#sorry for using your ask as an infodump update

[goingghostcomic]

Does the fact that DP now has an official canon continuation affect you while working on the comic

Like does the new canon stuff influence your own vision or has your vision for your reboot remained the same since you started?

Sorry it's taken so long to answer so I'll match with a long answer and update in my process, I'm so sorry lol

But no, an official canon continuation will not stop me from making the comic. And while I do own the new comic and plan on getting all the future official DP merch I can get my hands on, it wont effect my story in the slightest because I haven't read it. Plus I've already written my story and I'm very happy with it. I will someday read the new comic but not anytime soon, I'm just so happy it exists and that it's in my hands either way.

What might stop me (for a little bit at least) is a full on rebooted series, not a continuation/revival because the fandom has been around so long and we've all influenced each other in big or little ways. And since we're all playing in the same sandbox there's naturally some overlap. But this started as a pitch bible/proof of concept for a full on reboot of my own and if there's an active reboot airing I'd be very sad it wasn't mine (so silly I know lol but it's true).

What has stopped me is the a back and forth issue I have on the comic in general. I have found a style of comic I enjoy making, but I have gotten in my own head about it being stiff and bad. I know practice make progress and I'm getting more confident about it and also considering making it into a fic with art and slowly adapting it into a comic just so I can have some thing to post and put out there. But my iPad is dying and outside of sketches on paper I haven't been able to write or draw to the extent I'd like. I've been saving for a new one for a while now and about half way there but life happens and it takes a toll on my savings. So I'm trying to decide what's the best way to proceed and I have a lot of options and that's also a little overwhelming, which sounds silly typing out. But it's easy for me to feel guilt every time I try to commit to one game plan because all my best options rely on me getting a new iPad

[lu-lus-dicks]

Hi, here's about me and some questions you might have!

Updated: april 26th 2024

MINORS DNI please

Important!! Please don't use real money to do things for me in any capacity. It makes me uneasy, uncomfortable and puts a lot of pressure on me. Thank you for your understanding <3 also Important: I can not and will not take anything seriously, if you want to say something serious to me, send me a DM, I'm more likely to respond seriously there

Who are you?

@ nunalastor's emotional support white boy™

People just call me lulu on here. I'm 20 and go by any pronouns. AFAB (and cis). my gender is whatever makes you gay. somewhere on the ace spectrum.

Also CEO of forcing people to get some fucking sleep!

important note: I respond in the horniest ways to @ nunalastorscursedkitten, but they have explicitly stated they don't want sexual stuff directed towards them without their consent. I have confirmed that they are okay with me responding in a horny way and you should make sure before doing it too

tags (will not sort these out at all):

who is safe here?

lulu is delulu - my posts

babygirl anon fest - asks specifically from babygirl

revoke lulu's art license - my art stuff

nunwhiskers - the ship of nunalastor x huskers-bar

lulu is feral - reblogs where I am feral

lulus nun reblogs - I just tend to reblog everything of nunalastors so it's a tag now

lulu reblogs - art/theories/incorrect quotes ect

lulu convos - me interracting with peeps here

lulu crooks - going into detail about things i shouldn't be going into detail of. (maybe infodumping)

cursed polycule - me and the 100+ husbands/wives interracting (xxx-angie list in their pinned)

lulu asks - me answering asks

this is a nunalastor simp blog - anytime I openly bark for nunalastor

lulu lore - me accidentally dropping irl lulu lore

lulu fun facts - exactly what it says

lulu polls - polls

lulu is a boomer - me not knowing basic pop culture things cuz I live under a rock

lulu loves nunalastorscursedkitten / and paincaat too / lulu loves paincaat / and nunalastorscursedkitten too - my interractions with @ paincaat / @ nunalastorscursedkitten

lulu loves getting called slurs - me getting called the f-word

lulu infodumps - infodumps about stuff that might not always be hazbin hotel

fools being sexy - @ the-aprilfools-bitch tag

everyone except minors. I don't judge. This is a safe space regardless of race, gender, sexuality or anything else. Be as cringe/not cringe as you want

What is this blog?

Used to be a hazbin blog, now turned to me simping for daddy nunalastor and interracting with the cursed polycule

What can I ask or share with you?

Literally anything you want to share, no limits. I respond to everything, even hate so if I haven't responded I'm either asleep or the message didn't appear in my inbox.

One thing I don't respond to is chain sends cuz I can't be bothered with that shit. Anything else is a yes

What's with the bad English?

English is my second language. I pride myself on being able to read it fluently, but I might have problems with talking in a way that flows naturally to native speakers. So sorry bout that

What time are you active?

Honestly, all over the place. Don't look too much into it, but I'm from the country of Georgia if that helps

Can I use your ideas?

Absolutely! You don't even need to ask. I won't say this is a necessity, but If you decide to use them, I'd love it if you'd tag me. I love seeing all kinds of things people make and I'd love to see yours too!

Why are you so unhinged and sexual? Aren't you ace?

Asexuals aren't all sex-repulssed and can enjoy it too. I am uncomfy with the act of sex but I love joking and shitting about it. Me saying something is hot/sexy/makes my dick hard is just me saying "I love this and i think it's cool" when that isn't enough to express my love. (I think I'm being funny)

Is the art on nunalastor's blog you sometimes repost yours?

Yes, the art posted on their asks by mylz-flick is by me. It's my primary blog and i don't use it for anything so all my asks are submitted through there

Why don't you post as often anymore?

Because all my posts go straight to nunalastor's blog. Go check them out, it's great

By nunalastor s request:

Who hurt you?

Nunalastor did when they rizzed up my mom

What's with the worms? That's disgusting

Well, nunalastor made this post and it turned me on a little ngl

What is the cursed polycule?

Well, I spontaneously decided that my go to funny (not funny) joke would be to start asking everyone who agreed with me or had similar tastes to kiss me. Long story short, now I'm a whore™ with 100+ husbands that I can't keep track of and that's the cursed polycule

Why do you keep calling nunalastor daddy?

Many reasons. First, Nunalastor saying they would fuck my mom in the DMs when I told them about her. So naturally, if my mom and nunalastor got married they would be the dad hence, daddy. Also, nunalastor is unapologetically my favourite blog on here and the title "daddy" is reserved for them. Also their word is law to me and they deserve the respectful title

The way you interract with minors is disgusting

I have minors please don't interract in my bio for a reason. I expect a decent human being to see that and kindly leave my blog. I don't check who I'm responding to most of the time so I probably didn't even notice it was a minor. I'm just trying to be fun.

If you are a minor and I responded/reblogged your art or post with some batshit crazy shenanigans like I do with everyone, send me a DM and I'll delete it. I'd rather it be in the DMs instead of out in public because out here I have people acting like they hate me and I don't want to accidentally take something that's meant to be a serious request to stop like a joke.

What's with that one pregnant anon stuff at nunalastors blog?

Listen, I don't care what shit people send me, but if you even dare harm, harass or just in general be an asshole to the ones I consider nice people, I will not take that lightly.

To everyone: if you get haters, tag me so I can draw them pregnant.

Is the cursed polycule an actual relationship or just a joke?

It's just a joke between us.

Can I join the polycule?

Daddy has revoked my marriage license so you'll have to consult with the other members. I take what daddy demands very seriously

You can however, talk to the other members of the polycule and join. We could also have a platonic relationship going on in the polycule if you want

What is up with you and pronouns?

Sorry, in my native language there are no gendered pronouns. We just have a singular he/she/they for everyone. I use he/him for me (despite being a woman) because it's what rolls off the tongue easier for me. For everyone else I use they/them because you can never go wrong with neutral.

Are you actually attracted to nunalastor?

Why do you keep mentioning nunalastor calling you the f-word?

No. It's me and paincaat my beloved. They say gay shit to me and I find that hot

Because I genuinely /gen /srs loved it. This isn't a joke. It made me overstimmed and honestly was a little overwhelmed with giddiness. keep in mind though, that while I enjoy getting called the slur, I will not be calling anyone that because that makes me uncomfy.

why haven't you responded to my reblog/comment/ask?

I generally respond to everyone I can. but either it was

lost in my notifs

was posted by a minor and I don't want to attract minors here

If it was on a reblog of something, I assumed it was meant for op

I just couldn't think of anything to respond with (which is rare)

feel free to let me know if it was either 1 or 3 but I won't respond to minors

[euniexenoblade]

idk if it's cool to infodump in your askbox instead of just asking a question, but i think the Washington Naval Treaty had such fascinating effects on the landscape of naval power around the world in the early 1920s, because it essentially halted the production and evolution of large capital ships for the next twenty years. We could have seen really wild battleship designs by the 1940s, but instead, we just had regular battleship designs that were only updated from their 1920s counterparts in certain respects. And what it did to aircraft carriers around the same time was fucking fascinating. Basically, the Washington Naval Treaty placed restrictions on the tonnage that the signatory nations could construct for new capital ships, but most of the nations who signed already had battleships in construction, especially in the UK, US and Japan. The treaty had provisions for this and, as well as scrapping many of the in-construction vessels that were around at the time, it allowed these nations to convert some of their battleships or battlecruisers to aircraft carriers. This happened relatively easily in the United States and the UK, as the former converted their battlecruisers Lexington and Saratoga to aircraft carriers and the the latter converted Glorious, Courageous and Furious. Japan, though, planned to convert their in-construction battlecruiser Amagi and Akagi to aircraft carriers. Unfortunately, about a year and a half after the signing of the treaty, the 1923 Great Kantō earthquake happened and, among other scenes of devastation in Japan, broke Amagi's hull in half. With one of their two potential aircraft carriers now broken in such a way that could not be fixed, Japan elected to convert one of the Tosa class battleships, Kaga instead. Both of these ships served in the Imperial Japanese Navy for a couple of decades and were both sunk by United States forces at the Battle of Midway. This is but a taste of all the cool shit that went down as a result of the Washington Naval Treaty, and I'm sorry.

I'm sorry anon plz use line breaks I can't read that

[my-castles-crumbling]

hiya cas!! infodump anon here :)

i think ive decided my sexuality now, thank you for your support :D ive settled on bi for the time being, but am open to being pan/considering just saying im pan. i told one of my friends about it, and she was really cool about it!!!

as with my gender, im experimenting with being genderfluid. i find that i have what i call "fem days" and "masc days" (idk if this is a widely used term lol) i usually have fem days but sometimes i find myself presenting a lot more masc like, and (being AFAB) find it a bit more difficult on these days. i dont really know what to do about it, but for now i have an assigned bra that i use that i have really tight to try to compress everything and flatten it out (i know its probably not good for me im sorry ToT)

i did something im really proud of too!!! for context, at my school theres a new policy where we have to use lockers. and lucky me got the locker thats practically in the middle of everyone elses :/ i found that really overwhelming, because it would get really loud and crowded. these lockers are like plastic ones about 40cm wide (????) and two stacked on top of eachother so my poor little brain couldnt haddle that :( i asked my leader of wellbeing if i could change to a spare locker at the end and he was really cool about it!!! i find it very hard to ask for things, and have a fear of confrontation so i brought a few friends with me for support lol

i just wanna say that you for your support and i hope to give you more updates :D

have a great day/night and stay hydrated :3

Hi!

I'm so proud of you for asking for what you need! That's amazing, and you should be proud of yourself.

Yeah so wearing a bra tightly isn't a good idea because unless it's made to compress, it's probably going to cause issues because the compression won't be evenly spread across your chest. I looked it up and it says that a bra that is too tight can cause back pain, tissue/nerve damage, and issues with posture. Do you have other options? Maybe clothing that is a bit looser so it doesn't show your chest? That's what I do on my more-masc days, especially when I can't bind!

Sending love!

[chemkin-c-chickin]

I tried reading Black Butler again.

Up to the most recent chapters and I forgot how much gross fan-service there is. And how a lot of it concerns characters who have little power.

Sebastian coercing that circus woman into sex. I mean, he's a demon, but thats beside the point.

He's hot, so the story and the audience will forget what he did in two seconds.

Ciel has a horrible episode and is in so much mental turmoil that he vomits and starts hyperventilating. The author chooses to draw the characters in what would be described as a "heavy make-out" aftermath if this were full blown yaoi.

And then the issue with how the author draws Ciel in certain moments throughout the story. For fanservice.

Ciel and his brother being drawn like they're on the cover of body pillows after they've been SA'd by multiple people.

His brother swallowing the ring and the panel putting extreme focus and detail on his lips and exposed neck. The boy is 10.

There are other examples that my brain could list but this is pretty long already. Reading this manga sparked my hyperfixation on why audiences are so unwilling to defend men and young boys when they so obviously get taken advantage of by more powerful authority figures? Ciel and Denji from Chainsaw Man get abused but its blown off because "Well, Sebastian/Makima is hot and Denji/Ciel is okay with all the touching and weird angles"

Its strange, its sad, and I'm dropping this manga to go do research because I just can't fathom it.

Sure, its fiction, but its like when your folks say "Hey don't eat like a slob at home you'll start doing it in public"

And then you start eating like a slob in public.

Just the mere idea that people are so willing to indulge and forgive yaoi shows and manga for SA is just baffling.

"Yeah, he SA'd the main character but a few episodes later he apologized and now they're in love! It was just a bad first impression!"

Like, my brain is screaming at the injustice of it all and I'm so sad that I can't slap the people who say "Oh, he was lucky! I wish that happened to me!"

No, you don't. You only think you do because you think you'll be the special one.

(I'm so sorry this ramble was so long, reading that manga sparked up this need to infodump my thoughts. I get like this sometimes.)

(And it shouldn't have to be said but I'll say it anyway. I'm not saying that I hate or wish violence upon people that like yaoi, okay? I DO have a problem with people who look at the power imbalance and abuse and lack of consent and go "Yeah nothing wrong with that. That SA was hot." And then they look at a real life scenario and go "Yeah, nothing wrong with that. Thats in my favorite yaoi manga so no issue here.")

TLDR - Ppl who defend abuse on minors and adults, especially when the victim is a man, in fiction concern me on a deep level because I think "If they're okay consuming media on it in books and TV shows then how would react if they saw it in real life?"

Update - I do find entertainment in thrillers, dramas, etc, where the main character is in a horrible situation. Because it FITS the genre and it makes me happy when I see the main character escapes alive if the scenario gives them the option.

Like Killing Stalking. Its got more bad then good in the plot. Just like Black Butler, there's a lot of fanservice with Yoon Bum and the fans just ignore or excuse Sangwoo's abusive behavior. Overall, a pretty okay thriller with a realistic sad ending for Bum.

And then people labeled it as romance and the author seemed to encourage it on twitter and I wanted to stare into the abyss and ask

"Why is this so common?"

The answer? Its psychologically complicated. Rape fantasies are a thing and it disgusts me BUT I will not ignore the fact that victims of abuse do use this fantasy to safely explore their trauma in a way that does not actively put them in danger. They still have control over their autonomy.

I just don't understand the stories where everything turns out okay because the abuser apologized or they suddenly got nicer and they STAY nice. I get it, thats why its a fantasy but still...

All the videos I watched an hell even book reviews have led me to conclude that pretty privilege works just as well if not more for men and male victims are not taken as seriously as they should. Which leads to hurt men hurting women, and then those women hurting men. Its all a giant wheel and I really want to put a giant rock in it but I am not strong enough.

So thanks Black Butler. I'll never read you again but you did lead me down a terrifying rabbit hole

[munchkin1156]

✨My Megapost✨

NEW MEGAPOST SOON!

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HIIIIII!!!!!!! WELCOME TO MY BLOG AND MY MASTERPOST!! HAVE A COOKIE!!! 🍪

You can find me on ao3 as well, under the same user, where I'm posting non g/t hermitcraft (and possibly some g/t once I get around to it)

Now that that's out of the way...

Who am I?

❤️My name is Munchkin! I'm your casual g/t enthusiast, and I do writing, art and also some irl stuff making! If you see someone going by the name ✨anon✨ on your blog, offering you cookies, then that's me. I enjoy content, and sometimes do my own! Right now, I'm mainly obsessed with Mcyt g/t (which is mainly hermitcraft! and was dsmp) or a lot of character stuff :D Nice to meet you, viewer/reader!! :D ❤️

What is g/t?

G/t stands for giant/tiny, and it's a community for people who enjoy being (you guessed it) giant or tiny! Usually, it's a form of comfort, feeling the need to protect or be protected, but it can also be used as a kink. That is NSFW G/T. This blog is strictly SFW G/T. I will not hesitate to block you if you do that, for it makes me uncomfortable and I am not okay with it. (Sorry if this description is bad, there are better ones-)

Do I do g/t vore?

Nope! To be clear, I am perfectly fine with the concept and anyone who posts it, (occasionally reading it as long as it's safe) though I am aware some of my followers are not, so I will not be posting/talking about vore on this blog.

Do i take requests, and if so, what kind? (REQUESTS ARE ✨OPEN✨)

Yes. I take writing and art requests, including fake fic titles, prompts, au ideas, headcanons, etc. Do not pressure me to finish your request though, it will not help at all and will make me more stressed. If I am uncomfortable with your request, it will be deleted.

Now, my posts so far... (Stories/art and other posts under cut-, most of this is old writing, again once I'm back I will probably add some more stuff that is new and better! Enjoy!)

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YOU LOOKED UNDER THE CUT!! :0 ENJOY MY CONTENT!!! (if you want to) HAVE A NICE DAY/NIGHT!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Mycelium Menace (Hermitcraft g/t au)

Pt1

Shattered Code

Pt1, lore dump on forest borrowers

Now for all the stuff I've done in the past which I'll hopefully write more for!

✨Upon Clouds we Dream...✨

Chapter One and Chapter Two is out, but Chapter Three is non-existent. (yet)

Then there's the other au that I have stuff for, but I'm not sure what it is or where i was going with it and i'm pretty sure it's dead but oh well-

Make new friend's but keep the old

Chapter... One? Chapter... Two? Maybe?

✨MER AU THAT I HAVE SAID NOTHING ABOUT YET✨

Art for it

Becky ask!!! (small infodump)

✨I have fallen (but have faith, for I shall rise once more)✨ (mcyt g/t au)

Pt.1

Brick ask :D

✨Dystopian au✨ (mcyt g/t au)

infodump

Becky ask (technically infodump)

✨Oneshots!✨

He started it!

Horror and HELP

✨Other- (stuff like wips, fake fic titles, art, oc's that i have drawings of, hc's, irl stuff :])✨

Wip game thingy

Munchkin character sheet

It's- a stick figure. In a hamd.

FAKE FIC TITLES

Taming the beast

G/t headcanons (Zombie apocalypse style)

Borrower house no.1 (not very good)

Borrower house no.2 (better)

Borrower house no.3 (pretty darn great)

Borrower house no.4 (think of a witches house)

shitpost (and my first post)

shitpost (not my first post)

shitpost (honestly how many do i have?)

shitpost (another one??)

shitpost (:D)

stuff that freaks me out in g/t #1

stuff that freaks me out in g/t #2

spooder

geeckooo

baaaaaaaat

✨My tumblr fam✨

My Tumblr mom, the wonderful @.I-am-beckyu, my Tumblr aunt's, @.brick-a-doodle-do and @.a-xyz-s.

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-Your neighborhood Munchkin

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[gerrydelano]

Recently I've been thinking about writing a fic where a character is very suddenly injured and becomes disabled (something with the knee most likely), and I was wondering if you had any tips on how to write this respectfully. I have a cognitive disability and some minor physical stuff, but nothing to the same degree as what I want to write, and you always handle disability very well in your writing. (I'm thinking around the same injury severity as Jon's in tsp)

hey hey! first off, sorry this took a couple days, it's - surprise - the disabilities LOL. second, ahhh! i have a strangely warm feeling about this ask, so i'm happy to help however i can.

there's actually not too much to say! i've already written a big long meta about incorporating disability into writing, but i don't know how much of that one answers your questions, so i'll give an updated rundown on some more thoughts i know i've had pretty recently, too! you unlocked a really happy infodump, i actually love this topic so much and am very passionate about it so i'm excited to share!

the first question you should always ask yourself is "for whose sake are you telling this story?" ren talked about that concept in an ask about writing abuse dynamics, but the concept still stands. if you're telling the story of somebody else, you have to first ask yourself Why you think you should, what good is going to come of it, and be conscious of internal biases that may creep through it if you're not careful.

examine your work for trends or subconscious intention of writing disability for angst/whump purposes, so that someone else can cuddle the poor baby who got hurt and make them all better. one of the tag replies on this recent post talks about it some from the perspective of disabled people who see it in media, and how frustrating that can be! it's really painful sometimes, to see something that you live with and cannot take off at will be used as fuel to either get somebody off (really happens), or push the idea that love will cure you if you're lucky enough to find someone who doesn't mind that you're sick or hurt.

that is 100% bullshit! love and support are MASSIVELY important components to any healing process, yes, but it is Not a cure-all and should never be treated as the answer to any of this. someone approving of or loving you despite What You Lack is not romantic, it's not healthy, it's not okay to push. that's the top thing i'd warn you away from, personally.

also, don't get super graphic about the injury, necessarily? you say you were thinking maybe the severity of jon's knee injury in TSP, which is a pretty standard dislocation where most of the damage came from compression of nerves and tendons when it got stuck out of place. i honestly was scared of going too hard on that one even just by saying he could see the misalignment through his pants! that's my own nerves, but i can say looking back it wasn't actually that bad all things considered and you should be safe describing the most obvious sensory details if it comes up.

it's the grieving period after that matters most, i think. handling that with care is important, which means being honest without going too far, OR sanitizing it to a saintly degree.

when you get hurt like this, you DO grieve the things you used to be capable of that you might not be anymore. it's an adjustment! it's changing the way you live your life. even if you somehow managed to undo every ounce of internalized ableism you can and don't devalue yourself because of it, the limitations WILL be frustrating and at times painful. missing opportunities, needing accommodation that may or may not even be accessible, new hoops to jump through with doctors or transportation or seating at shows or events, all of that can weigh you down.

example: i had to bring my rollator to a wedding recently, which is a walker with wheels and a seat (which is very annoying to get on planes, might i add.) it wasn't my family! but i had to sit in the front row on the very edge, next to the bride's 86 year old grandfather who was Also sitting on his walker. being only 25 and already thinking that some people there might be looking at me sideways for needing the same accommodations as an 86 year old man, that i was making a "big deal" out of it just by being there, was something i had to work through in my head and get used to. it was a beautiful wedding! and not a single soul was unkind to me. but the little comparisons you make in your head when it's you, when you feel like you're being scrutinized, DO matter and exist.

so, consider what changes your character has to make to their life! what mobility aids might they use? cane, crutches, walker, rollator, wheelchair. how often? in what circumstances?

a lot of people who use mobility/stability aids are partial users! many of them can stand or walk or shuffle short distances, or even moderate ones, but keep their mobility aids nearby for emergency or precautionary purposes. i personally keep my rollator in my car for when i go to unfamiliar places when i'm not sure if i'll be able to sit down on short notice, but i don't need it around the house or on small errands to places i frequent enough to feel confident in. recently, i haven't even been taking it out at all! and i'm about to have spine surgery in two weeks. you have good days and bad days.

more examples: my latest chapter of PBR had a lot of focus on jon and adelard's respective disabilities and how strenuous activity pushed them to and past certain limits, which impacted the "action" scenes quite a bit!

that's something a lot of writers do feel worried about when they consider giving their characters a disability. some will even erase or lighten up the limitations they've previously established for convenience so that their character can get through an action scene that they technically shouldn't. of course you want your character to at least SURVIVE! so, find another way to get them through it that doesn't involve magically being healed for about an hour while shit is hitting the fan.

like i said in that older disability post, i was worried about this with gerry, too! and guess what? he's DEFINITELY going to be a partial wheelchair user by the 4th out of 7 fics, and more or less permanently by the very end of the story. i feel comfortable spoiling that because i'm not shy about the things he's dealing with and quite frankly, i'm excited to get to the point where he finally gets it because i just think he's EARNED it for christ's sake. it will make his life so much easier, even if running might not be feasible anymore.

in that last chapter, jon and adelard have to go down the stairs because there is no lift in the institute. elias not having a lift there has been a problem of the ableism variety since the first installment, that everyone is aware of and feels powerless to change. jon used to willingly have a routine where he'd go up to the library every day before work as a "substitute" for the PT he hasn't been doing in years, but since moving to the basement, that's like two extra flights, so he can't do it as often. and that's just everyday stuff!

with this? he's in a lot of pain by the end, he's going to need to be on bed rest for a while to just recuperate from the strain he put himself through by running up and down the stairs (counts) about 6 consecutive times in less than an hour. he's exhausted, and the only reason he pushed himself was because lives were literally on the line and adelard was even less equipped to handle the same work as him, being older and relatively new to functioning with a prosthetic leg.

so, sure! he DID it. but does that mean he could do it Every Day just because he did it Once? that he could do it without Consequence? hell no. not for a second!

the key word here IS "consequences." yes, disabled people often DO find themselves in situations where they have to push themselves past what they feel secure doing, and maybe they CAN get home in one piece, but that just means the aftermath is going to play an important role in what comes next. sometimes you'll need to be in bed for days on end to recover from something like that, or something even less severe than the above example. i know i have, before. depends on the injury, the disability, the strain.

the point is, if you need your disabled character to go beyond what they should be doing, make sure you take care of them afterwards; either by Literally having them physically recuperate, or by acknowledging the problems that come with not being able to, and making sure you respect that they cannot go on like that forever. eventually there WILL be a crash, and it can either be handled with awareness and intent in-story, or it will sneak up on them later and bite them in the patootie. eventually, your body forces you to rest.

the other thing is that this stuff doesn't just happen once. with a chronic disability, it's always a risk. be mindful of that as you plan out the situations they're going to get into! actually incorporating these things into the narrative will honestly make it feel more real than just brushing it aside so that things go "smoothly." people who experience these things themselves will appreciate it a lot more than wish fulfilment, in my experience.

now, you say you have minor physical stuff, and i'm not going to make assumptions about YOU when i say that often times, we downplay our own experiences because we think we can't possibly have it "as bad" as other people, so i'm pretty willing to give you even more express support.

writing about these things can often be an avenue towards realizing, "oh, wait. i DO actually feel this, and it's not really, uh. something i should sit on." i know that writing characters with EDS before i even realized i had it was a part of me eventually seeing a doctor, and i actually got it put on paper recently. shock of all shocks! it resonated with me for a reason.

if you're drawn to disability narratives in a way that feels far more personal than how some people are drawn to them for the torture porn (and you clearly know the difference, given that you're asking how to write it respectfully) then it's worth sitting with yourself and really assessing how you feel about your body and what things maybe shouldn't be so hard for you to do.

definitely refer back to the first meta i linked up there for some slightly more formal tips on how to frame things when you start tying them in, but i think you're already on the right track with being respectful! realism is respectful, and so is drawing lines between that realism and being overly graphic. listening to disabled people and taking them seriously is essential, and you're already doing that. giving disabled characters a support network is fabulous and you should do it, but don't infantilize them or Cure Them With Love.

and don't think TOO deep on it! you can psych yourself doing that, it's really easy to let the fear of messing up keep us from even trying. i think a knee injury like you describe is NOT a super inflammatory topic to be tackling, and you should be absolutely fine imo. a lot of people write characters getting brutally and supernaturally injured all the time and don't pay NEAR enough attention to the lasting effect some of those wounds might have in the long run, so the fact that you're taking so much care with something more ordinary and common is a good sign that you're going to navigate well going forward.

best of luck! thank you again for the patience, and for asking :'-)

[thevikingwoman]

OKAY SO. I went to your OC tab because I wanted to ask questions and I saw your Professor Lavellan AU. I have NEVER seen an AU where Lavellan is the Professor, and Solas is the student, so I am SUPER INVESTED AND CURIOUS, and I am BEGGING you to infodump on me. <3

Ah, thank you! I don't think my full AU list is updated, since I got... a few? haha. Thank you SO much for checking out my OC page!!

But, yes, this idea has been with me a while. I generally do like role-reversal from more classic Solavellan tropes (though at this point they are a little less classic than earlier, or maybe I'm just drawn to writers with these tendencies?).

at some point there was SO many AU fics with Professor Solas, and though he makes a really, really good Professor, I wanted to do something a little different?

So, I've written a bunch of shorts in the this universe (on my AU masterpost), but here's the main premise:

Iwyn is a teacher of Daish magical history at a fancy University in Val Royeux. She's the only non-mage in the faculty, but what she teach is from a historical perspective. I wanted an institute of Magic so Dorian could be a co-worker and Vivienne is the Head of the Institute (sorry not using strictly US bound uni terms, because this is in Thedas, and I'm not entirely American).

Solas is a graduate art student, who somehow decides to take this very 101 Dalish History of Magic class. I wanted him to not be a major in the same field and to be around 22-23 years old and not too young - just to reduce the amount of power Iwyn has over him as a professor at the university. (In any configuration, a teacher/student relationship will always be Not Okay and realm of fiction only, but I wanted to keep it a little more believable and also just less problematic).

In any case, ofc Solas becomes interested in her, and she in him, and through some random events they act on it (I have it planned out in my head!! Rain, coffee and bicycling is involved!). They start a relationship, though it's secret ofc. Solas is quite pushy/sexually aggressive in this one (much more than I usually write him), both to even out the power balance and also the whole 'young and cocky' comment! Iwyn is a little reserved in getting close, maybe a little more than in other AUs?

There's a lot of pining-while-actually-in-a-relationship (because I love that), and ups and downs, and maybe a breakup (though I don't have this outlined), Iwyn getting chewed out by Solas sister (an entire invention of my own), and ofc a happily ever after.

I DO want to chain together my little pieces I wrote and write a whole story, but for now, those are the pieces I have. I'm not really a longfic writer, so this has just been living in my head and sometimes I get a prompt that fits.

[ettawritesnstudies]

Storge Edit Update Ch 6

Excerpt:

The devotees hushed everyone into anticipatory quiet, and Atla Lyss stood. She cast a weary glance over the assembly, and began to speak in a loud even tone that reverberated around the semi-circular room and demanded respect.

“People of the city of Maaren. The Atil and other council members all perished yesterday in the horrific attack at the arena. We gathered to celebrate the capture of the anarchist Master. Instead, we witnessed a massacre. While we mourn their loss, we must also make sure the anarchists are cut down for good. As the last surviving member of the Council, the burden of commanding the city falls on my shoulders in the light of this tragic event. I am the gods’ appointed, and have become their chosen representative.”

Mutterings came from the Atilan section of the crowd. A man stood. “When will the Trials be held to determine a new Council?”

“There will be no immediate Trials.”

At this outburst, shouting came from the Debilan. At each competition, Atilan families competed for the council positions through feats of magic, strategy, and might. During the week of festivities, the working people of the city were entitled to holidays, bonuses, and revelry. Acheran found the whole thing to be exhausting, but the people enjoyed it, and merchants like him would make a fortune from the surge in spending. Simply skipping the event would be disaster. Guards shouted for silence, and Lyss began speaking again.

“Our fragile city is wrought by riots and destruction. The anarchists murdered dozens of your innocent people in their retaliation against us. Destroying this threat is our highest priority. We cannot afford the luxury of games. We do not have time to mourn and cower. We must not squabble amongst ourselves for power and leave the city unprotected against these terrorists. We must act.”

A hush fell over the room and the dissenting Atilan shook his head and sat down without a word. Satisfied, Elize continued with her dictates. “As the rightful successor to the powers of the former Council, I invoke the powers of the gods to command this city. The council is dissolved until further notice. I am Queen.”

Changes and Commentary

(I’m not putting the stats again because they’re the same from the Ch 5 update.)

This chapter fought me, a lot. Writing politics is intense because every word is so specifically picked to spin a narrative. Public speeches are essentially monologue, and so I tried to interrupt her a lot so it wouldn’t become boring to read. Normally the villains get their chance to talk during the second act gloating before the third act breakdown, so I hope it’s an interesting subversion to have hers come in her second scene sdljfsdjlfsd.

As the outside author, I’m also trying to balance foreshadowing and exposition with the things Lyss would have to address and what Acheran does/doesn’t know. It’s also the start of a complex subplot so there’s a LOT to setup without losing the reader.

This is also the first chapter exclusively from Acheran’s POV. He’s a lot of fun to write! He has an unique worldview and thought process that’s at odds with his surroundings here, which makes the narration more interesting, but it also makes it difficult to balance. For one, he mentally infodumps a lot, “thinking in paragraphs” for a lack of a better term. His mind is always racing to work on the next thing and it’s a useful trait, but I hope it also doesn’t come across as too much needless exposition.

So in conclusion, this chapter is super important and also super technically complex from a writing-craft perspective. I’m satisfied with how it works for now, but I’ll be curious to see what beta readers have to say because I never know if I’ve hit the mark with scenes like this. I’m sure it’ll take a lot of tweaking in the future!

Taglist! (ask to be added/removed)

sorry for a double tag in one night I am trying to get caught up!

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[kyanitegemverse]

Hi! The name is Kris but you can call me Ky! You’ve found my main blog amongst all my cluttered sideblogs. This here used to be an RP account for my ocs that now serves to just hold my art from all my fandoms.

Im a self taught artist who just draws for fun and the love of creating. Most of this will probably revolve around my OC’s and whatever story im coming up with for them. Will I ever write it? Who knows? Should you expect ramblings and shitposty art comics of them anyways? Absolutely!

Important before continuing:

If you’re a TERF, aphobic, antisemitic, think that fiction doesnt effect reality, are a MAP or associate with MAPS or PEARs or whatever pedophiles are calling themselves these days to fly under the radar, generally if you’re a hateful awful sorry excuse of a person you arent welcome here.

Fandoms:

Pokemon

The Owl House (THE hyperfixation right now)

My own OC’s (i love them so much)

Steven Universe

Spyro The Dragon

D&D

Flight Rising (i care bout my dragons)

When am I active?

As i work fulltime with varying hours the times im around really vary but if it helps at all im on Pacific Daylight Time (GMT-7)

Projects im working on:

The Owl House AU: Cross-planar education

Avry Rayne is your average student with a straight forward plan for her future as far as she’s concerned. She wasn’t expecting to win a contest to be whisked away to study magic. Everything gets turned upsidown as she’s learning to live in the boiling isles with her overly dramatic guardian and the absolutely chaotic mess of witches she’s wound up calling friends. [in progress writing] [art]

OCVERSE / WORLDBUILDING

honestly i missed these weirdos so much i opened up the askbox for them again! Feel free to ask them anything you want. Or ask me about the world they live in. Any worldbuilding is helpful should i ever write something for them. Its gone from simple asks to fleshing out the world ive created and actually trying to write for it!

[in progress writing] [art]

[one shots: x ]

[Tagged Posts]

OC list: in progress

OC INFODUMPS

since all these ocs are more or less from their own original setting I have a few posts compiling their backstories and a general summary of them for everyone to get to know them easier! If theres any character you really really want to know more about you can ask for an infodump! It’ll take me some time to complete but stay tuned and it’ll be here!

Avry’s Infodump

Aurora’s Infodump: rewriting

Jessi: Infodump in progress

Lusikka’s Infodump

Wrath:

Amaris:

Sideblogs you can find me:

Personal reblog stuff: https://lusikkyanite.tumblr.com/

The Owl House sideblog: https://gemoftheboilingisles.tumblr.com/

Flight rising sideblog: https://crestedriverflight.tumblr.com/

My hoard of colour pallets: https://palletspam.tumblr.com/

Other platforms:

Twitter (not super active): https://twitter.com/kyanite_gem996/

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Spotify (for those sweet sweet oc playlists): https://open.spotify.com/user/northernlight996?si=txZWEifsQaes2J9HTFhN8A

Flight Rising: https://flightrising.com/main.php?p=lair&tab=userpage&id=110234

If i think of anything else i’ll be sure to update this post!

[euniexenoblade]

idk if it's cool to infodump in your askbox instead of just asking a question, but i think the Washington Naval Treaty had such fascinating effects on the landscape of naval power around the world in the early 1920s, because it essentially halted the production and evolution of large capital ships for the next twenty years.

We could have seen really wild battleship designs by the 1940s, but instead, we just had regular battleship designs that were only updated from their 1920s counterparts in certain respects. And what it did to aircraft carriers around the same time was fucking fascinating.

Basically, the Washington Naval Treaty placed restrictions on the tonnage that the signatory nations could construct for new capital ships, but most of the nations who signed already had battleships in construction, especially in the UK, US and Japan.

The treaty had provisions for this, and as well as scrapping many of the in-construction vessels that were around at the time, it allowed these nations to convert some of their battleships or battlecruisers to aircraft carriers. This happened relatively easily in the United States and the UK, as the former converted their battlecruisers Lexington and Saratoga to aircraft carriers, and the latter converted Glorious, Courageous and Furious. Japan, though, planned to convert their in-construction battlecruiser Amagi and Akagi to aircraft carriers.

Unfortunately, about a year and a half after the signing of the treaty, the 1923 Great Kantō earthquake happened and, among other scenes of devastation in Japan, broke Amagi's hull in half. With one of their two potential aircraft carriers now broken in such a way that could not be fixed, Japan elected to convert one of the Tosa class battleships, Kaga instead.

Both of these ships served in the Imperial Japanese Navy for a couple of decades and were both sunk by United States forces at the Battle of Midway.

This is but a taste of all the cool shit that went down as a result of the Washington Naval Treaty, and I'm sorry.

(Edited for line breaks)

Nod nod nod nod interesting

[tbhstudying]

hiii you mentioned you didn't like working with linux, what distros have you used? Linux can be tricky to master as it's terminal based but once you learn your way around it is way better than macOS or windows and it's also open source! So whether you build your own pc or reset an old one and mess with it or whatever you can basically do anything with it. You can get distros (essentially the way the device interface looks and is set up) that are very similar to macOS just more streamlined (1/2)

and efficient, as well as being mostly free so your money isn't all going to greedy corporations. The main issue I have with windows is that it's full of useless updates and bloatware, takes up way too much space and RAM to run and does not allow you to configure your setup easily. I dont have as much experience with macOS and iOS but I know most iOS browsers are lacking compared to PC ones and that macOS offers next to no ability to configure things to work for you better. (2/2)

sorry for kinda infodumping in your ask box haha, i just was excited to see another person who has at least heard of linux :)

i can’t recall which distros i used, but i used them in my chem classes and a little bit in high school, and god, it was.....A Trip HAHA. iirc, files are case sensitive in linux but not windows, so i remember thinking that i had lost or destroyed my files when.....i just did not capitalize them. 

i can def see why some ppl might prefer linux over windows, and you’re totally valid! but i tend to recommend windows more bc i just don’t rly see the average person putting in the effort and getting through the steeper learning curve for linux compared to the simplicity of windows or mac. i just think that windows/mac would be more beginner-friendly, especially for people who might not be as well-versed in tech (like me lol)

[kcatta-wodahs]

Hello! I wanted to ask if I could get an obey me matchup!

My pronouns are she/her, and I go by the nickname "Chilly"! I don't really mind being matched in a poly or a single matchup! My zodiac sign is Taurus and my MBTI type is INFJ.

Personally, I'm not clingy but I do respect when someone is or needs space. I prefer slow burn romances to truly get to know the person on a deep emotional level. In my spare time, I find myself writing, drawing, helping and having an interest in odd topics! (Usually things like true crime, internet drama, and scary conspiracies!)

I find myself daydreaming about things I'm passionate about! I'm a bit hard to know since on the outside, I get judged as a very shy and reserved person. It's really hard for me to make friends and form relationships since I can be really awkward with the way I talk and over think situations.

I'm kind of stubborn when I get into a disagreement but when I'm wrong, I'll admit it and try to fix my conflict with the other person. I don't like confrontation so it's very hard for me to do! But for my future, I want to have a stable life to inspire and help others by cheering them up! Specifically with my art since I have a strong interest in animation and I hope to make people happy that way.

Sorry if my english is a bit awkward, Spanish is my first language but I'm doing my best to get used to english. And thank you! Have a good day!

I give you a partnership with... Leviathan and Diavolo!

This may seem like a strange trio, and you would be right, but hear me out! Your interests and personality bring out the best of both of these demons, and as you spend your time in Devildom, you get to know them deeply. First with Leviathan, who understands what it's like to be shy but passionate. Your determination to cheer people up and help others inspires him to look beyond just gaming for himself. He realizes that his passions can create something incredible for more than just himself. 

As for Diavolo, it takes longer to get to know him given his position. But he finds himself completely enamoured with your personality and interests. He loves the layers you have, and feels honored when he's able to break through your reservations. He LOVES delving into your odd topics with you. It's just so innately human, and the uniqueness of each one fascinates him. He will follow along with every bit of internet drama you uncover. You allow him to indulge in the childish parts of himself that he has to hide from most demons.

More Below the Cut!

Being the avatar of envy, it is really hard for Levi to cope with an open relationship at first. He loves you with all his heart and he wants you to be *all his.*

Once he learns that you are getting closer to Diavolo also, he becomes terrified. If a *literal king* is falling for you, why would you ever choose to be with a yucky otaku like him? 

Diavolo on the other hand, is a much more hands-off and independent partner -- which is one reason why this works. 

Diavolo is the one who gets you and Levi to air out your worries, since both of you tend to keep things to yourself to avoid conflict.

Having a set schedule for the time you spend with each of them helps Levi with his envy, and Diavolo is surprisingly pragmatic when it comes to things like this. He insists on conversations between the three of you to make sure everyone is happy.

After a while, Levi's envy morphs into something like pride. If you've chosen *him* as well as the ruler of Devildom... doesn't that mean that you see him as highly as a king?

He loves praise and if you tell him how much you value him he will practically melt.

You spend most of your time with Levi, because he wants you by his side always. It will often be on weekends or special occasions that you (and sometimes him too) go and spend time with Diavolo.

However you're always in contact with Diavolo, usually over text. He loves to send you little updates on his day, and is always happy when you do the same.

He can't stop smiling every time you send him a snapchat of whatever you and Levi are doing. Any little thing.

He also calls you ‘mi reina’ and makes an effort to know Spanish!

A bonus to this relationship is that Levi and Diavolo end up becoming closer than they thought they ever would. Diavolo really respects Levi's passion, and remembers every little fact when Levi has the bravery to infodump around him.

Levi gets to feel what it's like to have a genuine and supportive friend in Diavolo, and Diavolo gets to have a closeness to both you and Levi that he has been missing for years.

Snippet

Levi's room had become almost a base for Chilly. She felt safe and comfortable while with him, regardless of what he was doing. She would happily spend hours working on her own drawings and animations while he tried to get through his latest game. He would even sometimes get her to join in on virtual reality games, which ended up being really fun!

Today he was explaining every single one of the faults that the TSL game that came out five years ago had compared to the books. Chilly never failed to get his heart beating. He would spend hours talking about the same topic, and still she would come in with really good questions and thoughts about it. She would listen to him, and really understood what he was saying. That meant the world to him.

And he couldn't handle the blushing what happened when she would giggle and hold up her D.D.D. "Smile!" she chirped, snapping the picture right in the moment of his floundering embarrassment.

"W-Wait!" Levi reached out towards her phone, blush rising further. "I wasn't ready! You can't save that!"

Chilly's laugh warmed the room, and his entire soul. "Too late!" she said, clutching the phone to her chest. "This adorable picture of you is going to stay with me forever!"

Levi whined, leaning on her to wrestle away the phone. "I-I'm not adorable! I bet I look like a toad! Let me see!"

Chilly only let him once she had her arms wrapped around him in a tight hug. He leaned against her, reveling in the warmth of being held by her, as she opened up the picture she had taken. "See? You're cute. I want this to be my new background."

He was beet red, mumbling protests, but his heart soared as she gave him a kiss on the top of his head. He stayed there with her for a while, the two scrolling through devilgram together when the phone vibrated in her hands. A notification popped up from Diavolo.

Opening snapchat, Levi and Chilly were met with a picture of post-it notes all over a table. It was blurry, like Diavolo hadn't been able to stay still. In all caps his caption said "I THINK I FIGURED OUT WHO THE ZODIAC KILLER IS."

This was followed by like 4 more snaps as he tried to explain what was going on in his mind, but it ended with him begging both of them to come over and help him prove his theory.

With a small laugh, Chilly closed the app and snuggled against Levi. "Want to go see Dia?" she asked. He glanced to the pile of games he had planned for the day, but then shrugged. 

"I'll bring a few games for us," he said. "For when he's done using me for my computer skills."

Chilly giggled again, taking another moment just to snuggle with him. "We'd be lost without you," she promised him, causing yet another deep blush across his nose.

"Really..?"

"Really," she whispered.

And the amazing thing was that Levi believed it.

[robobrainrot]

I'm gonna take a crack at giving context to all of these that I know so long post warning under the cut. If I didn't know it- I skipped it.

Also, spoiler warning

SECTION 1

June Darby Robot fucker: she flirts with Optimus (or about Optimus? She might have just been teasing Jack. There is debate on this)

The Nemesis comes "alive" when given dark Energon in Awakened Mind so it implies that it has always had a spark or life force.

Optimus has cup holders. We see this when Fowler is driving.

Mass displacement: the robots are HUGE in TFP so Hasbro handwaves this with "mass displacement". For example- Arcee's lower leg is the size of a whole motorcycle so how does she turn into one? Mass displacement.

Shipping war: self explainatory

Knockout was sexy by design! In the art book the studio calls him "the sexiest bot they'd ever seen"

Prime is good and they put some characters in IDW2 from it. Idk.

SECTION 2

Im assuming this is referring to that one meme? Or the cut scene where starscreen tries to do the drive through. My brain went to @frecklydork 's rendition of Starscream at the drive-thru though.

At a comic panel, someone asked basically if Knockout was gay bc of the way he acts. The panelist responded by saying his excessive vanity must've been a "glitch in the matrix."

The Rock voices Cliffjumper and they had to change Cliff's design when they found this out.

Rescue bots is on a small remote Island and the Ratchet/Optimus/etc that we see make guest appearances are most similar to Prime. Im sure theres more evidence but thats all I got.

Starscream... is star shaped.....

SECTION 3

Theres a cut scene during the credits where the Vehicons ask Starscream if they can get a puppy. He says no and they're VERY SAD.

Silas is voiced by Mr. Krabs.

Theres art by one of the team members of Starscream in beachwear and Apperently theres an unaired decepticon beach day.

Japanese dub arachnid is uhhhh Yandere? Its a VERY DIFFERENT TONE AND ITS CREEPY. Watch some clips on youtube... you'll regret it.

I can't explain Fowler Ghostbusters but there a mini comic on it.

SECTION 4

The way Smokescreen interacts with objects.... he is left handed...

Windblade is a Seeker and knew Starscream at some point. They are both slender and agile bots.

I dont remember the Soundwave one but theres alot of evidence.

There was Prowl concept art. He is cop again.

SECTION 5

Vehicons are Cold constructed bc they don't have "faces." We never see them take of their visors or helmets which implies its part of their frame.

The DS game is a slightly alt. Timeline.

Idk many in this section sorry

SECTION 6

All the vehicons are the saaaame~

Starscream cannot die. He has been to hell and back and spat in the face of Unicron himself. (My joke theory) his tiny dose of dark energon was like a fucking vaccine and now he's immune.

Tank and Hellicoper vehicons were in the concept art but ultimately not used (probably due to budget)

SECTION 7

I SURE HOPE BREAKDOWN COMES BACK WHAT IS THIS THEORY??

Basically they slowly go insane due to proximity to Unicron.

SECTION 8

Lugnut = Big Boy. Breakdown = Big Boy. Wifeswap those evil himbos.

SECTION 9

Knockout dies update from @sparkxii "I believe that the 'Knockout Dies' entry is referring to the massive amount of emails sent to Hasbro during the airing of TFP on the Hub that explicitly begged them NOT to kill off Knockout since he was such a fan favorite." // Knockout dies update #2 from OP: KO falls off the Nemesis and is never seen again in the DS/Wii game.

SECTION 10

There's a comic with the GI joe dudes so therefore, they are in the same universe

Hope you enjoyed this infodump! How'd I do? Tell me your fav thing in the tags or more random obscure TFP lore~

The Aligned Continuity Iceberg

It has jokes, conspiracies, and facts and is levelled from least obscure to most obscure.

Joke: June Darby is a robot fucker

Conspiracy: Starscream and Megatron are reincarnated primes

Fact: The Aligned Continuity was almost named “Epochs”

[lucacangettathisass]

JOUST (Chapter Two)

SUMMARY: Following a mix up that would only be funny if it were happening to an anime character, my Japanese host family turns out to have only a son, who I will also be rooming with at his school, Shiratorizawa Academy. Christ knows how it could get any worse from here.

CHAPTER WARNINGS: None

TAGLIST:@youidiot91 @meemsx @squishyrobbie @total-insanity @oneshotofvodkaa @moons-and-stars-and-shit

NOTES: I now have a patreon! So if you guys want to support me more directly and get some benefits, including alternate chapters, reading chapters early, voting on what happens in future chapters and more, head on over! And if you want to be added to the taglist lmk!

CHAPTER LIST: One

CHAPTER TWO

I spent half the weekend asleep, trying to get my body to adjust to the new time zone and recover from jet lag, and the other half preparing for my time at Shiratorizawa.

Due to the confusion around my gender (mood), Mrs Goshiki had to call the school to arrange for me to have the right uniform, and transferred into the girls dorm. The former was easily arranged, the latter, not so much. As it turned out, there wasn’t any room, so I was to stick with the original plan of rooming with Tsutomu, in the boys dorm.

“I’m sorry honey, nothing can be done.” She said, shaping onigiri for lunch.

“It’s fine.” I assured her, watching her hand movements closely and doing my best to mimic her. “It happens.”

“I’ll look out for her mum, don't worry!” Tsutomu said.

“Them.”

It was only in the silence that I realised what I had said. ‘Shit.’

“Huh?” Tsutomu looked at me, equal parts curious and confused.

“I...I would prefer it if you used they them pronouns for me.” I replied quietly, turning my attention back to the clump of rice in my hands.

“Oh ok. I’ll look out for them mum!”

The jet lag had clearly gotten to me worse than I thought if the desire to cry was anything to go by.

In the months leading up to the exchange program, I studied pictures of Shiratorizawa, memorising as much of the school as I could, as a way to prepare myself. As it turns out I really shouldn’t have bothered, as nothing could have truly prepared me for its size and, most of all, it’s atmosphere.

It truly felt as grand as it looked, far too good for the likes of me, to the point where I felt like I had to apologize for being there. From the large, imposing

Nevertheless, I thanked Mrs Goshiki and waved goodbye before following Tsutomu to the boy’s dorm, this time carrying my bags myself but I suspected that was only because Tsutomu had his own.

Even though I did my best to focus on what was in front of me and memorize the route to the dorm, I couldn’t stop my eyes from wandering, gazing at the impressive and imposing buildings, the sign posts, the horses. It was becoming more and more clear why Shiratorizawa was such a well respected school.

Hopefully, the school would accept my silent reverence, and take pity on me during my time here.

“Since we’re first years we’re on the first floor of the dorm.” Tsutomu explained, opening the door for me and ushering me through. “We’re down here, on the right. 108.” He practically threw the door open, walking in with no fanfare and throwing his bag onto what I quickly saw was the bottom bunk of a bunk bed.

I entered after him, closing the door with my foot as I took in the room.

It was certainly big enough for two teens, with separate closets, desks, and dressers, and even a decent amount of floor space, with a bathroom just on the left. How was it possible for a high school dorm room to be better than my bedroom back home?

“Did you want the top or bottom bunk?”

I looked back at Tsutomu and shrugged. “Not fussed, either or.”

“I’ll take top then.” He opened up the closet on the left and began to put his clothes away. “Must suck to pack and then unpack, then do it all over again.”

“It’s fine, there are worse things.” I followed Tsutomu’s lead. “How strict are the uniform rules here?”

“Pretty strict.” He replied, haphazardly hanging up clothes, with no real sense of organization, at least to me. “You can’t wear any jewelry, and anything you wear in your hair has to be school colours. But you only have to wear it during class and club activities and stuff, otherwise you can wear what you like.”

“No jewelry?” I glanced down at the bag that contained my jewelry box, and I felt my heart sink. I knew that this was a possibility of course, but I still felt a little sad, even if I would be able to wear them outside of school hours.

“Yeah, it kinda sucks, but that’s the rules.” He shrugged, before going to explain more about the school’s rules, which were rather similar to my old school’s rules, all of which essentially boiled down to two things: don’t make the school look bad and behave yourself. Easy, considering how well practiced I was in both of those things.

We had to leave half of our stuff still unpacked to be able to get me to the school office so I could get my ID and schedule, and along the way Tsutomu pointed out the communal laundry room. It was then that he paused. “Do...do you think you’ll be OK, doing your laundry with guys?”

“I’ll make do.” I assured him. “I imagine the other guys will have some trouble adjusting though.” I had already taken note of almost a dozen guys who did double takes as they watched Tsutomu and I, bewildered and trying to figure out just what the hell is going on.

“Well like I said, if you have any issues, just let me know! It’s my job to-”

“Look out for me. I know.” In truth, it was rather endearing, seeing how seriously Tsutomu took his new role. I imagined that this is what it was like to have an older brother, which was an odd thought to have since we were the same age. But still. It felt nice.

After some more confusion at the front desk, as apparently not everyone had been updated on the fact that I was not in fact a boy, Tsutomu and I went straight to homeroom as we looked over my schedule.

“Looks like we have the same classes!” He said excitedly, pulling out his own schedule to compare. “The only difference is our last two periods. I didn’t know you were taking music and French.”

I shrugged. “I enjoyed them back home so I figured I would stick with them.” I already knew I would be struggling with the other classes, so it would give me some comfort to know that there would be at least a couple classes that I would be able to handle.

“Goshiki!”

We both pause and turn towards the source of the voice, seeing a middle aged man with tan skin, closely shaved dark hair, and glasses, wearing a tracksuit approaching us. “Good morning Goshiki.”

“Good morning coach!” Tsutomu bowed respectfully, gesturing to me as he stood back up. “Coco, this is Mr Saito, he’s one of the coaches for the volleyball team! Coach, this is Coco, the exchange student my family is hosting.”

Coach Saito gave me a quizzical look as I bowed, before turning back to Tsutomu. “I uh, I thought your family was hosting a boy?”

“There was a mix up with the paperwork.” Tsutomu explained. “Did you need something coach?”

Coach Saito still seemed a little surprised, but quickly moved on. “We have a practice match after school today with Tohoku University’s men’s volleyball team.”

Immediately Tsutomu’s entire face lights up, like he had just won the lottery. “No way! Really?!”

“Really.” Coach Saito smiled fondly. “And Washijo wants you in the starting line up.”

If Tsutomu’s face was a light before, it was now the sun. “I’ll do my best sir!”

“Wait, are you guys seriously playing a university team?” I asked, more than a little confused. “Is that even fair?”

“Remember when I said that we’re the best high school team in the prefecture?” Tsutomu said. “Well that means we can’t practice with the other high schools around here, we’re just too good, so we have to look elsewhere for matches, including universities.” He said it all with immense pride, despite being one of the newer members of the team. If it had been anyone else, it would’ve come off as arrogant, even irritating. But the sincerity and excitement in his voice softened everything, made it less irksome somehow. “Hey! You should watch us! It’ll be great, you’ll be able to see how good we are!”

I hesitated, glancing between Tsutomu and Coach Saito. “I don’t know, I might not be able to follow along.”

“Don’t worry, I’ll tell you everything you need to know!” He patted my back encouragingly, turning back to Coach Saito. “I’ll see you after school, coach!”

“See you then Goshiki.”

I barely had time to utter a goodbye to Coach Saito before I was led away by Tsutomu, who didn’t hesitate before infodumping about volleyball. I tried my best to keep up, but half of it completely flew past me and I could only nod along as we continued down the hallway. A part of me was still preoccupied with the fact that a team of high schoolers would be facing off against actual, fully fledged university students. No matter how good they’re meant to be, it still sounded very unfair. Yet, it also piqued my curiosity, as surely it wasn’t every day that a university sport’s team was approached to play against a high school team, and I figured it would be even rarer that said university team would accept. It was certainly interesting, to say the least.

“Alright alright, you’ve twisted my arm.” I said, with some real fondness. I looked up at Tsutomu and smiled. “I’ll watch you guys play. It sounds interesting.”

Tsutomu stopped, right in front of a classroom door, as he stared down at me with a look of shock. It was as if he hadn’t really expected me to say yes. Regardless, his face broke out into that wide, sunny smile again. “Great! You won’t regret it!” He sounded giddy, entering the classroom with me tailing behind. “The other guys on the team are really cool too, I think you’ll like them! Hey, I sit here so sit next to me!”

I followed his suggestion, sitting between him and the large window as I put my bag on the desk, pulling out my stationery in preparation for the class.

“In fact, I think Semi Senpai takes music too.” Tsutomu said absentmindedly. “He could help you with some stuff!”

I found it awfully bold that Tsutomu assumed his, well our, upperclassman would want to spend his time assisting an exchange student in any subject, but it was a nice thought, and another indication of Tsutomu’s positive outlook, if nothing else.

Before he could go on the bell rang, sending other students either flying out the door to get to their actual classes, while the rest took their seats and got ready in anticipation of the teacher’s arrival, which occurred within a minute of the bell.

“Good morning class, I hope you’re all ready to learn today.” The teacher, a pale, middle aged man with dark, shaggy hair, said, sounding somewhat rueful. “And if not, well, a little late now.” He opened up his laptop, tapping away for a few moments before looking back up. “We have an exchange student from New Zealand with us. Would you like to introduce yourself?”

The class buzzed, almost all of them looking directly at me.

Reluctantly I stood up, turning to face the class and bowing. “My name is Cody Smith, but you all can just call me Coco. It’s nice to meet you all.” I said formally. “I look forward to my stay here.” I hastily sat back down, looking right ahead, trying to ignore what was being said.

“I expect all of you to make Miss Smith feel welcome.” The teacher said, voice raised to be heard over the chatter which quickly died back down. “I’m Mr Ito, your homeroom teacher. If you need anything, just ask. Now, onto today’s announcements.”

[flower-boy-roxanne]

hey!

im dirk! this is my personal intro post & it includes triggers specific to me, so PLEASE PLEASE tag your own posts with cws for my content triggs if you follow me!!! with that in mind, read the entire thing, please <3

( system dni & info located on our art blog )

about

full name is dirk roxanne strider, as a quick explanation for my url :3

i use she/they pronouns and identify as demimale! my headspace body is intersex

ABSOLUTELY NO REFERRING TO ME BY HE/HIM I WILL SCREAM

i age-slide! about 15-25

i also age-regress, typically as a response to stress and/or trauma but it can also be a result of excess affection, babying/patronizing me (which i actually dont mind much but if you do it just to make me regress we’re gonna have a problem bud), etc.

i go by dirkie when im age-regressed!! if you see me posting during those times please refer to me by that name and try to be extra nice. if i was stress-/trauma-triggered into regression i may be very emotionally sensitive. i prefer to be talked to like a little kid/baby too and i may talk very childishly (unnecessary word pluralizing, wrong verb tenses, w’s in place of l’s and r’s, easily excited, etc.)

i pet-regress into a cat mindset due to a very particular situation in the past. i will absolutely not discuss it here and im not afraid to get an aggressive/violent protector up to roast your ass if you repeatedly pester me about it. like seriously dude you dont actually wanna know anyways

NEITHER OF THESE ARE S-XUAL THINGS FOR THE LOVE OF G O D . we dont support “““s-xual””” agere because that isnt and shouldnt be a thing its fucking disgusting please let me regress without ppl thinking its s-x roleplay in peace—ITS NOT I AM IN THE LITERAL FUCKING MINDSET OF A LITERAL FUCKING CHILD. thank you <3

i have severe exotrauma. all my posts discussing it will be tagged #dirk talks trauma, feel free to block it. i also try to appropriately cw/tw tag them (i use the term tw only but its just because including both drains my spoons)

that said, dont! ask me! about! my trauma! directly! I WILL TALK ABOUT IT WHEN I WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!!!

not only is our body autistic but i was autistic in my canon!! just a fun fact :3

i try to avoid using :) emoticons and prefer :D, :3, and the like. idk ive just had a fair share of experiences where its used in a (jokingly, usually!!) creepy/threatening context so it doesnt read well to me

please dont dm me without asking!!! ive got some of the worst anxiety & paranoia in this system, plus ive got a small bit of trauma relating to unsolicited dms

asks are always okay though :3!! so long as youre not bein a dickhead ya know? anon is off tho for comfort n trauma reasons, sorry about that

(if you want me to answer your ask privately just tell me!! i might accidentally be a fuckin idiot n post it publicly tho, just a fair warning)

i somewhat suspect myself of ocd, but i havent had the spoons to do enough research for confirmation

I AM VERY BAD AT READING TONE. please tag things /j, /lh, /s, etc. so i know you arent genuinely trying to be a dick to me

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my tags

#dirk.txt — regular text post

#dirk.png — art/edit post

#dirk.jpg — shitpost, memes, otherwise non-artistic images

#dirk.mp3 — original song lyrics, voice recordings

#dirk.pdf — creative writing post, infodumps, ideas

#dirk.gif / #dirk.mp4 — gifs, videos

#dirk talks trauma — discussion of my exotrauma, including vents

#dirk updates — quick notices about the blog, my personal life, or anything that may have impact on blog interaction (that of myself or other users)

#little flower — the post was made while i was age-regressed

#catnip flowers — the post was made while i was pet-regressed

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blacklist

(catchall cw tag is #flower boy dont look! i feel like dirk dont look might be an already used tag for some people hgsfcjj :'))

ANYTHING relevant to inc-st, p-dophilia, r-pe, ab-se, or isolation (tags: #incest, #incest mention, #pedophilia, #pedophilia mention, #rape, #rape mention, #abuse, #abuse mention, #isolation, #isolation mention)

the word “selfcest”

using he/him pronouns for me and/or implying that im a fem gender for using she/her

not exactly a trigger but i might act weird or cautious around alpha dave fictives & kins, nothing personal (technically) just trauma

making jokes about abandonment or death without joke tagging (though it still makes me VERY uncomfortable & anxious!!!)

discussion about breakups and/or exes in terms of a romantic/s-xual relationship (tags: #breakup, #breakup mention, #exes, #exes mention)

treating me like an object or subhuman, joking or not. just dont

using particularly harsh insults for me even as a joke—ie dumbfuck, wh-re, shitbag. im ok w being called a dumbass n bitch n stuff but only in a joking context!! if you want to know any other boundaries on that just shoot me an ask my dude. also dont call me slurs :(

the idea that fiction doesnt affect reality (points at myself then at my str-d-rc-st exotrauma. bitch)

i know its legit a part of my url but PLEASE dont call me roxanne unless we’re close!! it makes me uncomfy when strangers/acquaintances use my mid name for me :(

implying or stating that im guilttripping. my spirals, emotional outbursts, etc are almost always trauma responses. saying im guilttripping in itself when im actually in severe emotional distress is a trigger to my trauma with our exes. i have very little power over my spirals and often struggle in dealing with situations that are newer to me, emotionally and otherwise. i am not guilttripping, im acting on a trauma response.

if you put words into my mouth or twist what i say i guarantee you furorem will judoflip you. we have trauma with being lied about and intentionally misinterpreted too, thanks.

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thanks for reading!! have a fuckin fantastic day, yall