#i/me/myself/ical

[musicamogai]

[PT: i/me/myself/ical /end PT]

i/ME/MYSELF/iCAL

A gender connected to / related to the song i / me / myself; an i / me / myself musicagender.

(flag) credit: @pupawic

[feraltvman]

Puzzles… please… we don’t want to lose you. That’s why we came here in this… are we still in the punching bag? I don’t know this place is weird. REGARDLESS we all came here to check on you because we care about you! And Làcheria cares about you a whole lot, too! You’re it’s favorite person!

You’re not alone, Puzzles. We’ll be here. Just be patient. The power isn’t going anywhere, and neither are we.

TW: Self Destruction/Mutation

Ask from: @pine-n-stuff

Feat: @niranutcake

Ask from: @mage-ical-character-person

Ask from: @liliththequeenofdemon

" open up my heart just to STEP on it and crumble it to dust.... That's all S H E did. That's all they EVER DID!!! Why did I even think about listening to you all???!!!??? "

" I CAN ONLY TRUST MYSELF!!!! THIS POWER "

" IS ALL I HAVE "

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" He's throwing such a massive tantrum... It's making it so much more difficult to sedate him with my virus "

" you all... In the audience... If words will only make him collapse more.... Would you do me a favour... By me some time, and perhaps.... Force him down? "

" it will hurt... Indeed... However it is either that or I may not have time to put him back to bed "

-Virus @bidinonsense @alex-dolmatescu2-0

[exactile]

each of my URLs have an little story behind it.... indulge if you are interested

nauticalradical: i was really interested in sea life and noticed my powerful connection to water things at this time in my life. nautical beings were super cool, super rad, to me. the -ical endings together sounded nice to me

geocashier: my oc was a robot specifically programmed to be a retail worker, mostly put at the cashier. idk where the Geo came from, sounded cool

schizofunny: RECENTLY DIAGNOSED. play on the PH in -phrenia being the EF sound. trying to destigmatize schizophrenia being something scary for the people on the Other end of a schizophrenic person. also i was on a funny streak

puppymush: obsessed with results from google and youtube when you would search "puppy mush". aww so cutes small dogs eating solid food for the first time is always ridiculously endearing. allso dog fursona and Mush could be interpretted as another word for Gruel

horrorofthebeast: was just obsessed with saying this phrase to myself at the time and badass name

ipodtouch-free: virus laden ad love phase, but also a filler url for new account. a very short lived url i dont think anyone remembers

whitetippedtail: i made a lyric about a dog with a white tipped tail and had a lot of thinking about its symbolism to me, also short lived

spoolofthreat: play on words of the phrase "spool of thread", i made this phrase up when thinking of a new password i had to make for my work schedule login which requires us to make a brand new password every 3 months.

wolf1999loveatfirstbite: i've had this phrase bouncing around in my head during one of my "random phrases my brain is obsessed with repeating over and over again bc it sounds rlly nice". inspired by early internet username handles in which the number meant something like year of birth or favorite number. love at first bite should go without saying its a play on words of another phrase "love at first site" but its wolves and wolves love biting. wolves bc i like them

if you cared i love you, if you didnt care i love all haters for real. keep on truckin, haters <3

[queersrus]

OH MY GOD??? hi 🐦 silly !!!!

then could i please get names , pronouns ( 1st & 3rd ) and titles based off of the following drawings? you can pick & choose which ones you wanna do so please don't feel forced to do anythin'!

https://i.postimg.cc/1tnb0XFP/20240622-111341.jpg ( ac: @/chudokucha — primarily the left character but based off both of their vibes is good too :3 )

https://i.postimg.cc/zXS6F9yL/20240625-124743.jpg ( ac: @/bomal1215 — both characters )

https://i.postimg.cc/T3tsZgqf/20240625-124835.jpg ( ac: @/bomal1215 )

— @rwuffles

you got it ! so sorry this took a while!

image one:

names:

alabun, alabaster, alabastrine, arctic bunny/bunnie, blanc, blanch/blanche, blair/blaire, bianca, bianco, bronwen

cotton, cinnamon, cinnabun, cinnabon, cocoa, cloud, cream, choco, caramel, chili/chile/chilie ember

floppin, fluff ginger hazel ivory

kit lop, loppin nutmeg

pearl, pearly, pepper satin, silk, snow, snowy/snowie, sweetie, sorrel tawny, toast whit

1st p prns: i/me/my/mine/myself

bi/bune/bunny/bunine/bunnyself ci/coze/cozy/cozine/cozyself si/softe/softy/softine/softself sni/snuge/snuggly/snugline/snugglyself

3rd p prns: they/them/theirs/themself

bun/bunny, bun/buns, bunny/bunnys, bun/ny co/cozy, cozy/cozies, co/zy so/ft, so/soft, soft/softs, soft/softly, soft/softys, snu/snuggle, snug/gle, snug/snuggle, snuggle/snuggles, snuggle/snuggly

titles:

the soft one(s), the gentlest, the white rabbit, the cuddly, the cozy, the snuggly, the soft darling

*one who is soft, one who is cozy, one who is gentle, one who is loved, one who gives the warmest hugs

image two:

names:

afix, afixture, aid, arter, arterie/artery box, blu/blue/bleu, bp, bpm cotton(candy), candy/candi/candie, coated, cross doc, docta, doctor

jelly/jellie, jellybean lil, lillie/lilly medi, medic, medica

nurse objecti, organa

pulse, pill red skele, skeleta vibrant, vein

1st p prns: i/me/my/mine/myself

di/docte/docty/doctine/doctorself mi/mede/medy/medine/medself mi/me/medicy/medicine/medicinself(medicalself) ni/nure/nursy/nursine/nurseself

3rd p prns: they/them/their/themself

blue/cross do/doc, doc/tor, do/doctor, doc/doctor, doctor/doctors med/meds, med/medical, med/medicine, med/ical, med/icine, medical/procedure, medic/aid, med/medic, medic/medics nu/rse, nur/se, nu/nurse, nurse/nurses red/cross

titles:

the doctor, the nurse, the medical supplier, the medicare, the medical team, the medical objectsonas, the monitors, the living medkit, the living med equipment

*one who supplies medicaid/medicare, one who posseses medical supplies, one who consists of medical kits, one who is made from medical equipment

image three:

names:

amber, aero, aera, aqua citrus, cat, catty, clementine, cara, cyba, cyber, citrine digi exe, exie

fruit, fruti/fruiti/fruity, file jellybean, jaffa, jpeg kiti/kitti/kitty

mandarin, mouse, mew orange pond, pute, puta

splash, summer, sommer, surf teal, tangerine, tiger, tangelo, tide, tropic, tropica web, wave, wade, wire

1st p prns: i/me/my/mine/myself

aei/aere/aery/aerine/aeroself ci/cate/caty/catine/catself ci/citre/citry/citrine/citrusself fri/frute/fruty/frutigerine/frutigerself oi/ore/orangy/orangine/orangeself

3nd p prns: they/them/theirs/themself

aer/aero, aero/aeros ci/citrus, citrus/fruit frut/frutiger, frutiger/frutigers, frutiger/aero ora/orange, orange/oranges tropic/tropical web/core

titles:

the frutiger aero cat, the webcore cat, the orange tide, the orange loving cat, the refreshed page

*one who loves citrus fruit, one who adores frutiger aero, one made of orange slices and wires

*one can be replaced with any prns

[saskia-mae]

monthly reset

hi everyone! since it’s the end of the month, i thought i’d tell you what i do at the end of every month, to prepare for the new month :)

brain dump tasks for the month ahead

this includes any events I have, such as a party, someone's birthday, important deadlines or exam dates, as well as the revision I want to get done in the month.

organise my calendar

i use multiple calendars to keep myself organised. first, i use ical and a physical calendar for birthdays and parties/events. then I use google calendar to time block my week out, adding in when I'm at school, my morning routine, study sessions, workout sessions and my free time. to organise my revision, I have a separate monthly study planner from emmastudies.com that I fill out. i have this above my desk on my corkboard, which helps me to know what revision I have to do on any given day.

set goals

to do this i look at my yearly goals (which i have on my yearly notion page), and then i decide how my yearly goal can be broken down into an achievable yet challenging monthly goal. for example, one of my yearly goals this year is to learn german, so one of my recurring monthly goals is to do german on duolingo daily. as I'm doing my a levels this year, my german study isn't too intensive, but once I've sat my exams in the summer I'll increase how much I study german.

tidy my environment

to bring in the new month it's super important to have a clean and tidy environment. for me, this means clearing any clutter off my desk, vacuuming my bedroom, cleaning my windows, windowsill, mirror and makeup brushes. i also like to tidy my clothes shelves and make sure everything is folded nicely, as well as my underwear and socks in my drawers. don't forget to change your bedsheets as well!

self-care

my favourite thing to do is have an everything shower and do my skincare routine, so I can get into my nice fresh bed all clean :) I also love to go to bed a little bit earlier than I usually do, and read for a little while before going to sleep.

[helioshellion]

hello helioshelion.. i wonder what ur thoughts are on majima's (absence of) backstory up until age 20 and how u deal with it canon compliant-ically or in aus. i find it frustrating like everyone else but at the same time any kind of explanation people come up with to fill in the gaps doesnt land for me... i am unsure why. maybe becuase theres so little to go off so its basically entirely made up? or maybe because its not in the vein of his character? anyway i think you are the yakuza man so i would like to know what u think happened in that time. snake eyes is kind of narratively satisfying to me because patriarchs being father figure adjacent and imparting traits and shaping their subordinates is the closest thing to kind of. growing up i think?? that majimas story has. so having sagawa and shimanos influence transposed onto his actual developmental years actually feels like the most character accurate backstory to me even if it is removed from canon. (i dontknow very much sorry if i got anything wrong) butyeah anyway love ur models im like OH SHIT!!!! HES FUCKING MAKING!!!!!!!! ok thats it have a good daaaaayyy

I think what's important and vital to this narrative is for Majima to not be the central focus. Of course I believe the most interesting concept for Snake Eyes is Majima's exploration and coming into his own in a way that justifies who he is within what we DO know of his past, aka Y4 and 0. I believe it is within Dead Souls' cabaret where Majima tells the hostess that if he could go back to any time to redo things, it'd be 14, and therefore it's where I landed on a timeframe- the moment Majima meets Shimano. I believe Majima is at his best as a character who is reactive, but not focused on. He is entirely a character who is shaped by the people around him, both within the lore and within the meta itself, he is not the main character. He is swayed and changed by the events around him, with little to no control in changing this, because he is simply an NPC, and that's the small tragedy of Majima. A character who is so strongly tied to the idea of control, of shaping his own future, when really he has no agency, not within the narrative, not within the game. Anyways, that is the central focus on Snake Eyes. What kind of man Shimano Futoshi is, and by extension, what that says about Majima Goro as a boy. Is there any parallels I can make between the men Majima would later on follow in life and the man he swore his name to? I wrote earlier about agency, and that's something I think that's very important to Shimano's character as well. Present day, you wouldn't exactly compare Shimano to Kiryu, or Saejima, but that's what I find to be the most interesting thing to explore- if I can make a case that there are those similarities, what would change so drastically that Shimano would become the man you see in the series. Sagawa is merely a pawn in this exploration, just the same as he is a pawn in 0. I really enjoy connecting narrative within gameplay. Majima's a stone in the tide, I'd say, stuck on the bottom to be shaped over years and years and years.

So yeah! Snake Eyes is about Shimano, and how he changes the people around him, and how that changes him. Uroboros or whatever.

I think what's funny is that despite being the AU guy, I try to keep myself strictly to canon compliancy, and the things I do change I need to justify. Like me making the decision to have Sagawa be Yasuko Saejima's birth father. We knew her dad was an Omi man in Sotenbori, and that he was money focused. It was a loose comparison, but the idea of exploring that was so interesting to me. Yakuza is all about fatherhood sometimes, so why not.

Majima's character in Snake Eyes, again, meant to justify who he is later on, but also I do not want this idea of Majima being wholly good and brought into evil. I do not think it's black and white. There's something in Majima that was probably there long before Shimano, something that brought him to the point that men like him were to be followed. In the right light, even the worst actions can be seen as heroic, justified, admirable, especially to a kid. Kind of like Ichiban, I guess!

Another funny thing is that I tend to steer away from the idea of Majima needing a backstory. I believe how he is is perfectly suitable and fine for who he is. I do not want to see where he grew up, but I do like using implications to paint an idea of how and why he is who he is. It's sort of why I have an OC who exists as Majima's birth father in Snake Eyes, meant to sort of paint this all literally. Discarding this past for the sake of the role you are meant to play. Maybe it's a nihilist perspective, but I believe Snake Eyes is a nihilist's story. It's a perfect parallel for Forever Yours, an optimistic exploration of fatherhood and how that shapes a person.

This was a lot. hope you enjoy to read.

[silvercap]

Thanks for the tag @goodpointsandbadpoints!! :)

When did you start writing?

I have a notebook from when I was maybe... 5? with a story in it haha that actually was even whump before I redacted that part sjdjsds. Pretty much the second I learned to read and write I was obsessed with it lolol. Just always been an English major at heart smh 😭

It was very occasional when I was a kid, but I've had ongoing WIPs since middle school when I got a phone and could write them on the bus haha. Was mostly original stuff then, but there was a lot of it.

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

I'm uncertain what this question is asking exactly, but I don't think they differ? I tend to gravitate towards the hurt/comfort content and unfortunately have not read enough non-school novels lately to have a clear answer...

Is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

I don't think so! And lol I don't know if I've ever been compared to anyone either. I do like the punchy wry-smug-sarcastic character narration that was a staple in a lot of my favorite books as a teen, but I can't name anyone in specific haha.

Can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

Lol. It varies 🤷‍♀️ usually at my slightly-messy desk locked away in my room, but sometimes in bed on my phone 😭

I like to be comfortable, and I have a weird hang-up about people looking over my shoulder so I don't ever really relax and get into a flow if I'm out in public.

What's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

My brain is a hamster on an endless wheel so it just kinda... happens. I'll do something or say something or watch something or hell, talk about something, and suddenly there's just an idea to work with. Fragments, of course, but usually talking it over with someone helps shape it into something write-worthy.

Are there any recurring themes in your writing? Do they surprise you?

Hurt/comfort, for one; particularly unwavering physical comfort from a caretaker character to another that's just too out of it to even do anything for themself. I like that sort of hazy half-conscious headspace in any way it appears, so I guess maybe themes of consciousness...? Not choosing to delve into the hut/comfort part but something something taking care of someone who can't let anyone do it any other way. Rescue, protectiveness, body horror, loss of control/autonomy/clarity, etc. usually show up a lot too. Laughing even though things hurt/even though there's really no reason to be laughing. I've discovered that every character I write usually ends up having a very wry sense of humor/smiling when it's not really appropriate, at least until I determine whether or not it actually fits them as a character lol.

What is your reason for writing?

I would die if I didn't!

How do you want to be thought about by your readers?

I just want them to like it as much as I do. Do my best to convey the vision in my head as vividly as I can I guess, and I want them to think of me as someone who can do that... if that makes any sense at all. This is a hard question!

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

I think my technicality and syntax-ical (?) ability is definitely what I always work to improve, and I think I have a fairly decent understanding of the flow of writing. I think I'm also very creative!

How do you feel about your own writing?

It's pretty good. Could be better; not always my best work, but I have some good ideas in there that I really am proud of :)

When you write, are you influenced by what others might enjoy reading, or do you write purely for yourself, or a mix of both?

Usually it's just for myself I guess? Maybe for people I talk to, I sometimes do a little for them, but I don't think I'd write anything my heart wasn't already in haha.

Tagging @thebrandywine @fonulyn @colesabi @resident-rats @samblerambles @velkyr @sleeplesstories (I think you write...??? sorry if not sdhsdhs) @achingheart-gentlehands (same to you sdjsjds) and uhhhh I guess anyone else who wants to join in! No pressure and I apologize sincerely if I've forgotten you I promise it wasn't on purpose lolol

[jonahmagnus-research]

M.r Magnus I wish I could jsut call you Jonag

Can Icall you Jonah. I like that name its a nice first name. Fid you knownmy nqme isn't actually Lena? ait was origially spelled Leena like with two ees but my mum said brits wojldnt be able to pronoucne that righy so she changee it to Lena eith one e...I misst the oth3r pronounciation the way my dad usee to pronounce it it was better. Feltb more like me

Anyeqys thats nto what I wanted to say I wanted to say you're really nice to me and I ddon't know why!!!! And I want to be youe friend, for realsies...I don't knowww I don't have any other friebds I just can't cannlt connect with peiple. Thee way other people do. Thinkt ehe's somethkng wrong with my brain. Badly. But if I coule be friendw with anhone I would want it to eb you. And not just flr tve datq

Regafs,

Lens Kelly, Office if Incdient Assemsnet and Repsine

I—thank you, I like my name rather a lot too. Given I'm now open about it... I suppose there's no point to avoid saying that I chose it myself, and so I appreciate the compliment even more. You may call me Jonah, and I hope that I am in turn permitted to call you whichever version of your first name you would prefer to me to use? Your name—and especially the original spelling of it—is lovely as well.

As to why I am nice to you—well, I try to make a habit of being at least polite to most people until they've done something to grievously offend me, for one. But... I don't know. I recognise something in you that is also in me, the same as when I'd first met Jonathan. And, just the same, I feel... fond of you much quicker than I would for most others.

I would be happy to be your friend, I think.

[lavendelhummel]

20 Questions about writing 2.0

One year ago @lilolilyr tagged me in this ask game and I answered it. I thought it might be fun to take the questions again and see what has changed and what hasn’t (probably most of it), since this past year I have actually interacted with fandom and not just been shy in my corner. Here is what I said last year (it was a year and a week ago, okay, but this last week was interesting because I had something huge that kept me from writing the past few months happen the week before and I am now trying to recover and wrap my head about the fact that my life changed quite drastically), let’s see what I’m saying now:

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

16 ;) quite a few more than last years 7, but most of the new ones are one-shots, only one finished multichapter and one multichaptered WIP (Jump).

2. What’s your total ao3 word count?

209,412 words. Last year it was 125k and seeing as there are quite a few WIPs waiting in my folders for a while I thought I’d actually end up writing 100k words of fic this year, but seeing as I moved 4 times during that time and kind of finished a degree (hi I am a doctor now, someone remind me to delete this, I don’t want to doxx myself but need to repeat it so I can actually believe it), I think it’s kind of okay to only have written what I have and I am a it vexed that I did let this self-set number stress me in addition to the pretty big stress I had anyway. I think I wrote some nice things and certainly developed as a writer! (As well as as a… ah best not say it twice in one paragraph)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Last year I said Moiraine and Siuan from The Wheel of time here, which I wrote less for this past year but I’d still count, I have 1 1/2 wips for them and updated one of my fics in that fandom last spring. I also have one fic in the WoT verse with different characters (exciting)! I also said that I once wrote for I Care A Lot, and well, it’s still true that that was my entry to posting fic, but also I’m not going back (nope, not happening). This past year I wrote mostly Bering and Wells from Warehouse 13! That was great fun! I am also playing with a few ideas for Star Trek: deep space 9 at the moment, but haven’t yet written anything. 

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

 The first three are the same as last year (the I care a lot - one shot collection, Siuaraine medical school AU, other AU for them). The other two are the the first door for last years B&W advent calendar (coolest project ever, see below), and my coolest fic: mermaid B&W AU (only Helena is a mermaid. She arrives in Myka’s apartment above her bookstore via her old-new washing machine from Pete’s laundromat. Bathtubes are not very comfortable to live in.)

I should add that neither of these two has many kudos, none of my fics apart from hat ical one has, which shows that it’s extremely fandom dependent because that one is by far worse than my newer ones - just in a fandom with very little fic. 

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

YES! Why?! Because I like talking to people! And getting a comment is the best so I want to tell people that they are the best! Also I like talking and talking and try to make me shut up, it’s harder than you think! (Last year I had a screenshot for the weirdest comment I ever got here, from a guest who named themself „weird ass“ and said nothing but „tea snob“, I still don’t know if they meant me or Moiraine, so I asked them. So yeah I reply. Even to the weird asses)

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Most of what I write has a happy ending, yeah I am boring like that. But for Laundry Day, afore mentioned Mermaid AU, I left two possible endings, one in which Helena learns to live with what she’s lost, but it is clear that there is grief, that she is still a fish out of water and that while they make it work, it is not easy going. And then, because I wanted to wrap the mystery fantasy part up and needed the satisfaction of bundling up all loose threads I added an epilogue, a sugary, ‚happiest ending of them all’ epilogue… so yeah. Other than that I only have the one I mentioned last year about Helena dealing with her grief by reading Jacques Prévert’s poetry, which also ends on a soothing note but, I mean it’s Helena, and it’s Prévert. Let’s be honest, we all know why I absolutely adore Prévert, oh god, make me shut up now before I start (do you want to know which cool rare books of his I found?)

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Well. Happ*iest*. I did just mention that the epilogue of Laundry Day is the happiest ending of them all, right? I also think Pretty Picture has a pretty fluffy cozy ending (winter, go read it now ;)) ending. Flower crowns is just pure fluff, so that doesn’t count as *ending*, it’s just happy in its entirety. 

The medical school AU: would have been nice to get them all the way through it so they could celebrate at the end right? Though I had plans to make it go on after the ending of uni so Lan could come in and after a time jump the ef5 as well, so not the actual ending but a *moment*. Anyway that didn’t work out, and the ending they have is very nice and rather happy as well. Think about it, that is a much happier ending than I am feeling having actually finished medical school now (but let’s not talk about my inability to celebrate myself, nor my exhaustion). 

8. Do you get hate on fic?

I did already mention "weird ass", right? Yeah also mentioned last year how the very first comment I got was pretty discouraging. But I wouldn’t call it hate, no. I mostly get very, very, little reaction to my fics anyway, so missing the positive kind but not the negative kind. 

9. Do you write smut?

No. Not because I don’t like reading it, but because I am incapable of it. Sad, but it is what it is. I did get closer than ever, in Fly Me To The Moon! Everyone gasping, yes scandalous look how close I am alluding to it!!! But yeah, still nothing happening, if anyone ever wants to pick up where I left off, feel free, that’d be fun! (I also have a few other fade to black scenes, but this is *different*… kinkier? in a not on page happing way?) 

10. Do you write crossovers?

Nope, also don’t read them. It’s simply something that doesn’t interest me. 

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No. Or at least, not as far as I know. 

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No. My fics are not very well known, so someone wanting to base a work on it/translate would be surprising. 

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! One with @lilolilyr , which was super cool, but mostly we did the advent calendar last year!!!! That was super duper duper duper fun! Seriously guys, I enjoyed it so much and wish it had worked out again (I did have a cool idea for it, as I laid out on discord, but in the end it was simply not possible for me to do anything writing/fandom related (or basically anything but survive) in November and even now in December I do not know yet if I’ll be able to. Depends on how well this resting thing I’m trying out works, because at the moment my brain is still fried. Even writing this is giving me a headache right *sad emoji*)

But yes, writing that together was amazing.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I’ll just name the same ones, Moiraine/Siuan, Myka/Helena and recently I’ve come to like Kiradax, but that’s obviously not all-time material yet, since, well 'recently'. 

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but probably won’t?

Hmm, I do hope (and think!) I’ll finish all those that I once worked on seriously. Wait, the Helena reads Astrid Lindgren one, I’m not sure… There is also one super short Siuaine one, but that was never serious. 

Hm, maybe I also won’t make the Nyneave&Semirhage one??! I do hope so, but it is a bit out of my league… HMMM

Mostly there are some fun ideas that I thought I’d write, a lot actually, but what I seriously wanted to do was Siuraine Mermaid AU, and B&W MRI AU, and I don’t think they’ll happen, alongside a few others. But that’s life! 

Last year I mentioned the Uni-AU here, and I do consider that one finished now, not as I envisioned originally but it has an ending that makes sense and is an ending and I probably won’t write more (never say never). 

16. What are your writing strengths?

Urghh that question. Someone important (professionally, not personally to me) said „Why not simply believe in yourself?“ To me the other day. Well I couldn’t very well tell him about my incessant selfdoubt across a conference table with 3 other very important, and three somewhat less important people, watching, could I? So I will try this again and also try to say something else here than last year. 

…

@rinari7 said my dialogue feels alive! I think I am also able to get into the heads of people and write thought-strands pretty realistically. 

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I think those thought-strands sometimes can get too much, and I loose myself in them. In general my sentences are way too long, for that I blame Cicero, who was a very forming influence to twelve year old wannabe-writer me. 

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

 Haha. Yeah. Yeah. It’s good. We are talking other language than English right? I love making my characters speak French. I also love adding German puns. It’s what’s happening in my head! I’ve been thinking disturbingly much in English last year, but at the core that’s it, my brain is wired in Frallemand (Freutsch just doesn’t work, we all agree, right?) and I cut most of it out because I want other people to be able to read it but, speaking multiple languages is very normal for me. I have friends with whom I speak certain languages and others others, and who have yet others with each other. I am rather limited with only my three fluent ones, but only one? Yeah, no, that’s very unnatural to me. So I won’t overuse it in fic for the sake of readability but I do appreciate it when it comes my way.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

As I said I care a lot. You will notice that it was my first right away and… don’t maybe. I have nicer newer ones. 

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Ouhhhhh. Pretty picture? One of my most recent ones, so maybe I’m biased. 

Laundry day!!! Yes, that was incredible fun! 

I also want to mention the Prévert fic (The earth that spins and spins and spins) again because I still like it and not a lot of people did. 

And I also have a Siuaraine Mermaid fic and it’s fun and weird and thus my fav for that fandom (not even AU, somehow?!)  

I am just gonna go ahead and tag people even though I took this ask game out of its original setting: @lilolilyr if you want to reflect on the past year as well, @trollocks-in-my-bollocks @lakeofsilverpike @purlturtle @cozcat @onaperduamedee @anandabrat @thatordinaryoddity maybe you have fun with this, if not there obviously is no pressure to do it!

[raw-law]

Thoughts on musicals? I know you two aren't big fans of music, but I feel like musicals are a bit more than just that.

And, unrelated to the first question, if I wanted to, I would talk about The jar, but quite honestly, I think it's funnier if it's a mystery:3

-☾

L:

overall, i don't hate musicals, but i'm not fond of them either. they're just not my cup of tea.

some of them have stories that i really enjoy, like The Phantom of the Opera, but i only ever really care about the stories. i never pay much attention to the music. i think the only musical with songs that i've found myself drawn to was Les Misérables. now that i think about it, that musical has some of the only tunes that i'll hum to. "Master of the House" is probably my favorite. i quite liked it.

though i still prefer plays. i just think they're easier to latch onto.

and about the jar... what mystery is there to uncover, dear astro-non-ical? it's just a simple glass jar. no malicious intent unbeknownst to light-kun whatsoever.

and even if there was, he'd never have enough internet knowledge to figure it out. :)

Light:

I'll be honest with you. I've never actually watched a musical before---do you know how long those things are? I did want to, but I could never find time to watch it...

So I don't really have an opinion on it. Yet. I've heard of the more famous ones, like those Ryuzaki's mentioned, but not much. I just know their titles.

And, please. Tell. Me. About. The. Jar.

[aftonsparv-bugzz]

:33 < rant

:33 < being a system is just.... so scary. i constantly have mental breakdowns, idont permit "myself" to look at "me" in the mirror, idont know who "i"am because iam not me. its a group of people. it feels so insane, like im not real. people call me by my name in which idont realise iam me or at least supposed to be. ihave so much confusion in life, so much amnesia and unawareness, its crazy. i just want to be freed and alone. we dont particularly like each other either. icant stare at myself normally. i seem to have to have a mental breakdown. ifeel so out of place. so abnormal. the others themselves get scared. we barely know who we are. am i the host ? really ?? did the actual host go dormant years ago ?? i question this daily because it dosent seem like im the actual me more like a fake version, or a figment of the original. a place holder. yea sure, icall myself the original, but am i really ?? maybe buzy knows, but then again buzy also is a little.... much. shes trying to.... well idont really wanna say it so yea. she wouldnt exactly be of much help. maybe all the others named s ? imeannnn theyre kinda the same as buzy. and its not exactly like we talk to eachother. imean yea, our headspace is super boring, but we kinda enjoy being alone and dont talk to eachother so iguess. thats. alright. idont know im probably just gonna stop this

[simplestudentplanning]

Apps I Use For Uni

All are available in the App Store (not sure about Google Play)

Notion

mainly used for note-taking

Google Cal/iCal

deadlines, test dates, etc.

schedule study sessions

track personal appointments/events

Tweek (similar to TeuxDeux but free)

to-do list

Habitica

habit tracker, to-do list, and routine tracker but gamified (I use this when I feel like I’m not doing well so I can see myself “levelling-up” and “gaining experience points” and feel like I’m actually doing good in life)

Now Then

time tracker (Not really essential, but cool to see how much studying I do. It takes a while to get into the habit of tracking stuff.)

Flora

to prevent myself from constantly checking my phone (You can even “bet” money, so if you do get distracted on your phone, the money gets donated. It’s like an incentive to study and not get distracted so you don’t lose money.)

Spotify

study music

raining sounds for sleep

Knowt

free (and in my opinion, better) version of Quizlet (You can import your notes and have an AI automatically make flashcards for you. It saved me SO MUCH time making flashcards!)

[im-s0rry]

what would happen if all of your secret goobers played among us. what, you asked for silly question

That is a very silly question! Thanks Anon. I feel like I should list out what all of my characters would do in this situation...however...

*EMERGENCY MEETING!

Sketchit: SOMEONE -KLL- KILLED FREDDE-E!

*The crowd of peiple show their shock and grief at the loss of Fredde-E

Eyes: Well Ms Sk-e-3-etchit, I don't think we have enough evidence to say wh-o-0 would kill Fredde-E at this time...maybe we should ski-

Funn: YOU DID IT!!!!

*She points her claw arm at Hattyr

Hattyr: Wha-Me??? I was doin' the card swipe!!!

Funn: DON'T LIE TO ME! YOU'VE BEEN A SUSPECT THE MOMENT THIS GAME STARTED.

*Funn flashbacks to Hattyr bumping into her and spilling her tea

Eyes: FUNN! Funn, I kn-0-ow you don't like Mr Hattyr, but we shouldn't vote h-1-im out!

Funn: FINE! THEN I'LL JUST KILL HIM MYSELF!!!

Hattyr: OH I'LL SHOW YOU!!!

*Funn gets voted out before the two start brawling

Funn, from the void of space: YOU BI-

*The Game goes on, Sketchit and Eyes go to Electrical to do tasks, Sadedown goes to Medbay, Tumbal stays where he was at spawn, and Hattyr and Inkwel buddy up to go to Reactor.

Sketchit: Hmmm... everyone here is very -ssu- suspicious so far...I don't have any leads as to who the Imposter could -eb- be yet...

Eyes: yeah...m-e-3-e neither...should I really..?

Sketchit: Hmm?

*Eyes starts to grow lankier and his eyes sink into their sockets. His mouth breaks and reshapes into a twisted grin.

Sketchit: Snake...YOU WERE-

*Snake quickly kills Sketchit before she can say another word and vents away.

*Inkwel and Hattyr find the body, Hattyr reports it.

Hattyr: Me and the rabbit found the weird purple lady dead in Electrical.

Inkwel: Wait...wa n't yes with Sk tchi in Elect ical..?

Snake: 1 HAVEN'T S3EN 3Y3S AT ALL...

Hattyr: . . .Snake...when did you get here...?

Tumbal: ...I TRUST {There's a Snake in my boot!} ...HE DOS NOT GET IN THE WAY OF MY {Shot} ING...

Sadedown: YeAh...TuMbAl Is RiGhT...sNaKe Is InNoCeNt...

Hattyr: ....Alright...are we skippin' ?

Inkwel: Wait... ou were in Ca s, w rent you..? The e's a ven in th re...seems s spious...

Hattyr: Oh come on! I was figurin' out how the damned cameras worked. No way I could have-

*Hattyr was thrown off. Not the Imposter.

*Sadedown and Snake go to Admin while Inkwel goes to Navigations. Someone cut the air supply!

Sadedown: HuH..?

Snake: DON'T K3EP THE DEV1L WAITING, S1NNER...

Sadedown: WAIT NO-

*Snake swiftly kills Sadedown and pretends to fix the 02...The Imposter wins...

So, how was that? I felt in the mood to do some rp for an ask and I thought it was pretty fun. Hope you enjoyed this silly little answer, Anon.

[wendi-bnkywuv]

I don't believe in past lives, but I'm compelled to make up something because it offers an explanation!

I'm a psychological therianthrope. But recent posts on tumblr have been so triggering for me that I thought up something for my theriotype and why these things are so triggering.

The animals I identify are as follows.

Bonobo

Rhesus macaque

Gibbon (all species)

Capuchin monkey

Orangutan

Suminia (protomammal)

Darwinius (protoprimate)

Hybrid of all the above with human

So because I am so triggered by animal e*perimentation, especially when preformed on other primates, I had to come up with something, and this is what I came up with based on the reoccurring nightmares I have surrounding being these primates, or a hybridization of all of them.

I must have been used in some kind of really fucked up e*periments as my theriotypes. Cloned from a fossil and made to live out a life I was never meant for, in an environment I was never built for. I used this as a way to explain why I have such an urge and daydream of living out in the wild of a nearly alien planet Earth high in the canopy.

Being a bonobo, I was probably subject to sexual deprivation at some point. As you know for bonobos, sex isn't primarily about reproduction, but easing social tension, even by the very young which would be way under the legal limits in our society. I use this as a way to explain my autosexuality and autoromanticism, as I was left alone for much of my life without any sexual outlet except for myself. As bonobos can actually die from a lack of affection, I also speculate that I was put on pleasure blocking drugs before being subject to varying levels of pain and stress t*sts until I eventually died from the lack of pleasure, lack of affection, and the sheer levels of stress, only to be resurrected for another round. This is another one of my answers as to why I am so overly sensitive to stress and pain.

As a gibbon it seems I got punished a lot for my loud calls, eventually leading them to damage my vocal folds, or simply paralyze them when they were going to experiment on me, which is my therian hypothesis why when I get stressed beyond a certain point I cannot speak, and can barely scream, and feel deeply ashamed and even outright WRONG for speaking up or vocally expressing myself.

Capuchin monkeys are generally seen as cute and adorable by many. I seem to be in this situation where I was raised by someone who genuinely loved me and often had me look at myself in a mirror, baby talking me nearly constantly. I lived a pretty good life. She had a huge yard I could climb around in, and gave me plenty of enrichment and healthy monkey snacks. I was taken away and subject to t*ests that resulted in my face becoming horribly deformed beyond all recognition. This serves to explain why I dislike my face and often do not like looking at myself in mirrors, preferring circus mirrors or water, as it obscures my already obscure, deformed face.

Orangutans are covered in long hair, more so than many other primates. I speculate it must have been cut of shaved by the staff because I have to wear big, heavy, and often very fuzzy sweaters and pants even in hot weather, or else I feel completely naked.

Rhesus macaques are probably the most widely used primate in me*ical rese*arch. From many of my nightmares of this, I often know human language, and can even speak to certain extent. I am often put on all kinds of drugs and then told that I'm worthless, meaningless, and the like while being put through various stress t*sts and painful experiences. This acts as a way to explain why I am INCREDIBLY sensitive to substances, from cannabis to tea. Also an alternate as to why I experience dissociation from being made to feel like I don't matter, and no one really, actually cares, and why I feel the need to apologize for any little mistake I make even if I know it's not my fault. The drugs messed me up and then that happens.

However, I do see my theriotypes as all being part of a greater hybrid of all of these species, which is where the human part comes in. Maybe I was put here as a human to cover up their atrocities? As some sort bigger, more sadistic e*periment to see how I'd cope as a human with these memories and flashbacks? Or just a big accident from the hybridization? My becoming human I'd like to leave a mystery in all honesty, but these are some thoughts that have come to mind.

I really hope i don't trigger any readers, and if I do, I'm sorry. I needed to get this off my chest.

[lettucedloophole]

i never considered sex also being a social construct, and when you pointed that out, (ESP W THE USE OF DWORKINS QUOTE OMFG) it literally blew my mind, including the fact we don’t know what a society looks like outside of patriarchy. i’m having some trouble tho w homosexuality as a social construct. did you mean that in a way where the term and idea of homosexuality is a social construct bc all love is the same, and shouldn’t be classified as such bc of the fact we think its “different”?

also totally unrelated to the specific topic but still on the basis of radical feminism, how do you keep pushing? lately i’ve been feeling like its so hopeless bc i hardly see any significant change happening in the western world, one of the biggest examples is like how u said everyone wants to defend the status quo, and that contributes to my feelings of “im only one person i cant change it all by myself in my community and inspire others to do the same so i should just give up”. i know i won’t really be able to go back to how blissfully ignorant i once was :’) and that’s probably what keeps me from leaving rad feminism bc there’s just so much truth in it and i know i’d rather me and every other human in the world be liberated than give in and live a life with even more misery but there’s still times where i have those thoughts of complying and it just sucks. i gave up my skincare routine (now its just cleanser and moisturizer & the occasional sunscreen if might be out in the sun), makeup, fashion marketed towards women, porn, FANFICTION 😭, crushing on men, dating men, and even being friends w men. i didn’t give up my libido but it disappeared on its own bc of everything i continue to learn. i realize how deep misogyny is in our society and culture and just want to isolate myself from everyone. I CANT RUN FROM IT NO MATGER WHAT THO……💔

for homosexuality as a social construct; kind of. if sex is a social construct (i.e., the categories of male & female don't exist outside of society), it follows that sexuality is as well-- especially because the social construct of women & man are packaged with expectations of submission (to man), pregnancy, confinement to the home, and domination (of women), all but the last trait for women. in patriarchal mythos the class of people defined as "women" are supposed to be heterosexual, and the same goes for men.

the only context which heterosexuality exists in is under patriarchy, so it's impossible to untangle from bioessentialistic complementarianism. similarly, homosexuality is also a construct of patriarchy, albeit a positive subversion / defiance of the heterosexual structure of relationships. but when sex is eventually abolished, and men + women no longer exist, current classifications of sexuality will disintegrate with them. instead of 'man attracted to woman' or 'women attracted to other women', we will just have people liking people, & relationships formerly regarded as homosexual will no longer suffer a stigma compared to heterosexual ones.

if we argue that people are just "born" as heterosexual or gay without investigating what in society makes hetero or homosexuality so appealing or alien & disturbing (the patriarchy), we concede that homosexuals are naturally unnatural (in that, so little of the world is bisexual or gay or asexual under patriarchy, and this is not because of patriarchy, but "nature". therefore, the order of patriarchy is made acceptable through naturalization.)

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ANYWAYS, onto your more important question... resisting mental domination, as bell hooks put it. unfortunately this is the hardest thing to answer as i myself haven't even gotten it down yet :') i relate to what you're saying so much, and a lot of other radfems do, so know that you're not alone even if it feels that way.

if i could talk to myself when i first Rad(fem)icalized, i would say... don't be too hard on yourself. we're all suffering from a lifetime of gendered socialization which basically amounts to self harm for women 💀 i went Ham with the radfem stuffs, giving up makeup & sexualized fashion & shaving, and it was relatively easy for me since i was already quite gnc & angry lol, but.

while i think it's good to give up much of that stuff, the world's not gonna explode if you struggle or give yourself some exceptions. don't let up on anything that gets in the way of your personal/political liberation, at least not for a long time, but. don't let people online jerk you around or make you feel like you're a bimbo for wearing makeup or whatever. some internet terfs can be reallyyy misogynistic if you adhere to gender roles or. don't hate trans people.

when you feel angry, don't turn it inward. it's something women & gender minorities do way too much. if you're not comfortable expressing it, though i think expressing it "unhealthily' (screaming at someone, breaking a plate) is better than pointing it at yourself, find a healthy and / or productive way to release it. we are trying to avoid this aspect of female socialization ↓

it's also mega important to remember that... it's easy to think men don't understand the patriarchy, but they do. the thing is, though, they don't give women grace for struggling with sexist socialization and use it as "proof" that women are actually inferior. women who are aware of the patriarchy but have no faith in other women do this as well. have faith in other women. have faith in trans people. have faith in gay & bi people. their liberation is tantamount to your own. and i don't mean individual gender minorities who are assholes... just don't let those assholes make you lose faith in these groups as a whole.

honestly i feel like there's a lot more i could say but idk, don't want to bury you in words lol. feel free to send more asks or message me if there's anything i can elaborate on or help you with! or even if you just need someone to talk to. much love, anon :') 🫶

[horizon-verizon]

https://at.tumblr.com/thephantomcasebook/whats-your-thoughts-on-the-whole/ddjzpoup4qm3

This greenie seems very delusional. Like why would Grrm want helaemond to be canon in the show when he wrote by himself that Aemond never bothered saving helaena when the blacks have taken kingslanding despite he literally has the biggest dragons of that time? Why when the fandom were analysing the story of the dance that was in the Rouge Prince, the Princess And the Queen,and F&B through all of these years 2015,2017,2018,2019,2020,2021 Nobody literally notice any possibility of "tragic love story" between the two. No fanfic exist of this ship before the show. So I don't how greenis talk with this kind of confidence that this will happen. Also is even Grrm involved in the show atp? Was he ever?

The post in question:

I'd like to see these pre-production scripts myself, especially since GRRM said that he'd have less involvement in the show's final production:

But right now, Ryan Condal’s focus is on HOT D season two, and mine is on THE WINDS OF WINTER.

Like I want details. What exactly is GRRM consulting Condal on, and how much power does he really have to make them change a critical plot point versus what Condal thinks HBO will allow on runtime?

As for their confidence, since the language of how involved GRRM is just enough to satisfy some people's desire to see HotD as lore-ically factual, then they can run away with the feeling that things like AemondxHelaena will 100% happen. Me, it's more like could because I can see why they'd do it for the Aemond they constructed, but it's just as likely that it won't happen. Because of that vagueness. And at this point, I'm just there to watch this show burn and make sure that there is an understanding of how ridiculously prejudiced this show is and will be.

Because there is no reason why there should be a HelaenaxAemond storyline and one can only exist to buttress Show!Aemond with how whitewashed he is and his interaction with the older sex worker in episode 9 and how it foreshadows a particular characterization of Alys Rivers (HERE, HERE & HERE).