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#man bdubs does inspire me a lot#on personal taste his current city isnt my favourite but thats solely based on my aesthetic preferences#but i am in awe of his dedication to techniques#and his skills#and it fills me with a longing for the future#when im older and more practiced and exploring creatively but having the history to back it up#i want to make i want to make i want to make i want to make#and what he said about taking pride in your work#its weird to grow up posting your art on the internet#it changes how you feel about your work#i dont know#just i cant wait to be middle aged and i cant wait to create create create create create create#sometimes i get sad imagining that if i died tomorrow i will have never made what i could#alongside other things idk#life is annoying as hell but god knows i want to be older#what he said about pride. man#i dont know i hate my current build because i never feel like its good enough#i love it and i love being in it but it makes me feel sick even though i love it#its my thing to work on#i think also. how perfect it is makes me feel sick#i started it when i began getting into solarpunk and man. our world isnt that#but its also amazing and i get to create create create create create create create create create create create create#i hope one day i can share my works deeper. i want to be able to talk about art like Bdubs does#i want to be able to talk and have people listen#i want to create create create create create create
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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so itโs very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that theyโre not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world itโs such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously itโs important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might notโโitโs hard! itโs scary! people will make fun of me! itโs useless because thereโs too much evil!โ are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesnโt get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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In the shape of you, something new.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#Better drawn mdzs#Yeah let's toss this in the 'mixed' category. Keeping you all on your toes with the quality of my work in this series.#I had to fire off some expectation-lowering shots to rebuild my energy.#I enjoy opportunities to experiment with formatting and challenge myself B*) I really like how this came out!#In this case; I have been thinking about this comic for nearly a year! The reunion scene!#The start of the festering! The longing LWJ feels contrasted against the reality that WWX has been fundamentally changed.#This is the shape of someone you knew. This is no longer the person you had in your head. Maybe that person never existed.#We build up expectations of who we want people to be - but they are never *who* that person is.#Loving the JC & LWJ parallels with this concept as well; they are both self-inflicted victims of pushing their expectations on WWX.#But we are who we are. We cannot become the idealized version of ourselves that lives in another person's head.#And I love how WWX comes back a little (a lot) horrifying. In his actions and appearance - he has changed. Maybe for the worst.
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#linked universe#linkeduniverse#lu hyrule#(also zelda 1!!! but idk how people would feel about me tagging it since I used Jojo's design?)#(ya'll can always tag my gen loz art as LU (or as any linkverse honestly if it inspires you to think about your favs) and vice versa)#(I want to inspire you to think and create! If you see my gen loz art and want to add that to your headcanons or it changes how you think??#take it! play with it! invite me to play as well haha!)#(not ocs but like- gen stuff??? ye go for it)#mom walked in and looked at the comic I was working on#so I started rambling about my plans with it and what my peers are working on and how cool it all is and how I want to have more of that#and she said โwhat a waste of timeโ#so I got loosey goosey with it :\#nice exercise to just draw w/o doing guides or being careful#did this in like under 15 minutes! >:D#but anyways#I haven't slept yet so gn!#.. he's holding stuff in the wrong hands!!!! a#look up ribbonwood / redshanks trees! If Hyrule was a tree- this is it#I imagine zelda 1&2's landscape to be california chaparral!!! I'm really passionate about it!!!!!#check out the california chaparral institute's website -> chaparral -> chaparral types#it's Hyrule's Hyrule!
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And some days, I just wish you wouldn't look at me at all.
#ffxiv#sketch#wol#meteor survivor#zenos yae galvus#adventurer zenos#oh no#its the consequences of his actions#everything is fine until the only man on the star you care about looks at you with the same contempt your father did#(Meteor's not doing it intentionally- its a reflex after he comes back for quite a bit)#and zenos is getting bodied because its been a while since... you know... him being able to really feel anything at all#and no- its not him regretting anything that had to do with varis- just him regretting the thought meteor could look at him like that#little does Meteor know he's emotionally bodying the man he's trying to be cordial with#its a little okay because in how I write adventurer zenos this serves as one of his main wake-up calls to make some changes#and realizing both the mistakes he's made with meteor and that meteor hating him in any way is actually -not at all- what he wants#but not okay on the end that every time meteor does this he has to watch zenos actively dissociate right in front of him#until zenos just kinda autopilots and walks away#the second time (or perhaps third) in the last 11 years that zenos has felt regret to any major capacity-#on meteor's end I just enjoy seeing the progression of the WoL through subtext#and why meteor is willing to even entertain the idea despite how much he hates zenos- his decisions and the path he's walked#is the realization that there is high chance that he could actually be a direct catalyst for zenos' growth#and the realization the wol has that they were the only one zenos has ever genuinely reached out to#besides- i just like the idea of having your equal other half fighting back to back with you- or being able to handle threats you cant#and i find their dynamic neat- of meteor not forgiving zenos but giving him his last chance- and growing to enjoy being around him#and zenos being able to work on moving past being the weapon or the monster- finding the connections he's longed for#and giving himself purpose to finally truly just live- for him to learn to experience and have the freedom to find what he enjoys#(and curiously him having estinien's brand of accidently helping people even in StB gives me ideas...)#but enough tag ranting- ill get to zenos' actual adventuring in another post lol
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it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent
#xmen#xmen comic#krakoa#cherik#snap chats#until the divorce of course but until then its actually so funny#how you really couldnt go a page or two without one or the other and the other one was close behind#ice climber ass duo over here. the delightful children from down the lane kind of proximity what the fuck was their PROBLEM#i feel like if one of them was teleported the other would just materialize right next to them thats how close they were#fuuuck what was the issue where sabretooth and co are in like. Brain Prison or something#and victor imagines charles but everyones like 'wait its weird if its just him where's magneto'#ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY and i NEED to know what issue that was .... to add it to my collection ....#also killed me how in immoral x-men issue 1 charles was yappin bout erik bein gone#and- God Bless Who i forget i think it was hope- was just 'can you please shut up about your dead boyfriend im begging you'#moira stronger than me if i had to deal with thing 1 and thing 2 on a daily basis i woulda snapped sooner frankly#ig when you live ten times through The Most Bullshit ever youre numb to most things but still. my god theyre so obnoxious#sorry im cackling at the bit in HoX where charles is about to announce krakoa to the world and erik's putting his hand on his shoulder#and you justs see moira in the back like dawgggg right in front of her .... can you two get a room#GENUINELY no im GENUINELY surprised they dont share a bedroom#im not even talking sharing a bed im taking my shipper goggles off im actually baffled they dont sleep in the same building#obvi id be lyin if i said i didnt love it tho To Be Real .. genuinely love seein them work together as a team .. until they werent </3#in every timeline they WILL divorce each other that's just the rule. actual canon event it cannot be changed or stopped its integral#ok ramble over. but not really not in spirit cause ill never be over this ill die before i am#im gonna go eat now i think i think thats something i As A Human has to do at least once a day
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Hey!! For your next fic could you do Leo and Mikey angst
It came be 2012, MM or rise
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๐๐พ! ๐ธ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ซ โฆห*โข ฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*๏ผยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ
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(๐ฐ/๐ฝ: ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐ *๐ฐ๐ท๐ด๐ผ* ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข: ๐ณ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ข! ๐*๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐บ๐๐๐/๐ฝ๐๐ต๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐ฝ๐ธ!!!)
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐ป๐ด๐ฐ๐๐ด ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐!!!
๐๐ด๐ผ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ณ๐ด๐: ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ท๐ณ ๐๐๐/๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐!!! ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข โบ๏ธ๐๐๐๐
๏ผ*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๐ฐ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐บ๐พโจ๐๐ถห*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๏ผยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ
Mikey couldnโt do anything right now. Likeโฆanything.
Wellโฆperhaps he was being aย bitย tooย dramatic.ย He wasย breathing.ย And he wasย fidgeting with his squishy cube.ย So saying he wasnโt doingย 'anything'ย wasnโt entirely true.
Right now he justโฆcouldnโt do anythingโฆproductive.ย
For example, the box turtleย triedย making his favorite dishes and deserts! Butย thatย endeavor just ended up being aย hugeย messย in the kitchenโฆandย leaving the youngest turtle with aย bunchย of unappetizing food.ย
Which he fed all to Raph by the way.ย
Some would call that choice of action cruel but Mikey would just call itย 'using his resources'.ย
Besides, itโs not like the eldest minded at all. He said, and I quote:ย 'It has a niceโฆcrunchyย feeling to it. Did you put some of Donโs inventions in this?'
Which honestly got a couple of chuckles out of the smallest turtle teen of the bunch.
Then, Mikeyย triedย skateboarding! But for once in all his 14 years of livingโฆit was just utterlyย boring.ย
And after all of that nonsense, Mikey thenย finallyย triedย reading a comicโฆbut he was too unfocused to even get to theย second pageโฆ
But what wasย reallyย new? Mikey could never focus on jackshit even if said jackshit hit himย rightย in the shell.ย
His brothers and sister would always have to remind him toย stay focusedย orย 'not do this'ย orย 'not do that'.
For example, a couple days ago Donnie had toย kindlyย remind the box turtle (wellโฆas kindly asย Donnie could be anywayโฆ) to brush his teeth.
To. Brush. His.ย Fucking. Teeth.ย
And honestly? Having to be reminded to do that wasย reallyย embarrassing. And the orange banded teenย knewย his brother didnโtย meanย to humiliate him internallyโฆbutโฆyeah.
And itโs not like the softshell wasย wrongย either! The youngest turtle just couldnโt freaking accept that he himself couldnโt do such a simple task in the morning.ย
But literallyย every taskย heย completely fails to doย is justย utterly simple ones!
Like cleaning his room or not forgetting things or even keeping track of time!ย
โฆAnd the sad part about all of it was Mikey justย honestlyย couldย notย understandย how his family havenโt gotten sick of his annoying tendenciesโฆ
And letโs be for real hereโฆthat was basicallyย allย of his tendencies.ย
The box turtle groaned loudly in his room, slamming his whole body on his bed as heย screamedย into his pillow.ย
There had to beย somethingย he could do instead of just wallowing in his own self pityโฆ
And one of those options couldย notย consist of bothering his family with his random bad mood. They had to put up with him 24/7โฆtheย leastย he could do was give them some space.
The youngest then glanced at his drawing notebook hopefullyโฆ
โฆOne little sketch of something random wouldnโt hurt, right?
The amber eyed teen reached for his notebook, grabbing a pen from his drawer as he started to sketch his desk becauseย why the absoluteย fuckย not?ย Based on the objects heโs drawn in the pastโฆsketching a simple desk should and will beย easy,ย right? Right.ย
Thatย wasย until the orange banded teenโs pencil tip broke.ย But it wasย fine!ย He could just re-sharpen it,ย right?ย Right.
Thatย wasย until the youngest realized he had absolutely no clue where his sharpener was due to the fact his room looked like a pig stie. And there wasย no wayย he was looking for it inโฆthat whole situation.ย
โฆThe situation he created in the first place.ย
Michelangelo layed on his bed with his face staring at the ceiling in frustration, he ran his fingernails along his arms, not making really deep cuts with them but going deep enough for it to hurt a bit.
Like a reasonable turtle would, Mikey should probably get one of his stress toysโฆor better yet,ย another pencil!
But letโs be for real hereโฆheโd most likely find a way to fuck that up too.
Suddenly, there was a small, quiet knock on Mikeyโs door butโฆin all honesty? He just wanted to crawl into his shell and sob for the next hour and a half. Letting out a niiiiice and quick 'come in' would takeย wayย too much energy.ย
The box turtle let out a soft grunt, letting whoever was on the other side know it was a-okay to come in.
Abruptly, Leo peeked in the room, a wide smile plastered on his face as he closed the door, โDamn, Mikesterโฆit looks like every single natural disaster went through your roomโฆโ
โIโm cleaning it.โ The youngest grumbled to his brother.
โReally?ย Youย sureย about that, little bro? Because if my memory serves me correctย (which it in-fact does), you said thatย last week.ย And the week before thatโฆand the week beforeโโ
โI SAID IโM FUCKING CLEANING IT!!!โ The orange banded turtle snapped, sitting up on the bed to glare at his immediate older brother before slowly realizing what he just did.ย
The youngestโs heart dropped as he looked away from his brother. The orange banded mutantโs eyed widened as silent and small tears ran down his face. He covered his mouth as his other hand turned to a fist, his nailsย unforgivinglyย digging into his palm.
โI-Iโm sorryโฆIโm s-sorryโฆI-Iโm so s-sorryโฆ!โ He started, rocking himself back and forth before stopping as he was met with a warm embrace. Leonardo hugged him gently but firmly, rubbing the otherโs shell in a comforting hold. โWoah woahโฆ! Bud, you have nothing to apologize forโฆโ The slightly older teen said as he rested his chin on the top of his baby brotherโs head.
โL-Like h-hell I donโt. I-I just screamed a-at y-you forย noย reasonโฆโ Michelangelo wobbly said. โYou were just trying to lighten the mood but I justย hadย to make everything harder like I-I always doโฆ!โย
โMikeyโโ
โI-I alwaysย do this.ย I-Iโm so f-fucking s-sorry Leoโฆโ
โMikesterโฆI-I appreciate the apology but it seriously isnโt necessaryโโ
โYouโre probably soย sickย of me and soย angryย at me. I-Iโm sorry I justโโ
โMikey!โ Leo gently yelled to get the otherโs attention, squeezing the smaller turtleโs hands as he stared straight at him with pleading eyes. โDo Iย lookย mad?โ
โโฆN-No.โ
โDo Iย soundย mad?โ
โโฆNo.โย
The second youngest sadly smiled, โSo what are you apologizing for, hm?โ
โโฆI-IโฆdunnoโฆI-I justโฆI just felt I needed to apologizeโฆโ The box turtle mumbled as he looked at his hands. The blue banded turtle sighed, slowly getting out of the hug so him and his little brother faced each other. The slider rubbed the other turtleโs palm with his thumb comfortingly, โโฆDo you wanna talk about it, baby bro?โ
The leader in blue was just met with silenceโฆwhich he could honestly work with.
โAngeloโฆyou know you can tell meโฆanything,ย right? Likeโฆanything.ย Although, it doesnโtย haveย to beย meย you talk to about it. It could be Raph or Don or April or even Dad or Draxum! I justโฆdonโt want you sitting here and bottling up the way you feelโฆโย
Silence. Leo continued.
โYouโre always there when we need you, Angel. Whether itโs to vent or to just ramble about shit, youโre justโฆalways there.ย We donโt tell you this enough but we appreciate you always being someone we can lean onโฆโ
Silence. Leo continued.
โButโฆyou do know you can lean on us too, right?ย Comfort goes both ways and I can see youโre hurting, buddy. Soย pleaseโฆif you need to talk to meโฆIโm right here.โ
Mikey sniffled, squeezing Leoโs hand, โI-I d-dunno. Today is justโฆweird.ย This wholeย weekย has just beenโฆweird.โ Leo nodded, giving his brother his full undivided attention, โHow so?โ
โI justโฆhavenโt been able to do anythingโฆโ The smaller teen admitted.
โWhat do you mean?โ The taller teen inquired.ย
โI havenโt been able to doโฆanything.ย Like, I canโt draw, cook or even skateboard!ย Me!!!ย Not being able toย skateboardโย isnโt that crazy?!โ The amber eyed turtle laughed bitterly.
โAnd itโs not like Iย canโtย do it. Iโm perfectly freaking capable of doing it in the right amount of time I want but my brainย just. wonโt. let. me!โย
โI keep procrastinating and not doing the stuff I want to do and I have no ideaย why!ย Iโmย tiredย of just putting things off and being this way! I want to do thingsย withoutย having to ask you guys for help or to remind me or to relate it with a hyperfixation that I have!โ Mikey hiccuped, a new wave of tears rolling down his face as his hands shook.ย
The amber eyed teen sniffled, refusing to look at his immediate older brother at all right now becauseโฆholyย shitย he just overshared a whole lotโฆ
Likeโฆaย whooooooooooleย freaking lot.
โโฆThat sounds like you.โ Leonardo shrugged.ย
In a state of just shock and confusion, the box turtle pulled his hands away from his brother, looking up at him as lime green eyes met amber ones. โIโฆwhatโฆ?โ Michelangelo murmured.
โIย saidย that sounds like you.โ Leo said again casually as Mikey glared at him, โYeah. Iย heardย what you said but that isnโt helpful.โ
โIโm just being honest with you, Mikester.โ Leo said, โJustโฆlet me explain, okay?โ
โโฆYou have five minutes before I kick you out of my room.โย
โDeal.โ The lime green eyed mutant commented, โYou canโt draw, cook or skateboard right now. Youโre procrastinating and not doing the stuff you want to do in the time you plannedโฆis that correct?โย
Michelangelo sent deathly daggers to his brotherโ which the other wasnโt phased by at all. This time was probably theย best timeย to crawl in his own shell and just sob his eyes out becauseย what kind ofย dumbassย question was hisย dumbassย brother asking him?!
โโฆYes.โ The orange banded teen mumbled.ย
โAndโฆwhy are those bad things?โย
โWHY?!โ The box turtle huffed out a laugh of annoyance, โPfftโย youโre asking meย why.ย Maybe itโs because itโsย annoying?!ย Maybe because itโsย frustratingย to deal with and Iย donโtย want to burden you guys withย myย problems?! Maybe because I donโt want to fucking feel orย beย this way?!โ The youngest shouted, breathing heavily as he finished his rant.ย
The box turtle looked away again, silently cursing at himself for getting annoyed so easily. โMikey.โ Leo started again, โYour being too hard on yourself, okay? No one is expecting you to be at your 100% all the time.โย
โWhat you just described to me; you being able to not focus or you getting bored easily or procrastinating with stuff isโฆliterally you.ย Youโre just being you.โ The slider explained as he held his baby brotherโs hand in his. โAnd I get it.ย Itโs hard to deal with it sometimes and itโs going to be hella frustrating. Likeโฆsuper borderline frustrating.ย But you canโt shun them away and justโฆtry to ignore them, bubsโฆโ
โLetโs takeย moiย for example. Iโm impulsive, I talk loud and lose thingsย daily.ย Those three things donโt make up my whole personality but it would be super weird and off-putting if I justโฆdidnโt do or have those three things, right?โย
The youngest giggled wetly, โYeahโฆit would. A-And by the way, Iโm still waiting for you to find that glittery pen kit I gave youโฆโ
Leonardo groaned loudly and dramatically, causing the other teen to giggle louder, โIโmย lookingย for it, okay?! Itโs in my roomโฆsomewhere.โ The taller mutant mused, โBut anywaysโฆback toย you.ย You procrastinate, you relate things to your hyperfixations and you canโt do some of your favorite tasks from time to timeโฆthose are some traits that make up you, is it not?โย
Mikey sniffled, rolling his eyes playfully due to the fact he knewย damn wellย where this was going, โYeahโฆโย
Leo smiled softly, seeing his younger brother was starting to get his point, โI wouldnโt change a single thing about you, okay? I know sometimes itโs hard to deal with the things you described but you haveย usย for that.โ He said as his smile turned to a grin.ย
โYou can come toย meโย toย usโย anytime.ย We love you for who you areโฆyour flaws and all and we justโฆI-I need you to know that we love you so so muchโ!โ The slider was cut off by a sudden abrupt embrace from the box turtle. The orange banded teen sobbed into the otherโs shoulder, clutching the taller turtle like a lifeline.ย
โT-Thank youโฆโ The box turtle wobbly said through tears.ย ย
โOf course, Angel.โ Leo said as he hugged his baby brother back, โI love you.โ He said as he kissed the other teen on the head.
โI-I l-love you tooโฆโ
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โTell your thoughts to shut up.โ Leo said as he lightly poked Mikey in the forehead numerous times. The two were sitting on the box turtleโs bed just simplyโฆrelaxing and enjoying each otherโs company.ย Michelangelo was sitting in between his older brotherโs legs as he had his shell to his brotherโs plastron.
Leonardo hugged his brother protectively, resting his chin on the top of the box turtleโs head. โWhat do you mean?โ The youngest giggled out. โI canย hearย your thoughts, man. Youโre not bothering me or disturbing me in any way, shape or form, alrightโฆ?โย
The amber eyed turtle nodded, squeezing Leoโs hand, โY-YeahโฆI know...โย
โIโmย choosingย to be here becauseย I love you.ย I donโt feel obligated to be here, okay? Youโre not annoying and you, neither your problems are a burdenโฆokay?โ The slider said reassuringly, โItโs okay to ask us for helpโฆand we donโt mind reminding you to do thingsโฆokay?โย
โYouโve said โokayโ like,ย fifty timesโฆโ
โMikey.โย
โMhmโฆyeah yeahโฆI gotchaโฆโ
The elder looked at his brother skeptically, resting his chin on his little brotherโs shoulder so they made solid eye contact, โI want you to say it.โย
โโฆSayย whatย exactly?โ
โI want you to say that you are anย amazing personย and you donโt need to change aย single thingย about yourself.โย
โYouย are an amazing person andย youย donโt need to change a single thing aboutย yourself.โ Michelangelo grinned smugly. Leonardo glared at the youngestโs interpretation to his statement, โMikey, you know exactly what I meant.โย
โI said what you wanted me to sayโฆsoโฆโ The amber eyed teen trailed off.
โMichelangelo.โ The slider said in a warning tone as he poked the otherโs side. The box turtle squeaked at the unexpected touch, trying to stop his immediate older brother from doing it again but his brother had a strong but gentle grip on himโฆ
Then the smallest turtle came to recognition that he was stuck in aย potentialย tickle hug with no way outโฆ
โฆHow wonderful.ย
โL-Leeheeoโฆdoohooย nahat.โ The orange banded mutant warned through his giggles, said warning not seemingย tooย threatening due to the fact he was already laughing up a storm. The leader in blue raised a brow, poking the otherโs side repeatedly, โI just want you to repeat what I saidโฆin theย first person.โ The taller teen specified.
The smaller turtle squirmed in the hug, small frantic giggles pouring out of his mouth.ย Thisโฆreally wasnโt how he was expecting his day to go.ย Just about an hour ago, he was wallowing in sadness about the stuff he hated about himself, toย talking about itย with his brother, to now gettingย tickledย by his brother.
โฆSo could heย reallyย complain about how things turned out?
โฆYes. Yes, heย absolutelyย could.ย ย
โLeeheeon!ย Plehease dohonโt!โ The youngest squealed as one of his brotherโs hands hovered over his stomach. Mikey held onto the otherโs wrists, trying to stop his elder brother from tickling him but his small attempts ending up to be all for nothing as Leo effortlessly tickled his stomach with one hand.
โLEEHEEHAHAHA!!โ Michelangelo laughed wholeheartedly, swatting at his brotherโs arms. The lime green eyed turtle cooed at the gesture, now using both of his hands to attack the youngestโs plastron, โD'awwโฆlook at you giggling your head off~! Youโre my adorable little bundle of amazingness, arenโt you~?โ
The smaller teen shook his head, a faint blush appearing on his face, โSTAHAโ squeal N-NAHAHA!โ
โWhat~? What was that?โ The blue banded mutant asked as he kneaded the box turtleโs hips. โGYAHAHโ squealย SHIHIHIT!ย COHOME OHAHAN!!!โ The amber eyed turtle cried frantically as he kicked his legs on the mattress slightly.ย
The youngest squealed with laughter, curling in on himself as he slumped in his big brotherโs hold. Leonardo just sighed fondly at the action, wrapping the other in another hug as he raspberried his neck. โLEEHEEHEE!! PLAHAHโ squeak NAHAHAT THEHERE squeak PLEHEASE PLEHEASEโ squeak!!!โ
โNot there~?โ The elder lightly mocked, โWhat aboutโฆhere~?โ He mused as he used his hands to scribble all over the younger turtleโs ribs. Mikey cackled, shaking his head to try and atย leastย subside the tickly feelings.
โNAHAHAโ squeal AHAHAHA!! NAHAHAT THEHEHERE EHEโ squeal EHEHEITHER!!! LEEHEEO!!โ The orange banded turtle squeaked as Leo stopped for a second, โIโve triedย soooooย many spots, buddy! How many times are you gonna say not there, hm?โ
Mikey genuinely squawked louder than a firefighter siren, squirming so much it looked like he was actually being electrocuted. โPLEHEHAHA LEEHEEO NAHAHAT THEHEHE RIHIHIBS!!!โ He cackled.ย
โNot the riiiibs~? Why~? Is it because itโs yourย tickleย spot~? Yourย tickletickletickleย spot~? Because youโreย ticklish~?โ Leonardo asked as he lightly nibbled the crook of Mikeyโs neck.ย
Michelangelo screamed in laughter, scrunching up his shoulders as he dug his heels on the bed, a couple of his plushies sadly falling on the floor (R.I.P. manโฆ) โEEEHEEHEEP!!!ย S-STAHAP BEEHEEING MEEHEAN!โ Mikey said as he thrashed on the bed.ย
The slider said nothing, his hands sneaking up to the box turtleโs underarms. โAAAAHAHAHA!ย OHO NOHOHOโ squeak SHIT! SHIHIHAHAT!โ
Happy tears slowly begin to appear in the smallest teenโs eyes, he weakly hit Leoโs arms as a last attempt to be set free, โLEHEHEMME squeal GOHOHOHO!โย
โOhonly if you sahay it, bubs.โย
โIHIHIโ SQUEAK!! LEEHEEHEEON!!!โย
โYeeeees, baby brother~?โ The elder dragged out as he kneaded the otherโs hips.
โIHIโLL SAHAY IHIHAT I-IHIHIโLL SAHAHAY IHIT!!โ The amber eyed teen squealed.ย
โAnd you promise not to be a sassy little shit about it~?โ The older teen asked.
โSQUEAK YEHAHAHAโ SQUEAK YEHES YEHES I-I PROHOHOMISE!โย
Leo stopped tickling his little brother, hugging him protectively as the youngest caught his breath slowly but surely. โW-Wahaitโฆwhahat squeak wahas ihihat yohou eeheeven wahanted me squeak to sahay again?โย
The taller turtle pondered for a bit, thinking to himself before loudly groaning, โThatโsโฆa good damn question. I donโt really remember exactly what I wanted you to say in the first placeโฆโ The lime green eyed turtle sighed, โForgetfulness at its finest...โย
The red eared slider adjusted himself, making sure the other was comfortable before starting to speak again, โWellโฆbased on what we talked aboutโฆcould you maybe justโฆy'knowโฆโ Leo gestured with his hands before groaning, โDo you get what Iโm trying to say, man?โย
โโฆI thihink I have ahan ideaโฆโ Mikey giggled as he fiddled with his hands, โI shouldnโt beat myself up so much because of some of my traits or quirks. And Iโmย allowedย to feel frustrated and/or upset because things donโt go my way because of them. ButโฆI shouldnโt allow those things to put me down...โ
Michelangelo smiled softly, rubbing his palm with his thumb, โThey donโt define me as a person but theyย makeย me a person. I donโt need to be at my best 100% and Iโmย allowedย to have bad days. And if things get too overwhelming or difficult I can just go to you guys.โย
Mikey hugged himself, letting out a small laugh as his happy tears welled up in his eyes, โIโm justโฆbeing me.ย And thereโs nothing wrong with that.โ Leonardo teared up at his brotherโs words, hugging him tighter than he ever had before and burying his face at the back of the youngestโs head.
โNever forget that, Miguelitoโฆnever forget that.โย
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#Rottmnt tickle#Rottmnt tickle fic#Rottmnt tickle fanfiction#Lee!Mikey#Ler!Leo#MWYAHSHSHHSAN#This is actually so silly I love this ๐๐๐#I hope you guys enjoyed the angst ๐คช#ADHDERS AND PPL WITH ADHD TENDENCIES UNITE ๐๐พ๐๐ฉท๐๐๐๐โผ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธ#Adhd is a bitch ๐คโฆ#Leo can be an asshole at times but he doesnโt mean to I swear ๐ญ๐#My boy just copes with jokes but he has a hard time understanding that not EVERYONE copes like that#So when Mikey snapped at him and started breaking down he was like: โ๐ -> ๐ -> ๐ -> ๐ -> ๐ซขโ#I HATTTEEE forgetting to brush my teeth ๐โฆitโs so damn nasty man#AND NOT BEING ABLE TO DRAW LIKE YOU USED TOโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ GRAUGHHHH REAL SHIT#I care about these two sm omfg#I need more content with these tWO LOOK AT THEM ๐ฅน๐๐งก!!!#โTell ur thoughts to shut up ๐โ msndhjsjss peak sibling comment#Also I changed my writing style a TEEEEENSY weensy bit if you havenโt guessed#For a whileโฆI havenโt like the **โs I put at the noises that characters made when they laughed :/#Soooo I tried just doing it in italics and AHHUUGHFHS ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฉท๐๐๐#IT LOOKS SM BETTER#I just wanted the laughing to seem more natural#Your just being you guys ๐ซถ๐พ#DONโT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF PLEASEEEE#Eat some snacks!!! Drink some water/juice!!! Exercise!!!#Your allowed to feel the way you do so just take it easy โบ๏ธ๐๐พ#IโM RUNNING OUTTA TAGS BUT IF ANYONE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT THE BEHIND THE STAGE WORKS ON HOW I MADE THIS I CAN ALWAYS YAP TO YOU ABT IT ๐๐ค๐พ#I donโt think I implied this very well but Leo feels the same way Mikey feelsโฆso thatโs why he was so PERSISTENT on making sure Mikeyโs alr#But Leo take his own advice challenge GO ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธ Maybe a pt. 2 ๐ซข??? Idk yet lolololololol
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link to the post I accidentally wound up prattling endlessly about in the tags ๐
#doctor who#tenth doctor#martha jones#david tennant#freema agyeman#(good god. without even meaning to I went into 'psycho stream of consciousness tagging' mode. whoops)#always thinking of that one post#where OP mentions how the writing tries to make it seem like Ten looked right through Martha/etc#which is a good concept for demonstrating his grief. but also isnt what we really see throughout S3#(not saying he wasn't a grieving MESS because he was. but he's a multi-faceted character and he can grieve AND value Martha simultaneously)#but we see such fierce protective instinct+trust; a bond between them that obviously isn't some one-sided affair#+ his clear intent to impress her/be admired and respected by her (apropos the post that inspired this sentiment)#but RTD obviously isn't the most infallible of writers#*cough* [list of reasons I cut down b/c long] *cough*#He can make Martha say โhe's not seeing me/he doesn't look at meโ but then you just watch with your eyes and you get a different story#It's like the opposite of when Moffat tries to make you believe someone is super important through bold claims without showing his work#instead RTD tries to make you believe Ten is functionally blind to Martha's existence while showing numerous examples of the contrary#then bring in the novels+myspace blog+cartoon that he all signed off on. Which tie together to create a canon backdrop#basically I said all of that to say thisโ#it's the whole reason I had to make this blog to get this sort of stuff off my chest (even if it's just for me sometimes)โ#Ten not only SAW Marthaโhe trusted+respected+enjoyed+adored her. And it's a good thing#it doesn't cheapen his grief. I feel like people must think it does which is why I constantly see bad unnecessary takes about them#it just means that Martha was SO important to him and it's ok. they had a killer friendship outside the unrequited minutiae and it's ok#there's even a comic where 'someone' makes him believe she's Martha and he makes her change her appearance because โit's still too rawโ#Just saying you don't say that sort of thing about someone whose existence you're all blasรฉ about#Martha already gets fucked by the narrative in enough ways without people totally missing her significance in the Doctor's life#you don't have to ship them to appreciate them on a deeper level#anyway. fuck. if you actually read all of these then I'm so sorry#creating this blog has taught me that there are only like two people who feel the same way about tenmartha matters and itโs fine ๐#but if I didnโt give myself an outlet it would probably form a tumor SO there we are then
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for the ask game
tim creates a clone of kon, but this is dicktim tim has to carry the fetus or breastfeed it, but dick suddenly gets a mommy kink and immediately falls in love
for the ask game!
DICKTIM MOMMY KINK. how did you know i have such a thing for just about any Batcest ship where the other person calls Tim mommy. i don't even know why i just think that shit is so fun.
it'd have to be Omegaverse for me, that's the only scenario i personally could write m-preg. i like the thought of no one knowing that Tim has gone on this crusade. and after 99 failures, Tim's so desperate and angry he tries in vitro fertilization. the first few times it doesn't work so he doesn't take it too seriously, at this point it's just a compulsion. he gets to a point he stops taking the pregnancy tests. so when about a month later, he's experiencing morning sickness and he's missed his heat, Tim has an 'oh, shit.' moment. and well. telling Dick first is his *natural* answer. (i think he'd also go to Steph, but in canon she'd be "dead" at this point) Tim doesn't know what to do, he didn't think he'd get this far. Dick is comforting and grounding, agreeing to help Tim hide this the best he can. Tim has to time it right, fake a bad injury so it makes sense he's benched and wearing baggy sweaters for a few months.
it's platonic at first. Dick is an alpha but his bond with Tim is more of a pack bond and he's just trying to help Tim through this awkward situation he got himself into. (and not laugh at him too much in the process bc well. only Tim. only Tim could manage this.) the pregnancy hormones have Tim all over the place. he's seeking comfort and Dick is trying to keep it platonic and professional, even when he's cuddling Tim or bringing him weird cravings at 2 am. the trust in Dick and Tim's bond makes Dick Tim's only real support system. (also just bc the Titans were a goddamn mess in this era) maybe at some point they tell Bruce the truth but Bruce is dealing with Jason so. bigger fish. it forces them closer as Dick is the only one who can help Tim with the awkward sides of pregnancy. Dick is basically living with Tim and because Tim can't satiate the itch to be in the field (he's tried sneaking out, it earned him a lecture from Dick and a warning that Dick would handcuff him to the radiator if Tim tried that again) so Tim runs comms. for anyone who asks, but mostly for Dick, to the point he's in Dick's ear even when Dick doesn't need the backup, just to keep each other company.
i think, as the pregnancy went on and Tim's chest started to fill out and his hips are bigger, that's when Dick's feeling shift. one second Tim is just his pack, the next Tim is suddenly a very pretty, very vulnerable omega that's Dick is protecting and his wires get all kinds of crossed about it. he starts dousing himself in scent blockers so Tim doesn't notice the change, can't smell how much Dick wants him. which makes Tim annoyed because Dick's scent has been a consistent calming factor keeping the worst of his hormones in check. it'd lead to an awkward fight where Dick is dancing around the truth and Tim just wants to bite him out of anger. finally, Dick admits it and. Tim kind of bluescreens bc sure he's had a crush on Dick for years, but it's sort of like your celebrity crush calling you up and asking for a date. it makes no sense and he can't wrap his head around it. he almost thinks Dick is making fun of him, because Tim is super self-conscious about the pregnancy and mortified he put himself in this situation. it takes a lot of reassurance and a long conversation, but. well, they do end up having sex.
Dick doesn't *mean* to call Tim mommy the first time. he knows Tim hates being emasculated as an omega, and knows Tim is vulnerable about being pregnant. their sex is gentle, no matter how much Tim insists he can take it because Dick doesn't want to hurt the baby, or Tim. it's when Tim finally huffs with annoyance and flips them over -reminding Dick that Tim is still trained and deadly, even like this- to take control and actually get the rough sex he needs right now, when it slips out. there's something just very pretty about Tim taking control and taking what he needs from Dick, but still being whiny and squirmy on top of him. so the first time Dick calls him mommy is an accident and they're *both* startled by just how much they like it. their sex life goes from soft and caring to *very* interesting overnight, where Dick doesn't hide how much he likes Tim's chest. and well. breastfeeding kink. for completely scientific reasons, of course. just to help the milk flow and make sure Tim's body is adjusting well. definitely not bc of the noises Tim makes when Dick does it no sir.
when Tim finally has the clone baby, they're both smitten with this tiny clone. i think they'd end up mating and either say it's Dick's baby or they adopted it. (the lie only works short term bc well, sooner or later that baby's going to start lifting trucks. not to mention Kon does come back to life and is perturbed by how much Tim's kid looks like him.) it's a very cute, fluffy happily ever after sort of deal, with plenty of mommy kink. i think Tim would be huffy and annoyed at how long he'd have to wait for sex bc in my mind, Tim uses sex as a stress relief and is very annoyed when he's deprived of it so, they'd find creative ways around it.
#necrotic festerings#dicktim#tim drake x dick grayson#dick grayson x tim drake#timdick#batcest#mpreg#nsft#to be clear i'm so not here to yuck anyone's yum about mpreg in the confines of like. normal guy giving birth#it's just not my personal wheelhouse#and tbf you could do this with trans!tim and make it work#but as an afab trans person who's infertile i won't lie. i forget afab trans ppl can have babies.#fully goes over my head.#if you ever read one of my fics and go โwhy didn't they use protection he could get pregnant??โ#know the answer is i fucking *forgot* most afab ppl are fertile.#same with periods bc i don't get mine. straight up forget everyone else does a monthly blood sacrifice.#anywhore#this one is a tad out of my wheelhouse so it was fun to think about!#bc usually i wouldn't explore an idea like this so it was a fun challenge to see how i would do it#do love that mid typing it i checked comic dates to see if steph was 'dead' and she was then i continued on like nothing happened#2006 was a weird era for comics.#i think a soft idea is a fun lil palette cleanser after the dead dove so this one was cute!!#anyway more mpreg should have just the weirdness of pregnancy#messy hormones! cravings! body changes! being unable to tie your own damn shoes!#that's the FUN of it#like dick would regularly see tim naked even before feelings bloomed just because tim needed help getting in his damn pants.#so when feelings start dick is sweating for his life helping Tim dress like. don't be suspicious. don't be suspicious.#tim in dick's clothes bc his own don't fit anymore >>>#i do love mommy kink tho it's my fave how'd you know.#fussy bottom mommy tim. how i love you.
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the cats of the park is just frostpaw finally getting some therapy
tbh tho I feel like them being separate from clan life would help her immensely. Theyโre not so wrapped up in this culture of battle so they have a new and refreshing perspective (and also frost doesnโt have to worry about ulterior motives because they are STAYING AWAY from THAT trainwreck that is the clans)
RE: Nothing in BB!ASC is set in stone until the arc is done BUT
One excellent thing ASC has done with the Park cats that is commendable, is that they're treated as legitimate. Not inferior or malicious. They're just another culture that Frostpaw is going to learn from. The bar is UNDERGROUND but we've finally hopped over it.
So I'd want to keep and acknowledge that.
I think I might have an interesting idea for Frostpaw's journey. Also, side note... I'm thinking BB!ASC will rename every book because these titles are actually awful, im sorry. So I'd call this one ASC: The Source of the River
Gonna jot these down;
So, to begin with, Frostpaw calls the human. While being heavily sedated, she has her first vision of Riverstar.
FROSTPAW DOES NOT HAVE A SPECIAL CONNECTION TO STARCLAN.
She NEVER would. Screw that. Instead-- learning to connect to this vision of Riverstar, to her ancestors and their wisdom, is a SKILL she would learn.
Frame the journey less as Riverstar's Side Quest and more as Frostpaw chasing the Revelation she had while anesthetized.
So when she wakes up, she's thinking about how incomprehensibly VAST Riverstar was. She can't even imagine how there's enough space in the world to contain such a being.
Even the Lake itself... the lake is just a droplet, being suckled like a kit on the teat of the Southern Inlet river
For a second, her troubles seemed like a small flea on the nose of a great, cosmic being. But as she reconnects with the mortal plane after her dream, the flea becomes an infestation. She doesn't know where to begin, or how she can save her Clan.
She thinks back to Riverstar. The river that feeds the Lake. Was that what he was trying to tell her? That she has to follow it to the source?
STOP 1: RIVER WARD
The BB!Tribe is massively overhauled. The Tribe of Rushing Water defines themselves as three Wards (Cave, Mountain, River), connected by living on the same stretch of river.
From them, she learns about connections. They are simply able to call upon each other for all they need, there's no need to "appoint" someone to manage everything.
Families and friends hold each other accountable, networking and negotiating constantly. When the group must act as one, it casts stones.
Their Stoneteller is a religious leader, but all cats connect with their ancestors by personally interpreting omens, even without needing to go see him.
(Contrast to BB!Clans, whose Clerics are the KEEPERS of holy knowledge, and it is a sin to interpret StarClan's will on your own)
Yet, there are downsides. She can see ostracised cats who skirt at the edges of the Ward, especially the descendants of a particular group (called Flicks) that she learns once tried to invade the River Ward.
Though they welcome travellers and have a positive view of Clan cats as "family," she learns that they freeze out those who break taboo. Even for smaller offenses-- social faux pas and personal disputes have caused rifts within the Ward.
And the personal omen interpretation means that two cats can try and justify their feelings with religious commands, leveraging any "soothsayer" (particularly religious cats) connections they have like a social pissing match, unless they're both willing to get dragged to Stoneteller.
From all this, Frostpaw learns that she CAN connect to Riverstar and her ancestors, even if she can't speak to them... and that she must LISTEN. Not allow herself to twist her ancestor's words.
And all the Wards are connected, by the source of a river. Suddenly she answers her question.
"How could the world be big enough to contain a being like Riverstar?" Because water isn't all in one place. It's everywhere. It pools where it can and flows where it cannot.
And yet-- a single people is connected by its water. Three wards, one River. Five Clans, one Lake... three siblings, one belly.
Her heart aches thinking about Curlfeather.
She thinks of when quarreling Tribemates are brought to Stoneteller to arbitrate, and be taught the truth. Brought up the river, to its source at the waterfall.
That has to be it! The source, the BEGINNING.
Stop 2 would be WarriorClan as she heads south, but I'm not sure what they'd teach her yet lmao. Monkeystar says "Hi! Do you want to learn how to play a kazoo"
STOP 3... I'd want to rename the Park Cats. Maybe the New Park cats.
(evil brain: "Neopark. Make terrible petsite joke. Be reincarnated as a lotus flower)
There would also be a BIG recap of Ancient Park culture, and the River Kingdom. Frostpaw knows they had KINGS.
And a lot of aspects that modern Clan cats have-- ceremonial sparring, mentors and apprentices, the Law of the Deputy... those came out of the River Kingdom, before its collapse in the Code Era.
But these cats are NOTHING like the glorious tales of a Kingdom warrior. In fact... this is THE park!
THE park that was destroyed, which King Arc-of-Park lead his people away from. How could it have been ruined if it's still here?
(Reality: the Park was shrunk and landscaped. It was destroyed in that time to the perspective of cats. Maybe she'll have some visions of the past through meditation...)
But the survivors, and those who chose not to follow their King... they remained. And they continue to thrive.
Like canon, have them teach her the ability to meditate. Unlike Tribe cats, meditation is about SIGNS, not OMENS. Omens are physical. Signs are psychic.
(Also i like Bee so im probably gonna keep him as Frosty's yoga coach)
She sees Riverstar a few times, has details of Curlfeather's scheme revealed to her in enough chunks to piece together,
but is eventually bowled over when her best, most productive meditation yet... results in a black shadow.
He has a shining pearlstone adorning his head, and deep, wet pools for eyes. Very few other features can be made out, besides his paw, which is shockingly normal compared to his wraith-like body.
Somehow, Frostpaw understands she is looking at a Patron. But she doesn't know who he is until he tells her, he is King Arc-of-Park.
Though remembered, he is not invoked often. The details of his appearance are lost. All that remains of him is his paw-- carried on in a few expressions and the -paw suffix. The one which Frostpaw herself currently bears.
Since Riverstar, his beloved son, so rarely speaks in straightforward terms, he has come to give Frostpaw her answers.
But before she speaks, trembling with desire for finally FINALLY getting the truth, almost frozen by the sheer volume of things she needs to know, he stops and tells her,
"You have earned the truth, Frostpaw. Be not afraid to ask for what you are owed-- but we only have time for three questions, and I shall ask three in turn."
Question 1: "What did you need me to learn?"
"Many things. How to find your own answers. The perspective of the thousand eyes you've met. The wisdom that only a pilgrimage can bestow. I, too, was no leader before I brought my people up the river, and now you too must save RiverClan. Have you learned what we sought to teach?"
She feels unsure... "I don't think I can know if I have, until I go home."
Even though he has no mouth, she can hear his smile, "That is a yes, child."
Question 2: "What am I learning about RiverClan and its history, if these New Park cats are nothing like my Kingdom ancestors?"
He hums, "You have come to the source of the river, and are vexxed to not find the water that is already swirling downstream? No cat stands in the same river twice, for it is not the same river, and they are not the same cat. Are my people gone, Frostpaw, or do they live on?"
Stunned, her jaw hangs open ever so slightly. She thought she knew the answer right away, but his simple question becomes a riddle on her tongue.
He tells her not to worry. She does not need to answer his questions immediately, as they're running out of time. Ask your last.
Question 3: "...did my mom love me?"
IMMEDIATE, "she did. Child of my distant blood, she loved you like a king loves his prince. Ferociously, ambitiously... selfishly."
He cradles her face in his one, massive, silk-soft paw, like he's reaching out of the shadows, across time itself. His last question, "She put you in a terrible position, didn't she?"
A lifetime's worth of love and agony bubbles out of the kid, "SHE DID. She DID and I never did ANYTHING to deserve this, I did everything she told me, and I just wanted to make her happy, and... and i miss my mom."
When she returns from her trance, she's crying.
But her companions are here to help her unpack all of what she just learned.
Will probably end up letting her recruit a little DND party lmao... maybe one cat from each pit stop. Heartstar shouldn't be the only girlie who's allowed to get expansion packs.
Make a little found family here that Frostpaw returns home with.
RE: NOT. CONFIRMED YET. NONE of this is BB canon yet. Just thoughts I need to get down.
#better bones au#bone babble#BB!ASC#I hope i can have night join river in the end tbh#Honestly i feel like it works best if he burned his bridge in thunder several times over#And realizes he really won't be happy there and he feels like the best thing to do is start new#Like have a bittersweet feeling where he's still loved and loves them. But with time they all see it was a wise and honest choice#Budding theme here could be Sometimes Love Is Not Enough#Something about how sometimes you need to change your environment. Either by leaving it or working on it#And a bad environment for one person is a good one for another#BUT AGAIN gotta see where everyone ends up
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The Dobrynin family is a corpo family through and through, rooted in Arasaka and Orbital Air going back by several generations; though their powerful position within the corporate world ends with the children of Nadya and Matvey Dobrynin. With Vitali and Daniil fired from Arasaka and Kang Tao respectivelyโ the former indirectly getting his parents fired, tooโ and Roksana having refused to set foot within a megacorporation from the start, the family begins crumbling apart at the very seams when clashing interests lead to grudges, betrayal, and pointless acts of revenge. โณ read the unrevised fic here if you're interested!
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#cp2077#edit:daniil#edit:matvey#edit:nadya#edit:roksana#edit:vitali#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#the fic has a proper title now thank you everyone who voted in that poll ^_^ i'm very excited to start working on a rewrite!!#it's gonna be a lot bigger because i'm going to be including chunks of previous events that take place between in-game and this fic#all in flashbacks. so like. vitali's death and how he stabs mikhail while brainwashed and how he snaps out of it#and the fight they have later on. because all of those events are key moments referenced in the fic#but they're not explicitly mentioned because past me went with the assumption people had already read those fics#so i just described the events if that makes sense. but if i want this to work on its own i NEED to include them#anyway. night city's most dysfunctional family fr i have so much to say about them but i'll keep it brief for now#nadya and daniil have nadya's last name because matvey and nadya end up getting divorced#initially roksana also gets her mother's last name but she changes it back sometime later#because she doesn't want to be associated with her mother anymore#daniil's stats are very bad because he's a useless loser sorry for everyone who took a liking to him. he doesn't deserve your love#the word count still makes me :0!! also because like. i did that... i wrote that...#also made this template myself so i don't have a link for it sorry :( and also i made it in firealpaca and not ps#anyway yes very excited to see what you guys think of this and also if you have any questions feel free to shoot me asks!!
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Puyo/Madou, meet ISAT. ISAT, meet Puyo/Madou. I'm sure you have everything in common and this is not at all a completely random crossover of my two current interests
#dont look at Salde for rhe love of my sanity do not even percieve Salde i dint kwno what ifmf doing g#art#fanart#ISAT#puyo puyo#in stars and time#madou monogatari#kitscribbles#sig puyo puyo#schezo wegey#arle nadja#ringo ando#sig really do be sig no last name#prince salde#their ages are different in this one. oldest to youngest - schezo > arle > sig > ringo > salde#you see that stubble on Sig thats baby stubble. thats unfortunate facial hair on a teenager#sometimes it works out for people still in their teens but not sig#Ringo is!! Perhaps a bit too young to travel!! She's basically a foreign exchange student#i have to admit all the roles and dynamics in ISAT are NOT 1:1 in this AU#i have it all mixed up#when i say sig and schezo are besties i mean theyre both awkward with people they just happen to have an understanding. also sig bullies hi#Sig is he/they here!! I dont usually mess with canon genders (hella respect those who do) but honestly i just like it for Sig...#I still need to learn more about Salde but imma just go ahead and say that Salde is kid gender#Was tempted to hide Sig's lil hair thingies under his hat but then was like. Why would i do that#favorite joke in all this is that Schezo tried so hard to Change that he fucked up his own speech patterns and now socializing is. well#sig didnt shave before the loops and now he has to do that every time or suffer the teasing of his friends at some point in the house#thanks guys im going insane over here and youre laughing. going nonverbal now#How does Salde balance a fish on their head? uhhhhh well you see. have you ever balanced a massive bag of frozen peas#Salde doesnt cook but there's money in that fish. Nobody feels comfortable enough to ask a kid for cash but they WILL reward good behavior#in puyos and time
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your art is absolutely amazing
i just went thru all of the poorly drawn mdzs and it was amazing seeing your art develop!
you just made my morning, thabkyou <3
Thank you so much for the kind words, and for cheering me on as I continue to learn!
#ask#non mdzs#digital art#I got this ask a while back during a time I was feeling down about my lack of art progress;#You inspired me to go back and actually *look* at how far I've come and it gave me a much needed boost to keep drawing B'*)#I saved this ask in my inbox so I could use it as a positive reminder that I *am* growing and changing!#But now... I have to send that appreciation back. Thank *YOU* for making my week!#I do not know much about puparia but I do think the character in your pfp is very stunning. I hope they have a happy ending!#(In general; if you've sent me a lovely message like this and i *haven't* replied; they all really do mean a lot to me!)#(I am slowly working my way through my entire ask box! I'll get it done!!! I Will!!!)
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โจ Star Friends โจ
When I found out that @chessman-protocol boy Crit liked Astronomy, letโs just say I was beyond estatic and immediately planned this little comic. Hereโs to my boy Vincent doing his best to make friends with folks who share similar interests ๐
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Funny enough, I didnโt realize I put this in Vincent characterโs until I looked at the whole thing, but Vincent very much shares the lack of stranger danger the way I did/ I do to this day. To quote one of my past managers Iโm โabnormally friendlyโ or whatever
I canโt tell you how many times even as a small child (drove my parents nuts) that I saw a cool person with whatever connecting factor and I just straight up walked to them and was like โOk cool. Weโre friends now.โ And nobodyโs really stopped me? So apparently I have friends now. ๐
Vincent however is just a wholesome baby boy who doesnโt realize heโs actually an intimidating hunk of a turtle and randomly walking up to strangers and not saying anything can be taken the wrong way.
Like I said, heโs trying his best. He wasnโt exactly the most socialized if you canโt tell, but he does love dearly and is certainly a boone of a friend to have once you get past the inevitable social awkwardness. Heโs loyal to put because he really doesnโt know better, and I adore him for that. Anyway, dunno if Crit knows any ASL or not, but either way Vincent is just excited to meet somebody else who likes space โจ๐ ๐
#just being jayus#doing this ugly and scared#my boy <3#Vincent my beloved#rottmnt original character#rottmnt oc#original comic#rottmnt#save rottmnt#unpause rise of the tmnt#time to go feral in the comments again; please ignore the ramblings of an insane person#Fun fact: Vincent is mute (late mutation and didnโt fully develop vocal chords) and so he only speaks turtle and partial ASL#Morrocoy Tortoise AKA Yellow or Red Footed Tortoise bop their head to assert dominance and show emotions#Head hopping and headbutting is Vincentโs tic and you can tell how heโs feeling by how fast or slow he goes because itโs a VIBE#Working on this comic was like the preverbal attempt of taking a horse to water#except this horse is a pony (anything under 14 hands is of the devil) and would not even spare it a glance unless it was perfection#Alas mockery and spite is unfortunately my demise and I could not handle the blank page any longer#Can you see how my style changed when the focus and subject changed?๐
#Forgive me my son#for I have not learned to draw you from all angles yet.#Why did I make you so pretty and detailed in my head and yet have my hand betray you?!#The true tragedy is when your idea level is not at your skill level bECaUsE I KnOw wHaT hEs SuPpOsEd To LoOk LiKe BuT I CaNt DrAw HiM yEt#So here we are and I am accutely aware of how much work there is to be done. Iโm looking at you flippin turtle anatomy#But hey we all have to start somewhere#so here I am#I tried and by golly I will keep trying. Vincent deserves that much ๐
๐งก๐ซก#I just looked back at this and realized I MISSED A STINKING PANEL. And Vincentโs shirt.#Flips a table in my mind#Also Iโve never made a mute character before so if anybody has notes especially about ASL PLEASE PLEASE P L E A S E lemme know.#Wanna make sure I represent the peoples correctly ๐ซก๐งก
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So I was asked to expand on the whole Jamil having a trauma response to Leona comment on my last post, aaand here's that.
(This pertains to chapter 6 btw, so spoiler warning)
(also it's very much sleep deprived rambling so sorry if it's, well, rambly)
First off, I'm operating under the assumption that he has cPTSD. Jamil has clearly been programmed since birth to always obey the Asims and act in their best interests, even at the expense of his own life. This is a boy who has been forced to eat poison to protect them and their assets, who's family was forced to let that happen, and who has been so desperate his entire life to escape that situation that he was willing to resort to murder and doom not just himself but his whole family which he is implied to care about. Which means if simply quitting was an option, he would have done so. So, you kinda have to infer that he and his family don't have a choice in this role, and there are severe enough consequences for disobedience that fucking up or refusing is a worse option than risking a slow painful death every time Kalim wants to eat something. And this is all stuff that's been depicted blatantly in canon, not even touching on the assumptions that could be made from there.
So that's the position Jamil is in. That is a traumatic situation. This is a guy who has been groomed for servitude and obedience since he was old enough to talk. These kinds of circumstances absolutely can lead someone to be triggered into subservience or other trained behaviors. That's just, a thing with trauma.
Now, with the Asims being one of if not THE most powerful merchant families in their country, one of the expectations of Jamil as their servant and especially as the attendant to their heir is to ensure good relationships with other rich and powerful families, especially royalty. This was shown in the fireworks event, where he states that as a prince, if Malleus came to any harm under his watch while a guest of the Asims, it could start an international conflict. These are incredibly high stakes, a misstep on Jamil's part could ruin the Asim family and potentially even endanger his country, and it's pretty strongly implied that he and his family would take the blame and suffer the consequences. Now, much like how wearing a company logo while at work makes your actions representative of your employer, Jamil serving the Asims 24/7 (and especially as the chaperone of their heir) means that he is representing their family At All Times. This is why he is forced to defer to Kalim in all aspects of life even outside of their country, part of his job is to make his employers look good, and there are consequences for not doing so. This means that anyone of high enough status to be significant to the Asims is someone who Jamil is required to be subordinate to.
Then, enter Leona. As a wealthy prince, he would be someone who Jamil is expected maintain good relations with at any cost to himself. With his position Leona could literally destroy Jamil's (and probably his family's) entire life with a single complaint to the Asims about his conduct. Like, he could do that with no actual cause just for fun, because the Asims are 100% going to take the side of a prince over an expendable servant. This means that one misstep or any backtalk from Jamil puts him at massive risk, it is entirely up to Leona whether or not he suffers for any of these actions, and while the audience knows Leona's personal morals would prevent him from actually doing that, Jamil does not.
THEREFORE (sorry this ended up so long), once Jamil was in a life threatening situation with Leona, it seems likely that all this programming and fear would manifest in desperately trying to protect him and follow orders the way he's always done for Kalim. To me, the way he snapped into bodyguard mode, and immediately complied with every one of Leona's bitchy commands (like giving him a hair ornament to throw away without question, and barely saying anything about it after), even while being humiliated and knowing he was less trained in magic, just comes off more like a trigger response than anything. Especially because I can't imagine that situation not being triggering, and I can't imagine him knowing any other way to respond.
#jamil viper#leona kingscholar#jamil ptsd analysis#twst#this is also why I got so pissed about leona's behavior in that chapter#like I do genuinely like his character. he's one of my favorites and I get where he was coming from#but boy was being ignorant as all fuck#like jamil is so heavily implied to be an indentured servant#and leona could probably buy his whole family#there's no version of 'i know what it's like to feel overlooked. suck it up and work with what you've got' advice#that could benefit Jamil from this guy#because changing your attitude and putting in the work doesn't free you from a situation like that#and I can only assume that coming from a free country in the modern world#Leona just hasn't considered that Jamil would BE in a situation like that. it's not exactly normal#and this is the guy so out of touch he thought Ruggie's home was a doghouse. so I mean. giving him the benefit of the doubt on this#but goddamn was that out of touch. and I just hate how they wrote the conclusion between them#not the intended subject when i wrote this. but tagging it as#small steps fic#for the small steps crowd in case they get curious about what else i have to say on them??#i feel like some of the thoughts from this post are gonna be playing into the story
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Go play pretend on your own (Patreon)
#Doodles#Helix#Dexter Favin#Coraline#The Beldam#The other side of this coin <3 Call him out but this time make it unfriendly hehe#I talked last time about the daring rescue!! I do love the daring rescue in Coraline AUs ah same thing with the Camp Camp Coraline AU haha#Burst in through the door! Those poor hinges!#It is a bit funny imagining him crawling through the tunnel in a hurry and kicking the doors open all winded haha <3#It's all very serious of course Max needs help! Stuck behind the mirror from disobeying perhaps?#I was pretty hard on him last time that he'd just Immediately give up his soul for cheap tricks but like - would he?#Yes he's reckless and foolish but he's also stubborn and prideful and hates being told what to do so there's that lol#Which does he want more! The high or his freedom to refuse? I could see it going either way#And for Dex's sake I would hope he'd refuse! As if he hasn't suffered enough eye trauma (eventually)#Ough the thought of him starting to say yes and getting one button eye in and then rescinding his yes ouch#Doomed to have one eye no matter where he goes ah ๐#Anyway - Dex!!! Watch I'll make another one with the ideas mentioned here and then talk about more ideas in those tags pft#Since agreeing with him didn't work how about shaming? ''Go away you're no better''#She really is going hard on him like ''What's your angle? You get him back and then what? Will that actually fix anything?''#Very much pulling from Dexter's meetings with Max at the Institute there hhhhhh as if I needed more feelings about it#Eco_Mono did such a beautiful job playing Dex - so much to consider hehe - but there was one question that I can't stop thinking about#''Why would you want him back?'' and Dexter didn't really have much of an answer - he was barely more than a concept at the time!#Having had the opportunity to see his character grow into himself has given me Such brainworms about that question โฅโชโซ#Very want to explore it <3#In the meanwhile it's fun to pit these two against each other haha what an odd matchup โช#I've only barely drawn the Beldam before now that I think of it! And I think only in her final metal-spidery form never in her mid form here#She's fun :D And so tall! Dexter finally feeling small for a change haha#Her having to fight adult selfishness would be quite interesting I think - something tinged with but not quite the same as loyalty#She can relate to the possessiveness at least hehe I'm sure he'd appreciate the comparison
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