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Well he certiANLY COVERED THE HURTING CROWLEY BIT JUST FINE--
Hello Mr Gaiman. I’m not sure that you’ll answer this question but it least I can say that I’ve tried.
So I’ve been rewatching season 2 today and I noticed that there was no holy water during the battle in the bookshop. Aziraphale can’t make any water holy? Or is he too good to use it against demons?
Why would he have holy water in his bookshop? It could hurt Crowley.
#go2 spoilers#good omens#dont lynch me please#i love the series#season 2 was great#i swear im not angry i just have feels#and i cope with humor#anyway drink water#take pills you need#and eat something if you can
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me n moze say good morning to the world !!! ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
art by @rabbbitseason of course <3
#🐦⬛🐕 .#<-#hehe i took inspo from kai’s rb of my mb:>#MY FIRST MOEVIE COMM#this is queued#im asleep (at least i should be by the time this is posted) but it’s a mystery as to how i will fall asleep knowing i would have to#close my eyes and not actively stare at this for the rest of my life#full factory reset i really don’t know what i would even say to this 🥹 im just#things i would do for bitti : anything! i cannot think of something i wouldn’t do for her#i gave her the most cursed ref known to mankind and she came up with this im so 🥹 thank you so much … your art blows me away every time ….#i may pass out seeing him in your style … the way you did his hands and he’s so big#this is me -> ໒꒰ྀི o̴̶̷̤ ̯o̴̶̷̤ ꒱ྀི১ at this HSJDNCN aaaaaa 🥹#i will also state the very obvious and say that bitti is such a pleasure to work with ajsnxnkck ….. please im on my knees#when i saw this- my stomach literally flipped inside out and my ears were ringing .. and my heart was beating a million beats per second#if bitti’s comms were open for eternity & i won the lottery- i would commission so many mozes ….. the world would be full of bitti’s mozes.#^ though that sounds terrible for bitti … im so sorry#i swear that won’t happen i would never do that to you#he is sooooo yum in your style (severe & outrageous understatement)#but what i can do is stare at this all day#THANK YOU BITTI UEUEJJSJS 🥹🥹🥹 I HOPE UR PILLOWS R ALWAYS COLD !!!#not even aventurine’s shield can protect me from the 100000000 damage i took from this /pos#such a shield doesn’t exist in the hsr realm or the real world !!!#evie.ss#IM KIND OF ANGRY THAT I KNOW THERES NOTHING I CAN SAY TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL !!!!! WHAT COULD I SAY >:#WHAT AN ODD FEELING WHERE I AM reduced to my knees but from positive emotions alone …#im so dizzy /pos let me stop here this is already so long omg 🥹#edit: dude /gn my screen time is gonna skyrocket because im still staring with such a dopey smile on my face ahsndnxkc gosh im happy :’) th#thank you so much bitti …. this means so much to me#i literally can not put into words how much this has made my entire year :’)) im so soft im so happy
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>i join a server for systems
> the rules dictate what my littles can and cannot do "for their own safety because they're literally children"
> i leave
#'all alters under the age of 16 must stay in the section where cursing and topics with any sort of maturity are banner'#what if the 4 year old wants to talk about how she smokes weed to deal with panic attacks and help with insomnia#shes not actually physically 4 you know she can smoke weed#and she swears just as much as everyone else idk why shed have to be protected from adult language#like if your littles do thats fine but why would you assume ALL syskids follow that or feel comfortable following that#my littles feel they CANNOT EXPRESS THEMSELVES AT ALL if they are limited to disney channel appropriate content#and theyre not out here like. making dick jokes or anything but when they get angry they say fuck#and talk about gore and drugs and trauma#besides. i think at least half of the people in the world swear around their kids and they turned out fine#we learned to swear when were 10 and swore often to express ourself as a child#most parents ive met swear around their children. not at mind you just around.#like most parents wont. drop a carrot on a patch of cat fur on the floor. and then go to the other room to quietly mutter FUCK#and they shouldnt have to#irl children shouldnt be completely cut off from swears they should be taught the appropriate time to use them#idk im just sick of people providing syskids with literally less agency than they would an actual IRL child.
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Also just because you get annoyed by something someone is doing doesn't mean they are evil you can leave us alone
#this is about autistic people.#that guy in you class that is always asking questions? he always raises his hand theres nothing wrong with it#it takes time in the class but that's how he makes sure he understands the subject#and meanwhile every other student decides hes an asshole#that girl who doesnt blink and who cant seem to have a linear conversation is not doing anything wrong#you dont like interacting with her but that doesnt say anything about her you can leave her alone you dont have to bitch behind her back#that person cant read social cues? why are you getting mad? can you shut the fuck up?#it is insane how often some of my friends talk about people who are clearly autistic and are mad at them#no its not because theyre autistic theyre just always interupting!#its not because theyre autistic they just make me uncomfortable! PLEASE LISTEN TO YOURSELF#i swear youre all asshole to us#no respect fr#its so annoying to see you run in a circle trying to justify calling someone an ass for doing literally nothing wrong#youre allowed to feel how you want about other people but you always jump to bullying#and whenever i try to make them realize they get so deffensive#just because you grew up with an autistic brother does not make you a fucking expert youre not even close to him!!#ok sorry im gonna go hit my bong im getting too angry lol
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have to read an article for a class written by the same professor and i so desperately want to take a red pen and go to town because what the actual FUCK
#yes im aware were living in a postmodern society where we have to think about the words we use because nothing is neutral. please stop using#quotes for every word this is getting unreadable#also stop using the same words every sentence if you really have to make the same sentiment again go look at a thesaurus i bet you can find#some kind of synonym that isnt too obvious#also stop using “on the other hand” (translated lmao) when you didnt signify you were first talking about “the one hand” i dont know if its#grammatically incorrect to do it like this but it fucking feels like it!!!#also stop using those big words. like i know were in academical spheres and you have to use the correct words and stuff and you are allowed#to assume that other historians will know what youre talking about (to some degree!!) but please you can use normal words i swear youre#allowed to use words that people use in their daily life this shit is getting unreadable#atp im just hate reading#what do you mean it 40 pages#also. this man is gonna grade my paper???#snail speaks#snail is angry
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#coming to terms with the fact that ill probably not speak to my brother again until one of our parents funeral if this keeps up bc istg he#is being so fuckkkkking unreasonable and stubborn and just ;;;; there is no emoji for taking someone by the shoulders and shaking them or#putting your hands around their neck or some shit im just so fucking frustrated and tired of this and im just gonna force myself to not car#like im sad as fuck that apparently ill just. not have a fucking brother anymore. i fucking guess.#but im so FUCKING angry i cant even think about talking to him without feeling blood rush to my head i swear its fucking insane#whatever#fuck#soph txts#txt#i need to go to a junkyard and beat a car to shreds dean winchester style or smthn i think that would genuinely help
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same soup... different day
#hello it is sarah in the tags again#i feel like i tell myself i'll actually use this as a blog and then i forget and then i remember and then i forget again#venting ahead if that is not ur jam (talking to the 2 followers who actually see my posts)#i like tumblr because it;s so removed from my personal life that it feels really like a place i dont have to be anything for anyone#anyway i've been wondering if i should go back to therapy again but i feel like they might get tired of me because i keep bailing and comin#back like an addict lol like i swear i'll commit this time! sike. ghost be upon ye#anyway this time i'd come in for the big D#i don't like the floor it just feels closer to being six feet under and a bit like where i belong#i feel like a great number of things have happened in the past year and i've met all of it with a very lukewarm sense of dread and anxiety#its not even about feeling happy i dont even think i can feel shaken by anything. i feel like people see my apathy and think it's confidenc#anyway im not going back. they always say the same thing. can't do shit about shit life syndrome. and i don't want pills i'm so sick of the#isn't it something that i'm especially depressed the day before i start my new job? it's a tradition at this point. cheers#isn't it cruel that everyone in my life seem to put me on some kind of bizarre pedestal and no one questions my decisions or authority and#i battle with myself to figure out if i'm doing the right thing (no one will tell me the truth they are all scared of me getting angry)#was talking with a friend about how it'll be if i join their group project in a module we're taking soon.#and she's like well isn't it obvious? everyone will just listen to whatever you say and we'll end up doing well.#no one would challenge you because you're always right. and it's like.. yeah. i guess. okay. (hate that i know she's not wrong)#lol can u tell this is why house is kind of getting to me. learning lots of things about myself watching that man commit medical malpractic#anyway. i didn't ghost my therapist this time i remember now. she left the clinic lol she asked me to connect on linkedin. that was amusing#i always feel like the therapists here never know what to do with me and i kind of have to hold their hand a bit through my psyche#also they seem to be a bit at awe of me which is a bit annoying. and i know that definitely sounds like Issues but it's just like#ugh not you too. please stop i'm sick of it i'm sick with it. i don't want you to be inspired by my awful life and how i handled it#and i have nothing to say for it but... *gestures vaguely* of all of this
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why do people think im angry all the time 😭 im legit not an angry person and it's so frustrating that everyone acts like i am
#shut up sender#me: i am literally not angry right now#other person: wow calm down#like ok!! now im ACTUALLY angry because youre telling me to calm down when im trying to tell you my actual emotional state#and the cycle repeats again and again how do i deal with that#if people still act like this even though im constantly clarifying myself#repeating ''im not angry im not mad you didnt do anything wrong i swear im telling the truth'' like a broken record#just living my life having to constantly reassure people and nobody ever cares to ask how i actually feel 😭#sorry just needed to vent because im at a total loss idk what to do
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#i hate myself sometimes#i really fucking hate myself sometimes#i fucked up a relationship for my host and ill never het to exolain myself#he says hes not mad but i know he misses them and he got so fucking depressed over it#i keeo messing up i keep being so fucking mean#im always so fucking angry and scared all the time#i feel so fucking ugly and gross and just Bad#i dont like my body i dont like my face#i never have the energy to talk to people and it makes me such a bich#im always such a bitch to everyone#and i dont know how to stop#and i dont know if i can actually get better#fuck#i miss my friends#i dont know if they even think of me as friends at this point#because im always fucking gone#i never talk abouy my problems because i knowif i get upset ill be a dick again#i dont know how to stop#im trying i swear im trying#bit i act like my grandma i always have#and i dont know how to stopm#i hate how similiar wr are i hatebit i hate it i hate it#im the one who was there when she. did tha. to us#im the one who had to have that memory#im fhe one who felt it#andbi know its my hodts trauma too#but ive always felt ot ive always been the one who had to carry it#and im just#i do not think i am a good person#i do not know how to be a good person
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ok its 11 i can talk about this because it doesn't count (because its 11)
#daisy.txt#SOBBBBBB i wanna do something for benny byt im still in art block#i swear to fuck college is crushing my self confidence right now but ANYWAYSSS#icanttt i canttt i want to do something but i cant draw or write right now and finals are coming up in a few weeks too sobbb#i need to feel satisfied or ill have nightmares. no reason its just if i go to sleep in any way emotionally off my mind descends upon me#like an angry deity#🎰.benny
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#guess who fucking fried 3 very fucking expensive machines today. me. i did#bc a fucking cabled decided to burn out and there was only one little symptom so i switched out the sensor head and inadvertently fried#another instrument. then when i was wait. hang on wtf happened here? and i was trouble shooting. i fried another one. so im down to one#machine. fucking holy christ. one mother fucking cable. a problem i cant fucking control and then i just fucking spred the problem#god dammit. which means i either have to do 20 additional days or we cut the number of reps to 7 or 8#and because of this. ive Disrupted the plans of 4 different labs bc it takes at least 3 months for them to do calibration#ugh. i was so angry. whatever. its fine. these things happen in labs and u kinda just have to deal with it. i dont really feel bad on a#personal level bc ive been working with these things for like 4 years and if i mishandled the problem something was pretty fucked up#bc ive fixed a lot of fucking problems on those machines. bleh. and as im like simmering with rage my family is texting eachother like#yayyy vacation soon ☺️#ugh. its just so frustrating bc i onlu had like 7 days left and i could have got thru all 10 reps. its gonna b maddening on one machine#ans ill have to do more when i fucking get back from vacation when i want it fucking done now but whatever ive bought#my fucking plane tickets and i leave in less than 2 weeks. plus ill get to spend at least one day at home#god im gonna be such a fucking bummer tho. im gonna get of the plane and my fam will b like how r u? and im gonna b like not fucking great#i am barely a functional person and im sure ill b so stressed abt thr fact i have to come back here that ill b on edge the whole time bc#thsts what happened over winter break. whatever. next weekend ill b fucking outta here for like 11 days#and just a few more months until i can leave for good. never walk into thst fucking building again. not that i have anything ready for thst#move. bc again. im barely a functional person#god. now i have to fucking ask for thr stupid bottom of the chamber for this last machine. i swear to christ if i have to fucking drive#down to [redacted] i fucking dont even kno#unrelated
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Reprimanded at work in the gentlest way possible incident 600 dead 17000 injured
#i cried. 👎 but only 1 coworker saw and no one else noticed. 👍#oscillating wildly from embarassed to sad to soooo angry while keeping it cool on the outside is so exhausting#literally i feel like i didnt sleep at all now im so tired =_=#wish i wasnt this way tbh!!!!!!!!!!!!#ok. only a couple more hours of work 8)#feel like a picture of a crab holding its claws up in a threat pose like 'NO ONE MAKE ME FEEL ANY MORE EMOTIONS I SWEAR TO GOD'#damn i wish that cognitive behavioral therapy workbook worked ucigxihigx#i can see how its a funny concept to have someone be like 'hey could you not do this someone complained' and the person screaming and cryin#and throwing up but im just very tired of how my brain is#personable
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had some computer issues a bit ago, and my sis likes to make decisions about how everyone does stuff, and decided in helping me that she would also update my art software to the newest version without caring that i didnt want to do that. she was genuinely trying to be helpful and just doesnt know how unhappy i am with this
and i fucking hate it so muchhh, i dont care what qol updates there are bc i was nearly finished with important pieces, and now my entire program experience is shifted to the left and all of the same things i’ve been doing for 15+ years works fucking differently, which again, would be fine to adjust to if i had wanted it and wasn’t nearly finished with things that i need to actually look nice! i’ve honestly been super pissed about it this whole time and it’s taken any sense of joy or progress whenever i’m able to get 5 seconds in between everyone in my family having very serious illnesses every week DFUCK`
#FUCK LOL#ok i dont post like this ever i have just been sitting on this and i'm just at my breaking point with this#i'm so stressed nad things are so bad and i cant even draw for more than 5 mins without ragequitting bc we have to d oeverything her way#its like we arent all 20+ adults and she needs to make us live how she wants us to all the time afoijwaeofajwefoaijwOA;WEFJAW;EOFJAWEFJIAW#text posts#SWEARS ABUNCH MORE BC IM JUST DONE#tbd/#i didnt realize how angry i was about this bc ive been trying to be cool and get used to it#but rn i feel like i want to burst into tears#all i got is drawing do u have to try to micromanage that too Professoinal Artist???? huh??
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finding a neat looking sdv expansion mod only to see the new npcs it adds r just more white ppl
#smudgy.txt#i dont understand why anyone would think theyd need to add More whiteness to this game and#not understanding things makes me angry so now i hate that game#i got the diversity mod too n it was cool but the game at its core just feels so. white#and by white i mean boring as hell <3#sorry im being snippy bc im upset. i dont like it when i find smth that'd usually be right up my alley#only to realize it's not bc it is just Very obvious the that creators did not have someone like me in mind when they were creating it#it is a very Safe game which does not feel safe to Me#bc what's Safe is decided by people who either could never consider my existence or outright find my existence upsetting#maybe thats why things like DE & tgm feel comforting to me#they dont feel White in that specific way that Safer things tend to#......also maybe farming sims just arent my thing ADGFFSHDFH#BUT I SWEAR THEY WOULD BE IF THEY JUST BOTHERED TO BE COOL. LIKE CMON#LIKE HAVE SOME CATBOYS OR SOMETHING AT LEAST. JESUS#MAN if there were some sort of sim set in the lxh world. id die of pure peace of heart#peaceful & wholesome as h*ck. casual queerness & disability. AND it's got catboys. like COME. ON.#n ok sure there's only like 1 black character. but have u considered that shes cool as hell & i love her so so much
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Truly we can do both, we can acknowledge that this kid made a selfless choice while also condemning the same system that even allowed him to make it. if hearing that a child decided to help others when they should have been given the grace to be selfish makes you uncomfortable, great! it should! whats more, you should be upset that this young man is still working this table, and has a gofundme to assist with the costs, with updates as recent as last september and the homeless population where he is continues to rise.
if you want real actionable steps, contact your local politicians, not federal, im talking city officials, county officials, your school board. if you have the moxie, get in there and run, and if you dont- loudly support someone who can. donations and mutual aid can only work as a temporary measure, dont toss a dollar the same way you toss a ballot in and wipe your hands clean.
#sorry person i reblogged from. nothing against you i swear. im just tired of the positivity only thing.#thats not helping. thats how we got HERE.#shit needs to change and im dead tired of the pray it all works out mentality. im tired of centrists and liberals and leftists just#refusing to do any tangible work outside of what they need to feel morally superior. im dead tired of it all. im tired of seeing kids#leading the charge when they should be focused on school work and crushes. im tired of forcing these kids to grow up so damn fast.#thats what adults are for. thats what were here for. what good are we if we cant provide these kids with better lives.#get involved. mentor a kid. make flyers. fuck i know this is the mentally ill site but we can do shit about this#even if its tiny and all you can do is design prints for t shirts thats fucking something.#better than passing the same fucking 2 dollars around only to need to ask for it back in a week.#again sorry person im reblogging from i have fucking feelings about this and they leaked out. keep being positive. we do need that.#but we also need angry motherfuckers who will stand outside of city hall for 3 hours to talk to some guy to get cops to stop stealing#shit from homeless tents while the person living in it is at work TRYING to stop being homeless.
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people who are like "i never get so angry that i start fuming and stomping and yelling lol" no you're right, you just bottle it all up, never look at it, and then take shit out on everyone else and wonder why you're like this
#its the lack of attempt at emotional development for me#at least i actually feel and see my emotions. you're just trying to pretend you dont have any 🥴#you're right you channel your anger and feeling of being incapable of defending yourself into being a passive aggressive catty bitch who#likes to play mind games and fuck with your own and other peoples relationships.#all you know is manipulate project gaslight#'angry people abused me so im gonna pretend im Pure and Incapable Of Anger. A Sinful Emotion. no im totally not just stuffing#it down i swear i swear'#'no i swear my abusive tendencies towards others isnt my way of getting it out i swerr i swerr'#'i dont physically abuse see? so its different. thats surely the only way anger is released via abuse. is physical.'#'surely emotional abuse and manipulation or gaslighting or anything like that isnt just another form of releasing my anger'#'surely my controlling abusive tendencies isn't because i felt powerless as a child when i was abused so now im taking out all#my anger about being powerless and abused on to someone else and surely that emotion i feel during it isnt anger and vengeance. surely not'#'ive convinced myself i cant feel anger. angry people abused me remember? and im not like them so im not abusive and angry yknow#right? right???? right??????????? im not like my dad right????????????????????????'#'look at me trying so hard to be the opposite of my father- becoming more like him ironically just in a different direction'#suppressing your anger is just going to make you have a big outburst and hurt other people. you're not morally superior for ignoring it.#you fukkin' slug ass beetch#..iunno that just felt like the right insult in the moment lmao
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