#love & loneliess

[flovverworks]

since ive been meeting gbf blogs again surely this means ill meet mhyk blogs too. right. surely.

[bibsy]

researching lana once again and zeroing in on old songs and interviews. analyzing.

[aomori-division]

"the moon dances with me the way the sun never will"

Introduction

Hisui Meguno also know by his moniker Aphelios. Is a part time toystore clerk and violinist/dancer and the second memeber of Aomori division Howling moon

A mysterious youngman dressed in dark and colorful clothes, his appearance is very different from his aura of melancholy and sadness besides the bore look of his face noticed by the people who see him working on his adoptive father's toystore

He is always surrounded by a feeling of guilt and despite he never say it openly his goal in the DRB is related to certain person named "Kohaku"

Hisui is a short young man with brown complexion. His eyes are a reddish purple with eyebags under them and his hair is orange blonde with dyed pink tips until shoulders in a tousled bob, he has a bang that cover partially his left eye, something noticeable are the crack marks on a side of his face and that he has on all his body

Daily, Hisui dress a mix of pastel goth and emo fashion, his outfit consist of a dark purple off-shoulder shirt and a silver jacket, his lower body is covered by thig, ripped black jeans with different colorful belts in pink, lilac and turqouise and long boots to the knee. His accesories a black chocker decorated with a moon charm, he usually wear purple headphones

Some poeple who met his younger brother noticed that Hisui looks too much alike him, but Hisui's appearance is more gloomy and tired than Kohaku's

Aliases

"project white rose"

My little dolly

Sui nii (by Kohaku)

Sui (By Ruka and Aoi)

Mooncake (by Akai)

Biographical info

Gender-male

Age-24

Birthday-september 18th

Ethnicity-japanese/filipino

Hair colour-blonde orange with pink tips

Eye colour-reddish purple

Eight-147 cm/4'8

Star Sign-virgo

Piercings-lobes,tonge

Markings-marks that look like cracks in all the body, some track marks on the arms, needle marks in the wrists, tattoo of a crecent moon in the forehead

Family

Biológical father (desceased)

Biológical mother (desceased)

Adoptive father

biológical younger brother (estranged)

Adoptive younger sister

Boyfriend

Voiced by-96Neko (rapping and singing)

Fun facts

MC name: Aphelios

Occupation: Toystore clerk/violinist

Division: Aomori

Team: Howling Moon

Position:2nd member

Favorite food:strawberry mochi

Least favorite food:natto

Likes: toys (especially suffed toys), Orange juice, pastries, the moon, dancing, his new family, Akai, walking in the night, violin,his younger brother, fashion and make up,magic, books , butterflies, sleeping, visit candyshops

Dislikes: his health problems, depressive episodes, illegal experiment, ARCA prison's lab, Kohaku's hate towards him, remember he is not human anymore, the feel of guilt

Hypnosis microphone

Hisui's hypnosis microphone takes the form of a elegant ,black and purple ribbon mic with different dark pink roses around the support, but the support also has chains that surrounded Hisui

Hisui's speakers takes the form of a black wood violin surrounded by blue butterflies,the speaker is a circular speaker inside the violín and when he starts to rap the butterflies starts to fly

Hisui's rap ability is called guilty chains when he use his rap ability Hisui can manipulate the chains of his mic for tie or attack the opponents draining his own stamina, he just can use his ability one time for battle and just in one opponent

Hisui's rap themes are around things like the misery and sadness but also the guilt for anything, he raps about his own feelings of sadness or how he "is tired" but also mention the guilt, how he feels guilty for something in special. How he feels sad for too much things but also mention be grateful with his new family and lover, or his love towards his younger brother

Hisui also raps about his love for the night with references to the loneliess and the moon. But in his rap Hisui could talk about his hate towards certain group that broke him completely. How he never will to forgive them for all the damage they made him and for taked his humanity from him saying how he going to " make them feel my pain"

Personality

Aloof and lethargic, Hisui seems to be a serious person with a aura of melancholy and sadness around him. He acts nice but reserved with the toystore clients, talking just if them spoke him and out of that foccused on his own business. Hisuis is the type of person who can be see sleeping in anyplace with a calm look contrary to his gloomy usual or wandering just because he can do

But even with his gloomy and depressive episodes Hisui is surprisingly nice and empathic, understanding people's emotions and being able of helping them when he can. But ve also scolds them if it's neccesary or they made a mistake

With his family (adoptive father,sister and boyfriend) he acts more mischievous and a bit outgoing. Hisui smile and jokes more with them, acting teasingly but careful, loving his new family and being grateful with them. Despite it Hisui also could have moments where he feel a bit annoyed when Aoi,Akai and Ruka insist on take care of him during his depressive episodes or when he's having a bad moment with his health, that's because he sometimes think that he not deserve all the "warm and love" he has now due to his low self-esteem. In part for the experiments on him and the guilt for leave Kohaku, falling in depression when Hisui think how his beloved younger brother now hate him, but he trie (and fail) not show it when it happens

Trivia

Hisui can understand and speak tagal

Hisui plays violin as a job but also dances as hobby

When Hisui rap, something noticeable (besides the femenine sound of his voice) is that his almost always sounds sad and broken, like he were trying to not cry

He was the subject of the project "white rose" made by a lab owe by th ARCA prison. The experiment consisted of mix magic and science to modified a soul until make it "artifitial" but the experiment was a failure

The reason why Hisui has all his healt problems is because the group not had the soul magic to modified properly a soul, and the scientist had not enoughly knowledge for take care of him

Hisui need to take too much meds in form of pills and inyections, that leave him track marks

Sometimes during his depressive episodes he tried to mix his different meds and use them as drugs

He was noticed by a person from Avici syndycate to the experiment, but the truth is that person originally noticed Kohaku as the experiment subject. and Hisui taked willingly his place as the subject, that's the reason why he leave Kohaku

Like his younger brother Hisui like sweets but he prefer the fruity mochi (especially strawberry) and the pastries

He meet Felix Sachishi because Hisui often goes to his bakery

Hisui loves Kohaku until today but he is aware of how he hate him, something that hurts Hisui more

[nearyboo]

I think out of all the fiction I experienced in 2022 Umineko is the one that's left the most lasting impact. Specifically Ange's journey and how beautifully she goes from a suicidal teenager feeling alone, abused and abandoned by all the people she loved to a confident young woman no longer obsessed with discovering the truth but conveying the emotions she experienced on that journey. From being fixated on her dead family a situation she couldn't change no matter what she did to using her talent to influence the minds of children and leave a positive change in their lives. Like Battler and Maria did for her.

Being able to forgive her abusive mother figure. Being able to accept the deaths of her family and for the first time being able to move forward in her life after spending a lot of her youth and teen years wanting to die, only living on so she could find out the truth. But thanks to the alternate reality Battler created solely for her, so she could see her family again and teach her there's stuff far more important than the truth, like simply cherishing the memory of her loved ones even if they were inaccurate and false. being viewed with a childish naivete. Whether her memories made her view certain members of her family as more despicable or favourable than they really were. She should cherish them all the same since those memories will be with her until she dies even when her family isn't. As someone who's experienced deep loss over the last year it was so comforting reading a character who's life had been defined by the loss of her family and who had no way of knowing how to cope with it, gradually learn that there's so much more to her than her past trauma and that it's fine for her to keep on living without them. That as much as she loves them, she doesn't need them and she can create her own path in life.

But more than anything I love the conclusion she comes to in the end. Wanting to become an author and write stories for children and the next generation. To teach them all of the lessons she learned from her trauma and how she was able to overcome it. Not wanting any children to suffer like her and Maria did. Umineko is a story that is all about stories in general so having Ange who's the emotional heart of the series and the most important character in the ending decide to create her own stories just makes sense.

Also I'm a huge fan of the trope of characters leaving everything behind to start a new life. And Ange starting this new chapter in her life by giving up the Ushiromiya family fortune and her name along with it. Starting her new life as an author under a new name living by the sea in a log cabin. It's what she deserves! 😤

This alone would've been good enough as a conclusion but I'm so glad the epilogue of the series is also based around her. I like that we actually get to see her success as a fully grown adult who's survived and prospered into an renowned author. Hits more seeing what she's become and been able to achieve rather than only seeing her as a teenager.

Also her reunion with Battler is perfect! The main goal of the final arc is for Ange to accept her family's deaths and come to terms with the fact that she's never going to see them again so that she can finally move forward in her own life. So then her reuniting with Battler could've been seen as undermining or relinquishing her development. But the story handles it perfectly and in true Umineko fashion its more bittersweet than anything with Battler having amnesia from his head trauma and now no longer being able to see his old memories with Ange as his own anymore. It works as brilliant closure since Ange is able to vocalise the loneliess she felt to someone and Battler is able to see the healthy, splendid woman she's become just like he wanted even if it's through the eyes of another man. It also pays off the idea/theme which the story was pushing heavily that even if you think you're never going to see a loved one again, as long as you're alive the possibility is never zero.

[versegm]

Brand new to tumblr, entirely unsure about etiquette, not expecting any form of response (or even really for this to be read), and I have a feeling you would already know this given you literally wrote a book featuring Ereshkigal, but I read your post here and went and checked and the ETCSL translation of Inanna's Descent to the Netherworld has

(Then she asked:) "Who are you? I tell you from my heart to your heart, from my body to your body -- if you are gods, I will talk with you; if you are mortals, may a destiny be decreed for you."

which, while not quite "liver", still captures that essential loneliess haunting Ereshkigal and, in context of the rest of the narrative, manages much the same at highlighting the tragedy of that loneliness, given the gala-tura and the kur-ĝara she speaks to so imploringly are only there to trick her and return her arrogant, ever-conquering sister to prominence in the heavens while Ereshkigal herself remains abandoned below.

Honestly makes you wonder how Ereshkigal must have felt when she learned how many people had sought for and mourned Ishtar and yet not one seemed to offer a thought to her own indignity. I love my girl to death, and Seth Dickinson's banger about

But there is one thing she admires most about Inanna over all the other myths of katabasis. Inanna went to conquer.

lives rent-free in my head, but in the Descent my sympathies remain wholly with Ereshkigal. She didn't deserve this.

I LOVE ERESHKIGAL MAN. I REALLY DO.

[dragonsfromthemoon]

Your lastest post made me in my snowstrom feels, so if you allow me.

"Off in the distance, a wolf howled. The sound made her feel sad and lonely, but no less hungry."

I love to call my ships soulmates because i love the concept of physical and spiritual completion in each other, destined to be etc. however, the fact that snowstorm are soulmates and there is a "physical" (while metaphorical) in-text proof of their soulmatism makes scream. dany is exhausted and hungry, but still reacts to and feels the sadness and loneliess in the howl. and the fact that we know that Ghost never howls but still does it for jon (will he howl for me when i am dead? :(( ) and is dany who hears it from the other side of the world... just... holy moly

omg anon I understand you so much! Snowstorm makes me go so feral. They give me so much feelings and are EVERYTHING to me.

It's even more special when we know Ghost is a part of Jon. So when Dany hears the wolf howling, it's not a mere howl. She heard Jon's very soul and pain, even across the Narrow Sea.

GRRM even foreshadowed this moment:

Ghost sat on his haunches watching, silent as ever. Will he howl for me when I'm dead, as Bran's wolf howled when he fell? Jon wondered. [Jon VIII, ACOK]

It's beautiful, sad, intense, poetic. It's everything.

[fakirchan]

I’m 👀👀 about your thoughts on a tutu movie

After writing all this and looking back on it I realize I don't suggest much of an actual plot and more or less just what could've been and how it could've worked, I'll have to give actual plots for a possible movie some more thought lol

If you take it's basic concept, Princess Tutu is similar to Cardcaptor Sakura (you don't have to have seen it to understand, I'll explain) in the way that it's about a young girl suddenly being thrust into the position of a magical girl with the goal of retrieving something; for Sakura it's Clow cards, for Tutu it's Mytho's heart shards. After retrieving all of the cards and shards, respectfully, they both go against great forces.

Where I'm going with this - CCS had 2 movies IIRC, and they're set up in the way that you don't have to watch them to understand the show. They followed the same idea with the same characters but were one-off concepts and the events in the movies were not later mentioned in the show. This was also common for other anime movies at the time (90s-00s) too, many such examples of that. For CCS, the idea was that she just found an additional card that was not mentioned in the show. Basically what I'm getting at here is that they aren't incredibly canon but still exist nonetheless, and how canon they are can be debated

So my simple idea for a Princess Tutu movie is Tutu finding another random heart shard that isn't mentioned in the original anime itself. Given how things like curiosity are treated as emotions (and how Mytho has like.... multiple sad emotions returned to him i.e. loneliess and sorrow), there's lots of room for us to be creative with what heart shard she is after, since we aren't just limited to a single happy/angry/sad emotion basis. We can go wild with this one

Now if we were actually still in 02/03, in-between season 1 and season 2 would've been perfect for the movie to air. Season 2 actually aired relatively soon after the first season (IIRC season 1 ended on Nov. 08 2002 and season 2 began Nov. 15 2002 in Japan) so that's not a loooot of time but regardless, this would've been a good point for the movie because it marks the beginnng stages of the turning point for Ahiru and Fakir's relationship, and also marks the beginning stages of when we see Mytho's corruption / Raven Mytho). The movie could've had some additional bonding and funtiemz between Ahiru and Fakir - and perhaps some additional character development for them both / one of them or another chapter like Rue or Mytho himself (actually I just thought, the movie could use its time to create more relationships too, like fleshing out Rue and Fakir's relationship, which doesn't happen in the actual anime, etc so on and so forth)

Now for the actual plot... well, I confess I'm not entirely sure, lol. The anime is super creative and really goes in some unexpected directions (at least when I first watched it, I was NOT anticipating things like Fakir turning into a tree for a hot minute) so that also leaves a lot to the imagination and endless possibilities... I'm thinking maybe something unexpected, like how the final heart shards were in the town's own towers or how Tutu's amulet was a shard. Maybe a heart shard at the academy or some other location you wouldn't really think of (again just given PTUTU's directions, you can get super creative with this, I'm just trying to think here)

If you do read all of this and have an idea I would love to actually hear it lol. I'll have to add on when I think about an actual idea a little more ! I hope this was interesting to read

[0ymx]

isn't it weird?

how we used to hate being alone. it's scary.

now, we seek loneliess. it's safer.

how we used to get up early in the morning, because the day wasn't long enough.

now, we don't even want to open our eyes. and the night is never enough.

how we hated sleeping. our parents forcing us to sleep.

now we love sleeping. because it's the only way to escape reality.

how we liked sun, and couldn't sleep without any light on.

now we prefer rain, it gives us comfort. there's someone who's crying with us.

-

it's weird how things change when we grow up.

unknown

[skautism]

you ever think about how futurama is about free will and loneliness and oh god. ausuugghh. i’m showing my flgirlfriend futurama for the first time and i never really noticed before because i was. a fucking kid. but i can tell this was importsnt to like. my entire personalitu debloping. like since so like my friends have been like “i love that you’re weird and do what you want” and. i think the vonsisdent theke of free will was important to that. snd just. loneliess. me too. i love futurama i love that my love of it has evolved and i can appreciate boththe serious parts and the hahs more now that im older. matt groening i owe you my whole eprsonaityly.i love that ivr watched futurama since i was a kid. thanks mom

[achy-boo]

Akimistu

“Tsk..Why do you look at me like I’m about to do some crimes? Get out of my face and leave me alone”- Akimistu

— Profile

Akimistu- 5★

Title : Master of Eternal Cursed Nightmares

Path : Destruction

Combat Type : Quantum

Faction : None

Introduction : The older brother of Ryoichi and wanted criminal from unknown place. A man who desperately wants his little brother back unknowingly that he had inevitably cause his own flesh and blood to lose his memories.

— Story

Character Details : The older brother of Ryoichi and a wanted criminal from unknown place. He is the man who desperately wants his little brother back unfortunately never knowing about his inevitable part of his sunshine’s amnesia.

Character Story I : Akimistu has once a normal life like any normal kid. A caring mother, a stern father and a younger brother named Ryoichi. He foolishly thought that his life will continue this way..oh how wrong he is later on.

Character Story II : Every bad thing to Ryoichi make him more cold but protective of him. His family is falling apart due to his mother cheating on his father and birthed an affair baby. He hates it but he want to save Ryoichi from the abuse he have endure until one fateful day.

Character Story III : In Central Starskiff Haven, he was taking a stroll with Ryoichi and his father when suddenly Ryoichi ask him about their mother. Being the older brother, he answered Ryoichi and their father...in a fit of jealously and anger struck Ryoichi on the back of head with a metal pipe. The scene is chaotic...the screams, the shouts..all he remembers is holding Ryoichi's unconscious body, praying to whatever Aeon to save his little sunshine with teary eyes filled with desperation.

Character Story IV : Years have passed since the incident and Akimistu become a wanted criminal in Xianzhou Luofu after his father was arrested for crimes he commit. An cruel and heartless assassin with cold persona but deep down, he is still the same...the same older brother who only wants his younger brother back. Little did he know, that same younger brother remembers him and wanted the same thing: to be reunited once again.

— Ability

Basic ATK: Never Wake Up

Skill: Nightmare’s laughter

Ultimate: Eternal Darkness

Talent: Moonless Melody

Technique: Wrath of the Night

— Eidolons

1. Worthless Naivety

2.Moonless Melody’s sorrows

3. Peaceful Sleep

4.Songs of the sinned

5.Lullabies of Misery

6.Eternal Nightmares

— Character Lines

First Meeting : Hm? Who are you? Ah whatever. I’m Akimistu. Are we done now?

Greeting : Oh hello…Let’s get over with..No I’m not guiding you…find someone else

Parting : Farewell, may the dreams bring you happiness before the nightmares make its presence know

About Self - [Loneliess] : I always a loner, unable to help others due to…my ability. It’s always been like that since…my sunshine gone missing

About Self - [Nightmares] : Unlike other people, they had dreams but for me..I had nightmares…every time I sleep, I had nightmares but oddly enough…those nightmares give me peace and dreams..horror..

Chat - [Crystals and gems] : I love collecting crystals and gems…they always remind me of my sunshine…I hope..I can find him..

Hobbies : Stargazing and drawing is one of my hobbies…oh and play some music or instrument is my other hobbies

Annoyances : Noisy people who kept asking me about why I have my snake near me or ask me about something very personal…ugh…I hate people like them

Something to Share : Do you know that Ryoichi never really forgotten about me due to his amnesia? No? Hmph…well he must have not trust you enough to reveal that?

Knowledge : In our family, blood vow is more important and efficient than any old traditional vows. Blood vows are forever yet the vow can be either come true or unfinished

About [March 7th] : Her name sounds stupid…too noisy…so I just pretend she doesn’t exist but why is she staring at my waist, hips and muscles???

About [Ryoichi] : Ryoichi is the only sibling and family I had…without him, I go insane. I need him back…I..I want to make up for my sins..to redeem myself

About [Blade] : He kinda reminds me of a certain…person. No I am not saying anything else but I do hope that he will get his wish…

About [Alice] :Ryoichi’s friend? She is very interesting hell I even made a blood vow to keep her secret at bay. I do hope that she is free from that woman’s clutches…

About [Aristarkh] : The sleeping artist?? Ryoichi told me about him. But something tells me..that Aristarkh is not his real name. Ahah..Let see what his journey will lead and end

— Combat Lines

Battle Begins - Weakness Break : Go to sleep eternally

Battle Begins - Danger Alert : Huh? Do you have a death wish?

Turn Begins I : Aight…let’s go

Turn Begins II : Oh~? You want to experience the nightmares?

Turn Idling : Do you hear that? That’s the nightmares…being impatient for once..so hurry up!

Basic ATK : Go to sleep and never wake up!

Skill : Hear the laughter of the nightmares!

Hit by Light Attack : Weak. Did you have something better?

Hit by Heavy Attack : HAHA! That is what I am talking about!

Ultimate: Activate : The light has faded away...

Ultimate: Unleash : Come with me into this world...of eternal nightmares and darkness

Talent : Let the moonless melody put you to sleep!

Downed : No! Wait! Ryoichi…

Return to Battle : I can still redeem myself....

Health Recovery : The Nightmares appreciate it, my friend.

Technique : Come and feel that wraith of the night

Battle Won : Hmph. What an interesting battle…

Treasure Opening : Here..You can keep it

Successful Puzzle-Solving : Oh? So you like puzzles? Eheh..just like me

Enemy Target Found : Another poor soul and meal to the nightmares

Returning to Town : Let’s part ways. If you need me, you know what to do

@queen-of-twisted @yukii0nna @txemptress @fair-night-starry-tears

[partnerindestiny]

Shez had expected as much.

Arval's presence had been a hair-prickling ozone when present in her head, a metallic tang of burning and copper, and she a conduit barely able to hold it all. The absence thus had left her core empty, a quivering little child, until she'd regained her footing. And this - this Arval before her, a marvel of imagination - does not quite shock her to her core the same.

"Hey, wait. Can I try something?"

She's not emotionally adept - far from it - but she can taste the bitterness on their tone just as surely as if she'd said it herself.

( She would never blame them for it, but she is no stranger to powerlessness. What happened to Berling is proof. What happened to her mother is proof. In this, too, the act of loving and losing, they are more alike than she knows. )

She wriggles away from the wyvern, careful to keep herself still close to Arval. They don't emanate warmth, but she keeps them shoulder-to-shoulder just the same. Partners, right?

She holds out her hand, furrowing her brows. Splayed fingers grasp uselessly at the air, and then close around stone-metal, a blade too dull to cut and yet capable of carnage just the same. A stretch of her fingers, and it fades.

"That still works. I haven't tried it since you left."

Since you left is such a heavy thing, her life split in twain at such an odd point - the days before Arval, the end of loneliess, and the start of a new kind of profound isolation.

...so what do you do in this form? I can't imagine you with an axe in hand."

And, yeah, maybe she wants a demonstration. Can you blame a girl?

if i'm stuck, i'll call you.

[tottymatsuno]

I'm comparing and contrasting and once again have come to the conclusion that Todomatsu deserves more than anything in this world to find happiness.

Compared to his brother's Todomatsu had the most consistently idealistic view of marriage and children.

[chelseainwonderland]

It’s strange, isn’t it? How you can sit there at night, missing someone so much. Wishing they felt it too, but knowing that they are perfectly fine...Sleeping peacefully, or even thinking of someone else. Yet here you are, missing all the memories of them...

[only-trying-to-disappear]

The anger fills me

While I lay on the floor

The loneliness keep me up till 4

[fencycute11-blog]

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[growwithsandy]

A Story of a Girl

This is a story of love and friendship with childhood traumas. A girl who handles her traumas and goes away from love and become emotionless.

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