#like I know he watched the vampire diaries dude I know he did

[snowddeong]

Chan is truly the kind of man that only a bisexual can understand.... he did this for us and only us idgaf

[whatshehassaid]

The fact that they keep bringing in characters that are from later in the books (Bruce, Dr. Fareed, Raglan James) makes me think Dubai is farther along in the books than we realize. I feel like some stuff (akasha) hasn’t happened yet… but finding Claudia’s diary in New Orleans, and Louis being suicidal etc are from later in the book series. Has parts of Merrick already happened? Louis said in season 1 that he hadn’t killed since the year 2000. The book Merrick was released in 2000. Armand (as Rashid) “You’re chronicling a suicide.” The fact that they even HAVE Claudia’s diaries in the first place is farther along in the books.

Now why bring Raglan James in so early? I already have a feeling they aren’t bringing David in (they didn’t for Mayfair Witches and he was a big part of that) so why Raglan James SPECIFICALLY? Why not just some random Talamasca member? They’re trying to hint at what’s to come. Daniel being in his 70s and not having David in Mayfair Witches (or IWTV I’m assuming cause it wouldn’t make sense to have David in one but not the other) makes me think they’ve merged Daniel and David into one character.

If you know anything about what happens to David in Tale of the Body Thief you’ll understand where I’m going with this - I’ll put a spoiler warning for the books here.

At the end of Tale of the Body Thief, David gets a new body and Lestat changes him into a vampire without his consent.

If Daniel and David ARE being merged into one character (which makes sense considering David is the one who listens to Armand’s story in The Vampire Armand and the fact David was a main character in the Mayfair Witches book series but was merged with Rowan’s love interest to make Ciprien in the TV adaptation) then that means that something similar could happen to Daniel.

Armand in the books (after 10-12 years of a romantic - albeit it started off fucked up - relationship which includes Daniel being addicted to Armand’s blood and a mutual obsession between the two of them and then they fall in love) turns Daniel in 1985 I think the same night of Lestat’s concert and the awakening of Akasha if I’m remembering correctly. In the TV adaptation since the San Fransisco interview already happened that also means (quite obviously from the new promo) that Devils Minion already happened. Which means young Daniel tried everything on Earth to get Armand to change him into a Vampire. Probably bringing himself super close to death because he wanted to be with Armand forever. Armand has a major trauma from Marius (grooming, child slavery, sex slavery- but also Marius telling him over and over that every fledgling grows to hate their maker- lol ok dude, you literally groomed your first two fledglings from childhood and abandoned them both but yeah, that must be a every maker and fledgling thing). It affects Armand to the point that he vows never to turn ANYONE into a Vampire EVER. But then he meets Daniel and falls in love with him and can’t stand the thought of existing without him. So he turns him.

It seems like Armand in the show didn’t truly believe Daniel loved him. (They have a really wild relationship where Daniel will run away and come back begging for him back and Armand welcoming him with open arms over and over until Daniel finally accepts that he’s in love with Armand too). But Daniel DID love him. Just as much as Armand loved (and STILL loves- because he always will) Daniel. So instead of watching him be chronically suicidal and trying everything to get Armand to turn him he wiped Daniel’s memories thinking they wouldn’t come back. Thinking Daniel could live a normal human life without him.

From what I can see of the preview it seems like Armand and Louis had broken up long ago. Most likely after the first interview in the 70s (I’m pretty sure it’s similar in the book - Louis ends up leaving Armand once Armand tells him Lestat is still alive and he didn’t die in the theatre fire). Hence, Armand saying “I know where he is.” in the promo for 2x05.

That’s when Daniel and Armand fully happen. But in the show instead of turning Daniel he wipes his memories and tries to let him live a normal life because he loves him.

Now Lestat and Louis break up and get back together like ten fucking times in the books and Louis when he isn’t with Lestat always goes off alone or he goes to Armand. Lestat and Armand eventually come to love each other and have a mutual understanding and respect for one another - it takes a while, believe me. Lestat KNOWS he can trust Armand with Louis. That Armand loves Louis too.

What I’m thinking is going on… is some of the events of Merrick have already happened where Louis seeks out Claudia’s diaries and her spirit to try to bring peace to himself. Instead it makes it MUCH MUCH worse. To the point that Louis goes forward with killing himself by burning himself to ashes (Lestat does bring him back don’t worry). But since I think the full Akasha storyline hasn’t happened yet I feel like humans would’ve noticed that (hence the great conversion cause she ends up killing like 90% of the Vamp population…) I think what is actually happening is Louis is trying to kill himself. He’s actively trying by getting Daniel to write this book for vampires to come after him and kill him (hence the “you’re chronicling a suicide”). His depression and despair is getting worse and worse as season 2 goes on, outwardly crying to Daniel thanking him for helping him remember.

I’m not sure if Louis in Dubai knows that Lestat is alive… he certainly doesn’t during the first interview.

Armand is a complicated character and he means well (yes he does do some fucked up shit in the books- some to do with Claudia- I don’t know if they’ll have THAT part in the show). But Armand does love Louis. He feels guilt for what happened with Claudia and he will do ANYTHING to make it up to Louis. To the point of letting Louis walk all over him (he’s had a fucked up human life and vampire life, let my boy live). I have a feeling, since Lestat’s lawyer in Paris mentioned it to Louis that Lestat has gone to sleep. They do that sometimes. Bury themselves underground and sleep- sometimes for decades. If that is the case I’m not exactly sure what happened between them for Lestat to do that but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

What I think happened after the first interview? Armand was trying to protect Louis from himself. There are obvious signs of schizophrenia in Louis and they’ve been hinting at it since season one with the Paul/Bird symbolism. Louis has blackouts. He’s had them even before he and Claudia tried to kill Lestat- that’s why I think we’re getting a revisit to the fight in 1x05 and to Claudia’s turning into a vampire. Either that or we are going to get it from Lestat himself at the trial in Paris (cause yes, the real Lestat is there).

Armand was not lying when he said he protects Louis from himself. That Louis acts out sometimes. The photos of all the men I believe some of them are Louis’ victims from his blackouts. We’ve already seen a glimpse of one incident in season 2 with the man in the park and Louis leaving his dead body there. Armand has suppressed Louis’ memories of what happened in Paris. What happened with Claudia. Probably half because he doesn’t want Louis to run off without Lestat able to care for him and partly because he’s trying to prevent Louis from hurting more people viciously and then going into a guilt spiral.

Louis did know what happened to Claudia at one point… but I think it was making him so suicidal that maybe Armand and Lestat together decided it was best to have his memories suppressed so that he wouldn’t hurt himself. But now? Now Lestat is god knows where and Armand is barely holding onto control. Louis is lashing out at him. He’s lashing out at Daniel. The memories are flooding back and Louis is slowly remembering… not just what happened to Claudia… not just what Armand did… but the probably hundreds or thousands of gruesome deaths he’s caused during his blackout episodes. Including the blackout episode he had with Daniel in 1973.

Now speaking of 1973, Armand was trying even then to keep Louis’ schizophrenia and blackouts at bay. He was suppressing memories that triggered Louis - half because he didn’t want to lose Louis but I also think he genuinely was doing it for Louis’ own sanity. But then Louis goes seeking out someone who will let him speak about it and help bring those memories back - Daniel.

Armand may just think Daniel is another fuck and run, I have a feeling ever since Paris - even though Louis barely remembers it - honestly, probably before then going by the fuckboi tendencies Louis was displaying toward Armand in the last episode, he probably fucks around a lot and Armand lets him. Mostly because he’s trying desperately to make it up to Louis. As I said, he’s desperate to make it up to Louis.

So Armand says okay fine, have your fun. And Louis goes with Daniel. But what Armand DOESN’T know is that Louis isn’t going with Daniel for (or JUST for) sex. He wants him to help him remember. That’s the WHOLE POINT of the interview. Armand doesn’t know about it. The first interview happens…. And then? Daniel pisses Louis off. He triggers him off by asking him to turn him. And Louis blacks out and attacks.

Armand shows up mid attack to find Louis with the boy he spent ALL NIGHT WITH doing GOD KNOWS WHAT and he immediately thinks Louis is trying to replace him with someone else. He gets jealous. Again, he doesn’t know about the interview yet.

Louis blacked out and by that time its morning. Armand probably walked in on him (trying to be like - you’re going to get hurt if you don’t find a safe spot it’s morning!) feeding on Daniel and being burned through the sunlight coming in the window. Armand has jealousy issues. I can’t blame the guy he has a huge amount of abandonment issues and being hurt… so of course he immediately jumps to why is Louis spending all night with this boy? What is so special about this boy that he’ll spend time with him all night but he won’t even look at me the same anymore (since Claudia).

Louis has to hide from the sun… And that’s when Armand jealously curious about this human boy and why Louis is apparently so open with him from what he seen at the bar. He tries to get inside Daniel’s head. “Is that what makes you so FASCINATING?” “Leave him be Armand!”

At some point - with all this mind fuckery which of course is essentially torture and poor Daniel is probably half horny half scared to death - iykyk - Armand sees the tape. He plays it. This isn’t about the boy at all. It’s about LESTAT.

It’s always been about Lestat.

Upset (and rightly so - imagine being with someone for that long thinking they loved you and meanwhile they were still pining for their ex) he has a bit of a meltdown…. And when he calms down enough… he’s defeated and tells Louis the truth. That Lestat is alive and “I know where he is.”

Now… Armand… who is a stickler for the vampire laws… knows he’s tortured this boy… knows this boy can’t living knowing that vampires exist. Because he’s seen into his head he knows there’s pain there. Daniel is an addict for a reason though I don’t think Armand knows the reason at that point… but since he knows the boy MUST DIE because you cannot tell a human about vampires and let them live… he offers him a peaceful death. “I’m the quiet you’ve been longing for”

Daniel agrees. The kid is tired, he probably has childhood trauma hence the drug addiction. He was just attacked by one Vampire and tortured by the other.

Armand starts to drain him… and then?

I think Armand sees himself in Daniel. Whatever it is (I’m not 100% sure - maybe abuse of some kind) stops Armand from killing him. He’s found someone who understands.

He gets Louis (partly burned from the sun) to help him carry Daniel out. Not sure if they take him to a hospital or where they take him but afterwards Louis leaves Armand and goes looking for Lestat.

That’s when Devils Minion happens.

Armand and Daniel somehow fall in love. And a decade later he has to wipe Daniel’s memories because Daniel will not stop until he’s either dead literally or a vampire so he can be with Armand. Or so he says, Armand thinks.

Now fast forward and we have Louis self destructing. Armand trying to hold the pieces together… Louis brings Daniel in not remembering he almost killed the guy and thinking, “Well he can help me get these memories back… i know he’s Armand’s ex and he (Daniel) is missing memories too. maybe if I get his memories back we can help each other”

That’s why Louis keeps bringing things up. Daniel’s mind has filled in a decade of his life with a wife and daughter that probably don’t even exist. (I know, I know Alice is Armand theory… but the farther we get the more it makes sense). Louis is PURPOSEFULLY triggering memories to come back in Daniel so he can help HIM remember too. Armand (until last episode I think) was so focused on keeping Louis together and trying to protect him that he doesn’t even realize that Daniel is remembering him.

Until 2x04.

Daniel brings up the fire.

Armand tries to read his mind to see where he got the information from.

And he sees a flash of himself watching TV in the 70s. And that’s when he realizes Daniel DID love him. If Daniel didn’t why would he be getting flashes of Armand. Not of Louis and the first interview… not of Louis attacking him… no, he’s getting flashes of Armand.

Then he remembers that he suppressed Louis’ memory of everything to do with Claudia’s death (Louis’ main trigger). Louis confused: “the fire?”

As Daniel’s memories come back… so do Louis’. However the more Louis remembers the more unstable he’ll become. I think at a certain point when he remembers everything the suicidal part of him with reach a climax… he’ll snap. Blackout with Daniel in a parallel of what happened in 1973. And Armand is going to have no choice but to save Daniel. I feel like Lestat will sense this happening and I feel like it’ll be the PERFECT segue for present time Lestat. Now will Daniel be hurt badly? I’m not sure. Will Armand have no choice but to change him because Louis hurt him too much, maybe tried to drain him to “get back” at Armand after realizing what was happening?

Is that why Jacob is scared we may hate Louis by the end of the season? I feel like if it was just Louis trying to walk into the sun that comment wouldn’t make sense.

If he tries to hurt Daniel though…..

[silviakundera]

Snowfall ep watch comments 13-15

Keeping it real with his nickname, Loser Li doesn't have the balls to join Team Vamp

Sorry dude, this would never happen to Elena Gilbert

Fun ass escape & fight scenes as our trio trash the train and escape in a field. The search in the field of tall grass as night closes in feels very 80s-00s vampire movie

Once AGAIN Loser Li punks out. This guy 😂😭 I love his constant, unrelenting failure

Look, the way Doctor Bestie realized he had to step up, because Mi Lan was injured & his bro distracted. TIME & PLACE, thank you.

He got close to making it thru this adventure without exposing himself but finally it was clear poor Vamp Daddy couldn't handle this one his own.

I both kinda do feel for Vamp Daddy's angst about his brother in disguise but also I'm too attached to them, so I'm just impatient for him to get over it and accept his only existing (and only mildly evil!!) relative

The brown leather coat is just not as suave a look for Loser Li. Return to your roots!

Oh good.

Henchman makes potentially his only smart move in the drama, to come plead for nep baby to rescue his crush. Li Yingliang looovesssss you! so muchhhhhh! it's ALL FOR YOU.

Our unhinged, unstable cyclone of insecurity & homosexuality emerges from the dungeon to fail another day! Good job, everyone.

"What ill intentions could a young boy in his hundreds have?" lol I love mysterious old guy

Sorry I'm unreasonably & unfairly on Doctor Bestie's side - kick his ass and settle him down. Vampires gotta stick together.

So doc is "complete" and Vamp Daddy, though made with the Blood Amber Stone, isn't? 🤔 Interesting. (ok not really lol, I'm not a 'lore' person)

Doctor Bestie cracked me up with his whole, I know all about equality in the modern age! I went to university! Look, he's probably more than a il evil but I like him SO MUCH, so can you just relent Vamp Daddy?

Otherwise WE might stop being friends. And that would be sad :(

All jokes aside, I do have the lingering feeling that Li Yingliang is being written as queer and the actor is playing it that way. Look at the way he is with his henchman too! It's just.... not like the vibe we see among other similar characters. They've fucked. More than once. And henchman told himself it's all fine between 'lonely' 1930s men, because they'll eventually take wives.

idk Vamp Daddy, I would have accepted the help of mysterious ancient master guy against a pursuing ARMY.

or maybe not kicked out my powerful brother.

Mi Lan knows what's up: stop the navel gazing emo and just get warm, eat well, and spend time with your loved ones.

Flashback to aftermath of Shen mansion massacre. Awful times had by all. Nobody thought burning alive a supernatural mom and her small child might have consequences. They did. Shen patriarch is like whyyyyy. His almost barbecued wife: r u 4 real?

Similarly, in modern remains of Shen mansion a bunch of people ambush Vamp Daddy and his gf, shoot her in the chest, so he goes murdery.

Then vamps her! YAY 🙌

Now you and doctor bestie just need to make up and find a way to extend your life too.

All hail Mi Lan's vampire awakening. Good stuff. Love the goth attire.

Also absolutely adorable and glowing in the bath

This is like Caroline in The Vampire Diaries, who was simply born to be a vampire and took to it like a duck to water. I want her to hang out more with the doctor. They can enjoy vampirism together.

Now that Vamp Daddy has healed Barely Legal Girlfriend, can we get (1) one more bloody kiss? Pretty pretty please? 🙏🙏🙏

Everyone but his henchman bf is hella pissed at Loser Li for being incapable.

This does not seem fair, as it's his defining quality 🤔

[slapjacq]

I am ill. Not okay. I’ve cried and thrown a tissue box at the wall. Then proceeded to scream at said wall for twenty minutes. Yes I am melodramatic, no I don’t care. I am still in therapy for a reason. Nevertheless, this episode was bonkers, off the wall batshit insane. Like genuinely so good that it almost adds to the tragedy of it all.

Here are my immediate and unfiltered thoughts from my post episode freak out that I have to put somewhere because if I don’t, I will, in fact, explode.

Warning: spoilers up the wazoo, a lot of profanity

First and foremost: Daniel, old Maniel, I can count on you to always keep it a buck, and for that I thank you.

Armand you piece of fucking shit I swear on everything that is holy, you are no longer babygirl, you bitch ass hoe, go stick that fucking doe eyed face up someone else ass you stupid fucking piece of shit. “i cOULD nOt pReVEnt iT” FUCK YOU MEAN YOU COULDNT PREVENT IT YOURE 500 YEARS OLD, YOU SOLD THEM OUT TO BEGIN WITH. YOU STOP TIME, CAN CONTROL BODIES, PLANT IDEAS INTO PEOPLE HEADS, READ PEOPLES MINDS AND THE BITTY BABY VAMPIRE ARMAND COULDNT DO ANYTHIGN ABOUT IT? SUCK MY DICK AND KISS ME MERRY GO TRH THAG SHIT ELSEWHERE (shout out Assad for really giving his all with the whole puppy dog eyes this entire episode 10/10 would fall for them if not the circumstances). I can’t believe I actually was defending this dude a few episodes ago, I literally can’t defend anything else from here moving forward.

Claudia and Madeline deserve to watch these assholes burn and the fact they died such painful deaths should warrant the gods to set the sky alight with constellations of their love. They were allowed NOTHING but a small taste of happiness before it was shredded away from them. No one is EVER gonna villainize them, not to me, not ever. Roxanne absolutely was incredible, and Delainey, in the coming future, better up there as an A-list actor because she has been that astoundingly good. (That goes for everyone here honestly, but Delainey and Roxanne really deserve their flowers here).

Santiago has a special place in hell. I simply cannot wait to watch him die. Decapitation is too kind for him, put him through pain and fury before sending him to hell. Ben Daniels you son of a bitch you played the villain so well. I damn near jumped through the screen when he began to read Claudia’s diaries with a shitty NOLA accent, I have never been so livid in my life.

The rest of Theatre: “All of you motherfuckers, fuck you, die slow.” -Tupac Shakur

Louis GET UP LEAVE YOUR WIFE DUDE YOU KNOW ITS BULLSHIT and honestly I’m not even going to rag on him this episode because the poor man has gone through too much. Jacob was absolutely brilliant in all of this, and honestly I literally will never stop talking about the performances in this show. Regardless, the upcoming rage is justified and I when get to watch him massacre these assholes, I will cackle with the same glee a schoolboy has after he disintegrates ants with a magnifying glass.

And finally Lestat. He rose on the third day and served cunt and made me ball like the mommy issues toting bitch I am. Sam, my man, you knocked it out of the fucking ballpark. Magnificent. Lestat, fucking bastard. You messy bitch. When you get out of whatever the Theatre is doing to you big man, I better see you read Armand to filth. I better see the same from the other. They both deserve to be dragged to hell and back.

Also Daniel Hart is a genius, just really fills your soul with dread this entire episode, I mean the score was filthy, vivid, and hauntingly gorgeous. The violins at the beginning were nasty work and had me fully hypnotized for the entire 50 minutes.

SFX is killing it, everytime, making it all believable and absolutely the worst someone could imagine it to be. I full body contorted at the sight of the sliced ankles.

Shoutout costume department also did its thing. Santiago’s costume was top tier camp. And Lestat’s suit was absolutely everything. Gender envy 11/10.

I could sit here all day and go on about how all the cast and crew did a fucking fantastic job. Like you can really tell they put their heart and soul into this episode.

I mean dear god I’m going to be in shambles for the next two years this episode was insane.

[littlebeelife]

Daily J2 Breakdown

Day 31

To end the month on a high note, here's a few of Jared's/Jensen's/J2's colleagues, castmates and other famous people talking about their relationship and chemistry.

-Drake Rodger

"What do you think made [supernatural] the success it was?"

"It had to be the relationship between Jensen and Jared. I don't think you can fabricate something like that. You know, they have a chemistry... I was just with them in Dallas at a Creation con and there's just some undeniable chemistry between the two of them. It's palpable, you can feel it just being in a room with them. I don't know how you capture that, I don't know how you cast that, but whoever did it, however they did it, they did a fantastic job"

Link to the video (starts at 1:40)

-Danielle Savre

"Jensen and Jared, they have such great chemistry. They're such humble and down-to-earth guys. It was such a pleasure to work on that show and to be part of that crew and that family for one episode. There is a correlation with that dynamic – how well they work together and how much fun they had."

Link to the article

-Tahmoh Penikett

"I caught a few episodes in the beginning of the first few seasons and I really enjoyed it. I saw the appeal. I saw why it was successful - but mostly because of the boys, you know, their chemistry. I think it's really unique that way. Those guys really brought a... just a unique thing, these two brothers fighting the supernatural..."

Link to the video (starts at 12:24)

*Bonus*

-Tyler Posey

"There are still new fans of this show discovering it all the time. What do you think gave it such staying power?"

"I think it’s authentic. As much as that genre — you know, Twilight, Vampire Diaries, True Blood — kind of vibe is appealing, I think what our show has that the others don’t is an authentic heart. I hadn’t been to the other sets, but I know ours was a family. I’ve been acting for 24 years now, and I’ve never seen anything like it. It was great that the show lasted for so long, and we got to build this bond with each other. But even that early on, it was a bond and we felt like we were creating art. It really felt like we were doing something special and everyone was on each other’s side.

Also, I think Scott and Stiles (Dylan O’Brien) plays a big part in it because that dude and I are still best friends. I kick it with him all the time. He is the love of my life. And that was since day one, since the day we met in the audition process. It was like we were meant to be, or we had met each other in a different life. We were both 18 years old, both wearing skateboard brand T-shirts, and I looked at him and I felt like I knew him. And he felt the same way. That’s only gotten stronger over the years. I’m getting emotional, right now! [Laughs] Our relationship has only gotten stronger, the respect and the love. I think that played a big part in why the show is fun to watch because that relationship is the most authentic thing on TV. I compare it to Supernatural, because those guys are great buddies, too, and people love that show. I think that makes a big difference."

Link to the interview

There are so many more of these but I won't post it all at once because 1) my drive is a mess and I can't find where I saved them 2) it would be too long

[moonlightreal]

Gavin reading The Secret Circle

He haaaaaaated it!

Who’s been procrastinating on planned posts? Me, I have. Got like 3 half-done things sitting in the tumblr file.

Gavin Reads Everything read the Secret Circle books and he did not like them. This is interesting to me because I do like them, quite a lot and mostly unironically. (well, unironically plus sideeyeing All Things Faye.) Gavin says he’s the not the correct audience for the books and I think he’s right about that, but what fascinated me was how he read the same books I did and saw them so very differently.

He says, “Other than like Cassie, Faye, Diana and Adam pretty much none of the other characters matter.” (paraphrased, I’m not going to dig actual quotes from such a long video) But when I read the books I really liked the B-tier witches, I thought LJ Smith did a good job giving them unique personalities in limited space and I thought giving each girl a signature color, goddess, and magic style was a kinda genius way to handle a large cast.

Gavin really hated the instalove/soulmates thing and was not happy that Cassie was cheating with someone else’s boyfriend which, valid! I give Cassie a pass because being soulmates is an actual in-world thing in these books. I also give the books a pass, instalove isn’t my favorite trope without a supernatural reason for it. ^^;

Gavin also grumbled at the boringness of some of the witch stuff and he kinda does have a point there, there could have been more intricate spells. I’m pretty sure the initiation ceremony in particular is based on a real Wiccan initiation ceremony that Ms. Smith read about somewhere. It also seems like in the ghostwritten books Cassie just kid of has spells pop into her head and Gavin didn’t like that. (but I gotta say, spells just popping into your head is realistic to actually doing spells….)

And Gavin thought some of it might be copied from Charmed, he never seemed to realize that Secret Circle and Charmed probably both had the same books on actual witchcraft to work from. Gavin, dude, real witches have been doing their thing since the fifties!

So why should you listen to this anyway? Because it’s interesting to hear another point of view. Also because Gavin goes through the ghostwritten books too, so if you want to know what happens in them quicker than reading them here’s one way! It has occasionally wandered through my mind that one of us fans should rewrite the ghostwritten books but better-- not have Suzan die for one thing, I can see why the ghostwriter thought she was the most murderable member of the coven, but I have a soft spot for her as a character. The sequel trilogy does have interesting ideas in it. Witch hunters! Cassie having an evil half sister! There are some fun bits of plot to play with here! But what Aubrey Clark built with her toys just doesn’t do it for me.

I also listened to Gavin’s Vampire Diaries video, and boy oh boy do those books sound dreadful!

There are a few other Secret Circle reacts including a couple by real witches on youtube… all reacting to the show. I wish these real witches would react to the books! I never got around to watching the show and I have so many other shows I’ll probably never get around to it… even if I did just find out Faye is played by Phoebe Tonkin, the second cutest mermaid in H2o. I’m glad she went far!

[causewhywouldnti]

My thoughts as I’m watching 24 seasons of law & order svu:

Season 7

The season is starting off strong with Elliot undercover. He and Fin are just great together. Elliot being made aware of his anger management problems whilst he’s pretending to be a pedophile is ironic.

7x03 “911”, I get why it got Mariska an Emmy, her acting is great in it and the story is set up differently. However, it probably won’t go on my rewatch list. And I’m sorry, but I have to say this, but her chest compressions were more like stomach compressions. They would have saved no one.

Absolutely loved getting an insight into Elliot in 7x04. Also, him finally addressing his anger problems.

7x06, what can I say, nazis getting their asses kicked, Munch getting shot in the ass, Benson and Stabler having a hospital scene and Marcia Gay Harden showing up. Great episode all around.

7x08, I liked their discussions about end of life care or pulling the plug. Did not like the open ending with the rapes.

7x10, good episode, got even better after they were told to stand down. Olivia leaking to the press, Elliot calling her out on it, and Dad mode for Cragen. I do wonder if they ever followed up with Jackson Zane. Or is the dude still held in contempt?

I love in TV, when medical equipment isn't correctly installed, yet the monitor is still normal. Like in 7x11, when the electrode isn't even attached to the body.

Donelly conspiring to have a kid get free was great in 7x12. And their discussion on gun control is still accurate 17 years later.

Elliot hiding in the trunk of the car in 7x13 sent me. I just really was not expecting that. Warner getting her time to shine though.

So I know Mariska was pregnant during this season. So they did the obvious things to hide it: started off with her wearing open coats all the time, then the camera only showed her chest and face. In 7x13, we graduated to big objects for her to hold. Camera work in the last few episodes is creative.

7x19, well let's be honest here, I knew how this episode was gonna play out. It didn't disappoint. Benson and Stabler both choosing each other over the job. My personal favorite moment of the episode has to be the silence of the two of them after Gitano was killed. Just great acting of the two of them communicating without saying a word.

Stabler really misses Benson in 7x20. I did like that she came to him after he and Blaine got into it. Stabler's eyes say so much when Benson hands him the evidence to arrest the girl.

Look how happy Benson is, when Fin and Stabler go to her in 7x21. The season finale was kinda depressing.

Familiar faces: Chandra Wilson, Paul Wesley (the Vampire Diaries), Noah Emmerich (White Collar), Marin Hinkle (Madam Secretary), Marcia Gay Harden (the Newsroom), Cody Kasch (Desperate Housewives), Ruben Santiago-Hudson (Castle), Tina Holmes (House), Keke Palmer (Scream Queens), Matthew Settle (Band if Brothers), Tom Verica (How to Get Away with Murder), Zeljko Ivanek (Madam Secretary), Schuyler Fisk (OTH), Rebecca De Mornay (Raise Your Voice), Brian Slaten (Rizzoli&Isles), Michael Boatman (Spin City), Rebecca Wisocky (Ghosts CBS) and Brittany Snow.

Favorite episodes: 7x04, 7x06, 7x10, 7x12, 7x13 and 7x19

Favorite lines:

"You’re not weak. You’re so busy being strong and helping everyone, you’ve got nothing left for yourself.“ - Dr. Hendrix to Stabler in 7x04

"Four-pack of coolers and a box of condoms. What, you plan on getting frisky with the Hamburglar?“ - Fin 7x21

"Your conversation skills are what I like best about you.“ - Donna to Stabler 7x21

[kiss-my-freckle]

I love the writing of The Vampire Diaries. When I watch a series that takes me like this one did, I take in everything. Because I do, some scenes come off a certain way to me. Saying this, I love how they introduce their characters, and shift from night to day as they do. 

Because Stefan is doing a journal voiceover, I would’ve expected to see him before seeing Damon, but they’ve flipped them. After Stefan does his journal voiceover, they introduce Damon. Once dawn breaks, introduce Stefan. 

They’re written opposite each other like this throughout most of the series, so it’s best to expect the opposite. Even though they’re written opposite each other, you can see their other side in the other brother. Combined, you see the whole of both. By this... I’m saying Stefan shows Damon’s good side, Damon shows Stefan’s bad side. Together, they show the whole of each other - good and bad. Damon was meant to enter Elena’s life because she deserves the whole truth. Stefan is both good and bad, so when Elena invites the good brother, expect her to invite the bad brother. A half-truth is a lie. Damon won’t allow Elena to live a lie, that’s not the life he wanted for her. Dialogues meant for Stefan can be used for Damon, and dialogues meant for Damon can be used for Stefan. Together, they’ll be relevant to Elena’s character when she becomes a vampire. 

How they’re introduced is how they’ve lived for the past 145 years. Damon comes in, acting like a big bad vampire. Stefan comes in, acting like a high school human. This is written alongside their respective women. Damon is there for Katherine, Stefan is there for Elena. Their chosen soundtrack speaks to Damon’s being. What it means to be “Sort Of” human after Stefan gave his “vampire” journal voiceover. This is how they chose to have Damon speak while having him feed on humans. 

Do you think I'm sort of alive? Should I set these motives aside? Do I feel? Well sort of, but not When you walk your body through mine

How they present themselves in Elena’s life speaks to how they feel. Stefan has to know her, Damon doesn’t. Because they’re written opposite each other, both will have met her before they met her, and met her opposite the opening. Stefan met her in death, Damon met her in life. Then Stefan met her in life, and Damon met her in death. With death comes the fog and the crow. 

If you’ve never watched an Alfred Hitchcock, you should. Dude appeared in over half his films. Cameo appearances. When you love something as much as I love horror, might as well enjoy the classics. 

[peonierose]

My sweetest Peonie ❤️ can we please have a sneak peek into The Royal & I and Where the Heck is Camelot?

Hiii 😻

Of course you can. Thanks for sending in the ask my love 💚 I hope you like the snippets 💚 And again thank you so much for sending in the ask 💚 I hope you’re doing great and life is treating you wonderfully 💚

The Royal & I

Book: Open Heart Royal AU

Pairing: Luna Auclair x Bryce Lahela

Summary: Luna is the princess next in line to rule over the country of Rosario. When she meets Bryce with whom it’s love at first sight. But what will she do now? Since she has to get married to Prince Phillip in order to unite their countries and show unity.

“I’m so sorry…I…um…I…was chasing after my dog Cinnamon,“ I say and see him with his nose in a bag of flour.

I sigh and close my eyes. The guy bends down and picks up Cinnamon.

“Cinnamon? Poor little guy,“ the guy says. It’s unfair how good he looks with Cinnamon in his arms.

“Excuse you? Cinnamon is a very sweet name for a dog,“ I snort very unladylike.

I take Cinnamon into my arms, that’s when I notice some bags of flour and sugar were kicked to the side making a total mess of the place.

“Oh no. I’m sorry for the mess my dog created,“ I say feeling guilty. Now he has more work because of me.

He waves me off.

“It’s fine I’ll just clean it up later,“ he says.

I put Cinnamon down and he actually behaves and hides behind my legs as if he knows he caused a bit of trouble.

“Then at least let me help you clean up,“ I say my voice resolute.

He eyes my dress and my heels.

I quirk an eyebrow.

“What you think because I wear heels and a nice dress means I can’t help clean up the place?“ I say and grin.

I kick off my shoes and rip the dress at my right side to make it more movable.

“Poor dress. Though it does look way better now,“ he says, wiggling his eyebrows.

“If that was your attempt at flirting try again,“ I say and look around for a broom and see one in the corner.

He laughs at my words.

“I was just being nice…“ he looks at me and waits for me to introduce myself.

Where the heck is Camelot?

Book: Open Heart & Guinevere Crossover

Characters involved: Bryce Lahela, Luna Auclair, Lancelot, Guinevere and Arthur

Summary: Lancelot time travels from Camelot into the 21st century and lands in Honolulu, Hawaii. How will he get home?

Bryce now notices the guy standing in the doorway too.

Bryce: Who’s your friend? How did you grow your hair like that? Have any tips? Come on dude. Help a man out!

Luna: B! I don’t think he’s from here.

Lancelot: Where is my home? Where is Camelot?

Bryce: Okay this was really funny. Come on seriously, how much did you pay him to prank me like that?

When Luna keeps staring at Bryce he realizes this might not be a prank.

Bryce: You said you’re looking for Camleot?

Lancelot: Indeed.

Bryce: What year do you think it is?

Lancelot: Well it’s 1210 good sir.

Bryce: He called me good sir. Also I think you might be a couple of hundred years too late.

Luna: Bryce! Not now. He looks lost and scared.

Bryce sighs.

Luna turns towards Lancelot.

Luna: Why don’t you come inside?

Bryce: Don’t invite him in.

Bryce mimicks vampire teeth.

Luna: You really need to stop watching Vampire Diaries.

Bryce stage whispers: It could be.

Lancelot looks between us, as if we lost our minds. To him we might seem completely out of it.

Luna: Please come inside. Where you can rest up a bit.

Lancelot bows.

Lancelot: Thank you Milady.

Luna blushes.

Luna: It’s no problem.

Bryce: Don’t get distracted by a pretty face. That’s my job!

Luna: You know I love your pretty face.

Bryce winks.

[diabolimeservavit666]

Last Song: Sugar (how you get so fly), don't remember the artist's name. Bored and had my playlist on shuffle.

Favorite Color: Varies but preferably anything gothic or dark.

Currently Watching: The Vampire Diaries, mainly because of a SPN actress in it. The amount of things Supernatural has gotten me into should be embarrassing but, hey, can't just be me, right?

Last Movie: Don't remember... I prefer to watch things that are more long term because I hate endings, I just do.

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: "Tricksters have a metabolism like an insect, a little sweet tooth". Well, I guess, that makes me a Trickster.

Relationship Stat: Hyperfixating like all Hell but the dude doesn't even know I exist and even if he did, he's married to someone else and is like twice my age, sort of thing. Yeah...

Current Obsessions: Supernatural will always own my soul, whatever I'm watching because I can't watch anything without getting an emotional attachment, whatever I'm reading has the same effect on me, and whatever may pop up on my dashboard that reminds me of an old hyperfixation.

@archangelgabriellives @ravensandstarsss @ramseynatural @wheresurmoose @why-do-i-like-the-bad-guys @datajana And whoever else wants to do it.

Only doing this bc I love @leatafandom

People I want to know better

Last Song:

Well I’m currently listening to music so I don’t think I can answer this one

Favorite Color

Pink💗💗

Currently Watching

Hmm nothing on the aspect that I’m watchking it religiously - but if I had to say, waiting for the new season of 9-1-1/9-1-1 Lonestar

Last Movie

The Transformers saga. To add to the last, I may begin to watch the cartoons but so far I’ve only seen the bayverse and only about an episode and half of New Spark (I want to watch OG but I have to figure out how/when)

Sweet/Spicy/Savory

Honestly, depends on the mood.

Relationship Stat

How do you say “I’m dating him but we actually aren’t dating at all and I don’t think I would want to date-date him but I would marry him on sight” without saying that

Current Obsessions

Transformers (please help I fell in the hole again), COD, Harry Potter for some reason idk, supernatural sadly, Star Wars, Percy Jackson, and a few others

Last Thing Googled

Flying Cats In Europe (don’t worry about it, they aren’t real)

@impala67-aka-baby @rexismycopilot @yeahiwasintheshit @blessyouhawkeye @jgvfhl ofc anyone else who wants to

[mackenzielovee]

parenthood part eleven: inclination

a/n: you guys , i wrote the scene between noah&josie with inspiration from an anon who sent me a hc , and now i can’t find the ask. i’m sorry. but full credit to them! enjoy ! xoxo

warnings: swearing, mentions of stress/anxiety

ambivalence masterlist , parenthood masterlist

     The ends of your days quickly become your favorite, because after the kids go to sleep, Rafe always asks to lay on the couch and watch a couple episodes of a show. Of course, with Rafe, it’s not just the two of you laying there while you pay attention. It’s his stress reliever, and soon, it becomes yours, too.

He’s already waiting for you when you come down the stairs, exhausted from putting Connor to bed. You smile when you see him and practically collapse on top of him, nudging his jawline with your nose and then pressing a kiss into his skin. 

“He okay?” Rafe asks. 

You nod, “Yeah.”

“You okay?”

You don’t miss how his grip tightens around you, but you still shrug at his question. 

“Just wanna be with you,” you murmur, “Like every night.”

He nods in understanding, immediately latching onto your needs and forming a game plan in his mind. You lay still as he moves you how he wants you, laying you on your side with your back to his front on the couch. You smile when he reaches over you and grabs the remote from the coffee table, flipping on The Vampire Diaries from where you’d left off without hesitation. 

“You hate this show,” you say quietly. 

He chuckles against your shoulder, “I’ll suffer through it for you.”

His hand runs up your leg, stopping at your hip and squeezing slightly. You know where this is going, and it brings a smile to your face. 

“Thanks,” you whisper. 

You try to focus on the show, but that task becomes increasingly more difficult when Rafe’s hand slips into your panties. He tucks his face into your neck and sucks on your skin, no doubt leaving marks there. 

“I’m gonna work the knots out of your back when I’m through down here,” he promises, “You’re tense, baby.”

“Mhm,” you whimper, “I’m so tired. So overwhelmed.”

Rafe doesn’t say a word in response, but his fingers falter for a moment. You roll your hips to encourage him to keep going, and eventually he does, but a part of his actions feel more forced than they did before. 

You barely register the sound of a key turning in the front door, but Rafe seems to hear it loud and clear. He pulls his hand from your shorts when the door shuts and both of you watch as Topper emerges from the darkness of the foyer, raising a brow at the two of you. 

“It’s eight o’clock,” he says, “Glad you guys are living life on the wild side.”

“What are you doing here?” Rafe questions. 

Topper glances at the TV with a smirk, tucking his keys into his pocket and then looks back at Rafe. 

“What are you doing, Cameron? Big fan of this shit?” he points to the TV, displaying a fight between Damon and Elena. 

“Fuck off, it’s Y/N’s favorite,” Rafe grunts, sitting up. 

He pulls you up with him and places you in his lap despite your objections, but you know Topper has seen enough of your relationship to be bothered. 

“What’s up, Top?” you ask. 

“Actually,” he starts squirming, as if he’s anxious, “I need to talk to Rafe.”

“About what?” Rafe huffs.

Topper sighs, “Dude, can we just have a beer outside or something? It’s important.”

“So important that you won’t tell my wife?” Rafe counters. 

Topper groans and throws his head down in his hands, shaking his head to himself when Rafe chuckles under you. 

You smile politely, but no part of you wants to sit and be social right now. You pull away from Rafe’s grasp, shaking him off when he tries to pull you back. 

“You guys talk,” you say, looking at Topper, “I’m gonna go lay down.”

“Hey, I don’t mean to kick you out of here—” he starts, but you shake your head and step toward him. 

“You’re not,” you promise him, “I get it. I’m just tired.”

He nods slowly, “Thanks.”

You give him a smile, turning your head when he leans down to kiss your cheek. You glance back at Rafe and give him a smile, then move toward your bedroom. 

“Dude,” Rafe hisses when the door shuts, “You probably just cost me couch sex.”

“Okay, gross,” Topper grunts. 

“Sit,” Rafe sighs and stands, “I’ll grab a couple beers and we can—”

“Uncle Top?”

Rafe freezes at the sound of his girl’s voice at the top of the stairs, watching as Topper grins widely and hurries over. 

“Hey, there she is. What are you doing out of bed, angel?”

Rafe listens as her feet start down the stairs, unevenly patting against the wood as she descends. Topper starts up to meet her halfway, grinning like a fool the entire way.

“Heard you,” she explains, “Sleepin’ over?”

She holds her arms up once Topper’s close enough, letting him pick her up and press her into his chest. 

“Not tonight,” he says, “Just came here to talk to your Dad.”

At that, Josie’s eyes trail over to Rafe, who is raising a brow at his daughter for getting out of bed and coming downstairs when she should be asleep. 

“Hi, Daddy,” she smiles. 

He shakes his head, but can’t help the smile that breaks out on his cheeks. Topper carries her into the living room and sits down in the armchair, placing Josie on his lap. She turns herself around so she’s facing him, smiling widely up at him in her pajamas, hair messy, eyes wide. 

“How was your day?” he asks her. 

“Bubby let me play with his toys,” she informs him, “Was fun.”

“Yeah? Which toys?”

“His dinos,” she answers. 

“That sounds like a lot of fun,” Topper beams. 

Josie nods her head, “Sleep over?”

Rafe laughs from his place on the couch and so does Topper, who combs his hands through her hair as an attempt to tame it. 

“I can’t, sweetie, I’m sorry. I have to work in the morning.”

Her lip juts out, piercing through Topper’s heart and forcing a frown to cross his lips. She collapses her head to his chest and cuddles into him while he rubs her back, doing his best to make sure she doesn’t cry. 

“Can I go with you?” she asks. 

Topper looks over at Rafe and raises a brow, as if silently asking permission. Rafe’s eyebrows furrow as he shakes his head, feeling as if that answer is obvious. Topper could not handle a two year-old on top of all this work — especially Josie. 

“Tell you what,” Topper says quietly to her, “I’ll come get you after. We can go feed the ducks and get ice cream.”

She smiles against his chest, “Promise?”

“I promise, my angel.”

Josie nods and lets her eyes close, making no effort to stand and knowing full well that Rafe won’t make her go back upstairs by herself. Topper, content with this, just settles in and continues stroking up and down her back, coaxing her into falling asleep. 

Rafe stands and disappears into the kitchen, returning with two open beer bottles. He silently hands one to Topper, who drinks about half of it down in one gulp. 

They wait a few more minutes, letting Josie fall asleep completely before Rafe dares to speak even faintly. 

“All right, Top. Why don’t you tell me why you’ve denied me sex and then woke up my daughter.”

His hand still on Josie’s back as he finishes off his beer, placing the empty bottle on the table beside him. 

“Fine,” he speaks, his voice low and quiet, “But you can’t hit me.”

Rafe rolls his eyes, “I’m not going to hit you.”

Topper nods his head, pursing his lips as he debates speaking the words out loud. When he looks down at Josie, snoozing comfortably on his chest, he smiles and blurts out the words. 

“I want to ask your sister to marry me.”

Rafe freezes, “You do?”

“Yeah, man,” he nods, “It’s been almost three years. I think she’s ready.”

“Are you ready?”

Topper doesn’t blink, “Fuck yes.”

Rafe’s eyes flicker down to Josie out of instinct, to which Topper winces and covers his mouth. When she snores, they both take a deep breath. Rafe grins and looks at Topper, who he swears looks nervous as hell. 

“Are you asking for my permission, Top?” Rafe asks. 

“Well, yeah,” he shrugs, his cheeks turning pink, “I mean, you’re second on the list. I asked your dad at dinner tonight.”

Rafe grins, “How’d that go?”

“He scares me,” Topper confesses, “But I did it. And I’m so sure, Cameron. She’s what I want.”

The laugh that escapes Rafe’s lips surprises Topper so much that he draws back, making Josie stir on his chest. His hand meets her back immediately, coaxing her back to sleep. 

“If you don’t mind,” Rafe sits up, smirk wide, “I’d like to take this time to remind you that you dated my sister before Y/N even looked my way.”

“Yeah, it’s hilarious,” Topper rolls his eyes, “You guys have two kids and you’re amazing together, I get it—”

“No, Top,” Rafe shakes his head, “I mean, you spent so much time listening to me talk about her. And I sure as shit didn’t ask anyone for permission when I proposed to her. You’re a good man, and you don’t need my permission. Especially with how long you and Sarah have been on and off, or whatever.”

“Yeah, but you’re my best friend,” Topper says, “It’s only right.”

Rafe smiles, “I appreciate it. And I say go for it.”

Topper lets out a long, steady exhale, continuing to rub Josie’s back as an outlet for his anxiousness. 

“Damn, to be honest, I was kind of hoping you’d say no,” Topper mumbles, “I’m so nervous to ask her.”

“She’s going to say yes. She would’ve said yes last year.”

Topper swallows at that, nodding his head as he lets Rafe’s words resonate with him. 

“You think Y/N will help me pick out a ring?” Topper asks. 

“Oh, yeah. She lives for that,” Rafe nods, already excited to see the look on your face when he tells you the news. 

Topper sticks around for a few more minutes, airing all of his hesitations and letting Rafe shoot them all down. When he’s ready to go, Rafe picks Josie up from Topper’s chest and smiles widely as she instinctively wraps herself around him. It seems that even in her sleep, she can sense Rafe. 

“Thanks for talking to me, Cameron,” Topper says, offering his hand for Rafe to shake. 

“Anytime. We’ll see you tomorrow?”

“Yeah. See you then,” Topper agrees, entering the foyer, “And, dude, please tell Y/N to not tell Sarah.”

“Yeah, yeah,” Rafe rolls his eyes, “Go on.”

     After Topper leaves, Rafe carries Josie up to her bed and lays with her until she falls asleep again — her idea. When he comes strolling into the master bedroom, he finds you with your eyes barely open, watching TV. The sight of you so exhausted, having left the room with no argument or discussion, upsets him.

”Sweetheart,” he says gently as he crosses the room and to the bed, “Come here.”

You ignore him and remain where you are, too tired to move at all. He sits down right beside you and runs his hand over your hair and your cheeks, giving you a sad smile. 

“Did Top leave?” you ask. 

“Yeah,” he whispers, “I’m worried about you.”

“I’m fine, Rafe, I’m just tired.”

His jaw clenches, but he doesn’t push. Instead, he sits back against the headboard and tugs you over, repeating his initial ‘come here’ demand. 

You huff but let him guide you to where he wants you, putting your back against his torso as you sit in between his outstretched legs. His hands come up to your shoulders, thumbs pressing into your shoulder blades as he massages your back. 

“Talk to me, baby,” he says, his voice rough and demanding.

You sigh, closing your eyes at the feeling of Rafe’s skin on your own, and how amazing his hands are as they work the knots out of your back. 

“I just don’t know how you do this so well,” you confess, “Especially since Jo was born. You leave with a smile on your face, you come home with a smile on your face, you engage with me and the kids—”

“You do all of that stuff, too. Plus, you’re home with them more than I am. You’re allowed to get overwhelmed, sweetheart, but I want to know how to help you.”

“You—” you start, leaning back into his hands, “I— that feels really good, Rafe.”

He chuckles, “Just relax. Do you want me to run a bath for you?”

You bite your lip, not wanting to force him to do that but also loving the sound of a bath with candles and bubbles. 

“For us?” you ask, hoping to correct his initial question. 

He grins and runs his hands down your back, meeting a knot further down. You arch into him when he presses his thumbs into it, working it out.

“You know I can’t. Just in case the kiddos need anything. But I will gladly help you get naked and sit beside you while I stare.”

“Fine,” you smile. 

With minimal effort, Rafe slides out from behind you and then off the bed, tucking one arm under your legs and the other around your torso. He carries you into the bathroom as he admires the smile on your face, one that he wishes to stay there forever. 

“Okay,” he sets you down on your feet, “I need a claw clip, a robe, a lighter, a candle — is that it, baby?”

“Rafe—”

“You just sit,” he gestures you over to the chair in front of your vanity, “Hold on. This was poorly executed. Pretend this is sexy and I have it all under control.”

“Rafe,” you repeat, chuckling, “My candle’s already in here, there’s a lighter in the medicine cabinet, and I have a clip in my hair already. Relax.”

He grins, something about it ever so boyish and charming, grazing his lips over your forehead. 

“You’re incredible,” he whispers against your skin, “God, I just — it’s unbelievable that you married me. Okay, bath time. Sit while the water warms.”

He steps away from you to turn the water on, settling on a temperature after far too long and adding in the bubbles. You watch as he so graciously tries to make it perfect, because why wouldn’t he, and when he feels satisfied, he turns to you. 

“You don’t have to make such a fuss,” you tell him. 

“Yes, I do. Come on. Clothes off.”

He helps you lift your shirt over your head, then reaches around to undo your bra clasp while you drop your shorts. With his hand in yours, he guides you over to the tub and helps you get in, letting the warm water soothe your sore and tense muscles. 

“Hmm,” you hum, “This is nice. Thank you.”

He settles on the floor beside you, smiling when you reach out of the water and request his hand. 

“So,” he says, squeezing your bubble-covered hand, “I have something to tell you.”

“What?”

He grins like he can’t wait to say it, to see the expression on your face because he finally knows something before you do. 

“Top is proposing to Sarah.”

Your eyes widen and he laughs when you sit straight up in the tub, trying to assess if he’s serious or not. 

“Oh, my God,” you gasp, “Are you serious?”

“Yeah,” Rafe laughs, “He was asking for my permission.”

You pout, “Oh, that’s adorable. He was probably so nervous — you better not have teased him.”

“I didn’t tease him, baby,” he laughs again, shaking his head at you, “He’s fine. We had a beer and talked. Little Miss heard him and came downstairs.”

“Not surprising,” you remark, “So, what else did he say? When is it happening? Where?”

Rafe shrugs, “Don’t know.”

You raise an accusing brow and squeeze his hand, watching the confused expression cross his face. 

“You didn’t get any details?” you accuse. 

Rafe just shrugs, “I don’t know the procedural questions to ask at a time like that.”

He watches as you roll your eyes, which makes him laugh. His laughter brings a smile out of you, and soon, you find yourself tugging him closer to you on the floor. 

“I’ll make you a checklist.”

“Thanks,” he remarks dryly, “He wants you to help him pick the ring.”

Your eyes widen, “No way.”

“Yes, way,” Rafe chuckles.

You sit back and dream of what you’ll try to pick for Sarah, of ways you could ask what she’d prefer without hinting to her that it’s happening. 

“Remember when we got engaged?” he asks, his voice softer and full of emotion. 

You glance over at him and nod, letting a smile form on your lips. 

“Of course,” you whisper, “We found out about Connor that night.”

Rafe nods and looks down to his lap. You watch his Adam’s apple bob, knowing it’s a tell of his, that he has something to share. You squeeze his hand again, urging him to look back up at you. 

“I had nightmares every night for two weeks after. I used to wake up and I wasn’t sure what was real, and I’d start to panic, but you were there, you know, next to me. Just snoring away—”

“I don’t snore,” you tease, but he sees the worry in your eyes, “Why didn’t you tell me you were having nightmares?”

He shrugs, “You were pregnant, recovering from a concussion, and enjoying our new engagement. It didn’t feel right.”

“Rafe—”

“I’m not telling you to make you feel guilty, sweetheart. I’m telling you because I—,” he stops and takes a shaky breath in, “I started to grieve you. Every night, when I woke up and thought you weren’t here, I found out what it feels like to lose the person you love the most in the entire world. So, when you get overwhelmed, sometimes I panic. Because — and I’m not saying this will happen — I’m fully aware that you could realize that we did all this shit so young. And what if you wake up one day and resent me for—”

“Rafe—” you try again, tears stinging your eyes as he continues. 

“Just let me finish, please,” he begs, watching you nod slowly, “I just need you to promise me that if you ever feel anything like that, you come to me. Y/N, I can’t lose you. I can’t, baby, I–”

“Okay, hey,” you sit up, pulling your hand from his and cupping his cheeks in your palms, “I am not going anywhere, do you understand me? But I promise you, I’ll talk to you. If you promise to talk to me. It could just as easily be you.”

He laughs through his emotions, smiling against your hands and bringing a smile to your lips as well. 

“No, it couldn’t,” he mumbles. 

“Promise me anyway.”

“I promise, baby,” he whispers, “I’d promise you anything you wanted, though.”

You smile, “You better kiss me right now, Cameron.”

“Yes ma’am,” he remarks, pulling you as close as he can before he molds his mouth to yours. 

It feels like he kisses you for a minute and the remainder of the night all at once. When he pulls back, you’re thankful for the smile that spreads across his face. 

“I love you so much,” you whisper against his lips. 

“I love you, too, sweetheart.”

“Mama?”

Rafe spins around at the sound of Connor’s sweet voice. Both of you smile when you see him in his pajamas, clutching Blue in his right hand, looking so small in the doorway. Rafe releases you and stands up, making his way to Connor. 

“Hi, baby,” you speak up, “You okay?”

He shakes his head, “Bad dream.”

You watch Rafe look down at Connor in complete understanding, and without hesitation, he picks him up and gives him a hug. 

“You’re okay, buddy,” Rafe whispers to him, “Let’s give Mommy a minute, okay?”

Connor nods and lets Rafe carry him back out to your bedroom, shutting the door behind them. You drain the bath and hurry out of it, drying off and dressing in record time. When you step out, Connor is laying in the middle of the bed, head on Rafe’s chest, with his eyes open. He turns his head when he sees you, patiently waiting for you to climb into bed before he shifts over to you for a hug. 

“Do you wanna talk about your dream?” you ask him softly, “Or just wanna relax?”

“Relax,” he replies, “Were you takin’ a bath like me and Jo?”

You smile, “Yeah.”

“Daddy was helping you?”

Rafe snorts, earning a swat on the chest from you. 

“Yeah,” you say again, “Daddy helps me with a lot of things, did you know that?”

“Do I help you with a lot of things?”

“Oh, absolutely,” you nod, “You’re very helpful.”

He nods and smiles victoriously, then pulls the comforter up higher so it covers him. You watch as he sits up, pulling the blanket over you, too. 

“Warm?” he asks. 

“Yes. Thank you,” you smile. 

Connor turns to Rafe, expertly spying the comforter that covers half of his body. Without saying a word, he fixes it, covering Rafe completely. 

“Thanks, buddy,” Rafe smiles. 

“Now we can go to sleep,” he says, “The light, Dad.”

Rafe laughs to himself and switches off his lamp, letting the darkness take over the room. Connor lays back down against your side, wrapping one of his arms around your chest and holding on. 

“Night, Mama,” he whispers. 

“Goodnight, handsome,” you reply, kissing the top of his head. 

Rafe leans over and kisses Connor’s cheek, earning himself a giggle. 

“Night, squirt,” he says, then reaches out for you and gives you one last kiss, “Night, sweetheart.”

Rafe and Connor both fall asleep before you, and you can’t help but take both of them in. Rafe rolls over, and out of instinct, reaches for you. You smile when he pulls the both of you closer, and only then do you feel calm enough to sleep. 

     “But what does it mean?”

“It means they’re gonna announce that they’re getting married,” Rafe explains — again. 

“But we already know,” Josie frowns, “Why do they have to ‘nounce it?”

“Because,” he narrows his eyes at you when you chuckle softly, “Aunt Sarah doesn’t know yet.”

Josie squirms from Rafe’s lap and shakes her head, “This makes no sense. Gonna go play with Noah. Bubby, come play?”

Connor grins and pushes himself out of your lap, “Okay.”

He takes Josie’s hand and leads her toward Noah, who was smart enough to bring some of his toys to this event. You’re all dressed up and waiting for Topper and Sarah to arrive so you can celebrate. He planned out the whole proposal on the beach, then they’ll make their way up to the Club for drinks. Currently, though, the Club is filled with a bunch of squirmy adults; each one growing more afraid that something has gone wrong since they’re late. 

“She wouldn’t have said no,” Maddie whispers to you, “Right?”

“No way,” you reply, “I thought for sure she could see right through me at the nail salon yesterday.”

“Yeah, you’re not the greatest liar,” Maddie agrees. 

To your right, Rafe and Kelce are on their second beer and keeping an eye on the three children. You lean into Rafe and smile when he wraps his arm around you, settling his hand to your bare skin where your dress opens in the back. 

“Did Josie just claim Noah’s truck as hers?” Kelce asks, chuckling. 

“Probably,” Rafe shrugs, “She doesn’t take any shit.”

You and Maddie both turn your head at the perfect time, eyes settling on the kids. Josie reaches for another one of Noah’s little trucks, but he grabs ahold of it first. You watch as her expression changes, and without hesitation, Noah holds it out to her. She smiles widely and accepts it, then leans over and gently kisses his nose. 

Rafe and Kelce listen as you and Maddie gasp, trying to control your squealing at how cute they are. Rafe tenses beside you while Kelce snickers, earning a glare from your husband. 

“Kiss her back, Noah,” Kelce cheers. 

“Shut the fuck up, Smith,” Rafe shoves Kelce’s shoulder, “So help me, if he does—”

“Dude, you’re just mad because your daughter likes my kid.”

“I like your kid, too, but not when he kisses my daughter.”

“He didn’t,” Kelce argues, “She came onto him!”

“Okay,” you cut in, silencing both of them, “Enough. They’re kids. It was a cute little moment.”

“Noah’s definitely blushing,” Kelce nods toward his son, “So is Josie.”

“She is not,” Rafe grunts. 

“I’m just saying, dude,” Kelce shrugs, smirking, “I think they’re soulmates.”

Rafe sighs aggressively and then stands, downing the remainder of his beer before looking down at you. 

“I need another fucking drink,” he mutters, “Need anything?”

“No,” you reply, watching as he walks toward the bar. 

You return to talking with Maddie, and when Rafe returns, he holds a whiskey instead of a beer. You chuckle to yourself and turn to him when he sits back down beside you, a grumpy expression still on his face.

You reach over and set your hand on his thigh, doing your best to comfort him. He just puffs out his cheeks as he exhales, then downs half of his whiskey. 

“She’s already kissing boys,” he practically groans, “This isn’t fair.”

You laugh, “It’s Noah, Rafe.”

He just shakes his head and takes another drink. You lean over and silently request a kiss, which he’s happy to give you. Before you can say anything else, the deck starts to rustle into cheering and clapping. You stand and turn around, finding Topper and Sarah approaching with wide smiles on their faces. 

“Holy shit, he actually did it,” Rafe chuckles, reaching for your hand as he stands. 

“Oh, they look so happy,” you smile.

The happy tears sting your eyes as you watch them hug the parents, ignoring Rafe’s small laugh at your emotions. He presses you into him and kisses your forehead before you break away, hurrying over to hug them.

You congratulate them both and gush about the ring with Sarah, who thanks you for helping pick it out. Rafe and Kelce pull Topper away and over to the bar for a drink, while you and Sarah head over to Maddie, who stayed put to watch the kids. 

Maddie obsesses over the ring the same way the two of you had before, and when the boys come to join and sit down, Maddie blurts out her first thought. 

“You must be loaded, Top, that’s a beautiful ring.”

Topper laughs, “I’m not loaded, Mads.”

“Uncle Topper,” Josie says, watching as Topper spins around in his chair and smiles when he sees her. 

“Hi, my angel,” he reaches for her, but her arms are crossed over her chest and her expression reads sass. 

“You’re ‘ngaged?” she questions brutally. 

Topper’s lips fall into a pout and when he reaches out for her again, she lets him grab her and pull her onto his lap. 

“I am,” he nods, “To Aunt Sarah. Is that okay with you?”

“Can you still play with me?” she counters. 

“Of course I can, Jo,” he nods, “You’re still my number one girl, you know that?”

“Promise?”

“I promise,” he gives her a smile and then pulls her in for a hug, not surprised at all when she makes herself comfortable and plans to sit there for the remainder of the evening. 

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[shipskicksandgiggles]

dialogue prompts

so there’s this thing I do every so often where I put out a list of quotes as a prompt list, because as someone once told me, I live in a goddamn sitcom. anywhom, send a number and a character/ship/whatever and I’ll do what I can with that

“Some of you know where I live which means the threat of one of you setting my house on fire is very real, so it would be in my best interest to be careful.”

“Open up jackass, I need my glasses.”

“Do you know what you’re doing?” “Like in general? No.”

“It’s Tuesday. I need at least a full cup of coffee in my system before I start dealing with being alive.”

“Can I ask what’s up with the box of Polaroid cameras?” “The what?” “…do you not know about the Polaroid cameras?”

“Are you committing satanic rituals in there? Like if I gave you a doll, would you stick pins in it?”

“I will recite an entire monologue outside your office, and don’t think I won’t!”

“Don’t twist my nipple, dude.”

“Did you know that some figs have dead wasps inside?” “I did, actually.” “Of course you know, you’re so hot.”

“Which came first, the chicken or the bat?”

“You were a wanted man?” “Yeah, that was a weird week.”

“So you know camels?” “Where is he going with this?”

“Stop objectifying my massage therapist.”

“Go save him from himself please.”

“Girlboss in a way that makes sense for you.”

“Son of a…” “Bitch.”

“I don’t know if you know, but your dad-” “Oh no, I know.”

“Hey! You are not preschoolers. Wait your turn.”

“I love watching Gen Z kids try to figure out millennial technology.” “Hey I got the cassette player to work!”

“I’ve gotten to break the news to two people that Waffle Houses are closing in Florida and I kind of love it.”

“So we agree, right?” “Oh I don’t have a doubt in my mind.”

“Sometimes I forget you’re still basically a child.”

“Hold on.” “Oh they're going to kill him.”

“Hey are you busy?” “Yes.” “Ha! Get fucked.”

“Okay, something just gave me gender euphoria, but if I try and explain it it’s not going to make sense and it’s actually going to sound really bad.”

“You look insane, what’s up?” “Guess what came in the mail.”

“If I gave you a prompt on American cheese and asked you to write a research paper on it, what would you do?”

“That was a long sigh.” “You try dealing with assholes all day.”

“Sophomore year? What happened- no.”

“Do you know who that was?” “Are you kidding? Of course not.”

“You look like shit.” “Thank you for that.”

“I don’t like the way you just implied you couldn’t legally drive in the state of Illinois.”

“Is that okay?” “Yes.” “You’re still going to be anxious about it aren’t you?” “Also yes.”

“I really appreciate you not just straight up calling me a lesbian.”

“So I learned a thing or two about myself this weekend.”

“Important question. Have you watched the Vampire Diaries?” “No? Do I look like someone who would?”

“Mom, my pants broke!”

“I was gone for not even five minutes, where did the hedgehog come from?”

“Oh no you don’t. You three! Wait a minute. I need you little shits to help me with something.”

“Looks like I’m ruining Christmas this year.” “Why?” “Thanksgiving is taken.”

“Hey.” “Again?”

“Go to the doctor.” “No.” “Why not?” “I don’t like doctors.” “I don’t care. Go.”

“I won’t lie, you seem like the type of person who could get away with murder if you really wanted to. Like you’d only kill someone for a legitimate reason but no one would find out.”

“I feel like under different circumstances, I also would have been a bisexual whore.”

“Well fuck me in the ass.” “No thanks!”

“No really, I have it right here… hey what’s today’s date?” “It’s the __, why?” “Look. This is the second time this has happened.”

“If you have your gay awakening to Cara Delevigne, I’m disowning you.”

“Do you have a graphing calculator?” “Why would they have a graphing calculator?” “Yeah I do, hold on.” 

“It is 3pm on a Wednesday. Could they not wait?”

“So here’s what you’re going to do. You’re going to go down to the football field, you’re going to find the head coach, you’re going to find a tackling dummy. Tuck your head, lead with your shoulder. I believe in you.”

[joviewinchester]

Part 2 to the supernatural MBAV crossover ✌️ Also this is on crack so I’m sorry in advance. Lol.

“Oh my gosh, Jack! We’ve been living here for two weeks! Do you know what that means?! We actually live here.” Y/N said excitedly.

“Yeah. I like it here I hope we stay awhile.”

“I have a boyfriend now! Do you know how cool that is?”

“You what?!” Dean exclaimed.

“Don’t eavesdrop! It’s none of your concern.”

“Yes it is. I’m your dad!”

“Moms handle the boys and the periods, and she promised me she’d visit sometime this week, so therefore, it’s none of your concern.”

“Since when have you had contact with Amara?”

“Since like a month ago. Uncle Chuck taught her about the world of cellphones. She promised she’d drop by for at least an hour. You don’t think she’s going to flake on me do you?” Tears welled up in her eyes. Dean held his arms out for a hug.

“Hey, come here, kid. Your mom has done a lot of bad things, but if there’s one thing I know for sure about her, it’s that she never says something unless she means it. Now about the boyfriend thing…”

“His name is Benny, he likes Star Wars, and he’s a calculus nerd. Good enough?”

“Come on Dean. Calculus nerd? You have nothing to worry about.” Sam chimed in.

“Yeah, I guess you’re right, Sammy.”

“Does that mean that me and Jack can go hang out with him and our other friends tonight?” Y/N asked hopefully, putting on the puppy eyes she had inherited from her uncle.

“Fine, but don’t be out any later than 1 am okay?”

“Got it. Would you be mad if we left right now?”

“No. It’s fine. Go ahead, but Jack she is not to be left in a room alone with this punk. Got it? Good.”

Y/N rolled her eyes. “Drama queen.” She muttered.

“I heard that!”

“Good!”

All of their friends had already arrived by the time they got there. The only thing missing was pizza.

“Dude the delivery guy was so slow last time though. Someone should just go get it. I’m starving.” Ethan complained.

“Not it.” Y/N and Erica said at the same time. Benny and Jack both looked at Sarah.

“Um…don’t look at me. I’m babysitting.” She gestured to Jane who was sitting peacefully watching Dusk.

“I’ll go.” Jack volunteered. Y/N tossed him the keys to the Jeep.

“Don’t wreck my baby.” She said sternly, laying on the floor beside Jane.

“Careful. You sound like your dad.” Jack joked. Y/N threw a pillow at him.

“Okay. Okay. I’m going.”

“So this Dusk thing, what is it even about?” Y/N asked. Erica immediately jumped in.

“Oh my god. It is so good. You’ve never seen Dusk? It’s about a human who falls in love with a vampire and vice versa, but there’s also this werewolf that’s in love with the girl, but she ends up choosing the vampire because, duh, she’s in love with him, but anyways it’s so good and you have to watch all of them with me some time.”

“I’ve seen the Vampire Diaries but I’ve never watched this.”

“Oh my God. Don’t you just love the Salvatore brothers?”

“I love Damon, but I’m not huge on Stefan. Oh and Katherine is so hot, but my favorites are Kol and Kai.”

“You have a thing for murderers with sociopath tendencies and you’re dating Benny?” Erica asked.

“Okay, just leave me alone. Kai is hot and he had reason to murder his entire family.” Literally the entire room was just looking back and forth between them in confusion.

“Remind me to never leave you two alone.” Sarah said.

“Did you just say murdered his entire family casually in a sentence?” Benny asked.

“Yes. If you guys watched the show you would totally get it. Although Jack doesn’t and I made him watch it but then again his biological dad is literally satan-“

“Wait. Wait. Wait. First of all, Castiel isn’t his biological dad? Second of all what is his biological father a serial killer or something?” Ethan asked.

That was when Y/N registered what she had said. “It’s not my place to tell you guys about his biological dad, so like please don’t tell him I told you anything.”

Everyone agreed and dropped it. Soon after Jack came back with the pizza. “Who’s hungry?”

“I am.” Erica whispered passive aggressively under her breath. Sarah elbowed her and gave her a look, mouthing the words shut up.

Benny, Ethan, Jack, and Jane all grabbed a slice.

“Want one?” Benny asked.

“No I’m fine. Thanks though.” Y/N said. Her mood had noticeably dropped, and it was because she was thinking of her mother. What if she didn’t come like she’d promised? Well, at least her cousin Gabriel promised a visit soon, despite her father’s protest.

“Hey what’s wrong?” Sarah asked her.

“It’s stupid. My mom told me that she was going to visit me sometime this week, but I’m worried she won’t show up.” At that very moment Amara appeared in the room. Now there was a lot of explaining to be done.

“Holy shit! Who are you and how did you do that?!” Ethan exclaimed.

“Wow. Gorgeous alert.” Erica said, ignoring the fact that a woman she didn’t know had just appeared out of nowhere. Y/N immediately jumped up and hugged her.

“I missed you, mom.” She muttered into her hair.

“Mom?!” They all asked at once.

“Woah. Woah. Woah. So what are you then?” Benny asked.

“Why are you guys not very freaked out about this?” Jack asked.

“We know about the supernatural, but nothing like this.” Ethan said still in shock.

“So, you made friends? I’m proud of you. How’s your dad doing?” Amara said.

“Same old. Same old. Sad, confused, protective.”

“Wait how do you guys know about the supernatural?” Jack asked ignoring the side conversation.

“That depends. How do you feel about vampires, warlocks, and seers?” Benny asked.

“Wait! You’re vampires?!” Y/N exclaimed suddenly.

“Not all of us. Just Erica and Sarah.” Ethan said.

“You guys haven’t even the ones killing people have you, because that would suck because then I’d have to kill you.”

“No, but really?! Kill us?!” Sarah exclaimed.

“My family hunts the supernatural! You guys have got to stay on the downlow or my dad and my uncle will straight up kill you and not think twice, please be careful!”

“Are warlocks on that list?” Benny asked.

“Wait, you’re a waflock and you didn’t tell me?!”

“We still don’t know what you two are and I think I speak for everyone when I say I would like to know!”

Y/N sighed. This would be a long conversation. She took in a deep breath. “So, my dad is the vessel of the archangel Michael aka the person Michael needed to possess to win the apocalypse which already happened by the way. My dad kind of saved the world. My Uncle Sam on the other hand is the vessel of Lucifer who is Jack’s biological dad which makes Jack a nephilim, and by the way Lucifer is actually pretty chill. But that’s beside the point. This is Amara my mom aka the darkness aka god’s sister which kind of makes me a Demigod which makes god aka Chuck my uncle and Lucifer, Michael and Gabriel my cousins which makes Jack my second cousin and also by the way Castiel is an angel too. Oh and also my dad is kind of gay for Cas but neither of them will admit but you know, subtext.”

They all looked at her with wide eyes. “If you plan on sticking with me welcome to my dysfunctional family.” She announced.

“Are they okay?” Amara whispered.

“Maybe. I don’t know.” Y/N whispered back.

“Ya know what? Cool. Also can we just talk about how Y/N has hot parents? MILF alert. Like it finally makes sense why she is so pretty.” Erica said casually.

“What’s a MILF?” Amara asked her. Y/N face palmed.

“It’s good. It’s a compliment, but don’t say it to anyone , ever.” Y/N tried to explain.

“Anyways…I guess I’m gonna go and let you all process this interaction. Benny, call me. Bye!” They all left, and Y/N insisted that they take the Jeep and not just teleport.

When they got back to the house everyone kind of just looked at each other awkwardly. “Mom and I are gonna go…what do normal teenage girls do with their non supernatural mothers? Paint their nails? We’ll go do that. See you soon.”

Dean looked at Jack waiting for an explanation. “I’ve got…homework. Yeah. Anyways bye.”

“What just happened?” Sam asked.

Dean shrugged. “Don’t know. Don’t care.”

[eyeofnewtblog]

Things that happen at home:

So, youngest sibling and I have “sister dates” that started before they came out and we’ve just never called the “dates” anything else. But basically it’s just the two of us alone together and we do whatever youngest sibling wants about once a month. Lunch but we play on our phones half the time? Fine. Watch the entire How to Train Your Dragon franchise in a weekend? Been there, done that. They binge watched all of vampire diaries and the originals and wanted to start in on Legacies, about…six months ago? but that’s the only real hard no I’ve ever given. Our relationship is mostly built on the fact that I want to be in the same room as people but not actually interacting (I’m lonely but socializing is exhausting) and as long as youngest is being left entirely to their own devices, they don’t actually care.

Now. I work in construction, and before that I worked in the motorcycle industry, so like. I’ve spent the last 12 or so years working predominantly with men. (The few women that I have worked with are honestly pretty awesome, but this isn’t about them.)

The point is that when dudes get comfortable because they think you’re a “bro” or the forget your not actually one of “the guys” or they see micro aggressions and their dad mode kicks in…it’s actually pretty helpful.

So, me and Youngest are kind of wandering in the downtown are of our city (there were a few sport bars between the restaurant we ate at and where I was able to find free parking) and a random dude grabbed youngest siblings hand and was just sort of holding it…like clearly turned about, stuck his hand out to introduce himself, and youngest is being polite and shakes the hand. And then Dude did not let go.

Now. I personally know, because I’ve had it explained to me by a biker with three daughters, that the trick is to (as the male) take your free hand and trap the woman’s hand between the palms and start giving vague compliments or continue whatever conversation was going. Because the idea is that a woman will feel impolite or as if she’s not being accommodating if they take their hand back where a man normally would.

The bikers point was that he saw me being uncomfortable because someone wouldn’t let go of my hand after a hand shake and made a point to tell me about this specific “trick” and ever since then I’ve made it a point to rip my hand away quickly and violently if necessary (some men believe in a firm hand shake that actually hurts, but some do try the actual trick and I make a show of ripping my hand away, tuck my hand behind my back, and then smile and carry on the conversation as if nothing happened…no actual data if better treatment actually happens…)

Anyway! Youngest and I are meandering back to the car but we’re both kind of on our phones and a guy who is clearly part of the spill out crowd from a sports bar has…captured my sibling, who was having a “female” day.

And I get about ten feet before I realize that Youngest isn’t beside me anymore, look up from my phone, turn, and realize that not only is the most socially awkward person I’ve ever met in my life stuck in the Polite Handshake Trap, but it’s literally right outside a bar where a bunch of spots dudes are clearly wanting to get i.

My best description of the feeling that came over me was along the lines of “Absolutely The Fuck Not” and like…my fingers were tingly, my gut clenched up, and everything just sort of…narrowed into just the clasped hands…that was the physical sensation.

What I actually did was storm over, slap the top hand of the hand shake (which was his) grab my sibling, scream “she’s FIFTEEN” in his face (I remember this part) and then proceeded to angry drag my sibling for tow blocks and an ally shot cut. (That part I don’t remember…in my mind we got to the car immediately)

Anyway. The handshake trick has been adequately explained to youngest. Solutions have been discussed. Also I’m not allowed to yank on or pull my sibling that hard/fast ever again unless it’s an actual “shit is on fire” emergency ever again. So.

[solarsavoy]

Fandom Saturday, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles

For many years, this was my favorite anime of all time. It was created by Clamp and uses a lot of the characters from Cardcaptor Sakura. It also shares Mokona, which I didn't realize was actually from Magic Knight Rayearth until @tuulikannel brought it up and I watched the slideshow with the opening. (Fucking brilliant!)

Tsubasa is a tale of a princess with a special power. A man who desires this power sets things into motion to obtain it for himself. Syaoran, whom I absolutely adore - he is in my man harem and such a squish, is in love with Princess Sakura and when her power is awakened, her memories in the form of feathers disappear into other worlds and dimensions across the universe. If I had known about fanfiction at this point, I can't tell you how many stories I had of them visiting other anime and stories already in existence to collect said feathers. I'd visit Bleach, I'd visit Shinzo, I'd visit Vampire Diaries and Percy Jackson and Star Ocean and Chrono Cross and Final Fantasy VII and whatever else I happened to be into at the time. (Definitely not Higurashi. I'm okay not being in that world. 😅) I'd spend so many hours just daydreaming, which is why it was my favorite.

Honestly, it probably spawned my love of isekais. Well, I'd already come up with the basis of Krystar which is also an isekai, so it just strongly reaffirmed it, I guess.

And on top of that, it's just so tragic. It's one of the few animes I watched because I actually started the manga first. And it took me a while to collect the manga, so I finished the anime in the meantime, hated where it left off like, right in the middle of everything without touching any of the cool parts of the story, and then finished the manga. I guess they didn't have enough funding? But the fans were so outraged by this, Clamp made 2 OVAs of the biggest moments in the manga to satisfy them.

Anyway, here's a funny story about me for you, inspired by Tsubasa. My husband, whom I refer to as Deo online for future reference, took me out on our second first date (story for another day) and called ahead to get a giant cookie prepared. He checked on it at the mall without my noticing and the lady said "I hope you like how the feather came out, but what's a Fakura?". Phones weren't that good in 2009. 😆 So she had to fix it to say "Sakura" and it was a feather with the words "You are my Sakura" surrounding it, because I always wanted to be the princess that Syaoran did everything in his power to save, even at the cost of what was most precious to him.

Which is why Syaoran is in my very selective man harem. To put it into perspective, Karma is on the honorable mention list and Nagisa didn't even make it onto a list, and anyone that knows me knows I love these two. And I know I say man harem, but it's really more of a Celeste situation from Danganronpa where I want a huge mansion with these dudes in it and unlike for Celeste, they don't need to be vampires or to cater to my every need, I just want them there. Forever. With me.

Anyway, off topic.

I love Syaoran. And Tsubasa has shaped a lot of my creativity drives. It taught me to think in different ways and to be aware of different cultures (like Thera!) and to consider the motivations people can have. For love, for hunger, for fear. And sure, Assassination Classroom may view Irina and Karasuma as Mommy and Daddy, but the original Mommy and Daddy to me was always Fai and Kurogane (who surprisingly looks a lot like Karasuma now that I think about it.) And the anime is filled with quirks and good feels and discovery and learning and growing and found family. It's just so beautiful…

AND THE MUSIC!!! I totally forgot to mention the music. *Facepalm. Maaya Sakamoto and Yuki Kajiura have such beautiful voices and so many of the songs in the anime were left on repeat for years in my music library and even though it's been over a decade, I still frequently listen to them to this day. Aikoi, I talk to the rain, Dream Scape, You are my love, Kaze no Machi e, Loop, so many.

I feel like it deserved a much bigger fandom than it had. Like Bleach or Full Metal Alchemist. It's truly a work of art to me and it just blows my mind that they couldn't finish the anime because they lacked funding and fans. It just deserves so much.

Anyway, sorry to ramble. This one I feel really was more of a ramble than usual. Highly recommend. It wasn't my first anime, but in many ways, it did so much more for me than Sailor Moon did, and I don't say that lightly. I mean, I wouldn't even consider Tuxedo Mask for my man harem. He doesn't even deserve to be on a wait list. Helios was better than him in my opinion. I wouldn't even consider Helios either though. Seiya was close, and the genderbending made him more interesting, but he didn't make it in either.

I feel like I need to make a post of who's in my man harem now…

Anyway, thanks for reading. Love you all! *kiss

[gothicprep]

pardon me while i book talk a second

so i’ve never been one for romance novels, even contemporary ones. probably related to the extent of my fandom participation being “all theory, no interest in shipping”. i think i’m just not the romantic type lol. or i just don’t really like the framing model of “here is the protagonist that’s a relatively easy blank slate to project onto & emotionally identify with. here is the male love interest who is the Bad Boy Vampire Pirate CEO of the Fire Department. this guy literally wants you so badly that he does all these things that would be extremely creepy and boundary-crossing irl. this story may or may not conflate desirability with women’s economic dependence on men. don’t think too hard about it, just masturbate”

i’m oversimplifying a little bit here, although a lot of romance narratives in popular culture hit at least a few of those same beats.

but i recently read one because it was recommended to me with the explanation “i know this isn’t your thing, but i think you’ll appreciate it more because it isn’t your thing”.

and that got me curious, so i bought a copy

i was skeptical but i really fucking loved it, dude. it follows a protagonist who meets That Guy, and they have a lot of superficial sexual chemistry bc of course they do. He is Super Hot and Successful and Not One For Relationships but the Protagonist is So Special That He Wants to Drop All That and Have Two and a Half Kids. you know, That Guy. it’s juxtaposed against 8 year old diary entries the protagonist is reading about her first love, who was his complete opposite  – homeless, modest, and their connection was based in both coming from abusive homes and supporting one another, so there was more of an emotional core to that. and about three quarters of the way through the story, it’s revealed that That Guy is actually abusive.

i thought it was an incredibly well-executed criticism of popular installments in the romance genre, and how they often normalize abusive and controlling behavior, and using homeless kid as a foil to That Guy was meant to convey that actual love doesn’t generally look like this.

so i watched some reviews to see if other people got that read and... apparently no one else did? and i’m confused. i don’t know if it’s because i went into it with a negative predisposition towards romance novels or what. but i’m just sitting here, like, how come all these bookworms don’t know how to read