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[enderpearlgirl1005]

Imaginary Insanity

Chapter 2 What's happening?

About two hours had passed and Ivery woke up and sat up on her bed, rubbing the sleep out of her eyes. She looked around her room and to her shock Alora was still in the room with a notebook, pencil, and Ivery's laptop out on her lat. Alora looked up and saw that Ivery was now awake and she smiled at this, as she had done some research and found some jobs that she knew would suit Ivery.

"Hey Ivery! I did some research and I found some jobs for you!" Alora explained happily and proud of herself.

"UM... why are you still here?! Shouldn't you have disappeared by now?!" Ivery asked, confused and surprised to see Alora still in her room.

"Why would I leave? You're so lonely and suffering! I don't want to leave my creator and best friend alone! So I'm gonna give you company and help you get a better job! I also want you to get better and use your imagination so I'm also helping you get a better job!" Alora explained.

Ivery just sat there not sure on what to say or even do, she had no clue on what was going on or why her imaginary friend from childhood was here. Alora then handed the notebook to Ivery and gently put it in her hands, she then turned off the laptop, put it back and looked at Ivery. Ivery looked at the note book and saw most of the jobs were freelance writers with numbers of publishers. Others were suggestions for an editing job at a local publishing firm. Ivery remained quiet for several minutes, till she heard the door open up and her brother's voice.

"Hey Ivery! Dinner's ready! Come down stairs and let's enjoy some sibling time!" Ivery heard her brother Mortant say.

She looked and saw Mortant standing in her doorway, she wondered if Alora was visible to him for a second as she wasn't sure if Alora was in her head or was somehow here.

"You alright sis? You look like you've seen a ghost?" Morton asked as he saw that Ivery looked spooked.

'He can't see her?!' Ivery asked herself in her head as she realized that Alora wasn't visible to Mortant.

"Um... yeah I'm fine, just thought I saw a spider." Alora explained.

Mortant gave his little sister a confused look for a second before shrugging it off and leaving the room. Ivery then sat the notebook aside and got up to head to the kitchen and have some dinner.

After a while all five of the siblings were sitting at the kitchen table eating their food. Tonight's dinner was chicken alfredo made by Erica who did an amazing job with the food.

"Mmh this is delicious! Thanks Erica for dinner, it's delicious!" Cathay exclaimed happily as she enjoyed her food.

"Thanks sis, I added in a secret ingredient, which was some homemade noodles! I feel like those are better than using store bots." Erica explained.

"Well you did great, thanks for the food." Simon complemented with a smile on his face.

Erica smiled at her big brother, happy that her siblings enjoyed her food. She then looked to her youngest sister Ivery and saw that she had not eaten much and was just picking at the food.

"Hey Ivery you alright? You've barely eaten your food." Erica asked, feeling that something was wrong.

"Huh? Oh yeah I'm fine, my mind is on other stuff right now." Ivery explained.

"You thinking about mom and dad?" Mortant asked.

"No, it... it's just some other things outside of mom and dad." Ivery explained.

The other siblings couldn't see, but Alora was also at the table watching as they all ate while smiling. Ivery didn't understand why she was still here as she thought Alora would've left by now. This made her pretty confused as she didn't understand why Alora was still here, she was just in her head and not real. Ivery was too old to be imagining her again after all this time so it just didn't make any sense to her why she was here.

"Hey if you can't eat now you can take your portion of food to work as your lunch." Erica explained, as she didnt want to make her siblings eat if they weren't feeling good.

"... Yeah I don't have much of an appetite right now. I'm gonna head to my room and try to relax." Ivery said and got up from the table.

She went back upstairs and Alora followed suit with a skip in every step she took. Ivery looked back at Alora and wondered how long she was gonna be here for. She just hoped it would only be for a few days as she believed it was all still in her head and Alora wasn't here.

Unfortunately that wasn't the case at all, days passed and Alora was still here with Ivery at all times. Ivery was growing confused and scared as she didn't understand what was going on. She assumed that Alora would just disappear in a matter of time, but nope. Alora was always with her at all times, at work, home, therapy, the bathroom, and her room. She was even with Ivery now, in a local coffee shop she visited everyday after work to get some fuel after a tiring day at work. Today was a day Ivery had some free time after work, as she didn't have therapy today so she was free to either go home or somewhere else. So she decided to visit this shop for some coffee and pastries.

"Hello, welcome to Cakes and Caffeine, what can I get you?" The barista at the counter asked.

"Hey I like a chocolate caramel latte as my coffee. WIth that I like to have a chocolate eclair, strawberry filled donut, and a cinnamon bun." Ivery ordered.

"Alright coming up, can I get your name please?" The Barista asked as she grabbed a cup and pen to write with.

"Oh yes, my name is Ivery." Ivery answered.

"Alright Ivery, I'll have that out for you in a moment." The Barista said and left to go make Ivery's drink and get her pastries.

Ivery smiled, then turned to her side to see Alora standing next to her with a bright smile on her face. No one seemed to notice her except for Ivery, so when Alora would talk to her when others were around Ivery would try her best not to respond. Ivery then went to a nearby table and sat down at it, Alora followed her and sat down next to her.

"Wow Ivery, you've really let yourself go, and that Stella girl was such a meanie!" Alora comments as earlier that day Stella had bullied Ivery at work again.

"Alora, you can't talk to me in public, people will think I'm crazy if they see me talking to myself." Ivery explained.

"Okay, I'm sorry." Alora apologized, sounding disappointed and disheartened that she couldn't talk to her best friend.

As the two sat there a man suddenly came up to their table and asked Ivery something. "Hey are you Ivery Waver?" The man asked.

Ivery looked up and saw the man had short black hair, deep blue eyes and a suit on. "Um... yes that's me, why?" Ivery was confused about why this man asked her about her name.

"I'm Eathan and my little sister Stella works for you right?" Eathan asked.

When Ivery heard him say that she got a bad feeling right away. She didn't know if this guy was looking out for her best intention or if he was the same as Stella.

"Yes, and what do you want? To tell me I should be put back into that dam facility I was in when I was a traumatized kid after I just lost my parents in a fire!?" Ivery asked angrily as she didnt like how Stella made fun of her for something that wasn't even her business to know.

"No, I just wanted to say sorry for my stupid sister!" Eathan blurted out, trying to calm Ivery down. The words did indeed calm her down and she wondered what Ethan meant by what he was saying.

"What do you mean by that?" Ivery asked.

"I wanted to say I'm sorry, Stella has always been an idiot ever since we were kids. And even now as an adult she continues to be nothing but a bully. I had hoped that when she grew up she would become a little more mature, but I was wrong. Recently I overheard her conversation with her friend regarding you and she said some rather nasty things about you. I asked around and learned more about you as I wanted to know why she was saying such things. That's how I learned she was bullying you so I came here to apologize to you for my sister's behavior." Eathan explained.

After hearing the explanation Ivery felt a little more calm and smiled after realizing that Eathan wasn't anything like Stella. "Well she should've been the one to apologize, but thanks anyway for coming here and saying sorry to me." Ivery said, accepting the apology. Eathan's face became happy to hear that and he asked if it was alright to sit with her for a bit. Ivery accepted and Eathan sat down across from her. The two went into a deep conversation about their work lives and interests. Alora just sat and watched with an ear to ear smile on her face as she was happy that Ivery seemed to have made another friend. However she didn't like how Stella's brother had come to apologize instead of Stella herself. She also didn't like how Stella was giving Ivery such a hard time putting an even heavier strain on her mental health.

"Hey! I have a latte for an Ivery Waver!" The barista called out.

"Oh, look, my coffee and pastries are done, I'll be heading out now. Thanks for coming to talk to me Ethan." Ivery said grateful to see that at least Stella's brother was a decent person.

"Hey anytime, If my sister goes any further with ehr bullying then just let me know, I'll deal with ehr and make sure she doesn't bother you again." Eathan said reassuring Ivery that he's got her back.

Ivery thanked him, and then got up to grab her coffee and food so she could have them at home. After collecting her things Ivery left the cafe and went back home, which was within walking distance so she didn't need to take the bus. IVery didn't really have a driver's license as she had a fear of cars due to the accidents that happened almost everyday involving cars. That and her parents' old car was part of the cause of the fire that destroyed her childhood home and them.

"That guy was nice wasn't he?" Alora asked as she walked next to Ivery.

"Um... yeah he was." Ivery said awkwardly, not sure how to make much of a conversation.

Alora didn't say anything else and just decided to continue talking when they got back to the house. After a five minute walk they arrived at the house and Ivery unlocked the door with her spare key, then went inside. Once inside she saw that the house only contained herself as her other siblings got off work later then her. So for now it was just her and Alora alone in the house till one of her sisters or brothers got off work.

"Hey wanna watch a movie? Or play some video games?" Alora asked.

"No thanks I just wanna relax for a bit while I'm eating my pastries. Work tired me out and Stella's bullying didn't help so I just need to rest and put my mind at ease." Ivery explained as she rubbed her head.

She then went into the living room, with Alora still hot on her tail, and collapsed on the couch from exhaustion. Once sat down on the couch Ivery sat her coffee and bag of pastries on the coffee table next to the couch. She then reached down to her feet and took off her work shoes to allow her feet to finally breathe after being stuffed inside the shoes for so long.

"Ahh! That feels so much better." Ivery said as her feet cooled down as they were pretty hot in there.

"I bet, I don't get how you can walk in those all day." Alora said as she sat down next to Ivery.

"You get used to it if you've been working this job as long as I have." Ivery explained.

She then grabbed her coffee and pastries, then began digging into them. As she ate Alora just sat there not saying a word and just watched. Ivery started feeling uncomfortable with this as before Alora was trying to talk to her all day. So she decided to break the ice and confront Alora about the elephant in the room right here and now.

"Hey Alora I wanna ask you something." Ivery said.

"Oh? What's that?" Alora was curious by what Ivery wanted to ask her.

"Well how long are you going to stay here? I keep on telling myself you're just in my head, but with the way you've been acting, i-it's starting to feel like something else is going on. I'm I going insane? Do I need to go back to the facility or something?" Ivery asked worried that she was losing her mind.

"Oh no! That's not it! I am real! I'm just not visible to anyone else as we dont want others to know of your abilities!" Alora explained reassuring Ivery.

"What? Apilaties? What do you mean by abilities?" Ivery asked confused.

"Huh? Did you really forget? Well I guess they were right about what happens when kids grow up and forget their imaginary world! I guess I'll have to take you back to our old play place and have you reunite with everyone!" Alora exclaimed happily as she grabbed onto Ivery's arm.

"W-What? What are you talking about?!" Ivery asked, taken aback by what Alora was saying.

"You'll see! Oh and I remembered that Zave is putting on a show in his circus! So we should see it! You'll love it! I just know you will!" Alora exclaimed.

Before Ivery could say another word to Alroa she briefly heard the door unlock before she suddenly felt she was lifted off the ground. Next thing she knew she saw a bright light and instantly Alora and Ivery disappeared from the living room.

Simon then walked into the living room with his two dogs in tow as he picked them up from their grooming. He looked around believing that Ivery was home but he didn't see his youngest sister anywhere.

"Huh? Strange, I thought Ivery would be home by now. Eh she must be out for a walk or somewhere to relax, knowing she'll be home soon." Simon said before letting his dogs off their leashes, allowing them to wander freely around the house.

He then went up to his own room to lay down and rest as he was beaten after a long day at work. Meanwhile Ivery's vision cleared up and to her shock she saw her and Alora where floating through some kind of tunnel filled with all kinds of bright colors.

"W-What the hell?!" Ivery screams, surprised and scared by what she was seeing.

"Just you wait! The best part is coming up!" Alora exclaimed excitedly as the two continued to float in the tunnel.

Next thing Ivery knew she saw a blinding white light and she closed her eyes to prepare for what was to come. She suddenly felt like she was sliding on something, when she opened her eyes she saw that both her and Alora were on a slide. Ivery didn't know what to even think however she didn't have much time to as the slide suddenly stopped plunging Ivery and Alora into the clouds below. Alora just smiled and shouted weee! While Ivery screamed in fear and closed her eyes as the two girls plummeted down.

Meanwhile on the ground of this new world a group of a unique cast of characters were having a tea party.

"Ah the honey bee's have done it again! This honey glazed tea is amazing!" A fairy girl with pink hair tied up in pigtails with white ribbons said as she sipped her tea.

"What do you expect? They do what they were created to do, and making tasty honey is just that." A man in a ringmaster outfit stated.

"I do wish that Ivery could be here to enjoy it." A girl with a watery like design said sadly.

"Eh, she just grew up, now she doesnt come here any more... Anyway, where's Alora? She should've been-" An elf guy was saying before being interrupted by Alora and Ivery crashing right into the middle of the table.

Everyone at the table looked at the two in shock when they saw this happening. Alora got up and brushed her dress off before smiling at everyone.

"Hey guys! I'm back! And look who I brought!" Alroa said happily and gestured to Ivery.

Everyone looked at her and they were shocked to see that she was back in this world again after so long. However to them she looked so different and was now a grownup. This wasn't what they were used to as she was just a kid last time she was here so they don't know how to feel about her being back as an adult.

Ivery looked up and was shocked to see where she was now and everyone around her. She looked at her surroundings and saw that she was in a once familiar location of her childhood. That being the old honey fairy woods, a place she made to have picnics, tea parties, and other activities. The honey and food would be provided by the creatures that lived here so there was no need to bring anything but yourself and a friend.

"W-What the?! H-How am I here?!" Ivery asked, confused beyond belief.

"IVERY!! YOUR BACK!" A voice screamed.

Ivery looked and properly saw the water girl, who she had called Aquafina. Aquafina jumped on the table and soaked Ivery in a big hug as her hair and clothes where all made of water. Her sink itself was a cyan blue but it wasn't water so it was the only part of her that wasn't water.

"Alora, is this where you've been? The real world?" The elf guy asked when he saw Ivery.

"Yup! Are you happy to see her Elfien?" Alora asked.

"Yes? No? I don't know? I just thought she'd never be back as she had become an adult so it's natural that she wouldn't come back to this place. After all she's not a kid anymore so it makes sense she wouldn't come here as did not believe we were real anymore. Everyone had thought that Alora so we didn't expect you'd bring her here with you when you'd come back!" Elfien explained.

"Well I just wanted to remind her of this place and all the fun we had here! And It seems like she doesn't know about her ability so I thought this would help her realize it. What do you say Ivery?" Alora asked while turning to Ivery.

Ivery sat there with Aquafina still hugging her, her face and mind both totally shocked by what she was seeing. She then said "What the F**K just happened to me and my life?"

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Break - Ch. 1- Introduction (on Wattpad) https://www.wattpad.com/1326306274-break-ch-1-introduction?utm_source=web&utm_medium=tumblr&utm_content=share_reading&wp_uname=PrettySax3&wp_originator=ZRljJYQ9zG3oqB%2FBeuOiAXS76v0IIbVwwrfyzpEfR2HPCMJz%2BZRZyomfUwrUy%2BRZuzAYBrUVqpUvnIObuobKsJ3JrRDqDh6ZErQGkw5esO8Z3OUxiq1dSrMzDy%2BjQs7c After a psychotic break occurring as a result of a manipulative lover, Scott struggles through improving his mental health on a journey to closure. Supported and cared for by his loyal roommate, John, Scott begins to see the reality of his depraved mental state. Cosbi, Scott's desired partner, finds that dealing with the ramifications of her choices may lead to a dangerous situation of her own creation.

[dde719]

Chp 5 update

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[criostina]

[morphine-victim]

Yup

[wraithofmon]

i never aged. i truly died a long time ago.

[bobharrypercicomalec]

People: 8 hr sleep is necessary.

People with insomnia.

[estrellablanco]

May I be in heaven a full half hour before the devil knows I am dead ..

[friendofghosty]

Car photo was before I was admitted to a mental ward to get help with my anorexia. Photo with mirror is me coming home from the mental ward. My anorexia did not get “bad” like other anorexic patients/people. My mom, doctor & therapist caught on it kinda soon. I was 182 pounds and lost 73 pounds in 2-3 months. When I got home from the mental ward I weighed 128 pounds. Before I got admitted I was close to 100 pounds. My doctor said that was too fast. I was starving myself. I started counting calories. The more I counted the more I would cut down my cal intake. I woke up every morning at 4am to exorcize before school. I ate a water flavor packet for lunch at school. When it got real bad I would only eat a couple bites of a banana and a grape or two. Gum was even hard to eat as well. I would use chap stick as food to fight my cravings. I remember one day after school I worked out for like 2-3 hours. I blacked out running up the stairs back and fourth. Before the ward. I had a bday. I ate almost my whole ice cream cake that day. It was large. I had a bday party that day too. My friends were kind of shocked seeing me eat all of that. I would only drink when I had to take my meds. I didn’t even poop for months. I hardly ever had to use the bathroom. I didn’t even drink any kind of liquid ever. I got mono that year as well. I was poor at that time too. I got picked on cause I only had a few outfits to wear to school. I didn’t even know what anorexia was until my therapist had handed me a book about anorexia and bulimia , but that was near the time they were talking about sending me to the ward and if my parents didn’t take me they was gonna take me away from my home. My “dad” picked me up from school and lied to where he was taking me. When I was getting admitted I cried my eyes out. I was scared, alone and  defeatless. The ward made me eat 3,000 cal a day with 3 health drinks and did not allow me to see how much I weighed or exorcize. So now my relationship with food is really unhealthy. I went the opposite route when I got out. So now I suffer with binge eating disorder, but I have not binged like I use to tho. Maybe 1-3 a month I will do that. I have gotten better, but just eat kinda large portions still. I rather be fat & happy than skinny & miserable. I do miss suffering with anorexia I am not gonna lie. It just old pain that made me feel like home idky. Don’t always judge a book by it’s cover. Just cause someone looks fine and healthy on the outside does not mean inside they are healthy. Numbers should not define people and you shouldn’t have to be stick and bones to be considered anorexic, bulimic or both.

[enderpearlgirl1005]

Imaginary Insanity

Chapter 1 How is this Possible?

"Tell me, what do you see in your dreams?" A calming female voice asked as darkness surrounded a woman.

The scene then changes and the woman is standing outside of a small, but lovely house. Standing in front of it are two adults, and two other children, they all have warm smiles on their faces and they're trying to welcome the woman inside the house.

"I see my old house, my parents, and my other two siblings. However things soon change, I see my house and my family are all still inside, even if my siblings had escaped I still see them in the house. And their BURNING! I can't do anything! I'm STUCK! I can't MOVE MY FEET! AGH!" The woman screams as her vision changes and now the family are inside the house.

They are at a window banging on the glass and screaming in agony as the fire slowly licks away their flesh. The woman now looked like a five year old child, clutching onto two unicorn plushies. The first one was purple and the second one was pink, she just held onto them tightly as she watched her family burn up as the fire consumed them.

"Relax, Kala, now I want you to drift to a good memory, what do you remember from your childhood where you were the happiest?" The calming voice asked.

The scene the woman was in changed again, now she was in the sky in a cloud that was changing colors. She was sitting at a pretty table that was a gigantic flower, drinking some milk with honey given to her by bee fairies.

Sitting across from her was a woman with long hair tied up into two hair cones with multi colored ribbons. She was wearing a puffy dress where the sleeves were purple and she had arm cuffs that went from her biceps to her wrists. The cuffs were decorated with swirls that were pink and red, her dress top had on both the front and back a purple and red heart while the rest was white. The skirt itself had rainbow stripes going all the way down the top and bottom of the skirt. She had long stockings on her legs that were sapphire blue and peridot green while she had midnight black heel shoes.

"I'm in my imagination land, I called it the Fascination world, where anything and everything could happen. I escaped to this place with my imaginary friend, I called her Alora and we were incapable." The woman explained.

"I see, why did you create this place?" The voice asked.

"I made it as an escape from my reality, the reality where my parents died, and I was sent to a psychiatric facility to heal my mental health." The woman explained.

"What do you remember of the Facility? What memories do you have of the place?" The voice asked again.

The scene once again changed to a room with plain white walls and many hospital beds. Some beds were accompanied by children who were suffering with mental illnesses and trauma. A nurse then came in with a clipboard in her hand, the nurse did not have any visible features, they were just a dark cloud of smoke.

"Pardon me Miss Waver, but it's time for your exposure therapy." The nurse said.

The woman then got up from the bed she was sitting on and went with the nurse, she was then gently taken by the hand and led out of the room.

"I remember the nurses, the children I shared a room with who also had mental problems. And my therapy, they showed me pictures and videos of fire, then they showed me real fier to help me get better." The woman explained.

"Alright, I believe that's enough for today, Ivery. Now I'll count to three and you'll wake up." The voice said.

Ivery waited and listened as her surroundings were once aging filled with darkness.

"One... two...Three... time to wake up." The voice said and Ivery did indeed wake.

When her eyes opened she saw she was laying down on a bed, the ceiling having angles painted on it as a way to calm those who come in here.

"How are you feeling Ivery?" The voice asked.

Ivery looked and saw her therapist who was helping her out, the woman's name was Clare who was a Dr. in psychology.

"I feel sick and my head is on fire. What's with the whole hip noses thing and putting into that deep sleep where I have those visions?" Ivery asked as she sat up holding her head in her hands.

"It's all a part of the process to heal. Some might think forgetting relieves themselves of pain, however it's just avoiding pain. Confronting and accepting the memories, even the bad, can help so much more. Yes it's painful, but the end results are worth it, as you'll see once your results finally come." Clare explained as she wrote down something in her notes regarding Ivery.

"I know, but it's been months. Why haven't I shown results yet?" Ivery asked, getting impatient with all this.

"You can't rush the healing process. The facility your grandparents and aunt sent you to only helped with your fear of fire, but your trauma of the events still haunt you. My method is for you to confront the trauma head on and allow you to accept and heal from them. It will be painful, but worth it in the end, so while it takes quite some time you'll see that the pain is part of healing." Clare explained.

"Only time will tell me if that's true or not." Ivery declared.

"Yes, but it's time for you to run along now, I'm sure your sister is waiting for you out in her car, and my next patient is waiting for me. So that means you better get moving before your sister loses her mind with how much she's been waiting." Clare explained.

Ivery just nodded her head, and without another word she left the room to head back home and rest her mind. When she opened the door to leave she saw a man waiting on the other side.

"Hey Ivery, you done? Is it my turn now to accept and revolver?" The man asked.

"Yes it is, go on now I don't have all day." Ivery started tiredly as she made room for the man to go in.

The man smiled and went into the room for his secession to recover from his own trauma. Once he was out of the way Ivery left the room and walked down the hallway that had other's sitting on the chairs in the building. Most were waiting for their other therapist as they were sitting next to another room with another therapist for their own problems and trauma.

Ivery made her way out of the hallway and out of the building, when she left the building she saw her sister's car parked right outside and in the nearest parking space. Ivery made her way to her sister's car and knocked gently on the window. Her sister looked up to where she heard the knocking and seemed to have jumped a little as well.

However once she saw it was Ivery she relaxed and unlocked the door for her. When Ivery heard the door unlock she opened the door and got in the car, closed the door, and finally put her seatbelt on.

"Hey sis, how was your therapy session?" Ivery's sister asked.

"Same as usual Cathay. It was painful, especially the memories of what happened to mom and dad, as well as being in that Facility." Ivery explained in a flat sad tone.

Cathay frowned at this as she knew this has been a pretty painful process for her younger sister. She also knew that Ivery had a long way to go if she was ever going to recover from the mental trauma she had gained that day. Cathay started up the car and began the drive back home where the two lived with their other three siblings.

After 20 minutes of driving the two sisters arrived at their house where their other siblings were waiting for them. The two then got out of the car and went up to the front door and rang the doorbell. The loud barking of dogs was then heard from the other side of the door and soon the said dogs ran up to the door and started jumping at it excitedly. Ivery was frightened a little at the dog's sudden appearance, but she took some deep breaths and calmed herself down. A figure came into view of the door, once they were close enough they opened the door allowing the two sisters to come in.

"Hey Simon, how was work?" Ivery asked, as it was her oldest brother who let her and Cathay in.

"Eh, same old same old. I just filled in the documents all day. It's a boring job, but hey at least it pays well and I can help put food on the table." Simon explained.

"Yeah, it does, work for me wasn't any more exciting, I was just filing some paperwork regarding the company's funds and machinery." Cathay explained.

"Still, at least you don't have to deal with coworkers who think you're crazy as no one else aside from me had to go to a psychiatric facility." Ivery commented bitterly before heading up to her room.

Ivery was also working a job like the rest of her siblings, but one of her coworkers named Stella somehow found out about her going to that facility. After that she began treating Ivery like she was one of those crazy people you'd see in movies. She'd made mean comments to her about her belonging in a straitjacket, how she must still sleep in a padded room, and so much more.

Ivery started avoiding her but the two always ran into each other as the floor they worked on wasn't very big so Ivery still heard those comments. This wasn't very helpful with her mental well being as Ivery just wanted to be treated like a normal person. Plus she wishes that Stella would listen to the reason why she got sent there in the first place, but she always was ignored. Thankfully most of her other coworkers didn't mind or they just didn't care about her past with the facility. Most were thankfully smart enough to not ask her about it as she made it clear that it wasn't a subject she liked to talk about.

Now she was in her room laying down on her bed reflecting everything in her life that led up to this moment. Ivery has had so much therapy but she was still far from a healthy mindset, while she more comfortable around fire her mental health was still all kinds of fucked up. All she wanted was to be normal and not feel so depressed all the time.

"Ugh! Why can't I just get better! What's wrong with me?! Why am I still so messed up even after all this time! Ugh!... Man I remember what days were like before the fire, some of my memories are blurry, but they are there. I remember mom reading me bedtime stories, dad playing pirate with me and my then imaginary friend. I remember so much fun I had with mom, dad, and all my siblings, but now those days are gone. Now I'm just a mentally unwell woman who's struggling to find even the slightest bit of happiness." Ivery said to herself out loud.

She sighed again and laid on her side as she thought about her life and her mental health, wishing it'd be better. As she laid like that a figure suddenly appeared in her room and slowly approached her. The figure reached out to her and started gently stroking her head and back lightly and gently. Ivery thought that it was her other brother Mortant, who would often come into her room and comfort her.

"Mortant, I know you're worried about my mental health, but please knock before coming into my room." Ivery demanded gently.

"Sorry, but I'm not your brother! It's me your oldest and bestest of friends!" A cherry bubbly voice called out in the happiest tone Ivery recognized from her childhood.

Ivery shot up and turned around to see who it was, and when her eyes laid on them she couldn't help but freeze up in shock. Standing before her was her old imaginary friend Alora who now looked to be an adult like her.

"Hello Ivery! It's been so long I missed you so much! How have you been?" Alora asked a very shocked Ivery.

"W-Wha-WHAT THE FUCK?!" Ivery screamed.

"Ivery! Is everything okay in their?!" Ivery heard her sister Erica ask with concern in her voice.

"Um... Y-Yeah, just saw something disturbing on the internet just now." Ivery lied as she didnt know how to explain what she's seeing right now.

"Yeah, I can't blame you for freaking out, the internet is a crazy place with people of madness on it!" Erica called out before Ivery heard her walk away.

"Looks like your siblings haven't changed at all! I missed them so much!" Alora exclaimed happily after seeing the exchange with Ivery and Erica.

"Um pardon me, but, what the hell!?" Ivery was confused and shocked.

"What? What are you talking about Ivery? Aren't you happy to see me again? Don't you remember all the fun adventures we went on together back when you were younger?" Alora asked, her voice still all bubbly and happy.

"B-But you're not real! You were just a figment of my imagination! How are you even here in my room?!... wait no no, I must be hallucinating! Y-Yeah that's it, you aren't here you're just in my head like always." Ivery tried to convince myself.

"Hehe, oh Ivery... whoever said I wasn't real! I am, but only to you! As no one else aside from you can see me! And I loved the world you made with your imagination! However, you haven't come back in so long. Most told me to accept that you've grown up and moved on, but I wasn't convinced! I wanted to see you again so I left and came here to see you again!" Alora explained happily.

"W-What?! I-I am so confused?! Y-Your not real, I made you up as I was a kid who didn't have many friends! You're just in my head and not real... I need to lay down and sleep, maybe even take a vacation from work." Ivery said before laying back down.

"I actually think you need a new job, the one you currently have isn't a good environment for you! But don't worry, you sleep and I can come up with other job ideas and listings for you! After all someone with a talent like yours shouldn't be wasted on a pointless job like yours!" Alora explained as she sat next to Ivery on the bed.

"Yeah, Yeah, like that'll ever happen, you're just a figment of my imagination and when I wake up you'll be gone and everything will be the same as it is... including my mental health." Ivery said the last part with a bit of sadness in her voice as she laid down and went to sleep.

"Hehe, aww Ivery, I almost forgot how cute you were when you thought the opposite of what's true! I'm more real than you thought I was! As I am very real, just visible to you!" Alora exclaimed giggly.

"Oh and one more thing before the chapter ends!" Alora exclaimed then looked at you, the reader.

"Hey y'all! I'm so happy to grace you all with my presence! Before the chapter ends I want to let you all know that those of you who have amazingly creative minds, then let them run wild! Never be afraid to show off your imagination! My creator is never afraid to do that! So you go on and do it to as theirs an artist inside of every writer! Oh and one more thing before I say goodbye! Please remember to vote on the chapter and leave your thoughts in the comments, and share this with others! With all that said I'll see you in the next chapter!" Alora exclaimed to you all happily before waving goodbye.

[realbootyboobs]

[justonerandomwitch]

I fckn hate being called crazy, I spent so long trying to open up and let people understand, and when they do they look at me differently, like I’m some weird specimen and everything I do is proof that I’m losing control. When I justify myself I’m naive or in denial. THE ONLY THING MAKING ME CRAZY IS BEING TREATED LIKE SO. I’m working so hard to keep it together and stay functional, but ppl just pick the mistakes I make and throw them in my face as proof I’m wrong. If I put walls up maybe it’s bcz ppl that try to help just pull me down make me regret everything.

I already have professional help, threatening to force me to get locked up in some shitty place bcz ur scared of being sad if I lose it is so egoistical and hurtful. Im already fighting voices screaming that I’m crazy in my head, I don’t need real ones too.

Then they wonder why I prefer the hallucinations, the imaginary worlds, why I don’t mind forgetting more and more, the real world is fckn shit. Ppl are shit. What I do with my mind and my body is my own fckn business, I’m not hurting anyone. So stop telling me I’m slipping, I’m getting worse, I’m not my real self anymore, I was better before, that my asexually will be fixed when I fix my mental illness. ITS FCKN ANNOYING, if ur not a medical professional or u don’t live in my head, leave your comments in the trash.

I’m doing my best

[existingwhere]

overthinking will truly be the death of me.

[fandomsasylum]

can the science side of tumblr explain why people with mental illness are,,, like,,, obsessed with psychology pre-diagnosis????? deadass spent 5+ years researching psychology before getting diagnosed with MDD, OCPD, GAD, insomnia.. like why??

[mythoughtswithinme]

P.S: suicide is NOT the way forward...

YOU have so much to give this planet.

WE NEED YOU.

*Writing about how I feel makes me feel better but I do NOT encourage suicide or self harm...writing about it is good!

I LOVE YOU, to whoever needs to see this!

Things WILL get better.

I need to tell myself that too... :(

I understand how hard it is...you are not alone.

[carmen-2703-blog]

Estoy mentalmente cansada.

Pero no me quiero apagar, seguiré luchando hasta el final, solo me tomare un respiro.