#Fuck my life I’m tired

[teaboot]

I’m sending this anonymously but this is NOT anon hate

You are such a good person, i think. Your latest post(as of 4:10pm Arizona, US time) spoke to me really hard. My father is a cop, in the united states, arizona, duh. And he used to be such a good person, he was a security guard and a damn good one too, and later in he became a prison guard because it paid better, and then he joined the police force.

I’d like to think that hes one of the good ones, and for the most part he is. A lot of my delinquent friends over the years who’ve had run-ins with him say that he gets them breaks, he takes care of them, hes a good cop. I’ve even seen body camera footage of him in the field and i’m proud to say that hes my dad. He calls out bad actors where he sees them, and he gets punished for it. He doesnt see the system or how his punishments are by design. And he continues turning in his cog, begrudgingly, and slightly out of time, but he thinks hes making a difference

Sorry for the ramble and essay, i just wanted to say that i really like your blog and i think you are a very nice human being. Thank you for sharing your perspective.

P.s. i’m totally basing an oc off of your outlook on security. You strike me as more of a superhero than a security guard.

-🦕 anon

Oh, that’s a super flattering take and a valuable perspective- so thank you! But I’m a gullible dumbass, and not even an incredibly smart or fit one- I just want people to be happy and safe. That’s all. And I don’t want to BE a cop, I’ve NEVER wanted to be a cop, but every time the request comes around I feel like I’m wearing down.

I keep wondering if I could help MORE in a position like that.

Probably like your dad did.

Here, people know they’re safe with me because I shut down the gunhappy jerks, but I don’t know how long it would take to truly make a difference in public security, or how many of my morals I’d have to compromise to get to that point

I feel objectively like a system so archaic and flawed can’t be changed from the inside, but another part of me says that you don’t need to change an entire system to make a difference where it counts

I believe that so many bad situations and life-changing moments can be diverted or changed by a single person in the right place at the right time- and I figure, if I trust myself to do the right thing and BE the right person, shouldn’t I do my best to put myself in those places?

But good intentions, roads to hell, you know? I don’t WANT to be a cop. But I want to be able to DO SOMETHING about the thinks I dislike seeing in conflicts. SOMEONE has to be willing to do that, right?

I’m not religious, you know? But the devil can be very convincing

[saddevilsworld]

idk as the days go by the urge to hang myself is getting stronger

[black-swan-ldr]

✧˖°.❀˖°

[prayingfordemise]

Can’t wait for this shit to end

[theythemmer]

phinktober day 11: ur fav AU

i dont rlly do AUs so i just drew them how i wish they would dress xo

(dan’s tats r carnations and snowdrops and phil’s r roses and honeysuckle. for no reason 🤗)

ALSO bonus version w makeup bc i couldn’t pick <3

[this-too-shall-bleed]

resuming scheduled programing of 4am sketch dump

these are related images

why is it that every time I draw oscar it’s like the new softest thing I’ve drawn ever

I’ve already posted this but I still like it

Actually kayne jumpscare

Scheming

[saved-room]

SPOILERS FOR BAD BATCH FINALE ‼️

and i guess i’ll just miss her even though she isn’t even really gone

[yeehawbvby]

We’re dealing with a mold issue in our home, and I need help

(Images of some of the afflicted areas will be below the cut)

We got an inspection done which came out to about $600, and actual remediation could cost thousands. My partner’s parents aren’t helping with the cost, and I was laid off recently; so it’s basically entirely up to my partner cover it, which obviously has him reluctant to do anything about it.

I really need this shit gone. My health as you all know by now has already been deteriorating, and I wouldn’t be surprised if the mold is contributing if not worsening it all.

If you could donate to my kofi (linked here and in my pinned post) I’d really, really appreciate it. If you donate more than $10, I’ll draw or write for you in return (more $ = longer fic/more detailed art) if you want - just DM me whatever you want done.

[signanothername]

I know I keep asking this and you only answer when its anon but please please what is your opinion on Cross and a reference or full body comic. Please Anó I'm not trying to be bothersome but I'm balling by eyes out on your so few Cross drawings.

*Disintegrates*

I’m going to give you the benefit of the doubt and say you didn’t see this sign (refer to no.4 in that post please) and this sign (read the full post)

Whether someone is on Anon or not isn’t in the equation when I answer an ask, I answer asks that I can answer easily way more quickly cause I already have that answer with me on the ready, other asks I take some time for reasons that I am not obligated to share

If I happen to only answer your questions when you’re on Anon, it’s merely a coincidence and nothing more

I find it hilarious cause I literally just got a friend’s opinion on which design I should go for Cross’ jacket just a few minutes before I got this ask

I’m not some sort of machine that is able to bump out artworks or answers for asks as they come, have some fucking respect for my time and understand that when you send an ask, you’re talking to a human behind that fucking screen, and that doesn’t just go for me, but for every fucking blog on this hellsite

[saddevilsworld]

the voices are getting loud. they keep yelling at me making me feel guilty and scared. i wish they would just leave me alone

[black-swan-ldr]

𝑾𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒑 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒏𝒈𝒕𝒍 ☆彡

[prayingfordemise]

FUCK THIS PLACE, FUCK EVERYTHING, FUCK EVERYONE, I HATE EVERYTHING. I JUST WANT TO FUCKING DIE OMG

[damthosefandoms]

the thing is I have no idea how to put it into words but dally loves about as hard as soda does. just in a very different, very specific kind of way. soda loves everyone at first glance until it’s proven a mistake and dally loves only a few specific people so much it kills him.

[luna-the-cretar]

It’s 3am and I’m trying (and failing) to sleep, but I just remembered this

So, yknow on how in episode 15 of Witchlight, and Gideon and Kremy dance together, how Mace and Richie have their arms in formation for a basic waltz, but don’t actually touch each other (despite sitting right next to each other)?

Well, in EoM, during cotillion, when Marius and Briggsy were paired together to dance for the first time, Andy and Richie absolutely did not hesitate before grabbing onto each other. And it’s hard to see from Rich’s end, since all you can really see is Andy’s arm, but that motherfucker had a GRIP. Like, you could see the fucking veins. Like, when I first watched that episode, I had glanced up to the top half of the screen, with Lethica explaining to Jericho how to hold her, and I just glance down and see Andy and Rich already in formation, and just the absolute confusion that must’ve been on my face when seeing Andy’s arm fucking tensing. Like bro. Why are you gripping so hard the fuck

[strvem3now]

Me when anything ೀ

(put a gun right to my head pls and don’t hesitate to pull the trigger)

[unforgivenemo]

Rant//

I get so sick of having to do it all.

If I want something it literally doesn’t get done right unless I do it.

Maybe I’m just being melodramatic, I don’t know.

I’m not entirely unhappy, but fuck is it exhausting being here.

//Rant over.