#about green

[reimeichan]

At some point during our recovery, we went from defaulting to thinking anything any of us did throughout the day/our life as just "me" and started differentiating them by alter. And at first that was definitely useful! Early on, doing that helped us spot the patterns and better understand each part of us as best as we could. It also helped validate our existence to ourselves, especially those of us who kept slipping into denial or who had a more tenuous grasp on their sense of identity.

But I've realized that we've perhaps leaned too far in that direction yet again, and while there's nothing inherently wrong with saying stuff like "this is x's favorite color" or "y bought this plushie"... when we start blaming each other for actions and pointing fingers instead of accepting that the other alter is as much a part of me as "I" am, we end up pushing each other away. I've been inadvertently distancing myself from Green's cranky moods and thus failing to realize that Green's crankiness is my crankiness and thus something that I need to address and allow myself to experience. Or, I've been trying to convince myself that any childish behavior that I've been exhibiting lately is because of a child alter co-fronting or otherwise influencing me, and while that may be true... well. There's nothing wrong with being childish, and I should embrace that as a part of me instead of thinking of it as belonging to "someone else".

Trying to find that balance between honoring each alter as an individual with their own unique thoughts and opinions and wants and needs, while also acknowledging them as parts of myself (and that I am also a part of them) is difficult. I don't necessarily think we're doing a bad job of it, but it's definitely something I'd like to be better about.

[running2reanimation]

✿ + Grapeduo?

who is more excited for halloween?

Honestly, they're both pretty pumped! With costumes and spooky music (I feel like Green would try very hard to learn how to play a theremin). They'd throw an awesome Halloween Party!

who gives the best gifts?

Depends on what one consider "the best" gifts. Purple's are definitely more expensive but Green's tend to be more thoughtful and surprisingly practical.

who sings along to the radio the loudest?

This is an ongoing competition.

who actually finishes a book they’ve started?

Purple. I don't see Green as much of a book reader (though I think he would read fanfics, it's mostly oneshots).

who falls asleep during a movie?

Green, but honestly neither of them would very frequently.

who plans a surprise getaway vacation?

Purple. He wants to show Green around to all the places he's never been.

who comes home with useless decorative knick knacks for the house every single day?

Maybe not every single day, but I feel like Green actually would bring home like, keychains and stuff (though Purple does it sometimes too).

who takes more pictures?

Green. Purple will happily pose for the camera but he doesn't really have too much of a social media presence.

who likes baths? who likes showers?

Showers for both. Purple soaks in the bath occasionally, but generally these guys shower.

who keeps a weekly planner?

Purple, but mostly to keep track of what Green is up to.

who actually watches the discovery channel?

They both might occasionally.

who brings up having kids first?

Maybe Green, but that's a big maybe.

who fixes things around the house when they break?

Yellow. King sometimes.

who leaves their dirty towels on the floor?

GREEN.

who makes the coffee in the morning?

Purple, though he prefers tea, Green likes coffee

who gets jealous over very petty things?

PURPLE.

who exercises more?

Green, though that's not to say Purple doesn't exercise.

who starts listening to christmas music in october?

Purple tends to start listening to it earlier than Green.

who actually reads the newspaper?

Neither of them, they keep up to date with news apps.

[reimeichan]

so I have DID and we've noticed that different alters play different classes for different reasons lol

Gray - The one who initially started and downloaded FFXIV literally because a friend made a joke about how he's a "gatherer main" after he mentioned he loved farming mats in Animal Crossing. The first classes we got to 90 were BTN and MIN. He also tends to be the one to play BRD, which he initially chose because Purple said she wanted to main it to be a "silly little musician" and he ended up enjoying the playstyle more than she did. He also tends to play SCH and SMN.

Green - He had originally wanted to be a tank main and was gonna try DRK and GNB, but when Gray was trying AST because he liked the aesthetic and faultily believed he was the one in the system who enjoyed healing, we realized it was actually Green who enjoyed doing healing micromanaging and so Green ended up maining that class instead of Gray. Green is also our main crafter as he loves macros and figuring out the best crafting rotations. He also enjoys DNC (being the rhythm-game fanatic he is) and GNB.

Purple - Originally wanted to main SMN for the carbuncles and BRD to be a silly little musician but realized she actually prefers tank gameplay more, specifically DRK. She loves literally jumping into battle and running ahead of everyone else and having all the attention on her and so looking back it's kinda like.... yeah we should have expected this. She doesn't care for gathering or crafting and instead is the one who actually genuinely enjoys MSQ (unlike the other two who only do MSQ to get to higher level areas so they can unlock more gather/craft stuff) and will borrow BRD or AST for that. She otherwise will play DNC, GNB, or SMN.

Unfortunately sometimes we do switch in while in the middle of a trial/dungeon/raid and then suddenly feel like we have to learn new buttons. And oftentimes we don't even notice that we switched until we're fumbling with buttons. "ughhh I don't remember how to play AST" "wtf when did DRK get so many abilities" "fuckfuckfuck I keep missing my BRD cooldowns and hitting the wrong button" type of deal. You'd think we'd be better at playing each others' jobs by now since this happens so often but.... nope XD

Also now I really wanna talk about how our Warrior of Light, Lei Xun, has DID and we even have some details about which of Lei-system alter does what (and yes each alter has unique jobs/classes, though one alter may have multiple jobs/classes). So uh. If anyone who's following me wants to know more feel free to ask.

hello im sick so tell me about your xiv main. genuinely curious how other people decide in a game where you can play literally everything. my answer is aesthetic reasons (i like rogues)

[varpusvaras]

I think that instead of being super apprehensive about Jason and him dating Roy, Oliver should take one look at him and then one look at Bruce and go oh, I'm about to be so annoying.

Oliver starts being so nice to Jason. So nice. Inviting him to family dinners. Giving him both his hero communications and personal phone number and telling him to call whenever he needs something. He gives him new tech and keeps updating his weapons and armor. He helps with missions and clean up and says nothing if Jason is a little rough, apart from patting him on the back and saying good job. He starts keeping his picture inside his wallet and has other pictures of Jason, Roy and Lian framed in the house and tells everyone about him. He starts calling him son-in-law first and then just son and then calls him a Harper and eventually a Queen.

At first it was just to annoy Bruce, but after the first time he tells Jason that he did a good job and Jason starts to tear up a little, Oliver goes oh no, oh I'm actually doing this now. This my boy now. I don't care if he and Roy break up or something, this is my boy now.

Bruce still thinks he's just doing it for the sole purpose of pissing him off, though, and he is so fucking mad. The Justice League meetings have turned into a Cold War zone.

Bruce starts to being so nice to Jason as well, forcing himself to ignore some of the more outrageous things Jason does, and Jason is so, so fucking confused.

[lauraneedstochill]

[every action has consequences]

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[funkyboxofinterests]

Sometimes Raph misses being small

[happyheidi]

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[anchounn]

fruits and berries

[evgar]

kiss of death

graphite and watercolors on paper

[hinamie]

long way home

[reimeichan]

Been doing a lot of thinking about who "I" am in relation to my system. I'm Crimson, but who is Crimson? I'm... an imaginary friend, I guess? I started out as one, I mean. I was with Purple a lot growing up, and she'd pretend she was playing with a little mouse who got into all sorts of silly, mischievous trouble. And that's me, the mouse.

But... I'm not "just" an imaginary friend. I've fronted before, like many of the other alters in this system. I've talked to alters other than Purple. Hell, I've been the host for this system on and off... but I still struggled with identifying as "Reimei". Like, sure, I'm a part of the Reimei system. But... am I Reimei? I couldn't tell you that for a long time. Logically, if I'm an alter in a system, then that means I'm a part of that system, right?

I've struggled the most with the idea of fusion and identifying with a singular sense of self. It had nothing to do with losing the others, or losing myself. It was that I didn't feel like a part of Reimei the person. I was always Reimei's imaginary friend, inherently separate from the rest of the system. I didn't understand what it meant for me to be both an imaginary friend and a part of this system. Did that mean I was my own person? A completely separate identity? "You don't have to fuse if you don't want to," the others told me again and again. But I wanted to. But I also didn't want to. And I wanted to understand why I didn't want to.

And so.... I spoke to the only other alter I knew who had similar-ish origins to me. I spoke to Tiger Plushie Green, who, while not actually our Tiger Plushie irl, is an introject of him. And we talked about how we're similar, why we're different, and, notably, why he's able to consider himself Reimei while I struggle with it. "Well you see, even though I'm not actually our plush tiger toy, Reimei had a habit of projecting a personality into that plushie," he told me. "And by projecting into the plushie, that means Reimei, or rather, I, was projecting a part of myself into the toy."

And... it felt like something clicked for me. My entire perspective of myself changed in that moment. I realized that I have always been Reimei, but I was so lonely that I projected a version of myself into an imaginary friend so that I could be less alone. The thoughts and feelings I had projected onto that little imaginary mouse all originated from... me. But I am also that mouse, because the mouse is a part of me. I cried so hard, suddenly understanding what it means to be "a part of Reimei" and also what it means to be "all of Reimei" at the same time. I'm both. I'm an imaginary friend of myself. How sad, how lonely I must have been as a child, that I found solace in becoming a mouse to soothe my own pain.

Anyways... I thought I would share all of this on this blog that we keep. Perhaps there are other imaginary friends in systems out there like me, wondering how they fit into their system and their collective identity. Maybe my story can help someone out there better understand themselves.

[running2reanimation]

can u do 🩹 for anybody of your choice

[ 🩹 ] does your muse prefer to keep the peace or rock the boat? are they a mediator, or do they tend to make others upset?

I think I'm going to talk about Green with this question because I think he's interesting when it comes to this.

Early on, he was definitely more impulsive than he is now. Though, I do think a lot of his trouble causing was unintentional.

He's learned to pay more attention to his behaviour as times gone on - he's still occasionally impulsive but for the most part he's a mediator.

Despite viewing himself as second-in-command, he doesn't often put his foot down, or risk rocking the boat. He tends to follow the popular vote, even when Second disagrees with it.

[batfamhastwitter]

Part 7! Next part with more of Bruce, Ollie, and more's reactions will be out soon!

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[kcrra]

it makes me literally sick to think about alicent's relationship to her children. like. they are all she has. she loves them more than anything and hates them just as much. each of them is a shackle around her neck. they are her babies even though she was a baby herself, forced to be their mother. she'll pick up a knife for them. they are her living prison. everything she ever does is for them. their very existence makes her sick. she understands them and yet doesn't know them at all. they are her future. they stole her past.

she was 15 years old tethered to a rotting body of a man entirely against her will, watching each of her children invade her body as a result of martial rape. how were they ever supposed to have a normal relationship!!!!!!!

[lauraneedstochill]

Viserys I Targaryen and his brother Daemon vs Aegon II Targaryen and his brother Aemond

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