#it was fucking sickening
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Had an awful fucking nightmare and nothing I do is helping long term. It's just short bursts of forgetting until the images flash in my head again
#mud rambles#it was fucking sickening#and involving a person I care about too so I just. ugh. it sucks so bad#I've gotten good at handling nightmares/intrusive thoughts that involve me harming others (on days that arent extra horrible anyway)#but I still really struggle with intrusive thoughts/nightmares of my friends and other loved ones committing harm#it makes me feel extra awful that my mind is projecting that onto someone I love#Like I woke up partially frozen and fucking shaking. it was fucking awful#I had to have my fiance hold me cause I thought I was gonna have a heart attack#nightmares are worse too because they're vivid. intrusive thoughts at least are usually just flashes#I really thought I was experiencing that happening and I'm still. I've been up for hours at this point but if I let myself dwell I get sick#i think what makes it the hardest im not gonna lie is that it started out REALLY good#like one of those dreams i specifically go back to sleep for and start going lucid to keep it going#but then it took a hard right turn into nightmare territory and I was trapped in it for a good bit until#my heart literally started beating so hard it woke me up
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#i saw that video and your head doesn't remain straight after it#there's fckng evidence of extremest of the extreme crimes being done by Israel and enable by the US#and people still choose to remain willfully blind#there are exactly ZERO reasons to support Israel ever#all you who pretend to care for human rights and feminism and democracy and freedom and whatever the fuck else but pretend to be confused#about this#fck off#sickening sickening stuff#Israel#israhell#death to israel#palestine#free palestine#gaza#free gaza#gaza strip#west bank#rafah
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mourning black and the death of ideals
#i haven't moved on from this yet. btw. i'm still here#finally decided to draw the thought i've been ruminating over for days on end bc it's like a parasite eating away my brain#stated this on the initial post i made days ago but there's just smt so gut wrenching and sickening#about how dazai will have worn black exactly twice in his life: once as a member of the mafia and now at kunikida's funeral#a color that initially signified devotion to the mafia and his demon prodigy alias now signifies his grief#him having to wear black again at the funeral of another doomed fatalist who chose his heart over his survival. his own partner.#kunikida's death being so reminiscent of the tragedy that initially caused him to defect and flee#and everything tying together full circle and effectively breaking him#asagiri rly said fuck knkdz it's doppover we lost gang 😭😭😭#why did bro leave that fucking notebook behind#fool. do you know that angst potential you have left me to work with?#love never won in bsd. it lay dead and festering#i don't know how much longer i can keep saying i miss them. i'm going to kill myself if he doesn't come back#i've never wanted something to be death bait so desperately#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#bsd#dazai osamu#osamu dazai#kunikidazai#knkdz#kunizai#(??? technically. its implied anyway)#lotus draws
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*clears throat*
Trans women do not have it easier.
Trans women are not just a fetish.
Trans women can be asexual.
Trans women are not ‘begging for attention’.
Trans women are not ‘asking for it’.
Trans women are just as equal as trans men.
Trans women are just as equal as cis women.
Trans women are just as equal as literally anybody.
Trans women deserve respect.
Trans women deserve rights.
Trans women deserve to feel safe.
Trans women are women. If you cannot wrap your head around that; get off my fucking blog.
#i myself am a trans man#and it’s fucking sickening the attitude i see towards trans women#yet i haven’t gotten even an ounce of that disrespect myself#it’s fucking disgusting#it’s fucking vile#and it’s not fucking okay#trans women are women#that is final#trans#transgender#trans feminine#trans woman#trans girl#trans rights
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Just gonna have to wait and see, right? Just wait and see! Just gotta wait and see! Who knows, we'll just have to wait and see! It's anybody's guess, we'll just have to wait and see! The future is exciting, we just gotta wait and see!
#personal#my art#Fuck your fake ass 'i am very smart!' intellectualizing “observations” and open your god damn ears.#do something for fucks sake. it's sickening seeing videos of ai crap and seeing rows and rows of repliers using their one brain synapse#to type “wow! very exciting!” “haha this is kind of scary! but in a really interesting way!”#and then they go about their day without a second thought while creative industries burn around them#i go to one of america's top tech schools too and it's enough to make you wanna tear our your hair#every day it's seminars and talks about “the potential consequences of ai!” when the consequences are happening NOW#NO MORE DISCUSSING NO MORE INTELLECTUALIZING NO MORE SOCRATIC SEMINARS NO MORE DEBATING. ACT YOU COWARDS#people are getting hurt RIGHT NOW. stop pretending to care when you clearly don't! just be honest and say you wanna make money#my time here has really made me hate academic spaces. you people are so god damn useless and cowardly.
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The more I’m hearing about the situation in Gaza, the more disgusted and disturbed I am by the sheer, shameless inhumanity Israel displays daily.
Some few out of many, many, many, many exemples of what Israel did so far:
Dumped gallons of salt over water supplies so Palestinian people cannot safely drink from it
Israeli soldiers filmed themselves torturing a disabled man, stealing belongings of deceased and captive Palestinians, mocking and sexually assaulting Palestinian women, and many more
Bombed an entire hospital full of babies. Babies.
Murdered Hadiya Nassar, a Palestinian woman older than their joke of a state, by sniping her off a roof, simply because she stated a fact.
Threw a woman off a 5 story building just because
Kept the dead bodies of Palestinian prisoners on ice so they could serve their full sentences. Even AFTER they died. Some remains kept for up to 40 years. So they wouldn’t return these people to their families
Produced “Dead Palestinian Baby” dolls as a children’s toy. The toy comes with small bags for “limbs”
We must keep in mind that while genocide is entirely a product of politics, and a form of systematic oppression, we are truly witnesses to hatred. THIS is what hatred is, and this is what it does. When someone asks you how hatred looks like, tell them it looks like Israel.
#this is absolutely fucking sickening and don’t you ever forget#thar regular. normal people tried to do more for Palestine#while the wealthy and the privileged sat and watched and did what they always will: nothing#palestine#free palestine#free gaza#gaza strip#fuck israel#text
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Eyooo whaddup comradess, it's ya boi skinny penis! Back with a new iPad and worse than ever!! ∠( ᐛ 」∠)_
Didn't think simply telling you guys I was back was good enough, so i spent like 3-4 days on this as a surprise! Hope ya like it!😉��
#i PHYSICALLY cannot draw anything in a simple way#for some reason it HAS to be this fucking detailed everytime#it looks sickening and i love it but goddamn#longest 13 seconds ever#symas#mk1#tomas vrbada#smoke mk1#syzoth mk1#syzoth#mortal kombat#mortal kombat 1#Animatic#my questionable creations
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has this been done yet
#sorry I’m late to the party#so many parallels today yalls minds work fast#but this one came to me#like. fuck#wad was so important dan had such a good time ik it#but something something about how he gets to do it all with phil by his side this time#and they’re having so much fun#soooooo much fun#the pumpkin pillow. he’s so cute ik they’re loving this tour bus it looks so nice and comfy#sickening bfs in love#🌊⬅️🚶♀️#dnp#dan and phil#phan#wad#tit tour
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watching an entire group of people infantilize buck and demonize a gay male character is honestly so frustrating to watch because this is a grown ass man in his 30s and his entire relationship with taylor was incredibly sexual in nature, especially at the start, yet no one was called predatory or creepy or overly sexual but tommy makes an innocuous comment about his boyfriend being attractive and suddenly pearls are being clutched
the willful misunderstanding taking place is vile and horrifying because people are doing mental gymnastics just to try to prove that this character is some great villain while spouting so much conservative right wing rhetoric that you'd fit right in at any sunday potluck in texas
do better, or at the very least shut the hell up
#911 discourse#this is truly sickening#I hate that so many queer people#and especially gay men#are having to see all of this happen#if you support any of these awful takes then get the fuck away from me please#unfollow block and don't look back
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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i've never been more gagged in my entire fucking life
#lewis pullman#< pls dont go in that tag lew#lewis pullman gifs#rhett abbott#ITS SO FUCKING SICKENING#HOW#WHY#WHEN#IM NEVER#LIKE WHOOOO DOES THIS CLOWN ASS FUCKER THINK HE IS?!#BACKWARDS CAP!??!? LEWIS JAMES!!!!#i'll never recover#never be the same#the flex the greying beard the wink the smiles the FGUCKLKDLKLD#lp*#my gifs
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As a follow-up from my last news update on Love In The Big City: the South Korean conservative haters are now LITERALLY PROTESTING BL IN THE STREETS. PROTESTING BL.
(Source)
#FUCKING INSANE#THEY’RE PROTESTING THE LITERAL AIRING OF QUEER MEDIA#love in the big city#i really need to contemplate atheism#i never ever wanna be associated with zealots#this is sickening
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oh. my. god.
pic: henr1ette.prv on tiktok
#lucy bronze#ona batlle#I am not normal about them#fuck me they are so in love#absolutely sickening these two
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Louis is allowed to throw hands at fans/media
Niall is allowed to throw hands at fans/media
Harry is allowed to throw hands at fans/media
Zayn is allowed to throw hands at fans/media
And they better leave Liam's family well the fuck alone.
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☀️ IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!! 🌙
This is my gift to myself :) I drew my favorite guys ever.
For a while I've been itching to draw the wedding outfits from this post again. I made them up on the fly as I was drawing, but I actually really like how they ended up turning out. They're super cute!! (though, yet again, you can't see almost any part of Dedede's outfit... 💔)
But then I couldn't get it out of my head to make a companion piece for it, with their mirror versions. And so. I did. What they have going on is a little bit messy, though...
Marriage or divorce!! Take your pick.
#kirby#kirby series#meta knight#king dedede#metadede#dark meta knight#shadow dedede#mirror metadede#i do like mirror mtdd. like a lot. but poor planning ahead with hcs and ocs caused them to end up. kind of doomed in my thing lol#maybe i'll go in depth about it one day. as much as i can anyway. i haven't fully figured it out myself#my art#couple details:#mk's tooth gaps are probably one of my favorite parts of his drawing. they're just so cute i'm so glad i knocked his teeth out#while mtdd is on Non Descript Happy Place mirror mtdd is specifically in the dimension mirror level from katam and ktd#just slightly. sparklier and shinier. because that's just how i do things. and without the buildings#i did try to add them but it made everything busier than it already was#mirror mtdd's faces are obscured on purpose but if you look closely you can catch a peek of dmk's expression through his veil#which! it's meant to be kind of like a widow's veil.. symbolism and what not#i couldn't think of what the opposite of a star was so i did hearts (for the plating. cheeks. and pauldrons)#i fucked up the rings.. because i got my lefts and rights confused..#but i kept it Anyway because it looked cool. i'm sorry though it's so annoying once you notice#i still have the flats and a better look at ddd's outfit (and a Little of sddd's face)#so maybe i'll post that later#i think that's about it#i'm 20 today :) sigh. the passage of time#god the way this has been crunched sickens me. don't look closer actually
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I really do appreciate when a trans man decides to be an absolutely horrible misogynist cause it makes it so much easy to then point out their transmisogyny.
Anyways, just wanted to document some things about a trans man who is absolutely losing his shit and attacking trans women over it.
Anyways, it started with this absolutely out of pocket reply to a pretty tame post by a trans woman.
Really aggressive out of fucking nowhere. Then pivoting directly into massive levels of misogyny. At the same time, because she used the word tboy to describe him tangentially he tries to act like she's infantalizing him and also downplaying his experiences. He then proceeds to infantalize her and downplay her experiences.
Every accusation is a fucking confession with this dude apparently. Of importance to note he also played the classic "add white to make it seem less transmisogynistic" line despite being white himself. Then also uses AAVE specifically while being mad and wanting to come off as aggressive. Could be nothing, maybe he always talks like that.
Finally he tops it off with some more, incredibly vicious misogyny when called on his behaviors.
#fucking horror show of a person#trans men are men and this kind of misogyny is sickening#transmisogyny
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