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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#itadori yuuji#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk 266#fanart#jjk fanart#itafushi#jujutsu kaisen fanart#used th itfs tag bc its implied and this is an itfs piece i said so#i dont think ive seen this parallel made yet??? but its ok if it has#i just had the idea hit at gross o clock last night when i ws alr exhausted n had 2 force myself to sleep instead of drawing it#i just . clutches chest . YUUJI#th char development the emotional maturity..#the willingness to put aside his gojo voice personal feelings in favour of giving megumi agency over his own life#rather than burden him with expectations the way every1 has done fr both of them over the course of the series...#tears in my eyes thats my mc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway art notes i think lower one is some of the best yuuji hair ive drawn 2 date#it's kind of similar to one of my 265 redraws but i think i struck a better balance in how thoroughly i rendered it here#proud of my me but also SO grateful tht yuuji has not been fighting me lately#so much yuuji content these past chapters i cant imagine th frustration having to Also fight him in order 2 create content fr them#anyway itafushi kaisen is real and canon and alive and yuuji singlehandedly discovered th cure 2 my mental illness w this line
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I fight so hard not to kill myself right now I swear
#actually mentally ill#bpd fp#bpd problems#bpd safe#bpd shit#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#bpd#actually borderline#actually bpd#kinda depressing#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#depressing life#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#depressiv#suic1de#sui ideation#tw sui vent#tw sui talk#tw sui ideation#tw sui implied#sad thoughts#sadgirl#sad quotes#sadnees#i'm sad#sad grl
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I really need a fucking break, or a gun
#bpd stuff#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#bpd symptoms#mental problems#mentally fucked#actually borderline#borderline blog#bpd problems#bpd struggles#intrusive thoughts#tw sui ideation#tw sui vent#tw sui implied#mentally tired#mentally exhausted#mentally unstable#major depressive disorder#tw depressing stuff#tw depressing thoughts#depressing quotes#depressing shit#bpd#depressing life#depressiv#bpd things#bpd thoughts
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Mental illness is crazy cause I’m just sitting here trying to enjoy my day off and I randomly get a thought that i want to kill myself… why can’t it ever just be normal and easy
#alone with my thoughts#mentally exhausted#mental health#depressing shit#leave me alone#mental illness#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#feeling alone#tw depressing stuff#tw sui ideation#tw selfhate#tw death#tw sui implied#depressing life#kinda depressing#this is depressing#sadgirl#sad thoughts#mood swings#spiralling#ihatemyself#ihavenothingaheadofme#i hate it here#i hate this#im exhausted#mentally tired#mentally fucked#mentally drained#mentally unstable
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Pt3 of the Danny is the 99th attempted clone Tim made of Kon. Kon learns about Danny.
Relevant info: Kon was dead closer to a year and a half in this au, and this happens a few months after his revival.
[Pt2: here] [Pt4: here]
So Tim has admittedly been putting off meeting up with the Titans. Everyone has settled back into the new normal. Too much has happened for it to look anything like before, but the other 3 Titans have been hanging out semi-regularly, and Tim turns down their invites 3 of 4 times. He knows it's starting to hurt their feelings, and he hates that.
But... he's scared to admit he's a father now. A father to a clone of one of them. He's not sure how to bring it up. Cassie never asked if he was successful, probably just assumed he failed because there isn't a third Superboy flying around. Jokes on her. Danny isn't going to be a Superboy. He's not allowed to even think about being a hero or vigilante until he's 14 at the earliest, and Tim is going to help him find his own name if he chooses that path. He won't be a Robin or Superboy. He won't live in the shadow of those legacies if Tim can help it.
None of that is relevant for the here and now, though. Tim got Jason to babysit Danny and finally agreed to a hang out with the Titans. He asked Danny for his opinion first before making his decision and got the go ahead. So, Tim is finally going to come clean.
Tim barely makes it into the tower when he's tackled by his friends.
"Tim! You're here!" Bart cheers.
"Yeah, it's good to see you guys too. Sorry I haven't been very present." Tim fidgets. "I've been busy... I also haven't been honest..."
"Tim?" Cassie sounds concerned. And Tim just can't. He extracts himself from the puppy pile. He can't make himself give eye contact. He's sure his guilt and shame are written all over his body language.
"Tim, you can tell us anything." Kon sounds super genuine. Tim takes a deep grounding breath.
"Okay, let's do this like a bandaid." Tim finally looks at them, focusing mostly on Kon. "I have a son. He's technically Kon's, too."
He gets the dubious pleasure of watching his three idiots look at his abdomen, as if he gave birth.
"Why-? Kon, we never fucked!? What the fuck guys??" He sputters, waving his hands in front of him.
"Then how-" Cassie realizes. "Oh!"
"Oh?? What do you mean??" Bart is looking between them and vibrating in confusion. Kon is just looking like a confused and concerned puppy.
"Okay, so, I may have had a breakdown with everyone dying or going missing." Tim grimaces. "And while I was fully aware that even if I succeeded, it wouldn't be Kon, I still tried to clone him. And, um, I did manage to succeed in the end."
"Fuck, Tim.." Kon starts.
"Look, I was in a really fucking dark place and needed even just a piece of good I lost." Tim hugs himself, self loathing burning him from the inside out. "Everyone was turning their back on me, I just needed something, anything, to keep going."
"Fuck, I should have helped..." Cassie bites her lip, chewing on her guilty conscious.
"It's fine. No one was listening. Don't beat yourself up over it. You were in a bad spot, too." Tim gives a humorless laugh. "Danny was my 99th attempt. And my last attempt, if I'm honest. I could feel myself breaking more with each failure. On a fucking whim, I decided to make the 99th attempt a baby instead of trying for a teenager, and it worked. I fucked up a bit, I forgot to adjust the knowledge download to that of a 1 year old, but he was alive. He's the best thing to ever happen to me. I was scared to tell you. I'm sorry-"
"Tim.." Kon cuts him off, and Tim snaps his mouth shut. "I.. I'm honestly not sure how to feel about you cloning me, but I'd like to meet him. What's his name?"
Tim rapidly blinks back tears. "Aedan Drake, he prefers being called Danny. I.. I didn't add Kent because I don't trust Clark with him or give him an El name, I wanted him to understand kryptonian language and culture first. I... I also wanted Danny to be old enough to make the decision over his name himself. I don't want him to be treated like you were. The house of El were so awful to you."
"I understand, Tim." Kon steps towards Tim, "Can.. Can I hug you?"
Tim nods and is swept into a tight hug. He feels something give emotionally, and he sobs into his shoulder. "I fucking love him so much."
"Tell me about him." Kon says softly. He can feel Bart and Cassie hoving, unsure what to do, but unwilling to leave.
"He's physically around 3 now. He loves ghosts and space and named the wolf plushy I bought him on his first day alive Wulf." There's some chuckles over that. "He's sassy and petty, but insanely sweet and tries to help out with any and all tasks. I see so much of both of us in him. Nature vs Nurture is a messy bitch. You remember what I said my start as Robin was like?"
"How you had to babysit a grown ass man and force him into better habits?" Cassie snarks.
"Karma's a funny bitch. Danny started doing the same shit to me as soon as he figured out how to walk." Tim giggles. "Anytime we weren't in danger, he'd force me to take care of injuries and to eat and sleep. And I'd do it because what kind of monster denies a baby trying to be helpful... plus he gets really stressed and depressed if he can't help."
Tim grips the back of Kon's shirt. "I don't understand how he developed my people pleaser tendencies so early on. We were stuck on LoA bases when he first started doing everything in his power to help me. I was purposely being a little shit to our "hosts" at the time. So it wasn't a surprise that he developed a Robin's need to troll, but he only saw me be nice to him."
"The LoA??" Kon asks in alarm.
"It was a rough year..." Tim scowls. "And if I see Ra's again, I'm gutting him. B's rules be damned."
"What happened?" Cassie asks, suddenly a lot closer.
"He's a creep, a pedo, and a child abuser." Kon rubs Tim's suddenly very stiff back and shoulders. "I could handle him being creepy towards me. While gross and awful to have a disgusting 300 or something year old man trying to wife me-"
"Excuse me???"
"He WHAT?"
"-I'm more pissed I couldn't protect Danny. I don't know what that piece of shit did when I couldn't take Danny with me, but Danny is linked to the pit now. He luckily doesn't have pit rage like Jason, but he can calm Jason's pit and apparently glows according to Duke." Tim sobs. "I should have killed the man when I had a chance. I don't know what he did to Danny!"
"It's not your fault, Tim." Kon hugs Tim tightly, it's almost painful. "You were in a tough spot and doing your best to keep you both alive."
"Just focus on healing and moving on." Bart says while running a hand through Tim's hair. Cassie rubs both Tim and Kon's backs as Tim gets himself under control.
"Can.. can I meet him?" Kon whispers.
"I'd love for you to meet him." Tim sniffles. "He was nervous you'd hate him for existing. I apparently passed on my stupid anxiety. I couldn't quite get him to believe me when I told him he wouldn't be who you'd be mad at if you got mad. He wants to meet you, but I accidentally made the most jaded baby in the world."
"A Super raised by a Bat is going to be terrifying." Bart giggles. "We'll have to make sure he doesn't become a supervillain."
"Meh. He's too cute. If he goes evil, all he has to do is pout and he'll instantly win." Tim jokes, wiggling out of the hug. "Want to see pictures?"
There's a very strong positive response. The next 3 hours finds Tim showing off pictures and explaining the stories behind them, his team melting at how cute his son is. Tim feels the lightest he's felt in a while. He does have to promise Bart and Cassie to bring Danny over once Kon and Danny meet one on one first.
What Tim doesn't know is Kon is absolutely obsessed with and slightly horny over this parental side of Tim. He's fully daydreaming of the 3 of them living together and being disgustingly domestic the whole time Tim is showing off Danny. Cassie can tell what Kon is thinking about and is amused.
Once Tim leaves, the Titans go to the training room and fuck up some bots because of the rage they feel on Tim and Danny's behalf. They all agree to be as petty as possible to any LoA members they come across and to murder Ra's the moment there's an opportunity to do so without the JL knowing. Tim isn't the only unhinged one on this team. That's why they work so well together.
#tim drake#batfam shenanigans#danny phantom#danny fenton#kon el kent#kon el#conner kent#cassie sandsmark#bartholomew allen#clone danny#de aged danny#dp x dc crossover#dc x dp#dpxdc#dc titans#tw attempted sa#tw murder mention#tw implied abuse#tw implied child abuse#tw mental illness#tw mental health#tw mental breakdown#tw pedophila mention#timkon
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*gives Tim all of my mental and physical illnesses because it's midnight and I'm bored*
The second one is lowkey nsfw by the by.
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Tim, eating breakfast with the family when all of a sudden his ribs decide to feel like they're folding in on themselves:
Tim: Damn, I really gotta kms
Bruce, not looking up from his morning paper: Your therapist said not to say that.
Tim: Damn, I really gotta... eat.... cookies?
Bruce: *Approving hmm*
Dick: Someone in this family goes to therapy?
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Tim's body deciding to simultaneously cramp and set itself on fire mid getting his back blown out:
Tim, reaching behind him: Shit, stop, pull out...
Bernard: OhmyGod, sorry, are you okay?
Tim: I'll live, just let me...
Tim: *lies face down on a pillow.*
Tim: Roll me over if I run out of oxygen.
Bernard: Okay :(
Bernard: I'm sorry :(
Tim: I'm okay, Bear, promise. Could you just like, grab painkillers and stuff?
Bernard: And heating pad, and snacks?
Tim: Yes. I love you
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Tim, staring at the suspiciously ballerina-shaped figure that keeps whispering to him and changing:
Tim: Yo, chat, you seeing this?
Damian, glancing in his direction: Hm. No.
Tim, who just needed confirmation he was hallucinating: Cool, thanks.
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Tim, still sitting at the batcomputer after 6 uninterrupted hours: Man, I'm hungry...
Jason: Eat then.
Tim: Nah, I'm good, I haven't earned it yet.
Jason: Fym earned it? If you're hungry, go eat.
Tim: No, it's cool, I haven't even gotten the shakes yet.
Jason: THE SHAKES?? GO EAT!
Tim: No, it's cool, I don't even have a headache yet.
Jason: TIM!
Tim: No, it's cool, I'm not even hungry anymore.
Jason: GO FEED YOURSELF.
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Tim, through comms, on patrol: I'm gonna head over to Main Street real quick.
Babs: What? Why? That's not on your route tonight.
Tim: Yeah, but if I don't my head will explode and my whole family will die.
Babs: I see... Well, tell Bruce hi if you run into him.
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Tim: I'm glad my addiction genes went to caffine instead of alcohol, I could've been fucked up.
Jason: Real.
Bruce: Are you both prone to addiction?? And you didn't tell me?? :((
Tim, with a full-size fridge full of energy drinks in his room:
Tim: You didn't know?
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#tim drake#bruce wayne#bernard dowd#timbern#batfam#damian wayne#dick grayson#barbra gordon#jason todd#chronic illness#mental illness#hes literally me#cw ed implied#its no longer midnight when im posting this but I'm still bored and tired#dc
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#I wanna fucking off myself Jesus Christ#why did nobody help?#I’m so tired of them saying “well we didn’t know#THERE WERE SIGNS LITERALLY EVERYWHERE#bpd#mental health#actually bpd#mental illness#bpd shit#actually borderline#bpd shitposting#bpd problems#bpd mood#bpd meme#parental abuse#tw sa implied
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#depressing shit#sh#sh things#tw sh joke#self destruction#actually bpd#bpd#bpd stuff#su!cidal#su1c1d10#su1c1dal#tw sui ideation#tw sui vent#tw sui implied#su1c1d3#su1c1d4l#i wanna kms#i cant take it anymore#actually mentally ill#mentally fucked#mentally exhausted#mentally unstable#sadgirl#girlblogging#shitpost#self destructor#tw depressing stuff#tw s3lf hate#i hate my self#self sabotage
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when you are very bad for years, people no longer worry.
you become invisible, a ghost.
I can leave now, everyone has forgotten me.
#actually mentally ill#bpd fp#bpd problems#bpd safe#bpd shit#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#actually borderline#actually bpd#bpd#depressing life#kinda depressing#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#tw sui vent#tw sui talk#suic1de#tw sui ideation#tw sui implied
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I feel like I have nothing to ask, I simply would love to hear more about them fucked up mermaid and murderer
And I would absolutely love to tell you about them, Tin.
This AU takes place somewhere vaguely in the Pacific Northwest (circa. 1970s-80s) in an isolated fishing town along a storm-wracked coast.
Fisheries in and around the bay have collapsed due to extreme winter weather patterns + overfishing + an oil spill from a tanker run aground down the coast, leaving most of the bay's inhabitants to live pretty much hand-to-mouth off contaminated fish in recent years.
get ready for LORE (and more drawings but mostly the LORE)
general warning: this is pretty long
The "story" as it were, kicks off when Gem finally gets fed up with another fisherman in the area, Grian, over continued conflict about ownership of fishing grounds in the mouth of the bay.
She orchestrates his death (with the eager assistance of Scott and Impulse) out at sea and passes off his death as a tragic accident in the winter swells with her being the unfortunate finder of his remains.
And it works.
See the thing is: Gem has a history of causing disappearances. It started with some accidents with out-of-town poachers. She would chase these people off and one or two would just slip overboard and happen to drown. It wasn’t her fault and besides they deserve it. But things start to escalate from there. Poachers become outsiders become fellow townspeople. Grian is someone Gem’s known for years, whose friends are tangentially her friends or acquaintances. His death is a cold-blooded murder driven by hatred and frustration. This time something is different about what she's done and Gem knows it.
But Gem is a reputable and well-known person. Her prices are fair, she drives poachers out of the bay and maintains order around the pragmatic fishing ground policy that undoubtedly helps everyone to survive.
She is the type of person to look to for guidance when things get hard because she can make those hard choices. So how on earth could it be her fault?
No one is wiser until Grian's funeral brings an old friend into town who is more than a little suspicious about the circumstances of his death.
Scar was one of Grian's crewmates when they did trawling much further south. They split when Scar took up (illegal) whaling and Grian moved into the bay.
As an outsider, Scar isn't so swayed by the goodwill the town has around Gem's name. He's no detective but for the sake of an old friend, he might as well try.
In this AU, mermaids are social mammals part of the Hominidae family that went back into the ocean similar to Cetaceans. They live in matrilineal family groups or in any other female-led organization of pods and have a very "survival-oriented" global culture (with regional variation).
Pearl is a lone mermaid whose pod lived in the bay until they were starved out by the collapsing fisheries. PNW mermaids are more territorial than other ecotypes and value strength over anything else. Pearl's inability (read: unwillingness) to oust other pods for better fishing grounds and the loss of one of her pod members summarily lead the other two to abandon her.
Without a pod to help her, hunting enough in her dwindling territory has been difficult and lonely, leading her to slowly starve just as the humans in the bay have begun to.
She took to trailing fishing boats to steal from their catch, which is how she met Gem who was mid-throwing some unfortunate soul overboard.
They have an interesting relationship.
Gem is enamored with Pearl at the halfway point between a person and a large apex predator. She loves the way Pearl needs her to live and the way Pearl, as a social creature with no pod, craves her attention. It's thrilling to have a predator at her beck and call like this and, in turn, to be so desperately needed. She also loves the way Pearl doesn't look at her like she's dangerous (the way Scott and Impulse have begun to when they think she doesn't see them). Her interest in Pearl seems to be leaching into something more than just wildlife admiration. She's begun to learn the mermaid language just to talk to her. For what? Who really knows. Meanwhile, Pearl is hungry enough to eat just about anything Gem throws her (including human bodies) and desperate enough that she lets Gem get much closer than many humans in this area have ever been to a mermaid. (They even touch, scandalous for mermaids.)
It's skewed for sure. From Gem's perspective, they've got something special going on. From Pearl's... not so much.
This being Secret-Life based, you can imagine how this story ends...
Bonus piece: Pearl and her old pod.
IN GENERAL, Biological females are generally larger with a set of rotated tusks protruding from their lower jaw for dominance displays. Biological males are commonly smaller and more agile, with more dexterous hands due to decreased adipose tissue distribution over their bodies. (They actually have 3 biological sexes and tons of social gender variation but that's a talk for another time). Pre-cultural awakening, these pods would form around a biological female and their harem for reproductive purposes. That female would then protect the harem from other females looking to "steal them" or their territories (like horses but reverse-style). In modern times, these pods are often composed of groups of friends/related family members as sort of "platonic life partners" and stealing other pod members is seen as a very archaic sort of thing. Territory stealing, however, is still up for grabs.
#fishgutsau#pearlescentmoon#geminitay#grian#goodtimeswithscar#impulsesv#scott smajor#wild life smp#shinyduo#implied gempearl#tagged for blog curation purposes#tried out a new color technique with the sketches and im so happy about it ngl#looooooong ramble about this au because its very developed and i love it very much#also the mermaids have SO MUCH LORE due to my unique mental illness but the post is long enough as it is#i even covered reproduction its never mentioned in this au but trust me there is no stone unturned#tw murder#tw cannibalism??#also this fits nowhere but i wanted to say etho-mermaid is like the hottest guy around in mermaid society#they (read: joel and bdubs) love his lone wolf swagger#pearl on the other hand has a thing for the color orange#my art#squawk talk#rough work
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you know it's bad when you don't even want to listen to music anymore
#actually mentally ill#tw sui vent#suic1de#tw sui ideation#sui mention#tw sui implied#tw depressing thoughts#mentally fucked#vent post#i dont know why i bite
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Its so funny that Arin and Sora have shown to have significantly better emotional intelligence than any of the ninja from all of the old seasons combined. "You should be taking care of your mental health" and "yeah saving the world is upsetting! no wonder you're having stress dreams" oh my precious children. You are surrounded by a teen dad with massive self-worth issues, the only one of two people who remembers the genie incident and also turned into the sea once, guy who's died like 3+ times and committed genocide under mind control, and a child soldier who's been living the hard knock life since age 2.
I hope to god you two are prepared to witness the most mentally unwell behavior you've seen in your entire teenage lives. You think you've already seen how bad it can get now? Fools. Just wait until you get a mission involving the Departed Realm
#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising#lego ninjago#arin#sora#ninjago ninja#text post#departed realm#i wouldnt say 'prepare to become the team therapist' because lets be frank#its not even a matter of 'they wouldnt make the kids their therapists'#its literally just bc they would literally never get to that point#because that implies talking about their problems. like an normal person#what do you mean that random fits of rage or fcking off into oblivion from time to time isnt healthy#this is how i cope! this is a perfectly reasonable way to cope#arin and sora are watching the most mentally ill people alive fray at the seams before their eyes#theyre like the monkey side-eye meme warily looking at each other like are#are they good??? are they good.....#then they hit the departed realm and suddenly all that morro & ghost cole trauma FLOODS back#and theyre just like OH THEY ARE NOT GOOD
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live footage of me in my room 𓍼ིྀ݀໒꒰ྀི × ˕ ×。꒱ྀི১♡ יִ

#dollyadara#addy vents#this is a girlblog#the apothecary diaries#gaslight gatekeep girlblog#the apothecary diaries meme#maomao#just a girlblog#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#aspd thoughts#actually autistic#gloomy coquette#just girly things#girlblogging#femcel core#actually mentally ill#gloomy dollcore#crazy ex gf core#gloomy dollette#yandere#tw shblr#tw sh implied#gloomy#girlblogger#girl blogger#yanderecore#yanblr#girlblog#bpdblr
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“But he was just a child”
So was I
And I’m suffering and he’s not
#cw cocsa#cocsa victim#cocsa vent#cocsa survivor#tw cocsa#csa vent#tw csa implied#csa survivor#tw csa#actually mentally ill#actually ptsd#ptsd vent#personal vent#traumatic experience#actuallytraumatized#mental health#repressed memories
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when is it gonna end I’m tired
#actually mentally ill#bpd fp#bpd problems#bpd safe#bpd shit#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#bpd#actually borderline#actually bpd#depressing life#kinda depressing#depressiv#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#depressing quotes#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#sadnees#sad poetry#i'm sad#sadgirl#sad thoughts#sad poem#suic1de#sui ideation#tw sui vent#tw sui talk#tw sui ideation#tw sui implied
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wish i had the courage to bring a kn1fe to my throat
#˚₊‧꒰ა all knowing and all agony#lukayaps#jiraiblr#jirai kei#jiraiblogging#landmineblr#jirai danshi#vent#mental illness#landmine type#tw sui ideation#tw sh ideation#tw sui implied#tw sh implied#subcul jirai#lifestyle jirai#lifestyle landmine#jirai#jiraikei#landmine blogging#landmineposting#jirai posting
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