#i need this for the pain to come lol

[etrevil]

I just can't get enough of the new episode like, goddamn. I love it.

Cutting to the chase, the back and forth between who's topping the other - Agency and DOA addition - was such a nerve-wracking succession of scenes even as a manga reader. Like, yes I know how this ends, yes I know there isn't much to be worried about,

but then the New Order pilots come into play. And then suddenly, the blondie's bleeding and the cool eyepatch is dead. Okay, I get that: poison, simple. Wait, what do you mean Fyodor did that? Is it still poison? Is it his ability? Is it something else?

-was my first reaction concerning the manga, and the shake of emotions reappeared watching episode six, and I adore it for that.

It threw me onto my toes, kept me up like I was in heels, and I love how Teruko and Tecchou come in with a military vehicle, and Tecchou shouts out his wonderful "setchudai!" while Jouno's probably out there somewhere as a vampire. Can't wait for him to say, "I will put Jouno above justice," because I will froth at the mouth.

Anyways, Ranpo's dialogue was such a delight and stress-inducer to hear. I was so, so worried even after I read the manga. 'cause he sounded so confident before the pilot-escorts got taken care off, and Fukuchi got his hands on the New Order. Are they screwed? Is everything fucked now?

This scene,

did nothing to help, because it's good, beautiful with its colors, and just reminded me how much of a truly dangerous character he is. In prison, yet still aiding his allies for his own means.

And when I was watching the new episode, the line, "If we'd made just one more mistake, we would have lost the One Order," had turned me upside down. I was confused at first. I thought Ranpo would be shakes up, panicking even- but no. He said this with certainty in his voice. And Fukuchi's wide-eyed expression was the cherry on top.

Because this was when I remembered another bastard in prison, aiding his allies for Yokohama's safety:

DAZAI HOLY SHIT, I had literal chills when this scene came up in both the manga and anime. This man really is on par with Fyodor, and I was fooled by their silly little life counseling in mersault.

And gosh, I gotta appreciate how similar yet different these two scenes between Dazai and Fyodor are. Both are looking over their shoulder, but Fyodor stays in his position and half of his face is hidden. Dazai, on the other hand, starts with his back. Then he turns towards us, fully showing his face with that hella pretty smile of his, and these small differences really just make me love how the two are like the antithesis of one another.

Both are labeled demons, and yet one sought out the light and is now doing his best to protect the home he's found from his alike, who wishes to burn the whole world down for his belief.

The cut to the opening song was just, so good.

Anddd I think I'm done... still jumping all over the walls though :D

This ain't an analysis or anything fancy tbh, just me geeking out about bsd episode six (the first half of it) 'cause I love this story so much, and I needed to get this vibrating thought out my head and into readable words.

Might make another one for the episode's second half idk

[inluvwcaitvi]

vi yap session/analysis bc i’m tired of ppl glossing over her wonderful complexities as a character ✌️

okay so one thing i feel like some ppl gloss over or don’t realize when it comes to vi is that her eagerness and preparedness to fight is literally a trauma response. she is not just fighting just bc she necessarily wants to, or just bc she feels like picking a fight w someone for wtv reason.

it’s the reason she slapped powder and called her a jinx in ep 3– becoming angry in order to physically defend herself (or others) from what she perceives to be the problem is one of her main coping mechanisms/trauma responses. it’s natural for her brain to react this way. unfortunately, in her alr traumatized and deeply wounded state, she saw powder as the problem in that moment and was only able to realize her grave mistake a little too late.

i’ve said before that i believe that vi could have a stockholm syndrome-like attachment to violence/fighting which specifically occurred after years of being abused in prison (it was there before that but not to the same extent it is now).

when things feel familiar, sometimes they’ll start to eventually feel comfortable and become a normal, everyday part of ur life w/o u entirely realizing it. vi had alr been prone to violence as a teenager (again, trauma response) even before she went to jail. the shit that happened to her only increased it, hence the vi we see throughout the series.

what makes it even more sad to me was that vander had tried to teach her that violence isn’t the answer, and that it isn’t going to solve her problems— and she tried to do it his way. she genuinely did. she summoned the enforcers to benzo’s shop and was planning to let herself be peacefully arrested.

but then, ofc, as u know, everything goes wrong, and vander’s life lesson has is almost instantly turned on its head, and vi has to return to what she knows, using violence to protect herself and her loved ones, in order to survive silco’s assault and protect her family.

even more, she gets sent to prison and is literally trapped w some of the worst murderers and offenders in both zaun and piltover. she has to defend herself from both the other inmates, the wardens, and the guards/enforcers. using violence to defend herself from abuse, as a transaction, as a way to communicate and to get what you want, to even just survive the next day, etc. becomes even more ingrained into her head at a greater intensity for the next 6-8 years straight.

she rly did try to listen to vander and do things his way, but it was too late and the circumstances she was put in gave her no choice but to stay stuck in the same ideology in order to survive.

and what happens when she finally gets out? more fighting, ofc. she’s practically been conditioned to do so.

ik this is kinda long atp, but my entire point is that vi is way more complex than she’s given anywhere near enough credit for. too many ppl write her off as “me angry, me punch” and it was funny at first but it’s become a genuine mischaracterization and it’s rly annoying lmao.

anyways, i might do more vi analysis like this in the future that talk abt her largely ignored and tragically well-written complexities more.

[littencloud9]

bsd fandom has always mischaracterised kunikida to hell and back but the fact that i am seeing SO MUCH hate for his character right after his 'death' is insane

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

[fisheito]

my princess nonsense is being encouraged watch ouyt imabout to be eneaabled

OK WHATF ATHAT'S SO CUTE I HAD TO MAKE IT i know realistically there's little to no chance that rei DOESN'T know how to work heels 🤣 BUT IMAGINE.....ING.... YAKUMO GENTLY GUIDING REI IN HEELS, WEEKS BEFORE THE BIG GALA AND HAVING NONE OF HIS NORMAL FEAR OF PHYSICAL TOUCH BC HIS [TEACHER MODE] IS OVERRIDING HIS INSECURITY

[uncanny-tranny]

It's evil that you can be in pain while doing nothing. What do you mean my body is damaged and shouldn't be used in certain ways, I'm literally doing NOTHING what more can you WANT.

[blairamok]

it's been a little over two weeks since my Bad Fall and i'm finally feeling relatively okay, that was probably one of the worst things i have put my body through... for a solid week it was simply agonizing to just lay down and breathe lmao.

also i have some good tooth news, i still have my temporary crown but it was giving me so much grief, i had to see my dentist again. he did some stuff to it and gave me some meds and so far i'm relatively painless so i hope whatever he did sticks. only downside is the medicine gives me so much energy it's almost overstimulating and then i crash very hard so... that's gonna be fun for the next few days.

i just have some major catching up to do but i am on the mend i think

[ef-1]

girlhood

[yuseirra]

Onk spoilers*****

I had people contact me about 159 and GUYS...you have to trust this guy who Ai's loved with all her heart. Think about the songs...he doesn't regard his own life very high. He'd do ANYTHING, he'd lie with all his might, he's a liar... If that means he can bring her back. That's what he's trying to do and Aqua is there trying to prevent him from doing so.

Hehe more in the read more: I will have to see the actual chapter in full but here's what I think from what I picked up:

And it really DOES seem like.. Kamiki didn't play a part in Ai's murder. It REALLY was nino and ryosuke and they were the ones who collaborated. This means, Kamiki really could have just had the address slip out by pure mistake and that had a butterfly effect, making him feel guilty about everything. I honestly wouldn't take it any other way if I were to ship Ai and him together and I'd been drawing things all along with that as the basis. He's just like Aqua who's trapped in guilt for things he isn't so responsible for.

Yesterday I wrote a soft, tender and melancholic post as an analysis and what I picked up today (I honestly still have no clear idea of what the heck is going on lol, I could vaguely make out the words people tell me-I may be missing out BIG chunks and I NEED to see the facial expressions and stuff) made me burst out laughing, it's ridiculous and hilarious, even.. But it does make sense if it's this way.

The fact that Ai wants to HELP him and how Aqua mentions he has to HELP him now all connects so nicely together. I think there IS a reason why there were scenes where Kamiki called himself a liar as a child. He's still lying, but this time, as the bad guy who deserves to die because he doesn't want anyone to worry or care about him at all. He's really good at it in a meta sense, I bet people are going wild anticipating him as the true villian and the final boss but think about it, what is there for him to even lie about?? The lie, I think, is the fact that he told Aqua he's a psychopathic murderer who tried to scare Ai for having dumped him, leading to her death. He didn't do any of it, and only said those because he wanted to be avenged.. He can't forgive himself for having caused Ai to be attacked even if it's not really his fault. He doesn't want his children to feel bad about getting back at him for it. Aqua's saying he's insane for lying about stuff like this for this reason to his OWN SON.

Aqua should not approach Kamiki like this if he's the guy that's hurt Ai. He's weirdly lenient with him. And he says he's going to help him. You can't "help" a terrible murderer, especially the one that's killed your lovely mother.

As someone who's been drawing the hikaai ship w passion, I have a responsibility to grab kamiki by the collar and kick his butt really strong if he turns out to be a maniac 😊 no worries. But I don't think it's going to be that way, actually. He's lying in desperation because he's found Ai really loved him back; he can really cross lines now if it means she'll live. He wants to die in her place, that's what I'm guessing. He's really similar to aqua in some aspects. He's okay about being regarded as a terrible person as long as he can protect the ones he loves.

This is perfect in my opinion. If it goes in the direction I anticipate, it makes full sense. There must be some way to exchange a life for another. Kamiki wants to go through with it for Ai but Ai stops him with the help of her children even beyond death.

And you know what? I was beginning to think wait.. Did nino and ryosuke date? After the latest chapter but I didn' t write that because there was no solid basis but like, that turned out to be true,

I'm... Starting to get really confident about character analyses when it comes to this comic, everything escalates SO FAST and I can't predict what actions they take, but I feel like I can sense what kind of emotions they have when they do something.

So if this isn't it, I'll be. Then I'll actually feel more relaxed since I'll be able to watch without getting so attached to what they will be feeling, it'd be unpredictable for me and I'll just watch it for pure entertainment, there won't be any more analysis I make that will...be right.

I'll still be glad I've read this even if it ends up like that, though, it's made me think about a lot of things. I really come to love Ai so much as a character, and from what I see, everything will be as she wishes in the story of onk in the very end. I'd like to see it happen and I will root for it!

[crisp-art]

𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘶𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘥 𝘮𝘺 𝘥𝘢𝘥...

𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙣𝙚𝙙 𝙢𝙮 𝙫𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙖𝙜𝙚!

[tragedycoded]

Neck arthritis is kicking my ass and I puked up my meds this morning so I'm still in pain and I can't fix what's wrong with DMLS.

[stealurheartsandiego]

Based on this fic. I kinda wanted to do art for it. (Also a present for the author). might to more of these "gifts" for other authors. ALSOO i focused on my coloring for once so this piece is def my fav at the moment.

[jrueships]

r u the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u buy whatever little thing u want as an adult and struggle with saving for the big mandatory thing,

or the grew up poor never being able to buy the little things in life u always wanted as a kid so now u just never buy anything small bcs u had to learn to live without it and constantly try to save for the next big thing in 500 yrs

[brown-little-robin]

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[sysig]

Blusters in, flusters out (Patreon)

[tricoufamily]

once again thinking about how easy it would be for me to be in a relationship if i was cis