#shout out to my bestie for helping me come to the realization that becoming Unignorably Disabled was a v important step in this journey | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

queerlycarter · 2 months ago

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im finally in a place where i have a real & consistent urge to make my life Better. more tolerable. enjoyable

im not just enduring anymore, i want to inhabit my life & my body

there are innumerable factors building up over years that led to this point, but i think a big one is my body's sudden & steep decline. it's led me to seeking relief & having to pay close attention to what my body is doing and how it's feeling, and make conscious choices to make myself more comfortable.

anyways which led to me FINALLY actually deciding that yes. i do want to start hrt. i'm done ignoring my body and im ready to start making it a place i'm happy living in

#shout out to my bestie for helping me come to the realization that becoming Unignorably Disabled was a v important step in this journey #and also for trying to encourage me over the last like. seven years about hrt. and me going eehhhhh i dont think right now #but anyways like. its also such a weird feeling like Right Now when my fatigue knocks me on my ass for weeks at a time #is the time im like okay yeah im finally ready to build a life i Want #girl with what energy.#but u know. the good thing about hrt is it doesn't require much energy #im done enduring. im ready to start inhabiting #carter speaks #i like. lost my train of thought multiple times while writing this #bc of brain fog & distractions. but i think i got most of what i wanted to say out. & i think its coherent

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