#i. feel . ummmm. not well
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truly hate how disproportionately it bothers me to witness ppl being factually Wrong about something but also knowing that trying to correct them would be both difficult and futile
#like i don't even know how to explain the feeling this gives me but it's soooo frustrating bc logically i'm like well#who even cares tbh. i know the truth/it is not my job to go around correcting ppl/the fact that other people are gullible is not my problem#but despite firmly knowing all of this it just irritates me SO MUCH#and it always has. bc i never learn <3#especially in contexts where it feels weirdly malicious (as in like...it's the same person over and over again w the same exact topic lmao)#u would rlly think this was about something super important but ummmm#it is not!!#well. not currently but this happens to me in multiple areas of life so i mean. the potential is there#nonsense rambling
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there is a powerful need inside of me to draw them but unfortunately i can't draw so i was suddenly compelled to create these instead (i have homework please save me)
here are the color palettes i associate with some of the main tma cast. the vibes called to me (ft. my awful finger handwriting)
do with them what you will — they just feel right to me (i haven't looked at any fan art yet besides like one or two drawings of john and maybe martin and melanie)
#idk why but gertrude just feels like three colors to me#no more & no less#GOSHH I WISH I COULD ART!!!!!! but alas i fear that if i try my mental images of them will disappear or change#tma#the magnus archives#tma john#tma martin#tma tim#tma elias#tma gertrude#tma daisy#jon and elias had odd numbers of colors (i made them messily the other day and reorganized today) so i couldnt organize theirs into rows#oh well!!! daisy's includes light grey btw - it is very close to white but i didnt feel like doing white because no reason#ummmm let me know how accurate this is?? i guess? yippee#upon further reflection i might modify daisy's. it's not meant to come across as soft but it kinda looks that way i dont know lol#i am not sure why i didn't include green in martin's cuz the letter M is very green to me#and he just seems like he'd be.. forest green lima green sage green#vaguely — maybe in his teacups or earrings or sweaters#tma no spoilers#tma.txt
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Hi, please show more of yourself instead of others
I really can't tell if this is sweet or not.
Sincerely, this website is all about reblogging. Like, that's the main thing you do on here. I want to support the people I follow and see on here, and I want my blog to show some diversity because that's what I find the most beautiful.
I really appreciate that you want to see me, genuinely! I'm sure this was meant as a tongue-in-cheek and cute way to ask me to post something right now, but I just feel a little... weird about the idea that I shouldn't be reblogging other people as much as I am. I post whenever I feel like it, and there is a full year's worth of stuff to go look at in my "it me" tag.
#asked and answered#no hard feelings at all#just ummmm please just appreciate the people i reblog as well thank you
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good morning my beautiful friendz and happy friday !! we have made it to the end of the week so give your hand a lil kiss and pat yourself on the back !! i hope you have a wonderful day and start to your weekend :3 ! ❤︎
#slow blinking at you all bc i love you#zoro visited me in my dreams last night but why did i feel like the one that was lost LOL there was sm going on#ren showed up too ! we were all over the place ?? and then they lowkey kept switching places o.o i was like ummmm#then like 3 mutuals were there but i am shy to say who LOL#also someone hacked my toombz in my dream o: naughty !!!#like this dream was jampacked !!#sighs bc i was cuddling with zoro + ren interchangeably on the couch and now i miss them :(#i’m going to a ren fair this weekend so ! i will be in and out of toombz ! i’m excited i haven’t gone since i was a little girl hehe#i hope you’re all doing okay <3 stay well + be kind (especially to yourselves)🥺🤍#₊˚⊹ ᰔ xoxo aims#ヾ( ˃ᴗ˂ )◞ — ✩ daily yap.
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#hi#i. feel . ummmm. not well#sorry this is so long. i just#i. had to#the black sails/yakuza meta that no one asked for#<- daddy issues edition#I THINK I NEED TO GO CRAZY GUYS..... I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE.........#LIKE. DO YOU UNDERSTAND#SHAKING YOU BY THE SHOULDERS#HRGHHHHHHHHHHH#ONCE AGAIN. REMINDER TO BLOCK THE BLACK SAILS/YAKUZA TAG BECAUSE I WILL KEEP MAKING VERY LONG POSTS WITH LOTS OF IMAGES !!!!#consider what this place has forced you to become.#since you made that commitment.#a slaveholder. a man forced to beg his peers to join him in battle#<- consider what this place has forced majima to become#A PATRIARCH.......#OK#WHATEVERRRR IM NORMAL WHATEVERRR
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oh wow that. thats it? well. alright kinda sucked ngl
#dav lb#oh well theres other games etc#i didnt find all the balls so i didnt get the secret cutscene lmao maybe ill figure that out laterrrrr#the last boss ummmm didnt really feel like a last boss! tbh!
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if they let me write big finish i'd totally do a boxset for yaz and vinder post-potd too
#they are SUCH a fun team#i feel like if flux had been longer we'd have seen more of the interactions vinder had with the doctor and#like#This#this situation#right here#but post-potd i'd just write some stuff for them with the doctor not really involved#just like vinder's family + yaz teamup#or just the two of them#just some alien shenanigans#yaz just being like thank god get me off this planettttttt#the most i'd involve the doctor would be like#14 calling her once like 'where are you youre late'#and yaz being like UMMMM#WELL NOT IN SPACE#NOT BEING SHOT AT#BE RIGHT THERE
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so funny to me how ppl on tumblr will read a post that says, within the post, SEVERAL times, “hey this isn’t super well-thought out discussion and shouldn’t be treated as such i’m just sharing an individual opinion and my word should not be taken as fact” and then refuse to understand that whether they agree or disagree with the op
#marzi speaks#before anyone asks this isn’t a reference to anything in particular. just a trend i’ve noticed here#someone will go ‘i’m kinda emotional rn so this post probably won’t be the most well-constructed i’m kinda just venting’#and then either be like ‘THIS OPINION IS THE ONLY CORRECT OPINION TO HAVE THANK YOU OP FOR BEING RIGHT ABOUT EVERYTHING AND TEACHING US’#or ‘UMMMM no fuck this. fuck you. this one sentence felt vaguely aggressive to me and therefore you are WRONG and HATEFUL’#‘and you need to apologize to me and everyone else bc you’re being a Shit Person’#like genuinely. i know this is the piss on the poor website but can we learn critical thinking. please#like we need to consider intended message. intended audience. and intended impact#if someone making a vent post on their blog with 20 followers uses highly emotional language#that is not them presenting a subjective argument as objective!#intended message: op is experiencing a negative feeling#intended audience: their 20 followers who know and understand that this is just someone expressing a frustration#intended impact: little to none. maybe receive comfort or validation#not every post made on the internet is someone giving a college lecture or a speech or even standing on a soapbox#it’s like hearing someone mutter to themselves in public and deciding that they were trying to teach a class#also not everyone who disagrees with you is trying to change your mind#that’s another thing i’ve noticed. many folks here view disagreements as a thing to be won and moralized. it’s kinda shit imo#anyways post done. funnily enough i feel the need to disclaim that this is not a smart mars post this is a ‘this thing annoys me’ mars post
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An underrated aspect of drawing 919 I forgot to mention in my last post: have you ever wondered why I have a tendency sometimes to draw the Wunsoc sweaters as somewhat large and baggy? I think it’s fun to imagine that they might grow into them, just as they’ll “grow into” their role in the Society :)
#this but also just to give myself a reason to draw baggier clothes which more used to and also just more interesting lol#nevermoor#nevermoor headcanons#you’ll see it more on mog and other shorter members of 919#other characters like cadence and hawthorne not so much#both bc they’re taller lol but also I feel like they’re more secure in / abt their place and role in wunsoc / nevermoor compared to others#like they’re both quite confident when it comes to their knacks and stuff#I think that in wundersmith mog mentions the uniform maybe being exactly her size ?#but sometimes making stuff up for the purpose of interesting character design is >>> canon lol#it’s not an exact science tho of how the sweaters fit. it’s different for everyone :) they all wear their uniforms differently#don’t even want to say I’ll make a 919 lineup soon bc I say that once a year and never get far but. I’ll make one in… the next 5yrs?? lol#I need to make at least like head turnarounds (sides / 3/4ths / front) for 919 and honestly lots of nevermoor#at least for myself so I can solidify their designs and draw them easier in the future#and perhaps from there I’ll move onto full body turnarounds or at least poses. who knows.#anyways ummmm. if you’ve read all this. here ⭐️.#I always love discussing nevermoor character design and sharing my own thoughts and hearing other ppls thoughts as well 👍
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im not ready for work drama all week. again.
#logbook#its just. always something.#winter gives us time to fuck around. and by fuck around i mean everybodys running their mouths instead of legs.#i keep failing the social interaction and conversations this month too which isnt helping.#and a tarot reading said that ppl saw me as stupid and underestimated me and then i had a convo that LITERALLY confirmed that. gos.#god*#at leas ti have lunch made and also uh. clean clothes.#and my new hoodies should arrive tmrw which i can then wear this week.#ummmm what else is good tho OH YES some good stuff has been happening at work.#i just feel out of sorts i guess.#but um. gc has been fun<3 i streamed a gsme today and plan to do so some more this week.#if i can figure out how to stream from steam i'll play other games#umm what else. . slowly making my bookshelves look more at home. keeping my suriving plants alive.#looked at places to rent today EWWWW kill me. but oh well.#did NOT finish my resume but i have this week to work on it. its fine. dont touch me.#i'm determined to be good and chill. and normal. and talk to friends and find good things and. yeah.#maybe this week i'll be brave and ask fav coworker if he wants to do smth sometime soon. .
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sorry my posts suck today i have a headache and im stressed about my doctors appiintment tomorrow and its making me stupid. in my brain
#.pdf#rd#worried about not being taken seriously when i say ive had these issues for like a year. cos ive never brought it up before because they-#-were so comparatively mild that i thought it was just chronic work stress manifesting as brief illness episodes. and i was embarrassed-#-about being so stressed out by my simple part-time flexible-schedule job. i thought it would be stupid to complain about something tjat-#-“happens to everyone” and that i had “no reason to be this stressed”#so now i have to go and be like ummmm. hi dr. im stupid and ummm 🥺 i know i said i was doing fine but i think i was wrong i sick now#which makes me feel like im making it the fuck up. like im a “healthy” 22 year old with normal bloodwork im scared shes gonna dismiss me-#-when i say that ive picked up on a symptom pattern characteristic of me/cfs and over the past 3 months its gotten so bad i can barely work#my mother also wants me to ask for a referral to a place that does POTS testing bcos i have some of those symptoms as well#and im concerned about going “heyy i know i was like fine last year but do you think i might have TWO entire chronic illnesses perhaps”#cos ive seen. so many stupid comments from doctors and nurses on reddit tiktok etc saying patients “like me” are faking/attention seeking#scary..#grrrrrrrr. what ever. idk just wish me luck i guess
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I AGREE its so crazy how zap gags weren't a thing.... like TTCC really popped off with that one! i understand TTR is moreso sticking closer to the way TTO was but WOW zap just feels so natural with a REALLY good mechanic that uses strategy in using squirt and its just so good.... also my favorite track
YEEEPP!! That's how I feel about it. Squirt and zap just mix well together. I also think the addition of an 8th gag track was also a good move, allowing for a nice rotation of combinations (like how lure-trap and throw-drop are together as a combo). And also its a nice even number. I also think it helps utilize squirt, idk just feels good to do in general. Of course, I don't really have anything to compare this to and it's just me speaking as a player of (currently) one server, so take what I say with a grain of salt.
It's my favorite too, zap warriors UNITE!!
#clemask#clemramble#this is also not me hating on tt r either#actually i probably dont have to space that out because this is going to appear in word search anyways but still#i know sometimes there's a little bit of competition (is that what youd call it)? between the two servers. i want it to be stated that#i do not care about server comp. play what you want. who cares. i think both servers have their pros and cons and finding value in what YOU#like is more important than which one is the “”best“”. I think TR does an amazing job of taking TTO and transforming it into something more#while also staying true to the original game. i love the fact it brings some of the old concepts that were originally scrapped or lost#i also like the toon events that they have. like there was the halloween one and if i believe correctly it had a parade in it?#SUPPPERR COOL. i shouldve atleast played a little during that time just to experience it. but to be fair during the school year my#playing in general is toned down a lot. im sure everyone reading this knows how it is#and obviously i like ttcc. it has mac and winn. i mean what who said that.theres a ghost in here....#and i can understand why people like or dont like each server. they all have pros and cons. but to me its like the two cakes image#sorry i felt the need to clarify bc i know im kindof exclusively a ttcc guy and me going 'ummmm well tt r doesnt have zap' might sound#like im hashtag hating but im not. tt r is awesome ok. i need to try it out one day.#i just really like zap as a gag. like anon stated i think it just really feels natural to the game#that water electric combo does wonders
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since ive been meeting gbf blogs again surely this means ill meet mhyk blogs too. right. surely.
#stardust speaking !#the woes of media which has source materials in jp only. and anime is months away still#hello neighbours(followers) can i force another twenty posts about akira on u (will be doing that anyway)#always so thankful to my friends who reads my posts no matter which blog im on thank u 4ever.................#oh i rmbrd what i wanted to talk about akira l8r. the kyukyurarin. but i also dont have a lot to say at this time#but that video..............doing things even tho ure alone......continuing walking even tho ure alone..........#akira whos alone when they arrive and akira whos going to feel lonely when they leave#love & loneliess#well not taking into account the thought that akiras ummmm not well. considering the car horn sfx during the talk w murr in 1.5#'a bouquet for u' is also. yknow#well im not going to use any of that either way. it just exists in my head sometimes for the artistic aesthethic ideas i wont write out
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Floyd x Creek shipper simply because of how funny it is . Floyd is genuinely a very kind and understanding person but then Creek enters the vicinity and Floyd has to physically restrain himself from saying something completely out of pocket about Creek's eyebrows and how he speaks . Asshole 4 lovebird and its not Creek who's the asshole
#GIVE ME ASSHOLE FLOYD NOW#HE'S SARCASTIC AND WITTY he just has sm care in his heart . please put him in a room w someone he feels little sympathy for#who in my head is . creek . like Floyd TRIES because hey theres !! good in everyone !! im sure his good is just REALLY well hidden#but creek is simply like a dickhead#starztalks#also parallels since ummmm . they were in similar situations but creek sold them out and floyd would NEVER dream of doing that#and begged Velvet to leave his brothers alone#so Creek cant pull the “you dont understand what it was like the kind of PRESSURE i was under” because YEAH HE DOES .#so now Creek has to think critically about himself ♡ and maybe be an acceptable dickhead#am I making sense here . am i just yapping off to nobody#I love talking to myself in tags god bless
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This is very random but. I think a lot about the name of my oc Rüß. It was originally just a stand-in name and was spelled "Russ." But I didn't want people to pronounce it "Ruh-ss" so I changed it to "Ruß" and then to "Rüß" bcs that's the way to pronounce it but it was also fun to use special characters. But then ended up at the same place I started: some people still won't know how to pronounce her name bcs the ü and ß 😭 I think my one friend called her "Rub" in her head for a while. But it is now eternally her name and I don't call her by her full name :)
#ugh and this german guy i knew#was all like ummmm ruß means soot in german so why is that her name 🤨#BCS I WANTED TO USE THE ESZETT OKAY I THOUGHT ITD BE FUN#little does everyone know she was named russ bcs i wanted a russian oc and couldnt think of a name instantly LOL#its so boring when you make ocs when you're older and you start becoming logical abt it#i used to look at lists of 'weird/unique kids name' when i would make ocs#<- and honestly its left me in such a difficult place 😭#bcs some of the names are cringe to me but theyre too stuck in my head to change ever#so sometimes they have full names but i just never call them thay#also last names. bane of my existence#but lmao rüß prob has the most well formed name bcs i made her when i was older#also i feel like ive changed the cyrillic spelling like 5 times at least#she is a woman of mystery!!!!#also that soot thing forced me to come up w a whole plot contrivance#but its fine bcs she's like the only oc where different names do have different connotations to her#so its a fun little lore bit#OKAY YEAH ANYWAYS take this random ramble#i miss my children#catie.rambling.txt
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this is such a stupid fucking thing to have my head wrapped up over. can i please be hit with hammers instead
#get a job get a life get a HOLD of yourself. god this is so fucking stupid. what are you doing. go out and kiss your boyfriend.#hm. maybe itd be helped if i just got out of the house a bit. lol. i feel my brain rotting what the fuck is happening to me. cry emoji.#getting sad over no longer identifying how i used to (bi trans guy) is soo stupid. get a grip. fuck.#well. not SAD exactly but like. god. it was an 'easier' label almost. like. ughhhhhhhhhhh. um.#not. reaaaallly. kinda. it was easier to EXPLAIN to other people than. ummm. im a guy. yep. but also like. yknow. a lesbian. ummmm. yeh#ughhhh#like. not trans masc. still like. yknow. a trans GUY. but. yknow. <- see it sounds so stupid like this. when i say it like this. ughhhhhhhh
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