#ocd 😀

[johnbleepingzoidberg]

having one of those stay-up-ridiculously-late-to-make-sure-we're-not-dying type of nights

[e77y]

Glad I’m starting therapy so soon after moving out ☝️ I am already feeling the helplessness and loneliness

[coleoffduty]

don’t mean to be a stranger,,, just have a lot of things going on rn

[burntsaltsblog]

my ocd goes on a rampage every time i write anything for butcher. specifically when it comes to the abbreviations to make it sound more like him like “ya’” or “m’sorry” or like taking the g off of words like “fuckin” or “somethin” whatever you get the gist. anyway, i always convince myself that i over do it so his sentences don’t make any sense or i haven’t done enough so it doesn’t even sound like him. im literally sitting on a chapter of my new fic because i keep obsessing over this and im borderline in tears and i genuinely need to seek some sort of council/therapy

anywho i hope everyone’s having a good day😀

[whompthatsucker1981]

i had intended to come back since the life threatening emergency had resolved perfectly, but i guess your own mental state does get kinda fragile after something huge and just 1 small thing happening was enough for my ocd to kick my ass. badly 😀😃. so i was gone from here again

odious person i had preemptively blocked deleted and remade, and i only found out after 1 interaction with a post of mine going around, which led me to compulsively scroll to see if they and the people they interact with really suck and yuuuuup they suck. and that kindof did a number on my brain lol. heres to ocd induced doomscrolling fucking me up

[quinnysnursery]

https://www.tumblr.com/quinnysnursery/763903666095865856/how-do-you-not-understand-emetophobia-is-it-not?source=share

I didn't see this until right now for some reason but 1. Sorry if I came off rude (and for sending that p*ckle intervention attempt a while back i didn't realize how severe it was 😭) 2. I'm so proud of you for being clean! You got this 3. I'm currently talking about my emetophobia in therapy and jesus christ is it hard and I haven't even uttered the word "emetophobia" at all I just keep saying "fear of germs" cuz my OCD mind tells me if I say words relating to IT, IT will happen to someone or myself.

I've never cried in therapy before but these last two appointments are the first time I've been hella close 😀

But we coolin we gon be alright 🫶

dont worry about it!! it’s honestly a really rare phobia to have so tons of people think i just mean i dislike them😭 honestly i get it!

2. tysm!! its been a really tough journey but i am so proud of myself😌😌

3. im so proud of you for taking the first steps to talk abt it though!! never be embarrassed to cry in therapy, if we’re being honest i’ve cried the past four therapy sessions (grief got my ass in a chokehold)

[wilted-astraea]

OCD + fictionkin = having intrusive thoughts about.. yourself??? 😀.... LIKE HUH?!!??!?!#&*@((×[

who wants to swap brains?

[e8luhs]

which is to say completely unrelated to my other posts from earlier ooooooobviously but my therapist did give me the homework this week of starting on some ocd exposure and response prevention techniques. yay 😀 <-- DYING

[just-my-latest-hyperfixation]

for the fanfic ask game!!!

2 (What fanfic do you wish you got more response on?) and 9 (What’s your favorite line(s) or scene(s) that you have written?) please (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

2. What fanfic do you wish you got more response on?

I'm generally happy with how all of my fics have been perceived. That being said, I did kind of hope for a bit more of a reaction on Someone like you - even though I do get that, being a bonus chapter to a 83k fic, it may seem off-putting to read. I still had a blast writing it (bc sometimes you just need them to be happily married and stupidly in love and taking care of babies) and @wormdebut, who I gifted it to, loved it, so I'm counting it as a win. ❤️

9. What’s your favorite line(s) or scene(s) that you have written?

Ugh, why is this one so hard??? 🤣 I probably loved writing around 95% of all I've published. 

But if I had to choose something? 

The end of chapter 3 of Hic sunt dracones springs to mind (aka the big reveal that every single reader saw coming from three miles away and that still completely blindsided Steve 😀).

It was one of the first things I had for this fic, and then I waited for SO long to write it (I always, always, ALWAYS must write chronologically, I'm a bit ocd like that) and it was so great to finally be able to do it. And if I look at the number of readers who come crashing into my comments screaming the last line of dialogue in the chapter back at me, I think it turned out quite nicely.  😏❤️

Send me more!

[tordenvejr]

Hello Vic! How are you doing? 🫰🏼

I need a little help from you - I do not think I have ocd, but I do obsess over washing hands and keeping things hygenic. Tidy? No, my house is always messy, but I wash my hands toooooo often to the point where if strong hand creams didn’t exist I would have shed several skin layers by now 😀 My immediate problem rn is that i am on a vacation with my family - even worse, I am sharing a room w my parents - and let me tell you, their lack of hygiene just get on my nerves. My mom has definitely noticed I struggle w this and it’s kinda easier to voice my anxiety over hygiene with her. My dad on the other hand has no idea and isn’t the most open minded person, I doubt he has even heard that some people struggle w stuff like this. I can ignore some stuff but when after 3 days of being here I hear my dad ask my mom which one was the soap (my mom had lots of other products on counter) I knew I wanted to pass away ! My mom asked “you haven’t washed your hands yet?” Don’t think he even replied which I am afraid means that yeah he hasn’t. Sounds so comical and ridiculous but it is really bothering me.

Thing is, before, I lived w them for 18 years and nothing happened, never occurred to me they wouldn’t even wash hands considering I was tought basic hygiene. So I wish I could just switch my brain to that state but can I.

Idk how I do not lose my mind. I do not think that something bad will happen if I don’t follow these hand washing obsession BUT it just irks me to know somebody is so unhygienic let alone someone who doesn’t wash their hands for so long 🥲🥲🥲 even if I didn’t have this problem it’s natural to be upset about my dad being ultra white person. So idk how to 1. Deal with people I am sharing the room with not being as hygienic as me 2. One of them not even following basic hygiene (would have been better if I had spoken up the 1st time I found out abt this- but I hate confrontation, especially with family I guess)

Vacation ends in 10 days but knowing they have touched my phone and my belongings and that I cannot just exist in a sterile world or in a world aWay from them does not make me happy. I know I have to address the root cause of hand washing obsession but this is the situation I am dealing w atm. So idk how to remain calm, ignore this, because voicing my anxiety and asking them to follow basic hygiene just seems ridiculous. :(

Sorry for such a long text 🫠

hi 🌟 i'm doing good, but i've been sleeping so fucking shit the past days i feel like a little snail around the house zzz

assuming you don't have ocd (you can look into the pure o subtype and reflect a bit over the cycle of obsession > anxiety > compulsion > relief > obsession. sometimes it isn't the belief of something bad happening it can also be an intense discomfort or a "sense" of something being off/wrong/not right); if it's a general annoyance and discomfort of lack of hygiene, keep your belonging on you, get a mini hand sanitizer if you can from a kiosk or store, air out, store your food away from theirs in the fridge and try to handle it yourself. it's up to you if you want to/are ready to express this discomfort/boundary with them, but it isn't ridiculous or unfounded. it's quite a fair request of the people you're in near proximity to, to exercise regular hygiene, such as washing their hands - and you aren't responsible for their reactions, though i understand you will be around them. i hope the next days will be better for you!

[the-cactus-mage]

New Introduction!

Gooooood evening Ladies, Gentlemen, and all who may identify otherwise! My name is July, and I will be your host for this evening

About me:

I am the Cactus Mage.

More specifically, I'm a girlflux transfem with Autism, OCD, Depression, and Anxiety.

Pronouns: Some combination of She/Her, They/Them, and It/Its (when in doubt, use She/Her)

I am a minor.

DNI:

People and blogs that are: NSFW, LGBTQ-phobic, Racist, Sexist, or any/all other forms of Bigotry, kindly do not interact 😀

Thank youuu!

About me (continued) and more under the cut

About me (continued):

I am a stage performer! (i.e. I'm a raging theatre kid)

I am also an organist and a percussionist. (For those who don't know what "organist" means, that means I play the pipe organ. For those who don't know what that is, you're too young to have a phone, let alone access to tumblr. For those who do know what that is, it's about time you were put into a retirement home.)

I also speak German! / Ich spreche auch Deutsch!

I make music! Check it out over @twiligh7-skies!

I made really cool trans flag art once. That's my only big accomplishment in life. (The related post is on my blog somewhere.)

I'm Myrsexual. To put it simply, my asexuality is constantly in a state of quantum superposition (i.e. I experience most of the acespec at the same time. Sound confusing and contradicting? Trust me, it is.)

What I do on tumblr:

Great question! I don't know. I'll probably mostly just be reblogging stuff, but maybe I'll post something from time to time. Who knows 🤷‍♀️

Feel free to ask me stuff though!

I also like to bug @mushroom-soup-is-my-religion sometimes 🌵

Tags I use:

#the cactus mage - this is used for anything that I post or for things that directly involve me

#the cactus speaks - for asks

Discord: twiligh7.skies

Other platforms I'm on:

That's all, folks! Remember, the world is a stage. Break a leg!

Oh, wait, before you go, one question.

Would you like a cactus? I promise you won't regret it 😀🌵

[hamptersadness]

Wearing my grippy socks!!!!

Did anyone else keep theirs? I have like 5 pairs.

I also wore all of them for two months 😀(OCD man)

[psylock-e]

https://www.reddit.com/r/Transgender_Surgeries/s/kzF0DRWLpV

And lesbians are supposed to be attracted to this?😀

damn that post punches you in the gut like 10 times

 sour and pungent, like off-milk, and the taste is bloody and sour

the taste is so distinct and kind of "chalky" in texture

expired milk and bitter yogurt with a very strong odor 

I can smell it even with her clothes on

A friend of ours also smelled it

Sometimes her discharge is slightly yellow or orange

also, making your female partner, who apparently has "OCD and generalized anxiety", perform oral on you and any time she brings it up "it ends in tears and both of us crying and trying makeup sex which makes me panic because I'm convinced something is wrong" while refusing to do anything about your disgusting self is undeniably male behaviour, ain't no surgery changing that

[cozy2000]

ocd moment where you fear doing something for weeks and when you finally build up the courage to do it the thing you feared happening absolutely did happen 😀

[writeblrsvoid]

I've been having a really rough time getting myself to write recently, since I've been extremely busy with a new academic year and OCD flare-ups and getting discharged from a PHP thing, and overall just being really tired. But today I finally sat down and tried to finish writing a chapter and I did it! I feel so good after getting it done and having some motivation back. Just felt like shouting that into the void :)

Yay for finally getting your writing mojo back!

Congrats. 😁😀