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Another tip: if you send your book to Kindle, you can return it early in the Libby app while still keeping it through the end of the original loan period in Kindle. That way, you can let the next person in line get it faster while still being able to read it yourself.
There is also another similar app called Hoopla-- in my experience the selection isn't as good (though they do have some oddball books Libby doesn't have), but there are fewer users so the lines are shorter.
libby app guide
aka how to support libraries and get books and audiobooks for free without pirating them.
disclaimer: this is so easy. it is also really fun.
one: download the libby app. you'll open it and it'll ask you to add a library.
two: get a library card. don't have one? good news, it's really easy and i am saying this as the laziest person on earth. it varies what you need to have to get a card library to library but almost all libraries will let you get one online. i have a card for my home town and for the town i moved to. sometimes you only need an email address, sometimes you need an area code. to get mine it took me about 5 minutes of lying on the couch aimlessly tapping on my phone. follow your heart. you can get cards for places you don't currently live. i will leave the ethics of that up to you but it's probably better than pirating and either way you're creating traffic for libraries which is what they need to exist.
three: add your card. you can add multiple cards for multiple libraries. you need the number. i have never had libby fail to recognize a valid account.
four: search for your book! some will be ready to borrow right away. others have an estimated delivery time. libby will always pick the one that's the fastest from the options available at all the libraries you have cards at. you can borrow audiobooks and ebooks. libby will send you a notification when you're book is ready to borrow. in my experience it's a lot faster than the estimate. if you aren't ready to read it, you can ask to be skipped over in line so you keep your place at the front but let someone else read it first.
five: read it!!! kindle is the most common way to do this. you can go to your loan and click read with kindle. it'll download it to all your devices where you have kindle. as long as you have the loan, it'll act like your book. when the loan ends, if the device is connected to the internet, it'll automatically be returned. it will save all your notes and highlights. (if you disconnect your device from the internet, it won't return the book. weewoo.)
anyway in case anyone else has been wondering about it, i really love it. is a nice surprise to see what i'm going to get and it's cut my reading costs down big time! it's also neat because i get to synch my books between devices unlike downloading books through cough cough other means. good luck!
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i wanted to write a quick 3-chapter fic for day 4 of loa shiptober (how they met i think) and i (a fool) was like. yeah. i could totally write 3 chapters in a few hours. i was wrong. SO wrong. haven’t even finished kremy’s (the first one).
so instead have a maybe-past-kremy design that im conflicted about compared to his current design, as a peace offering
#i kinda hate this ngl#im still writing it it’ll be like a week or two late tho skfjd#i spend like 20 minutes playing around with one 5-line paragraph#logical human brain says edit after getting the story out#but the worms consuming it say “it has to be good on the first draft or else you suck” and i cant argue with that#i like to think that kremy used to dress kind of dark and simple bc he didnt have that much money to spend on luxuries#and he saved up for his silly fancy suit#and spooky fancy cane#and silly fancy tophat!#he has fun with it i think#kremy doesnt draw on a mustache every day for nothing gotta give him his flowers#not too sure how i feel about my past kremy design tbh#i did just pull up pinterest and search up suit. so. thats on me lol#let me know what yall think#thanks for reading my tag rambles mwah mwah#kremy appreciation <3#once upon a witchlight#legends of avantris#kremy lecroux#ouaw fanart#my art
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I'm rewatching Trollhunters in the background right now, and the disfunctional mother son relationship between Jim and his mom is making me crazy.
Like, he's taking care of the household and his mother for years as a teenager and before probably. She is sometimes giving half hearted comments about him not having to do so much, but very obviously she's not gonna make him stop do all the cooking and cleaning. Y'know. Both because they've been living like this for years, and because it's obviously also very comfortable to have someone do all the house work.
Then Strickler comes into the picture, and if we ignore the whole Troll and changeling side of the story, Barabara gets very offended cause Jim doesn't want her to meet him privately. Again, ignoring the whole magic and trolls stuff, STRICKLER IS JIMS TEACHER. If Jim hadn't figured out that Strickler was a changeling he probably wouldn't have a problem with it, but the fact that he does, no matter the reason, should be enough for Barbara to put a stop to the relationship. Her child is clearly uncomfortable with her seeing/dating that guy, for whatever reason, and even clearly vocalized it. But she doesn't care about, or rather, she tells Jim that she "wouldn't expect something like that" from him. Obviously not, cause she may see him like her child/teenager he is, BUT DOESN'T TREAT HIM LIKE ONE.
And then Jim, unknowingly to Barbara, becomes the Trollhunter, and his behavior changes. He's suddenly doing reckless stuff, sneaking out, getting bruises, landing in detention and even at the police station, barely avoiding a police report. What does she do? Asking him what's going on? If everything's alright at school? If he has any other problems? Maybe trying to lower his workload around the house, which again, he's doing most of that as a teenager and longer probably.
Nah. She doesn't do anything until he lands in the hospital. Except for again, dismissing him rather negatively at the one topic he's openly expressing any negative opinions about (Strickler). And after he lands in the hospital she now starts not asking questions, but demanding answers. Demanding answers from a teenager in a difficult situation who is also now acting much more like a teenager than he ever did before, from her point of view at least. Except she obviously doesn't know how to deal with a teenager, cause she has never had to raise or live with a teenager. She instead lived with a child pretending to be an adult for years, that was partly much more of an adult than she was, who did way to much work even before Jim became the Trollhunter. So she throws punishments at him and grounds him, but does he listen?
No. Cause why should he? Not only is he dealing with things much more important than being grounded, yknow, saving the world, he's trying to protect her from the sheer knowledge of the supernatural and physically protecting her from getting harmed. And again, for the majority of the time since his dad left he pretended to be an adult. He was and is the main adult in the household, dealing with important things she doesn't even know about.
The only one's treating Jim like a teenager are teachers, other children and Blinky and Aaargh sort of when they're not in the middle of Troll business. Strickler, in the first episodes where Jim doesn't know about his true identity, is much more of a parental figure to Jim (also after his redemption later on tbh) than his mother.
In summary: Barbara is treating her son like an adult, almost like a partner, instead of a child/teenager. And when that isn't possible anymore she doesn't know how to properly treat him. She also doesn't really care that her son is uncomfortable with her being around Strickler, or Strickler in general. And it takes Blinky telling her (when Jim is 16) that Jim might be affected by his father leaving when he was five years old.
Jim meanwhile is treating his mother more like a child/teenager instead of the adult and MOTHER that she is. Seeing her as his responsibility. Cooking for her. Cleaning for her. Telling her to rest and take breaks.
They obviously love each other other. And their relationship might not be toxic, but it's very much disfunctional. In a way that is mostly negative for Jim.
#toa#toa trollhunters#trollhunters#jim lake jr#jim lake junior#barbara lake#walter strickler#trollhunters strickler#tales of arcadia#blinky#aarghhh#trollhunters blinky#Barabara; just because Steves mother has a relationship with one of his teachers and it working out between him and her son#Doesn't mean it's gonna work out for you#If you're a parent and your child is uncomfortable with a partner of yours#YOU BREAK IT UP#Especially if your child is still living with you#Seriously#Okay I know trainer Lawrence probably only became Steves stepdad later in the series#And they also had to work some things out first#But at least they didn't try to kill each other and trainer Lawrence was actively trying to be a good parent/friend to steve#And don't get me started on “A vespa costs so much”: YOU'RE A DOCTOR#Don't know much about new jersey or wherever the show takes place but doctors earn good money almost everywhere#Especially with how much nightshifts and over time hours she has#Not being sure about your 16 year old driving I understand#But don't try to excuse it with money when you're obviously not poor and he's been wanting it for so long that you could've easily saved up#The money till his 16th birthday#Okay I ranted about this long enough#Also the fandom is dead so nobody will read this probably#Byeee
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Transcript:
Oh my gosh.
Thank you so much for- for meeting up with me.
Really- I'm really looking forward to- to this evening. I haven't been able to get out a lot lately.
Been, well hah you know how it is. So busy.
Yeah... But you know it's just nice to spend time with people um, and go out and do stuff, ya know?
I mean there's a whole city here, but works been kinda tight um, so I don't- so I don't have a lot of money. So you can buy tonight, right?
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#gabriel ultrakill#ultrakill#he sounds so gay here i cant stand it (positive)#yes of course anything for you sweetie even my entire savings account <- down horrendously#he doesn't have any pockets you should have known he has no money#you fell for his trick#he doesn't even eat he just sits there and complains the whole time (trust me)#I tried my best to get rid of the background music but theres only so much i can do lol
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Hanichi but Ichimatsu has a partner who vibes are 'Eats like a broke college student' And drinks 2 liter soda straight from the bottle.
#smoredraws#osmt#ichimatsu#oc honno#hanichi#i was saving this in the hanichi doodle page but I REALLY WANTED TO SHARE IT cuz i think its funny#cause Honno never went to college....yet they eat like a broke college student and Ichimatsu is like has to make sure they eat healthy#which is funny cuz idk Honno...doesn't have much of a healthy diet....yet still somehow functions normal#since also Honno lives alone they just been used to just drinking soda from the bottle like the liter sodas cause like#'I'm home alone and not like anyone else is gonna be drinking this but me' + bought it with my money type shit#but when they start dating Ichimatsu and when he stays overs/sleepover first time he goes 'USE A CUP!!' after seeing them drink 2 liter sod#Honno name jumpscare cracks me up#wanna draw moree but gotta sleeppp so gnnnn
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Me: "so that poster I saw saying 'the stage is set, let it cook'"
Ares: "yes... what do you think it means?"
Me: "well... I suppose it could refer to divine timing, and connecting it to the synchronicties from before I proposed to you it confirms the message that I should trust in divine timing"
Ares: "yes"
Me: "and... I need to stop my somewhat Athena tendency of trying to control every single aspect of a relationship as a trauma response"
Ares: "hmm"
Me: "so just like how humanity's obsession with controlling geopolitical narratives has unintended harmful effects like the concept of Peace coming at too high a cost, obsessing with control within a loving relationship CAN lead to peace but at what cost? The relationship can stagnate or one partner may not feel comfortable communicating their needs or other issues, so I should just surrender to divine timing and trust the process while not neglecting my duties... so striking a balance."
Ares: "the way you just linked love and war... 😍 please keep talking... I could listen to you for years."
Me: "I mean, I'm rather drained and a tad mentally fried after a long day so I could have phrased it better..."
#Ares has helped me achieve years worth of shadow work over a few days#saving me so much money in therapy bills#thank you ares#ares devotee#deity communication#deity worship#intuition exercise
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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#I MAY BE MOVING???????????????????????#listen my dad.........offered to let me live with him for a bit................bc its a WHOLE lot easier to get a job where he lives than#where my mom lives...........and while it will be cramped and id be sleeping on his living room floor...........id be living so close to#the beach............to places always hiring..........within walking distance so i dont need to worry about a car..............i wouldnt#have to pay rent...............i also despise where i live now bc its bible belt lite and 6 of my neighbors have trump signs#one actually has a whole ass flag they fly directly next to their usa flag but i digress#i adore where my dad lives i love it so much AND its less than half an hour from where my grandparents live#and i know for a fact theyd love having me closer to them and staying with them on weekends#idk im really considering this and esp after all the traveling ive been doing i am BrokeTM and i need to get something lined up#as soon as physically possible. esp if i somehow do end up getting into a grad school in the uk i will need money saved up#IDK IM REALLY EXCITED ABOUT THE POSSIBILITY OF MOVING!!!!! BEACH I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!!!!!!#personal
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i’ve stopped expecting interesting animation from bones. the star and stripe fight is cool but like every other fight/moment in mha, it’s only cool bc the source material itself is cool; bones does nothing to elevate the manga
they rarely try to experiment with colour and style. i saw so many colourings of the moment star and stripe made a giant version of herself out of the air; people made her look like a cosmos, like it reflected and bent the sky around her, doing so many inventive things and for the anime to just make her an outline against that godforsaken sky? i’m disappointed
but people will take me saying i’m disappointed and spin it to me saying the fight was bad. it wasn’t, just like most fights and moments in the anime aren’t bad but that’s all bc horikoshi knows how to draw. they never do anything beyond that; they never try and adapt it. whether it’s bc of time, direction, budget, or what have you, they will never do something truly inventive with their colouring
i’ve said this before and i’ll say it again, it’s not just that the sky is blue; it’s what the blue sky represents and that is an unwillingness to broaden their colour palette or atmosphere to support the changes in the tone of the story. the story isn’t just “will midoriya get into his dream high school and achieve his dream job?” it’s child abuse and societal systems and their dysfunctions, it’s racism and morality and is it right to try and save someone who’s determined to destroy the world just bc they are also a victim?
look at the finale of atla, a show that mirrors the narrative tone of mha; it starts out bright and colourful and vibrant to match the happy and small stakes nature of the story and as the tone of the story changes, the environment changes to reflect that. the siege of the north pole? everything goes blood red when the moon spirit is threatened, then goes completely desaturated when it is killed with only fire bending having any colour. the day of black sun? uses a solar eclipse to change the lighting. the entire sozin’s comet fight? has red skies and lighting to show the threat
bones abject refusal to change anything about the art itself is a detriment to horikoshi’s complex narrative
#its not just about the colour of the sky#lets get that straight#we’re doing some real the curtains arent just blue shit here so keep up#colour and lighting are a very deliberate choice in any visual medium#and choosing to ignore it and not take advantage of it will just be a detriment to whatever youre creating#i see so many colourings of manga panels where they do insane things and really do next level colourings#and to then see the anime that has so much money and talent behind it just for it to be flat and emotionless with no atmosphere?#it sucks#when you can pick out a scene from something called the WAR ARC and it looks the same as the sports festival arc? come on#and i know theres more to making a scene out of a panel then there is to colouring one#but when these indie creators doing visually gorgeous colourings its hard not to feel like the anime is lacking#and when your colours are flat and your camera angles are uninteresting then what is the point of an anime adaptation#even if they do change things here and there like the endeavour v hood fight or all might v afo#it doesnt change that the majority of the time its the exact same#and when the storm eventually comes round? that wont satisfy me either enless they change the colors of everything as well to be desaturate#and fully embrace the new atmosphere that horikoshi has very deliberately drawn#class a v deku is the one time they did a sustained colour difference and theres a reason that went over so well#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#go beyond plus ultra#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#star and stripe#shigaraki tomura#izuku midoriya#bakugou katsuki#save post
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my parents paid off one of my loans yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
#shitpost#my main issue with my parents for awhile was that they weren't really helping me (esp compared to my siblings)#and like. they're the reason my debt is so steep because i barely got federal aid#b/c my parents do well enough that the govt expect them to pay for my school but they weren't really able to in actuality and blah blah bal#anyways. my monthly payment went down by $100 and so it isn't almost 1k anymore#it's a much more manageable 850.#i hope. i can put some more money towards this because thats still higher than i pay for my mortgage lmaooooooo#i fucking hate u private loans.#ok sorry. im very happy about this#ALSO this payment has made my total owed finally less than what i make in a year#if i only pay back the minimum though i still have 8.5 years of paying so uh......hoping to get that to decrease....#but if im saving 100 more dollars a month (and im probably getting a raise in april next year) then i can shove some more money at them..#sorry these loans fuckign consume a huge part of my life fml lol
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next month me and my grandma are going to visit my godfather who lives in Spain, but instead of being excited (it's gonna be my second time abroad in my life) I'm anxious af, because even though I'm an adult I live with my parents and I need to tell my father about it. normal parents would - y'know - be happy that their children have opportunity to visit another country, but instead he's gonna be insufferable about it, because it's my mom's side of family and he despises my uncle. but what is he gonna do? kick me out of the house even though he promised that as long as I'm studying or working I don't need to worry about such thing, humiliate me as usual, tell me that I'm childish and spoiled or make my mom's life a living hell again? I'm aware of the fact that the longer I'm putting it off the worse his reaction is gonna be, but I'm just not mentally able to tell him that, because I don't know how he will react. I don't need any money from him, I don't have to use my phone during this trip (I dunno how the roaming and stuff work), I just want to be sure he's gonna behave like a proper human being towards my mom and my siblings when I won't be at home and not act like a total asshole while talking with me about it.
#i know that at my age i should be more mature and handle such situations better but as long as he's the way he is it's impossible#why can't both my parents be normal#and the fact that i wasn't able to get any summer job this year isn't making it any better because i know it's gonna be one of his argument#(czaicie to że nawet do żabki mnie nie chcieli. dosłownie emotional i brain damage)#'you didn't work so from where do you get the money for that'#don't worry definitely not from you because you can't even pay for my monthly train ticket to college#and at the same time have the audacity to call me dumb for commuting there instead of living in that city#while knowing that neither me nor mom can afford renting anything without your help#(okay i'm a bit exaggerating in my mom's case but she earns much less than him and he still makes problems with literally anything#even buying food even though he's in a very good financial situation and there are times when my mom has to make everything work all alone#because he's getting mad at her out of nowhere and only pays the bills that fortunately aren't that bad in our case)#(and unfortunately the bills include my telephone subscribtion because all of our numbers are in some kind of special offer where you pay#much less for one number when they're registered for one person so it's another problem in this situation because when i offered paying for#mine he refused and probably it'll be his another argument for becoming mad that i dare to spend time with the part of family that cares#about me unlike majority of his relatives)#i hope that at least when academic year starts i'll be able to get any part-time job on the weekends so i can save up more money#although i'm not sure if i'm gonna move out in the nearest future. i mean he's fucking insufferable and toxic but i just can't leave my mom#and especially siblings there even though i can't even fucking protect them from literally anything. at this point i'm just powerless.#there are times when he tries to change for the better but then he starts creating problems on purpose and everything is coming full circle#and the sole thought that my little siblings would tell me that i just ran away from this problem is fucking killing me.#niedziela wieczór i humor niegituwa. zawsze kurwa kurwa coś.#chuj idę słuchać myslovitz#pau.txt
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Some mild existential dread in the house today
#im just feeling reeeeally really drained#works taking a LOT out of me#like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up#and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life#except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit#and the time and the energy#and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting#and hoping#and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it#i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping#and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes#and have a bath and shave at some point#i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare#AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult#part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions#but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other#idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep#which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately#mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me#and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on#but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just#this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention#and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd#but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh
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#duskull#lest we forget that duskull only has one eye that just goes in the middle of their face and they move it around to get a view#so of course when ffp'd they're gonna look like a gyroid#gyroids scared me so much as a kid. not like the concept of them but remember in the original animal crossing when you didn't save#and resetti came out to yell at you or whatever. he would turn you into a gyroid#yeah. THAT scared me to DEATH. the way that it looked. every time it happened. but i was always kinda like… okay. if you can note down the#fact that i did not save. then that means you knew i played the game. and you knew i did it without saving. so why. did you not just#autosave for me. obvi animal crossing has autosave now and it's nice but it kinda puts resetti out of a job. except for like. rescues i gues#wow… resetti joined a rescue team… he's gonna save the world….#this is irrelevant. duskull! the guy who runs the bank in treasure town. trust *this* guy with your hard-earned money from that dungeon#in fairness to him he usually does take pretty good care of it. although him being an unevolved form of dusknoir made me not really trust#him very much when i first played pmdeos. aaaaanywaaaaayyy
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PERIOD
#bridgerton#yes every Bridgerton lost their father and Violet lost her husband#but all of them expect for Anthony had been able to morn#while Anthony had to snap into the role of Viscount#imagine at 17 having to choose to save your mother or your unborn sister#man has severe PTSD not only from watching his father die but from that as well#I imagine that he will be extremely overprotective of Kate when she’s pregnant#of course Kate will know why Anthony told her why#also his mommy issues#how Violet had resented him for years#you can see it in s1 how she talks to him#it’s better in s2 but they still never got that closure until Kate’s accident#I love this man so much#every Bridgerton has had it easy (FIGHT ME) because of Anthony and I hate that they don’t see it#yes he’s cold towards his siblings WELL GEE I WONDER WHY#I hate their attitudes towards them EXCEPT for when Anthony paid for Ben to get into school that my dude was fucked up#you could have recommended him without the money and that would have been great
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oh btw just know that your fear/anxiety CAN be diminished or become almost nonexistent if worked on, even if you feel like you’re forever doomed to be afraid.
for example, this time last year i was absolutely HORRIFIED of going to the dentist. i had some traumatizing experiences in my early childhood and dental stuff was just panic inducing even tho i had braces for three years and had to go like every month. after getting them taken off i hadn’t been in over 13 years and was basically forced to go once my molar became infected and other cavities were eating my teeth.
but i have the right dentist now and i walked out of my first appointment practically unafraid. i was a little nervous about some of my bigger procedures, but it was nothing compared to the fear i used to experience. not even any shaking or stomach pain or anything. even with my issues with the numbing today, it rolled right off my shoulders, and the same goes for so many other situations i’ve been in that, a few years ago, i’m certain would’ve had me panicking.
i managed to get myself out of a situation that didn’t serve me as well as get therapy, and although i have the occasional moment of anxiety especially because i have trauma issues, i don’t live in fear almost every day like i used to. for years and years i thought i would just suffer for the rest of my life because that’s just the way it was, my brain was messed up and i WAS my anxiety/trauma. it defined me, and in some ways it still does, but it doesn’t completely control me like it used to.
it’s an ongoing process and i’m sure it looks different for everybody, but just a couple of years have gone by since i was at my lowest of lows but now i think i’m the happiest and healthiest i’ve ever been. like literally in my entire life. i’m not totally “fixed” or perfect by any means and i have setbacks sometimes but i can go to the dentist or have my car break down without feeling like the world is going to explode. i never thought it would be possible, but here i am. just thought i would share in case anyone feels like they’re hopeless or whatnot, because you aren’t.
#rambles.#trauma really screws with out brains and it’s tough but it can be dealt with#tbh getting away from my family and having more control over my life made the ultimate difference#my therapist helped with that transition and has seen so much improvement#there are good therapists who accept medicaid btw#there are also sometimes local programs that can help#and even just your regular doctor can prescribe meds. mine did#the antidepressant helped saved me#just an fyi. it’s rough i get it. but use any resources when possible#and if you already have the money to deal with stuff. then fucking do it lol i will fist fight you
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I'm raising my prices by just a little soon 🐱 I hope it's ok
#i always get scared to#but theyve stayed the same a while...#honestly bc i dont think ive improved#and i draw slower than ever these days#and have to have a lot of days off for my day job#but augh ... i need to#just a little#ive lost a lot of regulars in the past due to going beyond their budgets ...#it sucks bc theres so many of them i miss drawing#sorry for the downer post :'3#thank you to all my regulars i appreciate you so so much more than i can say#and to all those who save up to support me#comm money has gotten us out of so many binds T_T#ok thats enough im sleepy#gn everypony 💖#meowjester
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