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[abimee]

also, for anybody whos wondering why I cant simply use public transportation to get a job: without revealing the exact location of my house, I live in what I would consider slightly ''off the main land'' of CA, and because of that the bus system that runs through my area only stops in my location exactly 4-5 times, 1-2 on saturdays, and none on sundays. Jobs in CA are very particular about being on-call and working weekends, and I simply can not walk/bike to town (you basically have to cross bridges to get to where I live).

Because of this, I can only safely get a job when I have open access to a vehicle, as the route system is way too spread out to be able to call it ''reliable'' (basically 2 of the 4 routes are within an hour of each other, and the other 2 are spread out, and they only run until 7 pm). so I can't get a job until my mother has a car, and my mother cant quickly save up for a car if I'm not paying rent, hence why i'm hoping to get the $360 for december to cover at least 70% of the rent I owe for that month. thank you for your understanding!!!!

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to give everyone an idea where i'm at: I have one dono request to get to, one dono commission to get to, and one dono inquiry to get to, all of which I hope to get to by the end of this month. Everyone has also been kind enough to get me over halway to my goal yippee!

This has meant that I haven't had to worry about food/amenaties while unemployed --- we're still however without a car, but if I can make my $800 goal (which is only $360 usd if i'm doing the math right), I'll be set to January when we are expected to be able to get a vehicle again and therefore I can more reliably get a job Wahoo.png

Since I still owe dono commissions I still cannot take any more, but for as low as $1 usd now you can get a kofi request by me!! That means for a singular united states dollar you can get a drawing of any prompt (within reason --- 3 characters max) by yours truly in my sketch style

get some art of your favorite ship! or two random characters going to five guys! or your favorite video game npc redrawn in a meme format! all for as low as the price of a single mentos.

And thank you again everyone who has donated + who has been waiting patiently for their drawings I owe you all the world !!!!!!!!

[abimee]

you all have 0 reasons to not play ff14 with me now its coming to literal phones

[abimee]

current situation is about the same, no car no job still pushing to find one once this ear infection is gone, thank you everyone for helping spread the word and for being nice to me despite my lack of art for half a year

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hi i can no longer act coy or hope that a job will come in time so im coming to everyone really embarassingly with my issues

in June I attempted to get fired from/left my job after having a really embarassing public meltdown due to having Rapid-Cycling Mixed Bipolar and the unending stress of that job of 3+ years. I've been struggling to get a job afterwards due to being in CA without a vehicle, and i'm currently working on an overdue commission so could not open up any more.

Soon after, my mother's car imploded, and a series of incidents related to a used engine and taking out a loan with a friend has left her both needing to pay back the loan and still needing to get a new car, putting her thousands in the hole.

my mother has allowed me to not worry about paying rent while unemployed, but now the person living with us is moving out, so it will be on me and my mother to pay rent, upping mine from $300 to $500 a month. I am currently job hunting with good prospects, but I am still in need of some assistance.

I DO NOT WANT TO ASK FOR DONATIONS WITHOUT GIVING SOMETHING IN RETURN, I have a very bad time taking help from people without doing something in return because I do not want people to feel like they Have to give me money or help me, I want to Offer something in return for that money, even in a situation like this, because I want everyone to come out on the other end feeling fulfilled, so I'm offering some (slow) cheaper commissions I can work on in between the bigger comm I owe.

My kofi is always open for donation sketches ---- you can donate the minimum amount (or whatever you prefer) and get a drawing like this of anything as long as you put it into the donation message!

i cant currently take on big commissions as I have one i owe and the commissioner is a very generous person who has been waiting a good few months for me to finish one during this hectic time, but if you're interested in getting something a little higher quality for a donation, a $30-50 USD donation can get you a ''simple commission'' styled drawing --- that is, you give me a prompt and character refferences (ocs or fanart, up to 2-3 characters depending on complexity), and I draw them like below (color complexity depends on price, the higher the amount the more the color).

You wont have access to revisions to make this as fast as possible, so i HIGHLY reccomend only getting fanart comms of these and to make sure you really like my style!!

this is one of those situations where I DEEPLY reccomend people do not donate unless they want something in return, if you dont wanna ask for a drawing or anything i reccomend going to people in more dire circumstances and helping them out with your donation!!!

but if you want to help me help my mother get out of a bad financial situation and get a little drawing in return, you can do a small dono and att a message of what you want doodled, or you can email me at cyrdrawings@gmail.com your $30-50 donation reciept and what you would like me to draw, and ill try to get them as soon as I can

thank you so much for checking this post out and keep it real old school!!!!! i promise once this is over and i get a job we'll be back to your regularly scheduled art posting

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also my ear infection is slowly going away but i might have permanent hearing damage. i will be contacting everyone waiting for donation art this week thank you 4 your patience

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i do also think that fandom has gotten worse irt peoples need for factory-product level quality in their merchandise while still being a low price like i genuinely believe that indivitual peoples gaining access to factory production of physical fan goods to this degree has only worsened the engagement To fanworks, because then people will see a plush doll made entire by hand and think the $200 price tag is abhorrant because ''the seams arent perfectly straight/theres not enough details/the body is a bit warped/it looks ''homemade'''' and then without thinking consume little $12 nui dolls mass-produced in a warehouse the artist will never see or know the true conditions of and only has contact with via some production emails from faceless workers probably using a psuedonym if they give you a name. People want high quality product at a cheap price and the fact this concept has sunken into fanworks ie nui dolls keychains physical zines etc is atrotious. Especially with how much people tout that they run through fandoms in like 3 months and then move on to the next, think about the amount of strain and useless, cheap junk youre buying for something you wont care about in the time it takes To manufacture the products youre consuming. We need to go back to making fanworks at home for good prices and also holding onto interests for more than 2-3 weeks and im so serious

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the fearmongering tariff tweets from artists were in bad taste for many reasons that more well-versed people have gone over but i personally find it insane how many artists genuinely said ''say goodbye to plushies'' ie nuis and plush fanworks cause like. idk. absolutely diabolically insane that (digital) artists see physical craft like sewing dolls as only viable if its done mass-production style by some third party website like Vograce out in some other country where the only step theyre involved in is the design. you sound like a corporation when you talk like that. Like the amount of people unwilling to learn needle and thread and so come to the conclusion of ''i as a single person cant gain access to a production company to make my ugly nuis? well looks like theres no other way then!" is biblical levels of greedy. ive bought hand-sewn dolls before from a group thats just 2 people a sewing machine and homemade patterns, but that concept is entirely unknown to you? your dolls Have to be made somewhere else, by someone else, for cheap, because all you want to be inconvenienced by is a 3-6 month processing time? you dont want to put effort into your craft, and make something with your own two hands that you can be proud of in every stitch? horrible behavior I hope your dolls get lost in shipping for now on

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i know this is the same as the video game but seeing it visually and not just in text still made me wanna put a gun in my mouth all over again

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this era of tumblr post might still be happening tbh but i think the wildest partof 2024 was when people kept making vague tumblr posts that boiled down to them saying that a lot of ''queer people'' are pedophiles and that we have to become really chill with that because something something pedophiles support our community and if ''they'' go after pedos ''they'' will go after queer people. and all this stuff that just made me go ''i have not met a single gay pedophile nor would i be friends with any what the fuck is OP talking about'' and you know what if this post makes no sense to you consider yourself lucky

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i love when the neighbors two houses down shine a random light the brightness of a small sun at 12 am

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this isnt m crafting any theories i dont do that nor am i smart enough this is me purely seeing patterns and concocting bullshit for my self and currenltly i feel fucking insane that the anime entirely cut emil out of the picture and then gave me this last shot that perfectly fuels my ''a2 is like a reincarnation/paralell to kaine when you think about it'' mental disease

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WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN THATS HOW NIER AUTOMATA (ANIME) ENDS

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THATS IT. THATS HOW NIER AUTOMATA ENDS?

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SICK AND TWISTED INDIVITUALS ARE MAKING THE NIER ANIME

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me and moosh started watching season 2 of the nier anime last night and you can tell im too far gone cause after they baited me with the emil reveal in like the 1st/2nd episode every consecutive ep afterwards had me go ''wheres emil during all of this'' at least twice

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youre right we should return to sending each other asks. anyway need to know your thoughts on everything. why did they start the season with 9s and 2b literally plotting to kill each other after meeting emil. why isnt emil coming back yet. im still reeling from the very first episode and literally everything afterwards. what was THAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

ill be honest i got 0 thoughts i just miss emil a lot LMAO