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Cid in FF7 Rebirth. Sis mentioned this scene, which I had forgotten already, showing me this pic. Cid is talking about Vincent :'D

(He could come and give me the boot, I would need that to get things done, hdeulswukfr!)

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Aerith during her limit and then Zack with the costume I simply had to get to him. I LOVE that costume / outfit! I want it too!

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That first pic with Cid's ass coming through the fabric / hem / cape (orwhateveritis) which he's wearing was PURE accident pic, ahah! :'D I just wanted to get screenshots about him during his limit. Enjoy all other screenshots of him as well ~

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I REALLY like the way how Reno has been drawn in FF7 Ever Crisis <3

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Found "Jumbo Cactus / - Cactuar" in FF7 Ever Crisis :D Not only is this adorable enemy but the battles are fun! You just go and beat it as hard as you can while having 1 min and 30 sec time.

From front page you go -> Battle -> Solo -> Challenge Quests -> Max. Damage Challenge (if you have managed to open these, that is). You find this adorable thing from there :3

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Slept more or less well last night, tho I assume less since I'm having a headache which always comes then when I've not sleep well. Not to mention I feel hungry too which is VERY weird and rare feeling.

I also have very faint memory of having a dream where my father and I went to visit Cid (FF7) :'D that's what I get from playing too much Ever Crisis, haha!

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New outfit to Cid and MAN, I LOVE IT! <3 I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT, I LOVE IT! <3 I KNEW I will regret it if I won't get this outfit to him. Costs some diamonds (thank God, I've been collecting and saving them!) but I am HAPPY >//w//<

JUST LOOK AT THIS MAN! Isn't he GORGEOUS!? My inner little girl is screaming since this is the same feeling when I saw Cid for the first time in original FF7 back in the 90's. Ah, good times, good feelings <3

Cid Highwind / Final Fantasy 7 Ever Crisis (c) Square Enix

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Had weird and long dream but I will write down the end only.

I had a huge place which was some kind of mix of movie theater and amusement park of some sort. Very badly lit up place but there was a lot of people, especially in the movie theater which was on second level. This whole place was this one big open place.

Well, things happened etc and I eventually ended at the end of this white hallway, which led downwards with a curve, while hearing someone's voice nagging at me, belittling me. It was high like little demon boy's voice from cartoon. I just laid on the brown floor numb, wishing it would shut up but nothing happened. On the walls were black mirrors with white frames. Closes to me was square shaped mirror to my left, further on the right was round mirror. There was more mirrors behind them both but I didn't see them since these 2 mirrors twisted and opened.

From behind left mirror leaped out Grimmjow in his second panther form. Without saying anything, as soon as his toes touched the floor, he spun around towards me, dashed to me and scooped me up in his arms while still RUNNING, he never stopped moving. He carried me like a bride without stopping. He curved to my right / his left and kept going. I'm not sure was there open mirror which I didn't see but there had to be SOMETHING since he didn't run through a wall, return back in the mirror where he came from or run towards the top part of the hallway.

But the voice wasn't happy of Grimmjow coming to rescue me. I was rather confused too. I felt empty, staring his VERY beautiful face while thinking if this is real Grimmjow or this weird kid which I had seen before, giving me weird unsettling vibes. Like he's a shapeshifter. Tho, I think it was real Grimmjow. His energy was his own even that he looked a bit different but it could be since I haven't see this form of his before other than as a pic online.

Funny thing also is this is OLD dream visiting me. Saw this WAY over 20 years ago easily, no internet or Grimmjow back then. This is very common to me. I have seen dreams as a kid, young teen, when internet and said fictional characters didn't exist back then. Now, decades later, these dreams reappear and now I recognize characters in them.

Anyway, thank you so much for coming to my rescue, Grimmjow ♥️ I feel like I own you. Perhaps I shall give you something to your altar.

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Had to visit dad since he needed help with his new laptop. He doesn't know how to install things but otherwise he knows how to use it. I remembered how dad's spouce, years ago, once told me how none doesn't bring her flowers anymore. So, I bought her a pundle of white roses and she really loved them! :3

She and dad have this black cat who's tail's tip is white. I'm not sure is this cat 5 years old or older, still "young", tho.

I try to visit dad once a year and every year, every visit, this cat has run away and hide instantly when any visitor comes. Including me.

Today? The same thing. Nöpö saw me and ran, going outside with dad. When dad later let him in, I was sitting by the table with dad's laptop, dad coming to stand near me and watch what I was doing.

Nöpö came to dad, asking to be petted (he literally lifted his head up, pushing his chin towards dad). Nöpö got little petting before his yellow eyes turned towards me. He stared at me, I stared him before slowly reaching the back of my hand towards the floor. I was sure Nöpö would run but, for the first time ever, he came to sniff my fingers and hand, then pushing his mouth, cheeks and head against my hand over and over again, marking me! :D

I was SO HAPPY, still am! So was dad and his spouce since she has never seen Nöpö being petted by anyone else. She even said how happy she is! Heck, this cat runs away even then when her sister comes to visit! So, there I am, now daring to pet Nöpö who's giving me his butt over and over again (this is cat's way to say "as a sign of our friendship, I offer you my butt). It felt... So joyful moment to be able to pet a cat ❤️ a cat who has been running away in previous times, nonetheless! And when I wasn't petting him, he came to sniff my skirt and feet.

So I dare to assume my energy has become more positive in someway so that Nöpö dared to approach, give me a chance to prove I'm not going to hurt him or anything. It will be interesting to see how he will react next time I go there - whenever that happens. Note: I never chase the animal, no matter what breed it is. I always wait them to come to me.

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I arrived home today from sis' since she has fully healed from her surgery. As I sat in a car while mom drove towards home (1h from closest train station), I first saw 3 cranes flying, then later I saw hawk circling around in the air and then lastly there was a freaking RAVEN, blacker than darkest black, sitting on streetlight pole above the road! We drove under it so I saw it very clearly since sun was still quite high even that it was past 6pm already. My closest raven encounter ever! Heck, that's one beautiful and mystical bird! ❤️

And, as usual, I heard Billy Idol from the radio and saw number 44 countless of tines during the trip back home.

I assumed I would feel hell anxious and weird, like I always do when returning back home from a trip, but this time... I don't know what it is but I feel, very strongly but calmly, like everything's going to be alright.

And that is heck nice feeling. Don't know how long it lasts, might be gone tomorrow when I wake up, but I enjoy this serene moment now.

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Have I ever remember to mention how MUCH I like this man? I mean I freaking LOVE him in original FF7 but after that game he has been changed some. I don't smoke nor support it but I really MISS Cid's tobacco! It was the best when he used his dynamite limit, lighting up the dynamite with it! :'D

But not anymore, not in these days since his smoke / tobacco has been removed. Everything needs to be so damn censored in these days. Games were much more relaxed in the old days.

Cid Highwind, Square Enix (screenshot by me from FF7 Ever Crisis)

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Last night I dreamed about my last grandmother who passed away last December. In the dream same scene happened 3 times with little twists.

In first scene I'm standing at the front door, ready to go in when I notice my grandmom standing at the base of the stairs, looking up at me smiling. I feel happily confused and surprised since she didn't visit us often in real life. Maybe... 3 or 4 times in those 17 years we lived in that house.

Scene two. Now I rush down those stairs, going to hug her while crying, saying how happy I am to see her. Note: I never hugged her in real life nor had "normal grandma - granddaughter bond". I just knew who she was and visited her with mom at times, like once a year, and that's all.

Third scene. I am back at the front door, ready to go in. Now I'm looking at my grandmother, telling her to give me a sign so that I know it's from her. I suggest sunflower since that's rather rare and I definitely recognize it.

Well, about an hour ago I opened TV and since I'm hell picky of what I watch, I left TV on for a summer garden show. By this time I had already forgotten my request of sunflower as a sign. I'm not paying attention to the TV but at one point, when I turn to look at it, there's pretty flower arrangement and of course there's this ONE SINGLE, VERY BRIGHT, SUNFLOWER! All other flowers were very small red and purple ones.

I know my grandmother loved flowers but she couldn't keep real ones because she was very sensitive to all of their scents. But sunflower, spiritually, is a sign of faith, devotion, radiating positivity and hope. And since my grandma was smiling constantly, she knows what's coming to me. She knows all good will come to me while also seeing I'm not in the best place in life myself but yet she encourages me to hang in there. This "walking in deep shit" moment won't last forever.

Thank you, grandma and sorry I never was the best granddaughter.

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drawing wriochi next cuz i miss them

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At the Time of my Death

I've never fully understood why I feel so strongly in the manner of my death until very early this morning on a call with one of my good friends. I began to tell her how I wish to die, alone in the forest listening to the sound of wind blowing through the trees. Whatever age my death materializes makes no difference to me, as long as I have stayed true to myself, I will accept my end.

As I went on, I began to feel myself get excited at the idea of my body returning to the earth in a way in which the government would be most disappointed. I plan on disappearing, and every time I say it out loud, I'm met with uncomfortable stares and sometimes depending on who I say it to, I gain a lecture about how unfair that would be to my loved ones. Sure, whatever.

Why must people control every aspect of our lives in the name of loving us? I love you so you must... Even my own death wouldn't be mine if I allowed others to have a say in it. So much for final moments! The idea of dying in an institution meant for profit, then being placed in a plastic white bag to be brought down to a metal table, pumped full of chemicals, sounds exhausting.

Not to mention the viewing of my body in the morgue. Following with the wake, where everyone will show up in all black as if no other color exists, and cry as if losing me greatly affects how they wake up and make their coffee in the morning, ridiculous! Then there will be my subsequent burial or cremation, both are shit. Then a tombstone.

My tombstone would read something like Beloved Daughter and Mother. Is that all I amount to in this life, my titles? What about who I was? No, I'll gladly disappear into the woods and take my last moments away from prying eyes, medical supplies, and metal tables. Let my body break down into particles to enmesh with the earth the way it was intended to. Give me one final moment with the earth at the time of my death.

Source: At the Time of my Death

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words to use when writing

Appetite:

craving, demand, gluttony, greed, hunger, inclination, insatiable, longing, lust, passion, ravenousness, relish, taste, thirst, urge, voracity, weakness, willingness, yearning, ardor, dedication, desire, devotion, enthusiasm, excitement, fervor, horny, intensity, keenness, wholeheartedness, zeal

Arouse:

agitate, awaken, electrify, enliven, excite, entice, foment, goad, incite, inflame, instigate, kindle, provoke, rally, rouse, spark, stimulate, stir, thrill, waken, warm, whet, attract, charm, coax, fire up, fuel, heat up, lure, produce, stir up, tantalize, tease, tempt, thrum, torment, wind up, work up

Assault:

attack, advancing, aggressive, assailing, charging, incursion, inundated, invasion, offensive, onset, onslaught, overwhelmed, ruinous, tempestuous, strike, violation, ambush, assail, barrage, bombard, bombardment, crackdown, wound

Beautiful: 

admirable, alluring, angelic, appealing, bewitching, charming, dazzling, delicate, delightful, divine, elegant, enticing, exquisite, fascinating, gorgeous, graceful, grand, magnificent, marvelous, pleasing, radiant, ravishing, resplendent, splendid, stunning, sublime, attractive, beguiling, captivating, enchanting, engaging, enthralling, eye-catching, fetching, fine, fine-looking, good-looking, handsome, inviting, lovely, mesmeric, mesmerizing, pretty, rakish, refined, striking, tantalizing, tempting

Brutal:

atrocious, barbarous, bloodthirsty, callous, cruel, feral, ferocious, hard, harsh, heartless, inhuman, merciless, murderous, pitiless, remorseless, rough, rude, ruthless, savage, severe, terrible, unmerciful, vicious, bestial, brute, brutish, cold-blooded, fierce, gory, nasty, rancorous, sadistic, uncompromising, unfeeling, unforgiving, unpitying, violent, wild

Burly:

able-bodied, athletic, beefy, big, brawny, broad-shouldered, bulky, dense, enormous, great, hard, hardy, hearty, heavily built, heavy, hefty, huge, husky, immense, large, massive, muscular, mighty, outsized, oversized, powerful, powerfully built, prodigious, robust, solid, stalwart, stocky, stout, strapping, strong, strongly built, sturdy, thick, thickset, tough, well-built, well-developed

Carnal:

animalistic, bodily, impure, lascivious, lecherous, lewd, libidinous, licentious, lustful, physical, prurient, salacious, sensuous, voluptuous, vulgar, wanton, , coarse, crude, dirty, raunchy, rough, unclean

Dangerous:

alarming, critical, fatal, formidable, impending, malignant, menacing, mortal, nasty, perilous, precarious, pressing, serious, terrible, threatening, treacherous, urgent, vulnerable, wicked, acute, damaging, deadly, death-defying, deathly, destructive, detrimental, explosive, grave, harmful, hazardous, injurious, lethal, life-threatening, noxious, poisonous, risky, severe, terrifying, toxic, unsafe, unstable, venomous

Dark:

atrocious, corrupt, forbidding, foul, infernal, midnight, morbid, ominous, sinful, sinister, somber, threatening, twilight, vile, wicked, abject, alarming, appalling, baleful, bizarre, bleak, bloodcurdling, boding evil, chilling, cold, condemned, creepy, damned, daunting, demented, desolate, dire, dismal, disturbing, doomed, dour, dread, dreary, dusk, eerie, fear, fearsome, frightening, ghastly, ghostly, ghoulish, gloom, gloomy, grave, grim, grisly, gruesome, hair-raising, haunted, hideous, hopeless, horrendous, horrible, horrid, horrific, horrifying, horror, ill-fated, ill-omened, ill-starred, inauspicious, inhospitable, looming, lost, macabre, malice, malignant, menacing, murky, mysterious, night, panic, pessimistic, petrifying, scary, shadows, shadowy, shade, shady, shocking, soul-destroying, sour, spine-chilling, spine-tingling, strange, terrifying, uncanny, unearthly, unlucky, unnatural, unnerving, weird, wretched

Delicious:

enticing, exquisite, luscious, lush, rich, savory, sweet, tasty, tempting, appetizing, delectable, flavorsome, full of flavor, juicy, lip-smacking, mouth-watering, piquant, relish, ripe, salty, spicy, scrummy, scrumptious, succulent, tangy, tart, tasty, yummy, zesty

Ecstasy:

delectation, delirium, elation, euphoria, fervor, frenzy, joy, rapture, transport, bliss, excitement, happiness, heaven, high, paradise, rhapsody, thrill, blissful, delighted, elated, extremely happy, in raptures (of delight), in seventh heaven, jubilant, on cloud nine, overexcited, overjoyed, rapturous, thrilled

Ecstatic:

delirious, enraptured, euphoric, fervent, frenzied, joyous, transported, wild

Erotic:

amatory, amorous, aphrodisiac, carnal, earthy, erogenous, fervid, filthy, hot, impassioned, lascivious, lecherous, lewd, raw, romantic, rousing, salacious, seductive, sensual, sexual, spicy, steamy, stimulating, suggestive, titillating, voluptuous, tantalizing

Gasp:

catch of breath, choke, gulp, heave, inhale, pant, puff, snort, wheeze, huff, rasp, sharp intake of air, short of breath, struggle for breath, swallow, winded 

Heated:

ardent, avid, excited, fervent, fervid, fierce, fiery, frenzied, furious, impassioned, intense, passionate, raging, scalding, scorched, stormy, tempestuous, vehement, violent, ablaze, aflame, all-consuming, blazing, blistering, burning, crazed, explosive, febrile, feverish, fired up, flaming, flushed, frantic, hot, hot-blooded, impatient, incensed, maddening, obsessed, possessed, randy, searing, sizzling, smoldering, sweltering, torrid, turbulent, volatile, worked up, zealous

Hunger:

appetite, ache, craving, gluttony, greed, longing, lust, mania, mouth-watering, ravenous, voracious, want, yearning, thirst

Hungry:

avid, carnivorous, covetous, craving, eager, greedy, hungered, rapacious, ravenous, starved, unsatisfied, voracious, avaricious, desirous, famished, grasping, insatiable, keen, longing, predatory, ravening, starving, thirsty, wanting

Intense:

forceful, severe, passionate, acute, agonizing, ardent, anxious, biting, bitter, burning, close, consuming, cutting, deep, eager, earnest, excessive, exquisite, extreme, fervent, fervid, fierce, forcible, great, harsh, impassioned, keen, marked, piercing, powerful, profound, severe, sharp, strong, vehement, violent, vivid, vigorous

Liquid:

damp, cream, creamy, dripping, ichorous, juicy, moist, luscious, melted, moist, pulpy, sappy, soaking, solvent, sopping, succulent, viscous, wet / aqueous, broth, elixir, extract, flux, juice, liquor, nectar, sap, sauce, secretion, solution, vitae, awash, moisture, boggy, dewy, drenched, drip, drop, droplet, drowning, flood, flooded, flowing, fountain, jewel, leaky, milky, overflowing, saturated, slick, slippery, soaked, sodden, soggy, stream, swamp, tear, teardrop, torrent, waterlogged, watery, weeping

Lithe:

agile, lean, pliant, slight, spare, sinewy, slender, supple, deft, fit, flexible, lanky, leggy, limber, lissom, lissome, nimble, sinuous, skinny, sleek, slender, slim, svelte, trim, thin, willowy, wiry

Moan:

beef, cry, gripe, grouse, grumble, lament, lamentation, plaint, sob, wail, whine, bemoan, bewail, carp, deplore, grieve, gripe, grouse, grumble, keen, lament, sigh, sob, wail, whine, mewl

Moving:

(exciting,) affecting, effective  arousing, awakening, breathless, dynamic, eloquent, emotional, emotive, expressive, fecund, far-out, felt in gut, grabbed by, gripping, heartbreaking, heartrending, impelling, impressive, inspirational, meaningful, mind-bending, mind-blowing, motivating, persuasive, poignant, propelling, provoking, quickening, rallying, rousing, significant, stimulating, simulative, stirring, stunning, touching, awe-inspiring, energizing, exhilarating, fascinating, heart pounding, heart stopping, inspiring, riveting, thrilling

Need:

compulsion, demand, desperate, devoir, extremity, impatient longing, must, urge, urgency / desire, appetite, avid, burn, craving, eagerness, fascination, greed, hunger, insatiable, longing, lust, taste, thirst, voracious, want, yearning, ache, addiction, aspiration, desire, fever, fixation, hankering, hope, impulse, inclination, infatuation, itch, obsession, passion, pining, wish, yen

Pain: 

ache, afflict, affliction, agony, agonize, anguish, bite, burn, chafe, distress, fever, grief, hurt, inflame, laceration, misery, pang, punish, sting, suffering, tenderness, throb, throe, torment, torture, smart

Painful:

aching, agonizing, arduous, awful, biting, burning, caustic, dire, distressing, dreadful, excruciating, extreme, grievous, inflamed, piercing, raw, sensitive, severe, sharp, tender, terrible, throbbing, tormenting, angry, bleeding, bloody, bruised, cutting, hurting, injured, irritated, prickly, skinned, smarting, sore, stinging, unbearable, uncomfortable, upsetting, wounded

Perverted: 

aberrant, abnormal, corrupt, debased, debauched, defiling, depraved, deviant, monstrous, tainted, twisted, vicious, warped, wicked, abhorrent, base, decadent, degenerate, degrading, dirty, disgusting, dissipated, dissolute, distasteful, hedonistic, immodest, immoral, indecent, indulgent, licentious, nasty, profligate, repellent, repugnant, repulsive, revolting, shameful, shameless, sickening, sinful, smutty, sordid, unscrupulous, vile 

Pleasurable:

charming, gratifying, luscious, satisfying, savory, agreeable, delicious, delightful, enjoyable, nice, pleasant, pleasing, soothing, succulent

Pleasure:

bliss, delight, gluttony, gratification, relish, satisfaction, thrill, adventure, amusement, buzz, contentment, delight, desire, ecstasy, enjoyment, excitement, fun, happiness, harmony, heaven, joy, kick, liking, paradise, seventh heaven 

Rapacious:

avaricious, ferocious, furious, greedy, predatory, ravening, ravenous, savage, voracious, aggressive, gluttonous, grasping, insatiable, marauding, plundering

Rapture:

bliss, ecstasy, elation, exaltation, glory, gratification, passion, pleasure, floating, unbridled joy

Rigid:

adamant, austere, definite, determined, exact, firm, hard, rigorous, solid, stern, uncompromising, unrelenting, unyielding, concrete, fixed, harsh, immovable, inflexible, obstinate, resolute, resolved, severe, steadfast, steady, stiff, strong, strict, stubborn, taut, tense, tight, tough, unbending, unchangeable, unwavering

Sudden:

abrupt, accelerated, acute, fast, flashing, fleeting, hasty, headlong, hurried, immediate, impetuous, impulsive, quick, quickening, rapid, rash, rushing, swift, brash, brisk, brusque, instant, instantaneous, out of the blue, reckless, rushed, sharp, spontaneous, urgent, without warning

Thrust:

(forward) advance, drive, forge, impetus, impulsion, lunge, momentum, onslaught, poke, pressure, prod, propulsion, punch, push, shove, power, proceed, progress, propel

(push hard) assail, assault, attack, bear down, buck, drive, force, heave, impale, impel, jab, lunge, plunge, press, pound, prod, ram, shove, stab, transfix, urge, bang, burrow, cram, gouge, jam, pierce, punch, slam, spear, spike, stick

Thunder-struck:

amazed, astonished, aghast, astounded, awestruck, confounded, dazed, dazed, dismayed, overwhelmed, shocked, staggered, startled, stunned, gob-smacked, bewildered, dumbfounded, flabbergasted, horrified, incredulous, surprised, taken aback 

Torment:

agony, anguish, hurt, misery, pain, punishment, suffering, afflict, angst, conflict, distress, grief, heartache, misfortune, nightmare, persecute, plague, sorrow, strife, tease, test, trial, tribulation, torture, turmoil, vex, woe

Touch:

(physical) - blow, brush, caress, collide, come together, contact, converge, crash, cuddle, embrace, feel, feel up, finger, fondle, frisk, glance, glide, graze, grope, handle, hit, hug, impact, join, junction, kiss, lick, line, manipulate, march, massage, meet, nudge, palm, partake, pat, paw, peck, pet, pinch, probe, push, reach, rub, scratch, skim, slide, smooth, strike, stroke, suck, sweep, tag, tap, taste, thumb, tickle, tip, touching, toy, bite, bump, burrow, buss, bury, circle, claw, clean, clutch, cover, creep, crush, cup, curl, delve, dig, drag, draw, ease, edge, fiddle with, flick, flit, fumble, grind, grip, grub, hold, huddle, knead, lap, lave, lay a hand on, maneuver, manhandle, mash, mold, muzzle, neck, nestle, nibble, nip, nuzzle, outline, play, polish, press, pull, rasp, ravish, ream, rim, run, scoop, scrabble, scrape, scrub, shave, shift, shunt, skate, slip, slither, smack, snake, snuggle, soothe, spank, splay, spread, squeeze, stretch, swipe, tangle, tease, thump, tongue, trace, trail, tunnel twiddle, twirl, twist, tug, work, wrap 

(mental) - communicate, examine, inspect, perception, scrutinize

Wet:

bathe, bleed, burst, cascade, course, cover, cream, damp, dampen, deluge, dip, douse, drench, dribble, drip, drizzle, drool, drop, drown, dunk, erupt, flood, flow, gush, immerse, issue, jet, leach, leak, moisten, ooze, overflow, permeate, plunge, pour, rain, rinse, run, salivate, saturate, secrete, seep, shower, shoot, slaver, slobber, slop, slosh, sluice, spill, soak, souse, spew, spit, splash, splatter, spout, spray, sprinkle, spurt, squirt, steep, stream, submerge, surge, swab, swamp, swill, swim, trickle, wash, water

Wicked:

abominable, amoral, atrocious, awful, base, barbarous, dangerous, debased, depraved, distressing, dreadful, evil, fearful, fiendish, fierce, foul, heartless, hazardous, heinous, immoral, indecent, intense, mean, nasty, naughty, nefarious, offensive, profane, scandalous, severe, shameful, shameless, sinful, terrible, unholy, vicious, vile, villainous, wayward, bad, criminal, cruel, deplorable, despicable, devious, ill-intentioned, impious, impish, iniquitous, irreverent, loathsome, Machiavellian, mad, malevolent, malicious, merciless, mischievous, monstrous, perverse, ruthless, spiteful, uncaring, unkind, unscrupulous, vindictive, virulent, wretched

Writhe: 

agonize, bend, jerk, recoil, lurch, plunge, slither, squirm, struggle, suffer, thrash, thresh, twist, wiggle, wriggle, angle, arc, bow, buck, coil, contort, convulse, curl, curve, fidget, fight, flex, go into spasm, grind, heave, jiggle, jolt, kick, rear, reel, ripple, resist, roll, lash, lash out, screw up, shake, shift, slide, spasm, stir, strain, stretch, surge, swell, swivel, thrust, turn violently, tussle, twitch, undulate, warp, worm, wrench, wrestle, yank