#npd account

[npd-adds-to-my-sparkle]

There is no greater test to my will than a 40-something-year-old woman with a victim complex who has the communication skills of a emotionally neglected 5th grader.

Anyway please god let 2025 be the year my partner and I get our own house amen

[sillynarcissist]

being in a romantic relationship while having npd is so hard how tf am I supposed to answer "why do you love me"? The same reasons I like anyone else, I have a very specific list. but saying "you just got lucky because you satisfied a specific need for my brain" isn't something you say when you want to keep a relationship going

[klawrenn]

SONIC 🏃‍♂️💫💫💫

[cel-system]

I hate humans I hate humans I hate humans you are all so USELESS you will never get it right and I can't stand being around you I wish I could create my own dimension and banish you to it and even if you learn your lesson I won't care. I dont want you around me if you're going to be so stupid and put me in danger. Get away get away get away. I hate you all none of you are safe or good or smart.

𐚁 crumb

[average-emo-enigma]

What people mean by “it’s an explanation, not an excuse” is “this thing caused you to do this but it’s still your fault because you had the ability to prevent it through coping strategies”

If someone DOESN’T have any ability to prevent it through coping strategies then it IS an excuse

[crush-echoes]

need to go absolutely just insanely crazy need to claw at the walls, at their chest, at my face while i scream at them everything theyve done wrong

need to get a baseball bat and swing it and just destroy everything and show them that im someone that they shouldnt have done that too that i deserved more and theyll regret this

[dodgeryy]

Cluster B bitches watching Baby Reindeer:

[enbygunderson]

If you crash a post made by a victim discussing their experiences with narcissistic abuse with walls of text and preface it all with "I have NPD": ...yeah, no shit you do.

Literally no one is saying "all NPD people are abusive", but those who aren't wouldn't be going out of their way looking up certain tags on tumblr just to finger wag and play victim on strangers' tumblr posts.

[npdfavs]

oh btw zionists kill yourself and get off my account i don’t want you here

[doomsdayradio]

something so complicated as someone with npd and possibly aspd is like. sometimes i don't feel bad for hurting you. and i know you don't want to hear that. i know i don't like hearing when the people who have hurt me don't feel bad for it. but just because i don't feel bad doesn't mean i don't know i shouldn't have hurt you and it doesn't mean i won't attempt to make up for it. but honestly i just don't feel bad. and like sometimes i feel like people are more focused on that aspect than the fact i still want to make up for it. you're not going to brute force me into feeling guilt. my brain just doesn't work that way 99% of the time. honestly i'm probably more annoyed you called me out for it or that i got caught than i am guilty. just because i don't feel emotionally guilty doesn't inherently mean i enjoyed hurting you or that i meant to or that i want you to feel hurt. i have to have this contradictory "i care about you even if i don't actually care" conversation with anyone who gets really close to me and it honestly seems like the only people who really understand what i mean by that is other people with npd/aspd or pds in general.

[npd-adds-to-my-sparkle]

So recently I tried A Weed.

I have a very complicated relationship with substance use that I could write a novel on, but long story short: I am not interested in drugs or alcohol. It seems unnecessary for my personal experience as a human person.

But anyway, I tried an edible. And I think it helped my mental health A LOT. Which is very interesting to think about, as someone who has unintentionally made it a large part of their identity of their lack of substance use. It's also worth mentioning that I experience chronic pain throughout my entire body, and it felt absolutely magical to have it ease up for even just a couple hours.

I've been burnt out for about 3 years now. I have been surviving, shutting down all "unnecessary" hobbies or activities to focusing on making it through. I'm not depressed, as I have never had that as an issue, but it's definitely been highly monotonous. The day after I tried an edible, I read an entire book for the first time in 3 years. I haven't even touched a book in that time-frame. I also drew in a sketchbook, again for the first time in even longer, maybe even 5 years. I spent that day doing things that I felt I wasn't even able to do anymore.

I'm not sure what I've taken away from this experience other than I'm going to try to read more books and see if it really did help that much. But I figured sharing this would be interesting for people to think about or try for themselves.

Anyway hi I may or may not be back lmao we'll see

[ocpder]

Narcissism is an illness and disability, it's a personality disorder, meaning a pwNPD suffered severe childhood trauma. Claiming that narcissism is the cause of abuse is making excuses for abusers, narcissistic personality disorder does not cause people to be abusive, abusive people choose to abuse because they are abusive. The symptoms of NPD are not abuse tactics, they are defense mechanisms learned in childhood to shield themselves from and cope with the trauma and abuse they suffered. Beware of anyone saying that victims of childhood abuse are evil because of the way that their trauma presents itself.

[the-npd-culture-is]

i know that @a-sip-of-milo, @quitblamingnarcissism and @forrest--deer supports the other narcissistic culture blog, if that's any help to anon

i have not found any evidence suggesting that on their blog, so take this with a grain of salt. however if you feel like it go block whoever you want, but harassing them (on top of having little to no proof) is unacceptable, don't do that.

im sharing this anon just in case anyone wants to use this information or do their own research./srs

apologies for the tag you three/gen srs

[gwensy]

are positive affirmation not good for people with ocd or bpd? genuinely asking because i want to avoid causing you or other people any harm (i hope you feel better soon though, please take care)

NO ITS NOT THAT!! its usually just these extreme types of "if this person isn't doing this then you should leave them" "if this person does this then it means this" type of things that can usually spiral people into overthinking or irrationalizing situations.

[losttimesnail]

having multiple trauma induced or related illnesses is so humbling sometimes. like my child brain was so playdough textured that my mother sucking caused my brain to play Pokemon Gotta Catch Em All with the DSM 5??? feels like a cosmic scam but okay sure.

[ari-shipping-stuff]

damn idk can i 🤔