yknow, whenever V starts going on about how what he and Rika had wasn't love it was obsession, I'm like... why can't both be true? Does it have to be one or the other? They were definitely obsessed with each other--or really, the idealized versions of each other they had in their heads--but that doesn't mean there was no love. Love and obsession together aren't healthy, but they're not mutually exclusive either. Both their ways of loving were unhealthy and rooted in each of their traumas, but that doesn't mean it wasn't real, yknow?
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My Dennis/Percy brain rot is still going very very strong
so ima talk about them some more instead of doing something productive like actually writing a second fic for then
(I mean i will write a second fic at some point for them because i do think my first attempt didn't do them justice but not right now)
I already talked about Dennis's perspective in my OG Dennis/Percy post but I never went more into Percy's so I'm going to do that now
Like with Dennis what Percy thinks he needs and what he actually needs are two very different things
Like Dennis He thinks he just needs something that feels normal something that makes it easier to put all the negative feelings he's been trying to ignore from not only the war and Fred death but also from the way the rest of the family has been treating him since them because of his own actions
which is why during those first few years he clings so heavily to George
because for Percy taking care of both of the twins was something that fell to him more often then it didn't over the years so it feels natural to try to help him as much as he can
even if in this situation George pushes him away alot in the beginning.
But even with him pushing him away it still gives Percy something to focus on that doesn't send him spiraling as much as his job now does
Which granted him pushing Percy away also feels pretty normal as well
Point is eventually George does actually start to heal
He gets with Angelina and Percy finds himself at a loss again
because now he cant push all of his attempts to help onto Geroge anymore and unlike Geroge he hasnt been healing he'd just been ignoring the feelings and pushing them on to another
Choosing to put someone else's needs over his in an attempt to not fall into a pit of despair type vibe
Putting his happiness into someone else with the thought process that
When their happy
He'll also be happy
but that's not how that works
So now George doesn't seem to need him and now now he's back to drinking the pain away
back to taking on any project work will give him that he can throw himself fully into
He's still not healing
He's still stagnate
until he finds someone who seems to need him
someone to pour all of his energy into
So when he finds Dennis in that abandoned corridor breaking down and Percy's able to calm him he feels awake again for the first time in months.
And when Dennis accepts Percy's offer of talking more in the future Percy finds himself actually looking forward to something again.
He doesn't drink himself to sleep that night not wanting to miss the owl if it happens to come.
also i made yet another picrew <3
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