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apfsds · 9 months ago

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As a yet-to-start HRT gal

How do the few people I know feel about that? I am without a doubt a woman, but I am presently masc. Am I somehow faking to you all? Or am I just in my own head after years of self abuse?

#im starting hrt this year #hard and fast #but Im just worried/curious?

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sualne · 6 months ago

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my voice has started to drop and ive been in a near constant state of gender euphoria this week :DD

#im so happy (≧∇≦)#i also disturbed the shit out of my jet lagged & sleep deprived little sister who hadnt seen me in weeks lmao #edit: but like imagine youre all kind of exhausted from work and holidays and heat and everything and when you come back home to #your transexual sibling you dont vibe too much with and the mf speak to you with another man's voice 😂😂 her face was the #funniest shit i cant wait to meet the rest of my family and see their reaction. its so funny cause plenty of them thought i had already #started hrt years ago so idk idk it's going to be funn

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doomdoomofdoom · 5 months ago

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any trans person should get HRT for free (no insurance required) and in exchange they should participate in the occasional study/survey.

research into sex hormones and their effects is so scarce and you have a whole ass population group who's willing to not only switch up their hormones but keep it up for very long periods of time. you could run some incredible long term studies with participants across all sorts of demographics.

while it's impossible to conduct any blind studies on this due to observable change in appearance, there's still so so so much data we're giving up on because we'd rather...

lemme check my notes. that cant be right.

...because we'd rather deny trans people health care and let them die. huh.

#trans #transgender #ramble #queer #lgbtq #genderqueer #hrt #trans hrt #crimes against the gender convention #someone make me a scientist im onto something #like yes obviously science needs funding and shit but if we can stuff dead fish into mri machines we can give out some pills #we have a... grasp on physical changes but even that is limited #effects on behavior have like. 3 studies in 30+ years or something like that #and we cant really extrapolate from animal experiments because human brains are so much more complex #and what about variants!! id fucking love to take a fucked up lil cocktail to see which aspects of a physical transition can be isolated #like if i take testosterone i am SO gonna start balding but theres supposed combinations that would inhibit the effect on hair loss/growth #but i cant have that because theres not enough science on it to get it approved here (especially if insurance is involved)#hello i am the science lemme do it!! gimme!!!!#id even let you float me in a vat of mysterious green liquid #actually that seems like a benefit

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rainydaygt · 1 year ago

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hold them gentl like hoddog

#hi guys. sorry for absence #i’m at the lowest low ive ever been if im being honest #idk what posting will look like for the next year #i’m starting HRT #and it’s come with so much heartache #so uh. wish me luck ig #g/t #giant/tiny #giant #tiny #giant tiny #art from the river #mouser

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silversoulstardust · 4 months ago

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week 7 of menstruating and I am so so tired

#im gonna give myself until next year for my uterus to get shit straight or im gonna get hysterectomy done #honestly this is so fucking shitty #tahbso is another option and then i can just start on hrt right away with estrogen patch #with absolutely no need of progestrone bc hey!!!! no uterus!!!!!!#another option is lng-ius coil specifically jaydess but it's progesterone based and I don't want to deal with the potential side effects :(#i know jaydess technically has the lowest amount of levonogestrel but i really dont wanna risk it #im already suicidal half the time im on the combined pills to treat this shit #sorry tmi but arghhh im frustrated #chrmz.txt

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canon-gabriel-quotes · 11 months ago

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I'm not on t yet and it's already so bad. how to prepare

Prepare? Nuh uh. It just happens.

The rabid animal phase does go away, sort of.

The level stays mostly the same but you learn to ignore it.

If you can do it, exercising helps.

But when it hits randomly at the worst moment I’m sorry there is nothing to be done LMAO

#also you will be so hungry #hungrier than u ever thought possible #that part does mostly go away #I’m sorry idk what else to tell ya #idk how different hrt is compared to ur body just doin it #like idk how sudden it is. i guess it depends on what dose ur on #it’s just like. oh ok i guess that’s happening now well alrighty #also the mind and body disconnect WILL HAPPEN #ur body just starts doing shit and ur sitting there like damn I gotta study for this quiz #that also… doesn’t go away but #ok what I’m trying to say is after like uhh 2 years you’ll just be used to the bullshit #GOOD LUCK..#how did this become the topic of anons recently i feel like a middle school teacher 😭#is this what being the oldest sibling is like idk im the family baby but no one told me shit LOL #ask #asks #non voice post

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s-ccaam-era-crepe · 22 days ago

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im so infinitely stressed rn i need to get off here

#camera talks #fuckkk #sighhhghsghg #sorry yall im like. on the verge of tears #this is genuinely like. the start of like 'the rest of my life' year and its. not looking like a good 4 years at all #i have to change my gender marker on my license back (safety. my states not red but its not Good either) and like.#i was already planning to at this point but its hitting me how much it meant to me to have that piece of me be like. known ? ig??#and i feel lucky that my name is already legally changed and its a fairly neutral to masc name so i think im fine #but like. do i really have to go into my job field like this? will i have to not be trans for the first 'real' steps of my life?#im fucking. upset #and im so so angry #i dont feel like i can look to HRT or surgery in my future rn #and i Know we're going to get through this #but like. im so tired of being unknown and hidden but its not like i can do anything about it now or ever anyways #like im already misgendered all the time so it doesn't Matter i guess #and very little people know of my relationships in the grand scheme of things so i guess im just going to keep keeping those hidden ish #but i dont Want to ! i want to be proudly queer and in love because i Am !! so like augh i dont know #im just so so upset #being queer is Me and i hate having to hide this part of myself for so fucking long #no wonder i related to old queers writing and stuff. augh. im thinking about them a lot. lots of them got through this #lots of them had lives they were proud of for the most part and i just hope i get that too #and im not even good at passing as cis or straight i dont think #like. im not going to try to that badly but as much as i dont pass for transsexual im easy to clock as weird gender #and fucked up mentally ill and aughghh #i dont even want to think about not getting mental health and disability resources #okay whatever im logging off or at least shutting down tumblr now #im just scared and worried i guess. i dont know #fuck

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theood · 4 months ago

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I Flipflop so much on it but man. I really do want top surgery

#elias howls #its. i dont know. i view it same as i viewed ever starting hrt just not a thing I'll ever get to experience #and it doesnt help my brain is still living in the sense of urgency i made in like 5th grade at age 9 or whatever because i genuinely didnt #see myself naking it past that age so my brains constantly screaming times running out when i know it isnt and its just. weird. and tiring a #nd i dont know anyone else witj similar feelings while also knowing im not alone in this #like. nothing bad will happen if im 30 and get top surgery but i. i want jt done now. in a year. in two. while im in my 20s and young and ca #n still do stuff

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houseofwolvess · 19 days ago

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thank you testosterone for giving me a deep voice because now even my lesbian housemate says it sounds sexy

#she isn't even attracted to men!!!!!!#we laughed about it for a while but now i genuinely feel just. very good about myself and my body rn #like. its nearly been a year since ive started testosterone and ive already made so much progress #im so fucking happy that i made the leap and started hrt #i DREAMED about this when i was a kid #and now i get to wake up every morning and live in reality like that. what the fuck

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spaghett-onaplate · 1 month ago

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bruh i swear my dad is just stupid

#i mean he is in many ways but rn:#he said he can't consent to me starting hrt unless i can find some good articles on the long-term effects #he said he could only find ONE #dawg a quick google search and im already overwhelmed by resources #he truly is just stupid about this shit i remember him being absolutely INSISTENT that hrt has only been around for 10-20 years #big dog.... hate to break it to you...#ugh and then i found him a 50 year study #there is honestly OVERWHELMING evidence and research to support its safety but he closes his eyes and covers his ears #and when i pry them open and show him something he acts like he never had a disproved belief in the first place...#pissing me OFFFFF im compiling that research tho #a question he asked the psychologist was #'if an anorexia patient TRULY believed that they needed to get down to 30kg would you prescribe them ozempic?'#and the 'unsatisfactory' answer he got was no that would be unhealthy #does he not realise the staggering difference in comparison #ok tho im proud of how little i care about his opinion anymore #we were literally 'geeked' vs 'locked in' yesterday lmao bro wept and i stayed nonchalant #oscar.exe

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queerlycarter · 4 months ago

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im finally in a place where i have a real & consistent urge to make my life Better. more tolerable. enjoyable

im not just enduring anymore, i want to inhabit my life & my body

there are innumerable factors building up over years that led to this point, but i think a big one is my body's sudden & steep decline. it's led me to seeking relief & having to pay close attention to what my body is doing and how it's feeling, and make conscious choices to make myself more comfortable.

anyways which led to me FINALLY actually deciding that yes. i do want to start hrt. i'm done ignoring my body and im ready to start making it a place i'm happy living in

#shout out to my bestie for helping me come to the realization that becoming Unignorably Disabled was a v important step in this journey #and also for trying to encourage me over the last like. seven years about hrt. and me going eehhhhh i dont think right now #but anyways like. its also such a weird feeling like Right Now when my fatigue knocks me on my ass for weeks at a time #is the time im like okay yeah im finally ready to build a life i Want #girl with what energy.#but u know. the good thing about hrt is it doesn't require much energy #im done enduring. im ready to start inhabiting #carter speaks #i like. lost my train of thought multiple times while writing this #bc of brain fog & distractions. but i think i got most of what i wanted to say out. & i think its coherent

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ustalav · 3 months ago

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reading about people who have posted on reddit asking for advice about withdrawing from a semester due to a death in the family and every post has someone saying 'well its good to keep busy'

LIKE god i wish i could throw myself into fucking schoolwork while being Depressed......... keeping healthily busy during grief and depression to Me is..... getting outside with my dog, meeting up with friends, picking up a hobby or getting more exercise. it is not studying harder and hitting the books

#also grieving is a thing you can do #anyway im asking my math professor once more about an incomplete before i decide to just scrap this semester #when it was one thing i was dealing with it was fine...#now it is relationship of 5 years ending... starting hrt... coming out to family... grandpa killed himself #personal

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jettonetrillion · 3 months ago

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I keep tearing up out of nowhere because I am just so so so so so happy and comfortable in my body. I knew I wanted hrt but I severely underestimated just how fucking magical it is. I cannot even put it into words the euphoria and connection I already have to my body.

#I know this seems sudden and fast but I've been accidentally microdosing on t for like a year now lol. but getting actual shots has already #started to change my body and its just so !!!!!#euphoric !!!!!#jett one trillion #i think its funny how im the hrt guy lol. i love it more than words can express

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x-enocyon · 5 months ago

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Throughout this upcoming year I’d really like to sort out what exactly is going on with my weird little body. Because I have a funny feeling the EDS and unusual hormone balances aren’t conveniently unrelated.

#met up with a new endocrinologist in my new town #and so far every HRT specialist who I’ve met with has not believed me at face value that my T dosage is as low as it is #I’ve been taking .25ml since I started. every time i do a blood panel they opt not to raise it because my T levels are good #But. my testosterone levels were above average before i ever started HRT #and less than a year into being on .25ml IM a week i have dark facial hair and a deep voice #among other things but doctors seem the most surprised by those factors because they’re the most aesthetically noticable #the voice more so than anything else I would suspect #there are just… a lot of funny things about my body that as I’ve gotten older i wonder if are connected #I used to think the EDS symptoms were somehow my fault from years of being in the anorexia sauce #turns out the disability isn’t my fault funny how that works huh #edit the new doctor was very nice lol and she was very polite in how she went about it #I can understand wanting verification on my dose if it’s unusual and she doesn’t know me personally yet

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zzpyr0 · 28 days ago

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I have a gender therapist appointment tomorrow and im fucking DREADING it, have been since the start of the month. Im already expecting to recive another metaphorical middle finger from her tomorrow so im trying to set my expectations as low as possible.

“Oh we cant do anything until you visit a regular psychologist! Your too mentally unstable for now!” Have you considered that its (and hear me out here, truly insane, mindblowing, UNBELIEVABLE theory ahead!) because im suffering with near crippling amounts of dysphoria? And your doing fuck all about it? Even though thats why im here? For you? To? Help? Me???

#btw im not talking about HRT #ive been going to her since september and she has not brought up SOCIAL TRANSITION ONCE #We always spend like 10 minutes on the topic of dypshoria before she spends the rest pf the 40+ minute session yapping about random shit #‘have you been able to attend school regularly?’ i wont be able to if you dont start doing your job bro #i see this bitch once a month and have not moved an INCH from where i was 3 almost 4 fucking years ago when i realised i wasnt female #personal rant #personal vent #gender dysphoria #trans #transgender #ftm trans #trans man #trans guy #transmasc

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sw33t-oubliette · 1 year ago

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need to be someones princess but like in the boyfriend way .need to get more masc so i can be reffered to more femininely without immediately dying

#the second i start hrt im putting she/her back in the list . She/her's back on the menu boys [in like 4 years

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