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Still mentally smashing my head into a wall about being called a chubby chaser
#by a friend no less#“you kind of have a thing for fat people dont you”#pleasssse#this is why i have trust issues actually lmao#the most annoyinf thing about it for me is i dont even know how to properly reapond#respond*#how am i supposed to defend myself or my exes or my partner when i dont even know what its like#ykwim?#i feel like it isnt my place#but for you to downplay my feelings for someone and say im only dating/attracted to them because of something physical#as if im fetishising them?#makes me never wanna speak to you again#idk#it just#ticks me off#txt#also the term chubby chaser-#thats bad right?#i googled it but it like depends on the person idk#it didnt come across as nice when they said it so
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✨ Star Friends ✨
When I found out that @chessman-protocol boy Crit liked Astronomy, let’s just say I was beyond estatic and immediately planned this little comic. Here’s to my boy Vincent doing his best to make friends with folks who share similar interests 😅💙
Funny enough, I didn’t realize I put this in Vincent character’s until I looked at the whole thing, but Vincent very much shares the lack of stranger danger the way I did/ I do to this day. To quote one of my past managers I’m “abnormally friendly” or whatever
I can’t tell you how many times even as a small child (drove my parents nuts) that I saw a cool person with whatever connecting factor and I just straight up walked to them and was like “Ok cool. We’re friends now.” And nobody’s really stopped me? So apparently I have friends now. 😆
Vincent however is just a wholesome baby boy who doesn’t realize he’s actually an intimidating hunk of a turtle and randomly walking up to strangers and not saying anything can be taken the wrong way.
Like I said, he’s trying his best. He wasn’t exactly the most socialized if you can’t tell, but he does love dearly and is certainly a boone of a friend to have once you get past the inevitable social awkwardness. He’s loyal to put because he really doesn’t know better, and I adore him for that. Anyway, dunno if Crit knows any ASL or not, but either way Vincent is just excited to meet somebody else who likes space ✨🌌 💙
#just being jayus#doing this ugly and scared#my boy <3#Vincent my beloved#rottmnt original character#rottmnt oc#original comic#rottmnt#save rottmnt#unpause rise of the tmnt#time to go feral in the comments again; please ignore the ramblings of an insane person#Fun fact: Vincent is mute (late mutation and didn’t fully develop vocal chords) and so he only speaks turtle and partial ASL#Morrocoy Tortoise AKA Yellow or Red Footed Tortoise bop their head to assert dominance and show emotions#Head hopping and headbutting is Vincent’s tic and you can tell how he’s feeling by how fast or slow he goes because it’s a VIBE#Working on this comic was like the preverbal attempt of taking a horse to water#except this horse is a pony (anything under 14 hands is of the devil) and would not even spare it a glance unless it was perfection#Alas mockery and spite is unfortunately my demise and I could not handle the blank page any longer#Can you see how my style changed when the focus and subject changed?😅#Forgive me my son#for I have not learned to draw you from all angles yet.#Why did I make you so pretty and detailed in my head and yet have my hand betray you?!#The true tragedy is when your idea level is not at your skill level bECaUsE I KnOw wHaT hEs SuPpOsEd To LoOk LiKe BuT I CaNt DrAw HiM yEt#So here we are and I am accutely aware of how much work there is to be done. I’m looking at you flippin turtle anatomy#But hey we all have to start somewhere#so here I am#I tried and by golly I will keep trying. Vincent deserves that much 😅🧡🫡#I just looked back at this and realized I MISSED A STINKING PANEL. And Vincent’s shirt.#Flips a table in my mind#Also I’ve never made a mute character before so if anybody has notes especially about ASL PLEASE PLEASE P L E A S E lemme know.#Wanna make sure I represent the peoples correctly 🫡🧡
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25 NOVEMBER, 2019 ✦ MAANDAG, 20:02
#wtFOCK#Skam#Zoë Loockx#Senne De Smet#Zoenne#Viktor Deruwe#Veerle Dejaeger#Nathan Naenen#Jonathan Michiels#wtFOCKEdit#SkamverseDaily#SkamRemakesEdit#1st of all giffing s3 w this lighting is H*LL! it's impossible to do a nice coloring I TRIED BUT UGH 3 gifs look good out of 27 lmao yay#now to the real important stuff...#the way Z puts her arms around herself as if she wants to cover her body when Vktr speaks to her will never not break my heart#it’s the same thing she does when he says she looks good the day she confronted him 5 months earlier 😷#IT KLLS ME I WANNA KLL HIM!!! also Senne shielding her just like he did in 2x04 when she first met Vktr :'(#yeah no I didn't gif Viktor's face as he gave his phony speech bc 1- everything he's saying is bs as Senne said + his crocodile tears irk m#but I had to gif him in the end still trying to make eye contact with Zoë so maybe he'd be able to manipulate her into feeling sorry for hi#I loathe him sm 'I hope you rot away in that light' probably the most badass line ever said in this show#ofc that after all of this they wouldn't let this end the way it should have#Z looked so so so broken throughout this whole thing ofc they'd just feel like hurting her a bit more#it wasn't Zoë's season anymore and YET her hell weeks were still going SMH#25.11.2019#s3#3x07#on a better note them dropping this clip on the international day for the elimination of violence against women was so like the wtFOCK+#I used to know and love#mad respect--even if it wasn't intentional bc who knows right--they once again delivered
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hi fam !!
#weezer#rivers cuomo#brian bell#patrick wilson#mikey welsh#ahhh omg :( i just fumbled so bad socially#and i just need to like. never speak again i feel.#and i’m trying to comfort myself because like. my friend started talking badly about me#and said i only use her to vent which makes me sad because i didn’t think that was true and i try to do sm for her#i made physics study guides for her ; compliment her when she posts ; and post her on my story a lot and always wave to her and talk to her#and i dunno. it makes me sad to think that but i can’t help it; you know? i just need to be alone sometimes and not speak to anyone#and it isn’t like i don’t wanna be her friend ; of course i do but like. it just hurts my heart she doesn’t wanna be my friend anymore#and it hurts my heart so bad and i dunno what im meant to do. and yesterday i had a party#and i said a bad joke in front of the wrong people and i just. accidentally embarrassed one of my good friends and i feel so bad#and everyone js went quiet and it’s just. i feel awful and need to be like. beheaded.#and i try to comfort myself like oh it’s okay. today is a new day. but today i feel even worse about it and there’s nothing i can do#to fix this; like on one hand THERES NOTHING I CAN DO TO FIX MY BLUNDER!!! but on the other hand; there’s nothing i can do and i have left#my imprint in their minds and it’s so bad. i wish i was like. dead or something; yk? like not even weezer can make me feel better and it#sucks so badly . i wish i could just not think anymore and ignore everything in my life. i just hate myself so badly right now ; and i can’t#even be sure that i’m gonna be better cuz i just lack so much social awareness. i wish#i was more socially aware . i just hate when i get too comfortable. i wish i awkwardly sat in the corner and#didn’t speak to anybody the entire night to spare myself from any awkwardness. i hate parties!! i shouldn’t have gone :(#SORRY FOR THR BENT POST I JS NEEDED TO TELL SOMEONE AND LIKE. GET KT OHT YK?#it’s just so. ahhh i hate everything sm rn :( but liek me and the friend joke like that all the time and idk. im just. :( i feel terrible#and i’ve apologized and he said it was okay but embarrassing cuz some ppl looked at him for his reaction#and i dunno. i just feel awful and need to just. focus solely on academics until my brain is fried and i can’t function or something !
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I love being aroace, but I desperately need friends who will prioritize me and won't make me their second choice without it turning into them having a crush on me.
Being pushed aside for a romantic partner hurts. Being less of a priority to someome I've known for YEARS than someone they've known for like 3 months is DEVASTATING.
Having a friendship with someone who prioritizies me and puts me first and is intentional about the effort and time they put in is all I want. And call me selfish but I want them to do it without falling in love with me.
I want them to do it platonically. Or alterously.
And you know what? I'm sick of people having crushes on me. I'm sick of friends building an entire relationship with me just to come out and say they only did it cause they wanted to kiss me. Or fuck me. Or both.
And then they get angry because I don't see them that way. They get resentful because they acted like thidls and behaved this way with the intention of is being a romantic investment.
And now I have to deal with the emotional distress of having someone pour so much into me, love me, prioritize me, doing a complete 180. And them resenting me for being upset that their behavior towards me has changed.
Them being resentful that I still expect thier usual behavior, because to me those were stardards for a platonic relationship that they set with me, and to them it was all a ploy to get me to be their girlfriend. They don't want a qpr. Thats never good enough for them.
#I know I keep posting and deleting my angsty aroace posts#i love being aromantic#i love being asexual#most of the time at least#but sometimes its just a lot#i wanna be prioritized#im tired of being put on a back burner because im “just a friend”#like wtf does that even mean?!#and i'm tired of being lead to believe we're close friends because you wanna date me or you want in my pants#aromantic vent#asexual vent#its aroace cause i said so but mostly its aro#<<< the vent i mean#angst#aroace#aromantic#aromanticism#asexual#asexuality#queerplatonic#qpr#i'm just really tired of this crap#ive gotten to the point where i genuinely mourn the relationship when they get a s/o or they confess to me#because we are never gonna be the same again#i love when their happy and they have an s/o and that makes them happy#i love that they have someone who loves them and that they love#but damnit why is this persons time more important to you than mine???#its even worse when its someone that they acknowledge doesn't treat them great#not abusive just like they aren't a very attentive partner. why are they getting prioritized but they won't prioritize you back??#chi speaks
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I just don't think an author should edit the racist (or otherwise problematic) shit they wrote out of an edition of their book, let the other editions go out of print, and not at least leave a note acknowledging that they made the edits because they wrote something problematic and they apologize, but if you're buying this book you should probably know that it had content you may find offensive.
#romance novel blogging#people are discussing the kleypas edits again and i'm just very tired of my fellow whites going#'but see i don't wanna read that racism! i'm glad she's editing it out'#lol like..... maybe the issue is less the edits and more the lack of ownership...?#maybe the edits when made without a note suggest less of a moral motive and more of a 'make the books sellable' motive#and it's probably SOME OF BOTH#god knows i can't speak for her#but if you don't admit you did something and attempt to erase it idk man will never sit well with me#(AND KEV AND CAM ARE STILL WEIRDLY WRITTEN!!!!!)#idk i also think that people especially white people need to sometimes reconcile w the fact that authors we love#have often written shit we don't agree with#especially if the author has been working forever#and i say this as someone who loves kleypas's books#i'll also say that the depiction of joyce in my favorite kleypas book dreaming of you is messed up!#there's some really weird homophobic shit that happens when she threatens to SA sara to see what derek was getting out of her#i would rather know that was in there than not
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i'm normal now. lying also
#clai speaks#god. God.#a game hasnt made me feel despair like that since m/ther 3#i was so tense and horrified and just downright felt Awful through all of act 5. this RULED ITS SOOOOO SO SO GOOD!!!!! AAUGHHH#hehe. my favorite game is black and white and my second favorite game is in black and white#i think theres still a lot i need to look into. one of the posts i rbed mentioned a loop fight and uhhh What. Huh#i missed a lot in my game i think.... i had to look up walkthroughs a couple times and found out about things like--#--the ghost event or bad touch event. though tbh i'm very glad i didnt see bad touch event!!!!#but also i never managed to make the bomb i didnt open some rooms i couldnt sharpen the keyknife#so i'm wondering just how much i missed#i won't replay though i do wanna get through my backlog BJEVRJBFF#but just aughhh. isat. really really well done game. phenomenal showstopping spectacular#every single character is a delight!! everyone is so well fleshed out their interactions so good#siffrin..... man. i really saw a lot of myself in them a lot of things hit very close to home for me#god!!!! he loved his family so much he almost destroyed the world to keep them together!!!!!!! thats awful i love it!!!!!!!!!!!#i guess i will say a couple points of progression werent too clear. a couple times loop told me to do things i already did#and certain things you had to do in a specific order so i would just loop around pointlessly a couple times#but overall still very good i enjoyed myself a lot#if i ever play again. i gotta keep notes bc i Also have a terrible memory VJDVFJFB#i spent 10 loops trying to find the room with the craftology book it was EMBARRASSING#honestly. kinda adds to the experience does it not. just like siffrin i was forgetting things i should have known and--#--getting increasingly more exasperated with the constant looping for like One (1) thing i missed#really really Reeeeally good game. phenomenal game. please play it please play it please play it please play it
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Woooow I did the only thing I thought I knew 100% in my math exam but I made a very very small mistake so everything following that turned out completly wrong 😍😍😍
#like i was so confident and then I talked to my friend and they were like “no what you did is for another task”#do you guys wanna know my stupid mistake that makes me want to kms?#what I did was (f''(x)=0) but what I should've done is (f'(x)=0)#such a small mistake and the task that would’ve guaranteed me to pass the exam is now completely wrong#oh i could cry rn guys#the first time I had a sense of achievement in math#i was so happy and proud of myself#and now it got crushed within 5 minutes after leaving the exam hall#and i'm back at rock bottom#this is the reason i never even tried studying for my math exams because i fuck up anyway#so why even try#if the result is me being crazy depressed again#lol#i'm feeling so self-destructive rn#the voices are speaking
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Man, having something that people straight up refuse to tag for (even if asked) be a hard squick/trigger makes consuming almost any erotic content ever a fucking minefield, doesn't it.
I'm so exasperated. One would think that tagging for a somewhat common kink would be in the poster's best interest as well (y'know, if only so that the people looking for that kink specifically can actually find it), but no. No, that'd probably make too much sense.
#squirrel speaks#i just wish people would tag their fucking pregnancy/breeding garbage#like what do you want me to do if you refuse to tag; filter every tense of all verbs used to talk about it?#wanna catch all creative writing that uses an expression like “a pregnant pause”????#ensure that i never again see an abortion/healthcare-oriented post?#because of this i can never see anything related to DOG BREEDS now? because fuck me I guess?#just because “oh it's common”. i am in your walls.#i will piss on all your insulation#and then you can add a content warning for that. but of course my request is far less valid isn't it#UGH ignore me I'm just grumbling. been up since 2 am and my mood? it is foul and rotten#and i just saw something that's probably gonna make me feel like shit for another 3-4 hours so. thanks for that i guess
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i keep seeing your asses in my reblogs so let me reiterate Proshitters get off my blog i do NOT like you . thanks
#i should never be made to read the words “i love” and “noncon” in the same sentence ever again#plus it's crazy how often i see posts from proshitters equating real cops to “fanpolice” ironically.#fiction doesn't affect reality until the teenagers on tumblr start making fun of you for shipping a little girl with her mother apparently#anyway speaking of which if you say shit like “acab includes fandom cops too” i'm blowing you up with my mind thanks#every time i see a post like that it fucking annoys me because . in no way is internet discourse at all comparable to the government funded+#+murder of my people. i never wanna see blm in your bio AGAIN if you preach shit like that. don't compare real deaths to ship discourse. god
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I don’t curse around my parents ever but Is2g talking to my mom always has me heated enough to wanna start.
#ough the way I’ll be happy to never speak to her the minute I move out#I wanna call my sister about it but she’s out and I hate reminding her of how shitty our mom is#like she knows she lived it she still does by trying to have a relationship with her#I fully would love to never have a relationship with my mother ever she’s an abusive piece of shit and a thief and a manipulator like 🖕🖕🖕#it’s so :/ bc I tried for YEARS to have a relationship with her and this was the year I’ve stopped trying#girlie said I make her life miserable bc I was pissed at her for stealing and pawning my camera#like I- holy shit she’s so fucking rotten#every time I catch myself starting to open up to her again (today) she just talks over me or cuts me off#it’s so :/ especially when I’m talking about my health and how fucking drained I feel all the time or mental health wise like she couldn’t#careless if I lived or died fr#I went to the ER and her ass asked me to buy her something from the vending machine and then left the minute she could like fuck you fr#now see this is why I have to project my mommy issues onto a fictional man bc if I don’t I’ll scream irl#personal
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i literally likw felt sick hust now bc i thought abt gay people and ive just realized as i was about to hit post that this sounds homophobic. it was pure envy unfortunately
#i need to have a gay moment or im going to die in real life. guys its so hard#mfw i never leave the house and im extremely closed off and distant from people and i never talk to anybody and im a shutin: When will i#meet my love.#ITS NOT GONNA HAPPENNN MY LOVE WILL NOT MATERIALIZE INSIDE MY STUPID GARAGE. PUNCHES THE WALL#also you may think connor youre not closed off you literally yap constantly about every single thought in your head. Yes. but thats to you#guys as a whole so it doesnt count#one on one conversations im so scared im like acat hiding under a bed. genuinely shaking crying#BUT I DONT NOT LIKE ONE ON ONE CONVERSATIONS I MISS THEM BADLY. i used to talk to online friends Everyday. and ugh. obvioisly.#i just like. idk. i wanna make friends but i feel like im so bad at being a person that its wah too much work to befriend me#i dont mean that selfdeprecatingly i mean like. i need the other person to make the first moves always which sucks bc thats a bad thing to#expect of someone but if i ever made the first moves i. well i just couldnt my brain would shut down its a whole thing. connor doesnt speak#unless spoken to etc. and again ik i yap on here#but thats bc this is like my diary. dms or discord or whatever Is a conversation.......sigh#but ya. and with time i think id warm up and be able to initiate congersation and reciprocate properly but thats a long time to make someone#wait. bc i also when ppl do reach out i like. im like . like w my old coworkers we were i think friends but i was like Im the only one who#thinks that they dont actually like Me so whenever they talked id be like Theyre just doing tjis to be nice or out of pity#which is a rude thought to have abt someone inknow but its like. idk .. im nonsensical#but it takes me a while to like. actually understand somebody is trying to be friends bc im obtuse as fuck#and im like Well theyre saying hello to me and amiling whenever rhey see me just to be nice or possibly bc they hate me <- stupid guy on 🌎
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I will delight in ending your existence.
#he asked for NO pickles#also i will not allow you to imprison the woman who just spent a hundred years suffering <3#sorry i'm a lil 🥵 over this screenshot#but if ur on the receiving end of this stare. u better run and pray she never finds you#maybe one day i'll make gifs again...#bg3: ambrosia#i'm just thinking about ambrosia and aylin in the same room together and... hmm....#it's good actually#bg3 spoilers#for the tags#speaking of i feel like i didn't put enough effort into this to actually tag people in it </3#but if you want me to still tag you in things like this you're welcome to let me know#i just. don't wanna bother people u know#*
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He won't leave my fucking friends alone.
#tales from diana#sorry this is about that bad friend i have to break up w that ive posted abt on and off the past couple weeks/months maybe#i still have to send him that final 'i dont wanna speak to you ever again'#ive been fucking busy ok. my summer has been full of family events and obligations#i have one brother getting married and the other having a baby!!! i have a LIFE and SHIT TO DO and PPL TO BE THERE FOR other than YOU!!!#i havent spoken to him in over 2 months too and he knows it's bc i don't want to#he's so difficult bc you can't fucking tell him the truth. you can't!!! he can't handle it!!! do you know how hard it is to handle???#the things i have to do to cut him off. because he doesn't respect normal fucking boundaries. make ME feel like im in the wrong#like im the shady person and the liar.#i can't drift from him bc hell pull me back#i can't communicate w him bc he won't hear anything i have to say he'll just turn it around & make it abt himself.#he literally does not understand ppl having motivations to do things that don't relate to him#and he has no sympathy for what he does to other ppl. nothing but self-pity for how they don't like him anymore.#if he dealt w someone who put him through half of what he put ME through. no he couldn't actually.#i only allowed him to manipulate me for so long because i cared abt him. who i thought he was.#and he just point blank period doesn't care about other ppl. so he could never go through what ive gone through w him.#i feel like all this friend breakup has proven to me is that im actually a good person and it can be used against me by ppl who arent#some fucking lesson i needed to learn huh?#i hate feeling as negatively towards anyone as i do towards him. it's so hard for me not to have at least#a little spark of hope deep down for everyone. even ppl ive removed from my life before. i dont HATE them#theyve disappointed me or insulted me or mistreated me but at least their motivations seemed simple and clear#and MOST of them seemed to understand SOMEWHAT that they were in the wrong#even if they don't admit it to me or still find an excuse to hate me. whatever#i can see them as ppl who might feel remorse someday and grow from it#i do not see it in this guy. bc if you have a problem w him he'll only make it 20 times worse.#he's so selfish it genuinely baffles me to think about it. and he's one of the least honest ppl ive ever known.#he'll never see the error of his ways. i do not believe he has that capacity.#and will i say none of this to him? no#im just going to say thanks for leaving me alone these past couple months. it's been good for me.#i don't think i can continue our friendship anymore for my own sake.
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me when i think about vagabonds by scorpionoesit for too long
#zecori rambles#my art#services for vagabonds#realized that this is my blog and i can post whatever the hell i want here. you all have to suffer L /lh#idk if i've talked about this fic; like. a Lot here. but know i am so so so normal about it#(i am vibrating in place as i say that)#i wanna talk about it so so soooooooo fucking badly#i need to ramble to someone about this fic#i also feel the need to make more art for it#unfortunately a good portion of the characters don't actually have mentioned designs; and i am. bad at making them myself sknddknsks#mainly the outfits; the outfits is what trips me up#this goes double for superhero/villain outfits. and guess what fic is a superhero/villain fic;;; sksnwksjks#i'm also bad with poses. tried drawing that one scene where tommy finds masquerade on his couch and. it is Not Good.#shoving it in a closet and never speaking of it again.#(didn't know. how to draw karl on the couch 😔. tried looking up the pose he was mentioned to be in; but uhhh–#–let's just say there were no good reference pics;; fkdjksjs)#anyway. holding this fic so gently. it lives in my mind rent free#mx. scorpio if you're reading this. o/.#you know; next time i get motivation to draw; i should make digital art of v!michael. haven't done that yet;; dkdjsksj#or i could also continue drawing vagabonds dragons designs like i did yesterday;;; skdjskjsksjs
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My most controversial video game opinion is that Generation 5 of pokemon was the best generation by far, and every pokemon game after Black and White 2 has gone down in quality.
No, you cannot convince me otherwise. Don't even try. There has yet to be a pokemon game full of as much content, story, and difficulty as Gen 5.
#simon says#is gen 5 my favorite of the series? no.#that reward goes to gen 4 because im biased towards Pokemon Pearl bc it was the first game i owned#but gen 5 is the best.#yes im replaying gen 5 for the first time in years why do you ask#anyways I wish gamefreak and nintendo would stop with the yearly pokemon releases to make another game as good as black and white 2#i want a game with at least 3 battle towers of various difficulty and 2 pokemon pagent style minigames#hell i want them to add a hard mode again#i know pokemon is for kids and that's why it's been getting easier as time goes on but the medal system in bw2 woke something up in me#kids these days dont just go and beat the elite 4 and champion with 1 dragonite because a guy with a bunch of medals tells you to#im trying to zoom through white so i can play black 2 again since i wanna play the movie minigame#also i found out about memory sync and the features it adds to bw2 and i never knew about it as a kid so i wanna do that#over 10 years later and i still haven't done all there is in bw2#anyways there's my hot take of the day#and im not speaking from nostalgia im speaking from my dissatisfaction with the series#but yeah my memories of the series and how it blew my mind as a kid do play into it a bit i will be honest#even as a kid i thought it was so cool that black and white had a whole new pokedex with no previous gen pokemon until post game
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