#never giving up

[fuckedupforkhahn]

So Kathryn Hahn said

"I want to wish you a happy SEASON finale night"

"don't miss the epic conclusion to THIS SEASON"

On tonight’s teaser for tomorrows’ episodes.

And now we wonder who is she gaslighting: us or Disney 🤔

[riptid3s]

lee yau receiving his 26th steamed perch of the month

[usefulquotes7]

No matter of many times you fall You have to get right back up

[baltharino]

Inami Anju performing Never Giving Up! Aqours 6th Love Live! Sunny Stage

[bcloudsetior]

"You must be strong enough to strike and strike and strike again without tiring. The first lesson is to make yourself that strong. It will hurt. Pain makes you strong."

~Madoc, The Wicked King

[dctrlover1969]

[landofmoa]

If you know in your heart that you’re meant for something, you better fight and never give up until you achieve it!

Fuck the negative thoughts and fuck self doubt.

[thewhimsyturtle]

Rain or shine, on Tall Tuesdays, I climb!

[subtlelifeblog]

Yes, life can be tough but so are you. You have proved in the past how strong you are and you will do it in future too. Keep going❤✨.

[nerdyottawacat]

[tears-that-heal]

Prayer Request ::

My battle against Perfectionism. I’ve been wanting to accomplish my goal to participate in the Inkspiration Inktober 2024 challenge, but I find myself lacking energy and focus more than usual. It’s so frustrating when my mind and body aren’t on the same page. 😭

I still refuse to give up on my dreams and ambitions cause it was God who inspired them. He continues to calling me to use my gifts & talents to share and spread His Love over the world. It's not by my strength this vision will come to past, but only though God's Will & Spirit. By the Power of YHWH (Yahweh); my Abba Father in Heaven! 😇

[naranja-301]

One day i'm gonna be mutuals with those awesome artista I see on Twitter. One day, ONE DAY I SAID!

[baltharino]

Inami Anju performing Never Giving Up! Aqours 6th Love Live! Sunny Stage

[upliftingwords]

(via "Uplifting words: new day new chance try again- inspirational quotes for you :) " Journal for Sale by uplifting-words)

[slutforkishibe]

guys please for the love of god im begging you send me some kishibe fics ive read too many and i need more im losing my sanity i started crying when i saw the new chapter cause i was so hyped i gaslighted myself into thinking that kishibe would be in it and my friend is going insane because of me and my theories while im like 'NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER WHAT' oh my lord i need that old man so badly i cant even sleep peacefully

[otter1962crystalball]

If I Could Talk to My Younger Self

June 21, 2024

Happy Summer Solstice and 21st day of Pride. What if I could go back in time and talk to my younger self? What would I say? What time period would I go? What situations need addressing? I think that we are the sum of all of our experiences and I know that all the things that happened, good or bad, made me who I am. If I had a role model to follow, maybe things would have been easier. I’ve heard quite a few men talk about not having a role model as a gay man or child. Rick Clemons’ Over 40 Gay Men Gay Talk is a good example. What if I’d had a role model? What would that role model say? So for today, I’m going to visit a number of times in my past and tell my younger self the he is on the right path and let him know how to deal with the pain of rejection, the horrors of being bullied, the fear of the unknown and more. Maybe that would have made my life a little easier. So, here goes…

The first time I would go back would be when I was five and tell him that whenever he feels different that he is not alone.  As an adult, I know he was feeling like he was the only one that was made that way. I’d tell him that he is not a mistake and that God will not wipe his name out of his book (See my Pride and Spirituality blog on June 2, 2024).

I would also let him know that there will be tough times ahead, but he will be strong and that he must not feel inferior or less than anyone else. He will also know that he will come to accept himself as he is and not feel less of a human being. As I reflect I know that there are so many gay men who have grown up pretending to be something other than what they really were. If the younger Grant could hear that he is not alone and not a mistake, he might have an opportunity to develop a much stronger sense of self esteem and not lose that zest for life that he had at that time.

The second time I would go back to is when I was first bullied by the kids at school. The day that he got berated in the changeroom is when I would pull him aside (See my Bullying entry on June 5th). I would tell him to not be afraid to be different and that others may not always accept that. I’ll let him know that in time, more and more people will be allies and those bullies are just insecure children who seek out others they perceive as weak and different. I’d mention that one day he will be able to celebrate the fact that he is gay.

The third time I would visit myself is when I was waiting for a bus as I left for Calgary against my parents’ wishes (See my Pride Blog Entry Why Did God Make Them That way). I would tell him that again, he wasn’t alone. I would tell him that he needed to do what he was doing to become the man he was supposed to. He would have to accept himself before expecting anyone else to accept him.

The fourth time would be the day I found out that I was HIV+. I would take him to a park and sit with him. I would tell him that he would get through this and that it wasn’t a death sentence. I would let him know that there would be a lot of stigma around this syndrome. I would tell him that it wasn’t because he deserved it or that he was a bad person (See my Pride Blog Entry “White Picket Fence and All! - Part 2"). I would mention that he is and always will be a strong person who can get through difficult times - as long as he believes in himself.

The fifth time would be when I was standing at the back window worrying that Dean might blow up my house making crystal meth (Blog called “Facing Addiction). I would tell him that the world might look bleak at the moment, but he will get through this with courage and grace. It will be difficult and there may be times when he wants to give up and that he should never, ever give up. I would say that he has so much to live for and will accomplish wonderful things.

The sixth time would be when I was struggling with codependency with my ex-husband or the next boyfriend who was also a narcissist like my ex-husband. I’ve just realized that I’ve not written about this so I will cover it tomorrow in my blog. 

I think that is the last time I would want to visit. I didn’t include my bout with cancer because, while it was difficult, I had a lot of tools that I earned in all the other situations that could help me with my diagnosis.

As I look back on my life, I see myself taking steps forward and some backward. What is promising is that I am moving ahead more than behind. I think this is the answer to my questions at the beginning of this blog. I am a sum of my experiences and I am stronger for it. 

For Pride, I am celebrating getting through life without a role model. It’s my hope that maybe there is a young gay man somewhere who could benefit from an older gay man’s experiences and build hope for their future lives.

Carpe diem. Happy Pride.