#not onto my introjectisms...

[ur-fav-malewifey]

hmm...resident evil brainrot...specifically crossdresser wesker who likes to do it, cause he looks really pretty in a dress...

[nibbleline]

Fairly OddParents Kin/System Server!

Hi y'all! Just finished setting up a server for Fairly Oddparents fictives and fictionkin* with a few new friends!

It's designed specifically with kinning and systems in mind! We have channels for sharing memories, rambling about folks you miss, and a place to answer questions about your memories! Alongside a good handful of general channels, art channels, and a section just for talking about FOP <3

Open to anyone from any FOP-related media! Whether that be the original, A New Wish, Nicktoons Unite (even if you're not a FOP character), live action movies, Fairly Odder, comics, video games, what have you! Wow, there's a lot of FOP...

If talking to other sourcemates sounds like fun, we'd love to have you join! Hope to see you there :D

*specifically for fictives/kins, yes, but anyone can join as long as you're nice! And understand what those are before joining, please </3

[personalsunrise]

Introject heavy partner systems are always funny to me

[metfell]

(pretend with me for a moment that you are a singlet getting your first alter if you're already a system for the sake of entertainment. if the character/person you last reblogged IS you, please pick a different one.)

okay: you've been hit by the System Ray, and you now introject the last character/real life person you reblogged onto your blog. if you reblogged a multi-character post, it's the first character you look at.

[syscultureis]

Plural Culture is wishing more people understood "source separation" is different for everyone and regardless of how they do it, it is actually very important for introjects

Sometimes source separation is just "okay, I'm not actually {source}, but I'm a lot like them and still look at my source and see myself and don't plan to change. But I can acknowledge I am not genuinely them" and that's okay, that's good

Sometimes it's "I look at my source and feel nothing, I've changed my name. I hardly look like my source any more. I don't really identify with it at all." And that's okay. That's good

Sometimes it's "I've accepted I'm not {source}, and I've got a few differences, but I still mostly identify with my source other than that" and that's okay, that's good!

Source separation is not "I can never be anything like my source ever" it is getting an introject to the point where they understand they are not actually their source, and are not suffering because of source memories constantly

I get so tired of seeing people argue about it on sysblr, because I've gone all the way with how a lot of ppl think source separation works

I don't look like my source, I use a different name, I've grown up a lot because my source is like 3 years old and I'm 19, and I don't have a lot of source memories any more either

But my best friend in sys still very much identifies with his source and he's very happy about that. He understands he's not that character, and he's learned how to cope with source memories both good and bad

And he's been told he's "anti recovery" because he's not source separated enough. And it pisses me off so much, because he is! He is as source separated as he needs to be to function.

Source separation looks different for everyone, don't shove one way onto every single introject. Let them figure it out

-Ava

[vulpixisananimal]

A swordsman with the gift of prophecy?

You know, for such different characters, Zero and Siffrin really do have similar symptoms. Memory loss, delusion, hallucinations... next thing you know, Siffrin'll have a ponytail and start dressing as a samurai.

(It's crazy to see another Katana Zero fan out in the wild. I thought there were only 6 of us left.)

Fellow katana zero fan 🤝

AND YEAH. No memory of home. Some form of time loop (I mean just look at the V kidnapping scene). So many mental issues.

And as for Null! I chose their name very deliberately. I wanted to portray what an introject into this au and how it works (at least from my experience). I wanted an act 5 version of Siffrin to exist in the Sifstem, and having that mentality latch onto a character to form, leading to. . .

The "Play" was one Siffrin saw sometime in the past and remembers almost nothing about it. It was basically K0 plot. Jinn/Keaoholo'oko'a/The universe actually references that it's a game in our world when Null brings it up! ("I know that play! Well, not exactly a play, but it's still a story!" / "I hope your story ends better than his.")

Also for the record, an alter being able to dress up how they see themselves in headspace is a form of, well, body euphoria. If you're trans, you understand.

[prose-among-the-trees]

Something I really struggle with in did spaces is just how sensationalized introjects are.

Introjects are parts that take on identity traits or qualities of someone either fictional or factual. The most common type of introject is an abuser. I at one point was aware of one, I don’t know if that’s still the case. Fictional introjects come about when a child undergoes extreme trauma and the lines between the media they’re consuming and the real world abuse get blurred.

Why do syscord and sysblr treat introjects like characters? You all will yell about how introjects aren’t their sources while demanding borderline roleplay out of anyone you come across, whether you’re the introject or whether you’re interacting as a “fan.”

I haven’t opened up about introjects because they’re either based off of abusers or very indicative of my trauma, and I don’t intend to do much here, but I’ll say this.

It’s not painful to be an introject because you miss source or your friends or family.

It’s painful to be an introject because you attribute traits that were in the media onto abusers of yours and feel crazy when that’s the only way you know how to associate them.

I wasn’t literally in the situations that I’m based off of in my source (it’s a novel), but now I can only associate my abuser with systematic and intentional abuse, and not the accident that it actually was. I have such a hard time believing that what I experienced just happened to occur, and that it wasn’t some insidious attempt to ruin me the second my abuser had the chance to.

Introjection is such a complex process that changes your outlook on absolutely everything. I cannot understand the desire to survive such an ordeal as trauma and abuse and to want something like an introject as a result.

These are not fictional character besties that live in your brain, or YouTubers who want wacky situations with you, these are traumatized parts that have embodied traits of characters you were so immersed in you couldn’t tell the difference, or abusers who emulate the same traits that harmed you in the first place.

Do better system community

[reimeichan]

Been doing a lot of thinking about who "I" am in relation to my system. I'm Crimson, but who is Crimson? I'm... an imaginary friend, I guess? I started out as one, I mean. I was with Purple a lot growing up, and she'd pretend she was playing with a little mouse who got into all sorts of silly, mischievous trouble. And that's me, the mouse.

But... I'm not "just" an imaginary friend. I've fronted before, like many of the other alters in this system. I've talked to alters other than Purple. Hell, I've been the host for this system on and off... but I still struggled with identifying as "Reimei". Like, sure, I'm a part of the Reimei system. But... am I Reimei? I couldn't tell you that for a long time. Logically, if I'm an alter in a system, then that means I'm a part of that system, right?

I've struggled the most with the idea of fusion and identifying with a singular sense of self. It had nothing to do with losing the others, or losing myself. It was that I didn't feel like a part of Reimei the person. I was always Reimei's imaginary friend, inherently separate from the rest of the system. I didn't understand what it meant for me to be both an imaginary friend and a part of this system. Did that mean I was my own person? A completely separate identity? "You don't have to fuse if you don't want to," the others told me again and again. But I wanted to. But I also didn't want to. And I wanted to understand why I didn't want to.

And so.... I spoke to the only other alter I knew who had similar-ish origins to me. I spoke to Tiger Plushie Green, who, while not actually our Tiger Plushie irl, is an introject of him. And we talked about how we're similar, why we're different, and, notably, why he's able to consider himself Reimei while I struggle with it. "Well you see, even though I'm not actually our plush tiger toy, Reimei had a habit of projecting a personality into that plushie," he told me. "And by projecting into the plushie, that means Reimei, or rather, I, was projecting a part of myself into the toy."

And... it felt like something clicked for me. My entire perspective of myself changed in that moment. I realized that I have always been Reimei, but I was so lonely that I projected a version of myself into an imaginary friend so that I could be less alone. The thoughts and feelings I had projected onto that little imaginary mouse all originated from... me. But I am also that mouse, because the mouse is a part of me. I cried so hard, suddenly understanding what it means to be "a part of Reimei" and also what it means to be "all of Reimei" at the same time. I'm both. I'm an imaginary friend of myself. How sad, how lonely I must have been as a child, that I found solace in becoming a mouse to soothe my own pain.

Anyways... I thought I would share all of this on this blog that we keep. Perhaps there are other imaginary friends in systems out there like me, wondering how they fit into their system and their collective identity. Maybe my story can help someone out there better understand themselves.

[ask-thetulparcrew]

Ask the Inter-Systemic Tulpar Crew!

Hello all! I've been debating how to begin this post, but I figure no time like the present! This account is a Muthwashing-related ask blog! The difference between this and other ask blogs that are Mouthwashing-related is that the answers will be provided by introjects of the characters from the game! This account currently is ran by 3 systems: The Treehouse Tavern System (myself), the Moonlight Nightshade System, and the Mystery Box System! From those systems, we have a Curly fictive (TT), Anya fictive (MN) and a Daisuke fictive (MB). What is a system, you might ask? In my own words, a system is a form of trauma response. When under heavy duress as a child, when the brain is still forming, the brain might find it simpler to attach a train of thought onto a different direction, making a new pseudo-personality to better handle certain situations! As this person grows, their stresses become more complex, and so new alters (or personalities, if you will) are made. In most cases, these alters may be mirror images of fictional characters that the person might have become attached to! These fictives/introjects may then have memories of what life was like before entering the system! This ask blog will allow people, as well as ourselves to discover what each fictive's world was like! I do hope we find ourselves some people that share a love for the game as we do, and remember that these alters are distinct people; inextricably connected to their source material, but not exactly like them!

[the-dame-of-endos]

Trigger warning: syscourse For my first post, I want to share our experience. We first discovered the endogenic community in early 2021 through Discord. Back then there were a lot of large and active endo-safe servers. We were never good at understanding new things, but somehow, plurality- something that's supposed to be so complex- just clicked for us. We've never understood something so quickly, related to it even. And there began our syscovery. Origins, roles, introjects. They helped us figure ourselves out, we'd never felt so cared for. The community was nothing but welcoming and educational. It was not perfect, of course, there were servers and people we avoided because we deemed them unsafe to ourselves or others. But, no community is perfect, bad apples are everywhere. Through the endogenic community, we discovered neopronouns, xenogenders, regression, alterhumanity; all things that now play apart in our identity. We would not be who we are today without this community. So, when the endo community began to become dead on discord, we were distraught. Missing a community that made us, that kept us sane in the horrible environment we were living in. Eventually, we joined an anti server. We felt like traitors, but we thought that as long as they did bring up endos much, we should be fine, right? In theory, that should have been right. They, indeed, didn't talk about endos as much as we thought they would, but they did something worse. Trauma olympics were the main problem, comparing and judging trauma. Deeming what counted and what didn't. And even in some cases prying for people's trauma. You weren't a system, or were at least less of a system, if you didn't fit their requirements. They dictated what roles you could use, what alters fit their criteria, how your alters can act, what relationships they can have, what introjects you can have, how you should treat your alters, what experiences aren't real. It was a tight box. Our mental health had never been worse trying to cram ourselves onto their checklist for the sack of community. And they gatekept a bunch of other absurd things that weren't even plural related. And this wasn't just one server, it was every single one we came across, and even most antis we see on Tumblr now. For two-ish years we were trapped like this, no courage to leave until syscord started to finally die out itself. That led us here, our first time exploring a new social platform. We've never been more relieved, it was like discovering the endo community all over again. The kindness, the acceptance, the support. We were home. It's been a few months now, but we still can't fully be ourselves, confined to the walls the antis built, but we're slowly breaking them down. One brick at a time. Seeing antis doing the same thing to other endos enrages me. I don't understand why they can't understand that we exist, we are real, we are valid, and we have feelings too. I want to dedicate myself to being that safe space that we were lost without for so long. Endos, I love you. Endos, I am here for you. Endos, don't give up.

[ceruleanterrapin]

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[the-alarm-system]

Anti Endos and Projection of Decisions and Hurt

I'd like to start this off with my story and how it relates to the experiences of many hurt anti-endos.

I don't remember a big chunk of my original trauma, most of it feels like a dream that has chunks guarded by Red our protector. I do have bits and pieces, and I know for a fact that I went through RAMCOA.

Growing up I got hurt by a lot of women, and one of those woman's personas got introjected into my system and would retraumatize me consistently for a few years. This was before I realized I was plural.

What Im trying to say is I have survived a lot of horrible shit, and I know it's why I'm plural, and I have had horribly abusive headmates before.

Anti Endos bring these forms of exo and internal abuse up whenever attacking the slogan "The future is plural". I saw an anti endo say

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And I got angry enough to make this. Maybe it was rage bait, but I'm convinced most of them genuinely believe this.

Using your own trauma and hurt to invalidate the existence of others is one of the most vile horrible things you can do. Not every traumagenic system is formed from programming, not every system existing is formed from programming. Trust me I know the pain of being hurt that way, but are you serious? Don't use your trauma to hurt others. No endo wants to fucking program a child and abuse them, this is just a false analogy used to bring fear to others and towards the movement. We are not the enemy.

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I have experienced strong negatives, I've felt strong dissociation, memory loss, and Scald has gotten lost before and we do struggle a lot in disordered experiences. But this is expecting that every system puts the negatives above the positives. This is expecting that your experience and perspective of your own system lines up with everyone elses. I don't care that I have so much to deal with, being a system makes me extremely happy and I would love to share that with others. Obvious negatives? Yes, but "few" positives? In my experience with DID, psychosis, and even BPD I do my best to see the lighter side of them because I wouldn't be me without them. I have so many more pros than cons that comes with being a system because I actively changed my perspective in order to accept ourselves. I had to see the joy of it because I was abusing Scald by not accepting him and giving him individuality. I understand a system seeing their DID as more negative than positive, but this is projection to others which is simply narrow minded.

Before going deeper, I want to affirm that I have no hatred towards those who go towards final fusion or uses parts language. This is an argument about those who project their end goals and hurt and suffering onto other systems in order to invalidate them.

While I may not experience this towards my own system, I can understand why others may despise being many and/or desire to end as a singlet. However in the argument against endos; being broken, wanting fusion, using parts language, and hating yourself as a system is bought up multiple times. Here are some examples:

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Their views on their systemhood, while valid, is narrowed to the expectation that every other system should see it that way and if they don't they are put into the pile of fakes and subject to harassment. Anti endos have called me disgusting simply for expressing how happy being a system makes me. It reminds me of when I was a transmedicalist(essay for later) to be honest.

If you don't want to fuse, if you don't see your systems existence as an abomination, and you desire better acceptance from the world

You are a fucked up groomer who is anti recovery, never wants to heal, and wants to abuse children.

I'm sorry I love my system

I'm sorry I found so much joy in my system that I would love for there to be more of us and better acceptance of us

I'm sorry that I'm not all pessimistic on my system

To be honest, I can't change the past I went through, I can't delete my system,

But maybe to me it's ok to see the good that came out of it even if its hard then and hard now

Projecting your perspective of your systemhood onto others though, projecting false analogies based on your own trauma, and expecting every experience to be the same as yours is vile and just self victimizing in order to hurt vulnerable systems looking for community.

Giving your sob story, ranting about how you hate your pieces/headmates, and then tying it up with "and thats why endos want to hurt children" is a different level of fucked up

small personal note: if I had to endure everything again just to be with Scald, I would Over and over and over Piss yourself mad about it antis, I love my system and we aren't faking because of it

[plurapony]

Hi. My name is Ana and I am an introject of a fictional character Ena Shinonome. I'm what you called as "source-connected" and I believe every aspect of me has been introjected from Ena Shinonome.

Misinformation regarding introjects is so rampant on this website so I want to make a few things very clear.

Source memories are not something that happen with DID. If you do have source memories you are not wrong for doing so, it could be delusions or just simply an overactive imagination. What is wrong is when you claim that things like source memories are just a part of Dissociative Identity Disorder. It's not and this disorder is already stigmatized please don't do that.

I understand that these things are easier and said than done and the brain is a tricky thing. One thing that I personally experience is a para-social connection with the fictional characters my source is close with. But I can recognize that this is just projecting feelings I have to people in our real life onto the characters. An example is that Akito Shinonome is someone I care for, as he is my source's little brother and I project my own emotions that I have about our real life little brother.

De-normalize associating unrelated things to DID. Normalize the experiences, they can feel very real but they are NOT DID.

[plural-affirmations]

Problematic source? No problem!

Are you an introject with a source you're not too fond of? Are you doubting your validity? Secretive about what you're based on? You've come to the right place, my loves.

Brains are funny things. You see, for a lot of systems out there, especially in CDD's, you can't control what your source is. Your mind will latch onto something for seemingly no reason sometimes, and you end up with a headmate that's formed for any number of reasons ranging from "we need someone like that!" to "this person is a representation of something on a deeper level'.

So. With that being said, shoutout to system members who are:

From problematic or controversial media, such as Hazbin Hotel or Danganronpa

Sourced from real life people harmful people, like an abuser

Factives of those who did horrible things; for example, serial killers or dictators

Trying their best to source separate

The ones who prefer to keep their source to themselves

Etc.

Coming from a system who has introjects from media we haven't even seen, being an introject certainly does not define who you are. It doesn't define who you "should" be, it doesn't control your actions, it doesn't even have to mean anything at all if you don't want it to. Sources are where you come from, not what'll predict the future.

Anyways! We hope you have a wonderful day, introjects!

🖤💜💙💚💛

[rurustims]

OMG! Agatha All Along is getting an episode every Thursday? that's so cool :O i didnt know that and was disappointed there were so few episodes due to it being new, but now it will continue! which is awesome! ive actually got my mother hooked onto WandaVision and she really likes it (watching it because it directly links to Agatha All Along to understand things within it) and we will be watching Agatha All Along after that too!!! i have already watched the first few episodes but i love rewatching so that's awesome! im really liking this new stuff which is often really really hard for me as a severely developmentally disabled person,,, but this is great so far :)

though a bit silly?? i mean i dont mind it,,, but will definitely be getting introjects from Agatha All Along due to the forming deep bond to this show qwq

[pluralhottakes]

Systemhopping isn't real and I'm saying this as a VERY metaphysical system. Because the existential dread and abuse I felt from people claiming it was, or that they could "pop in and out" at any time, just turned into manipulative people trying to gaslight me about what my own system members were doing when they're not fronting/dormant. We're not "popping over to have a one night stand" with Mary Sue of the Blorbo System and the fact that your headmate is "suddenly pregnant" with my system member's "tulpa baby" is. Not! Real! You just created an introject fankid! And even if you did think it was possible, surely my own system members would remember suddenly teleporting into another brain to fuck someone. Maybe I'm not out of the front because I'm temporarily teleporting into the headworld of another person's brain though, Mary Sue of the Blorbo System. Maybe I'm not fronting because every time I do, you've dropped some Fucked Up New Lore about how you're trying to sexually abuse me into being your OC's baby daddy. I'm not some fucking doll you can just project your sexual fantasy roleplays onto. Fuck off.

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