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giyuulatte · 3 months ago

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i had to explain pronouns to my boss yesterday, bless her oml. so basically i have to fix our bulletin board (i work in the history department) and we are doing it the way the english department does it. and on theirs, it has the professors name, what they do, office number, and their pronouns. and one of the professors had they/them pronouns on their description, so she was like "explain this to me" and i did, and she was still confused! and, she thought pronouns had to do with you being gay...now mind you this woman is about 50-60

ok so it basically went like this, but abridged

her: explain this to me me: well instead of saying "he blah blah blah" you would said "they blah blah blah" her: but im only talking about one person?? me:yes, but you would use "they" instead of "he" her:how long has this been around? me: i mean for a while, but it's more accepted so people are more comfortable being themselves her: but why "they" me: well because they don't feel like a "he" or a "she" her: ouu this don't make no sense, as if the world isn't confusing enough. we arent adding pronouns to ours me: oh ok

lol yall think imma get fired if i add pronouns anyway??

the conversations i have with this woman, but i love her she like my second mama

#now i know the way i explained it probably isnt correct #so forgive me please #im not well versed in these things even tho i wish to be #i myself am still learning as well!!#i feel like if i were to explain further that some people use she/they or he/they as well #she would have a stroke #imagine me explaining neopronouns to her #instant cardiac arrest i fear #IMAGINE i tell her that pronouns don't equal gender #i would have been there all mf day #idk how to tag this bc it’s really just for me to remember #college #college life #pronouns #neopronouns #stereotypes #gender stereotypes

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greatgoddyke · 10 days ago

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time to make your choice only you can be the one

#undescribed #bonk.png #ggg #great god grove #great god grove spoilers #ggg spoilers #<- bc of king n hand gesturing stuff for the au this one gets the spoiler tag #caption is a line from legend of everfree from eg movie of the same name bc its now linked to ggg for me bc of brainrot #first au stuff i dont like have anything really planned out n also dont really plan on doing anything with this beyond doodles #settled on inspekta being a horse bc i want him capochin patty n king to all be earth ponies bc of like permanent having it ingrained from #being an mlp fan as a kid that earth ponies are seen as less special bc they cant use magic or fly n that fits for story similarities #bc inspekta n capochin hating on patty for projection reasons AND inspekta's replacement anxiety n envy of king who in the au #is the only other earth pony lined up to become an alicorn (bc again being specifically an fim fan since i was a kid ingrained in with fanon #that ponies that become alicorns are almost exclusively pegasus or unicorn bc of earth ponies not having as clear of a connection to magic)#in my mind patty is the main character like the bizzyboys are also main characters but its like how the mane six are the main six but #twilight is the MAIN main character its like that n then godpoke is her sidekick (like spike ig but like mysterious stranger style <- idk #what i mean by this) she gets to be the protag bc the type of character godpoke is in the game n how im fitting them to be in the au doesnt #really work for a protag role while patty can be more readily slotted into mlp protag shes the only bizzyboy who cares about solving in the #game (as shown in hobbyhoo) n i like her so she gets to be the protag v-v inspekta is still doing the whole like shit from the game just in #a different way bc of mlp related restrictions n tone differences. the episode where luna goes to nightmare night after being freshly reform #ed walked so milldread section could run however cobigail's deal does run closer to that episode that to the game counterpart but like witho #ut cob having been banished for a thousand years theres no rift in the au bc its. mlp so sort of vague direction is related to the tree of #harmony n like maybe thats how inspekta powers up for the two parter transformation. a thought i had for a workaround for how inspekta keeps #king isolated was maybe turning king to stone n hiding her in plain sight but while that would slide in mlp (they turn a child to stone in t #he series finale apparently??) it leaves a bad taste in my mouth from the ggg angle so probably gonna do something else #art comments both inspekta n cobigail's pony names are taken from ponies i already had inspekta's comes from a different mlpied thing #n cobigail's comes from a fankid (spelled like kandi corn tho bc fankid's a rave girlie) the rest of the gods get to keep their names aside #from maybe bauhauzzo (whos role is undecided) huzzle n click clack arent ponies bc i felt it suited them more huzzle gets to be discordesc #bc i think its fun if like this versions god of chaos wasnt evil BUT that angle is used as slander against huzzle by inspekta #n click clack's a breezy bc small n bratty (we will be ignoring that breezies are mortal if i remember right bc thats not relevant)

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lunarharp · 10 months ago

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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

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pokemon-radical-red · 13 days ago

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I hate it when I headcanon a character who’s canonically a girl as a trans man and make ships of him and a character who’s canonically a guy and I refer to it as a gay/mlm/guyxguy/whatever ship and someone gets mad. Like omg let trans people have FUNNNNN. Why are queer headcanons and genderbends cool until they’re saying that the character is trans???

“OMGGG you’re so misogynistic I can’t believe you would erase FEMALE representation!!!”

and like half of the characters in the franchise are women, and a total of… NONE of the characters are trans men. Also, my headcanon doesn’t change the source material. If my stuff upsets you, you can block me and go engage with the source or maybe every single other fanwork, since mine is the only trans man hc for this character that I’ve ever seen.

or when people are like “WTF??? this is so transphobic!!! how dare you imply that a character who looks like that could be a trans man?!?! do you think that trans men are women or something??? she uses she/her, and you’re misgendering her!”

No, I don’t think that being a trans man makes you a woman or vice versa. That’s why it’s a headcanon, and the headcanon is that this character is actually a trans man and not a woman at all! You’ll never guess what pronouns most trans men had to use at some point in their lives, and you really won’t like it when you find out about pre-(or no-)transition trans men… or trans men who are in the closet… or trans men who don’t know that they’re trans yet.

“But the character is a kid!!! Saying they’re trans is sexualizing them.”

I’ve seen this one from other queer people. Like did you miss when all of the homophobes said this about your identity, or do you think that bigotry is only bad when it’s directed at you?

“Why would you say ‘testosterone could fix her’??? Are you trying to call her a delusional woman?”

Why would your brain even go to that first? This literally has to be a bad faith reading, because there’s no way that someone could see what I said and get this unless they were specifically looking for something to be mad at me for.

(Note for anyone unaware: “Estrogen would’ve fixed him!” was a meme going around at the time I said this. I’m not sure if it’s still super big, but this was a joke to the effect of that.)

“So girls can’t be tomboys anymore? You just wanna trans everyone?”

This is like actual real life transphobic rhetoric. This isn’t even just shitting on my headcanon, but in fact, sending transphobic hate to a trans man. Thanks 👍. Maybe you should go send JK Rowling another message about how much you loved her essay instead of bothering me.

#transgender #trans #trans man #transandrophobia #<- not all of it but the ‘it’s misogynystic to be a trans man!!!’ part is. esp because it’s something that people say about real trans men #is this inspired by a Tik tok about how making male characters women is empowering and making female characters men is misogyny?#(although that post was weirdly about genderbending gay ships? idk why that’s discourse going around 😭😭😭. I miss old fandom sometimes.)#not exactly. although the comments on it sucked. I’ve seen multiple variations of posts like that and all of their comment sections made me #feel like I was wading through raw sewage with how full of shit the commenters were.#I saw one violently threatening anyone who portrays a canon girl as a man (in stupid Tik Tok speak)#oh Feng Min… oh Hilda Pokémon… oh Y PokéSpe… you’re all beautiful young men to me #nonbinary hcs also get you that last one super hard #I haven’t seen as much of this about hcing canon guys as trans girls other than posts where op says ‘name a girl character who (blank)!’-#and then makes an addition that you’re an evil misogynist if you said a MALE!!! (even though Brock Pokémon is a transbian to me </3)#which icks me out so bad. omfg. like she’s a girl to ME!!! so maybe that’s why I’m naming her under a post about GIRLS!!!#I imagine that most of the reason for not hearing much about it is because these types of headcanons just… really aren’t common #so if you have a bunch of experience with headcanoning characters who are canonically men as trans girls and the hate that it gets you then #feel free to add on (and also please talk to me about your headcanons… there are so few of us. we need to stick together!!!)#it’s not derailing despite this post specifically being tagged about trans men #that’s just bc that’s all that I talk about in my original post #this post has been in my drafts in different forms for probably like months #long post #I guess #anyone remember a while back when someone on this app got violently mad that someone put a character (canonically a guy) in the m/m tags on #ao3 bc the guy was hced as trans in the fic #and the post was like ‘grrr the ao3 gender ship things are talking about GENITALS!!! not gender!!! I’m not transphobic though <3.’#so now to imagine what it’s like to hc a character who’s canonically a girl as a trans man just imagine that but it’s worse and also you’re #getting it from other trans people too 👍

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aetalk · 7 days ago

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#yes those are uyai’s tags in the color theory post like. YESSSS #because at the end of the day.. they are still the same person they used to be before they decided to change for the better.#the past doesn’t define u but. its still part of u. u did it regardless. the person of the past is still u.#LORE SPEAKING: they may have created their own color wheel and decided to do and say their own thing that has nothing to do with i #but they were still the naive and brainwashed angels they most likely pretend they dont exist bc they are not them anymore. but they are☝️#at the end of the day it all goes back to the beginning #IRL SPEAKING: they went thru a looooot predebut so they just dont rlly acklowedge (idk how to write that) their past #or their traumas. or their sins. because its fine they are not the same anymore. BUT THEY ARE! they still are #for example kaia thinks shes ok bc her past actions dont define her anymore. mf killed someone ofc her past will weight her down #despite howww bad she pretends that shes not that person anymore bc she is better now #but well! she still is the same person who killed nari! and thats something she has to accept #amaybe she continues having trouble accepting it bc “current me could never do that”. and well she did anyway!#blahblahblah #whatever that means dulce!#anyway. thats why in their color wheel they aren’t really that different fron their initial color #yeah they changed but they are still the same shade because their principal color is still part of them #this is why i really love the whole nostalgia essence in hiraeth bc it goes well with their lore / irl #ur past will always be part of u even if u forget it. even if u barely remember. even if u think that it didnt happen. thats still UR past #and thats why i luv the time loop concept too bc every new era is a new life but everything is still connected to the past eras #because they are still the same silly little angels 🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧🤧 even if they remember or not!#q.

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trashcreatyre · 3 months ago

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I think the main thing that pisses me off about like 90% of mephiles ships is that people will be like "how old is he??" Look that fanwiki says that he's ten and they RUN with it. Like they don't read further. I'm so convinced that most people don't even know the plot of 06 bc the shit I've seen people draw and write with the characters is just mind boggling.

#trash rambles #like yeah i understand thwt nearly all of the named sonic characters are either minors or unspecified #but like #even if he was actually ten #shipping him with other minor characters would be so weird 😭#plus i dont think it would even matter if he has actually a minor because that uncomfortable power dynamic would still be there with most #other characters #and like #god idk #the amount of dog shit mephiles ships i have to have blocked in my tags is extremely upsetting #LIKE. WDYM?#MARIA??????#STOP IT 😭#tikal makes more sense but that one still makes me uncomfortable #idk i dont even remember all the ones i blocked i just remember that find the maria posts was like #devistating #that and the one person who liked all my 06 posts and was a mephiles and elise shipper (theyre siblings to me so someone like that liking m #art of them is understanbly upsetting)#that being said how old do i think infinite is??? because he doesnt have an official age (that i could find)#personally i think hes anywhere from 19 (at the absolute youngest) to like. early 30s idk 💀#somewhere between thoes idk #the only version of him that has a 100% solid age in my head is for the ghost au and hes 22 in that (bc hes a junior in collage)#n e way #i just woke up so ignore if this is illegible #ugh idk i really try not to be gate-keepy about stuff i like because its annoying but like #i love 06 so much it kinda hurts tl see people just kinda not knowing even the basic plot or like. only going off the fandubs (which i #really enjoy but at a certain point you can only say mephiles is ur favorite and have people quote it at you or in the comments of your 06 #posts so many times before you just like. idk. (also ive had people irl tell me 06 sucks after i told them directly it was my favorite sonic #game??? like??? bro you asked ME.))

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flying-cat · 5 months ago

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It was crazy watching bkdk go from the most hated ship to the most popular ship in the fandom

#idk something i was thinking about #i also used to not like it if i'm being completely honest #i used to be a big td dk shipper #i still like them too!! i just like bkdk more nowadays #i remember when you could say “i like bakudeku” and everyone would move 10 feet away from you and act like you're a witch #i was in an amino group chat (LMAO) and tentatively said “i like bakudeku” and someone was like “bakudeku is so toxic why” and i was like #“oh fuck i don't wanna disrupt the harmony of the group chat” so then i backtracked and i was like “haha yeah i only like them in AUs”#to that person i like them canon compliant the most and always have i lied sorry #bkdk #bakudeku #katsudeku #side note the big reason i stopped being so into td dk is bc at the point where i JUST started liking bkdk i didn't like how a bunch of #td dk shippers would treat katsuki like he was izuku's toxic ex or something or they would use td dk to shit on bkdk #idk how that is nowadays but i used to see it in fic and it kinda just pissed me off too much so i had to step away 😭#i am a multishipper for life tho i'll go back to them someday. also tdbkdk is really good too.#i spaced out td dk so it doesn't show in their tags i hope it works 😭 if it doesn't i love them please believe me #I DO REMEMBER THIS ONE REALLY GOOD VILLAIN DEKU FIC I WAS READING BEFORE STEPPING AWAY FROM THE SHIP #i think it was unfinished i can't remember the name :(

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fireboos99 · 8 months ago

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I literally do not have anything smart to say here, this drawing literally only happened because my siblings were telling me I should post my brainrot doodles on here, and my anxiety-ridden ass couldn't do it, and decided the only solution was to spend days (read: the entire latter end of April) working on a proper drawing because "if I'm going to post anything on tumblr, it better be a full-ass drawing"

#little fire's art #dragon ball #kaioshin #db shin #grand supreme kai #north supreme kai #south supreme kai #west supreme kai #idk the proper tags #and I don't really care rn #I just want to get this posted so I can hide in the Void for a million years or so #anyway #normal db fan: MY FAV CHARACTER IS [insert super duper powerful character here]#meanwhile #me: *holds up Shin* blorbo...#but hey this drawing did make me make some big steps out of my comfort zone for art #so I guess my db brainrot is good for something??#also for the record I DID finish this a couple days ago #my anxiety just prevented me from posting it here until now #but technically it's still a contender for April's art piece for the end of the year art summary #I'M NOT GOING TO MISS TWO M0NTHS #Feb sucked bc my tablet said fuck you and I had to replace it #if anything looks wonky pose-wise just remember I don't use pose refs much #bc I hate myself #no really #I just about drove myself insane one night trying to figure out how to draw Shin's right arm #bc the angle is weird and idk why I did this to myself #shut the fuck up Fire

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moeblob · 9 months ago

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Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

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talentforlying · 10 months ago

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priest: i don't, ah, quite know what to say to you. if you are in such terrible danger, why are you taking it all so calmly? constantine: hmh! i dunno, father. i had a bloke beaten to a pulp earlier this evening. that sound calm to you? priest: you did what...? constantine: i must've been off me bleedin' rocker. i've never done anything like it before in me life, y'know?

constantine: but there's header gets his guts blown out, and george is stickin' his head in the noose, and helen gets ... jesus, then friggin' sarah bites me head off — ! everything's coming to bits in me hands and it's so easy to just see red and now, shit, they could've killed the tosser for all i know! and now i'm just like the bastards i've hated all me life! kill him! fire him! close them down! piss all over him! screw you, i can do whatever i want! i so much as blink and you're dead, pal! i'm in charge!! ...

constantine: 'scuse me, father. i'm always like this when i don't get me own way. — hellblazer #81, "rake at the gates of hell pt. 4"

babygirl you are just....so, sooooo offputting. (and grieving, and guilty, and terrified, but yeah: offputting.)

anyway, it's issues like this one that remind me why i kind of hesitate over some of the retcons in the recent spurrier runs, like the one with him now having opened dream's pouch of sand and stolen some before they even met. because like, it's easy enough to look at john constantine now — with 70 years of worst possible choices and unresolved trauma crystallizing underneath his skin to cover up all the soft, hopeful bits where he's used to getting hit — and assign him arbiter of ill intentions, magus of wasted potential, saint of shit choices, but man . . . he was new to this, once. he was still new to this 80 issues in.

80 issues in, and he's not used to losing friends yet; he even has time enough between catastrophes to grieve each individual one. still has enough left to live for at this stage to necessitate running and hiding, instead of bodily throwing himself at the problem like he learns to later, or sitting apathetically by to do nothing except smoke and watch the world fall apart when he finally gives up. fuck, he still apologizes.

and you're telling me this guy, this soppy wet cat motherfucker hiding from the devil in a church basement, so guilty over not knowing what happened to the guy that he paid people (paid chas, so chas could pay people) to attack that the bottle he's holding in this scene isn't even his second or third........this guy's past, more innocent self lied right to the face of DREAM OF THE ENDLESS and got away with it?

hm. i just don't know about all that.

#also this is where my headcanons tag is from <3 #( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS.#( visage. ) AND I'M A BASTARD.#( character study. ) A WALKING PLAGUE OF A MAN.#sometimes i just think that. people really like to reduce constantine down to one or two things #and somehow. after 250 issues of putting his life on the line bc he could never really make himself look away from people suffering #the soft sullen guilty person who wants so fucking desperately to be a better man? is never one of those two things #idk man. i think about this issue all the time #if i put these pages side-by-side with his grief in hellblazer 2? with his grief in hellblazer 213? 215? during the empathy virus arc?#it becomes CRYSTAL clear that the guy we know at the end of hellblazer isn't someone the guy who sat vigil for gary lester would recognize #in fact i think he's someone that hellblazer 81 constantine would fucking Hate #ANYway yeah. i don't think he lied to dream about the pouch. i don't think he ever got it open. i don't think that's canon for me #i want him to fucking Earn his asshole nature. the hard way. by making All The Wrong Choices that it took to get him there #he paved that road with good intentions himself but. he also used to remember the ones he started with #idk if i'm making sense but i have had this panel open on my laptop for Two Months now #bc i can never stop thinking about how fucking crushed he is here to realize that he might be exactly as bad a man as sarah said he was #and how little it will surprise him later on to learn that he is Easily capable of So Much Fuckin Worse #and with that your honor the defense rests. our evidence? just. just Look at this fuckin guy #scopophobia /#scopophobia #eye contact /#eye contact tw

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scattered-winter · 6 months ago

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every day i kick a rock and bash my head into the wall because i'll never get to go on a big space adventure and become tightly close-knit with my new found family up there <//3

#re lrb..........#i mean realistically if i was in the voltron/quintenary stars universe chances are i would probably NOT be one of the people #going on the space adventure.#i'd be roped into the plot when the aliens invade and earth almost gets destroyed. spoilers for arc 2 btw sorry #but man. child soldierism aside i wish that were me so so so bad #sadly kicks a rock when will EYE have a deep and mystical connection with a giant ancient cat :(#its not even that i want to interact with the main cast bc i dont really i just. wanna be in their position man #i think one of the reasons why voltron grabbed me so hard (among MANY) is how badly i wanted to do what the main characters did #i remember when i was first watching it while it was coming out i would CONSISTENTLY daydream about being launched into space #with a handful of other people and having to fight a war and grow up far away from home and all the suffocating stuff that came with it #and then coming back years later already solidly knowing who i am and being confident in that #so i'd actually be brave enough to be unapologetic about it. and i'd be found family with the people i went to space with also #that parts important #idk man just. i dont like saying i was abused when i was younger because i really dont think it was like that and it isnt even close to #what how people who have really been abused have had to go through #but sometimes i really do wonder. like now that im (mostly) out and able to review everything with an outside perspective #not even getting into the cult survivorism stuff this is JUST family dynamics im talking about here #bc that shit is a whole other can of worms #i think my parents were genuinely doing the best they could with the cards they were dealt but. jesus christ.#i would have given ANYTHING to be able to run away from all that. and throw magic cats into the equation? brother im GONE #anyway this tags ramble has derailed in a MAJOR way. tldr i wanted to be a paladin sooooo fuckign bad bro #like it actually makes me SICK how much i want a lion. red you are my forever girl even if only in my heart <///3 #i still do want to do all that out of principle but its not as desperate now i just really love space and really want a big kitty friend #winter speaks

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graveyarrdshift · 10 months ago

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the older i get, the more i hate my family

#one of the worst parts of living with an abusive family is #that only after a longer period of time you finally begin to realize and acknowledge how much they've been abusing you #Idk why trying to reject the thought of them as a bunch of abusers and fighting those thoughts would help me in any way #maybe i just thought i was the bad guy instead of them #or a bad person for hating my family #I remember that I used to believe that neglecting a kid and treating them like total shit was something “normal”#turns out it's not #funny how now my family paints me as a villain for standing up against them #It's so funny to hear them gossiping behind my back after every argument #They won't even admit that my father was a fucking bastard to me bc according to them - I should still respect him #he's dead (to me) but if he calls on my bday this month then I'll tell him everything I've always thought about him #sometimes i really want to take revenge on them #thanks for coming to my ted talk #should i tag this? idk #rambles

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shimmerluna · 8 months ago

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i do think there's probably something suspicious about the way everyone loves Ca$h and Quinni and their depth while essentially reducing Darren to their shared supporting character and/or the sassy black woman(/person in this case) stereotype, but I feel somewhat hypocritical bringing it up