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i desperately need a break. im failing multiple classes, either not sleeping at night or sleeping 12+ hours, sleeping during the day, cooking, cleaning, watching a 6 year old and a 9 month old, and im so fucking exhausted. im disabled with no help. i dont just get to magically get all my work done. i dont have the time or energy to do anything. And nobody will FUCKING HELP ME.
#vent#invisible disability#disabled#disability#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#fibromyalgia#this is a cry for help#please god#im trying so damn hard#im even taking my meds
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...what if they kissed while no one was looking....
#solavellan#LOOK IM#just#okay?#this is almost turning into a whole ass garden piece im trying so hard to restrain myself bc i want to work on other wips#but DAMN IF I DONT LOVE DRAWING FOLIAGE AROUND 2 PPL IN LOVE#pina art
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reminder that the only reason the "ADHD is actually demigod BATTLE STRATEGIES" and "dyslexia is DEMIGOD BRAINS HARDWIRED FOR ANCIENT GREEK" things exist in the PJO universe is because it's a very direct reference to early 2000s teaching/parenting techniques for neurodiverse and disabled children, which aimed to frame childrens' disabilities and hardships as a "superpower" or strength so that the children would feel more positively about their disabilities or situations. This technique has fallen out of favor since then for the most part since more often than not it just results in kids feeling as though their struggles are not being seen or taken seriously.
Yes, demigods are adhd/dyslexic (and sometimes autistic-coded) in the series. This is extremely important and trying to remove it or not acknowledge it makes the entire series fall apart because it is such a core concept. Yes, canon claims that their adhd/dyslexia is tied to some innate abilities, which is based on an outdated methodology. It's important to acknowledge that and understand where it comes from! But please stop trying to apply it to other pantheons in the series like "oh, the romans have dyscalculia because of roman numerals!" or "the norse demigods have dysgraphia for reasons!" - it's distasteful at best.
A better option is to acknowledge the meta inspiration for why that exists in the series, such as explaining potentially that Chiron was utilizing that same teaching methodology to try and help demigods feel more comfortable with their disabilities and they aren't literal powers. In fact, especially given Frank, there's implication that being adhd/dyslexic isn't a guaranteed demigod trait, which means it's more likely to be normally inherited from their godly parent/divine ancestor as a general trait, not a power, and further supports the whole "ADHD is battle strategy" thing being non-literal. It also implies the entire greco-roman pantheon in their universe is canonically adhd/dyslexic - and that actually fits very well with the themes of the first series. The entire central conflict of the first series fits perfectly as an allegory about neurodiverse/disabled children and their relationships with their undiagnosed neurodiverse/disabled parents and trying to find solutions together with their shared disability/disabilities that the kid inherited instead of becoming distant from each other (and this makes claiming equivalent to getting a diagnosis which is a fascinating allegory! not to mention the symbolism of demigods inheriting legacies and legends and powers from their parents and everything that comes with that being equivalent to inheriting traits, neurodiversity, and disabilities from your parents).
anyways neurodiversity and disability and the contexts in which the series utilizes representation of those experiences particularly during the 2000s symbolically within the narrative is incredibly important to the first series and the understanding of what themes it means to represent. also if i see one more "the romans have dyscalculia instead of dyslexia" post in 2023 i'm gonna walk into the ocean.
#pjo#riordanverse#percy jackson#analysis#meta#adhd#dyslexia#also this symbolism recontextualizes the relationship between demigods and their godly parents so much#particularly Percy and Poseidon and the whole ''I'm sorry you were born thing'' like DAMN that's an ENTIRE DIFFERENT IMPLICATION#honestly in general the first series' meta analogy of being a demigod as symbolism for being neurodiverse/disabled ROCKS SO HARD#that's SO COOL and im SO SAD NOBODY EVER TALKS ABOUT IT#i could write a whole essay on that alone like COME ON GUYS#can we PLEASE ACKNOWLEDGE THIS I WANNA TALK ABOUT THE COOL DISABILITY METAPHORS....#anyways i didnt proofread this cause. re: dyslexia so if it doesnt make sense dont worry about it#i can try to explain further in supplementary posts if people so wish
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such a crazy win for a xiangling stan 🔥
#genshin impact#xiangling#lantern rite#my art#full art#this is my snow halation moment tbh like im winning so hard#dats my god damn girl!!!!!! being the cutest!!!!!#also i barely understood wtf her outfit even looks like#AND i changed some stuff#so .. this is likely majorly inaccurate even where i was trying to follow the og design#but i tried to make it more cosy and warm#neck out DURING WINTER?? not on my watch
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Hey guys, this is my...well this is me...that's it...I don't think I need to say anything else...
(Yeah, Paulie, Paul McCartney)
Omg wait who are they??? I have no idea, like huh?
#Damn this is literally me#moral orel#orel puppington#art#my art#presentation#artists on tumblr#Nirvana#The Beatles#pierce the veil#no voy a poner todos los tags q pereza watfk#me and him#ñ#💙💙#yeah stinky jude doesn't take a shower ever💙#you look like gerad whaatttt🙏🙏🙏#Ohhh i also like Davey and Goliath a lot#Trying HARD to not put every Beatles/Nirvana album here ugghhh🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻#Also#I probably never said this (okay#I don't know why I'm saying this here#but whatever)#my favorite show for a while was Don't Hug Me I'm Scared.#I'm Yellow Guy...#I also watched Salad Fingers around the same time as DHMIS!!!#that's it#That Orel was by julian btw!!!🪨💪🏻#wghy im postin drafts omagad#im so tipsy🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
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sorry for the titans posting im back to normal now
#im thinking about roy and wally and garth raising their kids + dick and donna as the beloved aunt and uncle and how#everyone is trying very very hard not to repeat the mistakes of THEIR parents and how young THEY were#when the titans were founded and how kids keep growing up and saving lives using the titans moniker and damn.#they’re not kids anymore#roy looks at lian— utterly secure in how loved she is — and cries so much he throws up
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man everytime i think im feeling better about s4 i remember what happened and i just
#tua#the umbrella academy#im trying so hard to like parts of it#but its just#so upsetting#and ik the actors are on contracts#and they have to be positive about it#but like damn does no one official wanna say anything??#david casteneda ily sm#the only real one
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(almost) first-time
Based off that one fanfic that i can't really find but it's about how he stops himself everytime things got spicy ("he pulled his hand like he got a burn" or smth like that and it's been living in my head rent free ever since)
+DOODLES! BC MY ELECTRICITY MAY BE CUT AGAIN BUT THE BRAIN NEVER TURNS OFF
#rui draw smth#our life: beginnings & always#our life mc#our life#olba mc#olba#baxter ward#our life baxter#morning news! my house was the only one in the block with electricity so the neighbors bitched so hard to the company abt *why* we had light#that the company cut us off! lovely neighborhood. dont you think?#it's gonna be another week at least until i have internet again lmao#but my grandma gor her own internet! so im spending the morning at her house♪#i try to be a generally positive person but damn#ruri posting
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Thinking of vlr Akane is so conflicting cuz on one hand I’m so upset that she doesn’t ever get a moment to just rest and enjoy being alive again I’m upset that she just gets deeper and deeper into this role she’s built for herself and she loses her humanity and will never ever be that girl who died in the incinerator. But on the other hand, I need her to get so, so much worse I need her to be so obsessed with perfection she has this unique ability to change the course of history and she will burn everything and everyone to the ground in the blink of an eye if it means she can "reset" and get a perfect timeline and I desperately need her to never be satisfied with anything because really, is there anything that’s worth all the damage she’s caused?
#zero escape#akane kurashiki#virtues last reward#yeahhhhh just having so many thoughts about akane and sigma and junpei and yeah im screaming eyes bloodshot#i want akane to just like post 999 just do silly shit with aoi get a cat be a gamer try to heal the best she can#and i want her to be so evil i think theres still some crimes she hasnt committed yet she should do those#i really really really want her and junpei to just beat the shit out of each other in a boxing ring. specifically post vlr#need them being old as shit throwing chairs everyone is cheering#and damn like vlr akane just cant agree with junpei on his philosophy that a life with pain is still a life worth living cuz then thatd mean#everything she did in 999 was all for naught like to accept even the bad timelines where she died as valuable...#thats a kick to the dick especially when she fought so hard to live and how her death was so unfair#except she was just a scared kid with no choice then. now whats her excuse#i just want it to be possible you know? possible that akane didnt need to do this and she couldve been happy#cuz yeah the trauma would be horrible but surely itd be better than the trauma she has now since she took that dive#i wonder if she knows that no matter what she does she’ll never erase her trauma and eventually she will have to face it#or if she actually believes she can figure it all out and win the perfect timeline and magical mental stability will happen#basically akane is avoiding therapy soooooo hard but then again who would even be her therapist#no one can possibly understand her...right?
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currently imagining a freaky friday dpxdc crossover in which one of the batkids gets kidnapped by cultists whose plan is to give the ghost king a physical anchor in this world by offering a sacrifice for the king to inhabit. however, given that danny is not fully dead, the moment the spell completes the aforementioned batkid gasps awake in a small blue bedroom with NASA posters and glow in the dark stars, and danny wakes up on the cold concrete floor of a warehouse amidst groveling cultists
#and they’re like damn! and have to figure out how to undo the spell#and [batkid] is trying so hard to blend in but what the fuck is wrong with this town#why do the presumably friends of this body keep going ‘so you gonna do something about that?’ when a green demon from hell emerges#and danny? god. one moment he’s catching up on some much needed sleep and the next he’s finding out that america’s most beloved billionare#IS FUCKING BATMAN#danny phantom#danny fenton#tayscreams#dpxdc#dcxdp#im thinking this would work best with tim or damian to be so real with you#tim is the obvious choice but damian could be sooo funny as well#might write this later we’ll see#batfam#batman#batkids
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IM 5 MONTHS LATE FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY IM SO SORRY 😭😭😭 @chcctah
Wasn't sure if I should even post them bc it's THAT LATE and that's not only embarrassing as hell but I feel bad BUT ! That doesn't even matter, YOU MATTER and every year your birthday comes, im just glad to hear from you to know you're still alive and living your life on the other side of the world! You deserve to have your life celebrated, so even though these are so damn late, I LOVE U AND IM GLAD U WERE BORN AND IM GLAD WE MET!!!!!!! I'm always glad to see you online enjoying what you're into and it makes me so honored that i get to see how much you've grown since we've met.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! AND HAPPY HANUKKAH!!!!!
#gifts#chcctah#south park#kyman#OUR KYMANS#OUR BABIES#EVEN BUTTERS#ive never been so late but like ESP THIS LATE ITS INSANE#ive been trying to draw but its been so hard#im soglad i AT LEAST finished these by this year#but damn dude 😭#i hope im never this late ever again jeez#ilyilyilyily#u matter and u always will
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yeah ok thanks
#I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS SKYBOUND#WE WERE RIDE OR DIE#im laughing so hard#im laughing bc i dont have tears anymore#DAMN IT ALL#its just a cover this means nothing#<me trying to cope
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day 3 of my new sideblog: i am running out of drawings!!!!! HELP ME
#just dance#just dance fanart#cotton eye joe#not tagging that damn nugget#trashcan#i played this one... before JDU left us.........#what do u mean it didnt die yet and it dies in august.#what do u mean it only left cuz i had a free month trial and not an actual subscription#anyways im so mad i want to draw just dance fanart but i cant because i have to volunteer and do summer assignments for school#i hate going to such a try hard smarty pants school apparently summer work isnt mandatory for most schools. WHAT?????#that was the norm for my whole life!!!!!!!
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i liked how this scene explicitly acknowledged how tiny randall really is
#like i've thought it and i'm sure other people have too but i found it funny that they finally acknowledge it out loud#he was def underestimated by his size you know he worked damn hard to build his reputation as a top scarer#if mike was not in scaring 101 you think the other students would've underestimated randall instead#randall boggs#monsters at work#monsters inc#monsters university#maw#maw season 2#monsters at work season 2#if it feels like im posting my maw stuff at weird intrevals its bc i have a bunch of drafts that i post every so often out of order#idk i feel like some of them make it sound like i just finished the show yesterday#im trying to space them out but i wanna get them all posted before people stop talking about monsters inc :(
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How did you get so good at animating and drawing? Aside from practice, what techniques do you use? What software do you use?
I only know the basics/fundamentals of both drawing and animation.
For drawing, I've carried out lessons about the Elements and principles of design, the history of graphics design, traditional drawing techniques, color theory, anatomy, character design, blah blah blah. Lots of info I still do my best to practice/put in my art. If y'all notice me animating gifs then it's bc I have time to do so... ( I'm in term break until late July ) They're likely short, but it's through animation blocking, timing, and incorporating both in-betweens and tweening.
I've used Adobe Animate/After Effects for school projects, sometimes for doodles only, I currently use Clip Studio Paint bc it's where I'm more comfy with ^^ Maybe someday I'll be able to afford Toon Boom hehe.
#messyr#always morally correct to pirate adobe products guys trust me in this one#anyway it's not that im THAT GOOD- I just expose myself to so much media consumption + my unquenchable thirst for art is just something#I still have a lot of flaws in my works from mediocre to average in professionals/industry's eyes. Theres still so much to learn and try#Considering my course as a multimedia student- also feeds the 'I want to learn everything and anything' mindset.#born to animate forced to be a mixed package: honestly im not even gonna complain AHAHAHHA#im actually surprised im not burnt out after 2d animation finals in 1st year and film production finals 2nd year#MANIFESTING TO GRADUATE AS JACK OF ALL TRADES / MASTER OF NONE#pls dont percieve me as easy going or envy shit- i work TWICE as hard in everything I do bc imindubitably so dumb at times#not only that but almost always handicapped as if God decides to nerf patch my life every damn time
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OWWWWWW
#OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW#Im trying to gather my thoughts…. I have a head ache………………#im so embarassed i had to use the walk through to help me out towards the end…. I thought I got stronger since the last game#but Im gullible as fuck your honor#also my working memory isnt the best so even though I took notes on everyones train of thought in the trial#the changing theories and what we currently assume is true and isnt is really hard to keep track of!!!!!!!!!!#I thought I had the answer to one of the most important questions but I was wrong TWICE and I only had a little bit of health left#for the rest of the trial ;w;#it was also hard for me to understand godots motive since he would have no reason to stab Ami but I forgot that when spirit mediums#channel ppl their appearance changes to match the spirit.. so I guess it does make sense he didnt think of that when he was focused on#getting revenge against dahlia. damn#UGH I NEED TO PLAY THE FIRST GAME I feel like theres still so much background im missing#the DL-6 incident came up and I only know a few details abt what happened but it was nicely tied to the case#like edgeworths trauma around earthquakes and how that gave time for iris and dahlia to switch#it gives me a headache to think abt them swapping places and who was doing what though#but still really cool#im going to be thinking abt this for days#aa3 playthru#aa3 spoilers#ace attorney#aa#trials and tribulations#yapping
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