#idk but I’m tired of feeling like this
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Can’t wait for the moment I won’t worry about my health anymore
#I honestly had enough#everytime I lil something weird about I panic#tomorrow is my MRI#I Hope they find the reason why am like this#everyone is sure it’s anxiety but even tho I never been diagnosed I know I’ve been dealing with anxiety since forever#maybe it did get worst but out of a sudden like this ??? it’s just so weird to me#except my health nothing makes me more anxious than I was last month or even last year#I feel like I’m even more at peace with what makes me anxious….#idk but I’m tired of feeling like this#i also hope whatever the answer will be that it’s not dangerous for my life#and that there’s a solution cause I’m going to go insane#the concert was great but I feel like it may have fucked up my body again I climb so many stairs cause I was at the balcony 😭#alex.txt
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idk what we’re all calling the concept of fiddlestan working together but i’m calling my version the portal partners AU 🙏🏼
#gave it a name bc i was kinda tired of calling it the Fidds and Stan Work Together on the Portal AU#it’s called portal partners bc they’re partners in fixing the portal partners in running the shack AND partners in life#ik i’m not the only one to think of an au where they start working together after ford goes missing#but i don’t see a lot of people really showing the older version of them ? i don’t think ?#like i’ve seen canon older fiddlestan but not older fiddlestan after working together for 30 years ? idk#also figured fidds would look different in a world where he doesn’t lose his mind in his 30s#🤷🏻♂️#gay old men#yay#stan looks and acts the same btw he just happens to also have a very longterm bf to be gay with#gravity falls took place before gay marriage was legal (jesus christ that’s crazy to think about) so that’s why i say very longterm bf#(this means ford would be back in time to attend their wedding tho so. best man ford real. fidd & ford may be sort-of-exes but it’s fine)#gravity falls#gravity falls au#fiddlestan#also… petition to start calling fiddlestan fiddley#bc fiddle(ford) + (stan)ley …. fiddley… u see the vision????#fiddley#🙂↕️🙏🏼#stanley pines#fiddleford mcgucket#gravity falls fanart#idk man i’m gonna tag the au too ig#portal partners au#gravity falls portal partners au#???#my art#(i guess? used a fidds base then redrew it with my changes so idk)#rystiart#sorry if someone’s done smthn similar bc i feel like this idea of them working together is pretty popular maybe 😭
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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU
i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo
(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)
ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3
#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep#no braincell rn#goodbye it is wine time#hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you#just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc#god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW#art2 and craft2#dnp#phanart#dan and phil#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#phinktober#punk edits irl come back to me please#i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin#idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO#actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc#OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME#good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i’m not retyping all of that#now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life
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Chat…. I haven’t drawn in 5ever… here’s some Postal Dudes…
#fades back into the Highschool Horrors Shadows#BUT SERIOUSLY I PROMISE IM STILL ALIVE#schools just been giving me the worst art block uhhggg#but this guy is fun to draw and I really liked the brush soo… IDK IDK I’m tired#art#my art#sketch#fanart#postal#postal dude#I don’t. feel like tagging which dudes they are
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“This Is A Bad Idea”
“I Don’t Care”
Uhh HAPPY VALENTINES DAY *throws guys kissing at you and runs away*
If you wanna see more of them I have a LOT on my Patreon. Uhhhh yeah bYE —
#I’m so tired of being afraid of sharing simple smooching#what’s some making out between two dudes in their mid 20’s?#they are down bad#*shakes them in a jar full of marbles*#kissing#smooching#make out#idk how else to tag this#leoichi#LeoSagi#they ARE ADULTS OKAY#(hate feeling like I need to defend myself before posting anything but it’s my art and my au and I can do what I want)#I hope ppl like this#I just really love how the arm and hand on Leo came out#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME
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So uh…. That pose, huh?
#Jeff absolutely ate#what an absolute icon#I love the narrator#never getting over that eyeliner#but yeah I know I’m definitely not the only one to have drawn him doing this pose#just because it’s so good#dare I say we are all based for doing so#I drew this yesterday but I’m just posting it now#because uhhhhhh#I do what I want I suppose#also don’t worry I’m not forgetting about the fun facts- I’m just really tired and I don’t feel like it yknow#I gotta collect some more and then I’ll come back with em#but yeah I had a cool idea for a bigger CC piece that I’m really excited to draw#so that’ll happen eventually#idk ive got a lot to work on so it might take a minute#but yeah there’s that#cinderella’s castle spoilers#cinderella’s castle#cinderellas castle#cinderellas castle spoilers#cc spoilers#starkid spoilers#Starkid#team starkid#the lands that are#the narrator#jeff blim#my art
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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Steve being indignant over the girls in Hawkins not being interested in Eddie and Eddie's like I mean, it's fine, I'm gay, I'm not interested in them, and Steve's like that's not the point! You're hot! What's wrong with them?
#steddie#Steddie headcanon#this feels unfinished but it was in my drafts so have it anyway lol#Steve x eddie#pizzaqueentxt#anyway then they move somewhere else and the girls are all over Eddie and Steve is like nope don’t like this either! 😂#does this even make sense??? I’m so tired#clearing out my drafts#also this is assuming girls don’t show interest in him which idk I’m sure some do but it doesn’t work if they do what am I sayinggggg ugh
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misa my love
#death note#misa amane#alcohol#i adore her i love her sm she’s perfect and i love her very much#i drew this at a ridiculous hour and i’m also writing this at a ridiculous hour and also i might even post this at a ridiculous hour so#that’s how it is#anyways i tried using thinner lines for once thicker lines like feel better to draw and shit they work better for my style i think but#i like thin lines too they’re just sneaker to me yeah they’re sneakier they like do things that thicker lines don’t and they feel different#w my pen even though they are just smaller idk they have vibes that are different anyways goodnight goodbye i’m tired
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Behind the visage.
#mob psycho 100#mp100#mp100 fanart#mob psycho fanart#mob psycho 100 fanart#shigeo kageyama#kageyama shigeo#my art#last art for a while cuz of upcoming exams#I got mixed feelings about this#I mean I did rush it but#idk maybe I’m just tired it’s 10:00 pm#STOP I EDITED THIS LIKE 2 TIMES SINCE I POSTED IT#the reposts will haunt me but it’s alrr >:]
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Seeing other aroace people who ship Radioapple is the best
It’s like, no matter which way you ship it, you get it. Like some deeper sense of understanding we all have?? Does that make sense?
#this is just me ranting a bit#idk how to explain this I’m a lil tired#like a deeper sense of community and understanding#and the freedom to explore how that relationship would work while trying to navigate our own feelings surround it??#I know that doesn’t specifically apply to every aroace but it’s something I see a lot#radioapple#appleradio#ship talk#text post#also applies to any other Alastor ship#I just personally only enjoy appleradio out of all of em
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So my group mates that worked on compositing thought it needed to be 34 seconds not 33 and didn’t check with the rest of us until after it was uploaded so I’m pretty sure we’re disqualified 😀 I’m gonna go lie down and pass out for the rest of time now
#i wamna pretend it’s not upsetting but yeah this is upsetting as fuck#I really thought we had a chance to do well with it#like not win but maybe top 25 or something#but I guess not!#it’s just frustrating because even if it’s ‘for the experience’ it srill feels like all that work went to waste#and idk why they didn’t double check?? i just assumed they weren’t dumb#i said over and over the title card was 3 seconds and the film was 30#but whatever#I’m tired
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do you actually view nonbinary people as non-binary or as binary people too scared to come out
this is a wild thing to ask someone who’s very openly not binary. like what even prompted you to send this? even if you didn’t know that i’m not binary trans, what have i said that would lead you to think i don’t believe in nonbinary people? is it just the fact that i’m a trans man and talk about being one on here? because sometimes it really feels like that’s all it takes for some of y’all to just assume i hate nonbinary people, as if those are mutually exclusive categories (which is ironically an exorsexist assumption in itself).
anyway, if it needed to be said, of course i view nonbinary people as nonbinary. it would be very silly of me to feel differently given that i’m not a binary trans person myself and that most of the trans people i’m close to in real life are nonbinary. i would strongly encourage you to ask yourself what it is about me that made you feel the need to ask me this in the first place.
#i am. so tired#anon hate#<- idc if it wasn’t meant as that or doesn’t seem that way to other people bc at this point? i’m done treating these as genuine questions#like this is what i mean when i talk about how frustrating it is to be a trans man with a complex gender#bc it really feels like other nonbinary people will just. see that you’re a man and assume not only that you’re not part of the community#but that you must be actively hostile toward it#idk. maybe i’m reading too much into this question but it feels shitty and i’m not gonna pretend it doesn’t
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For me the ‘canon homoerotic subtext’ between brick!Valjean and Javert is really more about the parallels between Javert and Eponine, who are explicitly set up as character foils.
Brick!Javert isn’t obsessed with Valjean like he is in adaptations. He’s not psychosexually obsessed with hunting him down; he really doesn’t seem to think of him as being any different than any other criminal—- he doesn’t think about Jean Valjean much at all until after Jean Valjean saves his life.
But after the barricades, Javert’s sudden weird desperate emotions about Jean Valjean are like a twisted mirror of his character foil Eponine’s weird desperate emotions for Marius.
Some guy takes pity on them, and extends them a bit of basic impersonal kindness— and they react by descending into this violently self-destructive suicidal admiration built on self-loathing. They’re both described as making themselves the “dogs” of Marius/Valjean, the dogs of people who barely remember they exist.
And anyway! I think there is potential to explore things there in analysis and fanfiction
#les mis#les mis letters#ANYWAY#this is why my post-seine fanfic is like that#and why i tag it so strangely#how do you tag ‘javert has whatever Eponine had. but for Jean Valjean’#but yeah I keep saying I’m gonna write a full length post about this parallel#but then I don’t#the Valjean/javert and Eponine/Marius parallels are real though#I feel like before I write and overlong masterpost on that#id have to put one together that’s just about the javert-Eponine parallels alone#and yeeg#so much to write#idk if this is coherent I’m typing late and tired 😂#I feel like this is why I often don’t feel the same way as other valvert fans tho
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my friends love me and find me delightful
#deity dialogue#affirmations#gonna like#reblog this when I start to doubt this#it’s almost always insecure bitch hours and I’m tired of it#I hate thinking my friends dislike or hate me like idk it’s unfair to them to do that#just ends up hurting everyone#I also love my friends and find them all to be delightful#I’m gonna go hang upside down for a bit#<- random thought hanging upside down seems fun#feel free to reblog this as a reminder for yourselves
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so because we have only three chapters left, I’ve decided that I’m going to wait for the official release instead of going through the leaks as I’ve been doing for… almost the past 2 years. I don’t want the leaks and the fandom discourse to ruin my last experience with jjk as a still ongoing manga… plus I thought it would be more fun and enjoyable this way... more special ig (I’m being so sappy ik) wish me luck guys!!
#Plus I want to know what it feels like to read a jjk chapter without the leakers’ wonky translation and shitty panels quality#also… I’m soooooo tired of the discourse I’m genuinely over it.#I’m trying really hard to avoid it and just enjoy the chapters#cause even if I had my own doubts (that expressed here) about certain things#they were more or less later addressed in the next couple of chapters#so at this point I’m like ok I still don’t know what to expect or how gege is going to tackle all of it.#I have more questions than answers regarding characters like sukuna yuuji or megumi.#yes I loved sukuna’s conclusion and no idk how certain his ending it is as everything about it felt quite vague and unclear.#so yes I’m happy but I’m also open to whatever gege has planned for the last three chapters…#and basically whatever. just you do you gege I really don’t know what to expect. AT ALL.#all I know is that I want to let gege finish his story so I could have a full picture in mind#I’m tired of reading and going through assumptions criticism about new released chapters#while knowing that there are still more (now just three) chapters left#this was basically my whole jjk fandom experience after EVERY new chapter “this is bad and doesn’t make sense” like…#the story is not even finished yet 😭#I just want gege to finish the manga and then we can talk about what went well or what went wrong… and all#but in the meantime I just want to enjoy the story for as long as I can#that’s all#jjk#personal
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