

Marriage, in this case, is not a union based on mutual respect and love but another extension of his possessive grip. He might insist on quick engagements or even propose to you in a way that doesn't allow dissent or choice. The wedding, in his mind, is a public declaration of his ownership over you. The concept of "forever" becomes a trap as he uses the institution to further bind you to him, both emotionally and legally.

The idea of children, just like every other aspect of life, is seen through the lens of his obsession. He might see children as a way to eternally bind you to him or as an opportunity to mold someone completely in his image. He might become intensely possessive and protective of the child as well, seeing any influence other than his own as a threat.

If you didn't want or couldn't have children, it would likely create tension in the relationship. While he may initially try to push or manipulate you to reconsider, ultimately he would have to accept this decision. However, his acceptance could come with a slew of emotional baggage, as it would challenge his deep-seated need for complete control and ownership. He might withdraw affection, or even begin to resent you for not giving him the family he desires, potentially creating further conflicts.

"I own you. You belong to me. You are mine and only mine. You will do everything I tell you. You will do whatever it takes to make me happy. I am your world, and I will not allow anyone to change that. You are nothing without me. You are nothing without my love."

Erotic humiliation - Degrading someone, putting you down, and making you feel inferior during sex can be incredibly arousing for him.

Bondage - Tying you up and taking control of your body is a huge turn-on for him. Seeing you helpless and at his mercy only amplifies the pleasure.

Masturbation - Watching himself or someone else masturbate can be incredibly erotic. The sight of fingers sliding over skin, or a hand gripping a throbbing cock...it's all so tantalizingly sensual to him.

Choking - The thought of his hands around your throat, squeezing just enough to make you gasp and squirm...it's a dangerous fantasy that sends shivers down his spine.

Spanking - The feeling and idea of his hand connecting with soft flesh...both are equally enticing.

[problemstarchild]

Don’t wanna NSFW TMI in the notes of somebody else’s post but I’m turning 30 this week and I’m a fat autistic virgin so like… I dunno!

Autistic people have sex for sure, but claiming it’s infantilizing to portray Laios as a mid-twenties virgin has always felt kinda insulting. Like a sexual history is a foregone conclusion once you hit puberty or something.

This reading of Laios is not about purity or infantilization for me!

It’s about fear. It’s about isolation. It’s about being denied connection to other people for so long and so thoroughly that you don’t even know how or where to start.

Is fear a thing we leave behind when we grow old? Are the 30 year olds who tremble behind scripture in fear of premarital sex also infant babies, or have they just had the concepts of physical intimacy and human connection associated so strongly with shame and excommunication that they’ve developed neuroses about it?

Who’s part of this presumed sexual history, by the way? The schoolboys that tore his beloved guidebook to shreds? Maybe the guys in the army who pinned him down and beat him? Or the head of the caravan that took advantage of him and made him work for free? The gold stripping crew?

I can very easily believe that Laios has either zero sexual history or a ton, but whatever the case, the way I perceive how his autism intersects with his sex life isn’t about having or not having sex — it’s about a failure to connect on any meaningful level. His only friend was his baby sister, quite possibly until he turned 23 and started his own adventuring party!

Either he’s having heaps of faceless nameless sex with strangers to blow off steam, or he’s just never even bothered trying to pursue other humans that way because in his mind, he had been rejected as a fellow human from the moment he was born.

Sex is not a given. It is not presumed. It is not something that makes you more mature, or more of a person, or more worthy of respect.

I agree that it’s intensely insulting to portray Laios as if he doesn’t know what sex is — he’s a biology enthusiast who loves studying animals and plants and monsters and knows the differences between harpy and human reproduction, he even knows how monster flowers and bugs fuck and will happily tell you all about it — but it’s equally insulting to imply that to portray him without a sexual history of his own is to deny him personhood, or maturity, or realism.