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allylikethecat · 9 months ago

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our timezones are NOT in alignment (booo timezones) so i ended up listening to ttpd first and THEN i read atkh!! the only thing ill say about ttpd is that but daddy i love him was a win in my books and watching the hateful swifties lose their minds over the fact that a lot of the album was ab matty was gold. ANYWAY

todays chapter omg the build up i’m so excited to see what’s next with george maybe (hopefully?) talking to matty and more tragic matty backstories!!?? i love how charli is like “u guys are so dense ofc yall would be perfect together” and omg carly being protective over matty is the best thing ever i just need to wrap him up in a blanket forever

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Hello My Dear Smoothie Anon!

Timezones really are the worst! Mixed with me not getting it together and posting the chapter during my lunch break like I said I wasn't going to do lol But alas I couldn't sleep last night and woke up late and was rushing to get to work a lot more than anticipated lol

I had a lot of very complicated feelings about the album - but you're right, I'm glad that But Daddy I Love Him was at least a middle finger to the "fans" who were so awful about Matty last year. In terms of the rest of the album, I hope he's actually doing alright like that US Weekly article said. That was like... the perfect PR move and I'm so glad that someone on his side got it together enough to make it happen.

Now on to ACTUAL important things (at least in my delusional world lol) Thank you SO MUCH for reading omg I'm so happy to hear that you enjoyed the new All the King's Horses chapter!! I love Fictional!Charli so much and was like I must find a way for her to be there again lol She just wants Fictional!George to be happy and she is fully convinced getting together with Fictional!Matty would make them BOTH very happy! Fictional!Carly is also very much looking out for Fictional!Matty- they grew up together, she knows what he went through with his mother when they were kids- and she knows a lot more about that situation with the jockey than she's sharing... Fictional!Matty keeps everyone at arms length, even her, and if fictional!George gets past those defenses she will NOT be letting him hurt Fictional!Matty.

Thank you so much for reading and for sending me this ask and just like being all around lovely? I love chatting with you here in the inbox! I hope your Friday was lovely and that you have a great weekend!

❤️Ally

#allylikethecat #ask ally #anon ask #keep it kind #fanfiction #matty fic #gatty #fanfic #all the king's horses #equestrian au #also sorry real quick on the album again because i say im not gonna get into it #but in addition to just not being wowed production wise #i think im just tired and sad of being sad?#i was SO SAD all last year #like mind crushingly sad all the time #because all kinda not great stuff was happening #and like i just dont want to be sad or listen to sad things anymore?#idk i know its not all happy but its at least still upbeat #but ive been listening to a lot of chappell roan lately and im like even the sad songs have some pizzazz so like i dont wanna curl up & cry #idk but like more important things: fic #thank you for reading!!#im glad you enjoyed the chapter!#i love this version of fictional!Matty and fictional!George so much

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mrmeepsmadmind · 2 months ago

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i love when ppl draw bumblebee like the happy little creachure he is but also i love when people draw bumblebee like he's had 500 beers in the last 1 hour and still the pain won't even ebb

#bonus when they do both by making him just utterly psychotic but he smiles so no one notices #i am a shameful idw bee enjoyer but like in the tired af ppl pleasing libra girl who needs a therapist so fking bad but #has 700000 billion duties and 900000000 billion expectations and mean bitches in his ear telling him hes stupid #sense #and not the he feels like an officer sense like no my queen is just a teachers pet doing her best which is her worst im afraid #anyways i love bee hes very indignant and a bitch but also im gonna stand beside her sorry #u do not understand how powerful it was to give him a cane . a literal crutch to hold onto to feel stronger even when ratchet says he doesnt #have to anymore but yet bee still insists bcs he doesnt have time for the repairs itll take when others cannot survive #and 2 it comforts him with support and also power and so he cradles it close with the idea of him being weak & needing smthing else #to make him strong #even tho at this point it's rlly just for comfort but he cant afford to allow himself to have comfort when others cant #or dont need it in his heroism ideals (specifically optimus being seen as so much stronger than him)#optimus also had bee tho. had him. but bee is so self conscious he just sees all his failures surrounding optimus & views himself not a #crutch to lean on but a crutch to optimus' character #he rlly needed rodimus and his fiery upbeat persona so they could fake it till they made it together and he left & fucking exploded #(in bees eyes)#like idk im just obsessed with this little tryhard loser #he islike a sad little clingy mother who refuses to think herself as human. she is just mother. lives off evrryones accomplishments #never her own #idk like hes so interesting tonme i want to kill him teehee #chew on him like sponge cak #bumblebee #transformers #tf bumblebee #tf idw #idw #tf #????#maccadam #i hate not knowing waht tag to use

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stiffyck · 2 months ago

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I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

#THERES LIKE. BARELY ANY.#IF I GET LUCKY ILL SEE AN ACE HEADCANON #BUT VERY RARELY DO I SEE ARO HEADCANONS #SOBBING #stiff talk #my favorite thing is thinking about how many characters i see as aromantic but then i go to the fandom tag or to that characters tag and #everyone is shipping them and theres like 2 posts total about that character being ace and 1 post about them being aroace #man im just a bit sad about all this dont mind me #yea yea i know the whole “if you wanna see something make it yourself” thing but see heres the thing: im tired #i just wanna be able to go through a tag and see people share similar ideas and headcanons without me having to make all the work myself #and i bet theres plenty other people who feel the same #and even if there is a character thats like. somewhat aroace coded in some way people still find a way to go “but then they fall in love”#and like yea have fun or whatever but i just idk it just feels very lonely sometimes yknow #miss the times when i didnt think about this so much #cuz now that im older and know that IM aspec its like. oh. i wanna see more characters like me! but theres like basically none #SORRY FOR THE RANT LMFAO #ignore this im just feeling silly

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starry-bi-sky · 9 months ago

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realizing i have. a lot of untapped trauma potential for clone^2 danny because i just Fully Processed Four Months Late the fact that his parents were capturing and torturing ghosts in the basement before he became Phantom. and the fact that he was on house rest for 2 weeks. during that time period. and he wasn't really leaving the house. he could hear their screaming through the floorboards

*points at clone danny* i can give you suuuuuuch a bad time babe ahaha. i've got two untouched years before you meet damian what fucks you up before then

#dpxdc #dp x dc #danny fenton is not the ghost king #dp x dc crossover #dpxdc crossover #dpdc #clone^2 #danny fenton is a clone #like i dont even need to traumatize you worse the pure explorative options from this aLONE is enough to feed me for a week.#like. tucks hair behind ear let me shatter you into glass pieces then glue you back together babe. i can put you back together so good.#i'm missing a few shards because some parts of you broke into such small pieces i couldn't pick them back up again so you'll be missing a #few chunks of yourself that you'll never get back but that's okay. you'll still be a resemblance of your old self :]#don't let anakin (me) listen to late night sad songs he makes angst.#hhh imagine being stuck in a house for two weeks where you can hear your parents torturing ghosts in the basement and not only that but #you're the only person who can undERSTAND the ghosts. how many times did he see his parents drag in a ghost with whatever capturing device #they made recently? iirc the thermos was like. brand new in episode one right? but gOD the trauma this alone would cause #nobody touch me im cooking rn i need to think about how this would impact danny. like obvs it would fuel into a developing obsession to #keep his parents away from ghosts and to help the dead but what *else.* i need to refine my becoming phantom ficlet i wrote back in winter #raaa #and like even after two weeks they were *still capturing ghosts* danny just wasn't in the house 24/7 at the time.#*but those two fucking weeks man*#i need to sleep on this first before i make any major moves bc i know im tired but i am having thOUGHTs

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kyonshi-8610 · 6 months ago

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since kiki and kaka are still learning the common tongue, i like to think that when one of them doesn't understand what someone else is saying in the common language, they give eachother the "look" and then the other explains it to them

#dungeon meshi fanart #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #kiki floke #kaka floke #kiki #kaka #namari #namari of kahka brud #im going to attend classes by the end of the month so im drawing while i still have a ton of free time #wanted to draw this yesterday but i just got back from rush hour n was really tired #i have a certain attachment to asian characters that have been abandoned by their birthparents (<- bc i relate a lot to it)#and i think that a lot of asian characters in dunmeshi don't have birth parents to be really interesting and also comforting in a way ig #its not that it's not sad it happens but i always felt alienated being part of the children that were left behind #my parents just dissapeared from my life and seeing how that impacts different characters in dunmeshi to be really neat #if that makes sense

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luck-of-the-drawings · 9 months ago

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smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little.#AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair.#AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother.#GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns.#he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales.#YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!!#you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound.#elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now.#this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

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j-esbian · 1 month ago

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maybe the real voltron was the friends we made along the way

#so i finished. feels like they did not put a lot of thought into shiro or hunk's epilogue lmfao #overall i dont think it was Bad. it could have been better yknow. but again. it feels like they just needed a little extra time to breathe #in development. it's just bones.#i do think perhaps some of the criticisms i have seen of it are just from people pissing on the poor #i could fix her!!! ough i really do want to rewrite this sdnfksjfd but that would unfortunately require. having to watch this again #and i cant do that in 24 hours #im so sad this is disappearing. this is the only show for which i ever stayed up for the midnight PST release #back when only season 1 and maybe 2? were out i used to watch them constantly. sometimes in spanish to practice #like i wouldnt have ever finished without the threat of it leaving but this is the worst timing to reawaken my affection for it lmao #grateful for it. wish i hadnt waited so long #i did need time to forget the insanity tho bc if i had made myself keep going and finish at the time #it would have poisoned the ending i think. nice to finally watch those last 4-5 episodes with a fresh perspective #but at the same time this is How Many Years ive missed out on being able to talk about it lmao #maybe there is a renaissance. idk i havent looked into it too much but i guess i should now huh #we'll see if things are any different or if it's just the same shit i got tired of the first time around #but anyway. the show is still fun and i enjoyed it for the most part. very sad to see it go #mine #voltron

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asklesbianonceler · 2 months ago

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✨𝒫𝒶𝓈𝓈𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒻𝓁𝒶𝓈𝒽𝑒𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉✨

#-opens my hand as if to present a treat but it is instead more sad Ymir art- 😊#I HAVE HAD THIS CONCEPT IN MY BRAIN FOR TOO LONG #TAKE IT AWAY #elden ring #count ymir #elden ring shadow of the erdtree #my work #elden ring dlc #shadow of the erdtree #elden ring sote #sote #elden ring art #elden ring fanart #ymir mother of fingers #manus metyr #ymir elden ring #count ymir elden ring #drawing the astrolabe? shockingly fun and rewarding #i think there are concepts here im just too tired to elucidate... theres stuff. im sure of it #-waves hands vaguely- you know its like. passing stars. starlight shards. passing on. are stars dead by the time the light reaches us?#joining the stars. being amongst them. being made of them. falling with them.#but maybe it's also like...paralleling the curtains and big stone basin bed in Marika's room #maybe its 3am and i need to go to sleep #ah but also the moon...

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ef-1 · 4 months ago

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#when i got hashtag sick i was in hospital and i was doing my regularly scheduled call with my dad #and i really had no plans of telling him bc ive done that before and its not like he can scare the MS away or anything #i dont know what happened. maybe because it was such a fucking bad episode. maybe because i was so tired. maybe it was a secret 3rd thing #but one minute was like fine then i just burst into tears and i was crying so hard which is MEGA EW BC IM NOT A CRIER LIKE THAT #and my dad freaked out and he was like whats wrong and i didnt wanna tell him but I also sounded insane bc i spontaneously started sobbing #and he was getting more alarmed and i was upset that id upset him and so i just spat it out i was like 'listen king'#'its no biggie but my body is trying to kill me again and im just a little sad atm' and he replied 'baba why wouldnt you tell me?'#and this man who has a very big serious job literally dropped everything and took a 20 hr flight over #and he genuinely just grabbed one of his work suitcase because he showed up with nothing but dress shirts and his laptop #and i think maybe it healed me a little. i mean it def also made me sad too but mostly healed me #and he'd been here for a couple of weeks and he left today and i feel shit about being sad about it #again because he has a very big and very serious job and i genuinely dont understand how he even just showed up like that #so I felt guilty throughout #anyway i dont think he drinks anymore but i was like king have a sip of wine with me and he did and it was lovely #and I hope I become my fathers daughter and not my mother's child. praying to both our gods #heres to healing ❤️‍🩹

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rosekasa · 2 months ago

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there is something so. intensely frustrating about feeling incapable of showing up for people the way that they want you to

#i wish people understood that it's so hard to be present in their lives and that closeness for me isnt about frequency of contact #but how open we feel during that contact #my brain is such a difficult place to live in it is so loud and so busy all the time #24 hours a day is a constant monologue and argument with myself for everything and it means that i just dont have the capacity to talk to #others most of the time #and like. i know this is so unreasonable. obviously we have to be present in the lives of people that care for us #but it just feels like every day i have to like. get on a stage and perform to every person in my life that cares about me so i can meet the #criteria of being a Good Friend or Good Girlfriend or Good Fan Artist or Good Mutual or Good Server Member #i feel like it is such a blessing to be seen by others as someone to expect things from #but as more people have started to love me it feels like i have to 'go out and perform' more and more and i am very exhausted #i wish i was someone that was easy to love and care for in the way that i am. and i dont mean that self deprecatingly it's just #i know im very hard to care about and love. because i disappear all the time and come back in a big flurry as soon as i get the energy back #and im just feeling it a Lot More lately because im starting to think this isnt going to be a short term thing i have to do before i start #feeling comfortable with a person #this is going to be my whole life #if i get married im going to have to 'go out and perform' and be a good wife and be affectionate and happy and not closed into my own brain #for days #if im going to make friends with colleagues I'll have to go out when they invite me and have to reply ro their texts and i cant just go #silent for weeks while i try to negotiate with my thoughts and then reappear once i make the slightest breakthrough #im very tired and sad. i want companionship but i feel like the kind of person i am is not fair for people who would be my companion #vent post #♡alizeh talks♡

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puppppppppy · 4 months ago

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guy who only asks questions if they feel insightful enough to be worth asking and only hangs out if there is smth to do together <- deeply uncomfortable of the idea of wasting someones time

#yes i was constantly accused of not paying attention for asking questions i didnt know someone already asked why do you ask #maybe it does sound a little sad when i put it as 'i feel most comfortable when i feel like im not wasting the other persons time'#but its more like i want the other person to feel like im putting thought or at least care into it even if i dont express it very well #its weird feeling like im not giving back enough in the conversation but not knowing why or being confused by the idea #of someone who just likes to listen to me talk and not waiting for their turn to speak like i do like. arent you tired of it yet>?#how are you not thinking of ways to get out of this conversation yet??? it fascinates me bc ill never understand it #i like how we are now talking abt not letting yourself feel like a burden for asking for help and letting people help you #but i am on the other side of the spectrum where i want to feel needed when we hang out or else i wont know how to let u know me #yapping #diary #I hate feeling like this cuz it feels like im coming up with new and creative ways to defend myself instead of being myself

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normal-thoughts-official · 7 months ago

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i get and agree with all the criticism on how fictional characters have been sanitized to never have any real flaws but if you think that flaws like selfishness are inherently more interesting and better written than flaws like low self esteem you're simply not as media literate as the sense of superiority you've developed to cope makes you think you are

#selfishness is as much a garden variety character flaw as 'insecurity' or whatever #and 99% of the time it's not interesting at all it's just 'ooh I've suffered so now I don't care'#and yeah 99% of the time insecurity is treated as 'my mom didn't say she was proud of me 🥺' but it can be fascinating too #like. i simply think that if you think good writing is good writing by virtue of its surface level character struggles #then you're not looking too deep into it lol #like im tired of ppl who have a sense of superiority for always being into the same white man with a vaguely sad backstory who sucks #ur blorbo type is just as cliche as the insecure crying white man bestie. perhaps even more so because insecurity in men IS stigmatized #whereas selfishness particularly in white men is actively encouraged in a capitalist society lol

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hezuart · 1 year ago

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YOOOO! HazbinHotel Trailer just Drop!😱 Spoilers Along with the Release date of Season 1 and 2! Let Us know your Opinion about it!😆

Some things we know:

Amazon Prime is the streaming service that took it up Season 1 will be released in January 2024

It's going to get a season 2

The voice actors still haven't been announced for some reason? The trailer has no dialogue on top of that. We see Lucifer, a lot of Alastor and Vox fighting, the weird demon-looking angel Adam, a meeting of Hell overlords discussing the angel threats, and Sir Pentious is part of the gang now. That's about it? The trailer's music reminds me of a Disney movie for kids. There are a lot of Tinkerbell chime noises and jazzy upbeat music which I don't think is fitting for what the show is trying to go for as a teen-to-adult plot regarding demons from Hell being murdered and dealing with abuse. (They have "Guess what, bitches?" on a text screen in the trailer too) So first impression is extreme overcrowding. List of characters that appear in the trailer alone: Charlie Alastor Vaggie Angel Dust Husker Niffty Sir Pentious Lucifer Lilith Vox Velvet Adam Rosie and we all know Cherri Bomb and Valentino are gonna show up too. These are way too many characters to introduce or juggle in an 8 episode season. There is no possible way to give our main characters enough screen time, focus, or development to make them meaningful protagonists. They either have to rush plots or drop character arcs to squeeze things into 8 episodes.