#Fuck my life I’m tired
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I’m sending this anonymously but this is NOT anon hate
You are such a good person, i think. Your latest post(as of 4:10pm Arizona, US time) spoke to me really hard. My father is a cop, in the united states, arizona, duh. And he used to be such a good person, he was a security guard and a damn good one too, and later in he became a prison guard because it paid better, and then he joined the police force.
I’d like to think that hes one of the good ones, and for the most part he is. A lot of my delinquent friends over the years who’ve had run-ins with him say that he gets them breaks, he takes care of them, hes a good cop. I’ve even seen body camera footage of him in the field and i’m proud to say that hes my dad. He calls out bad actors where he sees them, and he gets punished for it. He doesnt see the system or how his punishments are by design. And he continues turning in his cog, begrudgingly, and slightly out of time, but he thinks hes making a difference
Sorry for the ramble and essay, i just wanted to say that i really like your blog and i think you are a very nice human being. Thank you for sharing your perspective.
P.s. i’m totally basing an oc off of your outlook on security. You strike me as more of a superhero than a security guard.
-🦕 anon
Oh, that’s a super flattering take and a valuable perspective- so thank you! But I’m a gullible dumbass, and not even an incredibly smart or fit one- I just want people to be happy and safe. That’s all. And I don’t want to BE a cop, I’ve NEVER wanted to be a cop, but every time the request comes around I feel like I’m wearing down.
I keep wondering if I could help MORE in a position like that.
Probably like your dad did.
Here, people know they’re safe with me because I shut down the gunhappy jerks, but I don’t know how long it would take to truly make a difference in public security, or how many of my morals I’d have to compromise to get to that point
I feel objectively like a system so archaic and flawed can’t be changed from the inside, but another part of me says that you don’t need to change an entire system to make a difference where it counts
I believe that so many bad situations and life-changing moments can be diverted or changed by a single person in the right place at the right time- and I figure, if I trust myself to do the right thing and BE the right person, shouldn’t I do my best to put myself in those places?
But good intentions, roads to hell, you know? I don’t WANT to be a cop. But I want to be able to DO SOMETHING about the thinks I dislike seeing in conflicts. SOMEONE has to be willing to do that, right?
I’m not religious, you know? But the devil can be very convincing
#I don’t trust cops#I’ve met bad cops#but a lot of bad things have been done by people in systems of power willing to go against orders#And boy howdy am I good at going against orders#And I like people#I genuinely like people#The hero thing is very kind of you#But mostly I just like feeling like I can make things better#We all need to believe that we can make things better#idk#I’ve met shit cops#But ive also met shit guards#And here I am as a guard#stealing their place#so as long as I’m here#they can’t be#I outrank the bastards now#So they have no power#Is that a healthy five year plan#or do I need to talk to my therapist some more#Fuck my life I’m tired#Do you think your dad was a good person anon?#Do you think he made the world better?#Teablart#tagging for later
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idk as the days go by the urge to hang myself is getting stronger
#mentally tired#actually sad#depressing life#depressing shit#i'm sad#kinda depressing#actually bipolar#actually bpd#actually borderline#bipolar thoughts#mentally drained#actually mentally ill#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#mentally exhausted#mental illness#mental health#i’m going insane#bpd favorite person#bpd vent#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#bpd problems#bipolar things#bipolar mania#bipolardepression#bipolar disorder#i hate my existence#i hate it here#i hate this
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✧˖°.❀˖°
#aesthetic#lana del rey#coquette#this is what makes us girls#hell is a teenage girl#ldr#coney island baby#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#lust for life#just girly things#50s babydoll#lana is god#i love lana del rey#i’m just a girl#im just a girl#tumblr girls#uptown girls#girlhood#manic pixie dream girl#just girlboss things#this is a girlblog#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#girlblogging#my year of rest and relaxation#im tired of feeling like im fucking crazy#old hollywod glamour#old hollywood#lana del rey unreleased#i believe in unicorns#just girly posts
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Can’t wait for this shit to end
#depressing life#depressing shit#i want to diiieeee#i want to disappear#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw sui ideation#end it already#suic1de#mentally fucked#mentally exhausted#kill my thoughts#mental exhaustion#venting#vent#i’m so tired#i’m done
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phinktober day 11: ur fav AU
i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo
(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)
ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3
#soz copied caption from twt i have been drawing for 7 hours straight i need to drink water eat something take a piss and a shower and sleep#no braincell rn#goodbye it is wine time#hope yall like this idfk what people what these days other than ship art but im not doing that so sorry no knights fucking for you#just me making them look like me bc i’m a narcissist etc#god i am way too tired to be yapping rn i have no filter whatever ABYWAY HASHTAG DANIPHIW#art2 and craft2#dnp#phanart#dan and phil#daniel howell#amazingphil#dan howell#phil lester#phinktober#punk edits irl come back to me please#i’m missing a fkn hashtag i just know it whatever i don’t CARE im TIRED i have eaten nothing but half a jar of picked today i feel so goblin#idk why i tunnelvisioned w this piece it’s not even that good or detailed LMFAO#actually the tattoos were a BITCH and also made me sad bc of my whole failed tattooing career etc#OH MY GOD WHY AM I YAPPING SO MUCH SOMEONE EUTHANISE ME#good NIGHT !!!!!!#pickles not picked btw but i���m not retyping all of that#now i’m sad bc i’m out of pickles and it’s 10pm and everything is shut:( hate my stupid gay life
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resuming scheduled programing of 4am sketch dump
these are related images
why is it that every time I draw oscar it’s like the new softest thing I’ve drawn ever
I’ve already posted this but I still like it
Actually kayne jumpscare
Scheming
#cackles#malevolent#malevolent fanart#sketch dump#getting to season 4 in my relisten#fuck bedrock is hard the second time#I’m not supposed to feel feelings like this#malevolent podcast#oscar malevolent#what? mee?? the same john design over multiple drawings in a post???#john malevolent#I want to draw noel but I cannot for the life of me transfer what I see in my head to paper#like he is just. impossible#I don’t know I’ve tried like 4 times#rambling because I’m tired and hungry I’m going to go get cheese goodnight
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SPOILERS FOR BAD BATCH FINALE ‼️
and i guess i’ll just miss her even though she isn’t even really gone
#🎵 : Blue Hair - TV Girl#its something that makes me feel so maternal#watching omega grow up#i cannot explain it#thank you bad batch for an amazing adventure#thank you omega for becoming a huge part of my life#i love you my sweet little ray of sunshine#i’m so proud of the woman she is <3#low quality edit for a high quality gal#please ignore how fucking laggy the transitions are???#istg they’re fine on my camera roll#this took way too long for how simple it is 🥴#but i’m tired and this song is so hard to edit clips to :(#star wars#the bad batch#tbb spoilers#spoilers#the bad batch spoilers#bad batch spoilers#tbb s3 spoilers#bad batch#omega#video edit#star wars edit#cw flashing#cw flickering#tw flashing#tw flickering#the clone wars
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We’re dealing with a mold issue in our home, and I need help
(Images of some of the afflicted areas will be below the cut)
We got an inspection done which came out to about $600, and actual remediation could cost thousands. My partner’s parents aren’t helping with the cost, and I was laid off recently; so it’s basically entirely up to my partner cover it, which obviously has him reluctant to do anything about it.
I really need this shit gone. My health as you all know by now has already been deteriorating, and I wouldn’t be surprised if the mold is contributing if not worsening it all.
If you could donate to my kofi (linked here and in my pinned post) I’d really, really appreciate it. If you donate more than $10, I’ll draw or write for you in return (more $ = longer fic/more detailed art) if you want - just DM me whatever you want done.
#my life has just been a whirlwind of Bad Things for like a year now lol I’m so fucking tired bro#idk how to tag this that won’t attract bots#so please please please reblog#don’t just like it and keep scrolling#please#shut up crisa
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I know I keep asking this and you only answer when its anon but please please what is your opinion on Cross and a reference or full body comic. Please Anó I'm not trying to be bothersome but I'm balling by eyes out on your so few Cross drawings.
*Disintegrates*
I’m going to give you the benefit of the doubt and say you didn’t see this sign (refer to no.4 in that post please) and this sign (read the full post)
Whether someone is on Anon or not isn’t in the equation when I answer an ask, I answer asks that I can answer easily way more quickly cause I already have that answer with me on the ready, other asks I take some time for reasons that I am not obligated to share
If I happen to only answer your questions when you’re on Anon, it’s merely a coincidence and nothing more
I find it hilarious cause I literally just got a friend’s opinion on which design I should go for Cross’ jacket just a few minutes before I got this ask
I’m not some sort of machine that is able to bump out artworks or answers for asks as they come, have some fucking respect for my time and understand that when you send an ask, you’re talking to a human behind that fucking screen, and that doesn’t just go for me, but for every fucking blog on this hellsite
#it’s 7 am i’m not in the mood for this bullshit#and I read this while I’m at work too#cause y’know#i’m an adult that has responsibilities outside my online life yet somehow people can’t understand that#i find it wild how the only fandom that managed to break my very basic boundaries are the UT fandom#I’m not gonna be online for the rest of the day I’m so fucking frustrated and tired rn#maybe for the rest of the fucking week even#any and all Anons or off Anons asking for their shit to be answered will be immediately blocked moving forward#anothers ask
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the thing is I have no idea how to put it into words but dally loves about as hard as soda does. just in a very different, very specific kind of way. soda loves everyone at first glance until it’s proven a mistake and dally loves only a few specific people so much it kills him.
#dally winston#dallas winston#sodapop curtis#the outsiders#the outsiders musical#I’m so fucking tired rn someone explain this for me. it’s in the thing with Sylvia and how he talks to Johnny driving back from dairy queen#it’s in how dally has and would’ve hit ANYONE for talking to him how he did at the drive in but not Johnny. never Johnny#it’s in his delirium after the rumble (how he hits & slumps against the wall begging Johnny not to die)#it’s in calling the gang for help knowing he was going to die anyway because he’d already been shot#but he didn’t want to die alone so he called them so he wouldn’t have to#it’s in how the only thing he does honestly is working with horses.#it’s in ‘you’ll die of pneumonia before the cops ever find you’#i just ugh. the phrase ‘hood with a heart of gold’ embodies him so bad#johnny didn’t have anything but the gang who loved him unconditionally; dally didn’t feel like he had anything but johnny because for him#the gang’s love WAS conditional. or so it seems sometimes. he was an outsider among outsiders and you can tell by the way pony talks#about him in the book. they were all a little scared of him. he wasn’t *quite* the same as the rest. it might be unconditional if it came#down to it but dally hadn’t lived a life where he could risk it.#my post
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𝑾𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒍 ☆彡
#edward scissorhands#coquette#this is what makes us girls#aesthetic#hell is a teenage girl#ldr#lana del rey#lust for life#coney island baby#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#just girly things#my year of rest and relaxation#im tired of feeling like im fucking crazy#just girly posts#i’m just a girl#im just a girl#girly blog#cinnamon girl#tumblr girls#girlhood#just girlboss things#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#this is a girlblog#girlblogging
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FUCK THIS PLACE, FUCK EVERYTHING, FUCK EVERYONE, I HATE EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE OMG
#depressing life#depressing shit#i want to diiieeee#i want to disappear#sorry for being depressing#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw sui ideation#end it already#suic1de#mentally fucked#kill my thoughts#mentally exhausted#mental exhaustion#i’m so tired#i’m done#losing my mind#im losing it#i want to cvt
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It’s 3am and I’m trying (and failing) to sleep, but I just remembered this
So, yknow on how in episode 15 of Witchlight, and Gideon and Kremy dance together, how Mace and Richie have their arms in formation for a basic waltz, but don’t actually touch each other (despite sitting right next to each other)?
Well, in EoM, during cotillion, when Marius and Briggsy were paired together to dance for the first time, Andy and Richie absolutely did not hesitate before grabbing onto each other. And it’s hard to see from Rich’s end, since all you can really see is Andy’s arm, but that motherfucker had a GRIP. Like, you could see the fucking veins. Like, when I first watched that episode, I had glanced up to the top half of the screen, with Lethica explaining to Jericho how to hold her, and I just glance down and see Andy and Rich already in formation, and just the absolute confusion that must’ve been on my face when seeing Andy’s arm fucking tensing. Like bro. Why are you gripping so hard the fuck
#i am. very tired.#but this popped up into my head as I was dosing off#and my brain will not let me sleep until I post this#I’m sure I can watch the episode again tomorrow and post a screenshot of what I’m talking about here#but yeah#im eepy#also like on how Mikey was trying very hard not to touch Derek during that scene for some reason#before Derek basically made him bc it’d just look weird if one half was holding onto each other for dear fucking life#while the other half was just. miming.#assuming it was just Mikey being in character at that moment#anyway I am. going to bed.#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#edge of midnight
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DPXDC Prompt #70
Danny and Damian are twins and they are unfortunately forced to fight each other for title of heir at the age of 5. Danny dies after losing and Talia desperately throws him into the lazurus pits. He doesn’t come back out.
5 years later they throw a one Jason Todd into the pit and he also doesn’t come back. But Danny does now 10 years old but he has white hair and glowing green eyes. Oh wait it’s back to normal black hair and blue eyes now. Talia is majorly confused and she grabs both of her sons to take them to live with their Father and gives Damian the order to protect Danny from harm.
Jason wakes up in front of two kids one wearing a red cap and the other was goth as fuck. What the hell happened and how was he here?
I was basically wondering what would happen if Jason and Danny where thrown into the pits and turned on the portal at the same time and what if they swapped places.
#dp x dc prompt#dp x dc#dc x dp#danny fenton#danny phantom#danny and damian are twins#poor danny#writing prompt#Danny and Jason swap places#I kind of figured Danny wouldn’t be spared if he was just some random kid so hence twin au#The was I’ll handle character death is#is it described at all? If it goes into great detail than yes but if it’s just casually brought up by Danny then no#I’ve had a bad depression spiral lately and I know I need to look for a new job but I’m also so fucking tired of life you know?#My mental health is really bad rn lmao
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You know how disappointed I am that no one has made any great sage x young sage content yet like you look at that man and tell me that neither of em would participate in a good ol clone fucking session you would be goddamn wrong
#black myth wukong#I gotta do everything my fucking self#ain’t no one help me in this household#sometimes I’m too tired to cook bruh#sometimes I just wanna order takeout but no one’s sellin what I’m wantin#like did no one else see the potential for an amazing rough fuck session during that final boss fight???#the degradation kink woulda gone CRAZY#like lemme show you how the REAL sun wukong fucks lmao#imagine the insane rawdog backshots the previous life’s projection could give you#is no one gonna match my freak#I like a character I wanna see his ass get blown out crazy monkey style I cannot help this#back to the kitchen for me#mamas gotta cook#🧑🍳🔥
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the thesis of mick schumacher: an abridged version
dedicated to @princemick for their day of birth
Hero’s Death by Athene Marston / Little Women (dir. Greta Gerwig) / Are You Satisfied? by MARINA / The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver / Muslim Girlhood by Leila Chattis / Sáenz by Benjamin Alire
#sources for the poetry is under the cut. i am too tired to do the rest i’m sorry#also tumblr fucked the resolution of the pictures and i hate my life#mick schumacher#web weaving#f1
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