#omg it’s been a time uh?

[making-my-wey-down-town]

Slides this in-

Happy Mermay y’all, I’m back and drawing my sirens as an peace offering.

Somebody very happy to see you, while the other…. Needs some time.

[demaparbat-hp]

Almost

[intotheelliwoods]

Poptart to Poptart to Poptart to Poptart communication.

[tommygotwrittenoff]

i just think if roles were reversed and buck was the one saying those gay ass lines to eddie, eddie wouldve proposed like four seasons ago

[mortysmith]

Fuck you season five episode nine genuinely some of the worst shit they clobbered together

[berribeat]

My artfight summary except i didnt get to do anything?!?!?!? My bad team college kept me busier than i thought it would 💀

tadaa :D

Credits in order of image:

1- Spacetime, belongs to @grief-chapter, their toyhouse is here, and this is their artfight!!

2- Himalia and Pandora, belongs to Quivv, they have a YouTube channel!!

3- Clara Dorothee, belongs to @solobodor, here's her artfight!!

4- Eight, belongs to eightpng, here's their Tiktok

5- Calypso, belongs to Expiredtoast, here's their site

6- Finn, belongs to @ki1ldeer, and here's their artfight!

[tecchous-thicc-buttocks]

blorbos in tha phone

[mad-hunts]

one thing about barton is that he (unfortunately) has the most dead-eyed stare half the time, even when he's describing something extremely traumatic that happened to him, so people may not know whether it's due to the fact that he just doesn't feel like he has ' life ' in him or if this is because he was really messed up by the trauma (it's both. it's both in most cases)

[lystring]

@orangenottangerineart drew my dnd character Bird!!!! I couldn't be happier omg ♥️😻 she's a tabaxi bard, a disgraced court jester, n honestly just a silly lil kittycat

[yeyayeya]

School has been fucking me up, but now I am free

Expect for me to reblog shit and talk about nonsense now since I am going on vacation lol

[taruruchi]

I'm afraid prime yapping time for me is beyond 12 am 😭😭 Sorry to followers who are awake during the hours I'm most alive bc once I start yapping I cannot seem to stop

[maraeffect]

hi everyone, this is my monthly check-in <3

[themyscirah]

Wait omg..... Jessica Cruz probably did rifle... my specialized sports knowledge coming in CLUTCH

Okay so I barely practiced and made it to regionals like once so im NOT the expert here but uh headcanoning that Jess did air rifle when she was a teen. Like idk if it would be as part of a team like with a high school (what I'm familiar with) vs like an individual thing vs like a travel/competitive team (it depends on the sitch in her area growing up) but she definitely went to some national matches (probably including JOs/JO quals like i think she was GOOD). I think she probably would have quit competitively following a bad shot at nationals (relatable) along with anxiety about competition (ALSO relatable) but still kept up with shooting casually for fun and relaxation and to hang out with friends etc.

She definitely would have shot smallbore competitively too but I never did that bc I was lazy so idk to much abt it competitively

[treemice]

I know teen girls are stereotyped to self diagnose with all kinds of personality disorders ("OMG I'm so bipolar" kind of vibe) but do they actually do that? And when they do do they actually believe that they have it? I'm asking this AS a teen kind-of-girl

Because on one hand if they actually believe it I'd understand because idk estrogen makes me gen feel like I'm going fucking insane sometimes. I'm not really a mentally healthy person, I'm prone to depressive episodes and I've been passively suicidal for most of my life, I've had OCD since I was like 7 and I've struggled with SH, so maybe it's just my autism brain thinking that everyone's being literal about that. But idk I've felt like... like a danger to myself before just on the basis of "I'm not normally in this good of a mood, my blood feels like it's dancing, if I jumped off the school balcony i bet I'd survive" and while I know that that's not true and I'd DIE i feel like i have 2 brains, the irrational emotional one, and the logical "you will die don't be a dumbass"/"you're being paranoid relax" one. And when I'm feeling irrational I get scared because I dont feel like i can trust myself to not do something dangerous.

But on the other if they don't mean it its caused me to think a lot of "phases" is normal. Like I was actively suicidal when I was 12 and when i watched a movie about a 12 year old girl that was depressed and a doctor said "being 12 is just one of those ages" I assumed it meant that being suicidal was a normal part of growing up and it'd go away in time.

[wellhalesbells]

anyone heard of this show?

okay if anyone can help me find this i will love you forever bc i know it is not actually worth the hours-long effort it would take me to find this (if i ever did) so back in the day i used to just find random gay storylines on youtube and watch them, like you do. one of them had two guys in suits making out in the woods after one of them was supposed to get married and instead decided to make out with his best man-ish type person. the actual show was SO WEIRD (i watched it all the way through once, i think it was about six or eight eps and from the cut down with just the two dudes you would never know how strange it was. i think aliens were involved??? i can't remember if it was subtitled or not, my brain now wants to say it was uk - maybe scottish - but i don't know if we can trust that). i know they were work buddies first and it took marrying-dude until his wedding to realize he loved his friend as more than a friend.

[hideyseek]

9.09.2023

its so interesting as im writing narrative!fic the way that each subsequent draft / outline gets me closer and closer to a version of the fic that is ... true to the original conception? like i started gathering notes and ideas for this fic in earnest in ... 2021, like spring/summer 2021 and only today have finally put together an outline that FEELS like i am really, really close.

actually it's not even an outline it is a bunch of bulletpoint freewriting in a google doc that is roughly in the order of the series of events in the fic. i made a note to clean it into an outline later. but ohhh my god i finally!

like its been literally 4 drafts, i am slightly frightened to count how many words of draft material (probably about 60k give or take 15-20k), but THIS outline! i finally have the throughline of haiji's character arc through the fic, i've finally like .... idk. pared it down to the core parts and they magically (throug the power of thinking about this fic near-constantly since 2021) fit together now. THANK FUCK!

i told my old roommate i would send them a completed draft to beta like. two years ago.

i still don't know how this fucking fic ends but i have OPTIONS that probably will all require drafting out and revising before i pick sigh. but ohhhhhhhh my god this has NOT BEEN FUN but it is SO REWARDING to finally fucking hit (for like the third time) the feeling of "oh okay. i figured another thing out about how this story is going to work. it's going to come together now."

admittedly i said that to myself the last several times but THIS TIME I FIGURED OUT THE JOURNALING AND HAIJI'S WHOLE CHARACTER ARC and there is CAUSATION AND EVERYTHING which there sure was not before ahahaha. god this time i figured out the journaling!!!

and yes this is uhhhhhhhhhh an incredibly personal reading of haiji, i truly feel that my irl friends will kind of squint knowingly. but ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh A MILESTONE!

a milestone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!