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sonknuxadow · 10 months ago

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"idk... me and shadow never really got along .... :/" stop lying you were literally having the time of your life being shadows little npc buddy when he got his own game

#he was literally like OMG HI SHADOW ^_^ lets beat up those aliens !!!!!!! lets race !!!!!!!!#do you remember last time we were here together that was so awesome wasnt it ?? you can do this !! kill your dad !!!!!!#lets say swear words now that we have the chance !!!!!!#tailstube #tailstube spoilers #again sonic and shadow have never been best friends or super close or anything #but ''ohhhh they can never get along theyre always fighting'' you cant lie to me i know they werent like that originally . smh

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jade-len · 1 year ago

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you know it's bad when i read svsss and tgcf, stories about just two guys falling in love and getting together, and think, "god i wish i were in between them."

gay little domestic cottage core life with binghe and qingqiu? please and thank you. being sandwiched by hua cheng and xie lian, two pretty men who are hundreds of years old? i am blushing, kicking my feet and giggling

and again, it's not even that i would want only one of them. like in both of the relationships, the two love each other too much to the point it'd feel wrong if they were separated! it wouldn't feel complete, so you gotta be with both of them!

but that's the thing; i just?? i feel so incredibly guilty whenever i think about being loved by these mxtx couples??? like it's so stupid but i feel like i'm intruding in on something and it's like, everyone else seems to just want them together only, not wanna be with them. like it's fuckin taboo or whatever

i feel like with any other character from any other media it'd be fine to simp for and write/read x readers of them, but when it comes to these books, it's off limits! no way, what are you, crazy? yes, yes i'm unhinged and desperately want their love and affection simultaneously. i want to be in a happy little poly relationship with these overpowered beautiful men with long hair.

i can't be the only guy or whoever to feel this way?? to wanna be kissed by these characters? sandwiched?? i have two hands for christ sake and they all look so happy together and im just like "lord i wanna be with them so much". someone tell me i'm not alone cmon <\3

#okay i havent read mdzs yet but i'll probably feel the same way #god i just wanna be in between shen qingqiu and binghe or hua cheng and xie lian please please #im sad im queer and im ready for a gay poly relationship with these mfs #i love them all #i remember seeing some post where it was like 'hua cheng x fem reader headcanons'#and i was like 'huh thats interesting. not fem but i'll check it out bc ive never rlly seen anything like that'#and then it was like 'he'd leave you for xie lian' and it was fucking hilarious actually #but then i saw the comments on that post and they were all like 'omg i was about to unfollow and block you' 'thank god' etc #and i was just like #'damn?? do people really not like this type of stuff when it comes to danmei novels or smth?'#i don't know if it was just bc it said fem reader or bc yk it's danmei and hua cheng and xie lian are very much in love and happy #but it lowkey kinda got me self conscious lmao and i was hella feeling bad #also no hate to that poster or those commenters im just a lonely queer man #'he would leave you for xie lian' was fucking brutal though i laughed my ass off at thag KAHSNZJ #please i swear i wont stand out too much i can fit in i have long luxurious hair too let me show you my hair care routine guys </3 #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #bingqiu #tgcf #heavens official blessing #mxtx tgcf #mxtx novels #mxtx characters #hua cheng #xie lian #hualian #shen qingqiu #the scum villain's self saving system

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lowestechelonabomination · 2 months ago

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woaw hey girl you look like you jsut eated 5 packs of cigarettes and smoked 3 cants of beer and stuff yuor pillow with broken glass every nighgt when going to sleep at 4 am. i am in love witgh your eyebags and pathetic disposition and messy hair and depth of living can you pleaese flatten and dry me between the pages of one of thoes niche books you colletct but never read and then frame me on your wall I thhink I would match your esoteric posters and disorganed cd collection really well. you won't get rare art like this anyhwere else so just consider it okay? thanks

#ech.txt #redo of a post i made in august because i suddenly remembered it after a friend told me he was so distraught after finals #that he bought a pack of cigarettes and a case of beer and was going to spend a whole night smoking and drinking #mind you hes never in his life smoked anything before #and because i too am distraught after finals i was like 'man i get it i need to start eating cigarettes i swear'#and then i remembered the 'damb girl you look like you eated a 5 cigarettes can i press you between the pages of my evil tome thanks' post #which is quite the banger post imo #but i thought i could do a little reboot a little sequel a little cashgrab spinoff yknow?

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july-19th-club · 1 year ago

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when i was a kid the church songs i gravitated twoards were definitely always the ones like "how great thou art" and "on eagle's wings" - basically anything that mentioned the natural world or a cool animal. songs of faith and tradition did nothing for me, amazing grace was a nothing song, the bread of life was a NOTHING song. but a voice crying out in the wilderness? oh?? say more

and then they dont say more. and you have to figure out whether you believe regardless. and that's what religion is

#this sounds like pessimism but i swear it's not it's just a religious breakthrough i had driving to work yesterday #it's soo much easier to believe in religion when you know it's fake. that doesnt make sense #what i mean is: with christianity. the expectation is that it will Return somehow . he died but he'll be back #if he'd died and stayed dead and there was never any expectation of his return. he'd be easier for me to believe in #does that make sense #because he's not this nebulous future state. he's gone and we'll never know anything else. but the things which are sacred to the god #those still remain #the crows outside. the mice i trap. the roadsides i clear of litter in spring. the crick. the eagles again. the way they've rebounded #that's real and i believe in it and it is sacred . and i can do something tangible about that and that's worship #towards a unified theory of my own spiritual believes - finally - because i remembered what i was on the verge of believing when i was 13

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dkettchen · 1 year ago

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me waking up in a cold sweat at 6:20am: "I should get evening classes to be a hair dresser & training to be a makeup artist to be my own hair/make-up person on photo/video shoots and defy industry's single-gender-dominated-and-not-improving department segregation system like the all-rounder online creator that I am 👀😤"

#I swear I don't have adhd or anything I am just having a professional existential crisis recently x'D #ok but hear me out right like how useful would it be if people could hire someone who's a one-person videographer AND hair/make-up person!#I could like double my asking rate!#you need to do one before you can do the other anyway so why have two people for it #other than that the hair/make-up women don't specialise in photography #and the videographer lads have never touched a cosmetic product let alone knowing how to use it to any level let alone a professional one #AND I'd be able to offer hiring me as either role OR both at once #I'd have more options for jobs to apply to #and I'd have full control over the look I want from my subjects #cause like I do my own hair & make-up for my videos #like I know how to cut my own hair & do my own make-up #but I wanna learn how to do ANYONE'S!!!#and I know you can do hair dressing college evening classes cause I remember that was one of the other evening classes running while I was #doing my electrician's level 2 #and I know there's make-up training places in the city I've seen them before while I was looking up other things #if you do professional hair/make-up you need to take pictures of it for your portfolio anyway #and if you professionally take pictures of people you need to do their hair/make-up anyway to get the look you want #SO WHY NOT BOTH for any reason other than gender roles prohibiting the cishets from learning both skills to the required level!!!#THIS IS MY LEG UP #THIS IS MY QUEER NONBINARY TRANS ADVANTAGE #*evil manic laughter*#edit: and smth smth the thing where women & afab ppl don't do their skills to a professional level #unlike cishet men making everything their job and therefore succeeding professionally even in trad-female dominated skills/industries #hence I should LEARN my matr skills to the level required for professional stuff rather than limit myself to patr skills #that I have a disadvantage with due to cishet male-dominated nature of this industry/tech department #AND it'll give me an opportunity to message my detrans previous hairdresser (as I live too far away from her now)#being like 'u were one of my inspirations for this I also wanna learn how to cut mullets real good hope ur doing well T^T' x'D #AND I could apply to screenskills' trainee finder in another department in a few years regardless of whether or not I get in this year #(I applied to the camera one this year)

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otome-dissection · 8 days ago

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finished gaiden

#yakuza #guys can these games sotp making me cry i swear i'm not a fucking crier but also oguhfsgsflgererslt54etsgrhxdfjougjfdxboifgxjroedszf\gx]o[h #call me kiryu kazuma the way that i was shaking so hard trying not to cry for a solid like minute #kuroda's performance bro i'm actually just gonna kill myself brb #kiryu getting fucking. snot all over that fuckass tablet was so real by the way I too had to furiously wipe my nose after watching that #oh my goddddddddddddddddd #rnghsflghfdlfghdfhd #i can't. i can't bro. i just can't these games make me so miserable (<- enjoying it)#i cried again in the after credits when they showed kiryu at the church hE'S FUCKING OLDDDD FUCK !!!#HE NEVER GOT TO JUST. LIVE A NORMAL ASS LIFE !! HE NEVER GOT TO GO TO THE FUCKING CLUB (okay he did but ykwim)#HE NEVER GET TO HAVE A SIMPLE LOVE LIFE OR RAISE HIS FUCKING KIDS OR DO ANYTHING BUT BE NECK DEEP IN CONFLICT #AND NEAR DEATH SINCE HE WAS LIKE. A FUCKING TEENAGER #ALL HE GETS ARE LIKE. 2 SECONDS OF RESTS AND THEN THAT'S FUCKING IT !!!#like genuinely part of tthe reason i cried so hard after finishing that game/watching the cutscenes was because i was thinking of yakuza 3 #remember when you just got to take care of those fuckass kids and do silly stupid shit for them. yeah they're grown up and have jobs now #and they did it all without kiryu being there. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK. FU #AND NOW HE'S FUCKING OLDDDDDDDDDDDD AND HE STILL CAN'T HAVE ANY OF WHAT HE WANTS OR BE WITH WHO HE WANTS TO BE WITH #FUCK MEEEE DUDEEEEEEEE AUGHHHHHHHHHH #man. man i can't wait to play infinite wealth. i hope nothing makes me emotional in that game. please. ichiban save me. ichi bun...

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girlivealwaysbean · 3 months ago

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so tired of being a shitty bandaid for my parents' loneliness. like have u ever considered you passed your curse to me and some days i feel so lonely it's like i can't breathe around the emptiness in my chest????

#my dad is like #you can't just be in your room all the time then what's the point of you living here if ill be sitting here all alone then #and im like bhai what #mom also says this to me she always wanted to sit and rant and she used to say you never talk to me #both of these people don't even fucking get it that they're not even interested in me listening to me #mom just wants a sounding board for her venting and dad just wants someone to pretend everything is okay and happy all the time and #the only important things in life is the immediate present and food and making money and stuff #i swear this is why i feel so ????? about myself my identity like no i can't describe myself #because there is no myself there is just a white sheet of paper where people can write whatever they want #im so tired man #why can't they just go and live with each other and leave us kids out of it 😭🙏#like i genuinely am getting teary eyed about such a small thing but god. i want to have my own life so bad. im sick of feeling all these #complicated emotions guilt and anger and pity and obligation and duty like just god pls fuck off #people my age are so fucking mature and put together than me so confident so clear about their path #have friends partners breakups parties just so many new memories #and im just stuck.#and im fine with it now because i get it studying is really important and this is quite basic requirement to be perfect at #atleast my syllabus to survive in this industry #but then. let me do that only. please don't make me pretend to like you like spending time with you and everything #ive hated you for like. idk 14 whole years. since the first time you hit mom in front of me #i remember it so well like my childhood broke that day you slammed her into a wall for some stupid fight and her hair was all messy and #untied and you shouted so loud i thought surely everyone can hear. and then you left to roam around the city at night with your friends #i remember this because my mom and my sister sent me to check up on you with the excuse of a painting of a parrot that i had made #i didn't understand anything back then #but yeah fuck you fuck you fuck you for being so fucking delusional thinking i love you or something #ive prayed to god that you die and i still do #it would directly mean 4 people being happy #anyway #dni #this was meant to be fun and short lol fuck

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nei-ning · 4 months ago

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honest answer: do you make up some of your dreams?

Never. I never EVER have, or even will, make up my dreams. All of my dreams which I've written here and share with people are 100% pure and true. I have zero reasons or intrest to make them up. I appreciate and value honesty from myself and from others, always, no matter what.

To be honest, dear anon, before you asked me this I've never even THINK of this topic! :'D

#Text #Ask #Ask Nei #Neis dream #Now I can't stop wondering who the heck would go and make up a dream....?!#Writing a fanfic is for that :'D #Tho I myself struggle with fanfics #I never wouldn't be able to even come up with the stuff I see in my dreams ahaha! They get so crazy at times!#I can promise and swear on anything and everything that's Holy and Unholy that my dreams are 100% true #No made up or edited - except leaving that stuff out which I can't remember - that's honestly all

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doggytail-duck · 4 months ago

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Someone stop me before I buy what materials I need to start practicing printmaking

#i keep getting the urge to start a new creative hobby/get back to something like once a month or so these days #which is a welcome change from the times where i didn't want to do Anything #but also man oh man is it not good when the hobby requires materials to work with #i nearly bought beads to start making like bracelets and those classic bead lizards and stuff #but i was like 'no you don't have the money for a new hobby stop it'#and now i'm like 'hey i've been seeing a lot of printmaking stuff online lately. i remember liking doing that when i tried as a kid'#(though iirc i did the carving on metal instead of lino but i'm not sure if i did both actually? it's been so long)#and now my brain is on a one-track path to 'what would i need if i were to start printmaking'#meanwhile my clay and other sculpting stuff collects dust #i haven't even managed to paint my newest figurines #i swear to god i've inherited this bonkers yonkers hobby hopping from my dad #except he can commit to things sometimes #i do things for a while and then i get bored and have to do something else #but then luckily i never get like forever bored with a hobby i'll always get back to it eventually #but man. the amount of materials and the room and money i'd need for them... crying emoji...#personal

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lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar · 5 months ago

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okay but

this looks so 70's, it's no wonder i loved them when i was 15

70's vibes have just been with me forever

#me #rooney #rooney band #2007 #their band logo font and everything #but i don't think i've ever even listened to one of their albums #i just remember watching some of their music videos on youtube way too often #and playing one of their songs on repeat for days and days and days #and the clearest memory was #(besides a few second memory of a music video that apparently stuck with me for so long)#because i was listening to it so much #i had the sound off at one point #no music or anything playing #but i could still hear it #and i went to turn the volume up or down or something and i was like #?????? it isn't on??? but I CAN HEAR IT?#it was like still playing in my head or something i swear the speaker was on and it wasn't #and then it faded away once i realized it wasn't on and i was like excUSE Me???????#i mean i always have songs stuck in my head but i never heard it in my head so clearly that i thought i was literally listening to it #on speakers #that was the one and only time that has ever happened to me to that extent #i was so confused

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crossbackpoke-check · 7 months ago

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about to be sooo nosy so. my apologies. but. morgan frost? girlfriend? do share (or don’t! again this is so nosy i’m sorry)

for legal purposes i can neither confirm nor deny anything about morgan and his girlfriend but afaik i think he’s single right now? at one point (within the past four years 😭) he did for sure have a girlfriend and that is the extent of my wag knowledge