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unimportantweirdo · 2 years ago

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so my stupid fucking xiaomi was beyond repair and they couldn't get anything off it

#all my notes #all my photos #fucking nothing #my notes were so special to me #i had poems and addresses and lists of things i wanted to do in the future to make sure i had a future #my photos of my friends and my family #fuck im so upset #i had compliments in my notes #things my friends have said that made me so happy that i wanted to remember them #things my friends have said i remind them of or what my vibe is #sometimes my sense of self is so fucked up i need someone to remind me that i exist and that other people know me and think about me #i havent felt this strongly in so long and i hate it #i hate it i hate it i hate it

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moe-broey · 1 month ago

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First order of business.

Divorce Timeline.

#wip #my notes #GONNA. file it under that even though i'm being vague. but these are sketches ect ect #you see this is why i set up that poll actually. trying to figure out what direction to take #w how i wanna draw the alfonse who would become lif. this in between stage as a whole #is REALLY tricky to parse out. and god if you though alfonse's hair was fucking annoying. oh god. oh fuck.#SOMEHOW. THIS IS WORSE. IT'S SO FUCKING DIFFICULT.#if this alfonse seems absurdly tall esp in that last sketch. well it's just a sketch but also #details kept at minimum. i imagine alfonse is all geared up. heels and all (... possibly insoles.)#and moe was in the midst of getting ready/dressed. so it's flat on its feet here #man. i'm almost in the back of my mind thinking about just how stark the visual difference becomes #between degal and sissel in dunmeshi. the way you see degal change so much. and sissel stays almost hauntingly the same.#that visual storytelling between them drives me absolutely insane actually. the metaphor of #someone who you were both in the care of and made to take care of AND by all means should have been 'your age'#grow up and way past you. but for some reason. you haven't grown at all. yet you operate as you've always have #by force if you have to.#if. it seems like a dubious connection to make. in the context of whatever moe and alfonse have going on #know that it's on purpose with intent. to kill.#the thing about the moefonse dynamic. is that each have just the right things wrong with them.#that either make them click together perfectly if a bit strangely but overall it's good for them #or. on the flipside. they just make each other SO much worse. infinite spiral of So Much Worse #and this is the bad timeline so let me cook. please. pretty please.....#but also for as fucked up as i wanna get comics as a medium are just so uniquely special in the way that #i tried drafting the dialogue out. really didn't know WHERE i was going. then i started sketching #and it's like alfonse himself appeared in a divine vision on the page. like ohhhh he WOULD say that #AND. IMPORTANTLY. in the most indirect direct way possible. it's so fascinating the way it all clicks like that for me #i've talked enough though i wanna LOCK IN. just. needed to get it out of my system/get in the game ect ect #moe tag #moe lore #my art

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skeletonfromthecloset · 3 months ago

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fun side effect (thats so not the right word but idc) of being aro is that while everybody else is in love with fictional characters, i just really want to be their friend!!! i just really really really want to give them a hug & make them a nice warm drink (yes i am one of those people that makes drinking tea their whole personality. what about it.) like. i just. i want to listen to them rant about their life & how their day was. I WANT TO LISTEN TO THEM INFODUMP‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ ugh. just please be neurodivergent with me for a minute. please. guys. autism. please.

#also nd does not just mean adhd/autism but that is what i’m referring to here‼️‼️#also i am actually autistic i am not just saying autism for no reason LMAO #but uh yeah. anywyas. love my silly little guys. just want to give them a hug & listen to them rant #please please pkease tell me about your special interest or current hyperfixation or whatever #i want to hear everything tell me every single little detail i love you #ALSO ON THAT NOTE!!!! i experience platonic love SO FUCKING AGGRESSIVELY #and i feel like alloromantic people do not understand that as much???#like i said to one of my friends thst they were ‘one of my best friends’#and they were like wdym. u only have one best friend. and i was like bro. actually i love you all so intensely so don’t even say that man #like i just. ugh. i love ny friends so much. platonic love is truly sososososoo beautiful & we need to appreciate it more bc what.#anywyas.#aromantic #aro #arospec #tea #comfort character #autism #adhd #yeah idk that’s all i got #oh one more.#martin blackwood #bc that is really who i’m talking about here lets be so real

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vivacia-18 · 7 months ago

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I'm about halfway to two thirds through You Feel It Just Below the Ribs, and asdjasdlkajsadjal

The reveals, the implications, I can't even - mentally I'm rolling on the floor frothing at the mouth. I want to go back and listen to season 3 and season 1 all over again, holy shiiiiit

#viv18chatter #within the wires #you feel it just below the ribs #bless my library for having such a great collection #did not expect to find a book written for an alternative history podcast in its repertoire #but have it they did! all three versions I might add - physical digital and audio #anyways point is shit is really coming out now and I am loving the fictional tea #both from the ''actual'' autobiography and the side implications of the footnotes and interludes #well in between wanting to shake the fictional authors of said footnotes and interludes lol #''edited for clarity'' edited HOW? Was the writing smudged or otherwise unclear and you made your best guess?#did you change words around that YOU thought didn't make sense?#TELL ME WHAT WAS EDITED DAMMIT #and that's not even getting into the VERY opinionated footnotes and interludes #I know it would be expensive and tricky to make #but man I would love if the authors were able to make a special edition of this book #that looked like the actual manuscript #or like ... the one that was released in-universe that was being beta'd by the publishers - so we see the handwritten pages with smudges #the faded typewriter pages #with the publishers notes etc all over it #oooh stretch goal of the internal communications while going over the manuscript would prbably be a fun aside too #sometimes I wonder if there weren't multiple people making footnotes (though only one making the interludes I think)#because sometimes they vary quite wildly in tone #that could just be situational of course #but still #interesting thoughts

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yumatual · 1 year ago

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the complete eri guidebook (2023) full version under the cut ♡ pdf ver. happy birthday @xiaojuun !! <3

credits. with the help of: meg (@hozierbyrne) // brina (@aquablues) // aléks (@possession1981) // vianey (@souladies) // lili (@ninqz) // aweks (@awek-s) // miha (@jaebeomtual) // rachel (@gnanii) // mare (@dongkwan) // ro (@sunghanbin) // rosie (@kimjiwoong) // lulu (@fushigojos) // sofi (@yukuz) graphics: gift boxes // broccoli // orange fruit watercolor // lip print textures // notion-style scribbles // healthcare vector icons // human anatomy icons // film cutouts pack // 3d travel icons // drinks vector icon set // coffee outline illustration pack // baby vector icon pack

#*mine #oorieri #genuinely thank you SO MUCH for participating @ everyone who did . and if i didn't contact u ... im so sorry i probably didnt fully realize #that u were friends with eri um . sowwie #thank you for finding the time to think about this and . for those who did . for sending in your answers i lob u this is only possible beca #because so many people agreed to help...#a note to meg!! specifically!! because you did so much (from being my first interviewee and my lab rat to responding to the few questions i #had . to suggesting people to include and offering your help with contacting some people (although it did not work out in the end as i said #i really appreciated the thought!!)#note for meg (2): i ended up not being able to use indesign at all... it was too big for my poor little tablet skjsk i got rlly excited abt #n downloaded it strategically for the free trial to expire today or tomorrow but. had to uninstall right away... sighs)#special thanks to lili for being so sweet . i think we became a bit closer through the messages we exchanged in between this project <3 #special thanks to rachel and mare who i know are both really good friends with eri but who aren't exactly familiar with me... i was really #nervous messaging you both so thank you for being so sweet and for participating despite life not exactly helping!!#note for rachel: im sorry i ended up casually calling you rachie in my head the past month or so .. forgive me #special thanks to lulu for being willing to participate #a big thank you to everyone for opening up #and thank you to gabi and sarah who did try their best to find the means to participate #big thank you to gimp for crashing so many times while i was making this & to myself for overriding one of the most important files acciden #accidentally. good job #and finally. the BIGGEST thank you to OUR BELOVED ERI who. clearly. is just the biggest sweetest sunshine & the bestest friend to all of us #thank you for everything always ... i hope you're sleeping well by now #and of course: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! i truly wish you all the best today. and this month. and the next year and the next one and the next one an #i love you. <3 i really do #and so does everyone! clearly!!

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yannfredericks · 5 months ago

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I keep thinking like owwwww I miss cursed child and then I’m like girl you saw it literally two weeks ago but the truth is what I’m missing is the 2016 mystery of it all

#the scouring tumblr for information #searching through the playlists fans made of Imogen heaps music and trying to work out what might be playing in what scene #trying to visualise it all #getting my first little audio clip of it and feeling like the world had suddenly opened itself to me #really shitty boots filmed on phones that were mostly of the roof #seeing a glimpse of the top of antos head in aforementioned shitty boot and riding that high for days #seeing stage door pics and peoples recaps and show notes and just. Yearning #anyway I love cursed child and I’ve been so lucky to have been able to travel and see it so much #but there’s something so special about the time before I knew any of that #cursed child #me i guess #ccsquad

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friendofthecrows · 4 months ago

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September and October are such perfect months, I'll be sooo distraught when it's November, except that month is also really nice with the 5th and Gonchaversary and everything...

#all of the months have a special appeal #except february #february fucking sucks #not bc of valentines day i actually like valentines day bc it reminds me of doing singing telegrams in highschool #but everything else about it #it is the Flavorless Month #on a similar note #love late spring/early summer bc everything is coming back to life and i get to eat things (hooray for easy foraging)#but my depression is *always* worse may-june and last June I lost a friend so i think it will just suck forever now /lh #maybe i should just discount Feb. and Jun. as lost causes and make sure i appreciate all other months #sort of like how being 18 fucking sucks but 19 through 22 were pretty good but 23 seems to also suck #still have hope I can turn this year around but it seems like it might be a June-like year

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widevibratobitch · 8 months ago

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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.

#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol #like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset #and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it #but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all #(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have #and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth #(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves #and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol #but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates #the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation #that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me

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anannua · 1 month ago

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You reblogged smth saying to leave that comment

So I thought I would say that when arcane s2a3 aired and I was on ao3 and I saw you in the comments of so many jayvik fics!! It was so funny to leave my own comment then see you in there too. Worlds collided lol<33

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of-solitude-past-and-present · 9 months ago

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holy shit that scar fic 😨

ITS SO MESSED UP ITS GOOD RHDHDHE

Pls write more scar stuff /nf please never quit writing you ate and cooked with that fic 🙏

hiiii anon *tucks hair behind ear* /hj I'm glad to hear you liked them!!! i actually do happen to have a little something, though it will likely be fairly short, like the other drabbles. here's a hint as to what it's about, though. I'll probably revise it a lot later but this is what I have for now.

Back to the fic... he really is such a menace it's unreal. Usually Scar is very patient and reigns in any impulses that might be dangerous to his plans and ideals. However, when it's something as harmless and inconsequential as you... he doesn't exercise this restraint.

I wrote those after brainrotting abt him to a friend.

for clarity's sake, this third screenshot is talking about the second screenshot.

here are some screenshots of me chatting with a friend about the flavor of nuisance he is. worst man ever invented (positive) I need you guys to see how funny that one drabble is when you separate it from, you know, the horrors. Scar totally gets why you're freaking out, so it doesn't really bother him, but also could you keep it down a little? he's not done telling you about the necessary steps humanity must take to progress human evolution yet :(

that being said, I don't think I'm gonna write longer fics about him until we know more about him and Fractsidus in general. I need them to give us more scar scenes. he has such a chokehold on me he's become my absolute wuwa fave with 0 competition.

Oh, and! The insert in that fic is a civilian, but I think it would be difficult for Scar to fall for one. The easiest way would probably to be a sort of contrarian; he's interested in new and unusual perspectives, especially as someone who has a number of them himself. Another hurdle is in what scenario would you reasonably meet Scar and still be able to go about your daily life as usual? See him doing his Fractsidus duties, and he would probably just kill you... what would he be doing chilling out in a city, in the open.... I could totally come up with something, but I'm putting it off until kuro gives us more Scar and Fractsidus crumbs.

#he's so special to me <3 FREE MY MAN HE'S THE MOST INTERESTING CHARACTER #on this note i think the starter 3 (yangyang chixia and baizhi) are kinda boring and flat. it might just be the janky ass voice acting tho #i want to read their character stories before i make a final decision but i wasnt rlly impressed with a lot of the quest.#some parts feel a little forced #others are rlly boring #i love camellya scar and aalto tho. very interesting characters. jiyan and geshu too (i'm finally getting to the part of the quest with #those 2)#anyway. i'm playing wuwa largely for scar <3 #edit: mostly just got bored w the token investigations #the parts before we fought the crownless were cool. as were all parts with scar camellya and aalto #and rn i'm having fun about to meet jiyan

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bmpmp3 · 4 months ago

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also guess which complainer about cevio/voisona's supposed lack of vocal dynamics controls finally Looked Up. and Discovered.

#IN MY DEFENSE on cevio its hidden by default you have to unhide it #but not in my defence it was just out there in voisona. but in my defense again i got scared by the key controls above it #what if the key signature controls kills me. what if i make eyecontact with it and it kills me #but this shit rules ITS NOT as versatile as my beloved sv tension parameter #you cant go from loud to soft within a note for example #BUT this still adds so so SO much. plus i like the usage of forte and piano for it #i like putting a bunch of pp all over my synth covers. normal thing to say #OH ANOTHER THING IN MY DEFENSE for me not looking at the big black bar and seeing the controls is that there are Not many cevio tutorials #in english or otherwise. most are a little basic or too old so they dont mention these parts. i did watch a few japanese tutorials #most were also too old so they have different UI BUT i did watch one where the dude started fucking with dynamics and i was like WHAT #besides most unofficial tutorials and manuals especially in the english speaking world like Only focus on pitch editing. WHICH makes #a BIT of sense in that older software basically just had that + breathiness and maybe formant as things to edit. but we live in the future #i think there is much more to play with than just pitch bends especially with newer software. lot of fun to be had!!#ia has a really nice special type of phoneme in cevio that makes her go suuuuper soft and relaxed which im having fun playing with!

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werewolfdog · 1 month ago

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I wish I can do journaling but the fact that it costs Money </3

#💭#I still vividly remember when my old high school best friend showed their journal books to me and they were thicckkkk like wow #I didn’t get to see much - of course - but I remember catching a map and sticker notes and few photos #and I thought they did them so pretty and I wished I could do that as well #we have ongoing amnesia so everything in everyday eventually becomes a blur or void to us unfortunately #and we want + need to be more in tune with ourselves and our life more so journaling would be nice #and yeah there’s a thing with doing journals on digital but #I imagine it’s more personal and special doing it with your own hands and actual physical items and whatnot #maybe on my birthday we’ll start journaling but we shall see

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unproduciblesmackdown · 2 months ago

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maybe bsol is that time jen tepper mentions when she was so upset about a review of a show of joe's that she broke a glass (&/or threw it out a window)

#could be anything ofc but i sure went sighhh i'll read the nyt review for science; i'm already assuming it's a piece of shit #(it was; thus predictably; a piece of shit. even the nyt rave for a show i liked was basically a piece of shit)#the only thing that makes raves higher quality is they might have actually bothered giving more info abt the show #& otherwise have devoted more thoughts & less space to just the critic's dogshit directionless griping. but barely; so #anyway i was like oh i can search twitter easily for a word as distinctive as bloodsong (except also a ship name for some videogame)#then i was like oh my god at a post from jenashtep about like oh it's the anniversary of two days in a row Events #first when the nyt bsol review was published second when i went to your apartment to make sure you weren't dead #(wait she didn't say To Make Sure You Weren't Dead she says Because I Thought You Were Dead....throw a glass situations)#like well damn also hmm....(also first thing the nyt would've covered at all i think. tbs never played in ny....or nj evidently)#one can only imagine. bsol is so [it does feel very christmas extravaganzay to me in ways. not the same lord knows but]#that like I'm riled fourteen years later finally listening to a boot which leaping into the arms of someone lifting up an Audio #same as xmas like sure i can't be like oh it's about this that the other precise moment though there are ones that extra rile me #can't say it's so obvious like i could Elevator Pitch explain to a rando why i Gasp or get weepy or just have some very special experience #plus i've never even gone lol. the way they can't stop the xmas show b/c it's a musical that just crops up a weekend a year lol #i'm so already like oh of course this is something i'm obsessed with forever now :) unsurprisingly & like it's so idiosyncratic god bless #(also unsurprisingly bloodsong seems to have been broadly warmly received; save by the Newspaper Of Note(tm) taking a dump & calling it a #day like will was saying abt tbs l.a. like oh audiences loved it local online coverage loved it just the less than halfassed review by the #Big Paper didn't & was like ''why isn't this a whole other thing'' called it a day)#anyway like hey I'm absolutely on fire for Outlaw for Not In Your Soul You Don't for Last On Land for Friendship Song to name a few #for what ended up being my proper angle of entry like oh that means a funny little villain then? (yes) like boy is that a banger alone #think thusly nominated for off bway relevant awards; got more than one nom....hey for one thing fourteen yrs later a rando can be obsessed #like that same rando cherishes the memory a livestream livechat interview where i said Black Suits Forever & they put that up onscreen so #joe had to pause like sorry i got distracted someone said black suits forever that's a line from the show & it's So that that show of mine #that never played in new york....like That's Right lol. i'm slamming the xmas fanart up to your window for year three joe Joseph the Show #(he did also see the bsol fanart which i more discreetly made a reply given he saw that Yay Krampusfucking reply last year lol)#anyway uh um. oh yeah wait also bloodsong is lifechanging sort of to me personally i'm just like. so relatively evenkeeled about it like #well of course :) & it counts as lifechanging when i get anticsful Posting. & it's lifechanging Any shows Any songs that are any kind of #impactful. speaking of like individual numbers in cabaret shows or the entire show or the album or concert or anything #as i reblog Outlaw again yelling or go god damn one Understands how last on land is the penultimate song on album #or i say to myself Whenever I Eat A Noodle; I Like To Think About The Hwheat That It Used To Belong To

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cherrylight · 1 year ago

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i actually have MORE pictures of her but i like these two the best !

um. ok. shes also a sona + a self insert! (shes a self insert for 🍒 actually giggling)

her names ashley! i love her so much. shes the reason i started to also go by ashley too! im not really on good terms with gender like almost at all and i go thru so many spirals about it but... she really has been helping me a lot lately with that sort of thing too (along with my other sona too dw) so she means a lot to me <3 i hope you love her just as much as i do!

[ please be nice to me about this if you do decide to rb ! ]

#kaden doodles #<- yes. were going with this :thumbsup:#also very important to note: the name ashley has always held a special place in my heart so going by it makes me really happy :]#sorry for being very strange about uh names and whatnot on here! i just have a lot of gender issues and trying to figure myself out #ANYWAY #i love her so much #if i could colour her i totally would but i genuinely dunno what colours would fit her??#i love pink hair (IF THATS NOT OBVIOUS LOL) but idk :(

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raiiny-bay · 1 year ago

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it’s honestly kinda crazy to me that kel & co were literally the first OCs i ever made

#my test subjects if you will #& yet i am still obsessed w them after all these years #idk i just think it’s kinda special bc it’s like we grew up together almost?#the first iteration of kel & co were honestly very wacky. like the deviant art era of my oc making if you know what i mean #but they’ve changed & grown a lot over the years & that’s kinda fun!! they’re very dear to me tbh #sometimes i read through old notes for them & i’m just like. man what was i thinking #i could honestly write an entire essay on all of the scrapped lore for these guys. the kel & co multiverse is Very extensive lol #the original three the story was about were bow kel & a lil ghost i named tragedy (i was 12 lol)#her real name is isobel. she’s not in canon anymore but she IS in monster boyz. i put a lot of the old characters in mbz.#dhes wasn’t in the original story at first either. he was a character i made for an rp lmao #but once that ended i decided i loved him so much & had to put him in my main project #he has changed the most from his original design tbh. personality wise i mean #he went from very minor side character to the literal focus of the story #he’s essentially the main narrator. even more so than kel #idk. i was just randomly thinking about them & how long it’s been.#gives me feelings when i think about it all lol #i did not sleep last night at all btw #rainyrambles

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mikkouille · 1 year ago

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wait actually connecting the dots was the guy telling us the fight would go well when we were half a party of first timers also the one who forgot to lb3 us like bro was a tank one of em. jffjjssn he forgor.

#the one guy who does know the fight gjdjsjsbsbsbd #no one doing trial roulette at midnight we were all here to discover it #actually the coach review im doing in my head is critical again i realised i once more forgot to hit SSS like i have to figure out a spot on #the hotbar for me to remember #ok authors notes and definitions ¹LB for Limit Break: staple of FF big ability that you get to use after certain conditions #in this case for the time spent in the fight (+other little things but mostly its about the time spent). in the context of this tale #a protective one was needed to supershield us from death. hence 'tank lb' speaking of ²Tank: one of the three key roles in a fight #alongside Healer (self explanatory) and dps (damage-per-second– hence damage dealers) the tank is solid and takes hits #so that the others dont have to. its sturdy and healthy and looks particularly yummy tovthe enemies to make tjem want to hit Just this guy #in this specific story there were Two tanks #one of them seemingly having knowledge of the specific fight we embarked on #the other likely not. neither of them activated the special limited use bug spell we needed to survive though (only they can)#and for ur curiousity dear scientual i play as damage dealer. so that i cant be the bearer of thus sort of mistake ever 👍#though granted dps also could do LB fumbles in this specific fight apparently. twas the fight disclaimers on the guides jdjfjfd #'do NOT cast dps LB UNLESS the boss himself os casting something or else he'll activate invulnerability and make it all useless'#+8second of invulnerability??? bro i just elected to not even try it even before the fight went. awry.#even tho technically my position is good for damage lb its ok given how it went i doubt anyone would mind that no one hit the lb gjdjsjsjsks #to be fair its one of these situations where its better left to the healer in case all goes wrong again #(author note damage lb does big damage. healer lb does big heal and if maxed out on its capacity can even ressurect anyone dead)#(hence. given the struggle. it was better off being theirs even outside of the odd conditions of the boss turning invulnerable)#dont think anyone used it tho #its ok.

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