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moonstruckdraws · 5 months ago

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Sage Redesign & Colors

spent a good while coloring her don't question why I'm awake

Might as well do the spiel on her design now then later

So I regoogled bleeding fairy mushrooms, as you do, and saw that their helmets can come in flatter shapes than the normal bell shape. So I took that and flattened the heck out of her helmet to make it more sunhat shaped! It made her look more cottage core & that pairs well with her woodland fairy/dryad concept. Her root feet also look like boots lol.

I liked the other outfit I gave her, but I didn't want to do the mushroom patterns, mainly cuz it was tedious, but also because it felt unnecessary(?). And I removed them, but then I wasn't happy with her capelet & her original dress. So I changed them & now she looks sooo cute!

And I bit the bullet and gave her irises (albeit very faded ones lmao). I wanted to make Sage hard to read, due to her personality & her being a fungi yokai, contrasting to the average yokai & mutant. In fact I think that gardener guy in the first season finally was the only plant mutant, & I don't remember seeing any plant/fungi-based yokai. So I reason that they're quite uncommon.

I gave her no irises to make her harder to read, but with Luci kinda having the same thing (and I'm not going to lie here, but I do this a lot with random characters I make lol) I wanted to change it. Dark eyes didn't work with her eye shape & overall expression as I wanted it to, so I made them pale & huge so her irises barely move when looking around. They also have no highlights/reflection in them to make her seem more hallow as well. So if you stare at her, she'll have big, pale, & empty looking eyes, and it's perfect lol. Her eyes also barely dilate, but I like to think it's something people who manage to get close to her can notice.

alright enough rambling from me lol

#sage the mushroom #rottmnt oc #im so all over the place today #well- technically yesterday- but not its today so-#i realized sage wasn't recolored lol just redesigned so i wanted to fix that #and kinda redesigned her #more of an outfit change to me tho #my cottagecore/woodlandcore baby!!!#(didnt know woodlandcore was a thing but now that i do it immediately became one of my favorite aesthetic!)#shes my excuse to use all my cottagecore pinterest pins lmao #made her dress more saturated

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updatingranboo · 8 months ago

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ranboo replied to aimsey!

#ranboo #ranboo update #twitter update #ranboosaysstuff tweet #twitter reply #aimsey #AH #im so all over the place w updates today apologies

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kebriones · 1 year ago

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If you want can you draw Ariadne giving Dionysus a hug and a kiss on the cheek?

to boost our serotonin 😌

This is post-marriage.

#dionysus #ancient greek mythology #ariadne #art #i forgot the white ornaments in ariadne's hair kill me #changed her design a bit #wait I also forgot to give dionysus his spots omg im all over the place today #btw i know the ask said a hug too but I couldn't make it look good so no hugs today #maybe another time

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fear-no-mort · 2 months ago

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thinkign about how alone and unloved morty was for all his life and rick was the first time anyobdy ever put such an amount of intense attention and dependency onto him . and rick had a whole new family and losing them made him stop seeing the value in other people as a whole and morty was the one and first thing that woke him up

#really long Tag rant down there #one of the most Things Ever about them to me is how morty barely even understands just how much rick loves him. more than anything #and its something ricks done on purpose hes made sure of it #because hes so weak he cant handle it #them being together is agony in avsolutely every way and sense but also theyre the best part of eachothers lives #morty because nobodys payed attention to him quite like rick has and all the exciting space adventures and rick just cause. he literally #just likes him thats it. and he never knew it #also i was thinking of this earlier. one of the reasons season 1 is soooo good to me is cuz you get to see morty grow on rick in real time #stuff like that moment where morty walks through the door and rick is instantly at the sight of him SUPER excited and he goes hey!!! but #then he clears his throat and goes Hey trying to pretend like this dumb scaredy kid isnt becoming his favourite thing hes ever known day af #er day #and goddamn night shaym aliens. in that moment where he realised morty had been fake the whole time i rlly wonder what he was thinking and #how he felt. like. oh man this is messing with me way too much this is Bad #and then he got drunk over it and yknow. that . is it post credits. i think. that scene #n literally At the Very beginning he was tired n drunk n stupid thinking like man fuck this im gonna blow this place up and do what prime #did to me. But he brought morty with him Even just at that point it flashed in his mind and he absolutely could not bear to let morty die #Breathes in #im rewatching in October bc anniversary month. i literally can’t wait im so actually impatient i considered just doing it today So hard #odiespeak

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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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First artfight attack for @poicyss!!! Its a companion to this amazing piece from last year!’

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darligvane · 1 month ago

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Wips on the train today :) still working on that comic.

I also have an ask or two I need to answer soon but it might take a second 😭 going to be a very busy next few days. If you asked something I promise I'll get to that at some point ✌️

#im so all over the place #dont expect any good posts today lol #fallout 4 #fallout #porter gage #fallout 4 the harvester #wip

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quins-makeshift-menagerie · 5 months ago

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Brb gotta just yell into the void

#GOD IM JUST #so both Q and I were under the impression we would be getting help fixing the place #almost a full week later #it’s basically just been me his elderly grandma and him when hes not working #which is very little time since he’s full time #I have been working on this place from basically sunrise to sunset #doing what I can to make it clean and repaint #but I can’t do most repairs #mainly what the bathroom needs #but today #ooooooo today #Q’s parents are getting on our nerves man #we’ve been trying to explain that the bathroom is not functional in it’s current state #and instead of Q’s father #the landlord of this place who decided keeping it while living two and a half hours away was a smart idea #helping to fix said bathroom #says he’d rather work on the living room floor which is the lowest priority #and when we expressed this to them #his mother goes #if you don’t like it you can go live somewhere else #EXCUSE ME #I have literally been spending all the time I can trying to fix up YOUR place for you two #to the point where I am now coming down with a cold and my lowing back is killing me #where Q is sacrificing every free moment he has trying to do what he can while working a full time job #and THIS is the thanks we get???????#what the hell #anyway they’re coming tomorrow but Q has work so I am going to cry #I am so exhausted and stressed if they pull some shit I might just do something I shouldn’t #I want this to be over #the second were able to afford a house we’re getting the hell out of here

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 14 days ago

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Some mild existential dread in the house today

#im just feeling reeeeally really drained #works taking a LOT out of me #like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up #and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life #except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit #and the time and the energy #and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting #and hoping #and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it #i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping #and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes #and have a bath and shave at some point #i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare #AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult #part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions #but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other #idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep #which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately #mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me #and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on #but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just #this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention #and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd #but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh

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infiniteseriesofhalfways · 3 days ago

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sitting in the parking lot thinking i might vom

#it's a chain place and ive been on the other side of places like this #(i wasnt an interviewer but i was friends with them)#and there at least people would show up late + in sweats for the interview and they'd get it!#they would show up with 'oh yeah interview today almost forgot' and they'd get it!#meanwhile im having a breakdown trying to do everything right and perfect #making sure i look nice but not too nice bc again its a chain fast food place and i cant try Too Hard #also these pants dont have belt loops and they tend to shift #AND my right hand is swollen from the wasp sting yesterday so im worried its gonna be 'wtf is wrong with you'#but also shouldn't it say something that im here anyway even though i could have rescheduled #but then its like... im not gonna kill myself for this place like i did at mcd and does it give that impression?#or should i have rescheduled bc they'll think it's bad decision making to come anyway with my hand swollen #also worried that i should have parked nearby and come over closer to the time bc am i the freak sitting in the parking lot #but at least im early! but am i too early? but im out here not rushing them. but should i be so they know I Am Interested #not to even mention wtf im gonna say to them to explain my employment gap #and im so paranoid that im gonna go in and say im there for an interview and they're gonna be like ???#bc it was through an automatic text/email thing when i applied #which was how my last job happened but idk. maybe im an idiot and it's all fake so they can point and laugh #and i KNOW thats ridiculous. but that's how it feels rn.#also im worried they'll ask if i want something to eat/drink and i dont know the right answer #like i feel like i should say yes bc what do you mean you wont eat here? but the wrong thing means im taking advantage #and how will i be if im actually working there?#and its all so dumb bc #AGAIN people roll out of bed confident and they're fine. meander their way through and theyre fine. theres no reason to think i wont be #but ANXIETY #its gonna be an out of body experience no matter what and later I'll wonder about all the things i dont remember #if i fucked up or not #and now i have to go in bc it's 7 minutes until my time and i want to be a little early but not too much #fuck #wish me luck #ks talks

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lilac-nites · 22 days ago

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#i wonder if part of the reason the lolita comm has the rep it does is because so much discussion and content has been moved to priv discord #and private facebook groups #im part of a group where ppl will regularly talk about lolita history and how its changed over the years and wear lolita fashion in all its #incarnation from 90s to today so you’ll see short skirts #bare shoulders #etc #but a lot of the public places are just r/lolita or cgl now so to the outside eye it really looks like thats all there is to the comm #a lot of the bigger lolita accounta never hang out in those spaces bc theyre not a great way to interact with the comm #and now that theres several discords its easier to find your ppl that you click with #im interested in the more behind the scenes aspect of lolita so the discords im in with longtime lolitas are very enjoyable to me to #learn from #musings #the “rules” do not occupy that much of the discussion in the discords im in #a lot of the lolitas are experienced enough that if you start talking about rules #you'll just get examples from both brands and early street snaps that are lolita and don't follow the rules #that's why i really tried not to include a list of rules in my lolita resources post and linked out to a bunch of lolita vids/blogs/resourc #like lolitahistory.com because lurking around the community and looking through content that's already there is the only way to learn what #lolita is really

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des-no9 · 26 days ago

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when he's just lifted up his tiny tief gf and adores her :)

#kith'rak voss #feeling !!!!!!!!!!! shit today #my mood is all over the place past few days #im just feeling really lonely and disconnected #that phonecall w my mum really unsettled me #i want to feel special to people but idk if i am #or just like friends idk im so head in hands tearing hair out #anyway #voss

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angelstrawbabie420 · 2 months ago

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grief will have you saying shit like goddamn and fuck maybe the abuse was worth it

#ive made this post before i just cant find it and it’s all im feeling rn #god i miss my parents so fucking much even though they were the cause of SO MANY of my problems that idk if i’ll ever heal from #but navigating life w this grief and without their support- however little it was- feels like hell #but the abuse felt like hell too.#ive said it before but i was JUST getting to a place where i felt i could stand up for myself and knock down thwir shit a few pegs. or at #least become more resistant to it #i saw a future with them in it for the first time in my LIFE #and it was bc i’d done SO MUCH FUCKING WORK. and now i feel like it was all so fucking useless #it’d be easier if i was still in the phase of anger i was at like 19 #but i’d processed that quite a bit and was trying to move on #FUCK. i had made SO much goddamn progress right before my mom got sick #then everything went down the toilet cus i cannot fucking have anything #it’s so unfair. i wish i could at least redo the last 3 years of my life #i would’ve done things so much different but i was so traumatized and still so angry and bitter and trying to preserve myself #ive come to the realization tjat the person i am today did not exist back then and therefore i shouldnt beat myself up bc it literally wasnt #available to me. i couldnt have done anythimg different bc i was in such a state of survival #and truthfully ive grown a lot since then even if im still in the trenches #the timeline of my entire life has been so fucking unfair #and i dont know how to reconcile any of it i dont know how to cope with my worst fears coming true #and i mean worst fears. even the way they passed. spot on to my worst fears #i despised what they did to me but i still didnt see life without them until i was at least 30 #it was all so sudden and quick and shocking #yeah they were horrible parents but i was a horrible kid too. maybe i straight up just deserved that shit #and i’d go back to that and seeing a future with them in an instant #over this bullshit #it’s so hard. and then losing all my pets too at the SAME TIME. all my babies #everything that i loved ripped away from me in the span of MONTHS #it’s all too much. l oh fucking l. no wonder im 3 shots deep at fucking 3 pm #it just hurts so bad. so fucking bad.

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deus-ex-mona · 2 months ago

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i miss her…

#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all #but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up #a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less #and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads #anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time #he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often #my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know #i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona #i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye #oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man

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lighthouseshepard · 4 months ago

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#uh oh i am #feeling very much not like a real person today #just incredibly anxious for no reason i know of #like my body's still in hyper go mode but i mean #this is my first day off in 5 days so maybe thats in?#like i cant convince myself to relax or that i dont have something im pressed for time to do #and im just so tired #and its creating this weird space where i feel Iike im existing a little to the left of reality #the wind is warm and the sky outside is an expanse of blue with crested clouds but i cant take it in #attention span is all over the place #going from like sad to happy to The Longing to feeling left out of my own life #what the fuck brain can i just have #one normal day when im at home BLEASE #i wanted to write today! but even when im sitting still its like im floating #caspost #tbd #sorry i don't mean to complain i feel like ive been doing that alot lately #i am the captain of the struggle bus and its careening into traffic #my mind has the mouth feel of pop rocks and the look of tv static

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suffercerebral · 6 months ago

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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects

#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar #no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new #but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term #so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now #so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but #it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out #that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance #so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial #but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal #although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive #i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary #ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness #which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days #and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself #im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles #but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy #and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me #i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this #i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself #im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body #im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up #and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please #and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching #between numbness and overwhelming agony #what the fuck am i talking about

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itsahotminuteinbetween · 5 months ago

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tell me about an au/oc of your choosing?

sorry for being so late to this, i saw it day-of and i didn't have time to answer it (plus i don't do very will with non-direct questions for some reason) so my apologies!!!

gonna talk about the truman show au cuz it's rotting my brain:

love the idea (I say to the brain possessing my skull) of moon.ai being aware of when Moon is able to see what's going on in sun's simulation-it doesn't happen very often, but sometimes the virus will give Moon a short snapshot of sun's side of the mindscape to decrease his moral-and having back and forth code conversations that sun isn't aware of. Moon is extremely uncomfortable with how well moon.ai mimics his personality-then again, he is basically a replica of Moon's code with different protocols-Moon wonders how different the two of them really are. Would he have turned out like this one if he hadn't gotten the virus? Is he even the original Moon, or has he been wiped and recreated so many times that there's no way to tell? What separates him from the entity in front of him? Is he any different, any better, any worse? Even if he and Sun did ever leave, would Sun ever like him as much as the copy?

moon.ai doesn't usually engage with the interloper-he's not supposed to be here on its domain, to be around Sun and ruin his perfectly constructed day-by its calculations, it had been the closest they'd gotten to meeting the Sun's standard 'goodDay'-it hadn't had to reset the domain in 3 weeks! Stellar progress, considering the frequency of the previous alterations as of late; it had taken a while to finally set all the variables to the perfect settings for complete satisfaction and avoid triggering the Sun's trip-wire protocols, and some scrapped model wasn't about to ruin it for them. Sun didn't need the prototype- that's what it was for, to distract and entertain the solar counterpart and keep him safe and happy!

Which is somewhat difficult to do with a ghost-like specter hovering over him and screaming in their intermeshed headspace.

#truman show au #moon.ai #asks #THANKS FOR THE ASK JUDAS SORRY IM SUPER LATE I JUST HAVEN'T BEEN MOTViATED AS OF RECENT #fnaf moon #anyhow uhhh #was gonna write more but my brain is all over the place today so #yea

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