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speakviolence · 1 year ago

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the way the far cry fandom either characterizes faith seed as a complete, helpless victim or a gone girl wannabe who's actually been an evil queen her whole life because teehee feminism = one dimensional girlboss~~ makes me want to scream and rip my hair out

#faith seed #far cry 5 #far cry #the latter is far more annoying #i feel the point of the game and what each seed sibling represents went right over some of ya'lls fucking heads #how can you sit there and strip away all nauce her character has while writing meta essays on the very same nauce for the seed brothers???#it's very telling i'll say that much lol

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dont-open-dead-inside-25 · 8 months ago

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*voice of boy who just experienced romantic/sexual attraction for the first time* did you guys see that. that was insane. wdym you live like this

#um?????#i've had “crushes” before but that was just guessing #it wasn't until *checks calendar* two days ago that i discovered what y'all are talking about #that was legit insane #also very proud of my initiative. underneath it all i'm quite bold. got his number (re: asked him if he wanted my number which is much more #fun. also he later told me that it made him blush which is cute) and he danced with me.#and it was such a vibe???#like. i've been flirted with before #specifically a guy asked to dance with me (we were at a dance) and like. i did but it was really not it. i'm very enthusiastic when dancing #and there to have as much fun as i can and he was doing that awkward shuffle step thing and i could tell he wasn't really into dancing and #it felt he was bringing me down. dampening the vibe.#but with this guy we were vibing like crazy. he liked dancing! there was energy! he twirled me! it was insane you guys #also he has the cutest little southern accent #i didn't notice at first but my friend pointed it out to me and y'all it's adorable #got his spotify and we like a lot of the same music too #unfortunately he lives 2-3 states over (depending how you count)#we've been texting though #i met him at my competition so if we both win again i'll see him next year lol #finn says shit

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bonetrousledbones · 3 days ago

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ok so. i was cleaning out my pictures folder today. and i happened to come across a sketch from 2021 that may or may not be related to the same concept as this. but like a. darker, edgier version. if you catch my drift.

but the thing is i do NOT see myself finishing it, seeing as it's already been nearly 4 years since i sketched it out and i'm still fighting the burnout demons from hell and all that. but it IS very silly to me and frankly very good timing for me to have found this sketch right now

so basically what i'm wondering is would any of y'all be interested in like a dtiys / open collab type of thing with underfell papyrus as shadow the hedgehog

here's a hint of the sketch if it helps

i've admittedly already tweaked it a good bit & i'd probably clean it up a lil more just for clarity if i actually go through with this but for now i just wanna see if i can rope anyone else into being insane with me. its actually pretty fun messing with the design & proportions to try and fit the silhouette of a very cartoonish hedgehog and i'd love to see other ppl's takes on it

#trousled rambles #if u guys would be interested in this pls pls let me know!!!!!!#it seems like fun to me but if i dont get a lotta responses i'll prob just post the sketch on its own anyway bc it's still a funny concept #but it could be a whole lot more fun if i can get other ppl to join in >:3 #i'd have it as both an open collab and a dtiys thing so u can choose between just finishing the sketch or doing your own take altogether #either one would be awesome to see methinks!!!!!!#btw u can definitely tell it's been 4 yrs bc ohhh god this is so very much not my sketching process anymore #abandoning lineart has made my sketches wayyy cleaner lol. like for reference that last one i just posted was barely cleaned up at all #plus the light purple default textureless circle sai brush feels soo weird to draw with again. thats not who i am anymore...............#i will not be redrawing this tho. that is probably not conducive to treat burnout if i had to guess #(<-- the artist says 2 days after drawing & fully coloring a fullbody sketch with no warmup bc they wanted to draw a skeleton in pajamas)#i really do just have full conversations with myself in these tags to stall hitten the post button huh. ok posting now u get it lmao

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naivety · 5 months ago

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okay i need feedback from the autism mentall illness website um. this is going to read like an AITA post. brother vs half-sister (who are currently my dependents do to their own individual disabilities + ptsd/depression) spat i will skim the details on but i'm worried my sister will discount my take since i'm not autistic myself so. am i crazy to call it ableist to look at an autistic person (23) who is clearly going through it dealing w long term depression, a world that doesn't give a shit abt him, unemployment, very self-isolated and burnt out barely leaving his room because the world is an ableist dumpster fire with zero opportunities for him, and then bring up childhood abuse he's suffered and his diagnosis as reasonable factors on top of this to worry he'll [checks notes] abuse my cat just to hurt me or even worse have a breakdown and kill me and his other sibling in a violent episode, a train of thought i probably wouldn't even be having were he not [checks notes] mad at me for the first time in my life?

like i don't have any other read on this kind of fear-based characterization other than ableism. like those are very real things in his life but she never points out any current violent behavior, of which there are none, only the one (1) instance of him lashing out when he was like 14 and Officially Diagnosed Low Empathy she thinks is a concern and Hateful Looks toward her since he stopped getting along with her, that's it. i tried explaining to her why i, someone who's lived w him his entire life, can vouch for how unlikely he is to do anything like that, especially when it's again not based on anything he's actually currently doing except for isolating in a way that is much more indicative of him potentially being a danger to himself than anyone else, and being cold towards her specifically, and i thought she had let it go, but when i brought it up off-hand in a conversation tangentially related, she continued to defend and justify her Concern about the potential directions his behavior could lead to because [checks notes] other people in similar situations have lashed out and killed their entire families according to. true crime books or videos she's watched on youtube as far as i'm aware. ignoring the fact that her and i have had the same or Worse childhood abuse and have acted similarly isolated in the past, or for her literally just as currently as him, and she's not expressed any worry past or present about either of us doing anything like that, in my opinion obviously because i haven't cut her off due to our differences like he decided to. like am i big sibling biased because this is pissing me off so bad.

#j.txt #autism #ableism #very sorry to hang all my dirty laundry like this but she is absolutely the type of person to not take accusations of ableism seriously #due to being disabled/traumatized herself and i. feel like she thinks just because she's fixated on and consumed so much about like #mental disorders and illness and whatever she thinks she's an expert on it #enough to like. non-gendered equivalent mansplain peoples' own traumas and disorders to them lol which she has done to me as well #my brother actually last i checked felt like his diagnosis wasn't even accurate #but to me knowing our mom was v ableist antivax about her understanding of autism and a very neurotypical definition of it #it makes sense if the criterias or definitions don't feel accurate to him #idk. IDK #um. if this gets no engagement i'll delete it rather quick probably i just #don't wanna talk out of my ass when i'm not even autistic yk #i'm very aware i can be biased about him vs her because i actually grew up w him and he's younger than us but like #i havent heard him use her own diagnosis and childhood trauma and ugly moments in this way to justify his bad faith characterizations of he #so it's very much. just something she's doing. if my brother started doin it too i'd have the same conversation but he hasn't which i think #is u.m Telling <3 #like She's the one actually complaining about how he assumes the worst of her in everything she does now and it makes her feel awful #meanwhile she. probably doesn't say any of this to Him but boy has she talked about it with me!#if it's not obvious we are all very mentally ill trapped in a house 2gether trying to save up to move so we can get away from each other lo

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running-in-the-dark · 5 months ago

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random thought I had while cleaning/tidying up: I think maybe I tend to get very frustrated and feel like I haven't accomplished anything while doing this because I can't remember what the room(s) actually looked like before. I have aphantasia, I don't have visual memory basically, so while I'm vaguely aware that it was worse before, that doesn't really mean anything? like, I see that there's still things lying around or whatever, and it feels like nothing has changed at all. when that's objectively not true.

maybe I should start taking pictures before I get started, that might help.

#often I'll be really upset after working on something like this for several hours #and I'll say that to my husband. and he's like what?! no it's MUCH better than before!#but I really can't tell #lol #well I hope I'll finally be done unpacking/moving/tidying the last things from the move soon... it's really not much that's left but it's #all stuff that I'm finding difficult so it's taking forever lol #maybe it's a good thing that I just realised this at least. because it does get very discouraging when I always feel like nothing gets #better no matter how much I do #personal

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peridots-pixiwolf · 1 year ago

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sketches from @mipexch 's whiteboard a couple days ago!!

also feat. a very small reference to @onlineviolence :]

#peridots-art #bugs #bots #ultrakill #gabriel ultrakill #swordsmachine ultrakill #bugzapper ultrakill #minos prime ultrakill #v2 ultrakill #plus the rest of the fumos but those weren't done by me. someone was drawing v1 so i put a v2 beside them and came back later to like 5 mor #hence why they are out of frame. anyway this was a LOT of fun I lost track of time and stayed up till dawn even #there were so many cool and/or recognized artists.... i keep checking the ultrakill tag to see if anyone else posts their own sketches #it was posted at like 2am my time though so i didn't get to stay very long.... i checked in today on the fumo drawings and there was #just so much new art over there and in general. so many people doodling and having fun and complimenting each other and bonding over #the things we all like. im gonna cry #anyway. i think this is the longest period of non-posting (not inactivity. lol) on tumblr i've ever had #so might've forgot some tags. also i think i'll use alt text for multiple images and regular id for 1-2 #edit also i wrote 'today' in the tags up there but it was in fact two days ago. regardless #ALSO. sorry if the alt text is hard to read or anything. never used it before + penchant for lengthy descriptions #can you tell i'm really proud of the beetle gabe btw. men will see a character say 'anyone gonna buggify that?' and not wait for an answer #WAIT i've already made that joke haven't i. whatever turn your blorbo into an insect or some sort of gay bug today #peridots-described

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sysig · 3 months ago

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The brainworms are winning, clearly (Patreon)

#Doodles #Osmosis Jones #Ozzy #Drix #Thrax #As if it wasn't bad enough when it was just Doran oh no - I knew I'd want a separate tag for this in earnest at some point ahhhh #Damned #Alright sure lol good enough - I'll go back and edit the tag in a bit #I just can't help it wahh the Institute is such a fun and interesting setting it scratches my brain in Such a way #It's been really fun poking around to see who's there but there are some who I'm like ''Why wasn't [x] there? :0''#Some make sense lol like characters that didn't exist/come into the cultural vogue until after the game started or ended #Totally understand that - and it's still really fun to speculate how they'd react! Very enjoyable!#But others - like the above - I'm just like But they existed before the game and are such fun characters! Why!#Neverminding that Osmosis Jones was yet another box office flop in an impressive lineup of likewise siblings oof lol #It'd be such a good movie......if only (lol) Like I love it! But yeah it's still pretty rough haha #Gosh if the animated sections aren't beautiful tho hh <3 #The show's even rougher - like why choose a nearly PG-13 movie to turn into a Y-10 (at the Most) cartoon? The tone shift is so jarring lol #So yeah! Why weren't these characters a more popular draw five years later! That's practically still pop culture! Lolol #No I'm well aware I'm probably The entire pool of people interested in this crossover but hey - I offer >:3c #Obviously I had to have Ozzy judging me for subjecting him to the Institute - this is what you get for being a fave Oz <3 #Thrax is All over him (a criminal) and Ozzy (a cop) being equalized in the same prison uniform lol - I mean yes but actually no #It's an escape game of course he wants out #I have way too much fun making ''real person'' profiles wagh I've already made a bunch of backstory stuff helpppp #The names are pulled around from the various voice actors/real names based on character names which was Quite fun #And of course Oz had to get punched :) That meme's not completely dead yet is it lol #But really it was just fun posing ahhh I'm really rather pleased with it <3 Excited to scene-stitch that one together too #Drix fussing over Oz is my favourite ahhhh yesss <3 <3 #Can you tell that hunched-over Thrax was my first pass? Here's a hint - he doesn't have a burned finger there!#I wrote up his profile after that one and forgot to add it afterwards haha but yeah! Just barely touched on in-fic so far lol #And then him in his proper clothes.... Look all I'm saying is that I was uniquely primed in my media diet to enjoy Vargas lol

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seaofreverie · 1 month ago

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We should normalize bringing these sort of "small talk ideas" cards to meetings with other people so that it's possible to avoid the awkwardness of not knowing what to talk about to kick things off or if it's considered normal to talk about this specific thing and AUGHGHFCG all this stuff.

#i don't know what these cards are actually called. but what i mean by this is that well. ok let me tell you the whole story #which is that in my attempts to become more normal and functional i started attending these 'social skills exercise' group meetings #and at our first meeting instead of subjecting us to the awkwardness of introducing ourselves one by one #the group moderator prepared these cards with questions that we would take and answer in turns #and then invite all the others to contribute a bit as well. and that part was also not as scary as i feared it would be #some of the questions were kind of not very good interesting questions but still it didn't matter that much #because i am once again being proven that as long as the conversation is about something specific #it's really not that much of a problem for me to contribute like how when i had these zoom meetings with people #that discussed my interships back in my two final semesters of uni of course at first i was super stressed. BUT once the meeting started #and it came to the actual talking? it was no problem at all suddenly like wow sometimes i actually can talk to people #but yeah the 'what do i talk about' is the problem. and another realization i had here is that i'n in fact naturally predisposed to rambling #because i rambled a lot during this meeting i feel like and i think i'm already starting to vibe with one girl from my group in particular #yet my biggest problem most of the time is not saying anything at all in most situations. because of. the masking #it's literally such a big thing to overcome i've been having such huge realizations about this. but yeah anyway #i already had the opportunity to mention sparks lol. bcs one question was to tell the others about a movie #that left a huge impact on you and well why would i lie about this and not talk about TSB and my tendency to become obsessed with old bands #another observation is that when you put 4 socially awkward people in one room the result will be that it will feel very akward #to no suprise of course. but also there is something relieving about not being THE ONLY awkward one in a group you know #but well yeah all in all. man the mysteries of human communication. maybe i'll get it all one day #goosepost

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britneyshakespeare · 9 months ago

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Man is saying weird things to me again

#help mom he's oversharing about drinking scotch every evening #that's very on brand for Man #tales from diana #i literally did Nothing to reach out to him i don't know what he wants #i was just thinking in the shower literally not even half an hour ago about how you know it's strange #he used to always have this way of talking to me like he was trying to impress me which is just kinda silly honestly #like i was a 20-21-year-old in awe of him and he was a retired male model eight years older than me w more life experience #and some rather exotic and interesting experiences at that #i think he somewhat envies that i seem (at least to him) like a self-possessed 'intellectual'#thats how he talks to me at least. it's funny tho #not that im not. like. smart. i think the both of us know i'm better-read than he'll be in 3 lifetimes #and i'm not quite self-possessed but i certainly don't have the open-wounded insecurity he does #while also being rather more confident than most ppl in some areas (and it's not ALL unearned)#he's got much more ambition than i do though. more ambition than i'll have in 10 lifetimes #and he seems to do everything with a motivation of external validation and approval.#so i think he has a chip on his shoulder. poor little Man #the two of us could not be more opposite. but i don't really strive to be like him in the ways he strives to be like me #he chases this dream of what he thinks the perfect man is and it's quite inhuman so of course he falls short.#i on the other hand am if anything much TOO accepting of my own faults and shortcomings. ahem #these are all things i will never say to Man. he's too silly to hear it #besides. im rather sure he likes me (? in some way) and i am these days just very ambivalent to him #i can't NOT say i find him attractive bc i do but he's just. sooooo not the one lol #he's a fascinating creature all flaws aside but i never find myself studying him at my own volition #Man just comes outta the woods sometimes to tell me about his travels or women or whiskey. he's odd #he's very eccentric but between the two of us i think i'm the better eccentric. no wonder he visits me sometimes #but he brings gifts and prayers like he's coming to a devotional shrine or something. i'm like sir this is not a temple #he'll never be normal but he is so strange in the ways i'm too good for. if i do say so myself #(and that's saying something bc i'm not too good for ANYTHING)

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bmpmp3 · 6 months ago

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the really beautiful landscape/skyscape animation in makoto shinkai's works tends to be the big thing i see focused on and that is understandable and deserved like the weather and lighting effects are unREAL but i do think we should also appreciate how absolute insane the plotlines of his original movies get. at least two movies with in universe catastrophes with major ecological implications. the guns and explosions. theres that one movie i havent seen yet with the guy who turns into a chair (?)

#just watched weathering with you. it was really good. REALLY good #i remember when it came out people were saying it was better than your name. but now it seems the general opinion switched?#your name changed my brain chemistry and outlook on life. i think weathering with you may do the same #so to me i think they're like on pare with eachother. i dont know if i can choose which is my fav now LOL #they are sisters to me..... sisters to me...... quick review below watch out for spoilers #i dont think i'll be too detailed but i do also just recommend watching it its a great movie #I DID like the soundtrack in your name a BIT better like the score had a few more hooks for me and i loved all the insert songs #while in wwy i liked the last three inserts but the first couple didnt really grab me. but its all radwimps so its all good LOL #the side characters in wwy were so good tho like i loved all the cast so much #of course i adored the main characters of your name and wwy both. but the side cast in wwy ruled i think i'll remember them for a long time #the taki jumpscare was also great. my boy was here. my boy was here. just for a minute #i also adored how unhinged the main character of wwy was. hodaka was like. a bit unwell? HJKDJHKFD i thought it was great #weird and quiet but desperately a bit violent in a way that i think was very relatable #i also loved the like. message? sorry that sounds sappy but i liked that like the story was kind of like #coming to hina who is working so hard and forced by herself and circumstance to grow up so early and sacrifice so much #and grabbing her by the shoulders and telling her YOU CAN LIVE!!! YOU CAN HAVE FUN!!! ITS OKAY!!!!!!#i think it was so sweet and such a strong sentiment. wonderful movie. also there was guns and i was so scared #i think that might actually by why i love how high stakes the plots get in these movies like the character design and personalities are so #real and down to earth so when you go to the beautiful planetary skyscapes and also the exploding vehicals you get like so in awe or scared #it does also make me laugh tho now thinking about the your name nendos. you can just barely make nendos of them. you cannot make a nendo of #hodaka. hina maybe. but not hodaka. he is. some guy. the most some guy. visually at least. mentally hes got. something happening <3 #loved him so much. hes normal. hes normal. oh they did make some popup parades thats cute #altho it is a bit funny looking. that is just like two normal teenagers JHKLDSHKFDLSafdjksd #anyway next up i'll probably watch the chair movie. ive heard a couple songs from it and they were pretty good so im excited #it also makes me realize i need to watch more of his back catalogue other than 5cm.... he has way more movies than i remembered #i hope someday he gets to make the yuri movie he wanted to. it would be unreal. huge beautiful skys. ecological disasters. girls kissing #oh i hope he gets to do it one day..... one day.....#EDIT: WAIT THEY DID MAKE A NENDO OF HODAKA AND HINA.... LIKE FULL NENDOS NOT EVEN PETITE.....#HODAKA REALLY DOES JUST LOOK LIKE SOME DUDE.... AWESOME

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tardis--dreams · 9 months ago

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Some of those doctors make hating oat milk their entire personality. I hate them. Cannot pretend to find them funny or like i give a shit. Fucking pretentious assholes