oooof
i better add the rest under cut
now
i am just going to leave this here
right before you throw rocks at me, this post is not about the doctor being similar to tacteun, even though, i could find the point here... this is more about the master with whom doctor acted as if she is better, who tried to change the master, who did not let the master find out who he can be on his own, because the doctor always was in the master’s life, changing it, wanting the master be like the doctor, and then, appears that doctor is in the beginning of their entire race, the master is no longer himself, and there’s no chance to be himself anymore, because doctor always will be part of him, everything he is - is because of the doctor. And she goes and tells him straight in the face - SHE IS BETTER. so he wants to hurt her, and he does it by doing something that was done to doctor, because that would mean he is superior to the doctor, and while yeah, he could hate tacteun for what she did, but
the doctor while saying all the things that the master is the person who is the most like him, acted as the friend, he still behaved like something more
and for the master he were special, while also he felt like the distant star he would never reach, something above the master, something better.
i don’t know what i was trying to say here i just love being hurt and im pretty sure if we think hard enough about all of these we would find more shit to hurt ourselves so im stopping here
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Normalize never forgiving your abusers.
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i've just learned of the existence of """fear-free""" veterinarians, implying that all other vets are fear-forward or fear-embracing or at the very least fear-ambivalent, so i'll be giving my kittens, who are scheduled to be neutered in two weeks, a series of prepratory pep talks on the character enhancing properties of trauma and panic 👍
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does anyone else in this thread (cluster b mostly ig) really... not get guilt tripping or [insert any self-injurious behavior] threats? i dont understand how it could genuinely be so effective on so many people. like, i DO understand, logically. but... ngl. i dont think it’d matter how close we were, if you try to guilt trip me or, say, threaten that you’ll kill yourself if i do or don’t do x... okay. i have immediately lost every ounce of respect i had for you. go ahead. do u want me to help you with it?
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Going back up to the hospital for the fourth time in two weeks. This time around is for an endoscopy, so time for getting a plastic tube shoved down my throat whilst awake.
At least they partially drug you for it so I hopefully shouldn't feel it, but knowing how sensitive my throat is I wouldn't be surprised if I still did. But either way. Dunno how coherent I'm gonna be after throat tube time so I don't know how active I'll be on here today.
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Today my autism is kicking my ass. Sensory hell I tell you. Already had a few meltdowns. I want to tear my skin off and then throw myself into traffic kind of day. How do I cope when my husband is making it worse and refuses to help me in anyway.
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