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Sonic 3 spoiler rambling about Sonic and Shadow under cut !
Y'know something that I feel might go lil under-appreciated is how well they made Sonic and Shadow mirror each other in the movie.
Like something that always can easily irk me are people boasting one of the two over the other because from the very beginning of his introduction to the series, Shadow's character is meant to reflect Sonic. They're meant to be equals that are so similar and complete opposites at the same time.
With the movie, I honestly wasn't expecting it that much. Sonic actually has a backstory that is just like Shadow's: powerful little hedgehog that is wanted for his power, so the one he's known his whole small life that he loves sacrifices herself to save him.
I fr fully expected Sonic to learn about Maria and be like "I lost Longclaw, I know you're pain, but-" blah blah blah- BUT they don't do that??
Of course, we have Commander Walters first telling Sonic that Shadow's story is a lot like his but wasn't able to find family and friends, and Sonic does find Shadow had a family from finding a picture of him and Maria together. He never gets told what happened exactly though, although it wouldn't make too much of a difference with the fact they did change up Shadow losing Maria just a little bit.
Since they didn't live up in space, Maria didn't have a capsule to send Shadow off with sacrificing herself and instead they made it an accident. WHICH- can be understandable if people don't like that, however personally I don't mind it that much because honestly the intent to shoot Maria was there, but she ended up being lost from an accident caused by Walters.
Which, ties in to Shadow hurting Tom...
Walters in trying to help save Maria's, Shadow's and Gerald's lives unfortunately led to Maria's death and watching Shadow be put in stasis for 50 years where all he thinks about is that painful memory burned fresh in his head. So of course when Shadow sees Tom disguised as Walters, he takes his anger out on him by hurting him while also stealing the key for the ARK. Leading to unfortunately another scenario of where the intent of harm is there, but someone still got hurt from an accident because Shadow never really meant to hurt Tom. But he does anyway..
Which of course in turn, makes Sonic mad just like Shadow was 50 years ago. Only difference is Sonic doesn't get immediately captured by GUN and forced into stasis. Letting him able to go straight to Shadow afterwards for hurting his family.
We have Shadow take note of all of that himself, telling Sonic he's feeling exactly the pain he felt and Sonic being the one to say "I'm nothing like you!". Just like how I thought Sonic would tell Shadow about Longclaw in hopes of redeeming him, but reversed and both sides full of anger and grief.
One awesome super fight later though, we come to the talk on the moon. Probably my favorite part in the whole movie. outside of the super fights and Live and Learn playing lol
After mentioning Tom and getting uppercutted straight to the moon by Sonic, Shadow loses his super form, leaving him vulnerable, easy for Sonic to take his revenge on him. Only for all of that to be stopped because of Shadow pointing at his own chest which reminds Sonic what Tom told him at the beginning of the movie and calm down.
"You didn't let pain change who you are."
This completely baffles Shadow, with him actually wanting Sonic to finish it, but of course Sonic just refuses saying "No one wins with revenge". It just leaves silence between them, finally giving Shadow his own moment of remembering Maria outside of her death by looking at the stars he used to gaze upon with her.
He mentions it to Sonic how all he knew and felt was just the pain, and now finally- FINALLY, Sonic mentions how he shares that feeling of loss from Longclaw. Not in a moment of trying to just redeem Shadow without the full weight of it, but in a moment of understanding.
A strong moment of these two looking at each other in a mirror, eye to eye. Sonic, who was allowed to grieve all those years ago after losing Longclaw, telling Shadow the pain of loss will never go away, but the love will always remain.
"The light shines, even though the star is gone."
And through that shared pain and loss, now coupled with empathy and understanding one another through it. They truly connect.
Sonic and Shadow's dynamic was just done SO WELL in the movie and I couldn't be happier with it...
#sonic 3#sonic move 3#sonic#sonic spoilers#sonic 3 spoilers#sonic movie 3 spoilers#sonic the hedgehog#shadow#shadow the hedgehog#Sonic snd Shadow#sonadow#Of course this doesn't have to be seen as shippy in any means I just also want sonadow peeps to also see lol#This is pure rambling but also such huge feelings I have with these two and their dynamic that I just forever will adore#Name two fictional characters that are better foils amd reflections of eachother better than these hedgehogs - YOU CAN'T -#(this is a joke not an actual challenge btw)#(i am well aware people can list off many good examples of this type if dynamic that they will deem âbetterâ)#(these two are just MY favorite y'know y'know- imma peaise them whenever i get the chance- lol)
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SONIC 3 MOVIE REVIEW (SPOILER FREE ABOVE LINE, SPOILERS BELOW IT):
I am so mixed feelingâd about this movie right now. On one hand, I loved it. It had such a good telling of Sonic and Shadowâs dynamics and stories and how they view one another, and I loved that and will be elaborating more on this in the spoiler section. The changes they made from the video game were 50/50 to me. Some I get, others I just was really disappointed in. The action scenes are AMAZING. Battles are SICK, and I have admittedly been on the fence about Keanu voicing Shadow, but he won me over completely after watching the film.
Team Sonicâs dynamic is top tier in this movie. Knuckles, Sonic and Tails are the lights of my life, I love these brothers so much.
But if you are going into this film expecting a SHADOW movie???? Youâre gonna be disappointed. This is, do not be mistaken, absolutely a Jim Carrey movie. This is a Robotnik movie 110%. Idk if they just couldnât afford too many lines from Keanu or what, but Jim stole most the screen time. Which was hilarious and all, but it definitely stole from the deeper/darker story that was suppose to be at play. They went the insane/funny mad scientist route with Gerald rather than the vengeful and broken man he was, and this kinda falls flat and makes the whole thing feel less dangerous and life-threatening than it actually is.
I will say that what little we ARE given of Shadow is amazing. Thankfully us die-hard Shadow fans are use to picking up whatever scraps SEGA throws at us with this hedgehog and absolutely running with them. And in terms of that, we were given a MEAL. But Shadowâs story was definitely rushed rather than fleshed out. Itâs like they gave us about 4 minutes of background for him and were like âAlright. Thatâs it. Thatâs himâ. And then we just roll with it from then on. My hopes on the reason they did this is because weâll perhaps get a Shadow the Hedgehog show or movie in the future where they elaborate on all this even more. But as for this movie??? Just be ready for a LOT of Robotnik.
I still think Gerald shouldâve just been dead so Shadow could have more screen time instead of them cashing in on Jim Carrey. The movie as a whole was so unserious because of him.
Thatâs really my biggest letdown.
The whole plot felt VERY rushed. Like they were too worried about getting to the next action scene to really flesh out the story properly. Sadly this happens a lot when writers just ASSUME we know the story already so not all of it needs to be told when we just REALLY want all of it to be told. Itâs also obvious they cut back on some plot points so it could stay kid friendly.
But donât let this discourage you too much! Like I said, it really was a good movie. And itâs probably still up there as my fav simply because Shadow IS in it and Team Sonicâs moments save it for me. Not to mention Sonic and Shadowâs interactions, though few, are absolute perfection and capture them both so dang well likeâ
I will cherish those scenes forever. Sonadow fans have a FEAST with the scenes they were given, okay???
I give it a solid 7.5/10. Maybe 8 if they add more deleted scenes later or announce a Shadow show. :)))))
10/10 if youâre only there for Jim Carrey (whom I personally donât care for).
Now for Spoilers:
Pros:
LIVE AND LEARN WAS USED AND WAS THE ABSOLUTE BEST.
The moon is successfully pissed on.
They very much did their best to make it apparent that Sonic and Shadow are the same but were simply given different fates and itâs SO GOOD BUT SO SAD. Like. Two sides to the same coin very much came across.
Them punching each other across continents was SICK.
Shadow pinning Sonic by his head was GAY.
Sonic pinning Shadow by his chest fur was GAY.
Sonic and Shadowâs talk on the moon is easily my favorite thing in the movie. Followed closely by their Super battle against each other and then their Super battle in space. Iâve recently written in my stories about how being super together creates this special bond between them, and these scenes 100% confirm/reinforce that!
Maria and Shadow scenes are PRECIOUS! Her playing guitar for him, him dragging her around the compound with her in skates, them watching the stars together- it was all beautiful!
Iâm really glad they allowed a brief moment of clarity that Gerald did in fact love Shadow and care about him at one point because heâs literally the biggest butt the rest of the movie and just uses him.
StoneXRobotnik shippers will be both elated and heartbroken.
So many perfect Sonic and Tails and Knuckles bro moments omggggg their dynamic in this movie was so dang good I died. From Tails saving Sonicâs butt multiple times to Knuckles putting his angry and fiery disposition aside for his brother and handing over the master emeraldâ it was perfect. Knuckles is big lovable idiot energy, absolutely, but itâs not overdone. Heâs serious when he needs to be and is SUCH an oldest brother. I loved his conflict with Sonic AND how he was the one who saved both Tails and Sonic at the end.
WADE IS THE GUARDIAN OF THE MASTER EMERALD.
Shadow being a feminist with his latinas.
âVengeful guac.â
Shadow and Sonic fighting together in space and constantly checking in on the other! Shadow asking Sonic where he is and using chaos spear to absolutely annihilate every robot after Sonic ahsjdkglg boyfriends protecting each other vibes.
Tbh, the entire scene where Shadow and Sonic are fighting side by side gives such huge soulmate vibes like oh my god they were VERY MUCH CONNECTED.
Their banter is EVERYTHING.
Shadow quoting Maria âeven when the star is gone, its light remainsâ and then looking at Sonic?! GAAY.
Tom and Maria both poking Sonic and Shadow in the chest and telling them who they are in their hearts and who they choose to be is what counts. THIS being what brings them together?? PERFECTION.
Despite my annoyance at the amount of Robotnik in the movie, Eggmanâs sacrifice and message to Stone was very touching.
Tails and Stone are the dream team.
Knuckles is forever scared of ghosts.
Shadow going after Tom ONLY because he thought it was the General and then immediately regretting it and feeling guilty when he sees itâs not and then having to watch Sonic cry over his body while Shadow sees himself crying over Maria is PEAK. BROKE MY HEART.
Sonic revisiting his cave. Shadow HAS to find and live in that at some point.
THE DID THE POSE THEY DID THE POSE
âHOT TOPICâ.
AMY ROSE AMY ROSE AMY ROSE AND SHES SO PRETTY AND STRONG OMG SHES SO SICK I LOVE HER SO MUCH ALREADY it looks like theyâre trying to make her appear older than she is in the games, so Iâm pretty sure theyâre gonna be putting her with Sonic at some point. Which is fine by me cus I ship Sonamy too and to me, movie Sonic would be the one of all the versions of Sonic to want to settle down with some girl one day. I mean. His whole story is LITERALLY based around him finally getting to settle somewhere and have a family instead of continuing to run. Makes sense.
METAL SONIC METAL SONIC METAL SONIC
SHADOW PICKING UP HIS INHIBITOR RING AT THE END
Cons:
Um. The words âFakerâ and âUltimate Lifeformâ are not ONCE uttered in this movie, and to me?? Thatâs absolute slander. That alone brought this movie down a whole point in my 1-10 scale, okay??? Negative 5,000 aura. Disgusting. Maybe the Commander possibly mentioned him being the Ultimate Lifeform, but Shadow never did and thatâs just WRONG. This is a whole plot point in the game and in their characters from then on in the franchise, and itâs just glossed over!
Maria isnât sick. The ARK isnât in space. She isnât shot. Itâs all kinda dull in comparison to the game, tbh. Theyâre definitely still after her and shooting to kill because the soldier says âwe have our ordersâ when Walters tries to stop him, but he still donât shoot her so likeâ again. Dimmed down.
No Prison Island scenes other than the beginning when Shadow breaks out. Which was. Super disappointing.
Itâs all just so unserious. Especially the Robotniks.
Chaos are just Japanese mascots. Which is big sad for Cream and Cheese fans.
No creation of Shadow = no Biolizard
No âSayonara, Shadow the Hedgehogâ. They tried to reference this with a joke from Jim Carrey, but it fell flat imo.
Indifferent/Open to:
Shadow came from a meteor. He wasnât created. While I hate Gerald didnât inherently create him, I am also glad this leaves room for the Black Arms to become a thing. Itâs also very possible GUN and Gerald were both just lying about this. Because it very meticulously did NOT show Shadow actually coming from the meteor in any scenes. It just showed the meteor crash site and how it had Shadow/Balck Arms coloring. So maybe Gerald still did experiment on a hedgehog and stuff and itâs just lied about because thatâs likeâ not okay??? But also, I noticed it never showed any like. Major accident that wouldâve caused GUN to suddenly invade like that?? They just suddenly decided Shadow was too powerful and they needed to kill everyone while in the games, there were multiple incidents where people were hurt or compromised by the artificial chaos experiments before GUN invaded. PLUS Towers had seen and reported Gerald making a deal with the devil (Black Doom). So likeâ why would GUN just suddenly decide to annihilate everyone in Project Shadow like that??? It would be one thing if they just decided to shut them down, but they were actively going in there to KILL! So likeâ I feel like weâre missing pieces and being mislead.
Rouge isnât there. Which I GET because how/why would she be?? By the end of the movie, thereâs definitely ways for more mobians to start appearing (Amy is a prime example). So it makes sense that Rouge isnât there yet because itâs EARTH so how WOULD she be??? And Shadow using chaos control at the end could open ways to other worlds (like in Sonic X when Sonic went super the first time and more Mobians started arriving on earth). But there were SO MANY MOMENTS SHE WOULDVE BEEN PERFECT. So itâs a shame, but understandable. Plus, how could they have made room for Rouge when they barely had room for Shadow with all the JIM CARREY.
Iâll probably continue to add to this as I process this movie over the next few days.
#movie sonic#Sonic movie 3#sonic movie#sth 3#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog#my posts#my post#sonadow#sonic cinematic universe#jim carrey#review#movie review#sonic movie 3 spoilers#rant#my reviews
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do you think if mia had chosen to stop existing instead of jaser sofia would be alive? since she is the error in the cycle, the impossible thing that isnt meant to happen. understanding that in this context would mean that sofia is meant to live Or at least not die there per say. like calisto said only the god of fear could bring her back but the existence of mia is what throws everything off.
and i keep thinking about what calisto wrote in those last few documents in the cathedral. and his initial scene with verĂssimo where he explicitly states that âbut fear.. its impossible when you already know whats going to happen. do you understand?â so yes he saw all the visions including his own death so he knows like the others how hes going to die. but what makes him different is he doesnt feel fear or thats what hes implying. similarly to verĂssimo who cant feel fear. which to me means calisto like verĂssimo is marked by the god of fear. that is their element.
i also like that calisto doesnt know about mia and you learn that immediately. verĂssimo says âall stories need an ending and its because of that im here. to end all of this. to save her.â talking about mia. and calisto says. âsave her? you left to forget her!â talking about sofia. so calisto has no idea already. he believes that verĂssimo abandoned sofia with no motive because he isnt aware of mia. the cycle itself is already teetering.
now considering this even before using the explosion ritual on himself and presumably dying he tells verĂssimo, âiâll see you in the other ending.â in his mind hes going to be the one to save sofia since he knows that the god of fear will bring about the other ending. none of this will have happened. sofia will come back. the thing is.. mia is the one who existed in the end. jasers choice predetermines whether sofia dies or not. mia was the part of the equation that calisto didnt consider because he couldnt have known.
another interesting part is when calisto states, âi understood the prophecies of the unhaunted one. i solved the enigma of fear. ⊠what did i do?! I FULFILLED MY ROLE!â which we see throughout the game later on where calisto job in this cycle was to decipher all of jasers visons and guide the other agents to repeat the cycle etc etc. THEN HE SAYS âim going to bring her back.â again talking about sofia. which means that calisto did everything he did in that cycle with the motive of bringing about the other ending or in other words calisto wasnt just driven obsessively mad with the enigma of fear cause he wanted to solve it out of curiosity but because he wanted to save sofia. a great example of this would be the last document with the drawing of sofia that says, âonly the god of fear can bring her back. only i can do this.â because his role throughout everything was to be the one deciphering all the visions. he was in charge of overseeing and successfully placing the pieces for the other ending to happen. but as we know sofia coming back to life doesnt happen. and im curious to see what calisto will do with that if anything?
cause the implication of the ending we got is that only mia truly remembers what happened and also that everything we saw never happened. so will calisto not even realize that everything he sacrificed to save sofia actually didnt work or pay off? im most anxious to see what calisto will be like now. especially with how quick he sent the group a text message. theres gotta be a certain self awareness to it all. for him at least. suddenly coming back to life and no one knows who you are cause its been decades? its interesting. i think iâd be Most interesting if we get calisto back and hes somehow still obsessed with the enigma of fear and getting sofia back. because that would alter everything so much more again.
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Hey sorry I took fucking forever to reply to your post, life happened! But first of all, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING SO INTERESTED IN MY POST! I'm honoured that you enjoyed it enough to write your own in response, and that you promoted it to others with that link, thank you so much!
I agree with you about Umemiya modelling himself after Shitara's example. I mean, after his parents died, Shitara raised him and probably had the biggest impact on the person Umemiya turned out to be. Especially since Saviour kinda just gave Umemiya a major life lesson and left Shitara to help him work through the emotions after that. Like, just, look at this:
Are these not the same pannel twice? A goofy guy raging about his favourite things while his friends judge him for it. Umemiya definutely learned a lot from Shitara in his time at the orphanage and I mean, at this point he's spent at least 8 years there, so it makes sense that he'd pick up some habits.
It could also be a sense that like. Shitara probably didn't talk to Umemiya about his talk with Saviour while Umemiya was unconcious, but Umemiya likely picked up on the fact that Shitara was connected to Furin. So in a way, he was doing the one thing his second Dad wasn't able to do in his generation: unite the school and protect the town. BUT I could be wrong and Shitara did talk to Umemiya about it, after all, why else would we see that conversation in a flashback when Umemiya wasn't awake for that conversation? We can't be certain until we see Shitara turn up again.
We do know from one of Nii Satoru's sketches of Umemiya's morning hair routine that he is probably still living in the orphanage. So if ever Sakura has a reason to visit Umemiya's house, he's probably gonna deal with a bunch of little kids grabbing at him and asking him to play until Shitara shows up to distract the kids with pudding so he can talk to Sakura.
As for how close we are to Umemiya's graduation, the Japanese school year works like this: It starts in April and ends in March next year. I'm gonna make a proper timeline post later on, but it's only late July when we have the barbeque party, so it's only been 4 months since Sakura came to Furin. Umemiya's graduation is at least 8 months away, so we have a lot of story to get through first.
I can see why Saviour not having any details could throw you off, but the thing is, I do think he'll come back. Nii said in this interview that he initially planned for Umemiya to be the protagonist, so I imagine he's at least had concepts for Umemiya's mentor figures and inspirations since the concept sketches. Given that he's supervising the anime (which added more visual metaphors in the Shishitoren arc and included how Togame and Tomiyama met), I think there's a lot to the story that Nii hasn't said yet, but is slowly being revealed as we go.
I also noticed how in Sugishita's character profile which we got in the first Volume of the manga that he uses Tsubaki shampoo and guess what we saw in the most recent manga chapter?
Tsubaki giving Sugishita hair oil when he enters middle school for the first time.
From the smallest details like this, to the biggest story defining stuff like Shishitoren/Roppo-Ichiza/Gravel saving Furin and the whole A Fight Is A Conversation thing coming back in the Noroshi arc, I feel like Nii-sensei is an author who loves building on what he's already written to make it all come out better than expected. This is why I think Saviour is going to return around Umemiya's graduation.
Though I also love your idea of Nirei being the one who figures out the connection between Saviour, the Silly to his Serious and Shitara all being Furin students before Umemiya was. I also believe in our notebook boy!
As for there being no teachers at Furin, there actually are some we just don't see them because it's not relevant to the story; we know this because the character profiles list the things at school the Bofurin boys are good at (thank you @orange-cheetah for translating them). But that's not to diminish what you said about Shitara being the only responsible adult we see in the series. @begrudging-fudanshi mentioned in this amazing analysis here about how themes of responsibility and the lack of authority in the series feels very purposefully done by Nii-sensei and @perpetuallyexhaustedlibrarian has their own theories that this is due to the implied extreme poverty the town is in. I agree with the two of them, that it really does mean something that there are no adults in the town who aren't local business workers just giving the Furin guys free food.
So yeah, those are my 3am thoughts, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me!
hey, remember when I thought literally no one was talking about umemiya's backstory's backstory?? yeah, well this guy @loganelfreeces just opened my eyes with the most insane analysis I've ever seen, bc these characters appear in less than two chapters and I'm not really the kind to overanalyze stuff but this made me think more than Im used to and I'm grateful for it.
seriously, if you havent read their post please go, its amazing!! what I'm about to say its practically just a response to what they were saying so I recommend reading it either wya
first off i want to start saying that i cant shake the feeling that umemiya and shitara share the same personality in the sense that they act all friendly and goofy to protect others from unnecessary trouble, like if we're talking about how umemiya acts i can tell he somehow copied or adapted himself to shitara's sense of responsability when it comes to emotional support
then there's that conversation shitara has with the other caretaker about the old furin, and i did get the feeling that shitara was talking about himself in some way, tho i wasnt sure if he had been a furin student, but just some acquaintance to the people there. him being a former student makes sense given that he knows a lot about furin insights and takes responsability on what they do around town
i can see shitara playing a major role in the future, but since the last time qe saw him was when umemiya was 14 years old, i hardly think we will see him again, OR as you pointed out, when umemiya graduates.
if im not wrong, it has been aprox five months (?) sicne sakura entered furin, so i think we're close to that
the one person i really dont think will appear again is umemiya's savior. why? because he couldn't see his face, it wasnt shown, we didnt got a name, not even a nickname, and as you were saying, he's an adult probably out of town that will never appear again
it will be one hell of a twist if the savior happens to be related to someone else, like being suo's martial artist brother or sakura's acquaintance, but i hardly believe he will appear again. yes he was influential in the story, and yes he shared with us some very important information about the old furin, but that was his role at the moment, and the story was going on about umemiya and shitara.
so, yes, shitara will probably appear again in some important scene, and no, the savior will probably not appear ever again
and IF we're talking about a third party, the other guy shitara and the savior mentioned, I hardly believe they will give us more insight on this. there's still a high chance this will get more focus in the series as the events starts to unfold in something more large. i think, if anything, nirei can crack the code of this mysterious saviors and the old furin secrets, I believe in my notebook guy!! (tho I really like how you connected the "serious/calm and goofy/loud" duo, it makes total sense)
OTHER THING THAT I REALIZED I THOUGHT YOUVE POINTED OUT BUT TURNS OUT I JUST IMAGIEND was that shitara and the other girl mention that because of all the gangs messing up the town the police had turned a blind eye to all these and left the town without doing their proper job, so that lefts us with no reliable adults available to put a stop to those crimes. there's no teachers in furin even tho its a school. the townsfolk rely on the furin boys. there's hardly any picture of parents anywhere, not even in conversations. shitara is the first adult to be relied on by someone in the entire series, and i think that alone says a lot about the guy and the future of the series in general.
I BELEIVE IN NII-SENSEI TO GIVE US AN ASNWER TO ALL THESE, THEY'RE AMAZING ON WHAT THEIR DOING AND I CANT WAIT HOW ALL THESE TURNS OUT!!
aAaaAaA im done.
#Windbreaker#Meta/Theory#Hajime Umemiya#Yuki Shitara#Haruka Sakura#Kyotaro Sugishita#Tasuku Tsubakino
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I know I'm sort of rapid-posting here a little bit but I've been really wanting to read the Chasing Storm book again but because I can't at the moment I'm rewatching Cars 3 and I'm realizing more and more I have less and less proper reasoning if I get questioned why I like him.
Which I'm now giggling over remembering how I used to skip over the entire middle part of the movie because I just wanted the bits of him in the beginning and ending segments. First movie that I learned every entire bit of dialog to. I used to do the dishes to that movie playing.
#âirritating. prick. What an ass.â I say contently with my heart full.#He's not even doing anything horrendous he's literally just a pain.#I can't even say that it's the book that made me like him cause it was the second he started speaking I cracked.#I was immediately like âI like a car romantically yup I'm going to Hellâ /joking.#I used to recite âMy taste can't possibly get any worseâ years ago in middle school when I had a TMNT phase.#I would love to tell past me about current me behavior.#I'm getting more and more shameless about it. On my blog at least. So don't worry(or do).#Am I going to start hyper Jackson Storm posting now is this what is happening here. I've been sloely thinking about him more and more.#I. hold on. hoolddddd on. Im going to shout. Have I never posted art of him here. Do yall not know what he looks like how I see him.#I mean I've been planning on posting art of him with all the art things I've been vagueing at and mentioning wanting to do.#But wow I can't believe that. That's actually gonna make me go bonkers.#Then again it took me who knows how long to finally get art of Lightning on here. Nonetheless one that I actually enjoy and think properly-#-looks like him.#I suppose it makes sense it took me this long to get art of Jackson out now.#Have I. Have I even posted any screenshots. This blog is seriously lacking in the Storm department.#Especially considering obligatory mention of him being the first one I started liking and.#I will save my life story of liking him for later.#Now im not gonna say anything to jinx anything here but.#I so wanna draw him right now if it wasn't for me being in a car right now and. It is impossible for me to draw while in a car.#I can barely write while in a car! I dont know how some people pull it off.#self ship#selfship#selfshipping#self shipping#jacksonđ€đ
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oops all rock (springtime edition)
iâll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime iâve been scribbling a lot on paperâŠ
could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (donât do that ever again)
#my art#sos awl#debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff#or like both idk. i donât know how ppl feel about WIPs#iâm happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back iâm slowly getting through everything i missed while i was yâknow#and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love#rock tumbling (sos)#story of seasons a wonderful life#bokumono#story of seasons#harvest moon#hm awl#harvest moon a wonderful life#bunny sighting đł i still have THOSE wips too#thereâs certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them#but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuffâŠ.. i hope that is OKâŠâŠ#idk iâll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!!#fanart#awl rock#bokujou monogatari#hm anwl#unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces⊠sorryâŠâŠ..#also a lot of lumina and namiâŠ. and mollyâŠ. they r really coolâŠ#ceci is also cool and iâve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted#mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters#OK IâLL STOP TAGBLOGGING#i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version#and also fun secret things related to DS#this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuffâŠ. uuuuâŠ.#i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)
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#Am i evil for wanting to sacrifice pa kent sometimes#love him hes great hes done his job with clark#but i always toyed with the idea of clark getting grief for development later in life#i dont think any of his adoptive parents should die well into him being an established superman#but what i do think is one of his parents dying would do him a service in his later years character wise#pa kent is generally agreed upon to be the most sacrificial ( sorry pa kent.. )#a time in clarks life where his father is gone and he just has his mother to look after seems like it would be#a refreshing pov for him to remember what he has left in this world...#there are all sorts of iterations btw. some where both parents die at the same time from tragedy (car crash)#or where one dies#i personally love superman: braniac where clark fails to save his father as a young superman#which shows him..not even a superman can save everyone - a rude awakening. so its just him and his mother.#while i do think of making the braniac origin my canon definitively i also love the pa kent interactions w clarks league friends#like that one time batman visited and they chatted was nice ( standing )#we will see! will probably sacrifice pa kent i mean if a comic origin story did it + a movie i meannnn.#but that means i would have to rework how clark comes back 2 life in death of su.perman#also last point here: clarks a mamas boy i love him being the young son taking care of his ma ( sighs wistfully at MOS scenes when he visit
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Princess Monoke reference anyone?
But fr just a silly (non-canon) doodle of Dust and Reaper's first encounter in Ec-4o.verse <3
#utmv sans#my art#spot!drawn#ec-4o.verse#it's so funny to me that they meet really early in the timeline#because like???#Reaper technically saves Dust's life and sets him on the path to finding the base that the main story is set in#back then they only knew eachother for two days and Reaper was off again. they had no idea how important their meeting was#not only for the plot of the story but for eachother too lmao#but yeah. Dust never actually manages to fire a shot at Reaper (thank god) but this doodle was too good to pass up#might refine it later lol#ec-4o!reaper#ec-4o!dust#this was extremely low-effort#I'm so tired today#hehe#oh and#dustedafterdeath#technically it's implied and only 2-of-3 are present but uhhhh#I could it because this was step one of the master plan >:)#count*
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also he was right ^ cause in tocks tale all hes known as is the prince locked in the tower. sorry brother
#in adult literature and collection of the life of the warrior of light graha is greatly mentioned and detailed through his works with#the tower and all that but in the books tock tutti personally sees to he is scarcely mentioned except as the prince in the crystal tower#however the knight greystone is talked of in great lengths and is a major figure in all the children literature and fairytales told of tock#and is memorialized as the knight to the princess who saved herself#because i think in the mature literature penned of tocks time he is often omitted or briefly mentioned not by name but my status#besides of course the heavensward. but all other adult compendiums of tocks adventures lacks him often#so tock makes sure to make it a point that the children everywhere know of haurchefants name and that he basically becomes like#the knight every child imagines and models themselves to be. tock sees people play pretend of her stories and they fight over who gets#to play him. and this is what she wants above all else#theres entire copies of her book where hes part of the front cover and she makes sure all the best illustrations are made of him for the bo#ks#and the one she pens herself later in life in specifically lalafellin consists only of their time knowing each other
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"i don't want him to be anybody but himself." "you sure about that?" "yes." "'cause i heard he told you how he felt and you bailed."
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"the only thing that makes him worse...is you." "i know. why do you think i left?"
today on: i'm literally never gonna be not angry about how jemma was treated throughout s2
#like. this could have been her villain origin story.#tbh it looked like it was gonna be for a second there#but yeah going through the same traumatic event as your best friend and saving his life and trying to help him recover#right after he told you he was in love with you and wouldn't let her help when she tried#and leaving because everything you do seems to make things worse and hearing he's doing better while you're better#only to return and hear that he's been telling anyone who will listen that he told you how he felt and you bailed#still continuing to be treated. Not Great by said guy who says he's in love with you and preferred the hallucination of you he had#and gets frustrated with you when you try to literally do what he wants (to help him. to use you to talk through.)#(only for everyone to insist that you Must have feelings for him even when you continue to say you never thought of him that way)#only for him to ultimately have the attitude of 'if you won't date me i can't even try to be friends with you' p much the entire time#idk man! it'd be my villain origin story!#this is not a fitz friendly blog#every time i rewatch this show he grates on me more and more#(also to be noted: not just the way he is with jemma. the way he is with most characters.)#and like. i hated mack through most of s2 and then in s3 he became one of my favorites so like! i can change my opinions of characters!#just like how i used to love fitz and now i hate him lmao#several bad puns later â out of character.#idk i'm just gonna tag it as that for now#if u read these tags to this point you're the real mvp and i love you
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hi! heard the released âMerry Christmas, Please Donât Callâ (which iâve seen youâve heard live, if iâm not mistaken!!) this morning and i donât know if thereâs really a particular vibe/dynamic/ship hrpf-wise (personally havenât yet been able to put my finger on it) that quite relates but the lyrics have been rotating in my head all day and i was wondering if you had any thoughts? hope you have a good one! <3
OH ANON HAVE I EVER SEEN IT LIVE!!! and the second that song came out i zoomed it straight into my fic playlist and unfortunately there are so many guys this could be. right now the one that's resonating is, of course, the golden boy and his haunted ghost themselves: mcstrome.
i am thinking about connor, specifically, after the stanley cup final. that game seven. how angry he was, how loud the silence when they told him he won the conn smythe. how close he's come before and again and again lost. there's nobody else to blame but himself. he's in the empty room and he knows why (1)
at!! your best!!! you were magic!!! oh, golden boy. connor the anointed, of course. at the very beginning of his career we always knew he was something special and who wouldn't have fallen in love with him? weren't all of us a little bit dylan strome in awe of the generational talent? we were all bathed in radiant light just by being in the vicinity (2)
don't even tell 'em that you know me breaks my heart (3). in terms of building a narrative i think i've said before there is a universe where connor/dylan were together before the draft and to protect both of them, dylan breaks up with him. connor says i love you and dylan says i don't. because he doesn't, you know? he loved connor. he loved davo. he can't be in love with connor mcdavid, first overall pick of the edmonton oilers. i'd rather be hurt forever than have to watch us try to make this work and destroy us.
and after connor mcdavid left the otters, dylan strome captained them to a memorial cup win. what a haunted home, eh? to be captain of the team you and your best friend were on, only now he's left you? don't call me to tell me about your rookie season with the oilers--we both know about your broken collarbone. don't call me to tell about becoming the youngest captain in franchise history when i stepped into the shoes of your captaincy here. don't call me. (4)
narratively: dylan's the one who broke connor's heart and his own but by god it wasn't easy. we both know what happened, you went first overall. please don't make this harder on me. please don't call.
this verse can be about the weight of dylan having to live up to connor's standards and always being measured by him. i would just like to bring up the connor stepping stone chart for absolutely no reason as well (5)
we are, at long last, at the potential future of now: dylan strome, happy, smiling, thriving on the washington capitals. connor, on the oilers. i'm not yours, dylan can say. haven't been for a long time. it took some time but i made this. please don't call and ruin this for me, stay out of my life. i don't want you or need you (6)
[p.s. this took a while because when i received this ask i was a) immediately possessed to write this verse by verse breakdown i had never thought of before and then b) immediately plagued by the idea of making you a little graphic (above the read more) and finally got to do it after banging out all the actual lyric thoughts two (?) weeks ago. emerging two and a half hours later from the fugue state of GIMP with 37 layers in this bad boy hope you enjoy!!!]
#not me being like did i tell y'all about seeing bleachers? and then just proceeded to take it at face value like yeah i probably did#do i remember when or in what context absolutely not. maybe re: popstar jack? also very possible i was just. yapping.#anyway we're gonna put tag footnotes for other potential pairings &dynamics because otherwise this post looks frankly. unhinged. which it i#(1) because i am nothing if not a parody of myself i would like to provide an honorable mention to the death of the goon in this lyric.#when does time stop? when is it just you & your anger? who's the person you've divorced yourself from because you couldn't catch their fist#in case it was not clear this is also incredibly a trade narrative. did we pick that up? this is lovers to enemies. this is we were not goo#for each other and i don't regret that. parise suter fans rise up. the speaker in this case is the minnesota wild org.#(2) there is a note of nostalgia and longing here--when you were magic. i remember when you were a giant to me. i remember the hope#and possibilities. rip to sidney crosby the next one and golden boy of this generation but this is sung like a rookie to the vet they once#idolized. i was sold and maybe i shouldn't have bought it. maybe you tarnished over time. or in a softer light it is a comfort not a#criticism i bought tickets to the show. at your best you really were something and you made me believe i could be magic too. SORRY. dylan.#sorry. he'll come up again later. but every team has a golden boy don't they? do we know the cathal kelly bedard article where he talks abt#eating your prospects alive by building a narrative they can never live up to & promising them every year so that when they can it's a shoc#(3) three line devastation here my god. don't pretend you were kind golden boy! don't you dare tell anyone what you told me because then#they'd know too. the âcoming outâ narrative of it is discussed but while i don't love this it's the easiest example i have: jamie & trevor#have we heard jamie talk about trevor in a single interview? sometimes after a guy you loved gets traded you don't want the reminder.#it's even worse if he chooses to leave. claude giroux hater-era au arc where we don't talk about him. jt leaving the islanders dead to them#(4) while not a trade the other draft narrative we grew up together to enemies is of course zach and dylan. zach roaming around ann arbor#please also apply to subsequent usntdp team 100/101/102 narratives. alex turcotte i'm sorry they never speak your name you will hurt foreve#(5) to counter the rookie to the vet narrative of the golden boy this is fairly explicitly To Me a vet about his rookie who's supposed to b#the promised one the one who'll save them all. dallas is coming to mind here but not for any real reason. nail yakupov are you there.#taylor hall curse of the 1OA. pretty common also for guys to take in a kid when you're barely 26 yourself & haven't got ur shit figured out#so. dealing with a neurotic driven kid? yeah this is somebody who had a golden boy &fell out of favor. got traded. ty smith j'accuse style#(6) or in another story please don't call because i'll come right back#goodnight chicago the playoff handshake line. please don't call me. please don't call me.#HELLO BESTIE!!!! i think this is a wonderful song for Fic Purposes and could be applied well to SO many different narratives. i picked a#specific example but do feel the dynamic is very much what the song says: toxic ex and/or family/friend you don't need in your life. trades#seguin leaving boston etc etc. there IS an answer eluding me besides mcstrome though. not toxic enough. tk pat trade? OH TK PAT. or older#trade deadline tragedy
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tides of regret | heeseung
summary: in the year since heeseung first rejected your love confession, you've tried everything to get over him. a trip to europe makes you realize you miss your former best friend more than anything, and it makes heeseung realize he's got it all wrong.
notes: aaand she's here! this is 24.4K words worth of my heart and soul. consider this a token of my appreciation for welcoming me on enhablr. i sincerely hope you enjoy it. <3
deep cuts: #1
warnings: angst/internal self doubt, playful banter, dirty talking, praise, slight degradation, oral (m and f receiving), dry humping, fingering, mentions of exhibitionism and face sitting, nipple sucking, spit, brief moment of anal (tongue only), condom removal, unprotected sex, creampie.
For @enha-stars â may this story rip you apart and stitch you back together.
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Incheon feels lonely at three in the morning.Â
The overhead lights being turned off because of the lack of travelers at this hour makes the airport feel bigger than it actually is. Itâs too quiet without the familiar sounds of luggage wheels on the linoleum or overhead speakers announcing flight changes every ten minutes. You donât think youâve ever been to an airport so early in your life.Â
Itâs quiet enough to leave you alone with your bothersome thoughts. In the years youâve been away from home as you studied abroad, you canât help but feel a gravitational pull towards life in Seoul and the people in it. The familiarity of your home outweighs the adventure you once yearned for in your youth, and now youâre left with the exciting notion that, this time, youâll know when youâll be coming back.
The terminal has an abundance of seating. Your backpack rests on the seat beside you as Jay double checks the gate number while the rest of your friends find a spot on the seats next to you, attempting to find an ounce of comfort in the dimly lit area.
âI know leaving early saved us hundreds of dollars, but I need sleep,â Sunghoon says from beside you. His usually well kept hair falls in all sorts of places like he woke up without a second thought and hailed a taxi the minute he opened his eyes.Â
âYouâll thank me later,â Jay says. âWe can sleep on the plane.â
âOur flight doesnât leave for another two hours,â Jake whines from beside him as he yawns. âHow am I supposed to sleep on these god forsakes chairs?âÂ
âQuit whining and try,â Jay retorts. He looks behind him to see the rest of your friend group approach before glancing over to you. âDoing okay?âÂ
âHow come Y/N gets preferential treatment?â Jake beckons.Â
âBecause she isnât a nuisance like you,â Jay immediately fires back before diverting his attention towards you again.Â
âIâm alright,â you say, stifling a yawn behind your hand. âJust cold and sleepy.âÂ
âHopefully they turn off the damn AC,â Sunghoon says as he pulls his sweatshirt over his head. âI feel like my veins are being injected with ice.â
âItâll warm up when more people come,â Jay reasons. âI wish there was a coffee stand that was open. I need a cup.âÂ
âI could go for one,â you agree. âIâm trying to stay awake for the next couple of hours so I can sleep on the plane.âÂ
The rest of your friend group appear behind Jay and you look down to check your phone for any notifications when Heeseung catches your eye. It takes you by surprise and you abruptly look back at your screen and busy yourself by aimlessly scrolling through social media as he attempts to occupy the empty seat beside you, but Jake beats him to it.
âIâm gonna freeze to death and then all of you are gonna have to deal with my frozen body.â Jake dramatically slouches down onto the seat until his head finds your shoulder, nuzzling his cheek as if trying to find comfort in you. âJesus, Y/N, youâre so warm.â
You laugh. âI wore layers.âÂ
âYouâre gonna regret that when we get on the plane,â Jake mumbles.Â
Heeseung, from the corner of your eyes, opts to move to the seats in front of you. You try not to pay him any mind.
You snort. âYeah, well I can take these layers off while you freeze until you become an icicle.â Jake hums when you let your head fall onto his.Â
âYou know Iâm not built for the cold. Australiaâs my home.â
âAnd yet you moved to Korea,â Sunghoon provokes.Â
Jungwon and Riki are rummaging through the bag of snacks youâd brought for an early breakfast until the restaurants and coffee stands around you open up. Jakeâs right, itâs far too cold to stop shivering, but you suppose youâre grateful that the discomfort distracts you from sleeping too early.Â
âI canât believe weâre finally going on this trip,â Sunoo says from above you. With your head still on Jakeâs, you turn to look at the boy speaking. âIâm really excited for you to show us where youâve been for the past four years.â
A tiny smile graces your lips. âIâm excited to show you around London and Paris. The latter is a two hour train ride. My friends and I would go every few weekends or so to explore the city. Pictures and videos donât do them justice.â You sigh as you reminisce. âI really did think that Iâd end up living there when I graduated.âÂ
âWhy didnât you?âÂ
âMissed home too much, I guess.â You shrug. âThough, I canât believe Riki went through a growth spurt in the last two years that I was gone.â
âYou went back to Okayama before Y/N came back for holiday break, right?â Jungwon asks, looking between the both of you.
âThatâs right,â Riki says. âI was sad that I couldnât see you before you went back to school.â
âNow heâs twice my height.â You gesture at the younger boy. Heâs too shy with the sudden affection and chooses to bury his head in Jungwonâs shoulder. âYou were so little.â
âShut up,â he mumbles.Â
âI canât believe youâre fluent in English now.â Jungwon pushes Riki off of his arm. âYou, Jake, and Jay are kind of scary when you speak English.â
âIt was a little hard at first. I used to watch a lot of American cinema so I could understand it better than I could speak it. But I canât lie, itâs fun being able to talk to them in English.â
âYou were so cute trying to string phrases together during your first summer back,â Jay coos. âTexting her in English was funny because she couldnât understand the difference between spelling.â
âPoor Jake.â You pull your head from his and look down at him. âYou probably had aneurysms looking at my grammar.âÂ
You lift your head to see that the aforementioned has fallen asleep amongst the conversation with his mouth slightly ajar and soft snores echoing past your ear. You donât move when Jay asks if you want Jake off of your shoulder, but you shake your head.
Conversation falls flat when the group unanimously decides that sleepiness is overtaking the need to socialize. Jay keeps checking his watch to look out for the time while your eyes try to look anywhere but at Heeseung.Â
Itâs odd, the way two people can lose a friendship overnight. The heartbreak that came with romantic rejection wasnât nearly as bad as realizing texts and phone calls were far fewer in between the moment you had arrived back in Europe to finish your studies. It hurt to know that neither one of you felt comfortable enough to see each other when you were back in your hometown unless the two of you were invited to hang out with mutual friends.Â
Still, seeing Heeseung after he had rejected your confession felt like a punch to the gut.Â
Long gone were the days of being able to send him unimportant updates about your life abroad or what you were doing at any given summer day back home. You couldnât ask him to go to the restaurants you used to frequent near his house or yours. You certainly couldnât call him at random hours because you were bored and missed his voice.Â
It wasnât for the lack of trying. It felt like things might've gone back to normal after a short period of not talking, but your texts going unanswered and your calls going to voicemail was all you needed to know.Â
Perhaps itâs why youâre comfortable spearheading this vacation with Jay, who had made it a point to visit you in London when youâd chosen to stay behind instead of going home for the holiday break. The two of you had never spent time alone prior to then, but it touched you that heâd go out of his way to dedicate an entire day to visit you when he was there for a family vacation.Â
Coming back to Korea the summer after graduating felt like you were making the right choice, even if your head was telling you to find a home in Europe. Still fresh from your unresolved rejection, stepping off of the plane and knowing you wouldnât be returning back to your universityâs town made the uncomfortable reality of coming face-to-face with Heeseung sink in. Youâd have to live with the consequences.Â
But itâs been eight months since you returned, six months since Jayâs dad was gracious enough to offer you a position on his marketing team, and five months since he encouraged your entire friend group to take a trip to your old stomping grounds.Â
The proposition felt too sudden, especially with how little experience you had working with his team, but youâd spend an evening with the Park family for him to consider you an honorary member. Though, youâre sure Jay mightâve told him something happened between you and Heeseung, especially after telling everyone you wouldnât be coming home for the holidays.Â
To this day, you havenât uttered a single word to your friends about what happened the night Heeseung rejected your love confession. If you know him as well as you think you do, you donât think he's told anyone either.Â
âCafes are opening up,â Jay notes. Sunghoonâs ears perk up. âThree of us should go get food and drinks while the rest save our seats.âÂ
The airport overhead lights mustâve turned on while you were deep in thought. Jayâs right, the coffee stands have opened and itâs likely due to the new influx of travelers whoâve arrived at the airport. Foot traffic is still light and you know Jay wants to get ahead of the crowd.Â
Jake has woken up because of the growing murmur around him and lifts himself off of your head to wipe the sleep out of his eyes. He yawns once more but tries his best not to fall asleep again.
âHow long was I out?â
âTwenty minutes, give or take,â Sunghoon answers.
âSorry for sleeping on you,â Jake apologizes.Â
âItâs okay. You needed it.â He scrunches his face, not used to the new lighting. âJay, Iâll come with you to get coffee. I need to stretch my legs.âÂ
âIâll help as well.â Heeseung speaks for the first time in a while and his voice nearly catches you off guard.Â
âSure.â Jay gathers everybodyâs orders before the two of you follow him around the terminal.Â
The line isnât unbearably long, but with Heeseung towering behind you, it feels like youâve been standing for hours. You shift from one foot to the other in order to find a happy medium to no avail. Jay orders for the group and you pay attention to him more than you care to when you realize Heeseung is now standing beside you to make room for more people to wait in line. Heâs considerate like that and you hate it.Â
When the baristas are finished with your order, you reach for the bag of sandwiches in your haste to escape Heeseung. But your fingers touch the steam and you drop the bag into the counter with a hiss.
âCareful,â Heeseung says. âDonât get hurt, please.âÂ
Your clumsy nature was always something he teased you for. Heeseung sounds so sincere about his worry that you think youâd rather him pour all of the hot coffee on you instead.Â
âThanks.â You grab the bag with so much as a single moment of eye contact before realizing Jay has started walking back.Â
Breakfast is eaten in silence. Everyone is too tired to speak, save for Jake whose twenty minute nap has rendered him a little more awake than the rest of you. You and Sunghoon share your egg sandwich and chocolate croissant respectively without a word spoken between the two of you.Â
Meanwhile, Heeseung is staring at the way your thighs are close to Sunghoonâs. He had shifted his body closer to yours in order to form a makeshift table so that sharing pastries wouldnât result in crumbs on the floor. You can feel Heeseung's gaze on your kneecap and it makes your face flush.Â
Sunoo and Jake offer to throw everybodyâs trash away when youâre all done eating. The airport is in full swing by now and everyone has said their graces and apologized to Jay for giving him a hard time with how early they arrived.Â
It seems that sleep has threatened to overtake you. Youâre waiting in line to scan your plane ticket and board the aircraft, but the sudden warmth of the airport has caused you to yawn a few too many times. Rikiâs standing in front of you and his height makes for a perfect makeshift wall to lean on. Or, thatâs what your tired brain is telling you, because you slouch forward and let your cheek rest against his back as you close your eyes.Â
âSleepy girl,â you hear him chuckle. You merely nod in acknowledgement.Â
Your comfort is short lived when he softly nudges you because the line has moved. Soon, you scan your ticket and give the airline agent a smile as thanks before waiting to set foot on the aircraft.Â
Sunghoon notices your dropped shoulders and wordlessly takes your backpack off of you.Â
âYou donât need to do that,â you say with a frown when you see Sunghoon carrying your belongings with him.Â
âLet me hold it,â says Sunghoon. âYou look like youâre about to fall over with the extra weight.âÂ
âIf you insist.â
âLet us take care of you, yeah?â Jay interrupts, bumps his shoulder with yours. âYouâve been running all over Europe these past four years and weâve only seen you a handful of times. You deserve to relax on this trip.âÂ
âI canât believe you guys are being so sweet on me. I know thatâs ending the second we get back to Korea.âÂ
The two boys laugh. âWell, itâs only fair, I guess. Youâre like, the mom friend.â
âJay is the mom friend.â The aforementioned doesnât argue.Â
The squeeze of the aircraft is tight and youâre desperately trying to look for your seat. It seems that Sunghoon is sitting in your row, which excites you, but youâve come to realize that youâve obtained the ungodly middle seat. You make peace with it for a brief moment before Heeseung clears his throat awkwardly.
âLetâs switch seats,â he says from behind you. His ticket shows the window seat right next to yours. âI know you hate middle seats.âÂ
âNo, I couldnât ask that of you.âÂ
âYouâre not asking.â He says it with a smile and it makes you cower into yourself. âYou should move to your new seat so we donât hold up the line.âÂ
Heeseung suggests it in a way that is reminiscent of the days where heâd give up his sweet treats because you wanted a taste. It tugs at your heartstrings but you donât have time to think about that when you notice how the plane is starting to fill up.Â
Reluctantly, you slide into the window seat while Heeseung and Sunghoon follow suit. Your seat belts are buckled and in no time, the aircraft takes flight.Â
For the next hour, Heeseung looks like he wants to say something to you. The headphones you've brought do well to cancel out the noise, for the most part. You can see from the corner of your eye that he glances at you from time to time, but you ignore it and choose to get comfortable for the long haul.Â
When you notice the flight attendants come with the beverage cart, you take it as a cue to get comfortable and try to get some sleep for the next few hours. Likely due to the lack of sleep from the night prior, you fall asleep as soon as your head rests against the plane.
You donât hear Heeseung requesting an extra bottle of water for you.
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When you come to, youâre barely able to register that itâs time to eat the first meal on the flight. You take your headphones off and put it in your backpack as you blink the sleep out of your eyes.Â
âChicken or beef?âÂ
Heeseung looks at you, expecting an answer.
âHm?â
He laughs softly. âChicken or beef?âÂ
Your eyes dart between him and the flight attendants when you realize theyâre about to approach.
âI heard them asking people which meal they want,â Heeseung explains. âSo, chicken or beef?â
âBeef.â You clear your throat.Â
âBeef it is.â
Sunghoon requests chicken when the flight attendant arrives. Heeseung orders beef for the both of you before you get the chance. If he notices you looking at him strangely, he doesnât comment on it.Â
The food comes quicker than expected and the meal tastes decent, though youâre trying your best not to elbow Heeseung as you cut away at your portion. He seems engrossed in the movie in front of him while you peek at what heâs watchingâIron Man, to no oneâs shock.Â
You soften a bit at the nostalgia that comes with Heeseung and Marvel, namely the rainy days in your youth spent marathoning the superhero movies. There had been one year in high school when heâd dressed up as Tony Stark and you as Pepper Potts despite a few girls your age whispering behind your back at the matching costumes out of jealousy. You donât think you can think of the franchise without thinking of Heeseung.Â
The memories almost bring a smile to your face. Heeseung seems to notice you glancing at his screen in between bites. You avoid eye contact when you realize he caught you staring and focus on cutting your meal, praying that Heeseung will stop looking at you and watch the movie instead.Â
But he takes one earbud out and holds it to you.Â
âDo you want to watch it with me?â Heâs halfway through. You tell him such but he doesnât care.Â
âI donât want to jump in halfway through.âÂ
âCome on, itâs not like you havenât done that before.âÂ
Heeseung says it with such nonchalance that it makes your stomach drop. He sees the way your eyes falter for a moment and the way you glance between his hand and the screen. You try to come up with excuses to refuse his offer, but youâve got eight more hours until you land.
âSure,â you settle. Heeseung gives you one headphone and resumes watching.
Between the meals being picked up and tray tables being put away, you manage to fall asleep in your seat. Sunoo sits in front of you and upon coming back from a quick bathroom trip, sees your head resting on Heeseungâs shoulder with his cheek propped on your head. The two of you are fast asleep despite the credits rolling and he canât help but snap a quick photo.Â
You wake up some hours later when Sunghoon says your name. The cabin lights turning on temporarily blinds your vision as you wake up when you realize youâd managed to push yourself back enough to rest yourself against Heeseungâs arm.Â
âOh God,â you say in shock, pulling yourself and the seat upright. âSorry. I didnât mean to fall asleep on you.â
âItâs okay,â he replies, like he means it. âSleeping on planes is uncomfortable. But I know you know that.âÂ
You nod. âYeah. It's too hard to get comfortable.â
âI canât believe weâre spending two weeks in Europe. Iâve never been outside of Korea and Japan before. Youâll have to help me with my English.â
âJay or Jake can also help with that.â You say it with a yawn and Heeseungâs eyes cast to the floor for a brief moment. You barely notice, gathering your own belongings as the flight descends.Â
âYeah, I guess they can.âÂ
When you land, the familiar disorientation of the time difference truly wakes you up. Itâs eleven in the morning when the plane door finally opens and Jayâs moving a step ahead of you as he occupies space in the aisle way to grab his belongings. You follow suit and wait for your turn to exit amongst your friends and other travel goers.
Stepping out of the plane and into the familiar terrain of the Heathrow Airport reignites your attentiveness and you smile at the fond memories of being greeted by your university friends upon arriving. The familiar atmosphere of English travelers milling around the gate warms your chest with nostalgia.Â
You wait for the boys to emerge before signaling Jay, who follows beside you as you walk towards the baggage claim area. You lead him with little trouble down the escalator as the rest of your friends follow suit, yawning in an attempt to wake themselves up.Â
âItâs weird seeing you in your element,â Jay comments as he stands beside you, periodically checking the turnstile for his luggage. âA good kind of weird.âÂ
âThis airport might as well be my second home,â you tell him. âIt feels routine to wait for my luggage at this point.â
âIâm tempted to sleep when we get to the hotel but I donât want to mess up my sleep schedule more than it already is.â Jay pulls his luggage.Â
âYeah, thatâs smart. I think we should take an hour to freshen up and find a place to eat before we go exploring.â
âI can already hear Jake whining about it.âÂ
The two of you share a laugh. âHeâll just have to get used to it. We can have an early night and rest up before we explore tomorrow.âÂ
âHe slept on the plane, for the most part,â Jay informs. âSurprisingly, he didnât snore as loudly as he usually does.â He spots your luggage and takes it off of the belt for you.Â
On the other side of the carousel, Heeseung and Sunoo are standing together to find their own luggages.Â
âYou guys looked pretty cozy,â Sunoo comments. âIt was nice seeing you two like that again.â
âIt felt nice,â he mutters. âI really missed her.âÂ
Heeseung doesnât have to tell Sunoo what happened between the two of you for him to know that you two arenât as close as you used to be. The older boy feels nearly ashamed that his own friends have caught up on his awkward demeanor.
âWell, sheâs back for good and weâre here on vacation. Try not to dwell on whatever it is thatâs making you think too hard.â
Heeeung laughs. âIâll try, Sunoo. Itâs just hard when weâre not as close. How can I compete when weâre in her college town and how will I talk to her in Paris?â
âWell, you never know,â Sunoo says as he picks up his luggage. âAnything can happen in the City of Love.â
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The hotel itself is modest in size. Quaint, old cobblestone surrounding the entryway like you remember it. The people are busy walking in and out of the meeting rooms in the lobby as you walk to the concierge to sort out the rooming situation. Jay stands beside to help distribute the keys and the employee behind the desk bids you a good stay.Â
The view from the fifth floor is spectacular already. You catch glimpses of the streets of London below you, street lights decorating the sidewalk and flowers surrounding the city. This feels like the London you remember and it adds a slight pep in your step.Â
âAlright, itâs decided that three of you are gonna share,â you say as you reach the first room. âThe other four will be split into two rooms and Iâll get a room for myself.â
âThatâs not fair,â Jake huffs.Â
âI refuse to share a room with any of you.â You pocket the key to the single bedroom. âPlus, Jayâs mom helped me make the arrangements when we planned the trip.â
âFavoritism,â Jake coughs. You nudge his side.
âTo make it fair, everyone will pick up a key card without knowing the room number and flip it. Thatâll determine who you room with.â
âAlright,â Jungwon says. âFair enough.â
One by one, your friends pick their key cards and discover their roommates. Jake, Sunoo, and Riki are the unlucky three who will be rooming together for the duration of the week. Jay and Sunghoon are in the room directly across from theirs while Heeseung and Jungwon share a room.Â
âLetâs meet at the lobby in an hour,â Jay suggests. âWe can get some lunch and do some exploring before deciding on dinner.â
âWe can take it easy and sleep early tonight,â you add in. âI know that flying internationally is always a bitch and I try to time my sleep when I need to.â
The eight of you part ways. Your suite has a beautiful view of the sky and the room itself makes you feel like the main character of a romance film. The bed is just to your liking with pillows stacked to the nines. It feels nice to have a moment to yourself. With your friend Yunjin backing out of the trip at the last minute due to family conflicts, you hadnât had time to think about anything other than arriving at the hotel safely.Â
You busy yourself with a shower and freshen up, pulling out options for you to wear for the rest of the night. You settle with something stylish yet comfortable and put enough makeup on your face until youâre satisfied with the person staring back at you in the bathroom mirror.Â
True to your word, you enter the lobby when you said you would. Jay and Sunghoon are already downstairs by the seats. Sunghoon stands to offer you the loveseat but you decline politely and sift through your phone until the rest of the guys arrive.Â
When they do, itâs like all eight of you collectively agree that hunger has overtaken you. You know of a nearby cafe that serves sandwiches from your days in university. You lead them to the quaint restaurant that has your friends staring at the art on the walls as you greet the cashier and order.Â
Itâs a slow moment for the eight of you as you all eat in relative silence, the sound of quiet slurping audible from the coffees everyone has chosen to drink.Â
âDid you spend a lot of time here?â Jungwon asks.Â
âAround the area, yeah,â you say, looking around. The outdoor seating area is just towards the edge of the street with the weather being a cool, cloudy day. âI loved coming to cafeâs like these with my friends after class. Weâd study until they kicked us out and then go for a drink or two.âÂ
âWe should go to a pub while weâre here,â Jake suggests. âIâve always wanted to see an English pub. We have a few back in Australia.âÂ
âI know just the place! My friendâs brother owns it and they know Iâll be in town for the next week. It would be nice to catch up with them.âÂ
âHopefully your friends here kept you out of trouble,â Sunghoon teases. You flick him with your fingers.Â
âIâm the most responsible one out of you seven and donât you forget that.âÂ
âDo you miss being here now that youâre back?â Riki asks in between sandwich bites. âGod, I love London already.âÂ
âYouâre going to choke if you donât slow down.â He apologies and takes a single bite. âWell, I think I miss my friends a lot. I donât necessarily miss being in university, but I miss the freedoms that come with it.â
âI still canât believe you spent four years of your life here,â Sunghoon says. âThatâs insane when you think about how you cried when your aunt took you to Tokyo for a week when you were in middle school.â
The boys laugh and you frown. âI was twelve, okay? You wound me. But yeah, I think I grew out of my shell in high school and had this urge to travel but didnât know how to do it. I was surprised when my parents encouraged me to apply to Kingâs College, even more so when I got accepted.â
âYouâve always been too good to stay in one place for too long,â Jake says. âWe got close until halfway through our first year of high school, I think. I always got the sense that you wanted more than what our hometown could offer.âÂ
âI always wanted to move to the heart of Seoul eventually. But I think I needed to come here in order to figure that out.â
âWould you really have stayed in London if you had the chance?âÂ
You avoid looking at Heeseung, whose attention averted from his phone to you.Â
âI donât know,â you say honestly. âBut what I do know is that Iâm happy to be back in Korea and Iâm happy to be traveling to Europe.âÂ
âYou always did have that sense of adventure,â Heeseung says. âI remember you were the one who always got us in trouble when we explored a little too far.âÂ
âYour mom was pissed that time I walked a little too far down the shoreline when we went to Jeju.â The memory feels warm despite your discomfort at having Heeseungâs eyes on you. âI didnât know who she wanted to kill more, me or you.â
âDefinitely me. You could do no wrong in her eyes.â
âWhat happened?â Sunoo asks.Â
âMy family and Heeseungâs took a trip to Jeju Island when we were around seven, if I remember correctly. Iâd taken swimming lessons and thought I could show off my new skills at the beach we were at, but there was a wave that was a bit too much for me to handle.â
âShe was nearly swallowed by the ocean.â Heeseung hits his knee with his palm as he recalls the memory. âI mean, I was seven and it seemed like the wave was gigantic but to my mom, it mustâve been just tall enough that she could see over it.â
âShe yelled at him for the rest of the night because she had to pull me out from under the water,â you add. âI was fine. My parents laughed it off but his mom was so pissed at him for not telling me to come back to the shore.â
Echoes of laughter fill the space. It feels nice to be able to laugh like this with Heeseung, temporarily forgetting why you were so awkward around him in the first place.Â
When the check is paid, you lead the group around the area. Sunghoon takes out his camera and captures everything that inspires him while Sunoo and Riki are off to explore the shops around. It brings warmth to your chest to see your friends enthusiastically exploring the space you once called home. It had been a dream of yours since Jay came to visit and let you drag him around town for the day. Having them with you feels like youâre healing a part of yourself.Â
You duck into the quiet bookstore you used to frequent while you were a student. Filled with novels and trinkets from floor to ceiling, it feels familiar to you.Â
You get lost in thought when you glance at the books in front of you and you donât notice Heeseung approaching.Â
âStill love books?âÂ
âJesus,â you gasp, clutching your chest. âYou scared me.â
âSorry,â he laughs. âSeems like you still scare easily.â You hate that he knows you so well. Clearing your throat, you put the book back.Â
âYes, to both. I used to come to this bookstore a lot when I had free time.âÂ
He looks around. âIt looks like a nice place.â
âThey have a reading nook in the back. The owner is this sweet older woman who was the first person to help me with my English when I first moved. I think she let me read books for free because I used to bring her sweets.â
âThat sounds like something youâd do.â You cast your eyes to the floor. âItâs crazy that thereâs parts of you that I donât know.âÂ
âYeah,â you mumble solemnly. Heeseungâs eyes bore into the side of your face as you pretend to look at the titles of the books.Â
âDo you talk to your college friends often?âÂ
âAll the time. My closest friends live all over the place. Two of them are from the area, one went to live in the States, and a few live in Busan.â
âIâll bet it was nice to have some Korean friends when you moved. I remember you used call me to tell me about your first semester here.âÂ
You canât help but think about the first few months after you moved when you would call Heeseung for a bit of comfort when things felt too overwhelming. With Korea being nine hours ahead, you always felt a little too bothersome phoning when it was the middle of the night for him, not used to the time difference. But he always answered you or called back when he had the chance.Â
Youâd spend hours on the phone, talking to him about how difficult it was to learn English and how making friends was not as easy as you thought it would be. Navigating the city felt lonely and isolating because youâd barely made friends in your classes in the first few weeks. Heeseung was there through all of it, reminding you that being eighteen years old in a new country made you brave despite feeling like you were a failure for not grasping a hold on life like you thought you would.Â
Falling asleep on the phone with him became a routine, too. Whether it was you who fell asleep after a long day or Heeseung, who had stayed up listening to your worries, the sound of his breathing made it feel like you were back home in Korea instead of exploring a grand new world.Â
Soon enough, you could talk your way around and piece together conversations with your classmates until youâd found friends who shared similar interests. Heeseung was the first person you told and the first person to tell you how proud he was that you extended your roots to learn about yourself away from home. You always thrived off of his praise as if making him proud was something you never sought out to do, but appreciated when it happened.
But that was four years ago. Whatever friendship you had with him then is not the one you have with him now.Â
âIt was nice,â you settle. âI miss my college friends. You might get to meet some later in the week.âÂ
âNice,â he mutters to himself when you walk past him. âThatâs really nice.âÂ
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The rest of the week is spent in your old stomping grounds, from touring your campus, to shopping, to sightseeing. The eight of you split up more often than not to explore different areas based on mutual interest. You find that Heeseung tends to gravitate towards you and you arenât sure if itâs because he feels guilty for rejecting you or because he genuinely wants to explore what you want to do.Â
Still though, at least one other person joins you. It feels nice to have a buffer to avoid any awkward conversation or moments, especially when Heeseung trips over his words trying to talk to you.Â
The week goes by too quickly for your liking. Spending time in London has felt like coming back home, in a way. Youâll always have your memories here and this city will remain the same when you return in the future. Now, it no longer feels like the place you escape too because things got too hard back home.Â
Even with Heeseung next to you more often than not, youâve found a happy medium The awkwardness dissipates when you set aside your indifference to show everybody your favorite places, watching them explore the city for themselves.Â
As expected, Riki and Jake have spent a little too much on clothing with the hopes that they can fit it into their luggage on the way back. It fits miraculously.Â
Your friend Leo, the one whose brother owns the pub you used to frequent, tells you heâs excited to see you after all these months. Itâs a Friday night when you arrive, seeing it well populated. But itâs rather early in the evening before the rush hour, so you enjoy the relative quietness before people rush in.Â
Heeseung, on the other hand, has been in a stupor for the latter half of the week. It began when he managed to talk to you in the bookstore, but blossomed when he watched you navigate your way around the city. You barely looked at your phone for directions and had no problem switching to English when you greeted shop owners. Hearing you speak fluently in a language you once struggled with in your childhood made him feel somewhat removed from your life. The two of you used to joke that he was always better with English. Now, the tables have turned.Â
The fear that youâd told your school friends about what transpired between the two of you plants itself in the back of Heeseungâs mind. He worries that your friends wonât like him and that youâve scorned his name, but he chides himself just as much as he worries because he knows you and how deeply you care about people.Â
Heeseung wishes he could go back in time to change what happened. He wishes that heâd admit his mistake and confess to you before you left. It had taken him a long time to confront his own feelings, but seeing you back in Korea made him realize he didnât care if the relationship was long distance or not. He didnât care as long as you were in his life.Â
The months spent apart without phone calls or texts were agony. He loathed hearing what you were up to from your mutual friends or when he accidentally watched your Instagram stories. Seeing you happy without him made his heart lurch, not out of possessiveness, but because he wished you were comfortable enough to share those moments with him.Â
To boil it down, Heeseung hopes this trip can undo a yearâs worth of his ignorance.Â
But before he can think about that, your exclamation pulls him towards a strange man before you.Â
âLeo!âÂ
The sheer volume of your voice doesnât go unnoticed by Heeseung, who eyes the bloke the second you make a dash for him. His heart winces when your arms wrap around the strangerâs neck and as he spins you around, squeezing you for good measure. He isnât pleased when Leo settles to let his arm rest around your waist instead of letting you go. Heâs even less so when you donât attempt to separate yourself from him.Â
âHey, pretty girl,â Leo says with a boyish grin, accent making Heeseung nearly roll his eyes.Â
âThis is Leo.â You let your head rest on his shoulder for a brief moment. âHeâs one of my friends from university. I think we met in, what, second year?âÂ
âSecond year, auditing class with Professor Donahue on Mondays and Wednesdays,â he says. âGod, that class was so boring.âÂ
âHeâs the friend whose brother owns the bar,â you explain to them. You introduce Leo to each friend respectively. âJay and Jake are my friends who are fluent in English.âÂ
âYou can speak it and understand it as well, right?â Leo asks as he shakes Heeseungâs hand.
He nods while giving him a tight smile. âJust a little. Iâm practicing.âÂ
âNah, you sound perfect already.â
Heeseung feels indifferent to see you in your element with people from your past. The bartender, who is Leoâs brother, tells you the first two rounds are on the house after he checks IDs. Riki and Jungwon are excited to have their first pub experience after you make them promise to take it slow and drink lots of water in between.Â
âItâs a bit weird seeing her be like that,â Leo says to Jay with a laugh. âWhen we first got to know each other, it was me who had to tell her to watch how much she drank.â
âY/N, drinking?â Jake asks. âNo way. Back in Korea, she got drunk maybe twice a year.âÂ
âShe and a mutual friend, Elizabeth, were as thick as thieves. They were like a package deal before we all graduated and until she moved to the States. Theyâd always go a little too hard after exam season was over or if people invited them out on a Saturday night.â
âY/Nâs always been the responsible one out of the bunch,â Jay adds. âIn high school, there was one time she got so drunk that she nearly scaled the roof of my friendâs house. Heeseung nearly fell off trying to get her down. After that, she swore off alcohol.âÂ
Heeseung makes a few comments in the conversation as he watches you catch up with Leoâs brother and as you facilitate conversation between the rest of the guys. Thereâs a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach when he realizes thereâs a lot he doesnât know about you.Â
The two of you talked less as you became more comfortable in your environment. At first, Heeseung took it to heart and made the assumption that youâd chosen your friends in England over him, but a stern conversation with his mother made him realize he was being juvenile. He could only comfort you so much when he was oceans away. It was probably a good thing that you were talking to him less because that mustâve meant you were as overwhelmed or scared like you were when you first moved to England.Â
Youâd still call him a few times a week before bedâwhen Heeseung was getting ready for the dayâto update him on everything that happened in the past week. You two texted more frequently than you conversed, sending him pictures of new places youâd discovered or him sending photos of your mutual friends with sad faces at the notion of you not being able to be there with them.Â
Heeseung had always felt a bit jealous of your time abroad. He loved Korea, but he yearned for the same sense of adventure you once had. Only, he hadnât figured it out until halfway through university when it was too late to transfer or apply for a semester abroad. When Jay had proposed this trip and that his father would expense half of it, he jumped at the opportunity to go.Â
Although, he didnât know it would hurt him this much.
Hearing you talk about your life here made him feel like it was his fault that he barely knew your life in England. It was so easy when the two of you lived a few blocks from each other; heâd run into you with your other friends on the street or know exactly where you were likely to be at any given moment. He knew you felt the same way about him too, as you always knew where to find him if you really needed him.Â
But it feels like this is the first time heâs seeing you for who you are as an adult, not the child that he grew up with.Â
Surely, Heeseung always knew you had a good head on your shoulders. You were always the more outspoken one who stood up for what you believed in, no matter how big or small. You never backed down if someone was giving you a hard time and it was one of the reasons why Heeseung had struck up a conversation with you as you two played in the sandbox after a few kids had stolen the toys he was playing with. That sense of responsibility and gratuity followed you into your adolescent and teenage years, too. Not once had Heeseung heard anyone say a bad word about your character. Heâd like to think he had something to do with it, but deep down, Heeseung knows it was all you.Â
When you confessed nearly a year ago, Heeseung felt like his heart mightâve ceased to function properly. Truth be told, heâs never taken his daydreams about being your boyfriend too seriously. He always wondered if it was normal to develop small crushes on your girl-friends at a young age and wondered if those butterflies in his stomach was because of how often his other friends at school would playfully tease him until they stopped. Jake and Sunghoon had been people who teased him for having a girl as his best friend until they befriended you too, and Heeseung was satisfied when they stopped with their comments. They, too, could understand why Heeseung was so keen on keeping you around.Â
But the butterflies never quite left him. Your smile was too bright. Your voice was too angelic. Everything about you and how you fit into his life felt a little too perfect; Heeseung hated cliches in his youth and this felt like one big cliche joke. He knew his mother didnât approve of the girls sheâd see him with, even in college when he got into his first serious relationship. She wasnât as enthusiastic about her as she was with you. At the time, the frustration seemed too biased until it ended in a way that made Heeseung realize his mother truly knew what was best for him.
Heeseung never considered the possibility of dating you until you confessed your feelings for him.Â
As much as he plays off being the spontaneous, go-with-the-flow type of person, Heeseung gets scared when things go unplanned. He backs away from courage and from moments that make or break his character. He likes to play it safe unless he can make a calculated risk in his favor, choosing to let others fall flat on their face and learn from their mistakes. Heeseung had never considered the possibility of you having feelings for him either. That fateful summer night is one he will always remember, especially in the way the light in your eyes dimmed when he told you he didnât feel the same.Â
He remembers your quick apologies and the way you backed away too quickly for his liking. He had tried to reach for your hand to tell you it was okay and that he didnât feel awkward about it, but youâd shook your head and merely told him youâd see him later. Heeseung had never seen you leave so abruptly. But he figured youâd get over it, as you typically do when things donât go your way. Youâre resilient like that.
Heeseung assumed you needed time to heal from the awkward encounter and hadnât reached out to you for a week. He didnât think much of it at the time and hadnât made plans with you until he realized youâd be leaving for Europe the week following. By then, it had been too late, because he stopped by your house the morning after you left.Â
Getting together with Seulgi after you left felt too easy. He knew sheâd always had a thing for him but brushed her off for reasons he couldnât fathom until he bumped into her a few weeks after youâd left without so much as a text or a voicemail. Feeling a bit irritated at your wordless departure, Heeseung took Seulgi out on a few days to take his mind off of you.
Except, it didnât work. Heeseung found himself fantasizing about what it would be like to go out to dinner with you when she was sitting in front of him. When sheâd texted him to thank him for his time, Heeseung imagined the kind of things you would say after your first date. When he kissed her for the first time underneath the twinkling lights of a local fair, Heeseung pictured you as he closed his eyes. The fantasy was ruined when Seulgiâs perfume touched his olfactory senses, pulling him back into reality. The guilt of kissing somebody who wasnât you ate at his chest the moment he saw Seulgi smile at him from where he stood.Â
He tried his best with her but broke it off when the unrest overtook his mental wellbeing. It was amicable, for the most part. All Heeseung knows is that his parents (along with all of his friends) were happy that he hadnât continued with that relationship.
âY/N used to talk a lot about you, Heeseung,â Leo says, bringing the aforementioned out of his thoughts. âWeâd be out at dinner or something and sheâd always run outside to answer your calls.â
âReally?â Heeseung says out of surprise. He didnât know you did that.Â
âYou bet,â Leo replies. âShe talked a lot about Korea when weâd hang out with our friends but she seemed to talk about you the most.âÂ
Heeseung wonders if you told him about what happened between the two of you the summer before you left.Â
âIâm flattered.â Heeseung honestly doesnât know what else to say. He chooses to tell the truth. âI missed her a lot. I grew up with her living a few blocks away. It felt weird not to be with her when I went to college.âÂ
âY/N said the same thing. Every time sheâd be homesick, sheâd tell us she needed to call you.â Leoâs words bring a warm flush to Heeseungâs face but he chooses to blame it on the alcohol.Â
âI heard my name,â you say as you walk to where theyâre sitting. âNot talking shit about me, my dear Leo?â
âNever,â he teases. âAlthough, Iâm sure I still have some pretty photos of you and Elizabeth at this very pub.â
âOh God, please donât.â You push his shoulder when he moves to reach his phone. âThose do not need to see the light of day and you definitely need to delete them.â
âHow else am I going to blackmail you?âÂ
âYouâre the worst.â You look cute when your nose is a bit red from drinking. You always did suffer from redness to the face when you drank. âI canât believe Elizabeth and I let you into our friend group.â
âHey! I was the one who introduced you to her in the first place.â
âIâll bet if I texted her right now, Iâd have it in writing that sheâd choose me over you.â
âOkay, you donât need to do that because she definitely would.âÂ
The group laughs and conversations flow nicely as a few other friends from your university days join you later in the evening. It feels like a reunion, of sorts. It feels especially wonderful to have most of your favorite people under one roof despite the slight language barrier. But everyone seems to get along well enough, especially Riki, who has taken a liking to your Japanese friend you met on your first day of orientation.Â
When the room gets too hot, you make your way outside where youâre fenced in by a metal barricade. Itâs cold outside, but the alcohol running through your veins keeps you warm enough that you decide not to go back to ask for a jacket. Heeseung wants to follow you but stays still in his seat when he sees Sunghoon exit the door after you leave.Â
The wine in your hands is still halfway full. Youâve decided that youâve taken the lead far too many times this week and that Jay can handle getting everyone home. Itâs your fourth drink of the night, just enough to keep you buzzed for the duration of your time at the pub.Â
You register the door sliding open and make room for Sunghoon when you spot him over your shoulder.Â
âYour friends are really nice,â he comments, leaning on the railing next to you.Â
âTheyâre the best,â you say with a fond smile. âI owe them a lot. I only started enjoying my time here when we became friends.âÂ
âYou know, I was a little worried that you wouldnât be happy when you moved to London for the first time.â
âWhat makes you say that?âÂ
âI think a lot of people would describe you as brave and as someone who will dive in head first to things that scare you, which is true for the most part. But I think people rarely pay attention to the vulnerable side of people like you because it looks like you have it all together.â
âI was a total wreck when I first moved,â you said. âI donât know if you remember the few times I called you when Heeseung wasnât able to pick up.â
âOh, I remember. That was the first time you cried to me and now you have no issue getting your snot on my sweaters.â You swat his arm at the joke but he dodges you just in time. âI remember Yeji getting worried about you too. She was so young and always said she wanted to be brave like you.â
âSweet girl,â you say.Â
âThe two of you are similar. I watch out for her a lot, you know? Our relatives always think she puts on a brave face and donât think twice when she talks about her fears. They always tell her sheâll be fine, but itâs hard to actualize that when you donât believe it.â
âI thought about coming home a few times when things got really hard,â you confess. âI was out of my depth because I couldnât speak English very well. I could only speak fragments and getting my way around campus was so hard.âÂ
âI donât know how you did it, if Iâm being honest. But Iâm glad that you stuck around long enough to see what your life would be like.â
âMe too. Iâd really love to think Iâve become a better person now that Iâve gotten the chance to know myself beyond the comfort of my home, you know? I love you guys and I love my family, but sometimes being back in Korea felt like I was listening to what was expected of me instead of what I wanted.â
Sunghoon laughs. âYeji said the same thing a few weeks before we left for London. Part of me thinks sheâs considering studying abroad. I found a few college brochures in her room.â
âDonât you know better than to snoop inside your sisterâs bedroom?â
âYah,â he says. âYeji steals too many of my sweaters and she said I could get them back.â
âYouâre just too easy to make fun of, Hoonie.âÂ
A comfortable silence passes over the both of you. The audible sound of people talking amongst themselves and the beautiful lights of the city illuminate what makes London so beautiful. It isnât until Sunghoon speaks that you pull yourself out of your daydreams.
âI heard you that night,â Sunghoon confesses.Â
âWhat are you talking about?âÂ
âThe night of the bonfire.I know you told Heeseung you liked him.â
You turn your head to him. âWhy didnât you say anything?â
âI figured youâd tell me whenever you felt ready,â he says with a shrug. âYou went back to London a couple of weeks later and I wanted to spend time with my friend. There never seemed to be a right time.â He shoves his hands in his pockets and balances from one leg to another. âYou looked really sad, Y/N. Iâve never seen you look that way before.âÂ
Thereâs a beat of silence.Â
Sunghoon listens as you sigh and you push yourself from the railing. Your back touches the cold metal as you look beside yourself to see him.Â
âI deluded myself into thinking Heeseung mightâve felt something for me too,â you admit. âItâs not that girls and boys canât be friends, but towards the end of our friendship, it was like something shifted.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âHeâdâŠtouch me longer. Hugs, pulling me by my waist at parties, lingering near me at Rikiâs bonfires, that kind of thing. He started playing with my fingers a lot more. Heeseung never used to touch me like that. Heâd interrupt conversation with guys to pull me away. I always knew what he was doing but I liked him so much that I didnât care if he interrupted a good thing between me and someone else.âÂ
Sunghoon purses his lips and watches as you look ahead at the glass doors to see your friends laughing. âI noticed that too.â
âWhen we were alone, it felt like he was one sentence away from telling me he loved me more than a friend. Not that platonic crap that the eight of us tell each other, but the deep shit where that kind of love comes from kindred souls.âÂ
âHeeseungâs too stupid to see whatâs good for him anyway.â Sunghoon pulls a laugh out of you and heâs glad to hear it.Â
âBut then I confessed to him the night of that bonfire.â You bite your lip at the memory, willing yourself not to tear up. âI mean, you heard him. He told me he didnât feel the same way and didnât want to ruin our friendship because it was perfect as it was.â
âAnd then you heard heâd gotten together with Seulgi.â
âYeah.â You nod once and look down at your drink.Â
âThey werenât together long,â Sunghoon says. âShe wanted more but he didnât want to give that to her. The boys were confused because he seemed to be really happy with her until he broke it off so sudden. I always thought it was because he felt too guilty after rejecting you.â
âWhat did the guys think?â
âRiki hated her. I have a feeling it was because she wasnât you, though. I think Sunoo, Jungwon, and Jake were surprised when heâd gotten together with Seulgi after you left and were trying to be nice about it. Jay was indifferent, but then again, you two werenât as close as you were with the rest of them until he visited you while you were away.â
âDid his opinion change?âÂ
âDefinitely. Heeseung had a period of time in the new year where he went on a couple of dates with her, telling us he mightâve made a mistake by breaking things off too soon.â Sunghoon shakes his head as he tells the story. âJay was unbelievably pissed.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âYou know how he gets when heâs angry. Heâs quiet and doesnât talk until heâs calm. But it was like a volcano erupted, or something. Jay came back mid January to find out Heeseung had been seeing Seulgi for a couple of weeks and completely lost it on him. He said things about not knowing a good thing if it spat in his face and how he ruined every chance of happiness because of his own doing.âÂ
âWowâŠI didnât know Jay said that.â
âIt was scary. Heeseung tried to fight back and say it was his life and that Jay didnât have a right to say what he could and couldnât do, but the poor guy never stood a chance. Jay asked him if he would be happy if you came back to see him dating Seulgi and that shut him up real quick.â
âWhat do I have to do with it?â you ask. âHe rejected me before I left.âÂ
âI donât know,â Sunghoon says truthfully. âI always thought that Heeseung was trying to redeem himself through Seulgi. But I guess weâll never truly know.âÂ
âItâs been almost a year,â you reminisce. âYouâd think I wouldâve gotten over him by now after spending time in Europe with, well, other boys.â
âHeâs not just any guy who rejected you,â Sunghoon says. He looks out at the street, finding the words to say. âYou two had been best friends since before me or the guys got to know either of you. Thereâs a special kind of bond between people who grew up together, you know?
âI think a large part of you misses being friends with him. Sure, rejection always stings, but itâs knowing that you donât have your best friend that hurts you more.â
âJeez,â you chide. âYou always know how I feel.â
Sunghoon laughs. âIâm just observant. I know that itâs hard to be on this trip because Heeseungâs trying to be that friend you once knew. He probably feels guilty for giving you the cold shoulder during your first few weeks back in Seoul.â
You roll your eyes. âYeah, well heâs not doing a great job showing it. Life would be easier if he left me alone.â
âBut do you want that?âÂ
You cast your eyes to the floor. âNo, I donât.âÂ
Satisfied with your answer, Sunghoon nods.Â
âYou know, I knew Heeseung had feelings for you the night we played spin the bottle just before we graduated high school.â
âDonât be ridiculous, Hoon. He never liked me.âÂ
Sunghoon shakes his head. âDo you remember what happened that night?âÂ
âVaguely. I remember that being my first time trying alcohol and Jake having to cut me off when I couldnât walk straight.â
He nods. âWhen you were sober enough to string a few sentences together, some girl suggested playing spin the bottle. When it was your turn to spin, it landed on me.âÂ
You make a face. âAh. I do remember kissing you.âÂ
âWell you donât have to look grossed out,â Sunghoon teases. âEveryone knew it was awkward because weâd been friends for like, five years at that point. We were both so flustered that the kiss lasted for maybe two seconds before everyone cheered.
âHeeseung was pissed. I saw him looking at me like Iâd killed his family, or something. I swore I could see steam coming out of his ears. He wouldnât talk to me for a week because Iâd been your first kiss.â
âSeriously?âÂ
âDead serious.â Sunghoon laughs at the memory. âHe wouldnât answer my texts. In the group chat we were in, heâd acknowledge everyone but me. It wasnât until a week later when we were all hanging out that I told him there was nothing between us and it was awkward to kiss you in front of our friends.âÂ
You stand there, dumbfounded. âHuh.â
âIâve never told anyone that,â he confesses. âI doubt anyone remembers us kissing except for him. I assumed this would be a story Iâd tell you and the guys when you both eventually got together.âÂ
He murmurs an apology. âItâs okay, Hoon. Iâm glad you told me. I guess Iâm justâŠconfused. Why did he reject me if he allegedly liked me?âÂ
âI wish I knew. He was miserable when you left and refused to talk about you moving back to Europe for your final year abroad. Heeseung was really sad when he found out you werenât coming home for Christmas break.âÂ
âI couldnât bear to see him. I was so heartbroken and the friends here tonight were consoling me in the way they knew how. I knew Iâd be a depressed wreck if I came back home.â
âThat makes sense,â Sunghoon affirms for you. âIâm glad you met up with Jay while he was here, though. You got some kind of Christmas gift from home.âÂ
âMe too. I feel like Jay and I got closer because of it. I knew he could tell something was off but he didnât say anything about it. Something tells me he knows more than he cares to say.âÂ
âYou know Jay.â You both nod. âMore observant and caring than the rest of us. Part of me thinks Heeseungâs jealous of your new friendship with him since the two of you basically planned this whole trip on your own.âÂ
âWell, Jay has more international travel experience and his dad knows the right people,â you say with a shrug. âI spent four years of my life here. It makes sense.â
âTo us, yes. To Heeseung? I think his feelings cloud his judgment.âÂ
âHe never used to confuse me,â you admit. âWe used to talk about how much we hated when people made us guess how they felt or what they were thinking. We always said it was unfair if you make people you love, make you guess their intentions. But heâs doing that to me and itâs been driving me insane.
âSometimes I wonder if I shouldâve kept my mouth shut. I watched him date girls in high school. I watched him with what I thought would be his first serious girlfriend during our first year of college before he went through that short hookup phase. God, that hurt me so bad and I couldnât say anything because it wasnât my life.âÂ
âFor what itâs worth, I think it was brave of you to confess to him,â Sunghoon tells you. âI donât say that as a cheap cop out to make you feel better either. You know me, Iâm really sentimental about things even if I donât come off that way. To confess your feelings to someone who you loveâŠone can only hope to hear that someday.âÂ
You nudge your shoulder with his. âYou say that like you didnât have girls begging for a date.âÂ
Sunghoon laughs and you know what he means.Â
âYouâve always been the bravest of all of us,â he continues. âI think the reason why I wanted to be friends with you when we were kids is because you didnât take bullshit from people. I was too shy to stand up for myself between my career as a figure skater while trying to be a normal kid. You and Heeseung offered that kind of normalcy. I could see you two in the bleachers at my competitions and then weâd go out for ice cream like it was any other day.âÂ
âWell, now youâre going to make me cry.âÂ
âI mean it, Y/N. Youâre a great friend and a great person. I hope Heeseung hasnât fucked things up too bad that you leave his life for good.âÂ
You shiver. âMe too.âÂ
âTalk to him,â Sunghoon advises. âDo it before we leave. Youâre removed from your life back home.â You open your mouth to refute but he beats you to the chase. âIf it doesnât work out, then youâll know your answer when you go home and you can resume your life without Heeseung in it.âÂ
Sunghoon leaves you alone with your thoughts but makes you promise that youâll join the group soon.
*â§ïœ„ïŸâââââââââââ *â§ïœ„ïŸ
When you walk back into the pub, Jake clouds your personal space before you can even think about ordering another drink.
âJesus, Hoon. Couldnât you have offered Y/N your jacket if you guys were gonna be out that long? Poor girl looks like sheâs about to freeze to death.
Jakeâs affinity for the dramatic never ceases. Your friends look at your goosebumps and the way youâre acclimating to the warmer temperature inside while Sunghoon merely rolls his eyes.
âIâm fine,â you say. âWe only came in because I started to get cold.â
âLet me get my jacket for you,â Heeseung says as he rises from his seat.Â
âNo.â Youâre sure you say it too abruptly, but you canât bear the thought of wearing his clothes after the conversation you just had. âIâm fine, honestly.âÂ
âStop being stubborn and wear a damn jacket,â Leo chides, wrapping his coat around your shoulders. âYou have this habit of never bringing one when you need it and it drives me crazy.âÂ
âBut thatâs what I have you for, donât I?âÂ
As you tug the material closer to your body, Sunghoon watches as Heeseung stares at Leo with a hard expression.Â
âNot when youâre back in Seoul, you goof.â Leo takes your empty glass. âIâm glad you have these guys back at home. They seem really good for you.âÂ
âI love them a lot.â You say it so tenderly with your head tilted as you look at the boys youâd call family, only for them to coo at your clearly vulnerable, inebriated state.
âMy mother, my older sister, and best friend,â Riki says with a hiccup as he engulfs you in a hug. âSeriously, I would be dead in a ditch without you.âÂ
âI donât know a better person,â Sunoo chimes in from where heâs seated.Â
âThere was one time where Y/N had this lemon phase where she couldnât stop drinking lemonade or eating lemon candy,â Jake tells the group. âNow I think of her every time I see something yellow.âÂ
âThatâs kind of fitting though, isnât it?â Leo asks. âYellow for sunshine.âÂ
Everybody agrees and it makes your cheeks and neck warm up. You hide yourself in Leoâs jacket, but God, Heeseung wishes he could hide you in his arms instead.Â
Still, he canât help but agree with Leo. If thereâs any truth to his words, itâs that you are made of pure, unfiltered sunshine.
*â§ïœ„ïŸâââââââââââ *â§ïœ„ïŸ
The next morning, all eight of you board the train for a two-hour ride to Paris. For the next five days, youâll be acting as a tourist rather than tour guide, for the most part. Jay volunteers to take the lead since you did most of the heavy lifting in London. You do, however, chime in to give him a few recommendations from your prior visits to the city.Â
Sunghoonâs advice plagues your thoughts, so much so that Jungwon has had to guide you out of the hotel and into the cab before arriving at the train station. Both he and Sunoo look a bit worried about you, but you wave them off and tell them you had one too many to drink. You know they donât believe you but youâre grateful they donât press on.Â
Paris is much more beautiful than you remember it, and itâs likely due to the fact that youâre here on vacation, not because you wanted a weekend getaway to escape the stress of midterms and exams. The people are just as indifferent as ever. Youâre able to practice some of your basic French to order coffee and pastries for everyone. Itâs a feat that leaves Heeseung impressed and you try not to acknowledge him when you see his jaw drop.Â
The hotel itself is more beautiful than the last. You have the room with the balcony and double doors leading to a breathtaking view of the buildings and streets below. Itâs unlike anything youâve ever seen, even if the streets are littered with trash and the people are a bit too loud. It still feels charming.Â
The rooming situation is the same as London, with you in the single room and the rest of the boys to fend for themselves. This time, Jungwon, Jay, and Sunghoon are sharing the three bedroom with Heeseung and Jake sharing another, and Sunoo and Riki in the other double. The hotel mustâve miscalculated the rooming situation and put your single room at the end of the hallway away from the others, but you arenât complaining.Â
The first few days are filled with happiness and dread, namely when you see Heeseung as you begin your day. He has a knack for making you laugh until you come to the notion that you really shouldnât be finding his jokes very funny because he doesnât deserve that kind of reaction from you.Â
In fact, he doesnât deserve your attention after ignoring you for as long as he has. Seeing Leo again brought up memories of crying in his flat with Elizabeth and drinking too much wine to forget the pain temporarily. Your friends invited you to a night spent in the pub after Leo begged his brother to close it for the night so that you could have a free space to drink and talk about Heeseung until your voice gave out.Â
Your irritation carries over and Heeseung can tell when you move away from him when he tries to stand next to you. Heâs hurt but he tries to understand that you have a right to be, even if he knows in his heart the reasons why he acted the way he did. He just needs to find time to talk to you, even if the conversation doesnât end the way he hopes it will.Â
With two days left on the trip, youâve eaten your way through the streets of Paris and have done your fair share of shopping. Each of the boys had bought you a small token of their appreciation (Heeseung paid for your latte, Jay purchased a small wallet from Prada, Jake gifted you new sunglasses, Sunghoon a charm for your bracelet, Sunoo a bowl of pasta for lunch, Jungwon a pair of earrings, and Riki a new jacket that looks similar to his from back home). It warms your heart to know you have people who care about you enough to show and tell you.Â
The Eiffel Tower calls your name one late afternoon and by the time you all manage to walk up, the sun is setting below the horizon. There are couples around Heeseung who are taking photos left and right, one of which asks him to take a few pictures for them. He canât help but wish he was in their place, asking a stranger to take a photo of the two of you as he kisses the apple of your cheek. Heeseung snaps a few good ones before the couple thanks him.Â
It doesnât help that you look like a walking goddess. Truth be told, Heeseung wanted to buy you more than just coffee when the boys agreed to each give you something as a token of their gratitude. Heeseung had come up with a list of ideas he wanted advice for, but it was Sunghoon whoâd told him to keep it simple for your sake. He was right, as always, because you thanked him with a pleasant smile instead of ignoring him like you had in the days prior. Heeseung gets the feeling that you wouldnât appreciate a grand gesture from him right now.
He hates that he canât read you like he used to. He hates that the other friends know you better than he does, and he hates that heâs in the City of Love and he canât call you his girlfriend.Â
Riki and Jungwon are more perceptive than they let on. Heeseung sees the way their eyes dart between the two of you and how theyâve been trying their best to navigate the new dynamic. Riki, especially, hadnât been receptive of Seulgi the first time Heeseung invited her to a bonfire. Heeseung had overheard the younger boy telling Jungwon it wasnât the same without you there and that heâd rather go home than spend another minute getting to know someone who wasnât you.Â
At the time, Heeseung was beyond irritated and refused to speak to Riki for the rest of the night. Now, however, he understands why Riki acted the way he did.Â
You look so beautiful underneath a Parisian sunset. Heeseung knows heâs staring. Heâs grateful that youâre too preoccupied with Sunghoon taking photos of you. But God, he wishes youâd laugh at him like that.Â
âYou should talk to her,â Jake says from beside him. Heeseung jumps at his sudden appearance. âSorry, didnât mean to scare you.âÂ
âI want to.â Heeseung says it out loud for the first time. He wants to work it out with you and get his best friend back in whatever way youâll allow. âI miss her, Jake. I miss being her friend and I fucked up when I rejected her.âÂ
Heeseung doesnât notice Jakeâs eyes widen at the sudden admission. Jake had his fair share of theories and considered Heeseung to be his best friend, but even he knew there was a limit about what he was willing to share and what he kept to himself. Heeseungâs friendship with you was something he stopped trying to learn a few years after he got to know you; Heeseung had a soft spot for you and had no problem letting people know that. It wasnât until you mentioned to Jake that you hadnât spoken to Heeseung in months that he knew something was up.Â
âShe clearly cares about you,â Jake says. âShe wouldnât be on this trip if she didnât.â
âBut sheâs been ignoring me the past three days. And before you say it, yes, I know that she has a valid reason to, but Iâm hurt and I want to make things better.â
âYou have to let her take the reins and let her talk to you when she wants to,â Jake advises. âYou know how she is. Y/Nâs headstrong and she might not know how she feels right now, but she always knows whatâs best for her. Youâre good for her, Heeseung. Let her come to that conclusion on her own.â
Heeseung relinquishes his breath. âYouâre right. I justâŠmiss her. A lot. Things will never go back to the way they used to but I donât think I want them to. I used to pray every night that I could somehow make everything like it was before that night but now I want more than that. She deserves better and I want to be better for her, not that coward who was too scared to try something new with the person he loves.âÂ
His friendâs words bring a smile to Jakeâs lips. âWell I, for one, believe in you. I think the rest of the guys do too.âÂ
âI know,â Heeseung says softly with his eyes on you.
*â§ïœ„ïŸâââââââââââ *â§ïœ„ïŸ
You canât believe you leave Europe in two days as you sip your wine. Jayâs father was gracious enough to reach out to his friend at the hotelâs restaurant to negotiate having this meal compensated. Itâs a gesture you hold onto and make a mental note to write a thoughtful note when you settle back in Korea. Jay sits next to you and partakes in the wine activities with you, namely picking out two different bottles to share with the table. Talking to Jay like this makes you feel otherworldly, like youâve gotten more experience out of life since you chose to study abroad. You feel lucky, in a sense, that your life has given you more than you expected it too.Â
The younger boys head upstairs after dessert and bid you all a goodnight in case they donât see you before falling asleep. For the next thirty minutes or so, itâs the five of you laughing away at the hotel bar like old times, reminiscing about embarrassing moments from high school or how difficult it was to hear Jakeâs Korean when he first moved.Â
The Australian leaves as soon as he yawns. Sunghoon, a little too tipsy upon standing from the bar table, presses a gentle kiss to your head when he says goodnight to the rest of you. Jay gives your arm a reassuring squeeze and you understand for the first time that he always knew you better than he let on. He says goodnight and tells the bartender to charge his room whenever you two close the tab.Â
Now, you and Heeseung are sitting together, mere inches apart as the Parisian sky twinkles with stars above the two of you.Â
Neither of you know what to say. You fidget with the glass and contemplate on whether you should head up as well. Heeseung can sense your awkwardness and wish he hadnât messed things up so badly that you canât stand to be alone with him without thinking of an escape plan. He misses when the two of you could sit in complete silence and still feel comfortable around one another.Â
âThank you for showing us around,â he speaks up before you can make the decision to leave. âI remember you talking about all of the places you showed us when you first moved here. Iâve always wanted to visit.âÂ
âReally?âÂ
Heeseung nods. âI used to be so jealous that you got the opportunity to travel abroad every time you talked about it. But I think I like it better this way, with you as the tour guide.âÂ
That brings a laugh out of you and Heeseung canât help but smile. He doesnât care if itâs the alcohol allowing your walls to come down. Heâs grateful for the chance.Â
âI used to write down places I wanted to show you,â you confess. âThere were so many places that reminded me of where weâd used to hang out as kids. It always felt like there was a part of you with me.âÂ
His heart melts. âI wish I couldâve visited you while you were here. Your friends seem pretty cool.âÂ
âThey are.â Heeseung watches you smile. âTheyâve been with me through a lot and helped me get over this fear of failing in a different country. My friend Suki, who now lives in Tokyo, was the first person to really get me out of my shell and convinced me to go out. Awkward Y/N? Going to clubs?âÂ
âYou know how to dance, though. I bet you killed it.âÂ
âA little too much, perhaps. I didnât date or hook up much, but there were a few times that I did.â Heeseungâs heart begins to sink as does his hope. This is not where he wanted to lead the conversation but his ears perk up at your next point. âBut I wasnât happy doing that so I stopped making out with random guys on the dance floor.â
âIf only thirteen-year-old you could see you then,â he teases. You bump his shoulders with yours and he feels electricity running down his arm.Â
âI think I did a good job adjusting and learning. There were times where I felt like I didnât know what I was doing with my life because I couldnât decide if I wanted to stay in London or go back to Seoul. That burden felt too much.âÂ
âFor what itâs worth, Iâm glad you came back home.âÂ
Your head whips to look at Heeseung, who can only sit and watch as your eyes begin to water.Â
âWhy didnât you say anything when I texted and called you?â you ask meekly, your voice barely above a whisper. âWhy didnât you see me when I came back?âÂ
âI know.â He gulps. âIâm sorry, Y/N. Iâm so, so sorry.âÂ
You sniffle and Heeseung wants to cry too. âEveryone came to pick me up at the airport. I kept looking for you but you werenât there. Jake had to pull me away from baggage claim because he said you werenât coming but I didnât listen. I told him he was wrong. You always come.âÂ
Heeseungâs soul breaks with every crack in your voice and with the way your lips quiver. He sees your mascara beginning to smudge and resists the urge to wipe it away so that your eyes may look fresh and dry.Â
âIâm sorry,â he repeats. âI have no excuse.âÂ
âI wanted my best friend but you never showed up for me. You didnât call or text me when you knew I was home and I had to wait until Rikiâs bonfire to see you.â
âI was an idiot and stupid,â is the only answer Heeseung can come up with. âI used to be so scared of change. You left the country and I had to start thinking about what I wanted to do with my life but it was so hard without you in it.â
âThen why did you leave me?âÂ
His heart shatters.Â
Youâve turned away from him in an attempt to walk back to your hotel room. However, Heeseung has learned his lesson. He doesnât let you stray too far and gently tugs your wrist to pull you into his chest and is surprised when you donât fight him off of you.
He doesn't care that your tears have stained his shirt or that youâre hiccupping into his clothes. All Heeseung wants to do is let you know heâs here for you now, despite his past mistakes and clouded judgment. Heeseung loves you for your bravery and vulnerability. He can only hope you understand that.Â
âLetâs go to your room, yeah? I can help you take your makeup off.â
Whether from the alcohol or your need to be near Heeseung, you let him guide you to the elevator. He digs in your purse for your room key and coaxes you to sit in the bathroom while he locks the door. This routine feels a bit familiar; in his youth, he learned how you like to take your makeup off and get ready for bed after a particularly rough night drinking. He could never understand why he hadnât minded taking the extra step and to keep himself sober when you were in the vicinity, but he understands it now.Â
Heeseung meets you in the bathroom and washes his hands before putting your hair in a ponytail. He bites his lips when he sees your fresh tears and mutters another apology, forcing himself not to wipe away the tears with his fingers. Instead, he lets you blot them with a tissue before gathering makeup remover in his hands and gently smears it all over your skin.Â
âI didnât like change,â he says after a quiet beat. âI was too cowardly to take what I wanted, even if the person I wanted said they wanted me too. I donât know why I didnât chase after you that night or why I thought you needed space before you left. I donât have an explanation for any of it except to say that I was a coward who never wanted anything to change between us.âÂ
Heeseung warms a wet cloth and wipes the balm away until heâs satisfied and moves on with your favorite cleanser, rubbing it between his hands until it foams.Â
âI think, deep down, Iâve always loved you more than I led on. I canât think of any moment in my life where you werenât there or times that I didnât want you around. Even when we were in elementary school and everyone kept saying we would get cooties from each other, I wanted you with me.âÂ
He lets you wash your face and applies the rest of your products on as you once taught him.Â
âIâve always had this sense of pride when it came to being your friend. Everyone always talked about how cool you were because you always knew what to say and when to say it. I love that about you, you know. You have a way of making people feel like theyâre really special. I donât know why I was so afraid of that.
âI love who you are and what you believe in. You make the world a better place for everyone around you. How you treated me was a small fraction of why I love you. I love your passions and that you arenât afraid to chase after them. I love that you stick with the same boba order even though you tell yourself youâll try something new. I love that you hate the beach but go with us every time we ask. I love when you get a little drunk because you donât fight me when I want to take care of you.â
Heeseung swallows. âBut mostly, I just really love you.â
You open your eyes for the first time. Heeseung can only stare.Â
âYou really hurt me.âÂ
He glances down. âI know. Iâm sorry.âÂ
âWhat hurt the most was knowing you werenât going to be there as my best friend, Heeseung. I could handle your rejection. I could find a way to get over you. But I could never get over losing our friendship. I never wanted you out of my life because itâs better with you in it.âÂ
âPlease donât get over me,â Heeseung croaks. His own eyes begin to swell and he forces a choked sob down his throat, aggressively wiping his eyes to rid himself of tears. He presses his forehead against yours. âI donât want you to get over me.âÂ
You donât say anything for a few moments. Heeseung swears he feels the blood rushing to his ears as he anticipates your response and heâs sure that even if what you say isnât what he wants to hear, heâs happy to wear his feelings on his sleeve for once in his life.
âI donât think I could even if I tried.âÂ
Heeseungâs heart stops beating. He doesnât kiss you even though he wants to. He doesnât take your hand and pull you into him like his heart tells him to. Instead, he whispers a quiet thanks and is surprised when he hears you laugh.Â
âI canât apologize enough. I donât want to make you feel like you have to do or say anything.âÂ
âI know,â you whisper. Heeseung's hands are dangling awkwardly by his side. He feels like pushing his forehead against yours was too much. But your hands reach for him and you give him a squeeze. Â
Heeseung throws caution out of the window and envelopes you in a hug. He feels your body melt against his and canât help but look at the way youâve folded into his chest in the bathroom mirror, with your head in his neck and his cheek on the crown of your head. Heeseung missed holding you like thisâwith your bodies intertwined as if you were two soulmates who were forced apart upon creation.Â
He stroked your back with his hand and kept the other secured around your waist. Your soft breaths touch his skin and it feels like heâs got electricity running through his veins.Â
âIâm sorry,â Heeseung whispers again. âI will keep apologizing until you know the depth of my regret.âÂ
The boy feels like heâs floating when you press a soft kiss to his exposed chest, mentally thanking Jake for forcing him to let loose and unbutton a few.Â
âYou could start by staying with me until I fall asleep,â you say. âLike old times.âÂ
He tries not to punch the air. âI can do that.âÂ
Heeseung waits in the bathroom until youâve changed into comfortable clothing. He isnât surprised when he sees you in shorts and an oversized shirt. Itâs reminiscent of what you used to wear when youâd sleep in the guest bedroom in his house or vice versa, but now that heâs acknowledged his feelings for you, he canât help but coo at how cute and sleepy you look.Â
You tuck yourself in bed with the blankets to your chin and he completely melts to the floor. You pat the spot next to him and he sits on top of the blankets.Â
âUnder the covers, silly.âÂ
âI donât want to rush it,â Heeseung says in a panic.Â
âWe arenât rushing. Weâre two best friends who got each other back.âÂ
Heeseung has never been more relieved. Though, he knows youâre a stickler for outside clothes in bed, so he makes the decision to take your key card and change.
âIâm not leaving you,â he says when he notices you rise from your spot on the bed. He holds two key cards to prove it and leans over to press a soft kiss to your cheek. âIâm going to change and then Iâll be right back. I promise.âÂ
He comes back ten minutes later. It warms your heart at the sight of him and you feel the comfort in your body when he slides underneath the covers.Â
You surprise yourself when you move to lay your head on his chest with your arm around his body. Heeseung doesnât seem to mind, though, and he pulls you closer to him like youâve done it a million times before. The two of you have wanted this for too long to make it feel awkward.Â
âWhat did Jake say when you came into the room?â you ask.
âHe was half asleep until I turned the light on but he asked me if we resolved things. I told him yes and then he asked if I was staying the night with you when he saw me leaving.â
âAm I right to assume he was more excited about having the room to himself?â
Heeseung laughs. âThat you are.â
âDeep down, I think Jake knew weâd find our way. I think they all did.âÂ
âIâm sorry,â Heeseung whispers once more. You quiet him with a kiss to his cheek.Â
âI know, Hee. We can talk more tomorrow. For now, letâs sleep.â
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The next morning, Heeseung wakes up before you do and frowns when your bodyâs all the way on the other side of the bed. He leans over your sleeping frame and brushes strands of hair from your face, admiring how serene you look in your sleep. For a moment, Heeseung ponders if itâs too soon to wake you up the way heâd like to, but if last night was any indication about how you felt, heâd be willing to take the chance.Â
He leans down to kiss your forehead and both of your cheeks repeatedly until your eyes flutter open. Heeseung thinks he could listen to your laugh every morning with the way you wince at the sunlight and how his lips touch your skin. Still, your gaze finds its way to Heeseungâs and you canât help but smile.Â
There was a brief moment before you fell asleep that youâd wondered if youâd been too quick to forgive him. But for as hurtful as the past year was, you canât help but acknowledge the steps he took during the trip in an attempt to undo all of the contempt you had built for him. You owe it to yourself to be happy with Heeseung.Â
âGood morning, pretty girl,â Heeseung says with his morning voice that sounds a little too good for seven in the A.M. âDid you sleep well?â
âSlept like a baby. I feel like one too.â
âThatâs because you are a baby,â Heeseung teases, kissing your cheeks and then the tip of your nose. âMy baby.âÂ
âI really want breakfast but Iâm too lazy to get up from the bed.â
âWe could always order in. Iâll pay.â
You shake your head. âIâll be too tempted to stay in bed and itâs our last full day in Paris. Letâs just get ready and have breakfast at the hotel restaurant?âÂ
The both of you are halfway done eating breakfast when the rest of your friends trickle in, joining your table and the ones next to you. It takes them a while to wake up, but itâs Sunghoon who speaks up first.Â
âIâm assuming you two talked?âÂ
âAnd made up,â you say with a tilt of your head.Â
âThatâs my girl,â Sunghoon says proudly, sipping on his coffee.Â
âIâll let that slide since weâre all friends,â Heeseung jokes. You laugh and, for the first time in a while, you donât feel guilty about it.Â
âI had the whole room to myself, too. I woke up and didnât have to fight anyone for the bathroom,â says Jake.Â
Riki nearly spits his juice out. âYou guys slept together?âÂ
âNot like that!â youâre quick to exclaim. âHe just slept over. Slept. As in, we closed our eyes and actually slept.âÂ
âBoth of us knew we needed our beauty sleep before dealing with the six of you asking us questions,â Heeseung adds. âBut for your information, we made up. We still have things to figure out, but weâre back to being friends.âÂ
âHopefully more than that,â Jungwon coughs behind his coffee. He merely smiles when Heeseung looks in his direction.
âI think you two should spend the rest of the day by yourselves,â Jay suggests. âWe can either meet up for dinner or whenever we have to check out.âÂ
âI second that,â Sunoo agrees. âYou two clearly need to talk.âÂ
âI wanted to go shopping with Y/N again,â Riki says with a frown. Jake presumably knocks his shin with Rikiâs, who clears his throat. âBut you two should totally hang out without us.âÂ
âI think we might,â Heeseung says, holding his hand out for you to take. He stands from his seat and encourages you to stand as well, leading you away from the table. âThanks for the breakfast, Jay!âÂ
âIâm choosing to be the bigger person because Y/Nâs been through enough,â Jay mutters when Heeseung is out of hearshot, making the table laugh.
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âYou know, I think the reason why I had such a hard time reaching out was because weâd never gotten into something that serious before,â Heeseung admits. The gelato in your hand isnât as good as you remember it, but it does the job to cool you down on a particularly warm afternoon.Â
âWhat do you mean?âÂ
âDo you remember when we were kids and how hard it was for me to talk to you about anything that was action movies or superheroes?âÂ
âGod, you and your Superman cape from fourth grade,â you snort. âYou wore that thing to school everyday. Your dad had to wash it every night otherwise youâd refuse to go to sleep.â Heeseung shuts his eyes at the memory.Â
âYou were the only person I felt comfortable pouring my heart out to, you know. You were always the first person I called when I needed someone to talk to, but then I was the reason why you got hurtâŠI think part of me didnât know if I was allowed to reach out to you.
âItâs a stupid excuse, I know. But when I heard you were coming back to Seoul a few weeks before you did, I couldnât help but think about how many times I couldâve texted you.â
âYeah, you couldâve.â Heeseung merely nods at your agreement. âWeâve been through a lot over the years, but I guess thereâs a first time for everything.âÂ
âI just wish I had come to this conclusion when it happened. I was so caught up in graduating and focusing on how I felt that I didnât consider how you mustâve been dealing with all of it. I donât think Iâve ever been so selfish in my life.âÂ
âI think the time you refused to let me be friends with Jake because you said you needed friends aside from me was your second most selfish moment.âÂ
Heeseung rolls his eyes. âQuit it. I was thirteen, okay?âÂ
Neither of you particularly care to do any sightseeing today. It feels nice to walk side-by-side without the company of your other friends. The juxtaposition of how you felt towards the beginning of this trip compared to how relaxed you feel surprises you a tenfold, but you suppose that comes with genuine apologies and forgiveness.Â
Youâre willing to admit Heeseung looks criminally good in black jeans and a striped button down. He wears his clothes so effortlessly yet still looks like he couldâve taken his wardrobe from a magazine. Youâve always found it a bit unfair that Heeseung always manages to look so cool without trying too hard.Â
âYouâre staring,â he mutters, looking at you from the corner of his eye as the two of you walk down a cobblestone street.Â
âIâm not,â you lie. You turn your head to avoid his gaze, but Heeseung thinks he likes seeing you this shy. Itâs new territory for him, one that he wants to explore.Â
âCan I ask you a question?âÂ
âGo for it.âÂ
âWhy did you forgive me so quickly?â Heeseung asks. âI appreciate it, I really do, but a big part of me feels like I donât deserve that just yet.âÂ
It takes you a while to answer. Why did you forgive him as fast as you did? For a week and a half, being in close quarters with Heeseung made you feel nothing but anxious and on edge, so why were you able to allow yourself to be vulnerable in front of him?
âIâve always held onto the idea that youâre a good person,â you begin. âIâve always admired that you intend to care for the people you love and make them feel like they have a place in your life. Youâve always made me feel safe, like I could run to you when things got too hard.Â
âWhat you did was in poor taste, sure, but making bad decisions doesnât mean youâre a bad person. I know you, Hee. I know how you get when youâre faced with a difficult choice and how long it takes for you to come around. I was justifiably hurt but I think a part of me always knew youâd fix it somehow.âÂ
âI wish I could feel deserving of that kind of forgiveness.âÂ
âYou know me. You know I wouldnât tell you that if I didnât feel like what Iâm saying is true. Iâll admit that I shocked myself with how quickly I let my guard down with youâŠbut youâre Heeseung. You've been my best friend since the first grade and youâre the boy I happen to have a really big crush on.âÂ
Heeseung bites his lips at your confession, willing himself not to be too forward as to kiss you in the middle of the street. He sees your bravery and the way youâve put your heart directly in the palm of his hand, acting out of vulnerability even though the both of you knew he hurt you once before.Â
He doesnât say anything. He doesnât need to. Instead, Heeseung grabs your hands and locks his fingers with yours, squeezing three times to tell you he loves you.
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The afternoon comes and goes with little to no plan. Heeseungâs a bit worried that he hasnât heard anything from the boys and heâs rendered shocked that youâve taken it upon yourself to let the day take you where it may instead of finding the next spot to visit.Â
As if on cue, Jay texts him with plans for the evening.Â
jjongcaprio: 20:00, PĂ©trelle. Itâs a five minute walk from the hotel
jjongcaprio: I made reservations for you and Y/N tonight. Donât worry about me and the boys, just take her out on a romantic dateÂ
jjongcaprio: The billâs covered. The reservationâs under your name btw
heeseung: bro i cannot ask you to do thisÂ
jjongcaprio: You donât have to. You and I both know Y/N deserves to be wined and dinedÂ
jjongcaprio: Plus I saw you looking at a few restaurants when we were on the train. I managed to pull some strings for you and got a last minute reservation for tonight
heeseung: thank you jayâŠi really donât know what iâd do without you
jjongcaprio: Itâs really not a problem, bro. Promise me that youâll try to be happy with her. The guys and I are rooting for you two
âSo,â Heeseung clears his throat as he looks up from his phone, âI think you and I should go out for dinner.âÂ
âWhere are you thinking of going? I can text the others and see if theyâre done sightseeing, or whatever it is theyâre doing.â
âI mean just us two.â He stands awkwardly when youâve turned your attention to him, his feet planted on the sidewalk beneath him as if thatâll help steady his beating heart.Â
âLike a date?âÂ
âYes,â he says immediately. âLike a date. I, Heeseung, am asking you out on a date. Tonight. At eight.âÂ
âI, Y/N, would love to go on a date with you. At eight.âÂ
The twinkle in your eye and your coy nature makes him feel like a teenager again. He leads you into the hotel and walks you to your door before stepping back as you step inside.Â
âWeâve got an hour and a half before we need to leave. Iâll come by and then we can walk together. The restaurant is only a five minute walk, so you can wear those new heels I know you feel guilty buying.âÂ
âTheyâre really pretty though,â you rationalize.Â
Heeseung nods. âGorgeous, actually. Maybe youâll be as tall as me if you wear them.âÂ
âWeâll just have to see, wonât we?âÂ
Heeseung bites his bottom lip as you disappear behind the door, locking eyes with you until youâre completely out of sight. Flirting with you like this is a completely new phenomenon for him. Heâs only daydreamed about what you might say if he said something a little too suggestive or how you might act if he dedicated a wink in your direction. Heeseung had never considered that heâd be the one flustered, cheeks reddening to the point where he starts to feel shy.Â
His nerves are endless as he picks out an outfit for tonight. Heeseung sends a quick text to his parents, who had pressured him into bringing nice clothes for a fancy dinner, and spends a few minutes updating them on the events of the past few days. His mother is pleased, to put it lightly, and sends a handful of emoticons to display her happiness. His father tells him words of encouragement before making Heeseung promise to bring you for dinner as his girlfriend, not just his best friend.Â
With the last touch of his cologne, Heeseung looks at himself in the mirror and tries not to think too hard about how he looks. Youâre Y/N, his best friend since he can remember, and youâve seen him with snot dripping from his nose.Â
âI look fine,â he says to himself in the mirror. âY/N will like the look because your mom picked it out and we know those two agree on everything. Absolutely nothing to worry about.âÂ
Heeseungâs only regret is he doesnât have a bouquet of flowers to present you with as he makes his way to your hotel room. He wipes his palms on his trousers and takes a deep breath before knocking on your door.Â
When it opens, heâs met with the sight of you in a short black dress that hugs your hips to accentuate your body. The dress itself is an elegant, spaghetti strap number with a flattering neckline paired with jewelry that makes your skin appear to be glowing. Your heels match well with the dress youâve chosen, so much so that Heeseungâs jaw drops when his eyes rake over your body.Â
âWow,â he mutters. âJustâŠwow.âÂ
âIâm not used to you being speechless,â you say mildly, closing the door behind you.Â
âYou look gorgeous,â he sputters. âI shouldnât be seen with you tonight.âÂ
âYouâre dramatic, Hee.â You give him a once over and Heeseung thinks he wouldnât mind you checking him out as you please. âYou look handsome as ever.â
He beams at the compliment and holds his arm out for you.Â
âShall we?â
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Heeseung knows the type of person you are and what you value, yet he still renders himself shocked when you allow him to take control of the evening. He knows you donât need to have the expensive consequences that come with a first date or to be sipping the most luxurious wine to be happy, but Heeseung canât help but feel like you deserve to feel as elegant as you look every once in a while.Â
The host leads the two of you to a table with the most gorgeous view of the Parisian scenery. The twinkling stars paired with the dimly lit restaurant adds a romantic touch to the evening. Heeseung mentally thanks Jay for preparing wine recommendations so neither of you have to think too much about it.Â
For a moment, heâs worried that heâs reached too far out of his depth. The fanciest thing Heeseung has ever done with you is eat ramen after prom in your best outfits because you both came to the conclusion that prom should be spent with someone you actually like. Itâs funny in hindsight when he thinks about it now.Â
You look so beautiful like this, allowing yourself to be taken care of by him. Talking to you over the table feels like youâre back in Korea before all that transpired. The food is impeccable and Heeseung thanks his lucky stars that he and Jay got it right. You sing praises left and right.Â
Dinner ends much quicker than heâd like as the two of you finish dessert. The waiter tells him the bill has been taken care of and Heeseung sits in his seat awkwardly as you look out the window to see the view from outside. But he hears the live band in the background and sees a few older couples slow dancing from where he sits and makes up his mind.Â
âDo you want to dance?âÂ
You pull your attention to him. For a moment, he thinks heâs asked the most absurd question known to man when he recalls all the times you refused to make a home on the dance floor until youâve gotten at least four drinks in your system.Â
You surprise him.Â
âIâd love to, Hee.âÂ
The room disappears when he leads you to the dance floor. He mimics the other dancers and takes the lead, swaying your bodies back and forth to the melody of the music. You smell of vanilla and cinnamon, a scent so distinctly you that it makes him grin like a man in love.Â
âThank you for tonight,â you say against his neck. âI wonât lie when I say I feel like a princess.â
âThatâs because you are a princess,â Heeseung says, kissing the top of your head. âYou deserve to be treated like one.â
âI canât believe you pulled this off so quickly. Donât restaurants like these require reservations?â
He chuckles nervously. âAbout thatâŠJay helped me with the details. I was looking up restaurants to take you to if I got the chance before our trip ended. I guess he saw the list and chose the most romantic one out of the bunch.â
âI owe Jay a thank you.â
âWe both do.âÂ
âI feel lucky to have people in my life who care about me this much,â you say. âIâm so happy youâre back in my life.âÂ
âIâm happy to be in it.â Heeseung squeezes your waist. âDeep down, itâs always been you that Iâve loved. Thereâs not a single person who makes me feel the way you do.â
âYeah?âÂ
You feel him nod. âIâll say it until you believe me. Iâll even yell it in this restaurant right now.âÂ
âPlease donât,â you laugh. âI believe you.âÂ
The sound of the melody overtakes the conversation. You feel Heeseungâs steady heartbeat as he expertly moves your bodies together on the dance floor. When you close your eyes, you think of this moment and how badly you want to commit it to memory, no longer in anguish over the tribulations of the past year. It feels nice to let go of your worries, even better that you have Heeseung back.Â
âI really want to kiss you,â he murmurs under his breath. You pull your head back.
âThen you should kiss me.âÂ
Heeseung wastes no time and pulls you into him, one arm around your waist and the other behind your neck. His mouth finds yours when he decides he loves the taste of red wine on your lips. It feels poetic to be kissing you for the first time as youâre both dressed to the nines in the middle of Paris. To him, kissing you feels like a breath of fresh air and the start of something new. For you, kissing him feels like coming home.Â
When he pulls back, you search for his eyes.Â
âTake me back to the hotel,â you whisper.Â
Heeseung feels his heart drop.Â
âIâm sorry. We can go back now.â
You grip the collar of his slightly unbuttoned dress shirt when he moves. Itâs only then that Heeseung sees the want in your eyes and the pure lust that clouds your pupils.Â
âTake me back to the hotel.â
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By the time your elevator reaches your floor, Heeseungâs dress shirt is completely unbuttoned with his toned chest exposed. Youâre barely able to detach yourself from his mouth when he pushes you out of the contraption. Your hand reaches for his as you pull him towards your room, digging through your purse when you feel Heeseungâs lips on the back of your neck.Â
âYou look sexy in my jacket,â he mumbles, pressing wet kisses to your skin.Â
âL-Let me find the key.âÂ
âSo sexy.â His hands slide up the side of your body until he grips your waist.Â
When the door opens, you pull Heeseung inside with you and lock it shut before pushing his dress shirt off of his body, exposing his muscular build and broad shoulders. You arenât shy about hiding your lust, gazing all over his chest and abdomen as you feel your core drip with arousal.Â
âI like it when you look at me like that,â Heeseung says. He reaches for your hand and places it on his chest. You take the liberty to glide your nails down his abdomen, feeling the way he tenses underneath your touch.Â
âIâm really wet,â you say as you eye the tent that has grown in Heeseungâs pants.Â
âAre you?â he asks. âYou wonât mind if I check?âÂ
You shake your head and Heeseung takes that as a green light, his hands finding the soft fabric of your dress before pushing his hand underneath it. He whimpers when his fingers come in contact with your wet lips. Itâs adorable, the way you push yourself against him to chase his lips while he fingers smear your wetness across the fabric of your panties.Â
âBed,â you mumble against his lips.Â
He follows where you pull him, loving the way you take control when you push him onto the mattress. Heeseung distracts himself to catch his breath from the overwhelming sense of pleasure to realize that youâve started to undo his belt buckle and take his hard cock out of his pants.Â
âYou donât have toââ
âI want your cock in my mouth,â you plead, looking him in the eye. âPlease let me.âÂ
You sit politely on your knees as you unbuckle Heeseungâs pants. His chest rises and falls in anticipation and he looks down at you to see that your mouth is watering at the sight of him.Â
Heâs already fully hard; he has been since you started unbuttoning his shirt in the elevator. You spit directly onto the tip of his cock and he bites his lip at the sudden contact before watching as you swipe your hand up and down himself.Â
Heeseung doesnât want to think about how you learned to do what youâre doing to him. He doesnât want to think about the boys youâve kissed or the people who got to see you like this before. What he does know, however, is heâs the only person from here on out who will see you on your knees if he can help it.Â
Your mouth envelopes the head and Heeseung emits a short grunt. The tension between you two begins to slowly dissipate as you fit more of his cock inside of your mouth. Your tongue expertly traces every ridge and vein as you push your throat down onto him, causing Heeseung to put his palms on the mattress and throw his head back.Â
You hum around him when he moans. Heâs itching to put his hand behind your head but refuses the idea, letting you set your own pace. Heeseung watches as you switch your angle, sitting up to rest on your knees to push your head further down on him. He witnessed as you spread your legs, a choked moan coming from his throat in conjunction with a particular gag from your mouth.Â
Thereâs spit everywhere. Itâs trailing down your lips and connecting to his cock when you pull yourself from his body. Itâs seeping to his pants and heâs about to speak up when your motion attaches itself to his sensitive balls, licking at its warmth while your hand strokes him from atop.Â
âThatâs it. Fuuuuck.â
He bucks his hips once and curses. Heeseung feels your mouth envelop one of his balls, the pressure of your mouth around it making him feel a kind of euphoria he didnât know was possible. Your mouth moves to the other to give it the same treatment before retreating back to his cock. This time, your hand massages him from below as you suck on him.Â
When you look up at him and wink, he decides enough is enough.Â
âBaby,â Heeseung pants, attempting to push your head off of him. He thinks itâs so sexy that youâre turned on while giving him a blowjob. âBaby, please stop. I donât wanna come yet.âÂ
You oblige and take your mouth off of him with a popping sound. You sit back and Heeseung stares at you through drooping eyelids in pure shock and amazement at how youâve managed to pull him to a near orgasm as quickly as you did.
âCome here,â he beckons with his fingers.
He attaches his mouth to yours and pushes his tongue inside of your mouth, exploring the warm, wet walls you have to offer. Heeseung decides that he loves the feeling of your tongue against his and lets you suck on the muscle.Â
You take your dress off to reveal sheer panties with nothing else on. Heeseungâs jaw drops at your beauty, but he also cannot believe how sexy his best friendâs body is. To him, you were sculpted from the hands of Aphrodite herself with great love and care. And itâs all for him.
âYou are so fucking sexy,â he murmurs, hovering over your body to press kisses to the valley of your chest. You let his hands roam and spread your legs to make room for him.Â
Heeseungâs head travels back to your chest and you watch as he envelops your right nipple in his mouth. âYour tits are just perfect.âÂ
He makes a show out of it, hands cupping your breasts to massage them as his mouth works on you. He pushes your tits together and shoves his face between them, inhaling your scent while his tongue gathers whatever taste your body gives him. Heeseung moves to your left nipple and uses his tongue to flick the hardened bud over and over again until youâre arching your chest into his mouth.Â
He grinds himself into your core with his pants still loose around his legs. It brings a moan out of your throat and he swallows it whole with his lips pressed firmly against yours. The friction feels delicious with the fabric of your panties against the hardness of Heeseungâs cock. He grinds against you with the help of your hips rolling into his, your natural wetness coating his cock in your essence.Â
Heeseung moves his head to kiss your jawline, moving his mouth all over the expanse of your neck until he kisses right below your earlobe. You let out a particularly loud moan when he does, and Heeseung curses.
âShit. Yeah baby, make those sounds for me. Let me hear your pretty moans.âÂ
His mouth attacks the area again and you arenât shy about it. Your hands tangle in his hair as he kisses your neck and grinds his cock against the wet panties, which have by now molded to the shape of your pussy.Â
Heeseung groans at the feeling of a particularly wet gush and lifts his hips enough to elicit a whimper out of your mouth. He experimentally lifts his hips again to align himself with you as he did before. The pressure must feel so good because your mouth hangs open with your eyes boring into his.Â
âThatâs it,â he encourages. âDoes my baby feel good?â You can only nod and he doesnât blame you. âThatâs a good baby. Fuck, youâre so wet, itâs driving me crazy.âÂ
Heeseung feels your legs wrap around him and the way your heel pushes his lower back into your core. He takes the hint and quickens his pace, wanting nothing more than to see you come for him.
âYou gotta come for me now, pretty girl,â he coaxed. âYou deserve to come. Wonât you do that for me?âÂ
Heeseung is sure that heâs never seen or heard anything more erotic compared to the vision of watching you come. Your mouth opens with breathy moans as you focus on your pleasure and your eyes squeeze shut as if youâre trying to savor the moment in your mind.
âAtta girl,â Heeseung praises when your hips grind into his. He keeps himself still and lets your body take over.Â
You eventually come down and realize Heeseung has yet to come, but thatâs the last thing on his mind. He sinks his body down to come face-to-face with your crotch and licks the come off of the soiled fabric of your panties. The sheerness gives him a sneak peek at your pussy, and he groans when he licks a slow, fat strip up your slit.
âYou taste so fucking delicious, baby.â He licks at you again, faster this time. âTastes like milk and honey.âÂ
Heeseung kisses your wet panties over and over again, his soft lips providing jolts of pleasure. His hands roam around the soft flesh of your thighs and squeezes them as if he remembers youâre all his to touch. The feeling is one you want to commit to memory, but it seems like Heeseung knows your mind is working overtime because he reaches his hand to find yours and gives it a reassuring squeeze.Â
You let his hand go when he pulls it from you to slide the useless barrier down your legs and to undo the straps of your heels. He takes great care to kiss your skin tenderly, starting by your ankle and making his way down just shy of where you need him the most. Heeseung repeats the process on the other leg until he comes face to face with your glistening core, licking his lips as if he doesnât know where to start.Â
âSuch a pretty pussy,â he says before placing a soft kiss to your clit.
He repeats the motion, kissing your folds like theyâre delicate antiquities that need to be handled with the utmost care. His lips become covered with your essence; he feels you squirm underneath him and uses the expanse of his palms to gently pry your legs open for him, soothing the soft skin of your inner thighs.Â
Heeseung tentatively licks your slit and decides he loves the sound of your moans when he has his mouth on you. He does it again, dragging his tongue to feel every ridge and crevice that heâs yet to explore. His mouth feels like a warm comfort with the slow pace he sets, licking you as if heâs trying to tell you how much he loves you without saying it.Â
âYou taste divine.âÂ
You look down below to see his hair covering his eyes and brush it away with your hands. Heeseung looks right into your soul and you feel your heart clench, causing you to roll your hips into his face. He merely buries his nose close to you until he bumps your clit with the tip, pushing his wet muscle into you deeper.Â
When your moans get lighter and your breathy sounds are the only audible thing in the room aside from his own moans. You open your eyes to see Heeseung humping the mattress below you. The sight is so erotic that you canât help but let out a loud whine at the thought of Heeseung pleasuring himself while pleasuring you.Â
He brings his fingers to your pussy and sways his fingers back and forth until he foregoes his slow pace, favoring a faster one. He abuses your swollen clit while you can only lay there and watch him play with you. Heeseung expertly inserts his middle finger into your seeping hole and bites his lip to concentrate on getting you to come again.Â
âI need it,â he confesses, bringing his mouth to lick you as he adds another finger. âI need you to come for me again, baby. Can you do that for me?â
âYes, Hee,â you pant. âI wanna come so badly.â
âYou can do it, baby. Youâve been such a good girl tonight, giving me the best head and letting me make you come. I think you deserve to feel good.âÂ
âI do,â you nod rapidly. âFuck, I think Iâm coming.â
âThatâs right,â he coos, hammering his digits into you while his tongue laps up the juices leaking from your pussy. âSo good. You taste so fucking good. Give it to me.âÂ
He doesn't relent until heâs satisfied. Heeseung cleans the come from your lips as best he can while sneaking his hand to his cock, pumping himself as he tastes your orgasm on his tongue.Â
âYouâve crazy,â you mutter as you settle from your high, loving the feeling of Heeseungâs mouth tenderly licking you clean.Â
âFor you.â He pulls his face away and wipes the back of his hand before pressing a kiss to your clit.Â
When he rises to take his pants and boxers off, he sees you with your arm covering your face.Â
âAre you doing okay?âÂ
âPerfect, actually,â you sigh. You remove your arm to see him with his cock in his hands and motion him to come towards the edge of the bed as you crawl on your knees before sitting upright to pull him into a searing kiss.Â
âThat might be the hottest thing Iâve ever seen you do,â Heeseung says against your mouth. âItâs better than porn, if Iâm being honest.âÂ
You grab his cock and stroke him. âIâll consider letting you take a video of me when we get back home if you fuck me right now.âÂ
âTurn around,â he says after an open-mouthed kiss.
You follow his instructions and he groans to himself as you present your perfect pussy to him again. Heeseung sinks to his knees and smacks your ass before shoving his tongue into your hole. He spreads your asscheeks apart and digs his nose against you, licking up the wetness and remnants of your orgasm like itâs his last meal. His tongue licks up your body until he finds your wrinkled muscle and presses a soft kiss to your tightest hole.Â
The surprise comes to him when you moan softly. Your body doesnât jerk away. Rather, you spread your legs further for him and Heeseung moans against your pussy before bringing his tongue to lick over the muscle again.Â
âFeels good, doesnât it?â he asks, dipping his tongue back in.
âBetter than I imagined.âÂ
âYou imagined my tongue in your ass, baby?âÂ
You nod. âIâve always wanted to know what that feels like.âÂ
Heeseung doesnât give you a verbal answer. Instead, he spits into your hole and watches it dribble down to your pussy, licking his way from your incredibly wet folds to your hole once again. He licks over the expanse with the surface of his tongue one, twice, three times before youâre whining for his cock. He wastes no time tearing open the condom and hurriedly places it on himself.Â
The first stretch of his cock in your pussy makes him see Heaven. The sharp gasp that comes from your mouth is music to his ears and heâs careful to sink himself into you slowly, inch by inch until youâre telling him he can go further.Â
His cock impales you at such a perfect angle that it has you falling to your elbows, your back arched so perfectly that heâs sure youâd be the most popular pornstar if you really wanted to be. He keeps half of his cock in you to allow you to adjust, but he underestimates just how cock hungry you are because you back yourself until heâs filling you to the brim.
âBabyâs such a slut, isnât she?â Heeseung wonders out loud. He grins when you nod. âI love you like that. So dirty for me.âÂ
âOnly for you,â you say, cheek pressed to the mattress when Heeseung thrusts in you.Â
The sound of skin slapping echoes throughout the room. It doesnât take long for your wet juices to glisten over the back of your thighs and onto Heeseungâs. His hands find purchase on your hips as he pulls your body close to him, loving the way your choked moans become muffled by the mattress below.Â
âSo. Fucking. Tight,â he moans with detailed thrusts. âSo. Fucking. Wet.âÂ
He climbs on the bed and plants his feet on the blankets, holding your body in place as he pounds into you from above. The angle has you seeing stars and rips moan after moan from you.Â
Heeseung grins wickedly. âSuch a fuckable body. So perfect.âÂ
His degradation paired with praise ignites a fire inside of you. You can only moan louder to let Heeseung know exactly how heâs making you feel and you canât help but think you deserved to be fucked exactly the way Heeseung is fucking you.
The pleasure feels like an explosion of a thousand suns. Your body is warm from the hours youâve spent in the hotel room and your neighbors getting a good nightâs sleep is the least of your concerns. Heeseungâs cock drills into you from above like heâs a sex god and it nearly brings you to tears.Â
He turns you over carefully until youâre laying flat on your back with your head propped against the pillows. He steals one from you and puts it underneath the small of your back to create leverage before lining up his cock with your entrance and pushing himself in again.
Heeseung thrusts like heâs got to prove just how in love with you he is. Your wanton moans fill the room with his low grunts as his cock continually hits the one spot that makes you see stars, over and over again.
But you know he could do more to make you feel better. He must notice you in deep thought because he slows his hips.Â
âWhat is it, baby?â Heeseung asks when he notices your eyebrows knit together. âIs this okay? Do you need me to stop so we can take a break?â
âTake it off,â you whisper. His hips have faltered and his pace stutters at your words.
âTake what off?â
âThe condom.â Heeseung nearly chokes. âTake the condom off.âÂ
âBabyââ
âI just wanna feel you.âÂ
Heeseung curses and his hips automatically drill into yours at the request out of pure shock. He canât lie to himself. Heâs thought about it multiple times since you left for Europe and as heâs come to term with his feelings for you. The cute fantasies about taking you on dates to dinner or drive in theaters transform into daydreams about dirty affairs in his bedroom with his seed leaking out of your perfect hole.Â
Still, he doesnât believe it.
âPlease, Hee,â you plead, arching your chest towards him. âLet me feel you. Donât you want to come inside me?â
âFuck,â he falters, his forehead on yours. âYou canât just say thatâŠI canât be risky with you.âÂ
âYes you can.â He watches you bite your lip and feels your hands push him off of you. Heeseung doesnât put up a fight when he slips out of your warm hole and feels your hands grip his cock, desperately trying to tug the condom off of him.Â
Heeseung sees the pathetic rubber in your hands when you bring it up for him to see. Itâs glistening and his mouth drools at the sight, lips parting enough as if he stares at it in disbelief. He groans lowly in your ear as he peppers a few wet kisses to your neck.Â
You spread your legs wider in the air and grip his cock in your head, pumping him a few times before letting his bare tip rest against your hole. His sharp intake is enough to make you bite your lip.Â
âPussyâs so wet,â he says against your neck, pushing an inch inside of you. âGod, I could come like this.â
âYou can.âÂ
âNo, baby. Gonna fuck you the way you deserve before I come.â
With that sentiment, Heeseung pushes himself inside of you until heâs fully sheathed within your walls. He relishes the way you gasp at the sudden movement and he uses this angle to his advantage, positioning his ear next to your mouth to hear your delicious sounds.Â
He moves his hips at such a pace that it makes you feel like your bodyâs bouncing on top of the soft mattress below you. Heeseung presses his chest against yours to kiss you like his life depends on it, tongue invading the privacy of your mouth but you couldnât care less where his mouth goes. He can feel your nipples on his skin and groans into your mouth when you clench at a particularly hard thrust.Â
âS-So good,â you stutter against his mouth with a breathy moan. Heeseung feels your arm around his shoulders, scratching at his back. âFuck, fuck!â
âMhm,â he coaxed. âSuch a good baby. You look so pretty underneath me.âÂ
With a new sense of purpose, Heeseung lifts himself to push himself into you at a deeper angle. He forces his hips into you harder, your hands coming to your chest to cup your tits to give you something to hold in the meantime.
âThatâs right, beautiful. Squeeze your tits for me.âÂ
You do, pinching and twisting your nipples until you hear Heeseung moan above you. It sounds nearly animalistic, the way his throat emits a groan that sounds so primal. He sees the dirty smile you paint your mouth with and leans his head down to press a kiss to your forehead before his hand comes to your cheeks, squeezing them between my fingers.
âYou like it when I fuck you like this?â Heeseung asks, hips rolling against your own pelvis. When you nod, he gives you a nasty smile of his own and gives you a few harsh thrusts for good measure before pulling himself off of your chest with his cock still inside of you.Â
Heeseung sits on his knees and pulls out just far enough where his hot tip remains buried inside of you, relishing in the panty breaths you emit as he watches your chest rise and fall. You look so beautiful to him with your hair messed up against the pillow beneath you and with a few faint hickeys on your chest and neck. Heeseung thinks that all of his wildest dreams could never compare to how gorgeous you look when youâre positioned directly where he wants you.Â
You donât complain when he pulls out to rest his cock on your wet, bare pussy. You wince at the loss and let him slide himself up and down, biting your lip when he grazes your swollen clit over and over again.Â
The man above you lifts your right leg so that he can grip you tighter. You relinquish any control left in your body as Heeseung curses and kisses the side of your ankle. He dips the head of his cock inside and thrusts shallowly as if to tease, but you know heâs exploring all the way his cock looks like against your own body.Â
It feels euphoric. The whole affair is dirty, but itâs the kind of dirty that makes you want to do it again. Itâs the kind of dirty that makes this night an event youâll want to remember for the rest of your night because Heeseung had poured his entire heart and soul for you to take.Â
For Heeseung, this pleasure is less about knowing you have him permission to put himself inside you. Youâve always been so sure of yourself and your body; itâs something Heeseung has always admired about you as a person. Growing up with your insecurities of relationships and dating mightâve made you feel like a late bloomer; to Heeseung, your tendency to keep your head straight has always been a testament to how knowledgeable you are about yourself and about others. You save yourself for people who are worthy of you, and god, does he want to be worthy of you.
âI love you,â Heeseung whispers from above you. His eyes are closed and he pays no mind to the feeling your pussy gives him. Flashes of your memories stitch together like a film reel with your laughter as the soundtrack. He doesnât think he wants to hear anything else for the rest of his life.Â
Just for good measure, he whispers it again. âI love you so much.âÂ
âAnd I love you.â
Heeseung opens his eyes to see your tender ones, cheeks flushed from the sudden compliment. He always liked that he knew how to get you to blush when no one else couldnât. This time, a sense of pride blooms in his chest.Â
âIâll never let you down,â he confesses. âAnd if I do, Iâll make it up to you. I promise.âÂ
âI know, baby.â Heeseungâs hand cups your cheek and caresses it. âI trust you.âÂ
Thatâs enough for him to release your leg from his grip and pound himself into you like his life depends on bringing you to peak happiness.Â
Heeseungâs palms are planted firmly on either side of your body as his hips roll gracefully against yours, the hot, wet mess between the two of you splashing on both of your thighs. He watches your eyes close shut and as your back arches to relieve some of the pressure, feeling somewhat proud of himself when he watches as your hands grab at the sheets for stability.Â
Thereâs nothing that compares to watching you orgasm. Your eyebrows knit as if youâre concentrating while your mouth stands slightly ajar at the euphoric feeling of that single knot thatâs threatening to come undone until it does. All of the girls heâs deluded into thinking he liked could never compare to the looks and sounds youâre making.Â
âThatâs it,â he coaxes softly. âCream my cock, baby. Thatâs a good girl.âÂ
Heeseung feels you push and clench around him, gushing until thereâs nowhere left for your come to go. He peeks down at where the two of you meet and groans when he sees his cock becoming painted in a sheer layer of white. It edges him on and the moment he locks his eyes with yours, his hips begin to stutter and he spills all he has to offer inside of you.Â
He comes with short breaths as if he canât believe youâve allowed him to do so. Your hips move up and down as if to milk him for all heâs worth while Heeseungâs trying his best to balance his body on top of yours, grateful that some of his gym workouts prevent him from completely collapsing on top of you to.
His come seeps from your bodies and he pulls out, a few droplets splattering on your pussy lips. He nudges the tip against it, smearing his paint across your canvas and marveling at the sight.Â
âMy good girl,â he murmurs, eyes locked in at his handy work.
âIâve never let anyone come inside of me,â you say with a fond expression. Your arm comes to brush Heeseungâs hair from his face before cradling his cheek when he looks at you in surprise.Â
âReally?âÂ
You nod, biting your cheek. âWell, I always knew you were it for me. I didnât want anyone else tainting whatâs yours.âÂ
âMine?â he asks, catching his breath. âYou mean it? Youâre mine.â
âIâm yours, Hee.âÂ
âAll mine,â he mutters to himself in disbelief.Â
You still feel his cock working itself against you. Heâs still hard, a wonder after your hours locked away in your hotel room. It makes you laugh.
âNo one has ever compared to you either,â Heeseung says. He doesnât take his eyes off of you as he continues toying with your pussy. âEven when I fooled myself into thinking I didnât like you.â
You laugh. âWell thatâs good to hear. I realized all the guys I went after while I was abroad either looked like you or reminded me of you.âÂ
âI can confidently and stupidly say the same.âÂ
Your laughs echo through the room. Heeseung pulls your body upright, not caring that your mixed come is leaking on his cock and his bare lap. He kisses you with tender care, lips moving at a slow pace while his hands roam over the expanse of your back while your hands are on his broad shoulders. Heeseung could live like this everyday if youâd let him.Â
You smile midway through when you feel his fully hardened cock against you. Heeseung apologizes quietly against your lips but feels you shake your head, pulling back to push him against the headboard until heâs comfortably seated.Â
He looks at your pussy when you hover above him, the white cream still sticking to you as you grip his cock. Heeseung canât believe his eyes when he understands what youâre about to do. Before he can even think, you align yourself with his cock and sink until youâre stuffed with him.
âShit,â he curses through his teeth.Â
âWhat good is coming inside of me if you donât do it again and again, Hee?âÂ
âThat might be the hottest thing youâve ever said to me.âÂ
âOh, yeah?â
You donât move just yet, opting to press small kisses to Heeseungâs face. You kiss his forehead, both temples, his nose, both eyelids, and the apples of his cheeks before placing a kiss to his lips.Â
âBefore we leave, I want you to fuck me against that window,â you say, turning your head to the window that glimpses the city below.Â
âBut people can see,â is Heeseungâs first comment.
âSo?âÂ
He chokes and when you feel his cock twitch inside of you, you canât help but laugh at him.
âIâve heard talk about your escapades, Lee. Why so shy with me?âÂ
He smacks your asscheek. âNaughty girl. Didnât know you were nasty like that.â Heeseung gives you that kind of teasing smile that has you folding for him all over again. âAlright then, humor me. What else do you want to do before we leave?âÂ
âIâd love to give you a blowjob while we shower, too.âÂ
âThat can certainly be arranged. Anything else?âÂ
You look around the room. âI kind of want to see you eat me out while I sit on the desk chair. Makes me think youâre some kind of secretary whoâs desperate for my pussy.â
âI am desperate for your pussy,â Heeseung reminds you. âWhat if Iâm the stone cold CEO and youâre the cute secretary whose ass I dream about?âÂ
You swat his chest. âThis is my fantasy. You can have yours when we get home.âÂ
Heeseung raises his eyebrow. âMm, you sure?â
âPositively,â you nod. Heeseungâs hands travel from your ass to your hips and guides you up and down his cock, letting you set the pace after the brutal first round from a few minutes prior.Â
âGonna fuck you in and on my car, since you like being watched so much,â Heeseung teases. His words seem to make your pussy clench and hips move faster. He forgoes any shyness when speaking about his fantasies and spills his every thought.
âI always thought you looked so cute in your old school uniform. Iâve always wanted to take you in that skirt they gave you.â
âIâll buy one of those sexy schoolgirl costumes and surprise you for your birthday,â you say, locking your eyes with him. âOh, professor! Is there anything I can do to raise my grade?â
Heeseung laughs at your antics, but the images of you in the costume aforementioned makes his grip on your body tighter.Â
âI selfishly want to watch you suck me off while I play with the guys.â He says it in a way that makes him avert his gaze and you can see a faint blush on his face. âI-I saw this video on Twitter. It looks hot.â
âI can do that for you.â You kiss both of his burning cheeks.
âBut mostly, I just want you to sit on my face. Mad at me? Sit on my face. Sad? Sit on my face. Happy to see me? Sit on my face.âÂ
âSimp,â you grunt, thighs burning from pushing yourself on and off of Heeseungâs cock.Â
âAnd proud.â He smacks both ass cheeks again. âNow what do you say, baby? If you ride me until you come, you can blow me in the bathroom before I fuck you in front of the entirety of Paris. Can you do that for me?â
*â§ïœ„ïŸâââââââââââ *â§ïœ„ïŸ
The next morning, you meet Heeseung and the rest of the guys in the lobby while Jay checks out on behalf of all of you. Jakeâs the first to see you coming.Â
âYouâre glowing and I donât know if I like that.â He raises his eyebrow at Heeseung, who has pulled you into him by your waist.Â
âAt least some of us are getting laid,â you retort. âI donât recall seeing anyone do the walk of shame even though you had the room to yourself.âÂ
Riki and Sunoo donât try to contain their laughter as Jakeâs cheeks turn a shade of pink. He rolls his eyes when you look at him, but shakes his head and punches your arm with your first.Â
âNah, Iâm really glad you two got that out of your system and worked it out.â
âYou guys had major sexual tension,â Sunoo comments.Â
âThank God Y/Nâs room was at the end of the hall,â says Sunghoon. âI donât know how their neighbors felt but I can sleep peacefully knowing I didnât have to hear all of that.âÂ
âOkay, enough,â Heeseung laughs. âWe get it, we had a lot of sexual tension and now weâre fine.â
âSo you guys are boyfriend-girlfriend?â Jungwon asks.Â
âY/N is my girlfriend and I am her boyfriend.âÂ
âI will key his car if he hurts you again,â Riki tells you, looking at Heeseung after heâs finished speaking. You detach yourself from his waist and bring your arms around Riki to give him a squeeze.
âThanks, Riki.â
âOkay, we should call the cabs right now so we can get to the airport early,â Jay says from behind you.Â
âJay is such a dad,â Jungwon whispers.Â
He pays no mind to Jungwonâs words, instead focusing on the way Heeseung pulls you into his chest. It warms his heart in ways he canât explain.
âCongratulations, you two. Letâs go home.â
*â§ïœ„ïŸâââââââââââ *â§ïœ„ïŸ
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Danny meets JL members #6
[Danny hovering over the ocean as Aquaman emerges dramatically from the water]
Aquaman: Who dares disturb the King of Atlantis? Danny: [blinks] Dude, Iâm just chasing a ghost. Chill. Aquaman: The ocean is not your playground, child. Danny: [points to a glowing green ghost shark nearby] Tell that to him.
[Aquaman summons a squad of dolphins to attack the ghost shark while Danny blasts it with ectoplasm.]
Danny: Okay, not gonna lieâthat was kinda cool. Aquaman: My connection to marine life is unmatched. Danny: Yeah, but can they shoot lasers out of their eyes? [grins as the ghost shark gets trapped in a green net]
Aquaman: So⊠youâre half-ghost? How does that work? Danny: Ghost portal accident. Long story. You? Aquaman: Iâm half-Atlantean. Danny: Sweet. So weâre both part-something-else and full-time awesome.
[Aquaman on the surface, looking at Dannyâs glowing green aura.]
Aquaman: Your powersâare they connected to the sea? Danny: Nah, theyâre connected to the Ghost Zone. Totally different vibe. Aquaman: Can you breathe underwater? Danny: [phases underwater, talking perfectly normally] Yup. Perks of being dead-ish. Aquaman: Impressive. Iâll allow you passage through my domain. Danny: Wow, thanks, Your Fishiness.
[Later, Aquaman introduces Danny to a massive sea monster.]
Aquaman: This is The Kraken. Protector of the seas. Danny: [waves] Sup, big guy? The Kraken growls, glowing green like a ghost. Danny: Uh, hate to break it to you, but your Krakenâs haunted. Aquaman: WHAT?!
[Aquaman texting the Justice League group chat]
Aquaman: The ghost child just saved Atlantis from a haunted Kraken. Green Lantern: Did he actually save it, or did you mess it up first? Aquaman: He was helpful. Leave me alone. The Flash: Sounds like someone made a new friend. đ Aquaman: I will end you.
[Back on land, Danny to Sam and Tucker]
Danny: So, I met Aquaman. Heâs got a trident, commands fish, and yells a lot. Sam: Did you fight him? Danny: No, but I did help him with a haunted Kraken. Tucker: âŠMan, you have the weirdest life.
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Dark!Fairy!Gojo Satoru x reader
Word Count: 2k
Synopsis: You save a tiny fairy. Gojo Satoru decides that you and him belong together, regardless of how little he is and how little you think of him.Â
(Warnings: Yandere, not many warnings in this one ngl)
The fae are a dangerous bunch. You've heard more than enough stories to be spooked. Sirens will sing beautiful songs before dragging you into the depths. Dragons will burn you to a crisp before a second's thought. Nagas would make sure you were alive until the very end as they feast on your organs. Centaurs would use their powerful legs to stomp yours to mere twigs. Driders would suck your blood until there's nothing left but a husk of your body.Â
You've never heard anything about fairies. They didn't live in your region. Their lands were high in the mountains, where humans rarely traveled. Also, they were so tiny, according to the books. The biggest seemed to be barely the size of your hand. They were harmless, you concluded. Harmless to humans. Harmless to you.Â
He had been harmless. At first, you thought it was a cluster of leaves in the stream, but as the current drew it closer, you noticed tiny arms and a tiny face. He was unconscious; you didn't even know if the poor thing was alive.Â
The Fae are a dangerous bunch, but saving one tiny fairy couldn't hurt, right?Â
Your guest quickly proved to be a bigger hassle than you initially thought.Â
When you brought him to your cottage, he laid in a basket of warm linen, asleep for hours near the warm fireplace. The blueberry pie was still hot when you turned around and caught him staring at you.Â
It was silent for a while, and then you said:Â
"Do you like sweets?"Â
That's how your tentative friendship with the other kind started. Gojo Satoru (you later learned his name) was a boisterous thing. He did in fact like sweets, which helped bribe his friendship. You're surprised that he ate so much despite his stature. Did all faires have black holes for stomachs?Â
He healed up rather quickly. At first, you were afraid that his wings had crumbled due to the prolonged exposure to water. But after stuffing himself full of the blueberry syrup, he smiled widely before flitting out your window.Â
You thought that would be the end of it, but then he just came coming back.Â
Apparently, your baking skills left an impact on the small creature. He didn't visit often, but when he did, you would always make sure you had something. Whether it be cookies, brownies, or that blueberry pie he was so fond of. Anything was good enough for Gojo's taste palette.Â
"In the fae lands," Gojo said when you prodded, "sweets are too sweet. Yours is just enough."Â Â You weren't too sure what he meant by that, but you took it as a compliment. You were sure the fae wasn't something who'd give praises so easily.Â
It's not like you were upset at providing food for your tiny friend. Quite the contrary. You loved it when Gojo visited. You found him fascinating, the way he could fly miles and miles above your head. How tiny he was. The amount of times you had to hold yourself back from squishing him between your fingers because of how cute he was scared you.Â
And you hoped you were fascinating enough to entertain Gojo. You had to be; you don't know why else he'd keep coming back. Even after gobbling down your cooking, he'd lounge around your home, entertaining you with his stories. You learned of the other magical creatures he was in contact with, the students he taught, and how fond he was of them. You don't know why he was so open about sharing his personal life with you, in the stories fae hated humanity, but you would never complain.Â
It doesn't click as to why Gojo's so invested in you until he comes out and says it himself.Â
"Instead of me coming back and forth like this, why don't you just come live with me?" He says, "I would cut down my flying time by a lot."Â
You stare at him in amusement, sure he's joking. "I'm not sure how I'd fit in your house." You tease. "I'd probably crush all your furniture."Â
"I can make my house bigger." He announces. "Don't worry 'bout it, just say yes."Â
You stare at him, slowly realizing that he isn't as amused. He's still smiling, but there's no joke.Â
"No," you finally say, "I'm not doing that."Â
He cocks his head surprised as though he's never had someone reject him before.Â
"What?" He asks, "Why not?"
"Well." You clear your throat. "For one, I'm human, and you're a fairie. I don't think Fae would appreciate a human wandering around in their lands."Â
"Who cares about all that?" Gojo waves his hands around. "You'll be with me, anyways. It'd be fine."Â
"I don't get why you're so fixated on the human realm." His mouth turns into a sneer. "It's all so boring. Nothing ever happens. And our magic is much more advanced than yours." It's true. You can't disagree with that. Satoru didn't wear clothes made out of leaves or vines, unlike the common fairy stereotype. His clothing looked much more advanced compared to your loose cotton dresses. A black shirt with intricate buttons and long sleeves. Along with black trousers. You wonder what material could make his suit so shiny.Â
You laugh at his disgust. At that time, you saw Gojo as a tiny child clutching their mother's skirts, a cute puppy. You hadn't yet taken Gojo Satoru as the threat he was.Â
"It's because I am human." You say, not offended by his remarks. "So I like being near other humans."Â
He groans as though your logic makes no sense. "Yuji and the others ask about you all the time, though. They've been dying to meet you."Â
"You talk to your students about the giant that cooks for you? I'm flattered."Â
"You're dodging," he warns. You roll your eyes.Â
"Satoru, I'm not coming to live with you. It'd be too much of a hassle." You finally say. "Besides, you're not my type."Â
"I'm everyone's type." He argues.Â
"Not mine." You smile, and then you make your first blunder.Â
"I like my men a little taller."Â
He stiffens, and you know you said the wrong thing. Your smile fades as does the cheery energy in your cottage. He says nothing, but he's zipping out your window before you can apologize.Â
He doesn't return for the longest time. You count the weeks. Guilt weighs on your shoulders, heavy and burdensome. Every day you bake something even tastier than the day before. Not even that is enough to coax him back.Â
You think you've lost him forever, when he returns on one sweltering summer evening.Â
"Hi." You blink. He's watching you, sitting idly on the window, kicking his tiny feet.Â
"Hi." He smiles.Â
You're happy enough to grab him with one fist and hugging him to your chest, but as always, you stop yourself. Instead, a shy smile rests on your face.Â
"I'm sorry," you say, "I really am...will you accept an apology pie?"Â
He grins wider, and you relax.Â
He eats, and you're grateful. Something you once cherished in your life has finally come back to you. You might not return Gojo's feelings, but you still care for him. You'd rather die than ever hurt him again.Â
"No, you're right." Gojo surprisingly concedes when you apologize for the third time. "We're too different. It'd never work out. Not as the way you are, right now."Â
You nod, grateful he's so understanding. "Exactly."Â
He's finishing up when he announces he brought you a gift.Â
"I've been working on it for the past few weeks," he cheerily says. "It took a while, but it's finally safe for human consumption."Â
He takes out a tiny glass bottle filled with something swirling and blue. When he asks you to bring a glass of water, you acquiesce. To your astonishment, when the elixer is poured, the entire water becomes a swirling mass of a color comparable to none other than galaxies. You're so mesmerized by the color, it's enough to stump your voice.Â
"For you!" He declares. "You've always been cooking for me; thought I might return the favor, just this once."Â
"What is it?" You ask, amazed by the color. You admire the glance, unaware of the glint in Gojo's eye.Â
"It's kinda like the wine you have in the mortal realms, but a little less poignant." He gives when you glance at him. "Go on, tell me what you think?"Â
You're too trusting, and so you make your second blunder.Â
Once you start, you can't seem to stop. The taste is otherworldly, addicting. You drink and drink, not wasting a single drop. You're breathing heavily once the cup detaches from your lips.Â
"Amazing." You say before looking at him. His eyes are too wide, but you're too distracted by the taste still on your tongue. "Seriously, what was that? Can I make it here?"Â
He scratches the back of his head. "Not really, the ingredients are pretty hard to find." He shrugs. "Besides, it's supposed to be a one-time use."Â
Your eyebrows twist, and then the world sinks.Â
You're falling. You think you are. You don't really know. Everything feels like it's stretching. The walls of your tiny little cottage get higher and higher and higher. The floor gets more and more warped. You're sinking, sinking through the air. When you scream, nothing comes out. You feel like you're choking because you can't breathe, and then your vision grows black.Â
The next time you open your eyes. It's still dark, and to your horror, you realize you're buried underneath something.Â
You panic, clawing and tearing your way out. The material gives away easily. It's fabric. Cotton. But there was so much, an undying ocean of fabric. You lift yourself up from the pile and that's when you realize you're completely naked.Â
The mountain of cotton you just climbed to the top of was your old dress.Â
Everything was giganticâthe table, the chairs. The windows seemed endless. The ceiling looked miles above you, and you know what happened, but your brain can't formulate it because it can't beâit just can't be.
There's a flutter of wings. You always thought he was so quiet before. Now, he's all you can hear. Immediately, you wrap your body with the cloth. It's hard to keep still; your body is buzzing with nerves and you still can't understand. You have to force yourself to look at him.
You don't know why you expected shock, guilt, something other than the pure manic glee on his face. Satoru towers above you, head tilted. He bends down, cupping your trembling face in his hand because he's big enough to do that now.Â
"Just when I thought you couldn't get any more adorable." He coos.Â
You can see him now. His skin isn't pale, it's borderline translucent. His canines are sharp and pointy. And his eyes. Oh God you've never seen eyes so terrifying beforeâan endless mass of blue, threatening to swallow you whole.Â
He wasn't a cute little fairy. He was anything but that.Â
"Gojo..." You start, heart squeezing. "What did you do.."Â
You know. He knows. That's why he ignores your question entirely.Â
"I'm surprised it worked." He says, mainly talking to himself. "Shoko said it might be a dud, and she was so sure of it, that I mostly believed her."Â
"But now look at you!" He roughly pinches your cheek. "You're the perfect size now."Â
"Stop." You blubber, pushing his hand off of you. "Don't touch me. Change me back. Change me back."Â
He frowns. "Why would I do that? You being human-sized was always such a hassle. Lumbering around. Way too loud. Don't get me wrong, I adore you either way." He proclaims like it's something benevolent. "But this has its charm."
He leans forward, and you scuddle backward in fear. His grin widens.Â
"So, am I tall enough for you, now?"Â
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DPxDC prompt (demon twins au)
A video from your son, the email was titled. Bruce was confused. Which of his kids would send a video to his public work email??
Bruce clicked play.
On the screen was a boy who look a lot like Damian, but most certainly wasnât him.
âThis video is for the eyes of Bruce Wayne only.
Hi Dad. Iâm Danny. You likely donât know I exist, and if youâre receiving this, Iâm already dead. Well, more dead than I already was. Maybe itâs cruel of me to send you a message post-mortem, but you deserve the truth, and telling you earlier wouldâve put you in danger.
This email is set to automatically send if I havenât opened my computer for 3 days. I sometimes set it longer if Iâm on vacation or expecting trouble, but Iâve mostly likely been away from home for a bit over three days if youâre receiving this.
I donât know who killed me. Obviously. Iâm recording this in advance. But it was probably either the GIW or my adoptive parents, the Fentons. I half-died at 14 and became a local ghost superhero, but they never realized I was trying to help and kept talking about tearing ghost-me apart molecule by molecule, so I bet thatâs what happened. There will be nothing left of me to bury. Sorry about that!
The rest of the story is this. I was raised in an assassin cult, eventually escaping at the age of 6 when they sent me on mission and I successfully faked my death.
My biggest regret is that I escaped alone. And thatâs the reason Iâm reaching out to you.
Youâre a civilian. If you know too much about the League of Assassins youâll be in danger. But I need you to save my twin Damian. Heâs likely still there after all these years. He never wanted to escape; he took pride in being the heir to the league. Heâs probably going to be stabby; heâs an assassin after all. But itâs not his fault. Raâs - our grandfather - brainwashed him a lot more than he brainwashed me because Damian was more susceptible to it. Itâs not his fault. Please. Save him. Iâm begging you. My biggest regret is leaving Damian in the league. You have a chance to save him. Please, please do it.
I wish it wouldâve been safe for me to get to know you. You seem like a cool dad, from what Iâve seen of you on the news with your oldest kids. I bet youâre like that with the youngest you hide from the public too. I wish you all the best. Thank you for listening.
Your long lost almost certainly dead by now son, Danny Fenton.â
Bruce took a second to process this, then picked up his phone and dialed his youngestâs number.
âFather.â
âDamian, did you have a twin named Danny?â
ââŠWho told you?â
Bruce hung up and sent Damian the video. He needed a minute to process this anyway.
Damian called back a few minutes later, after watching the video.
âFather. I do not care what state he is in. We must discover exactly what happened to Danny. Even if there is only a single molecule left. We must discover the truth.â
âI couldnât agree more, Damian.â
Dealerâs choice on whether Danny is alive. The few ideas I have for this are:
- they find him mid-vivisection and rescue him
- they find whatâs left of him post-vivisection and post his core being crushed
- heâs perfectly fine and just forgot to open his computer (maybe clockwork made sure he forgot?) and now heâs panicking about the fact that his family knows about him and could be in danger. He wanted them to know he existed, not make themselves a walking target for the league by finding him and trying to bring him home!
- Jazz found the automatic email and, deciding to meddle in her brotherâs life and him back to his family and maybe get a good parent for herself as a bonus, sent it early
- Technus decided to start shit and sent it while haunting Dannyâs computer
- Clockwork screwed with time to make sure it got sent
Lmk what yall do with this!
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ⶠsaturn in astrology is the main commodity in the spirituality that governs karma that the child inherits from their father. saturn is the teacher in astrology and in Greek Belief, can be seen as kronus.
â± if you don't know of kronus' story, he was told that a child of his would be able to inherit his status and over take him. thus, he began to eat his children, and when zeus was born, gaea fed him a stone a size of a child and hid zeus away until he was strong enough to take down his father and save his siblings.
â± and after his take down of kronus, zeus inherited his father's status and began to rule mount olympus. in this lesson, we can see jupiter as the good you get after the defeat of inherited karma.
â± we can see an example of kronus eating his children and zeus having the inherited karma to have many children.
SATURN IN THE SIGNS AND HOUSES âŹ
â SATURN IN ARIES/1H ⶠfather might've been someone who had too much of an ego, father might've been someone with a strong temper, and you having this saturn placement means you have to be someone who learns how to control your anger and even libido. this placement could indicate that your father might've been a lazy person and didnt strive for the potential he could've had, so now you have the responsibility of being someone "who has to make it", and even being someone who is pioneering and successful. could feel ashamed easily when you dont see yourself progressing in life. could also have the karma of being someone who thinks more clearly and not "do first and think later". your father also could've been overly dominant, so you have the karma of being someone who has to be less power-hungry.
â SATURN IN TAURUS/2H ⶠfather might've been someone who didnt know how to handle finances. might've been someone who spoke over people and dismissed the opinion of others. could've been someone who was too lazy to make money, and too stubborn. your father might've been someone who couldnt keep it in their pants as well, and wasnt really grateful for the things in his life. so you have to be someone who needs to find your value, a stable way to make money. having to be someone who is patient with other people, and even being close to your family members. this placement can imply that you could have the karma of being the one who is the money-maker in your family. could even have to find a healthy life style with food.
â SATURN IN GEMINI/3H ⶠlike the taurus/2h, your father might've been someone who spoke over people and didnt consider the opinions of others. your father might've been someone who spoke poorly behind other people's back and even might've stolen from other people. whether is be possessions and ideas. so you could have the karma of learning how to speak in a healthy way with other people, being someone who has to develop critical thinking and going through trials and tribulations where you are held accountable with much things you do. people with this placement might find themselves always going through something, so doing the most small ill thing to someone could cost you a lot. could go through a lot of stalling moments in life because you might have to rid of your two-faced ways. could also mean might find it hard coming up with ideas as you have to learn how to be original.
â SATURN IN CANCER/4H ⶠthis placement can imply that your father figure might've been someone who was distant with their family and even absent. might've been someone who was manipulative and not emotionally caring, your father figure might've been someone who didnt leave a legacy, so now you are finding yourself being the person who has to work towards greatness and leave a legacy and will for the descendants. and might even not want to have children because of how you were brought up. could have a fear of children or having a family. could have the karma of having to have a family and not repeat the same mistake as the father, doesnt need to be your own family. could be found family. this placement could also mean you have to learn to be emotionally intelligent and mature. if you want your own family, there's a lot of generational curses you have to stop.
ⱠSATURN IN LEO/5H ⶠsaturn in the fifth house can imply that your father might've been into infidelity, could've been someone who wasnt as present in your childhood. with the leo influence, could be someone who might've restricted the fun out of other people, even their goals. could've been someone who was too arrogant and didnt care about the feelings of others. currently, you could be someone who could be struggling to reach your goals and knowing how to let loose. this placement could mean you could have the karma of not repeating bad habits onto your future children, if you do want some. or could have the karma of not getting into much relationship because "badness" normally comes out of it. might have to learn to not be controlling of others, and running away from romantic partners who could be very controlling.
ⱠSATURN IN VIRGO/6H ⶠsimilar to the 5h and leo section. this placement can insinuate that father might've been controlling towards other people, might've been someone who didnt care about their own health or the physical or mental health of others. might've been someone who allowed obstacles to stop them from reaching who they're supposed to be. now you could have the karma of having to overcome slothness, having to be someone who has to fight through much daily problems, and even having to be a health-freak because you could be someone who is easily sick. this placement can even indicate of having to suffer through bad co-workers.
ⱠSATURN IN LIBRA/7H ⶠonce again, similar to 5h. saturn in both libra and in the seventh house could indicate that your father might've been someone who has destroyed homes and relationships. a player a cheat. could've been someone with a bad reputation, and might've been harsh and mean to other people. could've taken the advantage of other people as well. and for you, this could mean you could the karma of being someone who doesnt get into much relationships, or almost every relationship you get into is karmic. there could always be this circumstance where you always have to prove your goodness to other people, and meeting people who are unnecessarily mean to you. people from your father's past disliking you as well.
ⱠSATURN IN SCORPIO/8H ⶠyour father might have been someone who was too overly dominant, might've taken stuff from other people and even abused their power onto other people. this placement could also mean your father might've been someone who was too intense and even too dangerous. so, with you, you have one of the biggest karmas compared to other people, having to learn how to stand up for yourself because sometimes you might feel like you can allow people to walk over you. having the karma of not getting inherited money and having to build that for yourself. could also mean could feel undervalued, and trying not to feel valued through sex and even drugs. this could mean you might attract lethal company, having to strengthen your discernment so you know who to run away from.
â SATURN IN SAGITTARIUS/9H ⶠsaturn being in either the ninth house or sagittarius shows that your father might've been someone who forced their beliefs onto you or other people. might've been over-domineering with their views in the world, and might've been someone who disappeared in your life a lot, or was just very immature. you could have the karma of going through a lot of things, might've met life's roughness and cruelty early in your life. you could the karma of struggling faith in others, yourself or even in your faith. could also be someone who might find it hard to debate with other people. so, knowing how to stand your ground could be something you had to learn.
â SATURN IN CAPRICORN/10H ⶠsaturn being in the tenth house shows that your father might've been someone who was disconnected from their responsibilities, could've been a dead beat. could have been someone who was controlling of other people's goals and careers, might've been a restrictive person in general, and might not even be really liked by the public, [or family community you belong to]. this could mean you have to make a lane for yourself, and even having to go through the burdens of having people misinterpret your character without even knowing who you are. having to feel like you have to work ten times harder than the people around you so your success and achievements could be acknowledged by other people. could also have the habit of wanting to get validation from other people. might feel like you get exiled by everyone one you know.
â SATURN IN AQUARIUS/11H ⶠsaturn being in the eleventh house or in aquarius means that your father might've been someone who didnt express their creativity. could've been someone who was considered a mean friend and even someone who was too conservative. might've been someone who looked down on other people, and might've been someone who detached themselves from other people all the time. so right now you could be someone who struggles to make friends or have a stable friendship group. could have to go through obstacles of friends who attempt to walk all over you, this can also mean you could be someone who struggles to express their self-identity, individuality and even creativity. being your own person is something you have to learn how to be.
â SATURN IN PISCES/12H ⶠthis placement could mean your father might've been someone who was disconnected with reality, might've projected onto too much people, might've jinxed themselves a lot. could've been someone who became obsessed with faith and might've been extreme to the people around him. could mean your father figure could have been someone who might've had struggles with drugs and alcohol. so you could be going through the karma of going through your own addictions, whether it be drugs, sex or money, could be someone who feels like you're exiled no matter where you go, so you have to go through this period of having to find your community, your tribe. being someone who doesnt get your hopes to high because life would hit you with reality all the time. could be someone who has to be idolising other people, chiefly people in your real life, because you could end up becoming disappointed with them.
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