#idk. whatever. it doesn’t matter. it’s just me

[vvyrmwood]

i’ve been in a rly bad mental place recently and there’s been like. an incident here and their that’s really hurt my feelings and made it more poignant but ultimately it all just goes back to like. i look at all of the art and work and projects i’m working on and it all seems pointless and like. it feels like no matter how much effort or time i put into my writing, my stories, and these characters that mean so much to it ultimately who is going to take the time to read or enjoy any of it even surface level. i’ve been stuck on the current oh terrible machine progress bc i read back at it and it’s not that i think the writing or anything is bad it’s just. who cares. i’ve been on the internet for years and granted, my following is small by my own accord but i have no confidence in myself to ever grow beyond or make anything that’s going to be worthwhile for anyone else. i share barely anything i make online anymore in part bc of years of harassment but a big part of why i stopped sharing my stuff is bc genuinely it seems like people just stopped caring, and i know that it’s likely more algorithm’s then anything but it’s still disheartening.

[dykedvonte]

Ulysses obsession with the Courier is a special type of sad to me cause the Courier’s part was so important but so unwitting. They had no idea what was in the package they delivered and neither did he. Neither had an idea of what it could’ve done and the Courier was only caring out their job (mind you the Courier could be killed via notes in the express contract if they don’t). To them it was just another regular delivery to the divide and one that they likely thought would help, just like all the ones before.

It’s so tragic for Ulysses to hold so much ire to the Courier when it really was the case of it could’ve been anyone. Anyone could have delivered that package but they did and so he focused the blame on them and it destroys what he is trying to instill in the courier on a fundamental level.

[soullessjack]

sorry I truly don’t understand how people treat dean not knowing ‘the basics’ for Jack to be admitted to a hospital as some kind of argument for him being a bad father lmao.. Like numero uno he lived his entire life completely independent of any actual medical attention so what the fuck would he know to tell a receptionist and numero dos: the entire episode he is stressing the fuck out about Jack’s condition and anxious to get help for it without all the legal distractions that’s Literally it

[yuwuta]

something i think is absolutely bonkers is when fans of an anime/manga start publicly saying fuck you to the mangaka—who is still a very real person—just because the villainous character, who is not real at all, they wanted to fuck died

[takeyourdailydoseofcyanide]

asking for help always makes things worse

[pepperpixel]

Art challenge: color a characters hair without making the parts that should be in shadow / shaded / darker than the rest of the hair a lighter color instead.

Difficulty level: IMPOSSIBLE

[vampiremourning]

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[peapod20001]

Did sleeping help

No </3

[gregmarriage]

lot of feelings about being disabled and bedridden and housebound etc, and the disappointment and sadness, etc that comes with it. especially, bc a girl asked me out for coffee and i don’t know how to let her down and say, ‘yeah, don’t hold your breath’

[pepprs]

mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol

[milo-is-rambling]

Bummmmed rn bc I quit the queen music theater show I was gonna work in March/April bc some ppl (💨’s boyfriend and mom) are gonna be working the show which means 💨 will be around which means we will have to deal with each other and I don’t think I could also bring around her boyfriend or mom would make me lose my mind rn I think and like. Just. UGHHHH. FUCK HER FUCK HER FUCK HER

[sharingresourcesforpalestine]

you know, I feel like, as little money as I have, I still haven’t put into perspective how much I have that could still be of use. I’m not so poor that I can’t make a difference. I can still buy a meal if I go out. I can buy a trinket. I’m not so poor or struggling with life that I don’t have food in my stomach and a place to sleep. Donating like I have this week has me wanting to do something that I hope many others are already doing. For every cent I would have spent for myself, on groceries, deliveries, gifts, etcetera (beyond the strikes where I am not spending money on anything but Palestinian causes) I will donate equal or greater that amount to Palestine. Because if I have money for me, I should have money for others. This is not me setting myself on fire to keep others warm, I know I would be of no use long term if I destroyed myself by going entirely broke with no way to survive myself. This is considering things beyond medical bills and life expenses that I need to keep going. When I count groceries, it’s things like when I use Instacart bc I can’t go out, because even though I don’t have a means of transportation, delivery is a luxury and if I can afford to pay for that, I can afford to donate. If I buy something non-essential like some snacks or the like, I have to match it with a donation. Because if I can afford to buy that, I can afford to donate. And just due to the nature of being a reminder, every time I get my period I’m going to donate to sanitary products for Palestine, because while pads are an essential product, donating even a little bit towards helping others get even the opportunity to get the same access as I do is an important reminder. There’s $5 donations available for those, and that’s about the cost of an average subscription I would be able to afford— it won’t buy a whole kit, but it will still put money towards that goal. I may not be able to do all the good the world needs, but the world needs all the good that I can do. As much as I can spare, I will donate. I only wish I could do more.

[thnksfrthmmrs]

being asexual and sex repulsed is actually really hard because everyone acts like you’re a freak and doesn’t take you seriously when you say you don’t want to talk about sex and half of y’all reading this can’t act like you would never do that because you can’t even tag your nsfw or put a warning before your explicit tags on how you wanna fuck that guy 👍🏼

[icelogged]

found some pics of myself that i forgot existed [i deleted all my pictures during an episode and only successfully recovered a few] and i really like them

i am not stupid, i know ‘immodesty’ [lingerie, mini and micro clothing] is generally read as suggestive. but i also like how my body looks in those. i think body positivity / self worship should be available regardless of outside perceptions.

maybe im a diet nudist lol. i hate being in swimsuits [publicly] and naked even in my own home because of dsyphoria. but i’m finding that i really like crawling around in ‘revealing’ things. maybe i’m proud of how far my body has come or maybe this is just ~my style. i just hope i don’t make anyone uncomfortable you know? idk i guess i’ll keep personal / unrelated selfies to a minimum but then it’s also my blog so (´._.`) …

edit: i have come to the resolve that if a person chooses to dismiss my work because i like to dress up [in a way that makes me happy] and post about on [tumblr].com then so be it. also in my opinion, it’s literally fine if you’re uncomfortable with my presentation. we all have different perspectives and valid reasons for our feelings. all i ask is you don’t make it my problem. you can unfollow, you can block.

edit[2]: i mean my profile picture is literally me in a very cropped top and my header has me in lingerie so… i hope that people who choose to spend some time on icelogged will not recoil in horror if there’s female presenting* legs and tummy because i think i’ve already made it clear that we post boy chest and tummy here.

*literally the joke of the century to me i will never not use “female presenting nipples”. fave kind of joke; absurd reminders of our world. like haha that’s so stupid, i could literally write an academic essay on this. [and now you know my humour and why i am tragically unfunny].

[kuiinncedes]

declared my minor 😌🫡

[vampiremourning]

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