#i need to really sleep. i hope i dont wake up
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doukeshi-kun · 5 months ago
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vent in the tags lol i'll delete later, that is if i remember
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risingsunresistance · 9 days ago
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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 3 months ago
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Some mild existential dread in the house today
#im just feeling reeeeally really drained#works taking a LOT out of me#like. it feels less intense day to day? or maybe im reacting less? but its still very much piling up#and im just feeling very...idk. like im still waiting for permission to live my life#except now the permission osnt coming from any one person its. having the money to docit#and the time and the energy#and i guess thats just what adult life is? waiting#and hoping#and along the way losing sight of what i even wanted in the first place because im so *tired*#idk. i definitely need a project of some kind but im struggling to settle on something and then organise it#i have stuff to do today anyway. alfie had a lil bit of emergency cash saved so i need to go shopping#and i need to tidy the kitchen and do some dishes#and have a bath and shave at some point#i also want to draw but again. struggling ti pick something and idk if ill have the executive function spare#AND i want to try and be more social and talk to folks but thats its own kind of difficult#part of me would like a disc server that just has all of my friends in it bc i find it easier to dip in and out of conversarions#but i imagine that would be weird for folks who dont know each other#idk. lot goin through my mind when all i really want is sleep#which also hasnt been...greeeeat lately#mainly because Alfie wakes me up in the mornings bc they dont like being alone but also have a very different sleep schedule to me#and can take multiple smaller naps over a day whereas i really need a solid 8 or so hours or i just. dont fully switch on#but theyre also struggling atm (mentally and also they got an injury at work AND seperately broke their foot ffs)#so they need me more and its just#this never ending cycle of SOMETHING needs my attention#and its fucking exhausting asfghfkd#but!!! we keep goin!!!!! been applying for a bunch of jobs and havent heard anything positive yet but. we keep tryin huh
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skitskatdacat63 · 1 year ago
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Oh boy I can't wait to get 5 hours of sleep before this gp 🌚
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sad-leon · 2 years ago
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Forgor to clock out but already took melatonin so even if I wanted to make that 30-45 minute round trip, I couldnt ;-;
I know its not a big deal, but the anxiety doesnt know that
This why I liked swiping my badge, much harder to forget to clock out (though also much easier to forget to clock in)
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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 10 months ago
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#so for the last like. as long as i can remember. ive had a shit sleep schedule#mostly like sleep all day and stay up all night kinda shit#but i got sick/burnt out recently and slept for almost two days straight#and somehow it reset my sleep schedule to something normal#like i went to bed at 10pm and woke up at 5am for the last few days#and i havent had to nap#and the not needing to nap is really fucking with me#like im used to waking up. feeding my dog. and then napping until i go to work#i should be napping rn. but im not tired#i dont have to get ready for work for another four hours and ive already been awake for three hours#i went to the coffee shop and to walgreens. im in real clothes instead of pajamas. i did a load of laundry#im laying in bed (its so hot i might be dying) and i just. dont know what to do with my time#im probably gonna do some cleaning and packing because im moving in two months#idk im just feeling some strange type of way because for the last few days ive been. alive#instead of sleeping my life away#its so strange. i got sick. slept for a few days. and now my biggest problem is just fixed? and i can have a life now?#its 70 degrees today and the world is my oyster. what should i do?#i have a list of chores im gonna do. i might walk to the coinstar machine so ill have money#yeah i want to do that cuz im in the negatives in my bank account but i want to get a cool drink before work today#my dad texted me this morning 'noticed your bank account is overdrawn for the second time this week. whats going on kid?'#which is such a sad text to get because i know im broke. thanks dad. lets pls ignore my financial hardships#if you want to make my dad less sad hmu for my venmo /hj#anyways ill probs do that today. get some cash so i can get a frozen lemonade from wawa or something#yknow that post thats like 'seasonal depression seems fake until its 50 degrees in march and it feels like you took a party drug'#i think thats partially whats happening here. its 70 degrees and sunny and my systems dont know what to do with that#i hope youre all having a great day that you dont sleep through. i love you!!
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bedforddanes75 · 14 days ago
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i need a shower for like 12 tomorrow and i literally dont get up until like 1 usually i feel like when you meet a teenager and piss them off about waking up late except im the moody bitch fucking teenager and im quickly getting more and more pissed off and so you tell them to do something and then everyones just fuming and its just a really bad vibe
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thatdemiboymess · 10 months ago
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Even just half-heartedly looking for work as someone who is legally blind, autistic, with no highschool diploma, GED, or degrees and who can't leave the house is a very specific kind of let-down and disappointment that just really makes a person depressed.
#irl#vent#suicidal ideation#i am a money sink and a financial burden and trying to look for ways to fix that turns up nothing!!!#society abandons those who cannot work!!! and i sure do seem to be unemployable!!!#like#i would need a work from home job that doesnt require a highschool diploma ged or a degree that i can do as someone who is legally blind#at the LEAST#even just being a cashier at pet smart requires a fucking highschool diploma!!! and i cant even do that sort of work anymore!!!#i dont have any fancy little talents or areas of expertise either!!! i cant code i suck at source work i cant do graphic design!!!#what am i supposed to do#can someone just like put me down like a sick animal or smth at this point#because i feel like all i amount to at this point is a burdensome and childish good for nothing waste of space#and an additional source of stress and disappointment for everyone who has ever cared about me or had hopes for my future#sincerely feel like everyone who knows me would be better off if i were dead#no one would have to take care of me then - theyd be free of any burden i put on them#hell considering how few people i talk to and how little o do talk to ones i DO talk to they probably wouldnt even notice i were gone#and once they did they probably wouldnt be upset for long at all if they would be upset to begin with#my partner would be free to find a smaller more affordable place to live or could even get a car and live in it as he thought of doing#before if i werent around being a little needy whiny bitch#seriously whats even the fucking point#im so tired of just...fucking everything.#i dont talk about it much but i really do just feel like shit all the fucking time man#and i feel so fucking powerless and like i have no control of my life too#should probably be in therapy still but i just know theyd force me into the psych ward again#not that talk therapy would do shit for me anyways tho#i dunno#im tired and sad and hopeless and i just wanna go to sleep and not wake up again#not that it matters or anything though lololol
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cheryap · 11 months ago
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ive gotten well damnginto this song
#if its meant to happen it'll#happy anyway#im just two days into college and im three lectures behind. theres this guy lets name him colin he says he wants to be mine. but it doesnt#really sit with me quite right cause he doesnt really like the things i likeand i keep accidentally locking myself outta my dorm in the#middle of the night. i wake up kinda wired and i wake up kinda cold and i wake up kinda tired but i'll just sleep in when im old. see i don#like breaking rules but dont like doing as im told so i just float around and hope my life unfolds. everybodys tellin me that im doing so#well i try to believe them honestly i kinda find it hard to tell. if i need work or i need rest to try my best to try my best to tell mysel#i say out loud “its fine i'll figure it all out”#i tend to forget. im only still quite young. in a way this life of mine has only just begun ive got time. ive got time. im two days into#college with a busy; busy mind. that guy that we named colin he's so handsome hes so kind. my friends tell me im crazy that i'll take it wa#too far. cause i told him that its over because he doesnt play guitar. im only two days into college and my bedroom is a mess#theres just so much that i want to do that i have not done yet. theres just so much want i say but far too little breath#on my mind it runs so far away its easy to forget. that to everybody else it looks like im doing so well. i try to see it honestly i find i#hard to tell. if ive done wrong or ive done right. i need a goodnight's sleep tonight. they say “go out” i said “alright”#i think i wont i maybe might i probably should just take it slow. i'll be good but god i know. the one thing that's important above#everything else: is to learn not to put all this heavy pressure on myself. i try to believe it when i say i'll be fine. ive got time. ive g#two days into college#yes i typed all that hehe#cheryap#Spotify
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fairiily · 5 months ago
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|| why you keep waking up in your cr
i saw a girl make a tiktok about this and i thought it was a really interesting idea so i wanted to share it with you!
i think we can all agree that one of the biggest ideas on shiftblr is that all you need is intention
but i also think a lot of people can agree with me when i say: “if intention is all you need, why do i keep waking up in my cr?”
ill relate it to lucid dreaming.
most people who want to lucid dream use reality checks as a method to do so
you reality check throughout the day so your subconscious remembers while youre dreaming
maybe it doesnt work the first night you go to sleep, but you keep reality checking as part of your routine until your subconscious remembers too.
another girl related it to birth control
she used to have an alarm set everyday for 1pm to take the pill
eventually, she didnt need the alarm anymore, because her subconscious remembered that around that time of day, she needed to take her birth control pill
its the exact same way with shifting
you set intention to shift before you go to sleep, and you wake up in your cr again
“but i set intention! why am i still here?”
you begin to doubt yourself, in your abilities to shift, that maybe intention doesn’t actually work.
but it does.
sometimes it just takes a little longer for your subconscious to remember the intention you set, for the intention to stick.
many people’s shifting success stories happen when they go to sleep like any other night
they don’t intentionally do a method or set the intention of shifting, but they wake up in their dr.
how does that work?
after going to sleep and setting your intention night after night after night, your subconscious starts to do it on its own.
like reality checking during dreams, or setting an alarm to take a pill
your subconscious doesn’t have eyes, it is something that has to be trained, all it knows is what you tell it.
not everything can be mastered on the first try, you just have to keep trying.
moral of the story is:
intention is real. and its important. dont give up on yourself. keep setting intention. keep going to sleep knowing you will wake up in your dr.
one day you will.
i hope this helped or resonated with some of you, because when i heard about this idea, it gave me a lot of hope that im not doing anything wrong, my subconscious is just taking a little while to catch up.
happy shifting!
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uzurakis · 8 months ago
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megumi and yuuji falling asleep on the reader (pre dating era or established relationship) and the others teasing the reader abt it bc everyone knows they're in love <333 have an amazing day ahead bb 🫶🏼
DOZING OFF ON YOUR SHOULDER . .
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featuring: fushiguro megumi. itadori yuuji. gojo satoru. yuuta okkotsu.
n. thanku for your req nonnie ^v^ i added other characters cs i dont wanna waste ur idea, most of these are pre-dating and gojo’s part took place when he was still in hs with the rest. hope ya like it !
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ITADORI YUUJI
the soft glow of the tv illuminated the room as the four of you huddled together on the bed, engrossed in the movie playing before you. yuuji sat beside you, his eyes glued to the screen as the plot thickened. you couldn't help but steal glances at him, his features softened by the flickering light.
as the movie reached its climax, you felt a weight lean against your shoulder. you turned to see yuuji, his eyes closed in peaceful slumber, his head now resting comfortably on your shoulder. nobara noticed and couldn't resist a playful grin. "well, well, looks like someone's found a comfy pillow," she teased, nudging megumi with her elbow. megumi chuckled calmly, his gaze switching between you and the screen. "seems like itadori’s enjoying the movie a little too much."
you felt your cheeks flush at their teasing, unsure of how to react. "he must have been really tired," mumbling, trying to hide your embarrassment.
nobara only gave you a wink, "or maybe he just wanted an excuse to get closer to you." subsequently, you gave her a playful stare, hoping to deflect the attention away from you. "you're reading too much into it, kugisaki."
despite your attempts to downplay the situation, the thought of yuuji sleeping near you made you feel warm. as the movie went on, you found yourself stealing looks at him, unable to shake the fluttering feeling in your chest.
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FUSHIGURO MEGUMI
the four of you were alone with just the gentle hum of the engine as the car moved through the peaceful streets. megumi sat beside you in the backseat, his eyes heavy with sleep after a long day of exorcising curses. whereas infront of you, yuuji and nobara chattered away, their voices blending into the night air.
the man leaned against you, his head drooping lower and lower until it finally came to rest on your shoulder. you couldn't help but smile, feeling the warmth of his breath against your neck. "looks like someone's had a long day, hm?” you whispered, gently shifting to make him more comfortable.
yuuji turned to look back, a sly smile growing on his face. "aww, how adorable both of you!"
nobara then laughed, delight glinting in her voice. "looks like he finally warmed up for you."
"shh, you'll wake him up!" you said to shut them up.
but it was too late. the sudden burst of light from nobara's phone camera flash flooded the car, causing megumi to jolt awake with a start. he blinked owlishly, confusion written all over his face as he realized where he was.
"sorry guys," nobara said, trying to contain her laughter. "but i gotta send this to gojo-sensei.” yuuji immediately chimed in, continuing nobara’s teasing. "they’re so over once he sees this photo."
megumi's cheeks flushed a deep shade of red as he straightened up, rubbing his eyes sheepishly. "i-i didn't mean to fall asleep," the words jumbled from his mouth. you reached out to gently squeeze his hand, giving him an understanding smile. "it's okay, megumi. you needed the rest."
he glanced up at you, his eyes softening with gratitude. "thank you.”
with a contented sigh, megumi settled back against you, his head once again finding its place on your peaceful shoulder.
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GOJO SATORU
gojo sat next to you on the train going home whilst geto and shoko stood across. the man beside you leaned back against the seat as the train lurched into action, his eyelids getting heavier by the second. before long, his head tipped just enough to rest against your shoulder as he fell into a quiet sleep.
geto raised an eyebrow at the sight of you both, a knowing smirk playing on his lips. "if i were you, i’d shrug him off. right, shoko?”
“that’s mean, suguru,” shoko chuckled softly, rolling her eyes. "it's like they planned it all along."
"it's just a coincidence, guys," you stammered, embarrassed by their words.
geto chortled, shaking his head in amusement. "sure, sure. we believe you." then shoko slowly leaned closer, whispered a penny of thought.
"although, i have to admit, you two do look pretty cute together."
you shot her a glare, trying to ignore the redness spreading through you at the thought of gojo sleeping beside you. "damn, you guys really gotta stop with the teasing."
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OKKOTSU YUUTA
the soft rustle of leaves filled the air as yuuta and you lounged beneath the shade of a grand oak tree, its branches swaying gently in the breeze. you felt yuuta's head slowly come to rest on your shoulder.
but you and yuuta’s moment of peace was soon interrupted by the approach of familiar voices. maki, inumaki, and panda emerged from the nearby path, their laughter echoing through the clearing as they spotted you both.
maki surveyed the sight in front of her, knowing what to tease already, prodding inumaki and panda with her elbow, "can you really be asleep that fast?" panda added his cheery voice and inumaki nodded in accord. "maybe he’s just pretending to—."
your eyes darting between them in an anxious manner. as you objected, trying not to look embarrassed, "hey, tone it down.”
but maki wasn't convinced. with her usual grin of mischief, she stepped forward and gently shook yuuta awake. "come on, sleepyhead. you can't just doze off on someone like that." yuuta blinked groggily, his eyes adjusting to the sudden light. the man glanced up at you, a smile spreading across his face as he realized his position. "sorry about that," he said, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
you couldn't help but laugh along with them, the warmth of the friendship washing over you as wondered, did he really fall asleep that easily though?
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@uzurakis — rqs are open <3
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icarusredwings · 5 months ago
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Thinking about Logan getting really worried when Wade's (metaphorical) mask comes off and he's not the guy dancing on the bar, making boob jokes and kicking people in the face but rather the one with his face in the toilet at the club, promising he's okay while still struggling with the side effects that come with cancer.
"No no, really its fine! Go on, go have fun ill be out in a second!"
And being the emotionally closed off manly man that Logan is, doesn't press about it but still waits outside by the door, not letting people in the bathroom, ending up causing a bar fight because hed rather get punched in the jaw then let someone see Wade like that and embaress him.
Thinking about him coming home with groceries and finding him dead asleep on the couch, but the kind of sleep that looks like it was taken by force rather than comfy. The kind where you pass out because your body has had enough and just coming to check on him every couple of minutes before eventually sitting next to him and just waits until he wakes up.
Al can't see. But she's had a smug look on her face ever since Logan has walked in the door because she can hear him walking back and forth to go check on her room mate.
"You're really worried about him, ain't you?"
"What?"
"He's fine, you know. He does that. Go on. Go do what ever it was you angry men do."
But he doesn't go. He stays put. Like a loyal dog at his owners death bed, hoping if he stares enough, he'll get better. Eventually, he falls asleep too And Al is going to tease them both about this for the next month. She took photos to prove it.
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Soon enough, it evolves into him picking up tasks so that Wade can rest but refuses to tell him why. He doesn't want to embarrass him and make it feel like a big deal.
"Alright. Well, I'm gonna go walk mary puppins. You want anything from the bodega?"
"No.. actually.. could I walk her? I can take her. Being in this apartment is killing me."
"What need to get your steps in or something?"
"Something like that."
"Ah I get it. Wild cat needs to prowl. Well alright. But dont be taking our baby to any skanks house! Shes too innocent!"
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kittysarchive · 5 months ago
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Round two, Enhypen
poll winner!
warnings- smut, begging, second round, cuming inside, tired reader, needy enhypen, kinda safe sex? (in jungwons), ot6, lmk if i missed anything :)
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Heeseung
Pulling out of your pussy, his cum seeped out along with his cock. Slightly hard and still not satisfied, Heeseung needed a second round.
"Please..." Heeseung whispers, bambi eyes showing as his cocks becomes harder by the second. Cathcing your breath, you wanted what a second round, but you still wanted to hear him beg.
"I dont think I can" You lie, sinking your head into the pillow behind you. Heeseung goes quiet, trying to think of ways to get you to say yes.
"You can just be my pillow princess yeah? Just let me fuck your pussy again" Heeseung gets closer to you, trying to look into your eyes. With is cock throbbing, he begs you once more.
"Please baby, I'll make you cum again" You nod your head, allowing Heeeung to re enter your pussy which was filled with his cum.
"Thankyou, thankyou" He mutters, pushing his cock into your warm pussy, ready to fill you up once more.
Jay
"No no no...shit" Jay curses as he fills your pussy with his cum. His cheeks show a small blush of embarrassment for cuming to early.
"Please baby...one more round" Jay breaths out, stroking his soft cock, waiting for it to become hard again.
"if you make me cum again" You say with a smirk, hoping Jay takes he challenge.
Jake
Mouth wrapped around his cock, you had only been sucking him off for a few minutes before he filled your throat with his cum. Taking his cock out of your mouth, Jake curses above you.
"Shit....shit.....Again baby? I thought I'd last longer to fuck your pussy" Jake whines above you, fist fucking his cock in hopes of becoming hard again.
Getting off your knees you nod your head, you really wanted him to fuck your pussy.
Sunghoon
"Oh come on" Sunghoon groans. Having taken his cock quickly out of your pussy, he hadn't expected to actually cum on your stomach. He was still full of energy, he needed another round.
"Can you take another round?" Sunghoon asks, hoping for a yes. Staying quiet, you were already out of your energy.
"I'll go slow yeah? You can even try to sleep" Sunghoon is desperate, finding ways you can enjoy the second round. Trying to hold back your laugh you nod your head.
"Stick to your promise" Tired and sore body, you didn't want to wake up to more bruises. Sunghoon nods his head fast as enters your wet pussy.
Sunoo
"No no no" Sunoo throws his head back onto the pillow behind him. While you were riding him, he lost control and came inside you.
"Please....can I go again?" Sunoo begs, sitting up. You hop off his cock, not wanting to ride him again, you were to tired, you used all your energy to make him cum....but he wasn't satisfied.
"I'll....I'll fuck you yeah? You just lie down" Sunoo gets on top of you, but waits for your answer.
"Go ahead" You reply, feeling your pussy become wet again.
Jungwon
"W-what?" Jungwon was at a lost for words. Cock still throbbing in your pussy, but he feels his cum seeping out. Your chest was heaving up and down, there was a slim chance you could go again. Reaching over you, Jungwon grabs a condom, ready to pull it over his cock.
"Can I go again? I won't cum inside you?" You weekly nod your head.
"Y/N?" Jungwon waits for you to verbally confirm.
"Yeah....go ahead" You sigh. Although you were tired, you still wanted another round, you still wanted to cum and you still wanted to fill his cock inside you.
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shouyuus · 20 days ago
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I’m ngl.. I have modern!Vi on the brain a little too much lately
I’ve been really struggling with life recently and all I can think about is how Vi would be the absolute perfect cuddle buddy when the world is caving in
Need some hugs and kisses from her asap
:(( 🩷🩷
(I love your page. Your writing? Chefs kiss)
this is hella late u__u but thank u so much anon! also i hope u dont mind that i twisted it a bit to be a period!fic! @vifilms i hope ur feeling better bby! sfw; college roommate!vi cinematic universe
“hey sweets, i was gonna go grab a bite at jericho’s do you wanna — hey… what’s wrong?” vi’s expression shifts as she peers around your doorway to find you heaped beneath a fortress of blankets, your hair barely a smear of color amidst the rumpled sheets.
“nothing — ‘m fine — you go and have fun though!” your voice is muffled by your pillows but vi’s already by your bed, gently peeling back the covers, concern knitting her brows as she looks you over.
“are you sick? do you need anything?”
you grimace as another sharp jab of pain ricochets up your belly.
“n-no just — cramps…” you murmur, attempting to stifle a groan as you shove your face into the pillows.
“oh doll…” vi gently nudges you over to settle on the edge of the bed, reaching out to run her fingers through your hair, “those are the worst,” she coos, tracing a finger along your cheek. you nod, leaning into her touch.
“it’s okay — happens every month,” you smile weakly at her, “you think that i’d be used to it by now.”
vi laughs, shaking her head, “pain is pain, and this is some of the worst. i remember when i was 15, i fractured a rib getting into a fight with some of the neighborhood boys, and even then — it wasn’t as bad.” she nudges you over a bit more to squeeze onto the tiny twin bed with you, looping you into her arms.
there’s a certain kind of comfort in being held, the warmth of her like sunlight, coaxing your attention away from the discomfort as you close your eyes and sink into the cadence of her words.
“i thought… you were going to jericho’s?” you ask, nuzzling into her side as your bodies shift to accommodate each other.
“mm, i was just gonna grab a bite there and i was kinda hopin’ you would join me,” she grins, pressing her lips absently into your hair, “but since you can’t and delivery apps are a thing…” she trails off, her fingers soothing as they inch beneath your sweatshirt to run soft circles into your skin.
"sorry..." you say, snuggling in closer.
"why're you sorry?"
"cause... you wanted to go to jericho's with me..."
vi chuckles, "yeah, cause i like spending time with you. doesn't matter to me where though."
you soften against her, the steady rhythm of her pulse lulling you into a comforting half-sleep.
"we can order delivery from there," you murmur, letting her run her fingers through your hair, her breath even as she nods, and you feel the shift of her body against yours.
"we can, but i think a hot compress and some ginger tea might be what you need the most right now."
you pout, shaking your head, "no... don't leave."
vi laughs again, "'m not going anywhere, sweet girl. not even if you want me to."
you grin, "promise?"
vi presses a kiss to your forehead, "promise. i'll be right here when you wake up."
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sensitivegoblin · 2 years ago
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Birthday vent
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mitamicah · 3 months ago
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Ngl I feel like I'm gonna screw up with my contact person at the internship soon. My luck has been way too good, and so it will have to come down with a vengence at some point, and I can see many signs pointing to this becoming the straw that breaks the camel's back :'3
We'll be upping my hours and extending my internship which is all well and good ... however, given that I didn't expect having my internship after november 15 I now have at least 2 shifts that I would like to rearrange (being top op consultation on november 22, participation in study on november 26, plus if we extend once more I have to ask for time off for the zagreb- plus the polish trip in december 2-4 and december 16-18 but honestly the last two is probably easier to ask for vacation if I am not out too late for that).
I have been feeling like a failure in adulting since the meeting this morning where I was told to probably keep the concert going to a minimum and accept that being an adult means having responsibility and now what do I have to do? Write to my contact person again asking for more changes just because we switched the days around.
I am really scared I might have to cancel either Zagreb or the polish trips. I really don't want to but I don't want to test my boss and her patience too much either if it means I'd never be allowed to change shifts around again ever.
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Had my second meeting about how it goes on the internship and it was really positive (to the point I almost cried of being praised so much); however my mind decided that this was the two most important things and it just goes to show how one can always rethink things into critic (even tho I knew both already it hurts to be reminded 😅)
1) I am not far from ambitious enough and it is bad that Idk what I dream of in terms of work
2) my safe space with going to concerts is irresponsible and I should be better at keeping it to weekend or holidays
#back to this movie having perfect gifs for my angst moments#I really hope I am worrying for nothing but I fear that my luck is running low#at some point it will turn and after the meeting I dread the incoming backlash more than ever#I cannot state enough how seeing K and JO and the fans means to me - being with you is one of the times I feel most alive#however I want my healthcare too and the top op surgery is one I have wanted to have for what seems like forever#how can I tell my boss that already having asked (and admitted it was because of concerts - you know like an idiot) for changes of shifts#twice within two weeks#and now it seems like I'd have to do the same for november#ffs#I hate this#I hate confrontations#rejection sensitivity dysphoria is in high gear#please let this turn out okay#I really dont want to jeopadize this internship since people are so nice and lenient and easy going#and if I fail at this because my priorities are whack am I then back to failing at adulthood/life?#if only I could wake up tomorrow having already asked and gotten a go ahead#I also need to speak with my social worker about how to book vacation#and hear how much I was allowed again#bc if I end up taking a week (3 days for each trip) will that ruin my possible top op recovery time?#will I have the option to book time off around my birthday in case the boys actually have a concert by then?#am I stupid for not thinking about this before? probably#i should go to bed but I am afraid I won't be sleeping well#for once not because of happy pre concert nerves but because of this#I am venting again#micahs thoughts
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