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[tales-from-nocturnaliss]

30 Days of Autism Acceptance 2023 - Day 20

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20 April: If you can (or could when you were younger) say words with your mouth (echolalia counts), did/do you have a monotone or "odd" voice, speak too loudly/softly, etc.? Did/do you practice to modulate your voice?

I don't recall what my voice sounded like as a kid, since I didn't speak much except at home. However, and this is very specific to where I live, I felt overly conscious of not being able to roll my R's in my flemish (I'm a native french speaker), as it is the norm... and I taught myself to do just that by practicing an accent. I don't remember which. I only remember it being used by comedians.

French being a singing language, my tone fluctuates a LOT - and I take that in all three of my known languages. It's become my norm. And I absolutely love it, since I love joking around and making people laugh. I can even pinpoint when I started enjoying that: when, back in my last school after transferring there, I dropped a joke in class... and people laughed. And I was like: omg I am accepted O.O. And the rest is incomplete history. XD

The husband does often tell me I'm loud, especially when I'm playing with my UK mates and have my headphones on. He also says my laugh is false. Which I still don't understand. I guess he doesn't grasp that language does change the tone of your laugh (like The Simpsons taught us <<)

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

*displays textbook symptomatic behavior of my own disorder that I am well educated on* what’s my deal why am I like this

[queerasflux]

man I wish people understood how much it sucks ass to be neurodivergent and trying to find the middle ground where people like/tolerate you. like, I'm either "boring" (trying to wait my turn in conversations, holding space for other people, taking a back seat to let others get some spotlight) or "too much" (too loud/talking too much, getting excited to share, trying to participate in group conversations/activities). No one really talks about how much of being neurodivergent is just sort of trying to make yourself palatable.

I feel like so much of my life has been spent trying to find this effortless sort of middle ground everyone else seems to automatically already know, and I'm always swinging too far one way or the other. I'm lucky to have neurodivergent friends who grok me, but goddamn I wish that I could just like, exist without the constant background script in my brain that's like "you're being too loud. You're not talking enough. you're being self-centered. you're being boring. you're wrong, you're wrong, you're wrong." I feel like I'm back in high school trying to make friends but stuck as the eternal "weird kid"

it's just... lonely and sucks bad.

[suchasillygoofheehee]

Learning to understand that when hannibal is trending, its not because big news or anything important happened, its just our collective autism syncing up

[sirenium]

Stimming isn't enough. I need to violently vibrate out of existence

[ophii]

ok ok so. i saw a video and there were sun catchers in them so i was like "lol apollo would love those." then, i kid you not, i saw a post about him liking them. i took it as a sign, ofc, as you do

thyese exist now have fun

[anime-academia]

I am going to fight everyone who has turned Sherlock Holmes into this edgy, rude, arse of a character. This man is kind, caring, sympathetic, and knows how to interact with people (even if he'd prefer to avoid doing so).

I get the whole genuis-who- can't -relate- to -the -way- normal -people- function, but y'know what, he's not condescending about it. He doesnt necessarily think himeself to be above the masses. He admits to being beaten without throwing a tantrum about it.

Being a genuis doesn't mean or necessitate being cold and unfeeling

[zebracakesarecopingmechanisms]

ok so we know about the need to infodump, but what about the opposite? The need to absorb more information about your special interest like a sponge, but you literally can’t find any new material because you’ve already consumed every fact about it

[aroaceleovaldez]

felt compelled to doodle Jason in a skirt cause I feel like he'd be a skirt kind of guy

[jesuschristt-thatsaprettyface]

one of the worst social autistic experiences is when a neurotypical tells you something and then they pause expectantly because they’re looking for a Specific reaction and so you give them a generic “oh wow” and try not to have a flat tone even tho you Do and just hope for the best

[vroomvroomwee]

Who was gonna tell me that sitting down on a cold hard floor alone in a room barely illuminated with only a small lamp light in the dead of night, hugging your knees while putting the same song on loop to play over and over and over again as you close your eyes and start rocking side to side softly and slowly for 30 minutes FELT SO GOOOD??

[tales-from-nocturnaliss]

30 Days of Autism Acceptance 2023 - Day 26

If you wanna participate, check out @birdofmay's blog or click through this link! Almost at the end, but you can still catch up!

26 April: If you're interested in other people/want contact, how do you normally make contact with others? Do you stay where you are and hope that they approach you, or do you approach them?

If you're not interested in other people, do others respect and understand that? Were you negatively affected by the "autistics are very social actually and want friends, they just don't know how to do that!" mentality (for example that everyone tries to force social interactions because they think you secretly want social contacts)?

So, I'd say I'm in the middle: yes, I do want to meet people and I love making friends. However, if I feel like you're not interested in me, then I'll pull back. I'm very protective of my time. Bit phobic about wasting it.

There are people I click with right off the bat, sometimes without realizing why I like them, and I discover that way down the road as we keep chatting and becoming friends. Those always turn out into amazing and solid relationships, no matter how often I hear the person.

Then there are people I try to reach out to, and find out, sometimes really fast, that there's nothing there for us. I don't fit the 'don't know how to make friends' mould: I very much know how to make them. I also know what I value in connections, and what I need. If it's not on the table, I'll move on. I've made enough friends by now to understand: the most important aspect of friendship is being yourself. Good and bad. Beautiful and ugly. Because if someone can see your ugliness and go, 'I still like you for you', then holy shit. That's real.

And thus, i'd say I no longer need to make friends. Got plenty. Sometimes they're all too much and I can't keep up. But I still like meeting new people and making new friends for sure. I tend to reach out by nature. And then watch where the pieces fall, if anywhere.

[vero-niche]

when you tell your therapist something from your past and it leaves them speechless

[evilesbiautism]

The most common argument you'll hear against self diagnosis is that people will fake being [X] for attention. But every disabled person, physical or otherwise, knows this could only work in online spaces - the world was not made for us, and brandishing your disability as a badge of honor that gives you ~special privileges~ is such a funny idea.

Like, honey - that doesn't happen. No one gets anything from being disabled. Maybe extra accommodations if you're lucky - but nothing else. And the internet isn't as important as you seem to think - eventually it just feels hollow.

Ask disabled people how often they had to fight to get diagnosed so their medical needs could be met and their complaints would be heard. Doctors are just hardwired to delay this as much as possible.

I knew I was autistic since late 2018 - I got an official diagnosis 4 months ago. Knowing yourself and how you can make your own life easier is a lifesaver.

And this isn't even going into how many *cons* there are to a professional diagnosis, like being met with disdain at best and denied services at worst.

I don't care if a 16 year old who self diagnosed after taking 1 online quiz about autism is wrong. And honestly I think it's weird people treat this 'issue' with so much hatred.

[guardianspirits13]

FORMALLY REQUESTING MORE OUTGOING AUTISTIC CHARACTERS AND INTROVERTED ADHD CHARACTERS PLEASE YALL IM BEGGING YOU !!!

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