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When I was drawing my first Sukuna months ago, YouTube randomly played Madonna's "Little Prayer" (note, I don't listen her songs normally like never). Since then this has been Sukuna's song to me personally.

Well, I was checking pics on my phone just now and when Sukuna's pic changed on the screen, this said song from Madonna started to play instantly from car's radio, haha!

I already have an altar for you! What else do you want?! Me dancing around the house, chanting your name in trance? :'D

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We all have dreams which we want to reach towards to, claim into our lives. For a while now I've been feeling and thinking more or less like:

"Why should I even bother anymore? They are not something I can honestly reach or get. I have screw things up already for certain. It's too late for me."

Despite these feelings and thoughts I asked advice and help from my Shaman deck, getting message such as: "You need more courage and strength. You know the truth. There's people who will help you. You are being guided. Follow your inspiration and abundance will follow. You are healing."

Right after this message, I lifted my gaze on TV and there's a woman who looks to be like a queen or other higher status ruler and she firmly said:

"Now is not the time to lose faith."

I try, Universe, I try. It's just hard at times when you have depression, anxiety and you always have felt like a failure in all aspects in life.

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Dream post once more. Long dream where some man kept speaking to me via phone at first, asking questions, analyzing them (example: if he asked what colored shirt I'm wearing, he then started to analyze the color) until I met him. I never saw his face but he acted very kind, spoke slow and politely but it all started to become alarming when he started to ask me to do tiny tasks. Eventually I realized he's not going to let me go back home or let me rest. Luckily I managed to escape, thanks to these lovely dark skinned native women and their magic. They were heck beautiful people, in and out ❤️

I snap awake but fall back to sleep pretty soon.

Now in this short dream I'm watching tiny TV screen. On the screen is none other than Grimmjow from bust up. He stares at me while standing slightly sideways, runs his left hand (my right) from his cheek through his hair while moving his head a bit, extends that arm towards me and gives me thumb up with heck wide and happy grin! :D He looks so darn pretty! Probably prettiest Grimmjow I've seen in my dreams so far, haha! Then I woke up.

But Grimmjow, once again, is being heck active in my dreams, showing up often. Not that I mind :3

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Pinterest is at it once more, ahah! I saw this Aomine, instantly thinking how pretty he looks (since he IS pretty boy!) and right under it, when I scrolled down, was that text post, ahah! :'D

Thank you, mister! Same right back at ya! :D

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My newest addition to my Grimmjow (and overall) stand collection :D I ordered him with Ichigo BUUUUT the seller hadn't send me Ichigo for a some reason... Tho, I am happier that I got Grimmjow. Ichigo would had been super nice too but I would have felt more bad if it would had been Grimmjow who was left out of the package.

Heck expensive for a stand, 2 months waiting BEFORE the seller bothered to ship the item but luckily the shipping was fast otherwise.

He has so pretty eyes <3

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Remember my dream from last night? Where Grimmjow said to me: "I'll see you on Saturday!"

Well, guess who got email from one online store with message: "Grimmjow Jaegerjaques. I'm in stock!"

And what else? Today IS Saturday! :'D He didn't lie when he said he will see me on Saturday, ahah!

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Long weird dream but gonna write down one part only. Note, once more heck old dream. Decades old! Saw this as an early teen first time so back then I had NO idea what or who the person and animal in the dream were / are. Internet didn't exist back then either so Google wasn't there to help me :'D

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I went to Japan with sis and I was so excited to be there for the second time! :D our friend, who we stayed at, was with us on one shopping trip. While I was looking around, eyeing this cure knitted Halloween wool shirt, I heard my sis tell our friend how in her last trip she had tried to say something in Japanese to a tattooer, a man, he only had replied with unamused tone, in japanese: "So, you are Niu from Finland?"

I needed to leave outside for a moment, coming on front yard of the shop. This shop building was on top of the hill, right next to a highway. I started to walk the road down a bit, seeing a flash of blue hair behind birch tree a little bit lower. When Grimmjow's whole face emerged with the body, I lifted my hand all the way up, yelling: "Ohayo, Grimmjow! Nice to see you again!"

He wore his new clothing from Bleach, smiling at me widely without showing any teeth. He also looked more or less chibi styled (face / expressions).

"Ohayo, Nei-Chan!" he loudly replied while walking towards the highway, eyeing the cars. He said something else while walking but I couldn't hear him from the passing cars so I yelled after him:

"Su-sumimasen! I didn't hear you, what you said!"

I watched him jump flat on his stomach on one passing car's bonnet, facing the driver. However, he was looking at me all happy, yelling:

"I'll see you on Saturday!"

I watched him go before some guys came at me laughing, mocking me etc. I got furious, took my bag and started to swing it at them, chasing them. Some ran inside one block building, making me yell:

"What's wrong?! Hiding behind locked doors?! You that scared of a small woman?!"

They hid, not daring to come out. I returned back to the shop building where I left in the first place, almost jumping out of my skin when tiny blue Jay flew to me. It sat on the railing, wearing knitted pink-white shirt. I wondered this shirt out loud and the bird spoke back to me. I heard his voice in my head. It wore the shirt to stay warm, but it was also tired and hungry. I didn't get to say anything when it flew around me few times, landed on my hands to rest by laying on it's back and side. I told him I would take him inside with me to look for some food to him but I told him not to leave my shoulder since I didn't know how people wouod react on a flying bird in a store. He flew around me few times, settling on my left shoulder but he had some difficulties to stay on his feet because he was so weak. I go in but the dream then got so messed up etc. that I won't even bother with it :'D

Now, Grimmjow is ALWAYS a good sign but he saying he will meet me on Saturday?? Now I'm heck curious if something will happen on Saturday or will I've another dream of him during that day.

Blue Jay is a bird which we don't have in Finland so having one in a dream is heck rare! Naturally I googled what it means spiritually it's the following:

Communication, curiosity, confidence, chasing your dreams no matter what, being bold, speak up, your own intuition and spiritual energy, you are on the right path in your life, protection, good luck, peace, harmony, powers of creation, happiness, tenacity, persistence, be brave.

All these signs are heck good, not to mention blue Jay is, in fact, sharing same colors as Grimmjow :D Blue, white and black. Definitely a message here, haha!

Thank you, Grimmjow and little blue jay! ❤️

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Toji Temple & Funaya, Kyoto, Japan

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Tumblr recommended me Blazed post with this Yuji so I wanted to share this Yuji with you all :D Yuji is here to remind you all is well, you are doing great, everything will work out for you, you are wonderful, don't give up! ❤️

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Woke up almost at 8pm yesterday. I told myself I would go to bed earlier tonight. HAH! At 1am:

"I will play Genshin a bit. Then to bed. At 3am the latest."

6 hours later at 7am: "I'll feed wild birds and then to bed."

4 hours later at 10am, still playing Genshin. Realizes I need to go feed birds - and did this.

Around 10:30am plans to go to bed but there's Ski Classics coming on TV. Gets stuck on watching them a while. Not feeling too tired so I decide to listen Aomine's song - over and over again (song last almost 5 min) while knitting. About 1,5h goes by! Clock's about 12pm now but no, I can't stop listening or knitting but I can finally change Aomine's song on Wartime Stories' videos on YouTube.

Checks clock later, realizing it's 2pm! Yeeeaaah... I guess I NOW could go and try to sleep, even few hours :'D I know I'll get killer headache if I won't sleep but at the same time I know I'll be much more grumpier if I sleep but only few hours.

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Listening in shuffle songs from my Youtube and of course there comes 2 songs from Suwabe Junichi in a row (as Suwabe himself and then as Aomine "Self-Righteousness". SAJsbjlne! Youtube got a little brain fog moment and it decided to play this Aomine song AGAIN! :'D) and at the exact same time Pinterest is showing me these :'D

Thank you for these messages, Universe, Suwabe, Grimmjow, Aomine etc. whoever is behind this! :D <3

Grimmjow Text 1 Text 2

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I also had a part in my dream where I found old "jingle" bell. Tho, it was different. The middle part was big, a bit flat, bell with bronze-red color. Beneath it was flat stone or metal. On both sides of this big middle bell was "flaps" which were raised up like wings. This right "flap" had small bell somewhere outside it. I saw it a bit and barely from the corner of my vision.

I showed this bell thing to my sister, tapping it few times. It had SO beautiful sound! So so beautiful! I'm heck picky about bells' sounds so I am glad this bell in my dream had one of the most loveliest sounds :D Even my sister in the dream said it has such good sound!

I know in Japan, for example, these tiny bells are connected to protection.

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My sleep rhythm and dreams have gone upside down once more. I can't sleep much, won't fall asleep until like 9am and dreams have been nuts or something which fades away right after waking up.

I went to bed at 2:30am since I felt tired, probably fell asleep at 3am. I had first dream where I said to myself out loud that I've slept 2 hours already. I snap awake, check my phone and I have sleep either only few minutes or 30 min at max. I fell back to sleep right after this.

I then had a dream where I was in a place which looked similar to my ex-friend's yard. There were lots of wooden stairs which lead into nothing. And black trash bags, A LOT of them! My current grandpa neighbor comes there and nags at me about the trashes even that they are not mine and I don't even live there! Some woman nags about them too. I've my parents with me but they act like they are not hearing me or others' complains.

I then am with a male. I don't see him but I feel him on my left. He's not human but he's not alien, anthro, elf etc either. I don't know what he is but he is friendly and guiding me.

He escorts me down on rusty red rock "level" which is in some kind of tiny canyon. There's rock stairs going down on the right and there's also very dark trunk tree with pink blooms. Like a cherry tree. There's also tiny cute piglet and it's SO HAPPY AND EAGER, trying to come to me constantly but I keep stepping away from it, avoiding it, even that I had invisible bubble wall around me, protecting me. This guide of mine says with a soft and smiling voice I need to stop avoiding it but in almost panicking I reply to him:

"I fear it will bite me!"

Now, I've never been around piglets, I don't know if they bite but in this dream I feared of it biting me SO MUCH! I just knew it would hurt like hell. This piglet circled me, at times too close to the edge, but during the last circling I couldn't take it anymore. I moved forward in panic, pushing the poor piglet off of the level, sending it to it's death since the fall was long, killing anyone with 100% certainty. After realizing this instantly, that I killed the poor thing, I start to cry my eyes out of my head, repeating how sorry I am, how I didn't mean to etc. This guide of mine tries to assure me the piglet is fine but I rush back on upper level where's huge... Boar man?? Apparently it was his hold who I pushed off of the level. Naturally he got furious, yelling at me something once. However, instead of punishing me or taking me with him to search his little piglet, he grabs a young boy with him instead.

Next I'm in dark and low ceiling room. It's a bit long in shape, no windows or lights. 2 doors on each side, left and right. My little brother has been taken there for a some reason and I'm there to get him back.

Both doors on my left open at the same time, light sneaking out of the rooms. There's other people with me in this room, waiting to get their kids back. Nurse's head pops out from behind both doors. I can't hear what name further nurse calls out but closest nurse says my last name. I lift my hand up, stating I'm X before walking to her. I state kindly I'm there to pick up my little brother.

This nurse looks down on me and then says I can't pick him up. I get irritated and confused, asking firmly why, adding she better have a good reason why not. She just repeats I can't pick him up.

I start to get angry. I say with low, demanding and commanding voice: "My father is the same as his, my mother is the same as his. We are siblings. So WHY I can't pick him up? Don't make any excuses." (I wanted the truth)

She keeps repeating the same shit which infuriates me since that's not truthful answer, it's lame and shitty excuse. I walk right up at her, in her personal space and look up at her, our noses almost touching.

"Why? Give me a good reason why not. Why? Why?"

I argued with her a while until she got enough and went back into the room. I, on the other hand, returned to my sister, crying my frustration and anger out, telling her I can't pick out little brother up and out of that place. I don't remember what she replied since I woke up with tears. I also checked the clock and it was around 4:30am... I haven't slept much after all, even that I thought so.

I did some googling and piglet / pigs are good signs! They represent good luck, abundance and prosperity. So... It seems like Universe, in a form of a piglet, is REALLY trying to bring me money and abundance but somehow I'm so scared, blocking it with this invisible bubble, pushing it away... Damn. I need to try find out what that bubble barrier and fear is.