#self destructor

[lilysofthevalleys]

[hardcoregayanalsegx]

"Why would you do that to yourself" I'm trying my best to soothe the pain, trying to cradle it so that maybe just maybe it will stop crying out

[w3brot]

[noisymentalitypirate]

At the end of the day, it's still you alone with your blades while the people who hurt you so much live peacefully

And you're here, on this fucking app, trying to find comfort in people at least as destroyed as you are

how unfair is that ?

[delusi0nalraik0]

i want to be worse. when i'm self destructing i feel in control. if i choose to kxll myself slowly then i'm deciding my own destiny

[darkangel888]

Just kill me now. Just make it all fucking stop. I don’t want to be another mistake in someones live. I don’t want to feel like this anymore, i don’t want to feel at all anymore. It is all so fucking much, make it stop, please just make it fucking stop once and for all…

[r0ttnzmbie]

guys i just stood up and almost blacked out🫀

[skelespidey]

why does my self destruction manage to get into other people's way??? i thought it was called SELF destruction for a reason

[moonlightzv0id2]

scars fading is the worst feeling

[lilysofthevalleys]

still alive , unfortunately

[hardcoregayanalsegx]

I feel so awful all the time how do people even stand to be around me

[w3brot]

[noisymentalitypirate]

i'm like a rotten corpse hiding behind pretty clothes and pretty face, but if you saw my mutilated skin under my jeans, would you want me still ?

[ineedtoweighless]

Idk man i just wish i never existed yk. Dying has too much aftermath and living is hard

[osamotniony-smiec]

TERAPIA

Czy naprawdę komuś ona pomogła/pomaga?

Naprawdę komuś wygadanie się o problemach komuś dobrze robi? Czy sposoby od psychologa na radzenie sobie z nimi zadziałały? Dużo razy miałem wrażenie, jakby sobie robiła ze mnie żarty z nimi.

Mam wrażenie, że ani ja nie chcę tam być, ani psycholożka. Nie mam pojęcia w sumie o czym rozmawiamy czy powinniśmy rozmawiać, często nie klei się rozmowa.

Raz mówiła co mi jest, a później zmieniała zdanie przedstawiając to tak zagmatwale, że za cholerę tego nie rozumiem.

Kobieta ogólnie jest naprawdę w porządku, ale bardzo często chcę mi się rzyg@ć w drodze do Niej i tym, że mam tam siedzieć godzinę...

[kash-heals]

tw : sh // self destructive behavior

want to hit styros again deeper preferably. but don’t wanna see the look of concern on my brothers or my bfs face. i feel like shit. especially knowing my brothers gf (fucking love her) battles with sh too i don’t wanna add to that stress but like fuck i can feel my skin i’m sorry damn it . not to mention my bf (the best in the damn world) is in recovery so like fuck. part of me just wants to go to my brother and tell him how i’m feeling but idk man what if he doesn’t get it and i feel worse idk. i don’t want to tell my bf (has nothing to do with trust it’s because i support his recovery 100% and i don’t want to trigger him into a relapse. he’s been doing so good and i don’t want to fuck that up.) i feel like fucking shit because i just did it.. (used to sh daily but since my dad got custody of us life has been way , drastically better so i slowed down but like its apart of me now.) idk how to explain that everything can be going perfectly (it is) and i still feel the need to fucking bleed. i hate this part about myself. feeling like the only way i can function is if im bleeding and self destructing . wtf.