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isa-ah · 2 months ago

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for people who have anxiety but live alone anyway: how do u deal with the panic? I live with 2 other people and still have bubble burst moments of random fear that only gets soothed by putting myself in someone else's eyeline. what do you do when the catastrophising starts???

#my body has a lot of random weird pain frkm 26 years of bad things and every time im like #i should have written a will its really happening this time im about to drop dead #so i skitter around the house to stand close enough to someone else that theyd hear me if i fall over LMAO #insane behavior i know. i have a mountain of medical anxiety bc of my grandparents #but like i cant even wrap my head around what id do if i felt that way and was alone 24/7 at home #panic forever???#who makes you eat and shower bc its sure not MY executive function keeping me alive on the bad days LOL #id wither away if i lived alone i think #kinda sad my life went a way where thats never going to happen tho. to the end of wanting to know who id be #how would i dress and act and decorate?? eat?? what kind of dishes would i get. throw blankets too #what would i learn abt myself etc its an iteration of me that will likely never happen bc im happily married #hmmm #ur always going to wonder about the lifestyles you didnt have. thats normal #but it does make me wonder what i would have been like if i had friends and my own space #oh to be a fag making out with his friends in the privacy of his own home #or maybe thats just how i feel bc were literally married and have never been able to afford to live alone Together lol

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