#im not doing barely anything and i dont know. How to do more im just useless and ungrateful for the things i have

[thecatsofus]

-ˋˏGirlfriendˎˊ

warnings: cheating(ellies gf is a total bitch, yet thats not a reason to cheat so dont cheat!!), just fluff ig, kinda angst, lmk if i missed anything.

a/n: i was listening to girlfriend and i thought about it but DON'T. CHEAT. a trump supporter at my house and im writing lesbianism. sorry about this being so short yall😞

Mai was the worst girl you've ever met.

Not even because she was dating Ellie, but because she was an actual bad person. Mai was always mistreating everyone, including her friends AND Ellie.

She constantly cheated on Ellie, barely spoke to her in a whole month, everytime Ellie's with you she gets possessive and jealous as if she didn't cheat on Ellie every week with a different guy.

You were always telling Ellie she was a bad person, but she never listened to you. She actually did, but she was so afraid that Mai would tell everyone all the things and secrets that Ellie trusted on her.

You grew tired of it. Mai was trying to forbid Ellie to even talk to you. You used to hand out every day and now? It's barely once a month. And when Mai is angry at Ellie she always says she'll forbid Ellie to even talk to you, block you and make you disappear from Ellie's life forever.

Mai knew she wasn't a good person, she knew it. She did all that on purpose. She never really liked Ellie, she just hated you. Why? Well.. Let's say in fifth grade her "boyfriend" started liking you and broke up with her because of you and you didn't even said yes to him. Yes, fifth grade. She still has rancor over something so stupid. Let's see what she'll say about this.

In a month that Ellie's lucky, Mai let her hand out with her friends, she's at your house. Whenever she can, just to scape her crazy girlfriend. Or course Mai can't know about this because Ellie's lucky to go out with her friends. Not with you. So she said she was at Dina's when she's actually watching a movie with you.

She's sitting next to you, her head on your shoulder and your hand on hers. Of course if Mai saw this she'd go crazy, more than she is. Hell, there's no need for that. You and Ellie are just friends and did that all the time. You do it even with Dina that dates Jesse and he doesn't say nothing.

"Two months ago I was arguing with Mai and she almost hit me." Ellie says as she snuggles closer to you, clear that she's about to cry.

Two months ago was the last time you saw Ellie, so during the movie she was randomly dropping stuff that happened in this last two months, she was always so calm around you she even forgot about Mai and all her problems.

"She what?" You never felt so angry in your life. "Ellie she's a total bitch how can you not see it? Jesus I'm fucking tired of it. It's been two months, Ellie. Two months since I've last seen your face or even spoken to you because apparently she blocked me on your phone. I really don't understand why you can't just break up with her."

Ellie sat up and looked at you, never letting go of your hand. Her eyes are watery and you can see it, a held your hand tigher as a few tears run down her cheeks, when she was crying she always needed to hold on something to feel safe.

"I'm sorry.. I never wanted it to happen I'm just scared she'll tell everyone what I told her about me and- I'm so sorry." Ellie started crying and immediately leaned on you, she'd fall if she wasn't sitting. What she was feeling guilty for? If there's someone to blame here is Liam in fifth grade.

"Hey, don't cry. Stop it, yeah? It's not your fault. It never was and never will be." You wrapped your arms around her before you placed your hands in her face soaked in tears. "Oh, Ellie.. Don't cry, sweetheart." You look at her, feeling pity. She was blaming herself for something she shouldn't. You wiped her tears with your thumb, kissing her forehead, something you always did when she was crying.

But now she was looking at you differently. A way that always made you flustered, you can't really explain why, you are just friends, right? Forever.. Right? And she had a girlfriend. Definitely friends forever.

Your thoughts were interrupted by someone's lips on yours, you don't even have time to think before she pulled away and once she did you can see fear in her eyes.

Not fear of losing her girlfriend. Fear of losing you.

Losing that friendship she longed for. A friend she loved in ways she couldn't explain.

"I.. I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that.." She says desperately, not wanting to lose you over that.

You look at Ellie, speechless. You had no idea what to say or do. But for one moment you forget she even has a girlfriend.

You brought her face close to yours, kissing Ellie's lips tenderly. The gentlest kiss she'd felt in months, after all Mai just came to Ellie when she wanted to fuck.

Fuck, Mai still exists.

You pull away from Ellie, looking at her with amusement in your eyes and she had the dorkiest smile ever. The girl is a sweetheart even when she's cheating.

FUCK, THAT'S CHEATING.

You pull away from her, surprised about what you two have done. But when you look in her eyes again you both start laughing. You know damn well Ellie is feeling guilty, she'll never admit that to Mai, though.

You just know that after that day Ellie is way more free now. She broke up with Mai the next day.

The girl threw a tantrum about it, saying Ellie was ungrateful, that she always did everything to see Ellie happy, that she loved Ellie and blah blah blah, but Ellie didn't listen to any of it, she just gathered her stuff from Mai's house and left.

Ellie started acting more like herself again, not scared to make her girlfriend get mad at her over nothing, because you weren't like Mai.

[choccy-milky]

sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you 🥰 📚 ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewis😭🥹THEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!💖💖 )

[greatestjubilee]

bleh

[lunarharp]

if i just told you i love you would this world change

[july-19th-club]

i have no mouth and i must scream speech but for about insomnia hate hate hate let me tell you how much i have come to hate being awake

[puppppppppy]

man

[zackcharine]

I need to try harder to get out of bed but augh

[vespidwasp]

some people i know are able to be in school full time while ALSO having a part time job AND still finding time for extracurricular activities and hobbies and such. and its like. I DONT KNOW HOW YOU DO THAT. because i am always so fucking wiped from 3 days a week of school. and im expected to like get my homework done and do my projects and stuff i cant doooo all that. im too busy being dead. fuckkkkk.

[lapdogchase]

i really dont understand studying at all like genuinely i don't know what it is . i know about "taking notes" and "reading the textbook" and that's it . quizlet doesn't do shit for me because i don't know what to. do. with the cards. look at them ? am i supposed to just look at them . No one bothered teaching me actual skills bc i got good grades when i was 8 and now i am so hopelessly lost . why did no one think to teach me this for when stuff got harder than four plus three

[bangcakes]

going insane

[yoshistory]

part of me still feels like i might be sort of genderfluid and/or bisexual but just traumatized about it. no idea anymore

[microwavetoaster-selfships]

I know I'm sort of rapid-posting here a little bit but I've been really wanting to read the Chasing Storm book again but because I can't at the moment I'm rewatching Cars 3 and I'm realizing more and more I have less and less proper reasoning if I get questioned why I like him.

Which I'm now giggling over remembering how I used to skip over the entire middle part of the movie because I just wanted the bits of him in the beginning and ending segments. First movie that I learned every entire bit of dialog to. I used to do the dishes to that movie playing.

[sonknuxadow]

I'm not too big a Sonknux shipper (I don't really ship anyone with Sonic full stop) but for the sheer amount of Sonadow and rabid Sonadow shippers that popped up, I'm half tempted to create a 2:30 hour long Sonknux cinematic animation out of spite. It would be a quirky romcom with musical scenes which starts with Knuckles first meeting Sonic and ending with them kissing in front of the Master Emerald at their wedding.

i dont really have a problem with sonadow necessarily or people making jokes about them being gay in the new episode, i also went "🏳️‍🌈?" a few times while watching it. im mostly just annoyed that its everywhere at all times and so many people seem to have sonadow as their number one priority always and dont care about anything else.. like if you search sonic prime on here its just sonadow sonadow sonadow with not nearly as many posts about what actually happens in the episode or theorizing about what might happen next or even discussing sonic and shadows interactions beyond just going "omg sonadow!"... like is that really all you guys took from it? you dont care about anything else? just shipping? ok...

[connormoving]

how it feels to want to dress very fancy and accessoried but unfortunately have the autism where i think im supposed to just be lounging in a field naked or in like. a plain linen dress. and any accessory or makeup or nail polish or ehat have you makes me want to rip my skin off

[crispyjenkins]

welcome to cj/crispy's bi-yearly ptsd rant about fireworks, you are all safe and valid here and i am mentally giving out juice boxes and animal crackers

[pears-trinkets]

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