#ok im going 2 kms now

[jackietaylorsghost]

Cloud Strife & Aerith Gainsborough FINAL FANTASY VII REMAKE (2020) ➙ FINAL FANTASY VII REBIRTH (2024) dev. Square Enix

[jrueships]

Bought one of my lil nephew giannis shoes for his birthday bcs he loves giannis and these are some of the ugliest fucking things I have ever laid my eyes on in my life. anyways it's his bday today so i gave them to him. but they are so ugly. he loves them

[syncast-err0r]

BIITTTTCCCCHHHH WHAT WAS I THINKINGN FMEJFKKFJGK FUCKKK ME

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erm

[luvhughes43]

instagram official | blake hughes au

blake hughes masterlist

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blake.hughes life lately :)

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jackhughes suit jacket looks a lil familiar...🧐

blake.hughes oh really?😁

nicohischier whoevers jacket it is has really nice taste! liked by blake.hughes

trevorzegras 🤭🤭

user00 wtf are u giggling about?

blake.hughes wait trev do u know?

trevorzegras yea jack called a mandatory ft a few days ago

blake.hughes omfg??

trevorzegras im happy for u goldie!

user01 BLAKE WATCH OUT!!! THERES A MAN BESIDE U!!

user02 blakes got a bf? omg im so happy for her

user03 monroes the cutest cat omfg

user04 wait can we acknowledge trevor calling blake goldie? what is that

user05 its been a thing for awhile now! he started calling her goldie after she won olympic gold! he mentioned it in an interview or something i think

user04 NICO NICO NICO

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nicohischier Happy Holidays!😈❤️

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jackhughes 🔥🔥

blake.hughes 😈

user09 using the "😈" when soft launching ur teammates sister is crazy

user10 waittt who's he dating?

user09 streets are saying hes dating blake hughes! she recently posted a soft launch AND she was caught liking thirst edits of him😭

user10 oh theyre so unserious😭😭

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blake.hughes added to their story !

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nicohischier the best december :)

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blake.hughes :)

blake.hughes you make me beyond happy

nicohischier Du bringst mich zum Lächeln❤️

jackhughes nice but was the last pic really necessary?

nicohischer my bad

lhughes_06 does this mean I get to call you dad now?

jackhughes no

_quinnhughes no

user17 BLAKE???????

user18 OMFG ITS CONFIRMED THEY BOTH POSTED

user18 at the same time too like thats soulmatism😭🙏

user19 nicos reply in german... im gonna kms theyre so cute wtf😭

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blake.hughes my nico<3

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jackhughes … yours🤨

jackhughes pretty sure he was mine first bud

blake.hughes right but out of the two of us, who does he spend his nights with?

jackhughes WOAH?????

trevorzegras i think he’s ALL of ours

jackhughes no

blake.hughes no

nicohischier my girl❤️

trevorzegras 👽🍿

blake.hughes ok

_quinnhughes FINALLY🙏

jackhughes ?

_quinnhughes i’ve been waited for MONTHS for them to go ig official you don’t understand

jackhughes how tf did you find out so soon? Dawson literally told me like 2 weeks ago

_quinnhughes I know everything.

jackhughes alright mr. “i don’t really consider myself someone who knows what’s going on”

_quinnhughes they probably could’ve made out in front of you and you still wouldn’t have realized… mr. “I didn’t know there was a city in New Jersey”

trevorzegras Trevor ZEGRAS🧡

user20 in every pic of blake and nico hes always touching her in some way... like he loves her so bad they are my parents

user21 THE WAY BLAKE LOOKS AT NICO IM GOING TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE THEY LOOK SO IN LOVE

user22 oh to be a fly on the wall when jack found out about the news...

user23 bro was definitely pouting he has such intense middle child syndrome

user24 MY NICO... MY GIRL??? ?OHHH ITS SO OVER THEY'RE SO DAMN CUTE

user25 i'm so glad that blake is happy after everything that happened... she deserves it the most<33

user26 NICO AND BLAKE ARE FR DATING??? WHY WHY WHY WHY

user27 ? get serious

[vechter]

Top 5 DickRoy moments ? 💜

what if i just put all of outsiders 2003 here... ok but fr i'm going to limit myself to panels where they're both interacting with each other (and not mention the times they're thinking about each other like freaks)... lesgo:

5) bit of a cop out bc this is two separate instances from action comics (1938) #632-633:

but listen... dickroy arguing like an old married couple and dick hypocritically bullying roy about his driving... it's so important to me!!! also they're so nasty... ur in the middle of being attacked by all these random enemies whose allegiances are murky... and you have time to flirt? freak4freak

4) titans (1999) #44:

dick's innate need to be in control versus roy harper's fear of not being good enough... meet and collide. also just how expressive roy is in that last panel whereas dick has his standard bat-brand poker face on... i hate them actually. it's a wonder they don't resort to violence more often i want to deck them both 80% of the time when they interact with each other. since we're doing this titans run, honorary mention to this moment from #42:

get help, freaks!!! enabling but with their compounded trauma... it's Sick actually

3) this moment from batman plus arsenal (1997):

just two dumb bitches telling each other exactly... they're actually so stupid i hate them. also something how instinctively roy heeds dick's commands... all those combined authority issues intermingling with this heady faith in the guy who has led you since you were kids

2) outsiders (2003) #11:

WHERE DO I BEGIN... the earnestness on dick's face, the way roy attempts to bypass that kind of affection&devotion with humour... and not just any humour: self-deprecating humour... babe you wanted dick to open up this entire time... and now that he lets a moment of that shared history come to surface and vocalizes the depth of his feelings and trust for u... it's too much. IM SICK ACTUALLY

1) gotta be the gun scene from the same issue. absolutely unhinged stuff:

what if we were two guys grieving the death of one of the most important people in our lives and i nearly met the same fate as her... what if you trained something lethal on me but i knew that you would never take the shot... what would we do with all that belief and trust. how do you vocalize that kind of faith? you can't so you ask him to take the gun from you... im gonna kms

come ask me my top 5!

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

INTRODUCING THE NEW AND IMPROVED COMFYBAG

yall remember how JUST last night i was saying i needed 2 get a new backpack

[iloveslllycatss]

## "𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐏𝐀𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘"

𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 ! 𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘣𝘺 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘯𝘦 𝘹 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘴 ! 𝘍𝘖𝘙 𝘔𝘓 𝘏𝘈𝘉𝘐𝘉𝘛𝘐 𝘕𝘈𝘋𝘖𝘖𝘕 @sttarzxx 𝘢𝘭𝘴𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘧𝘧 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘬, the paraghraph text and response to it was copy and pasted from me and the dude this happened to me withs chat......... 𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 ! 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘴𝘵 2 𝘧𝘭𝘶𝘧𝘧, 𝘋𝘠𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘐𝘕𝘚𝘐𝘋𝘌 (𝘫𝘬)

"im gonna do it. im gonna text him."

you were on vc with your best friend. for context, you had a crush. a MASSIVE crush on a boy named robby. you had liked him for 2 years now, the only bad thing? you guys were barely friends. you guys had a class together, and he would always talk to you (hed call u weird when u declared you were spiderman.).. all until you left school for second semester. you hadnt seen robby in about 6 months, but you still liked him (attachment issues go hard). u guys used to text, too. itd mostly be u texting with double chats and him replying in a dry way... but u still liked him AHAHA, so 2 days ago.. you asked your friend for his number...

"hey"

you texted, and he replied right away

"hi"

after that, you guys had texted for 5 minutes, asking things like "hru" or "wyd" until he finally said

"who even are u?"

your eyes widened seeing this, and you were a pussy, so you said

"im f/n (fake name)"

you guys, for another day kept texting back and fourth.. the only thing is, you acted like u didnt have a clue who he was, what he liked, and what he did.

"i do karate, i think its cool to have balance in your life and karate gave me that."

..... you already knew that, but you couldnt help but act like u didnt.

it was like u two havent met eachother. but little did u know, he was observant as fuck.

"you know u remind me of someone, u text the same as her. her name is y/n"

he said, and ur eyes widened. u couldnt believe that he had memorized your texting style. but you were a pussy, so u denied it.

a couple days go by and u guys still text, you overthink everything he says and you were starting to think your friends were getting tired of you ranting ab it to them all the time. there was this one time where u two had been talking, and the convo? it wasnt good. at all.

"k"

he said, and you furrowed ur eyebrows...

"WYM K?? THATS LIKE THE DRIEST MESSAGE EVER"

....

"yeah ik"

...... what? you couldnt believe it. was he bored of u already? were u being too annoying? were u just a bother?

your heart sunk, and u felt ur knees go weak. not weak in a "i just folded" typa way, but in a "im gonna kms" typa way.

your thoughts kept flooding with things like "i just annoyed him" or "he doesnt want to talk to me anymore." and you wanted to cry.

you start to rant ab it to your friends, balling ur eyes out as u do, you were in ur head about it, letting it get to you. your hands trembled as u typed about it to your friends. you had always been insecure about your personality, not wanting ppl to see u as too much or crazy. so u finally replied to him.

"ok"

its been 15 since youve been on delivered (or read, he didnt have read recipts on)

u desperately wanted to talk to him so u sent anotyher message

"hihii"

when he replied, you got so happy u forgot about the fact that you were crying about him the night before. but the thing is, he would leave u on read the whole day, and it stressed u out.

everyone had been telling u to just tell him who u were, and to stop being a pussy. hell, even snap ai wasnt on your side. so u write a paragraph, wanting to send it to him

"hi robby, so ive been feeling kinda bad recently for this and i hope u forgive me and that this doesnt ruin our 'friendship' kinda thing going on, basically i lied ab like a couple things and i feel bad IFDJNEJN so uh im y/n (u guessed right kinda craz) and IK I LIED AB NOT KNOWING B/F/N BUT I FELT LIKE ITD BECOME AWKS and stuff, f/n is my online name since ion give my real name out (and its a nickname my freinds call me), im sorry for acting like i didnt know who u were i was just being a pussy difjejfn but the truth is i asked b/f/n to send me a bunch of (school name) numbers and u was like the only person (other than 2 girls) who texted me back and I DIDNT KNWO IT WASS U AT FIRST but when u told me who u were i didnt know how to keep the 'friendship' going (r we friends??? idek atp) nd ik this is gonna make everything awkward and stuff but uh yeah im really really sorry for lying 2 u and i hope we can still b friends lol (ts up 2 u//im coming back next year too so idk if that helps EKJFNEIJNF)"

SENT !

... you were stressing atp, would he block u? would he be dry? would he ghost u? say "oh ok"? call u weird and tell everyone?

you didnt know how to feel, you wanted to cry. you were in ur head about this whole situation and u couldnt help but overthink. so u turn to your best friends, wanting-- no, needing reassurance. they continue to tell u its okay and that he wont break your heart. but you cant help it, that feeling. that feeling of your heart sinking, the feeling of the lump that forms in your throat, the feeling where you just want to feel better. but you cant. you were paranoid. you were tearing up. but you forced yourself not to cry, u didnt wnat to be a crybaby, but u couldnt help it. the tears had already formed and started to fall, your vision fogging up and your eyelashes wet. you couldnt believe u thought ur lifew could be like a wattpad love story. you were cracking your knuckles and picking at the skin around your cuticles, something u did when u were stressed. you then went to bed, hoping everything would be okay.

the next morning u wake up. the first thing u do is check every other social media and dm before his, you had a feeling he was gonna make u cry (again).

when u finally open the text, your whole expression lights up.

"I mean I suspected it and I am personally fine with the lie you told and yea I can forgive u but as you know I am a dry texter"

you were so happy. u couldnt believe it. you quickly change his contact name back from "oh" to "ROBBYYY! <33" and you smiled so big your jaw started to hurt

maybe there was a chance.

@/ilovesillycats

plz dont copy my work 😞

[trudnadusza14]

14-26.09.2024

Coś ostatnio mam pogłębiające się stany depresyjne.

W sumie szczerze powiem że nic takiego niewiadomo jak złego się nie działo

Jakoś tak nagle stałam się płaczliwa i odizolowana

Może mam jeszcze jakaś siłę na realizację pasji np rysowanie czytanie ćwiczenia ale totalnie coraz bardziej kończą mi się siły na rozmowy,wychodzenie z domu itd

Jem też coraz mniej choć niby w takich stanach to normalne

Coraz rzadziej na zajęcia

Odwołałam nawet poniedziałkową sesje u terapeutki

I dziwię się bo ogólnie zawsze odzwania jak coś napiszę żeby chociażby umówić się na inny termin

Tymbardziej jak w SMS nie podałam powodu

Nie mam jakoś siły na rozmowę z nią ani też siedzenie bez słowa.

Tak w ogóle niedawno miałam takie dziwne uczucie

Mieliście może coś takiego że jakby macie pusty żołądek pijecie mało wody a czujecie jakbyście właśnie wychlali 2 litry wody naraz ?

Takie często mam uczucie jak mam stany depresyjne

Nie wiem skąd się to bierze

Strasznie dziwne uczucie

Szkoły jeszcze nie było,wyobraźcie sobie xD

A w sobotę jak miałam jechać na rozpoczęcie pomyliłam budynki o 2 km 😂

Więc ostatecznie nie poszłam

W tą sobotę wreszcie będą lekcje. Zobaczymy czy się odnajdę

Mój wujek miał udar i wylądował w szpitalu,niby pisze że nic mu nie jest ale on nawet jakby umierał pisał by że jest ok

Więc znam te taktyke

A tak z pozytywnych rzeczy. Będzie drugi kot..

Czemu jak mam takie silniejsze stany depresyjne to w moje życie wskakuje nagle nowe zwierzę ?

Rok temu tak z kiarą było. Miałam popełnić samobójstwo,ponowić próbę która mi się prawie udała a tu na drodze ... Mały niecało 2 tygodniowy kotek błąkający się za mną

A jak wzięłam ją na ręce to ciągle mruczała

Albo wskakiwanie mamusi do plecaka,przewidywanie ataków padaczkowych czy jak teraz mam te stany depresyjne to ta jak nie wychodzę 5 minut z łazienki to od razu myśli kot najgorsze i mialczy jakby go torturowali

To jest ta cudowna kotka

Nie wiem jak ją nazwę

Najlepsze że pani z warzywniaka chce mi go podarować

Nie wiem czemu zawsze w takich stanach nowe zwierzę.

Będzie w ten weekend albo w nowym tygodniu

I takie jeszcze mam rzeczy 🤔

Halloweenowy rysunek,szczerze klimat niezły wyszedł. Tak na spontanie

I obraz

Wznosząc się mimo trudności

Jak tu widać wszędzie meduzy które parzą,a i tak dziewczyna budując wieże z kamieni czyli dostępnych środków jakie miała dostępne na dnie morza wykorzystuje je. I idzie coraz wyżej obserwując ocean dookoła. Wie że nie ma co się bać meduz bo tak nic nie zdziala. Więc idzie coraz wyżej pragnąc się wydostać spod wody mimo że się przyzwyczaiła to jednak tonie i pragnie przestać tonąć

A te wodorosty to im starsze fundamenty tym więcej wodorostów

A na ten pomysł wpadłam latem,teraz dopiero ten obraz skończyłam

Kiedyś malarstwo mnie uratowało z any to nie wiem czemu za to teraz to tak nie dziala

Nie wiem czy ten nawrót jest gorszy czy co.

Najbardziej oczekuje teraz chyba na wizytę u psychiatry i tego kota

I mam nadzieję że zdyscyplinuje się i będę pisać częściej

Do zobaczenia

Trzymajcie się kochani ❤️

[nomairuins]

and also it doesnt even matter if i miraculously get a job tmrw bc we don't have a car . and im too out of shape to walk anywhere bc everything is far away . so i genuinely dont jnow what to do

[nardonotes]

22 oct '24

9:05pm

well. (ᴗ_ ᴗ。) i am very disappointed in myself. i did NOT wake up for class.... the crazy part is, i actually did! and i put my shirt on (i sleep without a shirt on) and then BOOM. suddenly im like sitting up asleep with my shirt on and it's 2pm. and my ass just went back to sleep because like what the fuck was the point !! i knocked out till 5pm. (╥_╥) i was really tired. i think it's the weather. like it's definitely the weather that's making me so tired... ill blame seasonal depression kicking in.

it's ok though, i got an email from my lecturer for tomorrows class that there's no class tomorrow !! YAYYYYY !!!!!!! ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ ) im so happy about it. im going to get coffee with a friend tomorrow after she's done work too so i can feel more productive cause these past few days, i have just been acting like a bum ! but anyways,,,

i can't believe it's mid october ALREADY!! it flew by so fast man, that shit is so crazy. the fact that months are going by like weeks. we literally have 2 more months AND I AM STILL BROKE WAAAAHHH WHAT WILL I DO FOR CHRISTMAS ...... ૮(˶╥︿╥)ა ... i will struggle so hard. but lemme not think about that now. we're getting there.

i wanted to do some work to keep myself on track of school work and because i feel guilty from not showing up to class like,, fuck!!! but i know myself. i will catch up well. i will be there. i am so fast with my work too like. one thing about me is that im QUICK !!!! i am just a heavy procrastinator (,,>﹏<,,) and i've been playing so much apex.. i finally got wattson like im so happy!! she's so fun to play, and yk what,,, i also got the battle pass. im such a loser virgin i should just kms -_-"

omf i also had a really weird dream half asleep this morning,, cause i half asleep texted the girl im going on a date with sunday and in my dream she was mean asl.. TOT..... my brain is so quick to villainise people i like so i can be prepared for rejection. lord save me pls!!!!!

ok ciao ciao,, ill probably edit and journal some more... goodnight !!

song of the day: Panavision by Roy Blair ~ ✧₊⁺

[tonydaddingham]

✨ episode 5 - running commentary✨

- this episode better be the one to Alter My Brain Chemistry, I NEED AN explanation for the too fast for me scene pls

- THEY BETTER KISS I S2G

- right okay hi shax I hate you 😘 but Miranda is killing WAIT TEN THOUSAND WHAT THATA OVERKILL ITS ONE SILLY BILLY ANGEL AND A DUMB ASS DEMON

- "can I watch" crowley TONE IT DOWN KINKY BOY

- "there will be sandwiches" LOL IM IN BABES

- DOCTOR WHO lmao harpischord guy get fucking SERVED

- HES JUST TEMPTED SOMEONE AND GIVEN AWAY A BOOK??? my guy going through some ROUGH character development

- hell is literally so understaffed wtf

- MAGIC SHOP AGAIN YES

- ERDNASE REFERENCE ERDNASE REFERENCE

- Crowley is so proud of his husband BUT THAT FEZ NEEDS TO GOOOOO

- neil if you ever read this pls can we have aziraphale be a permanent party planner bc he does the mostest and pls ignore my criticism of ep1 and 2 I take it all back pls pls more aziraphale planning tf out of shit

- SHAX MOMMY YES💅💅💅 ALSO ERIC MY BELOVED My sweet baby boy

- FRENCH AZIRAPHALE YOU NEED TO STOP crowley is FED UP he looks like a kid whose mum got caught chatting at the supermarket

- aziraphale pls stop

- NINA KNOWS WHATS UP GAY SPOTS GAY

- no crowley don't make that face no why why why WHY YOU LOOKING LIKE THAT😭😭😭✨ he loves you CROWLEY YOU BLIND FUCKKNG IDIOT and you love HIM you emotionally stunTED APE

- the glasses and sideburns are still BUGGING ME someone explain did he go shOPPING OFF SCREEN????

- ERIC NO BYEBYE MY LOVERRRRR

- wow that was a long pre credit bit wtf

- DATE???? oh no crowley is pulling away no no no

- "SMUT?" fucking OKAY??? DO IT THEN YOU PUSSY ASS BITCH✨💓

- fuck they're about to have a Conversation aren't they and get drunk and it's about to get EMOTIONAL

- Crowley FUCK

- CROWLEY BOO

- "friend" ok lol

- he's about to throw mf HANDS but goob is so innocent NO WAIT CROWLEY NO DOMT DO THAT oh thank fuck

- matchbox ajamakajalam sns

- lmao the growth that Crowley just did in 30 seconds gave me WHIPLASH

- Muriel no pls don't do it bbygirl💓💓 OH GOD YOUVE GONE DONE IT NOW

- ah Jim's mug

- DECORATING MIRACLES YES BABY

- WAIT AND SEE ✨✨✨✨

- oh aziraphale I love u so MUCH 😭😭😭

- Mrs sandwich I LOVE HER no aziraphale don't ask pls bby

- CROWLEY WHAT U SNIFFIN HONEY UR LIKE A BLOODHOUND FOR TROUBLE WHAT A POWER

- GOOB YOU ARE FABULOUS DARLING I LOVE JT✨

- "you young people"

- F BOMB FUCK YES

- oh no Maggie no not you CROWLEY YOU HERO GOD BLESS tell em babes

- lmao are they even gonna get to dance this is so stressful

- Mrs sandwich just chill out honey you are a madam SEX WORK IS VALID REAL WORK I said what I said

- "have a vol au vent" SO MARRIED💓

- omg am i now liking Maggie and nina hmmmmmmm AZIRAPHALE'S FACE crowley you could have that IF YOU EVEN TRIED MY GUY

- I HAVE SUCH JACKET ENVY LMAOOOO goob you are the only valid character

- WHAT no stop goob stop

- fuck OFF THEY ACTUALLY SANCE FUXK KM SWEATINF NOOOOOOK💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

- AHHHHHHHHHHHHH BOYS PLEASE

- well fuck that's put a spanner in the works

- aziraphale go fucking NAILS GET THEIR ASS oh that's not good✨

- GOOBY NO BE QUIET SHHHHHH

- GOOB NO

- NO GOOB

- the mf coat is SPECTACULAR ✨✨✨✨ did they spend the whole budget on it???? HES SO FABULOUS AND FRUITY

- oh my god the miracle is working against them fuck

- the fact that the humans are just chilling lmaoooo

- NEIL WE NEED CROWLEY AS A LAWYER PLS THANK U they just got SEVRED✨💓

- lmao IT WAS FAKE HAHAHAHAHA

- Mr brown shut up pipe down back in your box

- see that's what you get when you run your mouth

- IS THIS EVERY

- CMON GIVE ME EVERY

- oh my god crowley is the PATRON VIRGIN saint of sex work I LIVE FOR IT god bless or maybe not

- IS THAT A PRAISE KINK I SEE

- "rescuing me makes him so happy" FUCKING DECEASED

- Muriel lmao we know this it's ok bby take HIM TO HEAVEN IN THE ANGEL-ON-THE-ASS TRACKSUIT

- the MUSIC OKAY ITS GOOD NOW YES YES YES✨

- GOING UP

- I'm dead

[thetenamongstthesethrees]

TW: REFERENCE TO SH AND RELAPSE OF SH AND SUICIDE ATTEMPT

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Ok so ik ive been inactive for a *WHILE* and im srry for that but like i have a buncha things that happened these past 3 months that I NEED To share SOOOO....

First things first, the one im most excited abt: I DID MY FIRST PERFORMANCE!!! My school was doing little mermaid jr and I got Scuttle! I was really happy to get my first role and getting at least one solo, and Im just happy overall on how it went! I think I did really good on my first try! Only bad thing was that now im kinda going through my lil mermaid hyperfixation and have been looking up fics where Sebastian and Ariel kinda have a Father/Parental Figure-Daughter or Older Brother-Younger (stupid but ultimately well meaning) Sister dynamic and have started to write a fic on that bc no ones done it before apparently😒(im going cray cray, bonkers mayhaps)

Might've gotten my eye infected(I live in the east of the us, new york to be more specific and woke up the day after the "live vintage (BLAME CANADA/j) filter" with my right eyes nerves slightly more irritated and haven't gotten that checked out so thats fun)

FINALLY finished that one drawing ive been making for 3 MONTHS.(well, technically....)

Almost done writing my passion project, AKA the one I originally wanted to make into an animated series but have settled for a book just in case that can't happen! I still need to work out some kinks, design more outfits, get all their personalities in check, make sure the world and magic is fully fleshed out, ect.

I also do band, and while I originally thought that I would have a problem bc of both band and theatres close scheduling(i originally had dress rehearsal on june 2nd, AND my band concert on June 2nd) but it all worked out in the end! My band concert went great, and while the dress rehearsal was a mess, we at least got through it! :)

Unintentionally quit SH! I was originally only meant to stop until AFTER performances, but ive been bettering myself and learned that if I ever want to forgive myself or at least move on I gotta stop feeling sorry for myself and not forget nor forgive, but remember, i just can't let it haunt me. I know I'll relapse, I always do eventually, but I want to enjoy these few moments of mental "clarity" while I can. I've also learned that for some reason i tend to become a more terrible person and despicable person the more time I spend at home with my mother, so that's fun. God, I hate America's education system, its messed me up BAD. AND the foster care system. I just tried to kms 2 times today, and she didn't even notice, or care. How sad is that?

On a lighter note, yes, as the rest of yt and TikTok, I got a minor lil hyperfixation on the Lorax and really think ppl should make more [PLATONIC] Lorax and Onceler dynamics, mainly the type where they're like some really annoying pair of bickering siblings or a father whos sick of his adopted child's shit, like there is so much on the table for platonic fluff and angst and most of what I've seen is romantic smut and fluff like CHANGE IT UP A LIL

Also, Ive been going to karaoke centers on Tuesdays and have become a lot more confident to performing in front of ppl! So far, I've performed "All You Wanna Do", "The Ballad of Jane Doe", "Heart of Stone", and am gonna do "What the World Needs" the next upcoming Tuesday, where I'm gonna try interacting with the audience while singing!!

(Also, before I end this....I may have ADHD??? my teacher who has ADHD says some of my behavior is "similar to hers"(i feel like thats just her way of saying i reek of neurodivergency) and I also did some research and I display similar/exact behaviors listed, have taken online tests from doctorate confirmed sites and basically all of them said to go get a diagnosis. I also found I do a few behaviors similar to stimming! Also also, I kinda suspect a lil more bc my mom has Autism and apparently sometimes neurodivergency is biological (i forgor the word) but my mom is kinda in denial abt my Depression diagnosis and thinks I got anxiety "biologically", so if I tell her I wanna get tested for ADHD shes just kinda gonna gaslight me into not believing that and i already told the school therapist and basically she just told me that I'm probably just imagining things or copying behaviors from my mother and that "kids like to give themselves all these titles nowadays" so I just did what I always do which is to keep it shut and act until they think you fell in line)

So yeah, thats all! Thanks for reading, now that my schedule is clear again ima start posting more frequently again, so be aware :) <3333

[flowersbytheroad]

ok im posting here cuz i feel like this is where the least ppl will see it but i am SO UNBELIEVABLY BITTER ABOUT MY TSL GAME FALLING APART. i want to fucking kms i put so much FUCKIG hard work into this. including finding time and getting myself back into dming at all to run this thing n now its probably dead in the water cuz one of my players had to quit like.

FUCK. AAAAAJAKSJDKDDNSODNSLN. I AM SO SO SO BITTER.

i feel like i finally understand why people quit this hobby now. the sheer amount of work thats gone into this thats going down the drain now. the creativity n care n love that jsut. will never see the light of day the way i wanted it to. fuck me man, i am so unspeakably disappointed and hurt and betrayed and helpless.

i cant even do anything about it. Maybe some of it can be salvaged by my remaining 2 players but i am just so done with all this. i put so. much. work. into. this. more than ive put in any game in recent memory.

this could have been so good. this could have been so good.

[onmymasa22]

Hello, I am contacting you as per your interest in ----. She is not interested in you today. She will not be interested in you tomorrow, a week, a month, and a year from now in perpituity. She doesn't like you. Please terminate all contact with my client.

When its ur dream to spend ur time with old people who deal with mental illnesses, and get paid for it... amd u found a place where the workers r like family and the people are so sweet.

My life is fine. But i want to cry. Last year i lived with my best friend. And this year i feel alone. Because im in my room. Amd i eat alone. And i sleep alone. And yah, theres people that go in and out, and theyre nice and i talk to them. But my life isnt like theirs. Amd i miss my parents. I think i really miss my parents. Because im here, and i dont feel like home. I feel like a stranger. I feel like im missing human contact. But ill make new froends soon. Ill be ok. Im just not ok roght mow. So ill play a movie, and eat my dinner, and have a productive day tomorrow. Its a lot of feelings right now. And its normal. I just miss the dorms. Where i had perla and elisheva. Cuz perla has her husband and elisheva has her family. Amd im ok. Im really ok. I just feel like crying. Amd im hormonal. Amd thats ok.

When ur hobby is to play dominos with old people who deal with various mental illnesses... and finally u will get paid for it, with a staff who feel like family

Ok so the tanya is called lekutei amarim- a collection of statements, but most people refer to it as tanya, which is the first word of the big book. Parts 1-3 were published in 1797, and parts 4 and 5 were added after the rebbis death in 1814.

1) Sefer shel benonim- the book for the average man. (Deals with how normal people can best serve hashem with a very intellectual perspective and what really is the soul) chapters 1-53

2) Shaar hayichud vehaemunah- the gateway of unity and belief. (Talks about the unity of gd according to kabbalah and the baal shem tov and deals with the question of- is gd in everything or is everything in gd)

3) igeret hateshuva- letter of repentance (how to do teshuva in a way that not only will u be completely forgiven, u will be even higher than before. He talks about the two different kinds of teshuva according to what it says in kabbalah) 12 chapters

4) igeret hakodesh- letters of holiness (letters he wrote, kind of like a commentary on the kabbalah of different mitzvos. Addressed as, once u have gone through the three books, this is a deeper level u can dive into) 32 chapters

5) kuntres acharon- last thesis (letters where he talks about controversial things in kabbalah.) 9 chapters

What i didnt know about living in israel- that after years of wishing for a settled apartment with my own room that i can play guitar and paint and get dressed in, id be hugging myself rocking and crying, feeling so lonely. I feel just so lonely and im not used to it. Because i shared a room with my best friends.

Hashem im lonely. Make me feel like km hugged. Who else is lonely like me. Who else is crying in their bed.

If ur going through it right now, i get u. Im not a complainer, i only complain to my really good friends about stuff. But i wish life was just fun

Im not the same person i was when i left. Wjen i left i was sharing a bed with lots of different guys. I let a bunch of guys kiss me even though i knew they didnt deserve to. I let people waste my time. I was passive, because i knew none of it was real.

Now, i dont talk to guys who waste my time with situationships. I listen to shiurim. I know the real laws of tzniut and whats machmir and im committed. I learn torah and share thoughts.

Make watercolor or silk paintings or maybe a book from stories of rabbi nachman because theres something dreamy about it. Maybe illustrate the stories or make paintings for childrens rooms

Asking families mefunim and hostiges whether if there was a time machine, would they fo forward or back

I am so greatful that in a time where everyone is getting sick, i can take a day to just rest my body. Do the meeting i need to, but be minimally social otherwise, putting not essential things off for tomorrow, and just know that since coming, life is hectic, but everything is wonderful.

סנישממאה

נסשיממהא

נס שימם הא

ס נישם מאה

קולט רציתי לדעת מה זה אומר, יש לי שם שני, סימא שזה מילה בארמית לאוצר, שההורים שלי קראו לי אחרי סבתא רבה שלי שהיא הייתה נצולת שואה שנפתרה שנתיים לפני שנולדתי. איזה משפטים יוצאים לי

דנלשימהה

נדשלמיהה

[rodbei]

Barbecue bacon burger

Øhm ok i wanted to do this before the party yesterday but now im doing on the train on my way home home on the train

Yesterdayyyy i woke up gave red their fucking vacumm back and we went to school its fucking foggy all the time rn

We had film to start of with we learnt about editing, and omg were watching bits of this one movie AND I WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENDS am going insane. But we were in a group of me red a dude who ive become freinds with calleddddd "mail" cause its funny we had the edit this one clip and omg its was so funny me and red had to be acting togheter and holy shit we cant act omg. But theyre was this one girl in our class omg i felt so bad they dont say a lot at all and suddenly they just dissapeered and red was talking about how they werent talking alot and they were scared of keeping them iut if the projekt i added it was their own peoblem and suddenly they emerge from behind this cirner say they were sorry they dident talk alot and we felt so badd ahhhh red tried to comfort them but i think they went home after class wa.

They we had history it was fine i understood more this time but i still hate the way it teached cause it such an intresting subjeckt SO WHY DONT I UNDERSTAND SHIT UR SAYING.

Then we had math and i drew smallish beans and red said we should cosplay hermitcraft togheter i hope we can do it could be so fuuuunn.

After school i found out my back bike whell of my bike WITH UNBREAKABLE wheels had a fucking punctured wheel im screaming mail fixes it but the air was out before we were homing and omg i was sweating on my way home it gets 10 degress varmer on the way home every day so its super cold and then its super varm so im always SWEATING on the way home.

But i got home and procrastinated taking a shower for two hours on tiktok when i finally took a shower i realised it hink im losing weight?! And i dont know how to feel about it. At boarding school always felt horrible cause they gave us so much food and we never really did anything physical so i always felt bad eating wich is fucking stupid and now its like im never really hungry in the same was also i bike 10 km every day so i guess its nice but also wtf.

Anyway after my shower i made the best pb and j with banana ever and called my bf to watch 2 episodes of stranger things YIPPE we also just yapped alot and i hung up my posters i live my bf hes so cute.

I was also weirdly overstimulated after my shower but not overwhelmed more in the way that i could feel my hair in my face, my clothes touching my skin and just EVERYTHING also my toes touching and that everything was sticking to my feet ew ew ew.

But i put a hat on some comfy clothes and socks and it was only a midly horrible.

Then i died for tan hour tryin to figure out what to wear to the party cause it was fucking childs birthday themed. I landed on twd shirt with short pants funky socks and converse yippe.

Then i struggeld to find kale to go to rema but o found them we struggeld to find ea who had a car or somthing. And then mail the whimsical just kinda s p a w n e d. But the car dident car so we just walked to rema and i got some smirnoff and energy drink and alchohol and an AMERICAN lollypop i mean it fit the theme but mail kept saying i was patriotic?! BARBECUE BACON BURGER we go tot the party and then we left to make mails gross gross microwave burger and his choclate milk 😭 i had a LOT of energy oh and red spawned even tho they dislike parties. I went back and fourth frlm the party to them and i drank some smirnoff and here it gets a bittt blurry me and mail had a bit with BARBECUE BACON BURGER cause both him and red dont drink so they were just following me around eventually i got a drink from the bar and omfg shit just tasted like straight up vodka omfg it was eww i also paid some one for a party hat but i paid them with the rest of my lollipop pls wtf😭 i also called viggo at some point and me and mail kept screaming BARBECUE BACON BURGER at eachother omg.

I also called viggo at somepoint THEN I WON IN UNO AGAIN RED AND MAIL YIPPE im a god at uno fr fr. I ran around a lot it was fun i also did reds dishesss?? And mail walked me home at like 23 or somthing and called viggo and went to beddd. OH SHIT RED TOOK A VIDEO OF ME OH NO i tried to do the HOTTOGO dance and i failed oh noooooo

Song of yesterday was the meme BARBECUE BACON BURGER

- Redbei 09:06 21 sep on a train so so eepy