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CW : Gore, MCD, artistic nudity
My dear Johnny... at least return my heart before you go for good.
It's not fair that I wasn't there to witness your last breath.
What was in your mind as you closed your eyes for the last time?
Because I know you'll be mine before I laid to rest.
I'll see you soon.
Love, Ace
#fun fact of the day : Ace was going to propose to Johnny they day he was to come back home from deployment#final post of the day i promise#now im tired AND sad#ill go rest this weekend#aka play mw3#hehe#poor attempt at different a colouring style#not doing it again tho it was tiring#mailman rants#fanart#art#cod#cod oc#call of duty oc#call of duty#call of duty fanart#cod fanart#AceSoap#oc: LT Ace#soap#soap cod#soap mactavish#john soap mactavish#cod mw soap#cod soap#johnny soap mactavish#cw: gore#dead dove do not eat#sad sad babies#angst
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sumtimes u just gotta take off yer cowboy hat n feel the breeze in ur hair partner 😔🍃 been desperately needin to draw big stinky
#arthur morgan#ive concluded drawing artar is the closest thing im ever going to get for therapy PFFT#the vague consistent anxiety plaguing my body everytime i start coloring his blotchy skin and moles: ''I GOTTA GET OUTA HERE''#why is he so fun to drAWWW literally everything abt him#my sneeple snorple#aight tomorrow for sure ill get the rest of the asks outa my hair i swear its the weekend lmfao#my art#fanart#rdr2#read dead redemption 2#arthur rdr2#cowboy#western
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Chronic illness is so fun because I never know when things are gonna be too much 🙃 it’s always a game of “is this gonna be the thing that puts me in bed the next couple of days?” Always a gamble trying to see how much I can push myself to still participate in my normal responsibilities before I inevitably do too much and regret it for the next couple days or weeks 🫠🫠🫠
#mine#text post#chronic illness#currently contemplating if I should call out tomorrow so I can show up the rest of the week#or go in and risk spending my weekend in bed 🫠
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All this week I've been going back to bed after I get my kid off to school. I'd sleep between 2-5 hours and then do whatever needed to be done for the rest of the afternoon. I've got no issue with naps, but for the past 14 years I've had chronic fatigue, it was typical for me to get things done in the morning, and then nap in the afternoon.
I was really starting to wonder if I was just being lazy - unmotivated, or trying to avoid doing things, or selfish, or something similar. I was half convinced some sort of personality flaw was causing the change in routine.
then today, I was all ready to go back to bed, but figured it'd be a good idea to do a bit of homework first so I didn't stress about it. Then some cleaning. Then I had some other stuff to do. Basically spent all my nap time doing things just because.
Once again I am reminded that I am actually chronically ill and that chronic illness has an impact on how I go through life and it is physical and not a character flaw. I am not bad, I am ill.
#this is my life#chronic illness#chronic fatigue#me/cfs#myalgic encephalomyelitis#now I'm going to rest with an audio book#and we will see what happens#guess I was recovering from a holiday weekend#who could have guessed
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I need to try harder to get out of bed but augh
#🤖.txt#aghhfjg i really need to catch up on sleep. but i also want to do stuff but idk. this is dumb but nothing i do really feels worth the effor#anymore. Thinking like this is sad bc drawing is one of the few things i like doing and make me happy but idk#i might just go back to the way things were before. Just wait for the weekend and spend as much time drawing then#genuinely dont want to do anything at all this is so frustrating and im so tired and sad all the time#i know i should be using my break to focus on studying but with what time#Idkkkk i just really hate living like this#thinking about dropping out again but that would just mean house chores + babysitting full time while job hunting and idk if i can handle#that. I cant handle anything anymore and this is making me so sad . I want to be useful and do so many things but i reached my limit months#ago. I just wanted a week or two to just rest its all i need . But i know im never gonna get that again and at this point i might as well#just die but i cant do that neither bc i have shit to do#Everyone is always talking about how i have it so easy and how things are just gonna get worse bc they think me being home = me not doing#anything and idk. I cant take anything anymore and i think the most upsetting part of this is that i know theyre right#im not doing barely anything and i dont know. How to do more im just useless and ungrateful for the things i have#Really stressed and tired and literally nothing happened. Its gonna be 2pm soon and im supposed to wake up Earlier#But yeagh. this wasnt supposed to be this wall of text i just wanted to say that i might give up on art again for a while#aughhh i dont know how to do anything right idk how to live or take care of myself how am i supposed to raise someone .#this is. too much i think. I reallyyyyy need to relearn how to just talk to myself . I cant keep dropping these everyday and being . This t#evsryone around me. Everyone in my life deserves so much better than ill ever be#vent
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how the hell can i already ahve a fever I WENT OUT ON SATURDAY CMON
#i usually dont start properly showing symptoms this early god this is irritating dbhvbfdjvbfj#didnt get a chance to properly rest the weekend either... siiigh#dw im watching my fever if it gets too high ill go to hospital i prommyyyy
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ships where muse a is outwardly insane and while muse b is much more calm than them, is equally or in their own way insane inside ( especially if its towards their dynamic with muse a. ) are truly beautiful though.
#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc.#good eveningggggggggggg chat.#real talk i am exhausted. my sister had her baby this week and so we've all been helping her and my bil out!#ive spent the majority of this weekend travelling between my house and their house#with every moment ive had to rest in anticipation for a lift to go to the other house -#meaning ive had no chance to write and im very :(#MY MUSE ON THE OTHERHAND ... (my head feeling like its gonna explode with the ideas ive had come to mind)#hoping this week things will be a lot easier but either way ill find a way to write something#and get back to my dms ... tysm for your patience as always!!!#this came to mind as i got to reading some fanfic and realised the dynamics that were coming up there were very much like this#why cant both our muses be a lil bit insane as a treat --#also replace insane with possessiveness ( youre all gonna be so tired of me bringing this up for ships im so sorry HFJDKSDJF )
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me rn
#slept for almost 2 hrs straight in school n still eepy#not even bubble tea made me more awake#just finished another rin fic to cope i might be going crazy A little#hhhhh nothing is gg right w my life lowkey#results so bad my teacher checked in w me and encouraged me#so unfair…. i worked so hard to receive tbe bare minimum but i guess thats just me.#always so medicore… never good at anything… hhhhh lowkey feel like giving up#wbats the plint… back to my hopeless era again but at least ill be here i guess#rlly i need a rin in my life to get me going again i wld tewrite all my essays consult n evegyhing for him#rin pls be real soon.#gonna do smth impulsive mahbes who knows#hhhh zzzzzzzz dreading everything just wanna cry n yhrow a hissy fit abt everything but j cant ever do that#never having any personal time … ill always be surrounded… wanna be alone but im too afraid of that too…#Anywahs back to rinmaxxing!#probably resting this weekend n posting again next week … :p
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good news! i'm slamming through little holiday knitting gifts at the speed of sound!
bad news! i have nowhere to store the finished objects! and gifting is four (4) months away!!
#text#personal#knitting#ive made so many glovvies and a couple hats and a scarf now!!#im combining the mindless knits with the stare out the window during drafting hours writing time#dual wielding works well for me (love a hand debuff activity while percolating on sentences)#unfortunately. if i keep going at this rate. ill be out of mindless projects too quick lol#and then all ill have left are the big complicated scary ones....#i still need to do gloves and a big shawl and figure out some colorwork#i think everything else should be pretty easy/straightforward#but counting stitches is not conducive to sentence percolation#i finished a scarf today that i thought would take me the rest of the weekend 🫣
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who let his ass into grizzco
#ghost's doodles#oso san posting#yaaa jyushimt splatoon player real ^-^#thats how ill be looking during this big run weekend. besides for the grizzco weapon (i think its charger?? have to confirm)#btw don't ever draw the grizzco suits. or the slosher. worst mistake of my life#sighs. anyways we are gonna go to choro drawing for the rest of the night until whatever else distracts me#both excited and fearing for my life this weekend. vp 999.... clenches fist#i Will not sleep until i get it too
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artfight attack dump number twoooo
characters (left to right): Flicker, Gardener, Vessel, Peach Bomber, L1NuX, Marbre & Mary Byrrd, Sketchpad, and Glam
#[cherry on top]#i wanna work on artfight attacks but my hand got sore :(((((#so im letting it rest before getting back to the grind.#surprisingly ive been putting out an attack daily/near daily... which im proud of :)#also as you can see im doing more traditional attacks.#ill probably do a lot more of those bc im going to be away from my computer for like 3 days straight in a bit lol#(hosting a massive garage sale with my family on friday + the weekend)#(gonna be outside most of the day... lots of things to get rid of.....)#(and in the heat too. how fun </3)
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im not saying that pharmacists and doctors shouldnt be allowed to have breaks or should be overworked or anything but i think its a little cruel that pharmacies and doctors offices can close for a holiday or for a little bit of snow at the drop of a hat when like. home depot employees or something are forced to work in a snowstorm on christmas eve. like i just think medical attention and medication is more important but thats just me. hire more doctors and pharmacists for the love of god
#txt#gekkering#and i donf want these people being put in danger or anything wrt to the snow thing but like we got not even an inch of snow and both pharmac#ies i go to have been closed all weekend as far as i can tell#and my medication is not life threatening if i dont get it but if itwas ???? and the rest ofthe store IS STILL OPEN.#i dont know man. it drives me crazy.#the doctor one especially because the nurses work around the clock ill get a message from a nurse over theweekend being like sowwy she will#approve your refill soon!!!! but they cant approve it for her and she wont check any emails or anything until she absolutely has to#you cant approve a fucking prescription on mlk day? its one button.#just drives me batshit. i wish there was some better method for this shit
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Ffs my body is frustrating sometimes. It's only noon and I'm already depleted of energy and at my maximum pain threshold. All I did today was pay rent and make some phone calls
#i needed to get some cleaning done this weekend but my body wouldn't let me then or today#and theta's out of town for another 2 days#i think it was the laundry on thursday that broke me#it's normally theta's job bc u have to go up and down stairs to get to the laundry machines and my knees are brutal#and I have a maximum carry limit of ten pounds#theta was sweet enough to get all the then-laundry done before she left but that was 2 weeks ago#and in addition to the clothes that accumulated in that time I also got ThredUp card for xmas and had a huge haul delivered#and it all needed to be washed#AND two of them ended up being handwash only! but I'm glad I did it bc the sweater was deceptively dirty#I soaked and stirred it around a bucket of cold water and detergent and thought that was that at first#but when I hung it up in the shower to drip/air dry I realized the water dripping down was rusty brown?? the sweater was gray. ew#it took TWO days of soaking and wringing and stirring and dunking the sweater in and out of constantly changed water for it to run clear#ew#wash your clothes before you donate people it's not that hard#anyway I did the first half of all THAT on the same day of doing laundry and I think I overtaxed myself#bc I didn't listen to my body and tried to get it all done but now I'm being forcibly rebooted. and I'm a 90s computer so it's taking days#don't do as I do#chronic pain#chronic exhaustion#disability#chronic illness#rest or your body will MAKE you rest
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Ive written over 5k words for bucktommy week(end) and I'm only halfway though chapter two of what could be a fifteen plus chapter fic...whoops
#bucktommy weekend#like this could be my biggest fic yet#ive opted for one story and all the prompts so ive had to flesh it out a lot but im so excited#i have first chapter ready to go for tomorrow and i cant say ill get the rest done by sunday or posted on th corresponding prompt day buttt#i feel like its gunna be a good story thats worth a little wait#i hope#idk it could be bad#ahahaha#help#bucktommy#kinkley#fic writing#leo rambles
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With taking a break from drawing Oliver everyday and all I think I might continue on my cosplay of him tomorrow because Ive been seriously putting it off and I have Saturday and Sunday off work
#the gremlin speaks#im feeling a bit better now i was just seriously going through it wednesday and thursday 😭#i might take the rest of the weekend off drawing oliver and resume my daily art on monday#my mental healths kinda weird normally i feel kinnda fine#for the most part at least#and then itll just randomly drop and ill feel like i have like no control over it at all#but i talked to some people about it and im gonna call up a doctor soon and hopefully get into therapy#not to vent or anything btw just kinda explaining whats going on with me
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anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years
#especially now that im back into literally the only interest we actually share on a deep enough level to enjoy it together LOL#i mean we were also both into hannibal but thats just not an enjoyable show to watch together its too much effort#but wow that time we read das boot slash fanfic on the bus together that was awesome#and the time we wrote fanfic together lol LITERALLY WHY DID WE STOP#he has only gotten cooler and more comfortable with his gayness since then we need to write fanfic again ‼️#anyway i feel sorry for every person in my life but i dont think anyone ill ever know could ever have as close a relationship to me as him#were platonic soulmates lol but like not in the spiritual sense bc its pretty obvious that its not some supernatural bond#its juuuust shared trauma haha and the fact that our trauma is so complex and layered that only we will ever truly understand each other#there has been a really rough patch where we practically did not talk for 4... 5? whole years im serious. maybe on the weekends sometimes#while we were stewing in our own shit. but now were inseperable i think it actually pisses off the rest of our family because every time#theres some event where we meet again (we live like 5 hours apart) we only hang around for like an hour before we get in his car#and drive somewhere and hang out there for the rest of the day and night and only return at like 3am drunk#in a sense i guess were catching up on all the missed time#to be honest we both had some horrible shit going on in our heads me with the transgenderism and toxic relationship#him with his anger issues and (what he calls) psychopathy. like ill say this much he was not a good person as a child he was a devil#he was quite literally what some describe as born evil like u know those satans spawns kids that cut off babys fingers and dissect rabbits#all that yk. and i was his first and most frequent victim due to availability lol and my parents did not know any of it and if they did#they ignored it. so yeah u can imagine the relationship was a little strained and for a long time i lived in fear of him#also due to all the death threats and attempts on my life HAHA its kinda funny because i can say all this all detached now#but i think to anyone else this sounds mad as hell. like im not talking roughhousing or being mad at each other#he was always scarily calm and hyperintelligent he was actually diagnosed with some form of like super high intelligence that#makes kids capable of being really manipulative and thats what he used at every turn. everything was always calculated that was scary#if he was nice to me i would question if he was trying to lure me somewhere to hurt me yk?#anyway. sometimes those old thoughts come back when were hanging out alone but mostly i know hes changed and worked on himself#sorry oversharing oh wow
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