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i think the 'just run away into the woods' critique of anti-civ anarchists boils down to not recognizing them as anarchists – they can't just go off into the woods for the same reason anarchist syndicalists don't just join a workers' co-op, communists don't just join a commune. it is not simply a statement of personal preference but a vision of a world transformed. like most anarchists they dont necessarily start from a systematic blueprint of that world, but that world-transformative vision is what carries many of them along same as anybody. the ones who arent motivated by that shirk popular movements and definitionally do not see the world becoming more in line with their values. but thats harder to argue with, & so anti-civ anarchists must 1) compose a coherent group with a singular understanding of the world, 2) be so uncaring of others that the most sensible thing to do would be abandon everyone while simultaneously be ruthlessly committed to ripping vaccines our of people's hands. a thought killing cliche (tho i appreciate OP recognizes it as unfair).
the capitalist-colonialist world system requires massive resource expenditure specifically to prevent people from opting out – where are all these places a 200 – 600 person band society could maintain a living culture with the land, free from land tax and policing and large scale resource extraction for the benefit of corporations? plenty of indigenous cultures have tried, are trying, to live outside of industrial society, and they get murdered for it. which is one of the reasons why the vast majority of active anti-civ anarchists ive met have been involved in anti-colonial & landback movement.
i hate the way these cheap dunks that keep so many discussions of things like eco-fascism on cheap targets instead of facing up to the reality of fascist responses to climate collapse. the anti-civs can't just run off into the woods for the same reason none of us can live the life we want. the relentless surveillance state backed by the ever growing & more cruel prison system the ever more militarized police the ever more violent & cruel border system the ruthless dispossession & mass murder of indigenous peoples & other vulnerable communities the immensely destructive mass extraction of resources from fragile ecosystems making vaste swathes of land uninhabitable, on & on & on. the mass death is already here, & it's not zerzan reading crust punks responsible for it.
Funny thing about that anti civ person is that like. They could just do what folks that live off the grid do, but more extreme. If you hate civilization you’re…allowed to live somewhere else. Hell since they’re so convinced in their own definition of civilization they have even more options! (Though they’ll probably be disappointed to find out first hand their definition was wrong)
I mean in a way I understand. If you truly believe that civilization is the worst thing to happen to humanity and you want the best for humanity, you will even use the tools of civilization to persuade other people to your ideas.
The thing of course is that I don't believe on that and it's so incredibly easy to point out that computers are made by, well, civilization.
I also think that to say "well go live in the woods then" is a bit rude but... honestly, if the anti-civ way of life is more rewarding, we would see more people trying to do it right? We would see people in third-world countries protesting against schools, hospitals, universities, transportation, etc. instead of wanting those, right? But instead you will find, surprisingly, that people want a better life for themselves and those who they love. And this isn't opposed to enviromental stewardship and protection, as it's often the same people who live in those places who also want enviromental protection.
It's often through organized systems, civilization, that people achieve human rights, a good life, and indeed, are able to organize how to protect nature.
It's just completely disconnected from the aspirations of most people.
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I have a perhaps personal ask, and at the same time struggling with how to phrase it. I've been looking into making an interactive story myself, however, I... cannot code. For the life of me. I can tell one hell of a story, but coding it beyond my grasp, and the system I currently use, while it ought to be simple enough even someone like me could do so, isn't exactly working for how I want it to. Do you perhaps know anything anywhere that I might start looking for someone who would be willing to work with me? I am so sorry if this is a bothersome ask.
Hi anon!
I'm probably not the best person for advice on this, because I've never been in that situation before. I've put some thoughts under the cut, with the caveat that only a small portion of them actually address the question you've asked, with the majority being related but perhaps not helpful for you, depending.
So, I think where you'd go to find a coding person depends on what language you're using. If it's ChoiceScript, probably the forums. If it's Twine... I honestly don't know. Maybe the subreddit, though you'll want to double-check that such requests are not against the rules there.
I sincerely doubt you'll have an easy time finding someone, though. Most folks who code in the systems used for IF are IF authors who taught themselves the coding techniques in order to tell their own stories, not someone else's.
That said, and this is the part you can ignore, because you know yourself better than I do, but... I'm pretty sure you can learn to code. It's not easy, necessarily, and it doesn't come intuitively to everyone, but there are resources out there to help you. Again, this will depend on what system you're using, but the CS forums are very useful for figuring out CS (as is the wiki, once you know enough to parse it). For Twine, there are loads of archived posts on their forums and on the subreddit for specific questions, but for general ones, the documentation for your preferred program (e.g. SugarCube), the Twine Cookbook, and similar resources will break things down into smaller, more digestible chunks. I personally recommend the Twine Grimoire (volumes 1 and 2), for basic interface aesthetics, once you get to that point.
Here on tumblr, @/nyhelism, @/cerberus-writes, @/manonamora-if, @/idrellegames, and others have all answered questions about Twine coding or even in some cases made templates that take a lot of the work out of it. Most have a masterpost regarding things they've answered about Twine or made for others' use, but be sure to check that they're currently accepting coding questions before sending them any, of course.
Learning to code may be slow and incremental, and lots of people manage better if they start with a small project just to learn how to do the basic things in their language of choice. I'd really recommend figuring out what you need your game to be able to do, and learning those functions one by one—it's less overwhelming than trying to tackle everything at once while also writing a huge project.
If all else fails, my most esoteric suggestion is to familiarize yourself with the basic principles of symbolic logic. I took a class in it as part of my degree, and have since also taught that class, and I think understanding things like the logic of conditionals (if statements) as they're used in coding (rather than natural language) really gave me a leg up in learning to code. Not that I'm an expert, but I know enough to make a basic game, at least.
Most (all?) of these things should be findable with a google search; I know there are at least some Twine tutorials on youtube as well, though I'm unsure of CS or any of the languages I'm less familiar with, like Ink, etc.
I do apologize that the section where I encourage you to do the thing you don't think you can do is longer than the one where I answered your actual question, but that's the part I might actually have something useful to say about. If you're absolutely certain you can't do it, I'm sorry for banging on about it, but if you're not sure or on the fence, maybe give it another go before trying to find another person. I've seen a lot of writers looking for coders in the past, but maybe only once was a coder offering their services to writers (and that was a long time ago).
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Past Lives pt.3
Wednesday x witch!reader
"I've got this strangest feeling."
"This isn't our first time around."
Summary: Wednesday drags you into the woods during the harvest festival.
a/n: I'm starting to get tired of writing in 3rd person so I'm going to be experimenting with perspectives this part. If I enjoy it I might go back and change the previous two parts to first person.
"Are you sure you can trust that normie?"
Enid and I are watching as Tyler is arguing with his father. Y/n left after the appearance of Tyler.
A part of me wished she stayed, she doesn't pretend to get along with me.
"I trust I can handle myself."
The festival illuminates the dark night, the lights of the attractions drawing shadows of the people walking by. The colors stabbing needles in my eyes.
I usually enjoy that sensation.
"Well, good luck and safe travels." Enid reaches out for an embrace. I take a step back, evading her touch.
"Still not a hugger, got it." Enid lowers her arms before heading towards the attractions.
I notice Weems from afar, watching my every move. I am going to need a way to distract her.
After a moment of exploring I find an attraction where you throw darts at balloons attached to a wall, the prize lacks colors. Not that I want the prize anyways I just need it to be believable.
I throw the first couple darts, balloons popping in quick succession. Xavier approaches, resting his elbows on the counter.
"Jeez, if you get any better at this you'll be taking home a whole pack." He says while I throw another dart, followed by the pop of another balloon.
I am unsure of how to feel about Xavier so far. All I know outside of me accidentally rescuing him years ago is that he's friends with Y/n.
"Panda's don't travel in packs, they prefer solitude."
I say, the sound of a balloon popping announcing the period.
"Alright, subtle hint taken." His eyes fall off me and to the board.
I look at him for a moment. "You should know I'm waiting for someone." I say, not realizing the possible implication of the statement.
"Oh yeah? Who's the lucky guy? or girl." He has a hint of hope on his face, but not for himself.
"What does it matter to you?" I say while Tyler approaches from behind, the hope on his face replaced with annoyance.
"Didn't mean to interrupt."
"You're not." Xavier walks between Tyler and I, the energy radiating off him.
With him and y/n being friends and having similar reactions to Tyler, it makes me wonder if he's done something to them.
I look to Tyler for a moment, possibilities forming in my head. It doesn't matter, I'm just using him anyways.
"This is gonna be trickier than I thought." Tyler's voice pulls me out of my thoughts.
"Dad hit me with a curfew. We need to go if I'm gonna make it back in time."
"I've got some dead weight I need to lose first." I look over Tyler's shoulder to Weems who is eating a burger.
"Meet me behind the parking lot when the fireworks start." I say, Tyler nodding before walking off.
The man running the attraction approaches with the panda stuffed animal. "You see that sad, lonely woman over there?" I take out twenty dollars, holding it between my index and middle fingers.
"She needs this pathetic validation more than I do. Would you mind distracting her?"
The man brings the stuffed animal to Weems, when she looks away from me I sneak off towards the parking lot.
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I'm hanging out with Enid when Tyler and Wednesday pass by.
"So she's actually leaving?" I say with disappointment in my voice. I'm gonna miss her existing with me in the dorm room.
"I mean, that's what the plan is." Enid takes a sip from a drink she got while eyeing me suspiciously.
"Why?" Enid's eyes glisten, wanting to know everything about everyone.
I shrug my shoulders. "I don't know."
"You sure you don't know?" Enid wiggles her eyebrows at you.
I raise an eyebrow at her accusation. "What does that even mean?"
"I just think you might, y'know, like like her. No one misses a new roommate after one day." Enid says, fidgeting with the straw of her drink.
I felt a wave a heat rush over my face. "No! what are you talking about."
"OMG you so totally do!" If being a werewolf came with a tail, Enid's tail would be wagging so fast she would be flying.
"No! I just think." I pause for a second, flustered by the accusations.
I haven't thought about it yet, do I like her? I mean she is pretty, but I don't know her.
"Just think what?"
"I don't know, she's just pretty that's all!"
Enid's face beams. "Ah! that's so cute!"
Enid was gonna continue speaking until you both get distracted by Wednesday and Tyler running past.
"Wednesday?" I say, looking back to Enid who is gesturing me to go.
I started to run after her, hearing Enid shout from behind. "Go get her girl!" She might as well have painted my face red.
I finally catch up. "Wednesday!" This causing her to turn to me, bumping into Rowan as she enters another vision.
Tyler and I are quick to grab her as she falls. "What just happened?!" Tyler asks before she comes back to reality.
Wednesday stands readjusting her balance, staring at Rowan.
"Wednesday we need to go." Tyler says urgently. Wednesday's eye contact shift to me before she starts chasing after Rowan, grabbing me by the wrist.
"What's happening Wednesday?" I say, trying to keep up with Wednesday's speed as she drags me.
"Rowan come back!" Wednesday let's go of my wrist after my feet catch up.
After a few seconds of running, Wednesday turns to look at me.
"Do you have your wand?"
"Yeah I always do."
Air quickly fills and leaves my chest, your legs start burning at the sudden activity.
Soon we both catch up to Rowan in the woods. You're eyes take a minute to adjust to the sudden darkness of the forest.
Rowan brings his inhaler to his face, taking a deep breath in.
"Rowan, wait!" Wednesday's steps lessen as we get closer
Rowan groans, annoyed. "What do you want? Why are you following me."
I look at Wednesday, wanting to know what's happening. I know she had a vision, but what did she see?
"I don't have time to explain, but you're in danger." Wednesday responds with a serious tone. This is the first time I've heard her this serious, she usually has a sarcastic tone to her voice.
Rowan chuckles for a moment. "I think you've got it backwards." Rowan looks between us deciding what to do.
I start to reach for my wand, his eyes following my hand.
Rowan reaches a hand towards me. I start flying through the air, it feels like an invisible hand is twisting my body controlling how I'm landing.
"Y/n!" Wednesday shouts before I hit my head on landing. My hair fading to white as I lose consciousness.
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I wake up in the nurses office, quickly sitting up and instantly regretting it. My snow white hair in my face while the world spins around me.
The office is filled with daylight, what time is it?
I realize my hair is white before moving it out of my face.
"Shit." I mutter to myself, looking around to see if anyone's around before trying to stand to find the bathroom.
When I stand, I almost fall as I stabilize my feet. I see my wand on the night stand.
I grab my wand, gripping it tightly as to not drop it.
As I approach the bathroom, I stumble onto the wall before practically falling through the doorway of the bathroom.
I met my own gaze in the reflection of the mirror, my hair white and messy.
I rest one hand on the sink, putting all my weight on it, as I bring my wand to the top of my head.
y/h/c starts to fade back into your hair, starting from the roots to tip.
Now that looks more like me, well besides how out of it I look.
I go to leave the bathroom, falling to the ground past the doorway.
"Y/n!" There are quick steps as the nurse approaches me trying to stand.
"What are you doing out of bed?" She grabs my arm before guiding me back to the bed.
"Wait here a moment, I'll bring your medicine." The nurse walks to a closet as I stay sitting up.
My head was throbbing, the world spinning around me.
She leaves the closet after a moment with a small bottle that is rapidly bubbling, some sort of steam coming out of the bottle.
"Drink every last drop and you should be able to attend some of your classes today." Our nurse was the only other witch in the school, most magic parents aren't too keen on sending their child to a town that burnt witches in the past.
I start to drink the potion, the liquid bubbling down my throat almost causing me to gag.
"It doesn't taste too good." I say after I finish drinking the potion. The nurse grabbing the bottle from my hand
"Well it's not grape-flavored, I'll tell you that." The nurse gives me a smile before going to return the bottle.
The world soon stabilizes around me, my head no longer throbbing.
I stand, finding it ten times easier.
"Fascinating isn't it?" I hear the nurse from the other room. "I've always loved healing magic."
I look towards her. "I would say it's just like magic, but it literally is."
The nurse smiles at me. "If you're feeling better you may head to class."
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I walk into my carnivorous plants class, everyone already in seats as class was already going on.
"Ah Y/n! glad to see you're okay." Ms. Thornhill interrupts herself to bring her attention to you. "Go ahead and take any seat like usual."
I was going to find my original seat next to Xavier until I see Wednesday sitting alone.
I take a moment to decide before taking the seat next to her, meeting Xavier's eyes as he gives me a knowing glance causing me to roll my eyes.
My glance moves to Wednesday as I find her looking at me, more specifically my hair.
"Hey Wednesday." Wednesday's gaze moves from my hair to my eyes.
Her look has concern in it, as if she's asking 'Are you okay,' through her eyes. Too scared of the intimacy of actually asking.
Ms. Thornhill was helping a student independently giving us a moment to talk.
"Why did your hair turn white last night, after you lost consciousness."
I look at Wednesday, thinking about what I should share.
"That white is my natural hair color, I was just raised to hide it so I guess I still do it out of habit."
Wednesday stares off to the side for a moment.
"What does it mean?"
After a moment of silence I decide to tell her, I open my mouth to explain until I'm interrupted by Ms. Thornhill addressing the class.
"Wednesday." Both of our heads perk up.
"We are thrilled to have join us on our journey into the world of carnivorous plants." Thornhill walks in front of her desk, next to a plant in a glass case.
"Now, who can tell us the name of this beauty?"
Thornhill addresses the flower in the case with her hand. Bianca is the first to raise her hand.
I'm also not the biggest fan of Bianca, she supposedly used her Siren Song on my friend Xavier to manipulate him.
I don't really know too many details about it, but I know she hurt my friend and that's enough for me.
"Dendrophylax lindenii." Wednesday answers without raising her hand, trying to get ahead of Bianca.
Bianca slowly lowers her hand, with a little bit of attitude.
"Otherwise known as the Ghost Orchid."
"First discovered on the Isle of Wight in 1854."
Thornhill looks surprised at Wednesday's knowledge. "Very good, Wednesday!"
Thornhill turns her gaze to Bianca. "You may have competition for first chair, Bianca."
I find myself smirking at the annoyance building up on Bianca's face. Shifting my weight onto my elbows on the table to get a better view.
"Wednesday, perhaps you can identify the Ghost Orchid's greatest qualities."
Bianca shifts her expression from annoyance to confidence. Moving her gaze to Wednesday with the same confidence.
"Resilience and adaptability." Wednesday remains unmoved, her posture as perfect as ever.
"It's able to thrive in even the most hostile environments."
"But it's mere presence can change the ecosystem, causing the established plants to reject it." Bianca butts in, trying to one up Wednesday.
"Usually because the native species is allowed to thrive unchecked. Nothing a weedwacker couldn't fix."
"You can most certainly try."
I can feel the tension between the two, meeting Xavier's eyes for a moment.
"Are we still talking about flowers?" Xavier adds, causing the class to release a light laugh. Alleviating a bit of the tension.
"Thank you ladies, for those, illuminating insights." Ms. Thornhill brings the attention back to her.
"Clearly the plants aren't the only carnivores in class today."
I look between Wednesday and Bianca, sensing the rivalry building between the two.
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You're with Enid helping with the boat for the Poe Cup. It's a beautiful fall day, the air slightly chilly, the leaves in the trees different shades of red, yellow, and orange.
Wednesday starts approaching from the school, heading to your teams boat. Specifically to Enid.
"I have to get back to the woods, but Weems has been watching me like a vulture circling a carcass."
"And you want me to cover so you can go back to the crime scene that didn't happen?" Enid asks teasingly.
"Crime scene?" You break your focus from painting the boat. "What are you talking about?"
"Oh you don't know? Wednesday has been saying how Rowan was killed by a monster while he now walks around the school. Y'know, very much alive."
Wednesday scowls Enid with her eyes.
"What if she is telling the truth?" Something glistens in Wednesday's eyes when she looks at you.
"We go to a school with vampires and werewolves, but this isn't possible? Plus, I don't think Wednesday is the type of person to lie for attention."
Enid shrugs while she continues painting. "Why don't you ask Y/n to be the distraction?"
Wednesday looks back to Enid. "That's because she will be coming with me to investigate."
I turn my head to Wednesday with a slightly confused expression. Am I? I wasn't aware of this.
Wednesday sees my confusion, I can see her asking through her eyes. I take a deep breath.
I can't say no to her.
Enid looks back to Wednesday, taking her eyes off the boat. "Okay then, why don't you ask Thing? Oh wait you can't because he's mad at you."
"Why's he mad? he's the one who screwed up."
Enid goes back to focusing on painting while shrugging. "All I know is that we spent an hour giving each other manis, and he really opened up. He feels he doesn't respect you as a person."
"Technically he's only a hand."
"Wednesday, he's your family! And he would do anything for you. Go apologize and I'll reconsider helping you."
Wednesday looks around for a moment before meeting your eyes, gazing into them for a moment before she walks away.
Part 4.
Past Lives Masterlist
a/n: happy holidays :))
#wednesday x y/n#wednesday x fem!reader#wednesday addams x female reader#wednesday addams x you#wednesday addams x reader#jenna ortega x fem!reader#jenna ortega x reader#jenna ortega x y/n#jenna ortega x you
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In my opinion Precure is at its best when it incorporates the communities that the girls are protecting into it.
This of course stems all the way back from the original Futari wa. That shows main premise is "Ordinary days and people are important", and is by nature a normal slice of life whose drama is highlighted by the lengths Nagisa and Honoka go to protect it. As such, the girls have an extensive supporting cast, and the climatic battles often feature some level of emotional support by the supporting cast, even if they're not literally physically present. The girls are the vessels through whom humanities collective will to live is channeled. We spend our time witnessing this will within the people in the girls communities.
I've mentioned before how big a theme of community is in Fresh. There are a ton of minor side characters who make brief but frequent appearances to help flesh out this bustling city. In the end the girls reveal themselves to their community.
Princess and Heartcatch make great use of the victim of the week format to help build a strong supporting cast, understanding the motivations of these characters, who in turn help support the Cures in some way during the 11th hour.
This is part of what makes Happiness Charge and Doki Doki fall relatively flat to me. Their supporting casts aren't as fully developed. There's more one off victims. But there are still moments where this aspect shines, to me in Doki Doki in the involvement of the girl's families. The moment where Mana shouts her identity as Cure Heart is fantastic to me, I can practically see the gears turning in the family member's heads. The Oh Shit of it all.
While an identity reveal isn't a prerequisite for a strong sense of community it certainly contributes to the feelings. Both Futari wa's manage to have a strong sense of community, despite their final fights taking place when earth is reduced to a barren wasteland devoid of people, the fact they still take place on earth helps them make heavy use of the fact that despite being currently devoid of life these are places where there are meant to be life, and where life can exist again.
It's a big part of why while I love Suite, I feel it's objectively weaker than it's two predecessors despite mimicking them in so many aspects. In fact it's probably tied with the futari wa's for my favorite season. But I don't think it's nearly as good as it could be in part because of the lack of community compared to its predecessors. But what we do get of Kanon owns majority real estate in my heart. The entire town is so goddamn weird, and just down for whatever. If I could add an identity reveal to any season it'd be this one. I struggle to believe that no one in this town doesn't know (though that might be because they all are so oblivious). I'd take it away from Healin Good and Doki Doki if I had to and I love those seasons reveals.
Smile I feel is far more popular than Suite, and while I enjoy smile and think it's simplicity is to its strength it's really no surprise that the episode I care most about, more than 3/4 of the season combined, is the episode where Nao sort of kind of has an identity reveal. That's also partially because I just have a huge soft spot for kids. (Muse is my all time favorite. Go, make things worse you funky little messed up 9 year old. And I am probably one of the few people who actually LIKE the baby plotlines... which makes it honestly such an accomplishment that DeliPa got me to dislike their baby). But Smile has a lot of plots that are really self-contained to the main cast, and while I do enjoy how fleshed out the girls' families are the fact that they all turn into living rocks when the villains attack really makes them less interesting to me. Same with Tropical-Rouge, but Tropical-Rouge doesn't even fully flesh out any family that isn't Manatsu's.
Maho Tsukai and Star Twinkle both have fun main characters and worldbuilding, but the fact that, like Smile, the action and human town exist sort of separately from each other really keeps them from catching my attention. I want to like them. And I do. I just don't quite love them. I really love HiroSky's cures in particular, and adore the episodes where they are part of their communities, but do wish we had more of that.
And for what it's worth the miracle lights bring this sense of community into our reality, and they used to use the side cast to help illustrate this in the all star movies. It's great.
#I'm not saying seasons that don't do this are bad#they just don't tend to be my favorites#like I really do like the Star Twinkle girls#I wouldn't say their my favorite cures but they're above average cures to me#but the season isn't one of my favorites#because I find the sense of community lacking#even if it theoretically makes up for it in other ways#so this is incredibly subjective here and I recognize this#it is just a statement of personal preference#admittedly I need to rewatch... a lot of these seasons#I honestly think it's been nearly 10 years since I've watched some of them which is kind of insane#so take basically anything Post-Suite with a grain of salt bc I haven't rewatched it since it aired or in the past 8 years#precure
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Partially because that’s just where the excess fabric goes and partially as a fashion statement. The length of a liripipe depends on personal preference and the size of the piece of cloth used to make the hood, mostly. In some time periods people wrapped them around their heads in different configurations as a stylistic choice. Roche from the Witcher series actually does a version of that sort of style
The type of hood he’s wearing is a different sort from the one I showed earlier but you get the picture
Playing the Witcher 2 for the first time. Because of who I am I’m super impressed by the outfit design wow
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my gendered experience growing up as an intersex person was overwhelmingly defined by my responses and resistance to everything that got me labeled as a failure: failure to quickly get a gender assigned at birth, failure to go through a normal puberty and grow up into a woman, failure at meeting the standards for "complete womanhood" because of my intersex sex traits, and yet simultaneously failing to ever be acknowledged as a "real man" and being treated as a threat when I expressed I wanted to transition.
before i realized i was a man and came out as trans, the ways that girlhood was denied to me was very often humiliating and painful. locker rooms filled with other girls were a frequent source of shame. there were many big and small ways that i was told that my intersex body made me insufficient, incomplete, broken. i was forced onto estrogen, forced into shaving my body hair, and was constantly being told to change myself to better fit this mystical idea of a "normal woman." and even though I ultimately ended up becoming a man, the denial of girlhood was painful.
but i think that these things would have been even more difficult to navigate as an intersex girl if on top of everything I already said, i was having to cope with the denial of my girlhood while i was forced into boys locker rooms. if my doctors were forcing me onto testosterone hrt and refusing to even discuss estrogen, if all my legal paperwork had "M" on it and was a logistical nightmare to change, if every support group for my intersex variation labeled it as a "men's support group," if the LGBTQ community spaces i tried to join were misogynistic towards me often to the point of exile, if my self determination as an intersex girl was denied in most spaces of my life, and on and on and on. while listing all these things out i also don't want to make it seem like it's all about suffering and pain--so much of transition for me has been about joy in my self determination and how much it feels like a reclamation of autonomy to decide what I want my body and self to be like--i know this is an experience i share with so many of my trans intersex friends.
as an person who was AFAB, although there were many ways that trying to grow up as an intersex girl were a painful, logistical nightmare, many times and places that i was excluded from woman's spaces, etc. however, there was a simultaneous affirmation that i was right to strive for that in the first place. which is logic rooted in some fucked up compulsory dyadism, but also which would have made some things slightly easier or even possible at all if i had wanted to embrace being an intersex girl within this fucked up system.
pretty much every time i've seen people on tumblr talking about "afab transfems" in an intersex context, people seem happy to collapse these experiences and act like there's no meaningful distinction or point in distinguishing between different types of intersex embodiment. it seems incredibly extractive, to be perfectly honest with you--taking terms already used by a community to make meaning of their experiences and to expand and dilute that term enough that it means something pretty different than the original.
it's making me think about the concept of epistemic injustice, which is a term coined by Miranda Fricker to describe oppression related to knowledge, communication, and making meaning of the world. There's two subtypes of epistemic injustice: testimonial injustice and hermeneutical injustice. Testimonial injustice refers to the dynamic where marginalized people are labeled as not credible, excluded from conversations, and their testimony and knowledge is labeled as unreliable, even when they're the ones who are experts and have first hand experience of what people are talking about. (this is why i probably won't make this post rebloggable--i've noticed this pattern on tumblr many times where trans men speaking about transmisogyny get lots of notes and are given a lot of grace, where trans women are silenced, attacked for not having perfect wording, and otherwise delegitimized.)
the second type is called hermeneutical injustice. it describes how marginalized people are denied the right to make sense of the experiences in their own lives. this can look like preventing people from building community, terminology, a political understanding of themselves, and the interpretive resources needed to process how you live in the world.
this is a form of injustice that I think almost all intersex people are very familiar with--we are denied community and interpretive resources to the point that we're told we don't even exist, that intersex isn't a real word, and so many more examples that leave us isolated and with very few options for understanding what we're collectively experiencing. as an intersex person i really intimately understand how frustrating, confusing, and painful it is to not have words for your experiences, your identity, your life.
so it makes me really sad and pissed off when it seems like intersex people seem to be replicating this exact same type of epistemic injustice towards transfems and specifically towards intersex transfems. pretty much every time recently i see people talking about "afab transfems" they're doing so in a way that seems to deny that trans women even have the right to make sense of their own experiences in the world. there seems to be this mindset that these political frameworks, these interpretive resources that transfems have built up are just up for grabs for anyone. and then on top of that has come with it a lot of cruel, hateful language and direct attacks towards many intersex transfems who are facing so much harassment right now.
an important value to me is this idea of reciprocity as a foundation for solidarity. to me reciprocity means that we're prioritizing the ways we care for each other, we're thinking about how we can uplift each other, and we're watching out for extractive or exploitative patterns where one group is constantly expected to be in "solidarity" with another group without getting the same respect and care back toward them. i think that there could be so many ways that intersex people of all genders could share our overlapping experiences and actually be in true, meaningful solidarity with each other, but i barely ever actually see that happen on tumblr. and that pisses me off, because i do think that there's so much we have in common that we could celebrate and support each other with. i feel so much kinship with so, so many of my trans intersex friends, and ways where i see our lives converge. but i don't think that can happen in an environment where there's no acknowledgment of the ways that our experiences will sometimes (often) differ from each other, and the ways that we have unique needs.
another frustration i've had based on this most recent couple months of transmisogynistic intersex posting on tumblr is how intersex people have been mostly ignoring intersex community resources and devaluing the existing intersex terminology that people created to try to meet our needs. so much of what i've seen people describing on tumblr seems to really line up with the term ipsogender. Ipsogender is a term coined by an intersex sociologist Cary Gabriel Costello, and is used to describe intersex people whose gender matches the gender they were medically assigned at birth, but who might not feel like cis or trans fits them, might experience dysphoria, and who might feel like they've ended up transitioning medically or socially in some ways. this is a word that exists that an intersex person put time into coining because they wanted other intersex people to feel seen, embraced, and have ways of understanding themselves and communicating to others, and that's something that's super meaningful to me! and yet, i've rarely seen anyone reference it, and also seen multiple people making fun of it in other spaces online.
there's also intergender, which is another intersex specific gender term used to describe when your gender is inseparable from your intersex traits, and that your intersex identity is intertwined with your gender identity in some way. some people just identify as intergender, others use it as an adjective and exist as an intergender man or woman. intersex terminology like this is really important to me, especially because we're so often denied the right to make sense of our own experiences.
i think ultimately what i wanted to say with this post is just that when i think about intersex community, some of the most important values of intersex community for me are solidarity, care for each other, and affirming our right to define our own existence. and i don't think that can happen in a community where people are acting in extractive ways, harassing and attacking their fellow community members, and being dismissive of the realities of other intersex people's lives.
#personal#actuallyintersex#intersex#actually intersex#transmisogyny tw#this post is not going to be rebloggable for now but if any intersex mutuals want to reblog it i might turn reblogs on#this just feels like an intersex conversation in a way i would prefer not to do with an audience of spectators.#also a tangent: i do understand that agab is not a body descriptor. i think that agabs are a form of curative violence perpetuated onto us#this is something i've been consistent about expressing for years. if you go back to old posts you'll see that there's many times i've said#over the years that agab is messy. that i know people who were assigned one gender at birth and another gender as a toddler#who identify as cis and trans and a million other things. i understand that and im not interested in denying their existence#so. don't take this as a universal statement from me about every single instance of “amab transman” or “afab transfem.” but rather in the#context of the current dynamic i'm seeing on tumblr of widespread transmisogynistic harassment#that i think much of the way people are talking about this is exploitative and harmful#also i've made many posts before talking about how like. many things would change and become intelligble in a less compulsorly dyadic world#but we aren't there yet. and so there are many terms that are still meaningful and relevant for us right now#and as always: i am one intersex person with one perspective i like to hear from other intersex people including intersex people#who think differently from me
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I feel like a lot of people mistake comic relief or goofiness for lack of effort or caring by the creator, and that belies a real lack of understanding of like, writing and humor and art in general.
#i'm thinking about how on 4sd travis and sam talked about the work they put into chet and fcg and veth#all of whom have been treated really dismissively in weird ways#and the people who are like haha they're a dumb joke character invariably stan characters with WAY less effort put in#which is fine! you should like what you like!#but you're not grading on effort clearly so stop pretending you are! it's fine!#this is actually this blog's mission statement. like what you like but stop justifying it with blatant lies#hell for all braius is by necessity not the deepest of characters sam clearly cared enough to rewrite his spoiled backstory!#like i find it just. really...suspicious isn't quite the right word but i'm not landing on the correct one#how people jump to equate their personal preferences with thought and care and effort and quality in the absence of evidence#like man it's ok if you did a wine tasting and your fave was the three buck chuck. drink that and live your truth
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Excuse that this is lettered badly and sketchy but I was thinking of Jancy and her potential feelings about ghosts
#Drawtectives#I’ve been listening to drawtectives again and man… man… waugh#we all know she’s holding back all the time… but I’m also imagining what must’ve led her to the celestial spear#cause I doubt she’d rely on seances#bc she prefers making deductions and cross examining those with clues and witness statements#it’s a process she enjoys so how does point 1 get to point a unless point a is acting nervous#I’m only now realizing maybe she could’ve noticed he was behaving like other missing persons she was looking into#maybe more brain fog and confusion was reported#that or Conrad purposely let her get close to the scene just to take her memmys#I forget if that’s been explained#I haven’t finished my rewatch
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its ok for you to prefer woc over white women (even though you yourself said racial preferences can be racist and problematic) and yet its not ok for white women to prefer being around white men that share our culture and manners......ah yes that makes sense
And reverse racism omg there is only racism not reverse racism tf
Reverse racism implies that you can only be racist towards one group of people which obviously isnt true
Anyway glad you are showing your true colors
did u really compare me preferring to date woc to you hating immigrants
#did you compare me preferring to date women who are less likely to be racist#and more likely to also have personal experiences with racism#to someone whose ‘racial preference’ involves them making statements like ‘i could never be attracted to someone who isn’t white’#if ur very concerned do not worry! i have dated a white woman for a while & she ended up racefaking as middle eastern and#using pics of my family pretending they’re her family for years after we had broken up#and also as i said repeatedly#i’d much rather if ur dating preferences r rooted in racism that u just don’t date us anyways.#anonymous
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I feel like part of an issue with q!bad ships is that he's the one making them worse in the relationship and enabling their worst habits but they are not doing the same back to him < /3 it should be mutual worsening
REALL bc if i see it one-sided, it just doesnt feel good? it doesnt feel fun and toxic it just feels sad and toxic? i like unhealthy relationships but for shipping i dont like these unhealthy relationships to be unbalanced, and majority of qbbh ships just end up with only him as the toxic one...which is of course evidenced by the fact that every ship without him is fluffy...
foolhalo is an example of a toxic dynamic that works for me cause it feels equal. yes, bad will terrorize foolish, and foolish wont do anything back, but also foolish keeps rejecting bad anytime he suggests theyre friends, so it makes bad just look desperate instead LOL. and foolish ofc wants bad to become evil because he thinks its fun, its not just bad whos the morally grey one. BUT foolhalo is also just one of those dynamics thats perfect the way it is in canon regardless of what happens.
#ask#oh btw this is not me saying any qbad ship is unhealthy or trying to make a moral statement#this is just a PERSONAL preference when it comes to ships
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love how ludger rejecting divinity means so fuckin little because even if he is not a "proper" god hes still the most op and successful character in the entire multiverse
#your statement means nothing to me; i have seen what power you already had#even his suffering is so meh once we know what happened to his siblings#hell. even flora arguably has had much worse than ludger lmfao#he has the power to change his own fate. she didnt even allow to have that.#and got stuck in her abusive family for 18+ damn years#until she got rescued by a mary sue who then lectured her about rebelling & fighting back against ur oppressors w ur own power#shes not you my dude. only one person in this multiverse is the gods' favorite princess and its certainly not her.#if not for the divinity you would have died in the damn imaginary space. you would have died by the time you reached *one month old*#u cant just use the power of gods left and right to achieve ur goals then say “acktually id prefer to be human” after you got what u want#u cant eat the cake and have it too. fuck offffff#where are the damn consequences for those divine interventions? for his “”self admitted crimes“”?#3 years in jail? solitary confinement? please. people w minor burglary crimes have had it worse in america.#EVEN THEN WHERE ARE THE CONSEQUENCES OF THREE YEARS IN SOLITARY#WHAT IS SO HUMAN ABOUT COMING OUT OF IT UNSCATHED#gdi im so pissed @ sayrens writing decisions in aup#every sidestories chapter brings me closer to dethrone casey & become ludger cherishs no. 1 archnemesis#also ludger is lowkey a con mathematician bc real mathematicians would *show* their works#what even is the point of developing a work but hiding all the progress behind the scenes#what is the point of developing a character but always jumpskipping to the results#literally the explanation for every OP bs he pulled in aup is “ofco he can do that hes the goddamn ludger fucking cherish™️”#either show your proofs or take that thesis conclusion of yours and go home
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me: awww YEAH this new fantasy book i bought sounds great!! the reviews are awesome and the synopsis really pulled me it! let's crack it open!
the book: *turns out to be written in first person pov*
me:
#len speaks#i prefer 3rd or 2nd person tbh. i haven't read a 1st person book since like maybe 8th grade. i KNOW some of them are good and i'm just not#used to them despite reading them a decent amt as a kid but i just find it so jarring at this point. like actually more jarring than 2nd#which ik is a very controversial statement. i actually like 2nd tho i've read very little of it. it's confronting in the best way and makes#u question the perspective in a way that i like that 1st person doesn't achieve. 1st person is harder to develop a narrative voice with imo#but easier to develop a characters voice with if done well. i still dont like it but i'm going to try and force myself to read blacktongue#tge's companion series (tho i'm actually anticipating tge's series to be good unlike blackto.ngue thief lol)#anyways. i think it'd be ignorant to write off a book just bc i dont like the perspective but i for SURE have a preference lmao#also. this has happened with a fantasy novel TWICE now which is kind of funny
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You’re so valid. “Daddy” and any pet names that infantilise reader, are what makes me click off. 🤢
What happened to cute simple sh*t like “My love.”
right??? like shit, i love me a power imbalance dynamic but 'yes sir' is way hotter to me than 'yes daddy'. like i'll happily headcanon characters as having the kink bc it fits but as a personal thing i think it's infantilizing and honestly a tad creepy? tho maybe that's bc the only person who's ever wanted me to call them that has young kids that call him daddy it just felt weird
and don't even get me started on the pet names like sweetheart, my love, beautiful/gorgeous/handsome/what have you. they're more fit for slower more tender smut/aftercare kinda stuff but it's still hot af. and if you're bored of it you can always learn it in another language! calling someone pet names in like spanish or gaelic is the sexiest thing ever end rant
#answered#anon#again again again (and this isn't directed at you dear anon it's a blanket statement cuz i'm terrified of offending people)#i want to reiterate EMPHATICALLY that i'm not kinkshaming anyone#at the end of the day as long as it's legal and consensual do what makes you happy#it's all personal preference bby i'm just being salty bc that fic was so hot before it went there lmao
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hey fun thing. fun thing I'm experiencing lately. is that the case which every terf journo in the fucking UK is freaking themselves about FINALLY being able to put on the front page - trans woman convicted of rape sent to women's prison - is uhhhhhhhh. really close to home? emotionally? for me? and it's on every fucking newsstand????
(obviously transparent as fuck every time that everyone's suddenly so concerned about the wellbeing of women in prison when all the same publications are usually in the CRIMINAL SCUM PRISONS ARE TOO SOFT TRAIN but OKAY. OKAY. since you suddenly care so much about female prisoners shall we uhhhhh idk address the rate of sexual assaults by guards? police? other cisgender prisoners? maybe rethink the whole 'prison' thing as a whole? oh this is just about how you think trans women are scary again? cool. cool cool cool.)
#red said#the commonality. not to overshare. is that i was raped in 2013 by someone who then went to court in 2015-16 following another incident#and that was a wake-up call for her about her increasingly bad drug and alcohol use and blackouts (which was what happened in both cases)#and so she started self examining on that and partway through the case she realised she was trans#and the thing is i know this bc despite what she did we were still friends by the time it went to court#i was a supporting witness because my experience was used as evidence that it was a pattern of out of control behaviour#anyway it dragged on for a while. even longer bc she was a us national in the us military so the civil case was dropped but#there was also a military investigation#which i didn't have to provide evidence for in the end but i was on the hook not knowing if i would need to for like. another 2 years.#anyway the transition aside there's a lot else about this case which resonates with my experience during that time???#and it sucked a lot going through that case and i would prefer not to have to think about it every time i pop to the fucking supermarket???#(also this is gonna sound bad but the thing i resent most about that whole affair was that during the case and her early transition#she leant on me for support a LOT? so i was doing all this trauma reliving and giving witness statements but also before and after that#she called me almost every day to talk about the toll it was taking on her. and i was like. i think you're right to talk about this#and i think you need support right now#but i also think. it's fucking wild that you think I'm the person to offer that when i just told you you assaulted me in a drunken blackout#like. my big Sick Trauma Feeling memories from that time are a) court and b) Oh No My Phone Is Ringing Again#anyway. this is a big trauma dump that may be misinterpreted which is why i don't talk about the case that much?#but this is part of why i hate terfs so much. the insistence on treating an individual's shit behaviour as condemnation of All Trans People#makes it Really Fucking Hard for those of us who've experienced individual shitty behaviour from a trans person#but recognise that that's just a statistical probability based on how many people do shitty things in the population at large#to talk about harm we've experienced without being coopted to a genocidal narrative
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sorry for being that guy but absolving a character of any and all flaws or accountability and ignoring the parts of canon that are proof that this character is (thankfully) complex and human aka capable of making mistakes and doing good and being smart in some ways and dumb in others and so on and so forth is just like. sorry but i always imagined that to be the most boring way to enjoy a character and yet.........................
#personally i love when characters are intelligent and idiotic and mean and kind and i like when something isn't their fault and when#sometimes it is very much their fault and so on and so forth blah blah. just like how ppl are in real life.#live and let live i don't care what anyone does unless it's hurting people and this isn't but in my eyes ......#it's like i've just watched someone be handed a beautiful delicious chili cheese dog and they go ''thank you'' but then proceed to#scrape off all of the chili cheese and wipe the wiener down with a napkin to get all the remaining seasoning off and then switch out#the bun to a dry one. like girl what's the point of getting a chili cheese dog if you're jus gonna do all tht..... jus get a hot dog.. 🤨#i think my fandom life would be so much easier if i enjoyed characters like dustin. or enjoyed media tht was 100% lighthearted all#the time with no fucked up characters in it. but alas.... i am forever fascinated by the cunty freakazoids.... 😔#the dichotomy tht exists within certain characters is The Point. you'd think tht ppl would be happy tht characters aren't one dimensional#but apparently that's what many someones actually prefer lol#i stay scrolling through the tags just scratching my head looking like my icon like girl............. whatter u talkin about....#i swear it rly makes me wanna jus go through whatever show it is this time and reblog their post with screenshots of all the scenes tht#contradict their bold statement#but im not THAT annoying so i jus sit and stew in silence.......... well. semi silence bc here i am talking abt it but—
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I would be the BEST nfl wife like ppl already hate nfl wives by default because of the whole being a woman thing so I would literally be able to do anything. The power I would have. I want to walk around on all fours get super fucking high on rich ppl drugs and cannibalize his teammate on live TV like a wild dog ❤️
#nfl#sports#national football league#football#preferably a QB#because the attention would be x3#the media would find this blog and i would make a public statement like :3 whoopsieesssss#yesss i did say i would abort ceedee lamb because he missed a game winning catch but I'm literally just a woman u hate me cause I'm a woman#god forbid i do anything#its funny cause i would still technically be a better person than taylor swift#like even if i did throw my plastic cup full of vodka at a baby from the stands
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