#its the black brothers angst

[niceonejames7]

i will never get the regulus hate and him getting reduced to a death eater when he was only 17 when he died. he was still a CHILD!!!

sirius ran away from his home when he 15, two years younger than regulus when he has died. before that, sirius bore the brunt of the hit. he ran away because he had no other choice. he would've died in that house, they would have let him rot. sirius didn't abandon regulus, he was a teenager who needed to escape a home which hated him viciously.

but some of you seem to forget that regulus was also a kid. I'm not saying I'd do what he did, but as a younger sibling, i understand his actions. in his perspective, in his 'little brother' perspective, the only person he loved left him. the only person who protected him left. and maybe that thought was a bit selfish, selfish in the same way sirius leaving was. but he was now alone, and the single target for his mother's vehement hatred. because for his mother, maybe regulus wasn't as hated as sirius, but he was a reminder of her failure of a son. the unresolved, twisted grief and anger and hatred that she felt for sirius translated towards regulus. he was alone in that house, seeing the consequences of leaving.

he knew what would happen, then why would he leave? a year later he's in his fifth year and he knows he can't leave or he'll have no one. not sirius, not his family. so he believes what his parents tell him, and he praises the dark lord and he takes the dark mark as his parents want him to. as he sees his friends and family do. regulus joins the death eaters and sees a determination that he can't find in himself. almost no one seems like they were forced here like he was. they want to be there. they believe in their cruelty. he realises he doesn't.

regulus black died on his first mission where he defied the dark lord because he was sure he would have nothing to come back to.

because that was difference between them. sirius had james, he would always have james. regulus had no one.

[yourlocalabomination]

The Lang brothers really said: “The Cosmic God of Time and Space, a Eldritch Horror who is fuelled by tormenting people - a being capable of driving his lessers into insanity within seconds and able to trap them into a torturous eternity………is a furry”.

And as iconic as that is….huh?

[ecstarry]

[gender-thief2]

sun bleached flies by ethel cain but it’s regulus accepting that he needs to die to get the horcrux from the cave

[sparkles-rule-4eva]

So I was finishing up homework for the night and was like "oh tomorrow's Wednesday I should write a quick wholesome oneshot" but couldn't think of anything that hadn't already been done and I happened to be listening to "Everybody Wants To Rule The World" and so angst popped into my head so then I accidentally drew this

"You cannot simply mess with the younger brother and not expect to face the wrath of the older brother."

(that was basically my entire thought during this)

((TAILS IS FINE HE'S JUST OUT OF IT OKAY, I WILL NEVER KILL EITHER OF THE BROTHERS 👌👌👌))

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[thetourturedwritersclub]

Finis vitae sed non amoris-its the end of life but not of love

Chapter five:January

January 1st 1977

Dear diary,

Oh Merlin. I have such bad hangover. I shouldn't have drank that much but I didn't have enough to forget what happened yesterday. I. Kissed. James. Potter. Why? Would I do that? What if he remembers? What if he hates me? Why do I care if he hates me? Oh my god. I can never show my face to Potter. Ever. I will go have a mental breakdown and cringe from embarrassment. Goodbye for now

R. A. B

January 4th 1977

Dear diary,

Merlin thank you! Potter was so drunk yesterday that he doesn't remember a thing. But I do and I can't seem to forget that. kiss.Good that means I won't have to dissappear from the face of the earth. Goodbye for now.

R. A. B

January 11th 1977

Dear diary,

I can't keep this secret anymore. That memory is driving me crazy. The feeling, the sparks and everything about it. I have to tell someone about it. Goodbye for now.

R. A. B

January 15th 1977

Dear diary,

Well. Pandora knows. She didn't judge me thankfully. She was very supportive and also curious for the details. She also told me something about opening my eyes a little. I don't know what she means by that but I do want to figure it out. Goodbye for now.

R. A. B

January 19th 1977

Dear diary,

Today I had a tutoring session with Potter and book club with Lily and Remus. This time he needed help with a Defense against the dark arts spell. He had everything else correct except the form, which with what I helped him. Then I meet with the book club. We caught up with each other, gossiped and hose the new read " Pride and Prejudice" from Jane Austen. Goodbye for now.

R. A. B

January 23rd 1977

Dear diary,

The workload has now decreased, which is really nice. I now finally have time for myself. Goodbye for now.

R. A. B

January 27th 1977

Dear diary,

Barty and Evan are FINALLY together!! Finally!! I've been waiting so long! Apperently they were together since New Years Party. Also Pandora has started to indirect teasing about James. Saying that I like him. I DON'T. Maybe I do and so far it has been hell. Goodbye for now

R. A. B

January 31st 1977

Dear diary,

Last tutoring session with Potter for this month. I'm not quite happy about it. The atmosphere when we're alone has just become so tense. I don't like it. I screwed up something didn't I? I thought we became friends. I thought we had potential for more

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

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Hello yall!! This chapter features Slow burn, angsty starchaser, sad Reg, our favourite book club and Rose killer!! Thank you for reading my fic and if you have any feedback pls write it in the comments!!!

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“Thank you for keeping your promise.”

inspired scene from the fic “Beyond the Heartbeat” by @starsworth

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Chapter 34 is out!

[quaggyday]

I’ve been going around a bit and I feel like most people tend to demonize Diluc a bit for the whole fight that happened

Yes, what he did was pretty bad but he was in a terrible mental state along with Kaeya. I’m also not saying Kaeya wasn’t a victim in this and that his decision to tell the truth came from a whole lot of mental issues

Overall I feel like bad decisions made by both of them lead to a very sick and twisted ending from the Gods that was imprinted on them. And now as adults Diluc obviously deeply regrets what he did and with Kaeya their both miscommunicating and pressing the wrong buttons as they both believe they don’t deserve to be okay again

[ofallplaceswhythis]

okay so bear with me i saw a post about Sirius having a panic attack and venting to James about it in the library and Regulus was eavesdropping and then got into this rabbit hole where Sirius was going on about how he hates that 'he thinks he's better than everyone and he says that he doesn't like it either but then he does nothing to stop it and just stands around while we're (Sirius and regulus) are getting cursed and I hate him' and Regulus thinks that Sirius is talking about him so he runs away but Sirius is actually talking about their father and then when Regulus runs away Sirius finally realizes that he's JUST like his father.

[jeanmoreausautismstickers]

Sirius “you and me since we were kids” Black and Regulus “and now im alone.” Black

[p2iimon]

drawing more furry fnaf art. yknow just to keep you posted. i love posting in the tags sorry these ones got away from me

[cursedwithwords]

Ugh I’m sorry I’m still so curious as to why James Sirius hates/dislikes Sirius could you explain why or is it a spoiler?

Okay so there is a reason within the context of TBOTS that's specific to the fic itself, and disclaimer this is just a headcanon of mine. Reason one, I thought it would be kind of funny and ironic that he would grow up hearing stories about this guy and just go 🫤 like Harry would absolutely shine Sirius in glowing light, obviously, he loved the guy so much, but imagine James being like "this is the dude you named me after?" Not that he'd ever admit that out loud to Harry of course.

Reason number two, in general I think all the kids have sort of a love-hate relationship with their names and their identities, but it's worse for James because he was named after Harry’s father and godfather. The names are heavy, almost suffocating. How's he supposed to measure up to these people, right? People that Harry either adored or never got the chance to know because of unbelievable tragedy. (If Harry’s allowed to name his kids after dead people then I get to use it for angst, that's the law).

Reason number three, sort of a petty reason (I thought it would be an intriguing connection to make). James doesn't like that Sirius "abandoned" Regulus, cuz James has a little brother too and would NEVER do something like that 😤 leading into his intense desperation to protect his younger siblings and "be better", or more specifically to be everything for everyone. I feel like he'd hear the full story about the brothers and rather than view it as a tragedy he'd just get angry at Sirius, because to James who was not raised in the same environment, he doesn't understand why Sirius didn't stick with his brother and protect him despite his bad choices. Sort of a "he was the older brother so maybe he should've tried harder to guide his younger brother/support him properly". Something like that.

Idk if that makes sense or if I explained that well but it's like an amalgamation of reasons. I thought it would be funny, I like the angst angle, and James loves his little baby Slytherin brother so so much that he simply can't understand why Sirius wouldn't have done everything within his power to protect his. Etcetera etcetera.

Thanks for the ask!

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there's nothing I love more than difficult sibling relationships

[enbysiriusblack]

"I needed you."

Sirius didn't turn to look at the boy staring right at them from across the astronomy tower, instead focusing on the distant stars. Stars that far away couldn't hurt them, couldn't need them, couldn't touch them and ask for just a little attention, advice, a hand to hold. Sirius knew any hand that clutched their own would fall and they'd be left in tears, all alone again.

"I still need you."

Sirius gritted their teeth, and gripped the bottle beside them. Regulus was an idiot, for that. He should know Sirius was unreliable, flimsy, incapable of helping. No matter how hard they'd try, their hand could never hold anyone. Not even themselves.

"Tell me to run away."

Sirius had to force themselves not to turn at that. Regulus running away? Leaving Grimmauld place? The idea... Sirius wanted to say yes. To tell their brother he could stay at the Potter's with them, or they could get their own flat, maybe even Andy would take him in. But what did that mean for Regulus? Would he become just like them? A worthless, friendless, alcoholic, lonely, disowned, family-less, spending every day and night regretting every decision he ever made? Would he kill himself? Sirius had wanted to, almost tried to but they had Regulus to stop them in the end. But with their positions switched? Sirius couldn't save anyone, he only destroyed them. And Regulus running away would destroy him, no matter how hard they tried to help, they'd be killing their brother.

"Don't. Don't run away", they heard the words coming out their sore throat.

Regulus swallowed dryly, "I'll die there, Sirius", his voice cracked.

Sirius restrained themselves from turning, "It'll kill you to leave."

Regulus collapsed right next to Sirius, pulling their face towards his and inspecting them.

Searching their eyes, Regulus frowned, "You look dead."

The corner of Sirius' lip tilted upwards, "exactly."

Regulus turned to the sky, "you're the brightest in the sky."

Sirius seemed to shrink inwards, "not anymore. Not after everything."

"You still are to some people... to the Potters, Pettigrew, Lupin."

Sirius snorted, bringing the bottle to their lips, "Definitely not Remus anymore. Think he hates me more than Snivellus now."

Regulus huffed, standing back up, "You don't think I should run away like you did?"

Sirius gave him a mocking smile, tilting their head and gesturing to themselves, "you like what you see? Think it did me any good, running away?"

"Do you regret it, then?"

"Every so often."

Regulus backed into the wall, closing his eyes in frustration, "What if I turn out worse if I stay there? What if I become just like our parents?"

Sirius threw the empty bottle down the tower and got out a fag and lighter, "You're too good for that, Reggie. You're the heart of the lion, the king of the stars and the jungle and fucking everything. All you gotta do is outlive our dear old parents and bam! You're rich and can do whatever the fuck you want!"

Regulus winced at the yelling, "Why didn't you do that then?"

Sirius sighed, looking back at the stars again, "Cause I'm a screw up, Reggie", he turned back to their brother, "But you're not. You're the best of us. Always will be."

"...I wanted to be just like you when we were younger. You seemed so free, brave, and recklessly happy; fighting like a soldier for something I could never work out."

Sirius snorted, "A pointless fight."

"I think you're still fighting it", Regulus hummed.

Sirius stubbed the cigarette, "I'm glad our parents didn't completely ruin you."

Regulus sat back down, "I guess that means maybe I can survive them, stay there to inherit everything and change the Black name."

"There ya go, Reggie", Sirius ruffled his hair, "Our great king saving us all."

[thetourturedwritersclub]

Finis vitae sed non amoris-its the end of life but not of love

Chapter six: February

February 4th 1977

Dear diary

Today was a fun day. I met with the book club and we discussed Pride and Prejudice. It was a great book overall. I depicts topics of importance when it comes regarding our society. Very well written. I have started talking to Lily more often. She is really kind and really nice. Very intelligent and very argumentative. We all have debates regarding our opinions for certain topics

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 8th 1977

Dear diary

I have been invited to one of Professor Slughorn club meetings. I don't think I will be attending.

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 10th 1977

Dear diary,

Well. I ended up attending thanks to Panda. She accompanied me since I refused to go anyway else. I didn't want to be stuck with idiots. But you know who else I happened to see there? James Potter himself. Why was he there? I don't know. In the middle Panda left me to go see Lily and James spotted me. When he saw me he smiled so brightly. A smile I would give anything in the world to be seen by me only.

In that moment I realised the sings I was giving. I have a crush on James Potter. This is definitely going to end in a disaster.

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 12th 1977

Dear diary,

Since realising I have a crush on James Potter my mind hasn't let me think about anything else at all. It's driving me crazy

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 14th 1977

Dear diary,

St Valentines. The day of love. When will it be my turn to feel that type of love. Every couple celebrates their love and they organise surprises for significant other. It's sweet but sometimes its annoying.

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 18th 1977

Dear diary,

Well me and James haven't been scheduling more tutoring session so that does give me an excuse to avoid him untill these feelings fade away.

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 25th 1977

Dear diary,

What a tiring week. So much homework. So many subjects. So many lessons to attend. Tomorrow is our last Quidditch match for the season. Griffidoor versus Slytherin it's going to be fun. I will also have no excuse to avoid seeing James's face.

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

February 28th 1977

Dear diary,

Well. They won the match and the Quidditch Cup. I am upset about it because all of our efforts and training went down the drain. I hoped we would win. But there is two years left to have the cup. One if I want to beat Potter.

Nonetheless I did attend the party in the Gryffindor common room. After all, Gryffindors are known for throwing the best parties at Hogwarts. And not for bad reason. So there I was, in the party 3 cups of fire whiskey in and 2 cups of rose lemonade. I was staying in a corner taking in the atmosphere.

Barty and Evan were singing Karaoke, singing their hearts out. Sirius and Remus were dancing. Remus looked like he was going to die of embarrassment while Sirius was having the time of his life. Peter came next to me and we got to chatting since the silence was a bit awkward. Turns out he's great to chat with. Intelligent and funny. Spontaneous and chaotic. We talked about the match, the party school. Then he left finding his girlfriend Emmeline.

James approached me then and we talked. Just a short conversation. The pleasantries, a little about the match and then before he had to leave he gave an envelope. After he left I opened it and it said:

Meet me tomorrow in the Room of Requirements, at 4'o clock.

J. F. P

Goodbye for now

R. A. B

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So this chapter features angst, starchaser, rose killer, Pandora and a cliffhanger. (Teehe)

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