#thats not helping. thats how we got HERE.

[max-the-many]

Very nice @fullfriendnerdclutch!

But I sure wasn't lazy myself.

Started off my week having brunch with my boy Jamie, which got quite the nice dude at that point.

I let him make a pic of me at the park later as I couldn't help but get topless to play with my current shape.

Propably it was this that got me hot for some more muscles, but it wasn't until wednesday when I texted Ryan to meet at the beach.

He brought another buddy along so we looked around fpr a nice trio.

Didn't take long to find the first two at the changing booths, both just entering. I took the one on the right, rushing into the booth, covering his mouth while sinking a shot into his hips.

"Can I..." someone whispered through the closed door which was Jamies buddy asking me to let him have this one.

Surprisingly I didn't take another one having a very good time with my boys, shooting a lot of pocs and of cause injoying eachother every now and then.

It wasn't until the evening when we strawled along the marina when I got interested with someone, disapearing between the small houses with me followed, just smiling back at my boys while doing so.

Even sent them a selfie as a treaser before I joined them again, beeing so horny that we dumped the plan on going to a club and headi g to the next hotel instead.

We even got a very nice addition as we headed for our room, leaving the elevator when this hunky latino got in. We hit in him hard.

Unfortunately he didn't respond very well.

Or bmaybe it was for the better as Ryan didn't wait long to give him a shot instead.

What else... ah ya! How could I forget the trip at the weekend! Jamie broad some amazing new cheeks, having them peak out of his dufflebag.

Yet he didn't want to show me more, pulling out another one, carefully trying to hide the other.

"Nice one!" I said when he got him on, and I meant it. But at that point, I couldn't help but be curious about the other one.

And he knew that! He just loves to keep me craving, to build up my longing for a look dispite us having had hundreds and hundreds at that point.

And he didn't disappoint, pulling out that second suit at a remote spot, a beatiful beach, giving me quite the show slowly slipping out of that other suit and into the hidden one.

What a weekend!

On sunday, when we got back at our place, Danny hit me up.

"Guess who got something nice for daddy" he teased me.

"Wanna see?"

Of cause I wanted. So I called him, beeing greeted by a stunning twink he turned just an hour ago

"Got him on a hookup! Want you to feel him so bad, daddy!"

I love when he talks to me like that. And I sure gave him the daddy he wanted.

It stayed on my mind even the day after that. Partly because I really miss to fool around with him for realy, partly because that smooth gym-guy I wore didn't really satisfy my daddy-needs fully.

But I didn't realize that before I saw that officer checking a guy along the road I took to get to a friend.

I instantly pulled over and Ryan didn't even ask as the guy standing besides the officer didn't look that shabby either.

We waited for them to finish before I approached the officer in his car. As soon as he was distracted I pushed a shot into his biceps.

When I looked up Ryan was already in the car of the other one.

Of cause I send a picture to Danny as soon as I was dressed.

"Hmm, daddy! Officer! I was such a naughty boy" Danny replied.

"I already slipped into something more... beefy" he said before sending a pic.

"I wished you were here, daddy!"

Yeah, thats for my side. Hope you are dooing well @fullfriendnerdclutch

Outfit of the day - when you know, you know...

Wanna show me yours? Tag me!

[haveihitanerve]

Jingle Boys Pt 3(23:21)-

Foreign Film:

“Italian was the first one I heard!” more shouting from the audience Aj’s laugh help??? “I-italian was the first one I heard..” lmaoo

“Parasite: the italian film. I don't know *fuck it* fine yeah-” XD 

Luke chucking a matching jacket at AJ as he comes on stage for some reason is so cute to me

Sam and Tom glancing across stage “who wants to do who?” and Tom pointing for Sam to go first

Aj casually repeating exactly what Luke just said and Tom translating it to mean a different sentence is wonderful

“Alejandro.” Luke’s slow smile waiting for Sam to just repeat the name(i wonder if they’ve ever just turned the name into a word to be mean… anyway)

“Brother! Brother, baby brother! You look so beautiful! Such a beautiful baby bouncing boy.” firstly- AJ did not speak for half as long as that, Secondly- thats his brother not lover, Thirdly- his tone never shifted like that. And fourthly it was glorious keep doing what ur doing tom

Also AJ and Luke just holding hands 

Aj pulls out a fucking gun???? XD help-

“I- built it in shop class!” Yes tom, brilliant idea ofc that makes logical sense! Luke twitching with a laugh, Sam leaning back and chuckling

“Im a sleep guard!” Tom’s chuckle🫠

“Get down! Get down bad boy!” Tom what😭

“Im being mistranslated!” oh i wonder who’s doing that!

“Please don't shoot me!” Aj:... *naw* *shoots him* Tom: *because we need the shot sound translated* *completely monotone* bang Sam: *also monotone and translating a word that isn't said* ow

Tom is eating in his chair position idk it needed to be mentioned

“Guttural noise. Guttural noise.” sorry- are they being captions or are they translating??? Because im pretty sure it was toby. 

Aj: *already smiling because he brought them into an already created plot and they wont let him live it down* parasito- Tom: *tongue in cheek defeat* its like that venom movie. 

Luke and sam both laughing 🫠

“Please get out of me.” Personally Alessandro i think its the other way around-

Alrighty we’re doing another one: time for

Dating App or Hat Game if you so chose

“I need that big box of hats!” “woOh!” tom i love you

Captions I love you but “why hello thar!” aint really [australian]

“And I’m from Down UndR.” Captions i retract my previous statement you're doing great aj’s just losing it

Aj stuttering and Sam losing it because that is not an australian accent

Once again Tom’s pose is killing it 

Tom’s smile peeking out from under the hat is so cute

I love this game because it actually lets them laugh at each other with no regard to if it fits the scene and its so cute to see them actually able to grin and laugh freely

Luke and tom pushing the chairs back together so they can stand comfortably next to each other off stage

Aj already losing it as Sam walks forward with his fucking bird contraption and then utterly folding when he squawks lol

Tom pushing Luke forward because he doesn't want the next hat???(oop no i went back that is the right order he’s probably nudging him forward because hes next)

Luke preparing his stance and AJ already doing his lean back victorian hand over mouth laugh is adorable

They amuse each other so much its so cute

“Where oh where am i?” Tom i realize very few people seemed to get that in the audience- however Aj did laugh at your joke behind you so I think he got it and appreciated it, just so you know. Unless he also doesn't know and was just laughing but shhh we chose to believe here

“Its a carmen sandiego bit-” Sam laughing quickly in surprise at the revelation

“Im so fucking old.” Tom baby no you’re not 

AJ and Tom laughing in sync at Sam’s “aaaand i am alone..” 

“See this- terrible-” *we interrupt this sentence with an explosive Luke laugh* “impression of harrison ford?” I love how easily they can laugh at themselves

AND SCENE! Thank you all for reading, this whole thing is slow going I know im so sore its taking so long but life has been busy lately but i promise you’ll get the entirety of jingle boys before the end of this year! (maybe if we’re lucky I can shoot lower and say the end of April? We’ll see :)) Thanks again! Byebye!

@thelunarbar @snek-of-eden @dawn-speckled @bewilderednobody @scattered-stardust

[somewhere-elena]

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"So you're telling me, that a beast took Y/n captive?" Naoya asked.

"Yes! Thats exactly what I'm saying!" Gojo said.

Naoya just laughed, the whole bar joining in on him.

"You're crazy!" Someone shouted.

"I'm not! I'm telling the truth! Y/n is in danger and we need to save her!" Gojo snapped.

They just shoved him out of the bar, laughing at his 'crazy' statement.

But Naoya thought on it. Everyone knows how much Y/n cares about Gojo, and would do anything to prevent him from getting locked up. If Naoya could somehow get you to come to the village for Gojo, then he could get you to marry him by threatening to lock Gojo up in the asylum forever. Perfect plan. All he needed was to talk to the asylum warren.

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"If they won't help me bring Y/n home, I'll do it myself." Gojo grumbled, pacing around his home, packing some stuff into his satchel, preparing to go off and find you.

"Is that everything?" He asked himself, nodding in approval, grabbing a lantern and heading out.

"I'll find that castle, no matter what it takes." He said firmly.

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Sukuna sat in a chair by the fireplace, a fire providing light as you poured hot water into a bowl, soaking a cloth in it before wringing it out

"Here now..." You said, reaching over for his arm that had gashes on it.

Sukuna growled a bit.

"Just hold still-" you said, putting the cloth to his wound.

Sukuna let out a slight yell of discomfort, making the servants back up in slight fear.

"That hurts!" He yelled.

"If you'd hold still it wouldn't hurt as much!" You yelled back.

"Well if you hadn't run away, this wouldn't have happened." He said.

"If you hadn't frightened me, I wouldn't have run away!" You said defensively.

Sukuna went to say something but paused.

You folded your arms.

"Well you shouldn't have been in the west Wing!" He replied.

"Well you should learn to control your temper!" You snapped.

Sukuna got quiet, huffing like a child as he leaned back into the chair.

The servants stepped forward again.

"Now hold still... This might sting a little." You said, pressing the cloth back onto his wound.

Sukuna hissed in pain, gritting his teeth tightly.

"By the way... Thank you. For saving my life." You said softly.

Sukuna looked a bit surprised, but his expression visibly softened as did his tone of voice.

"You're welcome."

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Sukuna stood on one of the many balconies of the castle, watching you as you walked Jugai around the snowy garden. Megumi and Yuji were beside him.

The white divine dog barked, jumping around, wagging his tail as he wanted to play.

You laughed, kneeling down and giving him pets.

Sukuna watched, his expression soft as he looked down at his bandaged arm.

"I've never felt this way about anyone..." He mumbled.

"I wanna do something for her." He declared.

"...But what?" He asked Megumi.

"Well, there's the usual things... Flowers, chocolates, promises you don't intend to keep-" Megumi said.

"Ah- no, no, it has to be something very special." Yuji said.

"Something that sparks her interest..." Yuji mumbled, thinking.

"Wait a minute!" He said.

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Sukuna led over to two closed doors.

"Y/n...there's something I wanna show you." He said, beginning to open the doors but paused.

"But first, you have to close your eyes." He said.

You raised an eyebrow.

"It's a surprise." He continued.

You hummed before closing your eyes.

Sukuna waved his hand in front of your face, making sure your eyes were really closed. When they were he opened the doors with more excitement than he'd like, a smile on his face.

He turned, gently taking your hands into his and leading you inside the dark room.

"Can I open them?" You asked.

"No, no, not yet." He replied.

He paused, causing you to stop as well.

"Wait here." Sukuna said.

He walked over, opening a curtain, the bright light from outside illuminating the room.

You turn your head as the second curtain opened, even though your eyes were still closed, there was still a difference to you.

"Can I open them now?" You asked.

"Alright... Now." He said.

You opened your eyes and gasp to see a grand library, books all over, a smile crept onto your face.

"I can't believe it... I've never seen so many books in all my life." You said, looking around in awe.

"You.. You like it?" Sukuna asked sheepishly.

"It's wonderful!" You exclaim.

"Then... It's yours." He said.

"Thank you so much!" You said excitedly, gently taking his larger hands into yours.

The servants watched from the doorway.

"Would you look at that?" Geto asked.

"Haha! I knew it would work!" Yuji said, nudging Megumi with his elbow.

"What? What works?" Nanako asked.

Megumi chuckled. "It's very encouraging."

"Isnt this exciting??" Yuko said.

"I didn't see anything." Nanako said.

"Come now, Nanako, there's chores that need to be done in the kitchen." Geto said as they all began walking off towards the kitchen.

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You sat across Sukuna at a smaller table that was next to windows that overlooked the garden.

You two were about to eat some porridge.

You picked a spoon up, about to eat when you heard slurping. You looked up and saw Sukuna holding his bowl up, tipping it to eat the porridge.

He paused his eating, looking back at you, the porridge all around his mouth.

You turn your head, holding back a snicker.

Geto winced slightly, feeling embarrassed, but Nanako pushed the spoon towards Sukuna, wanting him to at least try.

Reluctantly, Sukuna grabbed the spoon, holding it in a weird way as he attempted to eat with it.

Smiling softly, you set your spoon aside, picking your bowl up.

Sukuna looked surprised but did the same.

You both held your bowls up in a way of saying 'cheers' before sipping the porridge.

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By now, you two were out in the garden.

You were tossing bird seeds to the birds, Sukuna standing beside you, watching curiously. He then held his hands out.

You smile, giving him a handful of the seeds.

He crouched down, offering the seeds to birds a bit forcefully, causing the birds to jump away slightly.

'There's something sweet, and almost kind... But he was mean and he was course and unrefined...' You thought to yourself.

'And now he's dear and so unsure, I wonder why I didnt see it there before.' You thought again.

Sukuna kept trying to hand the seeds to the birds, you just stifled a laugh, approaching him, placing more seeds into his hands, quietly telling him to stay still.

And he did. And now he was covered in birds, some eating from his hands, the others on his broad shoulders.

'She glanced this way, I thought I saw... And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw.' Sukuna thought to himself, watching as you, followed a smaller bird over to a nearby tree.

'No it can't be. I'll just ignore. But then she's never looked at me that way before.' His thoughts continued.

'New and a bit... Alarming- who would've ever thought that this would be..' Your thoughts continued as you hid behind the tree, placing a hand to your heart, a look of uncertainty on your face before peeking out from the tree.

Sukuna was covered in more birds this time, a nervous look on his face as he stayed still.

You smile at the sight as your thoughts continued. 'True, that he's no prince charming... But there's something in him that I simply didn't see.'

The birds flocked off of him just in time for you to throw a snowball at him.

He wiped the snow off his face, seeing you laugh.

He smiled competitively, gathering up a large ball of snow, and as he was about to toss it at you, you threw another snowball at him, causing him to drop his own snowball on himself, warning another laugh from you.

The servants watched from the window.

"Well who'd have thought?" Yuji said.

"Well bless my soul." Geto said.

"Well who'd have known?" Megumi replied.

"Well who indeed?" Geto continued.

"And who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own." Yuji said.

"It's so peculiar." Geto said.

"We'll wait and see." They all said in unison.

"A few days more." They continued.

You and Sukuna sat by the fireplace, you opening a book as the servants watched from the doorway.

"You know, perhaps there's something there that wasn't there before." Megumi said.

"What?" Nanako asked.

"There maybe something there that wasn't there before." Geto said.

"What's there, dad?" Nanako asked.

"Shhh. I'll tell you when you're older." Geto said.

Nanako grumbled in annoyance. He acted like she wasnt 16.

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The servants were all hard at work, cleaning everything up.

Meanwhile, you were sitting at a table beside Sukuna, reading.

Sukuna had his head resting in his arms that were folded on the table, a smitten look on his face.

"For there wasn't a story of more woe, than the story of Juliet and her Romeo." You said, finishing the book and closing it.

"Can you read it again?" Sukuna asked.

You laugh softly. "How about you read it to me?" You suggest, handing him the book.

Sukuna looked in surprised as he gently took the book nervously.

"Uhh- okay." He said, clearing his throat.

"He looked at the page nervously.

"Uhhh- I can't." He admitted sheepishly.

"You mean you never learned?" You asked.

"I learned! ...a little bit-" he said. "It's just been.. So long." He grumbled.

"Well, here, I'll help you." You said.

"Let's start with... This." You said, pointing at a page.

"Okay." He said, leaning over to read it.

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Sukuna sat in a tub, soapy water all over his body as he was being scrubbed down.

"Tonight is the night, Uncle!" Yuji said.

"I'm not sure I can do this.." Sukuna admitted.

"You don't have time to be timid." Yuji said.

"You must be bold, daring!" He continued.

"Bold... Daring." Sukuna repeated his words, standing up and shaking the water off of him.

"There will be music... Candlelight, provided by myself." Yuji said.

Sukuna got out of the tub, wrapping a towel around his waist as he walked over to a mirror.

"And when the moment is right... You confess your love!" Yuji encouraged.

"Yes.. I can... I-" Sukuna stumbled over his words.

"No, I can't." He huffed.

"You care for the girl, dont you?" Yuji asked.

"More than anything." Sukuna said as his hair was being fiddled with by a servant.

"Well then, you must tell her!" Yuji exclaimed.

"Viola! Oh, you look so... So.." Yuji trailed off.

"Stupid." Sukuna said bluntly.

"Not the exact word I was looking for..." Yuji mumbled.

"Perhaps a little more, off the top." He said, clapping his hands and with that, the servant went right back to doing his hair.

Megumi walked in, clearing his throat.

"Ahem... Your lady... Awaits." He said.

[yippie-stiches]

live blogging my corpse's slow, gradual, sometimes painful decay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! enjoyy ((:

Zionists, rad 'queers', 'trans' ids, and their supporters DNI. 18+/mDNI blogs stop following me, im a minor. i am an anti zionist, if thats a problem get off my blog, i mean it. your not welcome here

moots, you have to tag: psych ward (#tw psych ward), restraints (#tw restraints), forced treatment (including being forced to be clean) (#tw forced treatment). if you wont tag these things, tell me so i can block/soft block you

previously ran @/selfharm-harmreduction until tumblr killed the blog because ig telling people how not to paralyse themselves and how to do first aid is such a threat to the internet. working on a website for the harm reduction stuff rn. more harm reduction resources toward the end of this post <3

DM OR SEND ASK IF YOU NEED HARM REDUCTION/MINIMISATION, OR FIRST AID INFO FOR SH!! i love helping people!!!

Cvts, they/them, minor, some kind of mental illnesses in there. autistic. psychotic sometimes, its all fun. occasionally disappear for a while because mental illness and sometimes block my freinds for a while also because mental illness, i dont hate you. i usually only block people i really like/care about when this happens so if i unblock + refollow you take it as a compliment lmao

Like 4 people? important ones are; cvts (me, they/them), Jack (occasionally posts, #Jack/#J, he/him), Janet (EW, we all hate janet, no pronouns)

self harming 5+ years, beans addict, slowly affecting my health more and more. NOT recovering NOT looking for advice, anti-recovery for shock factor /j (dont lie, your not pro recovery, that means nothing). anti psych, pro autonomy, pro harm reduction

i dont have much of a personality beyond sh/the mental illness things, but...

i like horror movies (the rocky horror picture show is my favourite <3)

i like music, most 70/80s uk punk, x-ray spec is my favourite band, i also like the adverts, buzz cocks, nirvana, the rezillos, and the holy bible album by the manic street preachers

self harm and harm reduction for sh is my main special interest

uhhhh

phd is sh harm harm reduction rn please please please please please pleaseeeee

idk i just complain a lot on here mostly, sorry

got stitches once (7 of them in fact) (that was cool) (could of died, should of let myself, oopsie) (take venous bleeding and deep cuts seriously)

<3 harm reduction resources :3

My website (wip), first aid for cuts, info on infections + first aid for (mild) infections (will be adding more pages + links to them here)

Self injury support (uk charity, lots of online resources), webchat, phone, text, and email support. webchat, phone, and text support have limited hours, see website. emails replied to with a week. (does not track ip/location, if identifiable info (i.e. name, location) about you or another person who is "is at risk of significant harm or death" or is hurting someone else is given it will be passed on (i.e. to emergency services))

Cutting the Risk (free book an sh harm reduction, first aid + anatomy info) (my favourite grr)

Harm Minimisation, a brief guide to harm reduction for self-harm

Calm Harm (link), an app that helps you “ride the wave” of self-harm urges. Free in the UK and US, charges may apply else where.

More Accurate Diagram of Safer Spots For Self Injury, made by an EMT with a phlebotomist, a paramedic, and nurse. No image description.

Eating Disorder Harm Reduction Infographic (image described) and Harm Reduction Is for Eating Disorders, Too

Finding useful distractions/displacements, distractions and displacements, delaying self harm (more distractions/alternatives, even more distraction/alternatives)

moots, you have to tag: psych ward (#tw psych ward), restraints (#tw restraints), forced treatment (including being forced to be clean) (#tw forced treatment). if you wont tag these things, tell me so i can block/soft block you

I tag sh pics #tw sh, also tag for ed stuff, rape/sa/csa, images of guns, drugs/alcohol/nicotine/cannabis/vaping/smoking, some other stuff i cannot think of rn (all tagged #tw __). let me know if you need me to tag anything for you <3

[spielort]

YAYYY I GOT TAGGED <3

ok im gonna yap about 3 obsessions:

cuphead, undertale/deltarune and Ghostandpals

how i got into cuphead:

ok so i was doomscrolling on youtube shorts as one does and i saw this audio from a cuphead song called “Brothers in Arms” going around and these like bendy edits were using them etc. so i eventually checked out the song and the song was SUCH. A. BANGER. Like dude i still remember the beat and everything its genuinely such a good song i recommend you check it out if you like cuphead. Anyways i had already heard like a little bit about cuphead like i had known the game existed and my friend had played cuphead and beat the game and dlc, but in the music video of brothers in arms there was like fnaf and bendy references and i already knew a lot about fnaf and bendy. Like im a little bit of a fnaf fan, i know all the characters and lore n stuff. So ultimately i bought cuphead and realised it was the most difficult game to ever exist so i got my friend to help me and overtime i became extremely hyperfixated on it and it’s also what got me into drawing bc the game was hand drawn and all the characters had super cool designs.

little side yapping

i looked up “cuphead memes” bc i loved cuphead so much and thats how i discovered @orangeleftyart channel and here we are!!

How i got into undertale (and deltarune)

ok so undertale is a lil more boring, so obviously as someone who was on the internet i knew who sans and papyrus were etc. i knew that undertale/deltarune existed and that they were made by the same guy bc it was so popular on youtube and i also knew a lot of cuphead fans were undertale fans so eventually i bought the game and got hyperfixated as one does and now its my favorite game of all time!!! (Oh and naturally i played deltarune after undertale)

How i got into ghostandpals

so this one is also really boring, because @orangeleftyart introduced me to it, i got into the songs and became hyperfixated.

sorry for such a long ahh post but i was told to yap which is what i do best lmao

@jazzy-flowerr @numba1kittytdrrkinkawaii @fr3akshowdusty @ch1k3ns0up @sillyguyz4ever

tag game!! ^q^

how it works: get tagged. yap about current obsessions.

i'll go first!! >_<

okay so uhhh.. yi xi!!! i love her voice, her fan designs.. aghhh i love her

i also really like the train bitch (choo choo) and project on her sm... ( 〃▽〃) she is on SO MUCH MATH WORK ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY

last off... teeptum (tptm)!!! it's weird, i'm uncomfortable with myself recovering, but seeing these girls — whether i relate to them or not — overcome their struggles (^-^; maybe it's just nice to have hope... OH ALSO DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON HOW WELL WRITTEN EACH GIRL IS!!! ITS GENUINELY SO GOOD. I UNDERSTAND WHY SO MANY PEOPLE RELATE TO AT LEAST ONE GIRL. (personally i relate to tahira (splitter) and nora (caliber) but also some elements of freyja (faneint)

TAGS!! @charawara (go ahead. yap about the blue mouthed freak) @lordofthealfies (go ahead. yap about lotf) @fishtheflowerchomper @luckyloser6 @wkfn14kt829j2nq @toothandfeather @fearofajmetalalbum @madilynlovesbsdfr

[t4t4t]

Hi !

I got bottom surgery on July 25th :3

I'm recovering well but I'll be on bedrest for a while. Collie and I will need rent help for September/food/gas/utilities/etc. Two disabled trans women. Anything helps ! Thank yall so much for all you've helped so far, it's saved my life ❤️

https://venmo.com/u/nora-esther-rose

https://www.paypal.me/NoraEstherRose

https://venmo.com/u/Leah-Esther-Rose

https://www.paypal.me/androgynophore

[lucabyte]

On autonomy, and what it means to be Obliged to Help.

Bonus:

[cradle-of-darkness]

What have you done?

based on an idea @username8746489 had where sylvie discovered nightmare fuel for the first time on accident while getting bullied by some older kids (and pushing him further into social isolation now that he's known as "that scary kid who could summon someone's worst fear")

[bleuberrygliscor]

Truly we can do both, we can acknowledge that this kid made a selfless choice while also condemning the same system that even allowed him to make it. if hearing that a child decided to help others when they should have been given the grace to be selfish makes you uncomfortable, great! it should! whats more, you should be upset that this young man is still working this table, and has a gofundme to assist with the costs, with updates as recent as last september and the homeless population where he is continues to rise.

if you want real actionable steps, contact your local politicians, not federal, im talking city officials, county officials, your school board. if you have the moxie, get in there and run, and if you dont- loudly support someone who can. donations and mutual aid can only work as a temporary measure, dont toss a dollar the same way you toss a ballot in and wipe your hands clean.

[luck-of-the-drawings]

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

[b0nelessdoodles]

its been exactly 1 year since my gf started courting me via cookie run rp and it all started with crème university~ felt like trying to doodle some things from the scene that started it all and then clean up a sketch of a later scene while i was at it

anyway enjoy some espresseleine on this fine saturday!

[moeblob]

i have no idea where the compulsion to giver her a pokemon came from ??? but her and her minccino gotta go make sure her husband stays safe.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

do u think either charles or erik had trouble coming to terms with their love for one another?? like religious guilt, internalized homophobia, etc.

Many such cases really … not hard to imagine them dealin with that …

[king-magppi]

The brainworms are so strong rn. Twin... Twin what happened...

[pedge-page]

Some not-so-random movie quotes for you this morning

Tag your favorite quote to help emulate your feelings

[good-beanswrites]

I can't stop thinking of Kyanako's Order of Attack au... there's something so moving to me about how things getting so much worse could be what finally causes Amane to get better -- seeing Fuuta dying may be the final straw of getting her to rethink her rejection of medicine. Been a while since I've attempted something whump-y, this was fun to work with.

Tw for mentions/contemplation of death. I don't go into detail about the cult but the doctrines are implied through it all.

Fuuta was not a big fan of dying.

When he imagined his own death, he always pictured it as something dramatic and fast. Action heroes going out in a show of explosions and gunfire. Fantasy characters meeting the shining end of a blade. Even when he accepted his place in Milgram, it filled his mind with images of gallows and electric chairs. 

Whatever this slow, lengthy fever was, it was pissing him off. 

He’d lost all sense of time. He could no longer tell which hour the prison bells were marking -- morning and night blended together. Dreaming and waking blended together. His head injury and broken leg and broken bones blended together. It was all just pain at the end of the day. He had nonstop visitors that kept him awake and asked him too many questions and prodded his injuries and made his head spin. Somehow, he was simultaneously alone every time he rolled over to talk to someone. Painfully, suffocatingly alone. 

If Kotoko was going to kill him with those ridiculous emo boots of hers, she should have just done it. He was losing his mind here: devoid of all energy, suffering through broken bones and a cracked head, and boiling in an increasingly fiery fever. Maybe that was the reason he stopped commenting when he watched Amane pocket the medicine Shidou had left him. Maybe that was why he’d stopped following Shidou’s instructions himself. Even after losing an eye and taking a beating herself, Amane always looked at peace. He was tired of dealing with all of this. He wanted a bit of that peace.

Regardless of why, it was working. His fever had quickly gone from the biggest pain in his ass to the very thing that dulled his racing thoughts. 

He awoke suddenly, or maybe he’d already been awake. He couldn’t feel anything in his limbs. There was only a breathless heat around him. He raised himself into a sitting position, looking for a drink. Moving his head felt like one of those glitching computer windows that leaves a trail of copies behind it. The room swam around him. His eyes moved absently around him.

Fuuta picked up the glass that someone had left him. His fingers were clumsy, and it immediately went crashing to the ground. He hardly heard the noise as it broke apart on the concrete below. 

He swung his legs over the side of the bed. He’d just go get a drink himself. Shidou told him not to get up without help. But what did he know? Thinking of the man ordering him around only drove Fuuta to step out of bed even quicker. He cried out, pain shooting through his leg. That was right, it was broken… 

Fuuta looked down, finding himself on the ground. It was so hot. Maybe this is what she felt, he thought numbly. Was it this slow for her too? Probably not. She had no regrets to fill the time like he did. The heroes got quick, beautiful deaths, and it was the villains who had to suffer the long ones. 

He lifted his right palm from where it had caught his fall. The shattered glass on the floor had cut into it. Shattered glass? What had broken? He stared blankly at the blood dripping down. 

He didn’t have the strength to raise himself up. He was burning. Why was he on the ground? Was he bleeding? He could barely breathe. What was he doing here, anyway? He just wanted to curl up and sleep. He was so weak... just to lie down... he wouldn't have the strength to get back up again. Was that such a bad thing...?

A voice caught his attention. His eyes struggled to focus on the figure who’d come running into the cell. He couldn’t understand a word of what she was saying, but he was happy when she pressed her cool little hands against his forehead. 

He allowed her to prop him up next to the bed. She held onto his hand, squeezing it tight. Why was she holding it like that? That hand was bleeding. When did that happen?

Her arms wrapped tightly around him. He wanted to shove her away -- it was too hot -- but couldn’t. In his ear, he could make out her words. “I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. Please, Fuuta. Don’t leave me alone. I’m so sorry...”

As she pulled back, he recognized Amane. Her uninjured eye was filled with tears. Was she upset? He thought he’d been making her happy. He wanted to keep making her happy. He’d never made anyone happy before. 

He opened his mouth to say something, but no words would come out. They all scrambled up in his mouth. He felt the cell swirling around him.

Amane raised her voice. She looked desperately upwards. “This can’t be --! This isn’t right!” 

Fuuta looked up at the ceiling. There was nothing there. 

“I can’t do this anymore.”

She continued talking. Fuuta was too busy studying the ceiling. She was shouting. Or maybe crying. Fuuta didn’t like that she was so upset. Huh, had there been someone there? He surveyed the empty cell. What was he doing on the ground?

He looked down at his hand. The sheet from his bed had been pulled down and wrapped hastily around it. Why? His eyes felt sticky as he blinked. Everything hurt. It was so hot. What was going on? He was so angry. He was so scared. He wanted to cry. Why was he here? Why couldn’t he just hurry up and die already?

The next time she entered, Fuuta recognized Amane instantly. Her one hand pointed to him, the other held onto someone else. The second figure hurried over to him. 

Fuuta was not a big fan of dying. Shidou reassured him he wouldn’t.

—

“You’re wearing the eyepatch,” Fuuta observed. 

He was playing a dangerous game, drawing attention to it like that. He was too exhausted, and his curiosity won out over his better judgment. If Amane was going to explode with one of her typical speeches, he’d just let her.

She didn’t. 

Amane’s hand drifted up to her eye. It had been hastily covered before, but now it was cleaned and wrapped in professional-grade materials. She simply said,  “Kajiyama Fuuta. How do you feel?”

“Like shit.”

“But--”

“-- But I’m better, yeah.”

Amane nodded, her shoulders releasing. 

“Oi, I haven’t seen you in a while. Not since…” He wasn’t sure how to finish the sentence. Shidou had told him what happened, but it was difficult to believe. He couldn’t quite trust his own memory of the night. No matter how much clearer his mind felt since receiving proper treatment, those days of fever still muddled together. He heard that Amane had up and switched her beliefs overnight -- she was now complacent about all of Shidou's treatments -- but Fuuta knew people didn't just change like that. He wanted to hear it for himself.

She lowered her gaze in shame. “I… I thought you hated me.” Her voice was steady. “As you should. I almost killed you. I accept any ill will you may feel.”

“I -- what? You’re wrong. You… it wasn’t…” He grabbed his head, grunting in frustration.

After standing awkwardly in the entryway the whole time, Amane took a few steps inside. She made it to his bedside when he finally collected his thoughts. 

“It was your fucked up family or whatever that caused everything. They did this. And I went along and made things worse.” He looked away. His next words felt stupid to say to a little kid. He felt like the most pathetic, weak, loser. But it was too important not to say.

“They almost killed me. You saved me.”