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UPDATE!
10 squares!! still no idea what to do with them
#six of crows#shadow and bone#netflix shadow and bone#kaz brekker#inej ghafa#jesper fahey#nina zenik#wylan hendriks#matthias helvar#maybe i SHOULD make a blanket#iām just not SURE
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i do think there is something wrong with me because i am realising that my reactions to some of the things that luo binghe did because of his love for shen qingqiu seem to be relatively muted compared to othersā. like donāt get me wrong, luo binghe definitely did that like he for sure went there but like at the same time i think heās so fucking valid and maybe if people just stopped judging the kid for being the teensiest bit obsessed and took the time to understand his hangups then theyād see that too
#literally did not bat an eye when we learned he slept with sqqās corpse for 5 years#baby boy never did anything to it but take care of it and try to bring his shizun back (and maybe use it as a security blanket)#come to find out people think heās fucked up for that like okay so you hate traumatised people#let him live heās just trying to make it to the next day okay#<<<this is almost entirely tongue in cheek#i am kinda making fun of myself too bc i am aware i also do not have a healthy attachment style#but also iām not joking bc i understood binghe perfectly all of svsss i was right there with him#i should go back to therapy lol#luo binghe#svsss#bingqiu#they just donāt understand his bpd swag#some of you have clearly never had a special person before
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Third baby blanket of the week done! Itās not my favorite fabric combo but itās the fabric I had in my stash and itās going to be a day or two until I can get to the store. They are both florals!
I did manage to (mostly) remember to time myself when making this one, and it takes about 45 minutes to an hour to make one of these baby blankets
#sewing#handmade#baby blanket#I should come up with a tag for these because Iām curious how many Iāll be able to make#before I run out of steam or find another thing I can donate#maybe Iāll make tote bags? that way people donāt have to have their stuff in trash bags#because I know local places are giving out supplies on trash bags because thatās what they have#thatās a thought for later. for now: baby blankets!#well okay actually for now music break#because itās been days since I played an instrument and thatās a keystone function of enrichment for my enclosure#but after that! quilt sandwich time for the next baby quilt
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Coding woes (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Ukadevlog#Bug testing sure is something lol#These are both problems I've figured out now luckily! And I did them on my own! :D Extra pleased with myself :3#My slightly cocky attitude of ''Well that was frustrating - luckily I'll never run into another problem again'' amuses me lol#'Cause in the moment everything's flying! The code comes together lovely and it's all great! And then I come up to the next thing#Something I haven't done before - something that there's no Direct how-to of how to do a thing#Like setting player-and-character pronouns! I didn't know how to do that! But I figured it out!! :0 What a rush haha#It really did take me an evening of knocking my head against the wall in attempts - I waaaayyy overcomplicated it to start haha#I was like - trying to set up a system that would call on specific pronoun sets individually based on player input#Ridiculous - so much easier to just slap some values into an envelope and have those tied to a specific shell lol#But that took all night! I got sleepy while working on it and even my drowsy brain was like Wait...what am I supposed to check against? Haha#Such a weird experience subconsciously as well :0 'Cause I had normal dreams that night#Maybe some slight code-adjacent dreams of A Screen With Text On It but that could be anything :P#Most of it was just normal dream melodrama - but in the few times I woke up to readjust or roll over or pull my blanket#It was juuuuust enough for my ''conscious'' brain to kick in and think about what to compare against - what structure would work#And so by the time I woke up proper I had to frantically write down a bunch of code in a spare word document so I wouldn't go stir crazy lol#Breakfast must wait! Dailies must wait! I Have to write this down!!#And when I implemented it - it worked exactly as I hoped it would and is much much Muuuuuch simpler to call upon haha#Wow! That was a weird fluke that definitely won't happen again! Haha#I don't actually believe that I just have no way of guessing which aspect will trip me up - This Should Be Easy! And then it isn't lol#Definitely didn't predict the second - Especially because other than a small roadbump of not knowing how to Shell-Switch (ty again Cherry ā„)#Everything up to then was going well and everything after that was going fine! Until The One Thing happened pffbtl#I wanted to assign a value to check if a specific piece of code was being called upon - basically a fork between two outcomes#That went fine! The value Was changing! But only the first fork was being called???#No lol I just didn't put the second = ugh pft - and what's more frustrating is that I'd been using == up to that point!! I'd been warned!!!!#I - for some reason - was convinced that using && would make the value check Only need to check If x = 1... That's not how it works......#It's an If statement! If x = 1 then why do I have to check IF x == 1! Just check!!! Hwagh rules and whatnot lol#Like I said it's all fixed now but sheesh! What a silly mistake! I knew better!! And now I double know better haha
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Maybe I did this to myself but it does irk me when people see me knitting and they ask who itās for and I say itās for me and the immediate reaction is āyou should sell itā yeahā¦ let me spend at least a weekās worth of my free time making an item I like, want, and would wear just to sell it on etsy, making at most a Ā£2 profit on materials and not being compensated for my time whatsoever šš»
#i say maybe i did this to myself because historically i have gifted most of the items i have knitted#because the venn diagram of things i like to knit vs things i like to wear is actually 2 circles that donāt touch#i looove making hats. i HATE wearing hats#also i love making baby clothes but i donāt have a baby and iām not going to have a baby#however lately iāve gotten really into knitting socks and i really like to wear knit socks. itās like the most affordable way for me to get#quality wool socks. and iām going to be watching my shows anyway. the time will pass anyways#but it feels like people are deliberately making me feel weird for wanting to make stuff for myself and not profit off my hobby#and like iāve made 3 pairs of socks to gift already because ātis the season or whatever. and iāve started another pair for a friend whose#birthday is in january#genuinely itās very weird to hear āyou should sell itā or āoh i want one!!ā about an item iām making for myself. after 18 years of gifting#or donating basically everything iāve ever knitted. like iāve gifted 2 double bed size crochet blankets#everyone iāve known whoās had a baby has gotten a cardigan or a blanket or hats or all of the above#i spent october making poppies for the church. iāve never even stepped foot in my village church mind you. my neighbour asked me to help#do you know what i own? that iāve knitted? a pair of mittens and a pair of socks.#you want some socks from me? alright. thatās anywhere between Ā£6 and Ā£10 for the yarn and thatās optimistic#iām currently making myself a pair with hand-dyed yarn that cost me Ā£18 including delivery#the needles i use cost me more than Ā£10. timeā¦ letās call it 24 hours per sock#i donāt know anyone with 18 years experience who makes minimum wage so letās call it an even 600 for my time. tbh#DO YOU SEE how this isnāt a viable side hussle??? i physically cannot charge what my socks are worth#if i like you and youāre willing to wait; socks are free or cost whatever the yarn costs#if i donāt like or know you venmo me Ā£620. and youāre still going to have to wait.#just pisses me OFF when people suggest i make an etsy page and they say it like theyāre doing me a favour or giving me great financial#advice. like youāve seen me sitting here all evening and iām barely done with the cuff.. do you actually think selling these for Ā£20 maximum#is going to help me out. iām not selling them. theyāre FOR me. iām making them because i want them#also when my friendās family was saying this to me and i was like āwell the yarn cost a fiverā and they got quiet and i was thinking yeahā¦#a fiver is the maximum you cheapskates would pay isnāt it. a fiver is cheap sock yarn bought on sale. or yarn that probably isnāt actually#good for socks. like donāt presume to give me financial advice when youāre this out of touch with the market please#next person who asks when iām going to start selling socks is getting this whole rant in entirety tbh i donāt care anymore#personal#edited to add that i didnāt even get into etsy fees or whether i would even be noticed among the mountain of dropshippers LOL
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for people who have anxiety but live alone anyway: how do u deal with the panic? I live with 2 other people and still have bubble burst moments of random fear that only gets soothed by putting myself in someone else's eyeline. what do you do when the catastrophising starts???
#my body has a lot of random weird pain frkm 26 years of bad things and every time im like#i should have written a will its really happening this time im about to drop dead#so i skitter around the house to stand close enough to someone else that theyd hear me if i fall over LMAO#insane behavior i know. i have a mountain of medical anxiety bc of my grandparents#but like i cant even wrap my head around what id do if i felt that way and was alone 24/7 at home#panic forever???#who makes you eat and shower bc its sure not MY executive function keeping me alive on the bad days LOL#id wither away if i lived alone i think#kinda sad my life went a way where thats never going to happen tho. to the end of wanting to know who id be#how would i dress and act and decorate?? eat?? what kind of dishes would i get. throw blankets too#what would i learn abt myself etc its an iteration of me that will likely never happen bc im happily married#hmmm#ur always going to wonder about the lifestyles you didnt have. thats normal#but it does make me wonder what i would have been like if i had friends and my own space#oh to be a fag making out with his friends in the privacy of his own home#or maybe thats just how i feel bc were literally married and have never been able to afford to live alone Together lol
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anyone know if bookbinding glue works on canvas? im thinking i want to add a shield to my halloween costume next year and am trying to figure out how to attach the front
#not silm#not art#halloween#first attempt w cardboard hot glue and canvas worked fairly well but the back is kind of lumpy from the glue and the corners arent great#so im thinking of doing painted canvas on book board with binding glue to adhere it#so itll be nice and sturdy#not sure how i would attach the straps though#unfortunately im too busy to do much in the way of costume upgrades rn but for next year i have a few things in mind#i definitely want to do a cloak- i saw this nice quilted fabric at joanns that could work as an insulating/lining layer to give it weight#i really want to do fake fur trim for the Fancy Himring Cloak but ill have to find something im not allergic to#idk how to do cloak clasps but the actual sewing part should be reasonably simple since its mostly one piece#just have to attach the outer layer and the lining layer and hem the thing#for the helmet im trying to find larger brads that might work to add a rotating visor#idk how to get it to stay shut though. will probably have to adjust the angle so it doesnt keep getting stuck on my nose#and so i can actually wear glasses with it and not fall down every single set of stairs like last time i wore it#anyone know if there are like. sewing patterns but for 14th century helmets?#armor wise i might actually go with the slipper top for pauldrons#would probably be decently padded#gambeson means i need to learn how to sew shirts#so maybe thatll be a few years down the line#for the shield i have one custom heraldry and one feanorian heraldry. maybe ill make two shields idk#the cuirass is going to be harder - maybe alternate a few layers of cardboard and quilted fabric? would that get too thick tho#ive tested cardboard + heavy waffle blanket gambeson and that works pretty well so maybe just go with that#maybe a cheap bookboard layer for the top?#idk how well you can paint book board though. will have to run some experiments
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if I made a discord server for my shit and so peeps can hang out and talk about old men kissing, would you guys like that
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#would you still love me if I was a dead pixel on your screen right in the middle and you always mistake me for dust or a bug#peeps are asking me to make one again so I'm actually getting off my ass and doing it lol#also I wanna make more maji emotes#not that anything's stopping me but maybe I should put them somewhere else other than my furry server lmao#my discord peeps be like brahk is off their shits again#I just realized I don't have any kiryu emotes!!! not ones that aren't pics of my shitty meme blanket anyway dkllkdskld#I wish there were more sticker slots cuz I got some pretty good ones#OKAY I'm done I prommy
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gonna say this for like the 900th time, but i want to draw in a funkier style - but my pea sized brain is filled to the brim with anxiety and doing something new when i have a strict routine of how to make drawings... lets just say i know how to make myself scared of drawing
#you should take my brain out after i die and inspect it like they did with einstein#rambles#although i will say out of my entire friend group irl im the least scared person when it comes to interacting with strangers#as soon as an action involves another person i go š«” and just fucking do it even if it makes me borderline insane from stress#my middle name is people pleaser fr#hi im rambling because i want to make tea but blanket warm so i stay and type on here#anyways upcoming week ill be moving around the country a lot and then afterwards ill have a.... JOB aarghhhh!!??!!?! so idk how active#ill be and i have school shit to make and submit so this maybe the fall of my kingdom#anyways pt2 im gonna go take a shower and you should too
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*looking at my abandon textile projects* I'll be back soon i promise
#making 26 smuppets in 13 months may or may not given a little burn out/boredom#but ive gotten out my red knitted blanket that hasnt been touch in like a year because of my smuppets#and i swear im gonna work on soon#setting the goal to get it finish this year#it's ugly and bad but it's my first blanket and a weird material for it a beginner to work with (i assume based on my sewing knowledge)#i have also gotten out my partly done smuppets again now that ive had a break#but maybe i should pivot back to other projects like my build-a-bear clothes (i gonna to digitise my patterns i swear)#but also i keep telling myself im gonna work on the smuppet gifts i promised for my friends and my SisIL#oh wait there was ANOTHER friend i promised a smuppet#but this one is meant to be a half size one so it looks silly next to the bruppet#i should make a smuppet for my partner. to go with faer Cal.#so many smuppets. so little time.#why do i have a job. i should be sewing & knitting and playing pokemon & balatro and writing muppets & hetalia fanfiction#and working on my VTM character tbh#WOW. talk abt word vomit.#talking lollie
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ur post about queerbaiting and the dismissal of people in fandom to critical analysis is so incredibly true thank you. i feel like marcille's writing in the anime has been super misogynistic a lot of the time and every time i bring this up all anyone wants to say is "well maybe this isn't for you! and you shouldn't watch the show!" like. i don't think this is about taste lmao, i am analyzing the text in front of me and coming to conclusions about the craft of it.
[This is in reference to this post]
YES!!! THANK YOU!!!!!
It is so so frustrating!!!!
It's like being at a restaurant and being served a bunch of delicious appetizers, but then one of the bread appetizers is literally just a plate of crumbs; and then when you're like, "Hey, uhh, why are we being served literal crumbs?", a bunch of the other folks eating at the restaurant are like,
"WELL HOW ABOUT YOU JUST DON'T EAT HERE THEN??!? YOU MUST NOT BE THAT HUNGRY, SO JUST FIND ANOTHER RESTAURANT AND DON'T EAT WITH US!!"
And maybe they say it politely, but "Aw, sorry, maybe this restaurant just isn't for you š" is just trading out an aggressive dismissive tone for a patronizing dismissive tone. It's the same message.
And it's like! I was honestly happy to move on from the crumbs once my complaint was acknowledged because the meal overall is still delicious, but then all these folks got SUPER WEIRD AND DEFENSIVE ABOUT IT, so now I find myself double-checking all the other dishes -- and, actually, you know what those eggs DO look a Iittle misogynistic undercooked!!!!
#original#queerbaiting#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#falin x marcille#marcille x falin#marcille donato#delicious in dungeon#dungeon meshi marcille#listen i like marcille but u r right she is basically there to be a wet blanket a LOT of the time and that is a sexist trope#i think the bar is super super low for female characters in adventure anime and the lack of constant ogling maybe makes the female#characters feel better written than they are. i mean falin basically has no personality. she's got an innocent heart but that's nothing.#and i think these conversations are worth having bc no piece of media is perfect and this is how we learn to do better#also like. I've seen media criticisms that make me go 'oh you straight up should reserve commentary bc you#haven't watched the show and you're wrong' or 'i see what you're saying but you are simply incorrect' but like#i don't think I'd tell someone to just NOT watch Hazbin Hotel bc they have a bad take - and certainly not bc they have accurately#pinpointed a real flaw about the show (of which there are more than a few but frankly not what became the biggest subject of Disc Horse)#Angel is actually an amazing character & i think people mistook a criticism on the way abuse is glamourized as actually glamourizing abuse#like his song about abuse is called Poison and he's trapped in an abusive performance contract - bringing to mind Britney Spears#i think it is a wildly triggering and painful scene but i think a lot of people took the pain it gave them to mean it was bad art#but tbh they are still allowed to eat at the table if they so choose!!!#sorry i got sidetracked - as an abuse survivor Angel just matters a lot to me. i have a couple serious criticisms of vivziepop's work but#Angel is very much not one of them#also in regards to the actual subject of this post i think the most audacity of the responses i got was the one that said#that by complaining about queerbaiting I was 'de-incentivizing writers to write any interaction b/t women that could look even a little gay#and I'm just like. good. I hope they stop writing entirely. if the takeaway from 'please don't sell me bread and then serve me crumbs' is#'WELL NOW I JUST WON'T BAKE ANY BREAD PRODUCT' then that person is a bad chef. they should find a different job.#or at least do a whole lot of work on themselves. but either way i wouldn't be too broken up to know i won't be getting any food from them.#'just leave then' is so obviously a gut reaction defense mechanism & it implies media criticism should only be for things you don't like
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I am reconsidering some things for this blog.
#and by some things.#i mean one thing.#to not accept rping with duplicates.#except for Solas#this is the first time ive had muses that are not Solas share a blog with him#and on my last multimuse i didnt have a rule against duplicates.#at least I dont remember having one?? maybe I did and I couldnt be bothered to check tbh.#but i *have* followed back numerous solo & multimuse duplicates at this point#and i fear i may be putting up an unnecessary wall betwixt us.#i was speaking about this to a friend the other day and ive just been chewing on it ever since.#i feel like I owe some kind explanation abt it bc i think it makes me look like a prick to be okay with the others & not him.#Like uh. Years ago a Solas was so bigoted in their portrayal of him that it altered my DNA and fully traumatized me.#is that maybe the stupidest thing ive ever said out loud? yes. Do i need to touch grass? clearly.#Obv that person isn't every other person. & I should get over myself. But I cant. I genuinely feel anxiety over the thought.#so I thought'd it just be easier to put a blanket rule on duplicates. But actually this is not serving me.#and just to be clear i have 0 issues w/ u & ily if u have Solas on ur multi (this only applies to like 4 of you i think but still)#like i followed u for a reason lol.#and if YOU don't mind dupes#you are welcome to reach out for ANY of my muses including Solas.#but as long as it states ur cool w/ it in your rules. i think i'll drop my refusal to reach out for other Emmrichs and Felassans.#ofc ofc i'll still be respecting your rules if you don't want dupes.#i think ill be updating my rules page soon.#ooc
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Oh yeah I went to the store the other day and got more yarn
I'm gonna make this blanket in these colors. Approximately.
#speculation nation#me showing up to the front with a metric fuckton of yarn. im sure theyre used to it tho.#but it was on SAAAAAAAALE and i wanna make another blanket. smth more complicated than my last one.#so it's very exciting. i should start this at some point.#i also got some yarn to make uhhh a stuffed bird and maybe a beluga. maybe.#crochet shit
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Hey y'all! I'm thinking of making pride quilts (because I am in a quilting kind of mood). They'd either be baby quilt size or throw quilt size (or wheelchair blanket sized, which is sort of in between those sizes?) Do you have any suggestions for which pride flags I should make into quilts? And any input on the quilt sizing?
#I wonder if I could add loops or something to make the quilt easier to attach to a wheelchair or rollator or something#idk if that would be helpful?#I have not used my rollator/transport chair enough to know if that would be helpful or not#idk what sizes would be best#I also don't actually know anyone (besides me) who has a wheelchair? so I wouldn't have anyone to give it to currently#so maybe I should worry less about what sizes would be helpful lol#I just know wheelchair blanket sized quilts are a thing#and I think they are a thing I'd like to make#I'd also like to make pride quilts. They don't necessarily have to be the same object
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So I kept hearing about how art can be relaxing and stuff. Just messing with colours and such.
So blanket fort time today is art time and I found a water colour pallet to give it a go and god damn I wish my art teacher at school had actually encouraged me to keep going and trying cause this is fun.
I've just been swatching the paint but I'm enjoying it :)
#funny how that works out right#people who encourage you to keep at stuff is where you find yourself most comfy#for me at least#art teacher didnt#science teacher did#now look at me#its very strange#ramble corner with major#future art time with major?#maybe ill try painting some lu pictures? :)#i aint good but you gotta start someplace right?#just chatting#rambles#you think i should make this blanket fort time?#blanket fort time with major#blanket fort time#get some hot chocolate :)#what snacks do you have?#i have chocolate :)
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such an awful handicap to be a person that always needs goals assigned by someone else to have things be fun. maybe its just a quality thats been stripped and stolen away from me like every ounce of normalcy i used to have. who knows. still sucks though
#i feel this the strongest with trying to find motivation to draw. its so easy when its for someone else#if only i could somehow interface with myself. i know i at least like many of my drawings! i can do this for me! for me only!#but its just not enough to motivate me man. i think i only ever managed to draw so much in the 2016-2019(?) eras bc i was in>#>literally the worst years of my life and a signifcant portion of my day was taken up by shit i didnt care about. so i doodled a lot#or it was bc the fnaf guys were so easy and braindead to draw and like. plus the engagement boost of being in a golden age fandom#maybe i should try to dissociate harder š its not like its gonna get any better from here anyways rofl#if i was destined to be a little freak of nature anyways then i wouldve at least chosen to be one of those people that can just.#make people up. imaginary friends. having plushies or fucking blankets feel real to them. anything that doesnt tie me to someone else#im never enough for myself am i. frankly i dont think i will ever be *closes my eyes forever#dextxt
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